#everything is aggravated

[thebibliosphere]

I think the most annoying thing about when my neck injury from the chiropractor flares up, is that it feels like cracking my neck will fix it.

It feels like if I just move right or stretch it far enough the permanent tension at the base of my skull will ease and my head will stop feeling like it’s a half inch too high on one side. (The misalignment is mere millimeters but it feels like a lot more. Feels like someone’s driven a shim between my skull and the atlas at the top of my spine.)

It won’t, of course. Because it’s not a too tight muscle making my head sit wonky. It’s protective scar tissue. Scar tissue that helps splint the area and keeps my skull from cronching my cervical vertebrae like an anvil punching through polystyrene ceiling tiles.

(It’s amazing how heavy your head feels when the muscles in your neck don’t work right.)

And even though I’m aware of this. Even though I’ve worked hard for several years in physical rehab to strengthen the area and relieve what pain I can, it just feels like popping my neck would fix it and it’s taking everything in me not to because that’s the devil talking.

I should probably find my brace, though. Maybe that’ll help.

#chronic health tag #injury #neck injury #it’s this fucking weather #all my joints are swollen #everything is aggravated #I need to be prescribed a rest by the sea in a temperate climate #like an ailing regency novel mama

[phvnthom]

#i used to want to meet people who liked the same shit i did...... but fandom is literally the worst thing ever created #it's so limited and sanitized and what's popular most times doesn't align with my tastes or it's just plain bad #HCs this— aggravating fanart here 😮‍💨 #interests are only best when you geek over it with like 2-5 people max who ALSO like it in almost the same exact ways you do #not too much more than you not too little or else it just gets so fucking tedious and annoying— like shut the fuck up damn #either way fandom is a can of worms and it's mostly rancid #yes this is about miles yes this is about how spider-verse has spilled over into everything and i hate it #i wish that movie was never created and it went away forever

[little-candy-store-of-horrors]

"The man's a penis."

#bbc ghosts #thomas thorne #Ghosts #Six idiots #Horribe histories #Mat baynton #mathew baynton #Everything is wrong with this man/ghost and i am VERY obsessed #Finished 2 seasons and he lives rent free in my head like he does at button house #I think he cant get sucked off bc neither God nor the devil wants the aggravation #That and he cant in life because well. Because well- #Should i tag #Drag race uk #Drag race starlet #Update changed caption bc i forgor what i originally wanted. This quote. This.

[jumpstrike]

Hot DILF TIME🥺

he's getting bitches like honey with flies (warriors)

#i actually have a full drawn time piece im working on bc of this fucking ask #but it became a full blown art piece #so i guess im gonna post it seperately #but this ask has been marinating in my head #i was like wtf kinda funny can i do #so here u go anon #linkeduniverse #linked universe #lu #lu warriors #lu twilight #lu time #I STG THIS AINT LINKCEST THIS IS JUST WARRIORS BEING A PIECE OF SHIT #to aggravate twilight #watch i get snipered #everything i own goes to kovacs and shrimp and savoir #jumparts

[thedawningofthehour]

Ok I've started to get the hang of vacationing down and have stopped writing down 'one line so I don't forget' that turns into 2k words every day. I've gone back to the Sims, what kind of batshit stuff should I build? I end up just making a lot of country cottages and I need to branch out. Whenever I try to build outside my comfort zone I often don't know what to really do and end up with giant-ass ugly mcmansions and put everything in them.

#been dipping in and out of the draxum house build because i legit can't work on it for too long because it's so aggravating #and it is a HUGE build #like i've had one build that might compare and it was one of those ugly do-everything mcmansions #actually i have been wanting to go back and fix that one #it was one of the first big builds i did upon coming back to the sims and i was going apeshit with the tools #i am...ashamed of that one

[placeinthisworld]

anyways !!

If you’re an active blog who posts Gracie abrams, boygenius, holly humberstone, the national, the x files, broadway, Olivia Rodrigo, maisie peters, literally anything pls like/ reblog 🫶🏻

#personal #the x files #gracie abrams #holly humberstone #boygenius #phoebe bridgers #the national #broadway #anastasia the musical #newsies #billie elish #grace enger #maisie peters #olivia rodrigo #lana del rey #aaron dessner #Halsey #sorry I love ts and always will but I did not sign up for the Travis show and y’all making everything about HIM is aggravating and I’m tired

[cyanide-sippy-cup]

Middle of the night but I gotta talk about some frustrations. 'Cause you know what pisses me off? The mainstreaming popularization of punk. Don't get me wrong, I love seeing it become more popular and I love seeing people discover themselves and the culture. I mean, I got into it from a young age with RATM, for crying out loud.

The problem is that when something becomes more and more popular, you get a lot of... unsavory types. And I'm not even talking about the Tiktok punks that do it for the fashion and the "cool factor" (ignore how punks weren't considered cool and actually disregarded and disrespected as a group of "radicals" and "unsightly" which is what makes punk punk to begin with) and talk about "posers" but then the moment you ask them about their favorite local band or even their opinions about the BLM protests or Drag Queen Story Hour the real them *cough* bigot *cough* comes out. I'm talking about how everywhere you turn, there's an increasing erase of the culture and history, and it's turned into yet another thing for cis white people to use to make up for their lack of culture.

Punk is based in queerness and blackness. Period. That is an undeniable fact. It is a culture started and rooted by black musicians which then bled into the equally black queer community. It is impossible, when you go through the origins, to separate the three. From the fashion to the music, we owe everything to them.

And it's just like what happened with the gay community. A massively marginalized group, technically allowed to live in society but not allowed to be our true selves. And then, like, you have super famous and historic movements lead by black activists through the 60s to 80s. And progress is finally made. Huge celebration. We're finally allowed in public, we start appearing on TV again. But then fast forward to modern day, and white people, like we've always done, we get our grubby little paws on it. And we scrub at it in all the soap we can until any instance of black or brown is gone. And then we claim it as ours. Everybody acknowledges where it started, but nobody celebrates it. In fact, we put down black people in our community. We appropriate their culture and their language, because stealing your voice is actually our way of celebrating you so you should be happy. We make movies of those movements, and we erase any evidence of them ever having been there.

And it's relatively the same thing here. The more mainstream it gets, the more people are doing it to be performative, the more we erase and cover up the "unseemly" history that makes it so beautiful in the first place.

And, like, I'm white and I'm pissed/tired. I can't imagine how black punks feel. Cause, like, think for a minute. Some group decides they want in but they don't like how it is, they want it their way. The "correct" way. So they begin to "kick out" everybody who they don't want, appropriate everything they like about it, and rewrite and recontextualize the history that made it. Isn't that, like, the textbook definition of fascism? The whole thing we're trying to take down? Like come on.

And to the white punk/gays who read this and got confused or upset. No, I'm not saying there aren't any white punks. No, I'm not saying there weren't white gays from the get go. Nobody is saying you can't be white and punk. The point of this post is, just, be a good person. Respect, acknowledge, celebrate the culture that created this thing we love. The gay community that we know is specifically a product of blackness and black efforts. Stop appropriating them, start learning how to celebrate them properly.

#this rant was brought to you by an aggravated sleep deprived person seeing two videos back to back being completely wrong #sorry if anything is misspelled or slightly incorrect or incoherent #I'm running on like four hours of sleep in about three days total and i wrote this at midnight #ish #punk #punk culture #queer culture #ramblings #ranting #the white washing of everything is horrific and i feel like nobody else in white circles wanna talk about it #we're so far up our own asses not only can we not see our own prejudice we don't even understand what it means

[stop-breaking-my-heart-telltale]

i watched dom the bombs reading of book 2 and saw people making really negative comments about tillie and the book, it made me feel bad seeing how far people are going to hate on tillie instead of just the book

Yeah, I saw some of his livestream. I don't really watch his content, but I have watched the videos he did about Clementine Book One. I only watched the stream for about two minutes before I had to shut it off because it was that unpleasant, and I'm not referring to the content of the book. Then when I heard through discord that he'd gotten to chapter 9, I turned it back on and watched his reaction and the rant that followed and like... I have a lot of feelings but to put it simply, I'm kinda pissed so apologies for this long post.

Here's the deal: I don't know Dom, and maybe his reactions were exaggerated for his chat, or maybe he really does feel that aggressively passionate about twdg and what these comics have done, I don't know. I jumped into the stream the first time when he was at the part where Clementine's being introduced to new cast at the party, and it's when he was reading and said, "'John is Morro's son' I don't care" that I clicked off. Why should I keep watching when you're not going to put in any effort into the story outside of just hating on it? That's the whole vibe I got and it put me right off.

He can hate them as much as he wants [and he did say that if this wasn't about Clementine, it wouldn't be that bad], that's not my issue. My biggest issue comes when he brings Tillie into it because he always does.

I think his stream had a little bit of a ripple effect that's lead to Tillie's social media. Looking through her most recent post on insta, there are a bunch of new comments with people parroting some stuff he said in his stream... as if she needed more shit. She's been getting these comments for days now.

For those unaware, Tillie Walden just had a baby on October 4th, the same day Clementine Book Two came out, and these are pieces throughout the comments section of that post sharing the news:

I'm trying so hard to put this into words because, on one hand, I get that Dom is just one person and it's not like he can force his audience to do anything. Plus, the hate was happening before his stream so it's not like it's his fault anything... but just because he throws in a "I don't condone harassment of Tillie guys" disclaimer around, that doesn't mean he isn't contributing to the problem.

You can't go on a rant about how Ricca is Tillie's self-insert and no one can change your mind about that, and then be like "but guys don't harass Tillie, she doesn't deserve it." THAT is what people are sending her threats over! You're just validating that self-insert idea! You are contributing to the problem!

Personally, I don't think he's saying "don't send anyone harassment" because he actually gives a shit about Tillie Walden or anyone involved in the project, he's saying it to cover his own ass so no one can point any fingers at him. I'd like to be proven wrong on that. I'd love for him to be more serious about it and say more than just "I don't condone harassment" before going on to say he's gonna bring the hammer down for his review.

And y'know what? You're right. I can't change your mind about Ricca being a self-insert because you don't want to change your mind.

Both of them having glasses isn't evidence, and "they look exactly the same!" doesn't work when Tillie's art style has same-face syndrome. Slap some glasses on Olivia and oop, Olivia must be a self-insert, too!

Like... do people still not get how stories are made? Writers tend to write what they know, they draw from their life experiences and that influences their characters, settings, and plots. You know what probably happened? Tillie wears glasses, and she probably thought about how much it would suck to wear glasses in the apocalypse, and gave that idea to one of her characters.

But does it even matter? You've already decided it's not up for debate. You're not open to discussion on it. You're set on spreading "Ricca is a self-insert" to your audience, that ripples through the fandom, and a shit ton of people are weaponizing it. "Ricca is a self-insert" is why they're going after her on a post about her newborn baby.

I know how that this works. It's happened to me where I've said something only to see some of my followers weaponizing it against other people. Shit, when I was on the subreddit the other day, I saw someone misquoting me from my first read through of Book Two post: I never said I would lose my shit if they named Olivia's baby Amos Junior, AJ 2.0. I was making a fucking joke. And do you know how many times I've come across "AJ 2.0" since? An alarming amount!

When you have a platform with any amount of followers, shit you say is going to spread and it might be used poorly. There isn't much you can do about it except think about the future shit you say and how you say it. You're never going stop everyone from being shitty; some people are just insistent on being assholes, but you can always try to reach through to more people.

There is a conversation to be had about the contents of chapter 9, and how this story is leaning toward a more romantic focus over a gritty zombie drama. There's a lot to say about Ricca as a character. There are legit criticisms of these books, and criticisms to be had of Skybound for continuing the series after the games ended... but I don't think many people are interested in actually having those conversations. I think they just want to be mad. I think they want to put all the blame on one person, and since it's Tillie's name on the books, they want to hate her.

And I don't even dislike Dom or anything. He seems like a nice guy who's passionate about the games and is disappointed the comics didn't do them justice. From the parts I watched he had good points about how Skybound were the ones who hired Tillie knowing her previous work. I see where he's coming from with his dislike of the romance angle, too.

But it's the reactionary anger that feeds and grows, which again, I don't blame him for having strong feelings or reacting. I used to stream on twitch and you do get carried away; you exaggerate, you get pissed off and so does chat and suddenly everything is heated and you're bouncing that off each other. So I get it.

I guess I just dread his actual review because I know what's going to happen. And now I'm also a little worried about my review.

I'm just upset that this is what the twdg fandom's turned into. I mean, we've always had toxicity but I don't remember it ever being this bad. There's nothing I can do about it except hope people calm down.

...I can't believe this is where my character arc has led me. I'm the Tillie Walden and, to an extent, the Clementine comics defender... Well, shit.

I don't even like the comics, I think they're bullshit too, and yet-

#twdg #twdg clementine #clementine book two #long post #it's been an terrible week at work so my aggravation levels are getting very high sksksksks like i have no patience and i am so tired #it's also very late but this has bothered me all day and i needed to get it off my chest so thank you anon for the outlet haha #my review is currently being written and it's a lot #i don't know when it'll be out but i want to be thorough with everything soooo... expect it at some point

[skinnypaleangryperson]

The combination of being used as an adult and being told that this is the rest of my life, and not being able to afford my dreams of a family and never being creatively successful even in a mediocre local way has spewed my brain out into mental disorders that I didn't even know existed and has unfortunately affected the way that I can healthily navigate social media. One of these days I'm going to get smart enough again and I'm not going to come on here and spew out every possible issue or insecurity and I'm going to obtain basic sense and a sense of individuality and confident core sentiment again, unfortunately, not anytime soon

#I'm so sick of my placement in society as an adult and my life in general and people as a whole #and my mental illness and having to fight it every single day and believe me when I say that it's a fight #and the fact that half the time when I open up any app for socialization it's aggressive proudly confident arrogance #that I genuinely feel like I just want to firmly immerse myself into my daydreaming and forget everything forever #it's the only thing that gives me that confidence self-centered self-esteem the way that I used to have when I was in college and mattered #as a human being that I will never have again #everything else just confuses or disorients me or aggravates or abuses me these days

[ganymedesclock]

Out of curiosity, any thoughts on the anime Bleach?

I consumed a fairly good chunk of it when I was younger. It's since faded in my passions. I think Rolling Star by Yui is by far my favorite of the openings but a lot of them are very good.

I think the visuals are fairly stylish but it suffers the shonen problem- granted, I think a lot of this is in the format of how long running shonens are produced- of starting out with a bold exciting concept and then sort of petering out in weird directions the longer it goes on. In Bleach's case, I really loved the design and concept of the early hollows, but from the Soul Society arc onward, this entire fascinating afterlife concept boils down to Fashion Sword Boys Fightin' It Out.

Most of my residual fondness for it has me eyeing @gallusrostromegalus's An Elephant Is Warm And Mushy, because it seems to be taking a lot of the later series and injecting that sense of weird monsters and afterlife ramifications back into it.

#Bleach #I actually really liked the intro episode of Don Kanonji #the idea of a 'hoax' TV medium actually having just enough of a foothold in this world to do damage #and then having to realize that and acknowledge his own relationship with it #I think this is why many of the later arcs disappointed; I was most interested in seeing how this world impacted and related to the mundane #similar powerful early episodes to me were the 'haunted cockatiel' and the episode with Orihime's brother #later arcs absolutely have their perks #I actually unironically like the 'king and his horse' speech #even though I think it plays to some limitations of the genre that everything has to be settled by hierarchical power levels and fighting #like I dunno maybe your ~EVIL SIDE~ isn't actually evil as much as someone who has not decided if they want to obey you or not #because why would they #do they respect you enough to actually want to help you with your goals #wouldn't anyone 'act up' in that situation trying to have their own priorities #ALSO ALSO it aggravates me that the closer to main character you get #the more boring your weapon powers get #some of the secondary characters and temporary antagonists and such #have REALLY COOL powers #but Ichigo is like ok. here's my power. it's basically a laser gun #pew pew #sorry Ichigo. you are trying to be main character while that one guy is over there with the executioner's weapon that weighs opponents down #Hanataro's the objectively best character though hands down y'all can fight me #(nobody actually fight me I have zero horses in this race)

[cheridraws]

I hate hate hate the flavor of neurodivergence that makes my brain absolutely BALK at the idea of doing something. Like… it’s not even procrastination at this point, I’m sitting here ready to do something and my brain is absolutely kicking and fighting not wanting to do it or even allowing me to do it. How am I supposed to work like this :(

#my rambles #this is due tomorrow #everything else is done. it’s time to do this one #I’ve tried all my adhd hacks all my shit I normally do to get assignments done #yet it feels like there is an absolute WALL here #that is refusing to budge #it’s the most annoying aggravating thing on earth holy fuck

[insecateur]

Me, looking at vulgar french words for penis: Oh neat they also have Verga

Also tbt to the time a teacher of mine said "Le bilo bitte" instead of Bic and we spent a full hour laughing

"verge" is commonly used in french smut and is at least marginally better than "membre" which is a nightmare imo. "organe" is another euphemism which i feel like you need to be very confident in order to pull off. i haven't written smut in french in so long i'd like to write some this year

"bite" is always funny altho i do think going a step further and reaching for "teub" gives it a real special flavor

#la réponse d #also bite is just always a riot in english. #french smut is a lot less vulgar than in english in general funnily enough at least in fic #people will use euphemisms for everything. even in like pwp #i saw 'bite' only in like. two fics back when i was researching for my in-universe fanfiction #i do have a soft spot for 'verge' tho even if it's silly #when i was writing the bad french smut i wanted to try and use 'engin' somewhere but couldn't do it #i do think augustine would use 'engin' to talk about lysandre's dick to aggravate him tho. #would probably make puns and jokes about him being an engineer. #anyway sorry for going in a tangent i am still shiniless and suffering💔 #talking about funny peepee words helps #WHY DID A BUNCH OF THE WORDS GET ADDED AS TAGS LMFAO. #ohhhh it's bc i forgot not to use quotes oughhhhhhh brain empty #okay i'll fix this on pc later but first missing word was bite. second was uhh i think verge. last was ENGIN #my tags are ruined but i'm not retyping all that sry #i fixed it on pc.

[kintatsujo]

incidentally the knitting adventure mostly stalled out bc Mom was trying to teach me how to cast off but we're both dyslexic

#it sounds funny. and it was! but also this is not the first time we've tried to do a craft thing together #and aggravated one another's left/right confusion so bad it interfered with getting the project done #and for the record I won't be offended if someone sends me helpful diagrams and videos bc I was having trouble with that #getting hits for literally everything but getting the knitting off the needles so it won't unravel lol

[aerialaim]

So, if you don’t follow my modblog, I was forced off a med bc my doc wouldn’t renew it unless I came in to pay $300 for a 5min talk and the withdrawals are worse than anticipated. Kinda have random major panic attacks, like owie in the chest my heart is beating so fast kinda ones, and nearly blacking out in the middle of a store, so I’ve been mostly lying down.

I got a commission to do, then I may do a nice reblog/flashback week so I can find a new doc and relax. Nearly a full year of posting new content everyday? I think I need a wee break. I deserve a lil lie down. A nap week if you will.

#it's birth control btw not like a major med technically #and mental health wise it has helped to be off the dang thing tbh #but going from completely fine to having my heart go apeshit in a thrift store is aggravating to say the least #and I rationalize everything so I get aggro when it happens bc it's like WHY TF ARE YOU FREAKING OUT RN #I GOT THINGS TO DO MAN I WANNA PUT UP XMAS LIGHTS IMMA THROW HANDS #though the Ollie stress relief gummies have been a godsend ngl #but I'm trying to not take them every day bc it says not to //WHEEZE

[lesbiansforboromir]

Currently the part that’s actually genuinely annoying me about RoP is the show’s devoted efforts to never actually mentioning the canon reasons the Numenoreans were anti-elf. It smacks directly of ‘oh no they have a point, we can’t make the elves/eru look too bad in our very christian show, quick make it about racism or something’ and it’s very frustrating. If they were struggling to find a way to make ‘hey why the fuck are we dying for the immortal god-favoured race who respawn in valinor anyway? And more importantly if they can live forever and go to the undying lands, why can’t we?’ sound more grey and have a kind of ‘two sides to every story’ thing they should have asked me I could have bitten my tongue and helped! But no, elves coming over here stealing our jobs, that’s apparently the major worry of the Numenorean populace, terrible. 

#rings of power #everything else I'm pretty much cool with and I'm having a great time but this is just aggravating #text post

[quietwingsinthesky]

not to think seriously about the samelia arc but idk something interesting there through the lens of aromantic dean coming back and just. not getting it.

One of the first things he asks Sam about what happened while he was gone is “was there a girl?” and when told there was, he’s very upset by that. There was a girl, and in Dean’s mind, Sam chose her over Dean. And wants to continue choosing her! Wants to go back to her, says as much about wanting to go back to that life and almost does after the text message debacle!

And looking at this from Dean’s POV, Dean who tried to have that same kind of Normal Heterosexual Romance Life with lisa, and who it didn’t work for. could never quite make himself fit into place, couldn’t give her things he wasn’t even aware he couldn’t feel. who, as soon as he knew Sam was alive, made it a priority to stick close to his brother even at the expense of that relationship with Lisa. Like. Of course Dean doesn’t get what Sam wants with Amelia. He tried it! He lived it! For him, it felt wrong!

His life with Sam, for all that it’s a fucked up one, is more fulfilling to him than “being in love” with Lisa, and so even beyond the fact that he’s always going to need to choose Sam because that’s been his job since he was a kid, he’s always going to want to choose Sam.

and the idea that there’s some hierarchy of relationships for Sam where Dean isn’t the one he wants to spend his life with? That’s terrifying and confusing to him (if completely untrue, since Sam also proves time and time again that in the end he’ll always choose Dean.) Dean’s got no idea what being aromantic actually is, he’s Dean. Meaning to him, what he had with Lisa is either what everyone gets out of a romantic relationship or he’s broken in ways other people aren’t, depending on how much he hates himself that day. Neither of which are true, but you can see how, with that assumption, the idea that Sam wants to leave this life with him for a woman he met less than a year ago is kind of hard for him to process.

#does this make any sense lmao #Dean 🤝 me: ‘why is this person so special to u? u love them? that sounds fake. I’m the one you’ve known forever.’ #it’s this weird intersection of jealousy society says you’re not allowed to have because your friend/brother is Right to put their romantic #partner before you in every situation (fucked up). and not understanding the hype because. u don’t get those feelings. don’t happen to you #staring at amatonormativity and feeling like shit that you’re on the outside of everything #which. clearly. would aggravate uh All Of Dean’s Issues. #this man can fit so much abandonment in him #anyway. Dean’s reaction to Amelia bad for many reasons but understandable too for many reasons. #but especially if he’s aromantic and Does Not Get why sam thinks loving this woman is a fair enough reason to leave his life with dean #spn #dean winchester #aro!dean