the very touch of you burns and erodes and breaks me but i let it happen. because what's fire without destruction? what's a high without a shattering fall? what's me without the torture of you?
what am i without the skin that keeps me prisoner, the muscles that refuse to contract, the brain and aching bones all struggling to do something they are not able to do?
i will endure it all for some hope of the future- or the present- or the past. i will cry and scream until i can't even pray for the past- or the present- or the future.
cause if a high means a fall, doesn't a fall mean a high? (as long as i survive the fall, that is.)
how long do i wait for it? for you? hoping for something that may never come. when do i admit to myself that there's nothing there- that i am too much of a low to be worthy of such a high?
when do you even come in? why do you? with all your flame and your storm and your body that obeys you. when do i let myself get hurt by someone like you? why would i ever?
you're so powerful it's dangerous. so why do you even bother with my tired hollow bones? why do i wish you bothered more. even through all the tears that fell from my eyes to that soaked carpet and broke the leveled ground between us. even through the nights that i hated your face, tied down with it's hope of something better.
the very touch of you shatters me. but i guess in some way, you were right, i could never have been be better off without you.
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Talk to me about Vladimir Krytov.
sure thing!!! there’s never a wrong time for an adorable younger brother figure 🥰 (at least, Krutov has really strong younger brother energy to me...)
look at this precious bean 🥺🥺 he’s so adorable!!! I would so so give him a hug and try to make him smile because he deserves it 💝💝 what is he looking at? and is that Slava on the right??? does Vova know theyre going to be really close one day? xD
I have to say, Vova looks confused in a lot of photos he’s in, and in a way that adds to the adorable younger brother energy 🥺🥺 (can someone still explain to him whatever’s going on? xD) and he has such nice blue eyes!!! he’d probably get a little shy about being complimented but, he deserves all the nice things!!!!
here’s another pic in which he (probably unknowingly) goes 🥺 and it really makes you want to give him a hug... even if he’s carrying that trophy and those little flowers... 💕💓💘💕💞💘
a bonus factoid: on Discord, I once referred to Vova as “an absolute fuckin cinnamon UNIT” and it stuck xD he was nicknamed the Tank... but he’s also a cinnamon roll... so why not both? it fits so well for him 🥺🥺
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