#god i hate this fucking school

[angelboybreakdowns]

im just. im really fucking mad. ok i get it ceramics was full. had sculpture as my second choice that was full too. but instead of giving me like a study hall or sth you put me in studio art for the second goddamn time after i took it in 9th grade (and i got a credit for it that time so it means im not getting a credit this year) and not only that but you put me in the class with a teacher who is a known ableist like to the point where other teachers gossip about how she never follows ieps or 504s WHEN I HAVE A FUCKING 504 like i just. and shes racist and shit too but thats not relevant to how bad a decision it was on the schools part bc im white (does make me angry tho but like. shes not targeting me so irrelevant). but like. now i have to spend half the year in a class i hate doing assignments i hate and im not even getting a credit for it but i still have to get good grades because junior year gpa is the most important and i just.

and again unrelated but she (teacher) is such a mean pushy fucking bitch. she has literally ruined one of my art projects (pulled off paper bits i was using to make silhouettes before the paint was dry, they ripped and stuck because they were SOAKED IN WET PAINT and WET PAPER RIPS DUMBASS and tbc she did this after i actively told her 4 times i was deliberately leaving them and I knew what i was doing she reached forward and pulled them off herself) she has pushed me into adding to an art project because it “wasnt balanced” (i deliberately put the whole thing in one half and left the rest of the page blank because i wanted to symbolize the feeling of having to make yourself small to be likeable as an autihd person) and im bad at sticking up for myself and she kept coming to me after class and “chatting” about it for a week until finally i said fine and filled the rest of the page and then a week later she said after hanging it up without my permission and i am quoting this verbatim “you know yours got a lot of compliments from other classes, i feel like i should take some of the credit because i convinced you to fix it and make it more balanced” she has said “oh i like your hand” (i draw + write song lyrics on my hand and arm to help me focus) and when i said thanks she REACHED OUT AND LITERALLY RUBBED MY HAND even when i tried to pull it away (my 504 literally has a thing about no unannounced physical touch) she has given me a low grade on a project because she “felt like it was depressing” like she is not even a good teacher i just. ugh.

#like im 80% sure i said in my fucking email with the class choices i knew it was on the late side of things so please put me in study hall #if my electives were full #but like. what is this bullshit. #the entire school is just horribly fucking run too #they changed the bell schedule 3 times in the first 2 weeks #we had a lockdown drill for all 8 periods like one for each class (so youre prepared for every classroom) #and the school neglected to plan them properly so we ended up doing 3 of them #god i hate this fucking school #and its not even the fucking district #my elementary school was run fine middle school was fine i have friends at the alternative school and its run great #just the one goddamn high school that sucks #like wtf #public school #american school system #cw rant

[bixels]

Just gonna have to wait and see, right? Just wait and see! Just gotta wait and see! Who knows, we'll just have to wait and see! It's anybody's guess, we'll just have to wait and see! The future is exciting, we just gotta wait and see!

#personal #my art #Fuck your fake ass 'i am very smart!' intellectualizing “observations” and open your god damn ears. #do something for fucks sake. it's sickening seeing videos of ai crap and seeing rows and rows of repliers using their one brain synapse #to type “wow! very exciting!” “haha this is kind of scary! but in a really interesting way!” #and then they go about their day without a second thought while creative industries burn around them #i go to one of america's top tech schools too and it's enough to make you wanna tear our your hair #every day it's seminars and talks about “the potential consequences of ai!” when the consequences are happening NOW #NO MORE DISCUSSING NO MORE INTELLECTUALIZING NO MORE SOCRATIC SEMINARS NO MORE DEBATING. ACT YOU COWARDS #people are getting hurt RIGHT NOW. stop pretending to care when you clearly don't! just be honest and say you wanna make money #my time here has really made me hate academic spaces. you people are so god damn useless and cowardly.

[decolonize-the-left]

Guess who got a trophy (ticket) for being so cool (front window is tinted too dark) on their way to Cool World (picking up my kid from school)?

If you wanna help me pay it, it's $145.

We don't have $145 and are in fact behind on rent, so anything is appreciated, especially a reblog ❤️

Cashapp: CEOofAntifa

PayPal: click here

Venmo: CEOofAntifa

/ $145

#god i fucking hate cops we've had this car a year with no issue and ofc its the Patrol Schools Quota Cop who tickets us #fucking loser #acab

[toytulini]

listen im ace and im pro kink at pride and whatever, but the way some of yall are wording your posts in response to the backlash against it is uh. really taking me back to the ace shitcourse era.

yall know theres nothing wrong with being a "virgin", right? that its not inherently shameful to have not had sex, to never have sex, even if youre not ace, even if you do want to have sex someday, like, its fine that you haven't had sex?

maybe if your problem is that theyre trying to police your behavior and shame you for expressing your sexuality, you can say that? instead of resorting to "haha stupid virgin gets no bitches" like my god. do you not hear how fucking regressive that attitude is? i know, i know, youre "joking".

get a better joke

#toy txt post #god im going to regret this post im gonna regret it so much i can feel it in my bones #let it flop..........pls #internalize my message let it sink in and understand what i am saying and then let the post flop #i say. knowing the ppl who need to see such a message are the ones who will make me regret this post and regrwt not having #1 million bajillion disclaimers #virgin is in quotes bc its a bullshit made up stupid purity culture concept anyway and quite frankly i hate even seeing the word #disclaimer: the previous sentence is not me saying that it is a slur for asexuals. it is me a single individual saying this specific word #grosses me out to read and see everywhere when its a stupid bullshit binary made up or at least historically largely used #to shame largely women and i dont know why we're still using it in 2023 #and ive just been. seeing such an uptick in this whole like. attitude? lately and like #im ace im minorly sex repulsed. mostly about anything sex at me bad. other adults sex at each other consensually? go wild #i like to think im pretty chill about it. i try to be. i think its fine ig to be like 'my meat is huge i fuck so much so good' #like okay not my thing but good for you. love that for you #but then some of yall have started turning it back around back to. 'haha your meat so small and shriveled you get no bitches' #'haha stupid incel virgin' like okay. didnt realize we all went back to fucking. middle school but okay #god im gonna run out of tine to get ready for my thing writing this stupid post UGH evil #but like idk we've kinda circled back to being like haha being a virgin still is stupid and silly and shameful #and if im quite honest. i do think the acecourse played a part in that bc i felt like we were making good progress in like #hey guys is fine to not have sex ever if you dont want to its fine to not want sex its fine #and then aphobes went fucking rabid on us and splintered and destroyed online communities all over but especially on tumblr #and so many aces went back in the closet we stopped talking about it we stopped spreading awareness and now this stupid goddamn like #and now this stupid bullshit attitude is back where its like funny to call someone a virgin as an insult but like no bro trust me its okay #its okay for me to do it bc im a hot queer person with huge meat instead of a cisstraight frat bro with huge meat #? like you know the issue was the behavior right? not the fact that it was straight dudes saying it? its bc the thing being said was shitty? #you know you can dunk on the puritan bitches trying to police your behavior at pride without getting us as collateral damage right #stop making me read that stupid ugly ass word ur not cool or funny #whatever #if you come on to this post to start shit i will not only block you but as many of your mutuals and followers as i can find. i will scroll #i will block this entire fucking website if i need to do not test me. i am exhausted and the acecourse ate up all my tolerance in 2015.

[yooniesim]

Statement from Overwolf

...Okay, first of all, this whole statement is sadly nothing but them taking the same exact route as before: misdirecting & changing the narrative to only be about "victims" when their Home Support initiative is partnered with the ILF, an openly Zionist organization. This isn't about innocent parties only when they're partnered with an organization that contributes directly towards IDF Military Intelligence. All of the money from the fund goes to the ILF's bank account to distribute, per their own FAQ page. And even without that, the association alone is enough to boycott. Overwolf and Curseforge cannot be "clean of politics" while their CEO partners with and therefore directly supports Zionist parties.

Screenshots directly from Home Support website & ILF website

This statement overall stinks because it puts the blame fully onto people with legitimate concerns by calling them all harassers. Have some people gone too far towards creators? 100%. I know that well. But Overwolf is clearly using that to deflect off of themselves, and this is why it never should have been done in the first place. Y'all focused on the wrong shit- the smaller targets instead of the big ones, and the wrong claim that they're directly funding the IDF with CF revenue, and now they're doing exactly what I said they would: once again using the fact that that's not technically true to weasel out of people's concerns. They even directly call out the fact that it's misinformation like I said they would! They clarified fucking nothing, they repeated the same shit they already said because they know they can. We need to change the focus of the boycott so that they are forced to address their actual wrongdoing! Stop spending all your time sending threatening messages on anon and instead spread factual information with sources and reach out to creators in good faith effort to get them to speak without the fear of being attacked. They will stay silent as long as the negative consequences (financially & socially) is all on them and not Overwolf & EA.

I'm still working on a comprehensive post with everything, but in the meantime, please spread this post around.

#ceci speaks #nonsims #text #important #the curseforge issue #boycott stuff #curseforge boycott #i hate being right but what can i say #tumblr fucking up another thing by not understanding boycotts and reacting to any criticism with middle school hostility? #say it aint so! #god this message is so fucking slimy #maybe they read my posts lmfao #or maybe im just that spot on with shady ass parties bc damn #yall were on my ass hardcore werent ya but i told u so!!!!! #curseforge #overwolf #overwolf boycott

[luck-of-the-drawings]

[<==PREV PAGES] [NEXT PAGE==>(not out yet.wait a year.or maybe more.imagine.]

saw alot of comments on prev pages; saying 'i HATE that mean teacher! im gonna FIGHT HIM!!' & i LOVE the energy!! it WOULD be nice. to have that catharsis. but the story of young tidestrider is Not one of catharsis. it is a story of being so small and so special and sucking so bad.

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi riptide #gillion tidestrider #GONNA START FORMATTING MY COMICS BETTER. W THE PROPER 'PREV' 'NEXT' LINKS #REALLY DIDNT EXPECT TO CONTINUE THIS SERIES BUT AAAUUUHH MY BRRAAAIN MY BRAIN IS SO IDEASSS. I HAVE 3 OTHER PAGES SKETCHED OUT #NO PROMISES ILL FINISH EM ANY TIME SOON OR EVER. MY WHIMS ARE THEIR OWN BEAST AND I ONLY DRAW ON MY WHIMS #THAT BEING SAID IF U COMMISSIONED ME ILL GEEETT TO YOUUU IM SORRYYYY. ART IS AN EMOTIONAL RELEASE FOR ME N BABY I HAVE EMOTIONS. #ESPECIALLY ABOUT GILLION TIDESTRIDER CHAMPION OF THE UNDERSEA HERO OF THE DEEP.for the desc here i put smth that i typed up in the tags of #another thing i made. i gotta make a proper Baby Gillion tag or smth. eventually.. eventually...I LOVE DRAWIN THIS LIL BABY GUY.. #i also LOVE depicting the teachers as just being so fuckin mean. ofc theres variation in that. just like in all things.like the teacher her #idk if itll be mentioned but the octo lady is named Ms Octburn.an octopus pun based off the name of an actual councilor i had #when i was in elementary school i got bullied alot but teachers never did anything. i hated adults and didnt trust them. #but this councilor o mine was so genuinely sweet. i remember spending alot of time w her. she doesnt work there anymore. #but that one school adult that actually earns ur trust and is there for you when they can be.its SO important for a child i think #i hope she knows how much she helped me.youll see in the next page that ms octburn isnt perfect either.but she tries. they all try.somehow. #ALL these comics are gonna be inspired by somesorta experience o mine in the school system. school is so fucked up u ever thing abt that #AND GILLIOOOOONNN IN THE MOST FUCKED UP LITTLE SCHOOL OF ALL. MAINTAINED BY A CULT. CENTERED AROUND HIM. OUR CHOSEN ONE #I IMAGINE ALOT BANKS ON HIS SUCCESS. THIS IS THE WORLD. THE WHOLE WORLD. THE PROPHECY IS GOING TO COME TRUE N UR TELLIN ME #THAT ITS THIS LITTLE IDIOT THATS GONNA BE SAVING US? WHAT IF HE FAILS. IF HE CANT GET THIS RIGHT THEN HE WILL FAIL AND WE WILL DIE #WE NEED TO TRAIN HIM. WE NEED HIM TO LEARN. AND TO SUCCEED. OR ELSE WE'RE DEAD. WE'RE ALL FUCKING DEAD. I IMAGINE THAT MUST BE STRESSFUL #in other news i hope ppl actually giggle when they read these. they ARE intended to be comical. dark humor or whatever. like its also sad #this is intended to be a sad comic series. but a funny one too. does that make sense? god i hope so.saw some1 say they had flashbacks- #-reading this. like YES!! THE INTENDED EFFECT!! YOU GET ME!! i love seeing ppl get upset on this lil baby boys behalf. i LOVE seeing ppl- #-wail n weep n cry in the comments. i LOOOVE seeing ppl RELATE to baby gillion. and i love letting u all know that this wont be a happycomi #gillion gets his happiness arc in the actual show. this series is one of unfortunate events. teehehehe. do u guys remember that show #i keep listening to the lil songs from A Series of Unfortunate Events for inspiration. GOOD STUFF!! #anyway uuhh uhh thats all i got in my brain. for now. feed me ur comments give me ur input i NNEEEEEDD THHEEEMMMM

[frnkiebby]

oh my god. he’s. i am very grateful bc he’s so pretty and i’ve never seen this one, BUT WHAT IS HIS HAIR HERE~🎃

#this looks like some 2009 school photo #i’m having more flashbacks #i love him and he’s gorgeous no matter what #but one: i’ve never seen this one??????? #and two: how did you manage to find and send me a picture of frank with hair i might hate as much his god forsaken glue locs #that being said HOW HAVE I NOT SEEN THIS #he’s a fucking cutie #that poor sullen baby #he needs a hug #and a haircut. #frnkiebby #fungh0uls #frank iero #mcr #frnkiero #mcr5 #frnkie #mcrmy #my chemical romance #my chem #ilhsm

[novalizinpeace]

today in ''why i feel bad for the next generation''

#dude I used to have panic attack due school #but it was when i have 15-17 #you know when stuff become serious #MY COUSIN IS JUST 12 YEARS OLDS #AND NOBODY IS HELPING HIM GET STUFF #that also on my aunt's fault #but the school is also making a mess here #how the fuck do you expect a child to understands uniform rectilinear motion and that stuff #WHEN YOU HADN'T TEACH HIM ABOUT EQUATIONS?!?! #DUDE HE DOESN'T EVEN KNOW HOW TO FIND X #HOW 'M SUPPOSED TO HELP THIS FELLA WITH COMPLEX EQUATIONS IF YOU HADN'T GIVE HIM THE BASIS?!? #my cousin is breaking is not the sharpest knife in the kitchen neither #so here i am #god i hate being the oldest cousin #rant #nova head is burning

[t4transsexual]

me: im using tranny as a political identity in the same way queer people used the word queer as an identity and normalized it. if we use these words and attach positive connotations to them they cant be used as slurs to us. all of my friends do it as well. if i and all of my friends are trannies, tranny cant be a slur to us

worlds most literate tiktok user: yea but queer is an identity and tranny is not!!!!

#i fucking hate tiktok why do i use it #you just cant have an intelligent conversation on there #and god forbid youre anything like an old school queer #omgg #trans #tranny

[swagglessmoth]

Ghost eyes doodles from an AU bc they've been rotting my brain

#ghost eyes #ghost eyes webtoon #MY ocs now #i would edit the pictures but it messes up the colour :( #Tobias went to a different school and didn't socialize for shit #Emilio and Carmelo endes up being roomates #bc they're single and don't have enough money to buy their own house #Tobias is their neighbour #Carmelo fucking hates him and Emilio wants to study him #but in a 'I want to document you like a rare species' way #not in a 'you're my god and I'd kill babies for you' way #oh and Tobi and Rudy met in rehab #he sometimes visits Tobias' house and when he sees Carmelo one day shit gets tense #idk what else #they're a messy friend group #oh and nobody knows about the whole 'demon eater thing' #Tobi's mostly got it under control and isn't telling anyone shit

[nyaskitten]

Child's Play is such a stupid episode. I KNOW it's cartoon logic, but the Mega Weapon de-ages the ninja to kids, let's say 8-10, right? And Lloyd was canonically 10, right? HOW did the stupid tea know how to make the ninja older than Lloyd ? or did it make them the same age ?? because according to Tommy A., Lloyd is younger than all the ninja.

The ninja were likely around 15/16 pilots-s2, so if they went from like 16 to 10, that's a 6-year difference, while Lloyd was like 10, and lets say he went to like 14, that's only four years. Meanwhile, the Grundle has clearly been dead for several years, so how did the tea know to make it like a few decades old?

And I'm aware a body usually takes 2 years to turn into a skeleton, but given what we know about how the Grundle is treated as a legend, it clearly died out decades prior.

#i just. i hate it . its interesting how lloyd was robbed of his childhood #but the writers cant even do THAT right #sry this is so aggressively written #I had an abhorrently shit day at school today #god i fucking hate that one specific classmate of mine #ninjago #raine's rambles

[spidernerd625]

I actually love learning history, but we barely learn any of it in school. I want to learn EVERYTHING! ESPECIALLY the crazy stuff! Teach me the things that don't make sense! Teach me the details about how people loved, what they did! What shinanigins did they get up to? Make me reenact something ridiculous and crazy!

Gods, I love history!

Got these pictures from my for you page on Tik Tok

These pictures are NOT mine.

#tik tok #history #love history #this isn't history related but way do we have to take 4 whole years of English??? #like wtf #i swear to god we basically do the same thing every year #my mom said when she was in highschool they had to take Latin #i wanna be forced to learn a language #latin sounds kinda cool #my school doesn't even teach that #i want asl to be a language class #i bet SO many people would benefit in the future from learning it. #mention of witches #witches #mention of witches burning/witch trails #history is actually pretty fucking cool ngl #I kinda hated learning history in school #it was just so fucking boring #i learned all of the past presidents in second grade #why do i need to do that again in highschool? #i can't believe we didn't watch Hamilton in any of my history classes #HISTORY #make history more fun to learn #why is it like school was designed to punish us

[crabussy]

I want to take a bite out of someone's arm but I'm too shy

#it's ok to reblog this post and ignore the rant in the tags I don't mind at all /gen #hi guys #got another load of trauma from school #and I am not dealing with it well at all my legs have been shaking so badly for 4 hours now #had a panic attack so bad that my face went numb and the edges of my vision went black and my legs gave way #I hate my teacher she's horrible god I can't even go into it here there's so much #I'm tired of getting abused at school I've been to half a dozen schools and have not gotten traumatised at ONLY ONE OF THEM #I have no adults I can go to about this #whenever I try to talk with her and the head teacher about the situation and why I'm fucking terrified of her she acts so patient and kind #whenever I'm alone with her she will yell at me about everything I'm doing wrong and continue yelling even when I'm in tears #she will berate me and put me down and insult me directly #when she gives feedback she always puts effort into making it hurt #the language she uses for negative feedback is never what a teacher should say it's always personal and uses your weaknesses to hurt you #I get really bad intrusive thoughts about her hurting me physically because of how terrified I am of her #the worst part is she acts nice and sweet whenever she's not picking apart my weaknesses and being cruel about my disabilities #I felt so sick after that I haven't eaten since #vent tw #trauma tw #listen to my gibberish boy #ggod I hate this school

[decolonize-the-left]

You're 9.

You've been waiting 3 months to see a doctor about chronic leg pain and migraines. You. Are. 9. With chronic leg pain so bad you have not had a decent night's sleep in... You dont know how long. You've seen him about this already about twice over the course of a year and hes written in down as "growing pains" and wasn't concerned.

You get there and the doctor tells your mom to make sure you drink more water and sleep better and here's a website about what causes headaches. See you in August.

•°•°•

I'm going to scream. My mom has lupus. I can barely fucking walk already (I'm not even 30 yet) and my kid is showing the same signs I was and you're going to say "just drink more water and here's a site"

IM A MOM. I KNOW THE SITE. I CAN GOOGLE THINGS MYSELF.

YOU ARE A FUCKING DOCTOR, WHY ARE YOU SHOWING ME A SITE JUST FUCKING TELL ME WHAT IT SAYS, THATS YOUR JOB WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK ACTUALLY WHAT THE FUCK.

Like her doctor really said

and my insurance is gonna get a crazy bill for it. I hate it here here

I hate it hate it I hate it I hate it hate it I hate it hate it I hate it I hate it hate it I hate it hate it I hate it I hate it hate it I hate it hate it I hate it I hate it hate it I hate it hate it I hate it I hate it hate it I hate it hate it I hate it I hate it hate it I hate it hate it I hate it I hate it hate it I hate it hate it I hate it I hate it hate it

#im raging in a deeply Mentally ill way god i fucking hate doctors and the medical industry and private healthcare #and i hate that shitty lazy NTs & high school bullies looking for a check are the people that become doctors and nurses

[starlooove]

No bc fuck tim but it really really bothers me how people ignore his growth like he used to be an asshole and I’ll give tim Stans one thing: now he’s so so so stale but what I disagree with is that this staleness is bc nobody likes him like it’s in fact the exact opposite where everyone likes him so much they dont want to do anything. Even when it’s him surface level challenging Bruce it’s when everyone else is doing it too; but he’s still the backbone of the fam! Etc. and it’s so irritating bc him gaining more compassion and empathy even for people he doesn’t fw is so fun to watch and that’s why the captain boomerang thing was so out of character! (Not in a from the author way but in a tim wouldn’t do that and he and Bruce both knew it which is why it went down like it did. Same way dick killing joker was ooc; not in fanon sense but in a he would hate himself forever for this sense) and speaking of that it’s such an interesting mirror to Bruce who genuinely believes that everyone can grow vs Tim’s it doesn’t matter if they grow it’s not my decision to make like it’s the same but it’s not AND WITH CASS’ IT DOESNT MATTER IF THEY CHOOSE NOT TO GROW I WONT DO IT! like ugh. And anyways even when people acknowledge it they boil it down to “Janet and Jack taught him that the capitalist pigs that they are” like no. This is who tim was. Tim was the kind of guy who’d blame a dead kid for dying. That’s ok. Also Janet and Jack? Please reread anything involving them that’s not a fic like Jack had anger issues and they were both aloof at worst like relax.

#the Jack and Janet thing is both an understatement and an exaggeration but I don’t think anyone reads enough to care #some tim stan might get all pissy and be like ‘no look this is everytime jack yelled at him and boarding schools are abusive’ to which #and its like narratively that means nothing bc the tim you made up to justify the Drake parents you made up by blowing shit out of #proportion is also made up and if all of that was abusive there’d be smth to show for it besides ur homophobic Jack #too girlboss to care but still terrible Janet bc god forbid a woman have a personality from ur fics #anyways that’s also the reason I’m ignoring the council of spiders #well two reasons #first is that was just a moment to make tim look cool and did absolutely nothing for him or his character moving on #like at all #I’d say it fucked with his previous established dislike of killing for his own reasons #and while that COULD be interesting it’s not bc they didn’t do shit with it #and fanon doesn’t do fun shit with it either #nothing about how tim in his most manic state did shit he doesn’t want to remember shit he’d HATE other ppl for #just “’remember what I did to ur base Ra’s? mess with me again and see what I do next 😼’ #like ok can you be real and genuine? #anyways I think #AND NOT IN A HATER WAY #Tim would benefit from being humbled #like genuinely I detest the world can’t move without tim running it but the idea that tim thinks that way is so good to me #and #I think next step being him realizing that’s not true would be a BIG push for his character #bc like I said tim Stans are right in the fact that he’s stale as hell rn #but that’s bc there’s nothing to say bc there’s nowhere to go! y’all want a tim action story where he shows off how badass he is reread #the Bruce quest and maybe it’ll remind you he’s not ceo lmao but anyways there’s nothing internal to say about him atp bc nobody wants to #say anything that’s not propping him up. same with Bruce! Gotham war was such a copout but it’s like ppl are saying he’s stale and it’s bc #god forbid he makes a lasting fumble. and I’m not under the illusion this is new I’m just saying it’s weird that fandoms not clocking it #anywayyys I really do like thinking about the No killing rule and how different it manifests for each perosn #like the way each distinct difference tells u so much about them #UGH ONLY SLIGHTLY RELATED BUT DUUUUUKE BEING LIKE IDGAF ABOUT GUNS LIKE UR SO REAAAL #anyways enough tim positivity for today FUCK THAT NIGGA!

[my--moon]

“You're confused, [Name]. I would never.”

#I HATE BOYS #SPECIFICALLY THE ONES AT MY SCHOOL. #female rage #femcel #female hysteria #girl interrupted #girl interrupted syndrome #female manipulator #lanadelrey #lana del slay #norman fucking rockwell #national anthem #ldr lyrics #ldr #lana is god #lana del ray aesthetic #lana del rey #lana del ray aka lizzy grant #toxicity #toxic masculinity #Toxic men #UGH