#feeling just as bad as last night

[lightbluetown]

ahh january 10th, first full day of misery

#ofmd #our flag means death #stede bonnet #lucius spriggs #barely got any sleep #feeling just as bad as last night #🏴‍☠️

[yangjeongin]

6 YEARS WITH STRAY KIDS — #Youtiful6YearsOfSKZ

#stray kids #createskz #bystay #ot8 #*mary #what are our tags i can't remember . #*gfx #<- ? i guess. who knows. doesnt rly matter tbh #good morning. had to rush home just so i could caption and add tags to this cause i forgot to last night before i left. #i feel like i was a bit ambitious with this but somehow it didn't turn out as bad as it could have LOL #i think if i hadn't postponed doing this for so long i couldve added more things and polished a few others but it is what it is ! #anyway. #thank you for giving me peace and happiness when i need it. 💙

[fivemonsturzzzwowz]

call mike schmidt nightmare foxy the way hes in that closet

#liam scribbles #five nights at freddy's #fnaf #mike schmidt #fnaf mike #fnaf vanessa #fnaf headcanons #fnaf movie #not spoilers i just felt like i needed to share there are way more hcs i feel for them but thats for me to know and for you to find out ;) #vanessa shelly #i always forget thats her last name. added tag because i am bad with names

[radiocity]

The L Word | S2E01

#the l word #shane mccutcheon #kate moennig #in a horrible mood but i still had the episode open from last night and laughed so hard at this awful outfit i almost briefly forgot #i actually love it in concept i just dont know what they were thinking with the random sidepieces for her hair which i think throw the whol #thing into this weird sort of disarray #but i love the short blazer sleeves ovr the shirt a lot also how weirdly unironed the shirt kind of appears #also the low jeans with the belt..? not crazy about the decor on the blazer tho #but i love the glasses forevr #but again i feel like her hair is so weirdly fried in this or maybe cked with hairspray #anyway im fine sorta #actually really funny to post this also after the last one bc she looked so good in that and so BAD here #soryr this outfit deserved its own complete commentary in tags but lookbook coming eventually #also im pretty sure her hair is like tied back in some sor tof way which also looks horrific #who did this literally whos idea was this #also sorry it was roiginally 4 but looking at them together i think it only needs 2

[venusin-aries]

You know what I really love? Lucien knows how Elain really feels. Every one else only sees her how SHE wants them to see her. A lot of people have a very perfect, prim vision of Elain. I want to see her become MESSY over Lucien. In a good way, not a bad way. Like she’s so ladylike, she can be a little depraved, a little wicked, as a treat. She can’t hide her true feelings, both good and bad, from him. And I think that’s why she’s so weary of him.

Like, imagine being so usually well composed and not being able to hide your desire, how shockingly strong it is, from a man you basically just met.

#pro elucien #elucien #lucien x elain #elain x lucien #lucien vanserra #acotar #Last post of the night 😭 the feelings just keep coming #If I am faced with a man that looks like Lucien #and I cannot hide how bad I want him #Im hiding too wtf lol #You ain’t EVER going to see me again

[crow-with-a-pencil]

@naffeclipse

Them ❤️

#HOLD ON IMMA RAMBLE IN TAGS #my ârt #fnaf daycare attendant #cryptid sightings #naffeclipse #OKOKok so maybe I got busy with school for a few weeks there and couldn't keep up #BUT last week I finally sat down and read like 6 chapters in a row #and my stars I am bouncing off the walls #naff naff listen these demon guys live in my brain #this is exactly how I got excited during sleuth jesters naff you have sorcery #good lord you know how to write tension and foreshadowing #I have theories I have thoughts but I truly just want to see all the guns placed on stage and they are about to go off I can feel it #hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh their emotional conflict is killing me and ripping my heart out #they want to say something so bad but also protect the bean bc they're clearly scared and they're gonna freak out but #can they calm the heart down before it runs away? #naff I am not joking this is literally my favorite thing rn #anyway it's almost 2am have a lovely night!!!! #friend fanart #tw blood

[densitywell]

Marisha's comment about how Relvin is one of those parents who ended up with a child they didn't know what to do with really gets to the heart of it, i think, and is such a good way to tie the fantasy element of Imogen's powers into things more tangible. because there are really a lot of parents like Relvin in real life, who have a child with the person they're happily married to and never expect to be left alone with the kid. or who expect a ""normal"" (read: cisgender and heterosexual, able-bodied, relatively neurotypical and obedient, etc.) child and end up with one who's ""difficult"", who demands more or different of them than what they believe they signed up for. and that's not entirely entitlement on a parent's part- many cultures' common frameworks of parenthood and child-rearing do not include space for these children. it makes sense that Relvin was unprepared. raising any child is difficult, and raising a child whose needs you were never taught how to accommodate, who the world is so cruel to, is even more challenging.

and yet. and yet, the person who bears the brunt of the harm in these situations will always be the child. they're the ones who have to live every moment of how the world treats them, without the support that their parent is supposed to provide them. and when asked to care for his child even when she turned out to be ""difficult"", Relvin couldn't. for entirely sympathetic reasons, of course. he tried, in his own way. i don't think he's a bad guy. but he's let his own broken heart bleed onto his daughter. he hasn't been able to give her much else.

#imogen temult #critical role #cr #cr3 #like it's really sad what happened to relvin we all know this. but seeing how dani scrambled over herself last night #to clarify that she DOESN'T think relvin is an awful person just bc she thinks he's a shitty dad made me feel for her so much bc like. #sometimes the Posts. about him. feel a little “why do bash dead beat dads but never question if the kid has bad vibes.” so. #especially in comparison to liliana who is 1. worse than relvin 2. still sympathetic 3. more interesting to a nearly comical degree #and while he gets so much sympathy On Here ppl mostly post abt her to wish for her death or call her a bitch. so! #parenting talk is a minefield bc some ppl resent the idea that a child deserves anything more from a parent than basic needs being met #and refuse to include emotional needs among them. so like idk if that's your thing i don't rlly give a shit man #crposting

[keldabekush]

Fox will later blame the entire conversation on the fruity green drink that Commander Bly had brought him from the bar, without his input.

"I miss hanging out with Alpha-Seventeen."

It smells malty, tastes sweet, and after three sips makes his mouth numb and tingly enough that he barely realises he’s said anything out loud until he notes that all eyes have turned to him.

Three CC-class clones he has only interacted with in a professional capacity outside of Kamino, and knows by reputation, mostly.

Commanders Cody, Bly and Doom had been kind to invite him to their table when they caught sight of him alone by the bar nursing a beer that was probably closer related to piss than alcohol.

"You used to hang out with Alpha-Seventeen?" Commander Doom is incredulous, Commander Bly is indignant.

"What? We never got to hang out with Alpha-Seventeen-"

Fox takes a few moments to consider lying, making out that he had a revered connection with the most admired trainer on Kamino. The little thrill of pleasure it would give him to obfuscate an undignified truth that no one had to know.

The open expression on Commander Bly's face stalls the urge. He thinks about the numb, yawning distance he has trapped himself behind, and the joylessness of being dignified. Of all the silly little things that no one will ever know about him when he dies, because he had never told anyone.

He interrupts.

"Well. By hang out I mean in my seventh cycle I would sit outside his door for an hour every evening,” he has another tingling sip of green juice to fortify him, and catches Commander Cody’s eyes deliberately “and tell him that if I was graded lower than you in the marksmanship exam, then I would strangle you to death in your bunk."

Bly laughs, startled, and beside him Commander Cody doesn't show any offense, but does raise his eyebrows as he sips his pink lemon drink, holding the sparkly decorative cocktail stick out of the way with his forefinger.

Fox eyes his non-response, and registers in himself a prickle of disappointment. He will examine it later, he assures himself, when the green juice has worn off.

"Did he ever talk back?" Commander Doom leans back against the sticky vinyl seating in the booth, and watches Fox's face the same way Fox has been watching theirs. He thinks he likes Commander Doom.

"No, i think he just started putting headphones in and taking a nap or something. I stopped eventually." there’s a shadow of a smile, which as far as Fox has been able to put together about the man is as good as a chuckle.

Commander Bly is far more ready with a grin.

"Fox, that’s not hanging out. That’s a symptom of something being very wrong. With you."

Fox, he thinks to himself. He had progressed to friendly address with Comman- with Bly, at least. It was promising.

"Yeah, i had no friends. He never told me not to strangle you though, Commander,” Fox twist the corner of his mouth in a wry smile, to hammer home to Commander Cody that there’s no intent behind the joke, even as he needles for a response, ”just want to emphasize that. I considered it."

"Why? I don't think we ever even spoke as cadets." the eyebrows are raised again, and still Fox can’t get a read on his expression

"Oh no, yeah, we didn't. I only knew you existed because you broke my record score in the flightsim in our fifth cycle and I swore revenge. You bastard. "

"This is why you didn’t have any friends, then?"

"Yeah. Pretty much, yeah. I worked on it."

"Do you still want to strangle me to death?"

"Hm. Remind me what your marksmanship score was in cycle seven, and i'll get back to you."

Commander Cody laughs, and the smile that breaks across his face is as much a relief as it is a victory. Fox lets the tension in his shoulders ease and rocks with the playful punch to the arm from Bly, barely rescuing the remaining half of his drink.

Later, he will blame the green juice for the small, real smile that wont leave his face for the rest of the night, when the three Commanders insist he drop formality and call them by name, for force’s sake, relax, and when he tests the water with a trivial gripe about paperwork and is met instantly with sympathetic noises and agreements, he feels on a firm footing at last.

See, he can make friends just fine, Stone.

#commander fox #kushwrites #fic #fox is a loser he absolutely sat himself down in their eyeline so they would feel obliged to invite him over #hes lonely and bored and has decided to stop being a bastard just to see what its like #hes very bad at making friends but thankfully bly and cody are much better at it #i did this last night nd i dont have time to do a second pass before work so tke it as it is sorry

[kadens-a-bee]

I think I’m funny

#meant to post this last night but my internet was kinda funky #I swear I’ve made actual spookyish doodles of genloss I just thought of this and had to draw it Immediately #I might post those doodles sometime (I will forget and feel bad for forgetting and proceed to not post them out of guilt) /hj /lh #generation loss #genloss #mcyt #ranboo #kaden speaks #kaden draws #edit: WAIT #HAPPY PRIDE MONTH TOO I LOVE YOU SO MUCH #I HOPE YALL HAVE A SAFE MONTH!! :D

[icewindandboringhorror]

Some (late) holiday photos of the boye~!

#cats #holiday #OUGHH....... barely could even get these edited and posted... my mysterious sickness flare up has been sooo bad the past few #days.. I didn't even go to the usual obligatory family christmas I was supposed to attend (!!! health issue/medical mention in tags below) #My stomach issues basically put me in a constant state of uncontrollable shivering/body shaking + nausea + sometimes rapid heart #rate. and when it happens at night that makes it like.. nearly impossible to sleep when you're violently shaking + you can feel your heart #so strong + you keep having to run to the bathroom every 5 minute to cough and gag #and throw up and so on and so forth. etc. So I went like 40 hours without any sleep almost for christmas eve and all of christmas day #last night I finally got maybe 2 hours of sleep in between the nausea and shaking and stuff. and then today I was able to get a few #hours of sleep in the afternoon. Today I tried taking an anxiety mediciation a doctor gave me in case it was anxiety related (it's apparent #ly used to relax people and works in the moment. rather than like Anxiety Mediciation that you have to take for weeks to see any effect #because I think this isn't actually acting on your brain chemistry it's judt like..a mild sedative or something.) but all that did was make #me dizzy and sweaty lol. I;m glad I slept a little but I'm just still frustrated that I don't feel normal. I started having these #'episodes' (with the stomach issues + shaking + heartrate + nausea etc.) like at the end of october. And usually it will happen for like a #few hours at a time. or i'll lose sleep one day and then be fine the next. but this has been like nearly 3 days of feeling weird. so is #getting kind of annoying... It's funny too because I was so so productive like.. literally the few days before. I was feeling much better #and I was working on my game and blah blah. But then.. random issue flare up out of nowhere of course.. yaayy.... happy holidays to meee lo #I did at least see two random ducks outside of my window in the yard area for christmas. and havent seen them since. So it's like.. hrmm.. #pacing around my room nauseous and shakings and etc. but at least... hello.. two little ducks placed there just for me :3c #Now I get anxiety every night which I'm sure doesn't help/could exacerbate whatever underlying genuinely physical issues exist. But after #like 2 nights of 'I spend the night sleepless and incredibly uncomfortable just sitting in the dark sick' then bedtime is like.. dread... #I even was trying slapping myself in the face in desperation to see if somehow that could shock my body out of whatever the hell it was #doing lol.. up at 3am holding ice cubes in my hand and hitting myself in the head and crying from exhaustion and thowing up.. literally #ridiculous cartoon character feeling... AAANYWAY!!! At least I have baby boy pictures. and I have lots of doctors appointments so hopefully #whatever the issue is can be sorted out at some point. I don't know much about ibs but hopefully maybe something like that that I could pos #ibly take medication for and not something more seirous or anything. Maybe there's a food I'm secretly intolerant to or whatever. #And I did at least post a sims holday video actually timed for the holidays so that's something. I havent been productive really latrely #though obviously.. I can't even play games or small tasks when in that state since I'm just SO physically uncomfortable. Nausea and heart #stuff are THE hardest physical sensations to ignore.. BUT yeah... hoping I shall sleep at all tonight. hopeing to get like 3 productive #things done.. at some point... at least SOMETHING... lol..... *** *** ***

[littleholmes]

I really feel for the anime onlys who are either about to or have already hopped over to the manga to get caught up, because I’ve seen posts already of people being surprised and upset, and I feel so bad.

like…jjk is not a happy series. I know for me, I started reading just before the culling games and I expected the situations these characters are in to get better and for there to be happier moments and I was surprised. Things kinda don’t get better for these characters and oftentimes it feels like it just gets worse and worse. There’s positive moments, yes, and we get short bits of reprieve and the fights, the domains (I could go off for days on Hakari and Higuruma and Takaba’s), and the characters are so awesome but, admittedly, it’s not a happy series.

It’s about death, and fighting, and families, and dealing with loss, and generational curses and trauma, and so much more. And I know for me it hit me late that this series is deep and heavy—in fact, I wrote a post (spoilers) about delayed grief in this series bc I don’t think I personally realized how heavy this series is until later on because we lose so many folks and so much happens back to back, and there wasn’t time to truly process how much happens. But that said, it’s truly it’s one of the things I love most about jjk and what, to me, makes it unique along with other elements of this series.

idk I’m rambling but idk…anime onlys who are planning to read the manga, I highly recommend reading it, but I’ll say it how I say when people ask me IRL: “I recommend it with an asterisk and here’s why…”. I recommend it with a small warning to be prepared because it’s a lot and this series will make you feel hopeless for these characters at times and make you sad and angry and a myriad of emotions. It’s a wonderful series but it comes with a lot of heaviness.

#jjk #jujutsu kaisen #jjk thoughts #jjk manga #jjk manga spoilers #I saw a post last night of someone who caught up and just felt awful after reading and I was like 😣no one warned them I feel so bad

[bitchfitch]

MOTHER FUCKER SPOTTED T POSING. GAY SHIT IM GOING TO HAVE TO BANISH THE CHILD FOR TO ENSUE.

#totk spoilers #also can i just say how Fucking Scared i was that they were just retconning the champions out of existence?? #the divine beasts are gone and the story is going out of its way to avoid mentioning them or their pilots. #Miphas spring was the first time i found Any direct mention of them. #its an Area name. #Daruk and Revali may as well not have existed. #like. I didn't stop to talk to a lot of npcs bx i couldn't be fucked to do so #but Man. #It feels like they should have been mentioned in the main story at Some point #I straight up couldn't sleeo last night bc i was so worried theyd just fucking #Unexisted my second favorite character in this entire franchise. #Like i know Mipha isnt anything special by loz princess standards but i just love her ok. #i love her aesthetic #and seeing her statue was replaced in the domain was a bad feeling because like. that basically confirmed it for me that the game #was just going to pretend she never existed #which it still is but the spring having this name Helps. its a bandaid on a gunshot wound

[cowboylor]

i love the 1975 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

#just sobbing in my hotel room last night #life does not feel real after december 2nd #so sad #and oddly…. down bad #hiiiiiii mustache matty

[bitfruity]

i have never been so obsessed and in love with a man before in my life

like as a teenager i liked bands and thought some members were kinda cute but NOTHING has prepared me for the teenage girl in my 20’s level infatuation i have for this man

and then he had the AUDACITY to bring another one into the mix

words cannot explain the amount of gender envy tommy gives me do i want him or do i want to be him?? i look at some pictures of him and go THATS ME THATS HOW I SEE MYSELF

#WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?? #IS THIS JUST WHAT YOUR 20S ARE LIKE? #I AM DOWN BAD #i thought i skipped all this #i never understood all the girls that obsessed over celeb men #but now i get it!! #i kinda feel like i’m losing my mind #this 30 year old man is the only reason i smile #like when did that happen?? #tommy got me feeling some type of way #i cant quite explain it but he’s changed something in my brain #i am not the person i was before listening to racked #the amount of gender envy he gives me is unmatched #am i even a girl idk anymore #I AM SCREAMING INTO THE VOID #käärijä #tommy cash #fruity thoughts #i made this at 2am last night in a feverish state but i’m still gonna post it

[canon-gabriel-quotes]

im also floridian. this weather is too suspicious its not meant to be winter weather in march! summer will kill us all

It’s starting to heat up. But then it’s going down again?

LOWS IN THE 60S AT THIS TIME OF YEAR IN THIS PART OF THE WORLD..? That ain’t right. No. It can’t be. No way.

It’s going to be a constant 102* in June-September because nice things aren’t allowed here and we must suffer. We’re supposed to get our designated 2 weeks of nice weather randomly in dec-feb and THATS IT. We have been too greedy. The end is coming.

*for non swamp dwellers, the actual temp stays between 80-95 mostly, but humidity makes it feel like you’re being steamed alive. Which is fun! (government mandated propaganda)

#okay this will be the last Florida post for a bit I am alienating the normal-ish people #crazy people: wow you’re so lucky you guys have amazing weather #me when it’s ‘only’ 85 degrees in the middle of the night but if you stepped outside you’d feel sticky within 1 minute #it’s 87 rn which is what you’d expect #I’m down. down there. in the bad place. #I see up north is in the mid to low 70s which is Not Normal #you guys being: non swamp dwellers #you guys don’t understand what it’s like to step outside and the air doesn’t feel like someone mouth breathing on you #looks around nervously #WHATS COMING. HOW MANY STORMS #HOW HIGH WILL THE FLOODS BE THIS YEAR #ask #asks #non voice post #insanely off topic asks (not mad it’s just funny lol)

[u5an5]

Am I the only one that every time I get myself into new fandom I just sigh, knowing fully well that I just got next 20+ x reader, y/n, x Oc!whateverthefuck or just any form of self insert tags to blacklist?

#as aegosexual its specific kind of hell #“i dont have problem with smut (for me other forms of fics too but its just preferences) as long as IM not part of it” is #quite literally a definition. im physically incapable of reading those without having imagining that instead of y/n there #is ANY character that appears in lore its based on and feel the urge to put it into google docs and “correct” it just so im actually able t #enjoy it. not that selfinsert is anything fundamentally bad. i just treat it sort of like kink that i don't understand #i dont want to understand and DEFINITELY don't want to see it #tldr: i need to blacklist way more fnaf movie related tags than i ever wanted to #and finding them all is harder than you think #last time i had to add TEN SEPARATE TAGS #for ONE person #aegosexual #ace struggles #banning y/n from appearing in post itself doesn't work that well cause day/night exists #acespec #I JUST WROTE 'aego'... in tags and got THREE SEPARATE PROPOSITIONS of self insert #WHY