#guess we try again

[incarnateirony]

oh no i made the mistake of staying awake here

what even are my notes today

YEAH i gotta go i got a. thing

#last night's list #guess we try again #to the fairest dove #SuperBowl or SuperbOwl #misheard lyrics #itsyaBOI hot topic jebus grinding with the squad #the movie ending is best #we don't know what this cocaine bear movie even is #but my boy is EXPIRING to get to that door and is gonna make good on his promise #hey noiz this is basically my life too #smuggling the cat #i'm crying into my cheeseburger #when this is all over we gonna have to have a talk about toiler paper tartarus #Youtube

[ohhgingersnaps]

I'm seeing some frustration over fandom creatives expressing anger or distress over people feeding their work into ChatGPT. I'm not responding to OP directly because I don't want to derail their post (their intent was to provide perspective on how these models actually work, and reduce undue panic, which is all coming from a good place!), but reassurances that the addition of our work will have a negligible impact on the model (which is true at this point) does kind of miss the point? Speaking for myself, my distress is less about the practical ramifications of feeding my fic into ChatGPT, and more about the principle of someone taking my work and deliberately adding it to the dataset.

Like, I fully realize that my work is a drop in the bucket of ChatGPT's several-billion-token training set! It will not make a demonstrable practical difference in the output of the model! That doesn't change the fact that I do not want my work to be part of the set of data that the ChatGPT devs use for training.

According to their FAQ, ChatGPT can and will use user input to train itself. The terms and conditions explicitly state that they save your chats to help train and improve their models. (You can opt-out, but sharing is the default.) So if you're feeding a fic into ChatGPT, unless you've explicitly opted out, you are handing it to the ChatGPT team and giving them permission to use it for training, whether or not that was your intent.

Now, will one fic make a demonstrable difference in the output of the model? No! But as the person who spent a year and a handful of months laboring over my fic, it makes a difference to me whether my fic, specifically, is being used in the dataset. If authors are allowed to have a problem with the ChatGPT devs for scraping millions of fics without permission, they're also allowed to have a problem with folks handing their individual fics over via the chat interface.

I do want to add that if you've done this to a fic, please don't take this as me being upset with you personally! Folks are still learning new information and puzzling out what "good" vs. "bad" use is, from an ethical standpoint. (Heck, my own perspective on this is deeply based on my own subjective feelings!) And we certainly shouldn't act like one person feeding a fic into ChatGPT has the same practical negative impact, on a broad societal scale, as a team using a web crawler to scrape five billion pieces of artwork for Stable Diffusion.

The point is that fundamentally, an ethical dataset should be obtained with the consent of those providing the data. Just because it's normalized for our data to be scraped without consent doesn't make it ethical, and this is why ChatGPT gives users the option to not share data— there is actually a standardized way (robots.txt) for website servers to set policies for how bots/crawlers can interact with them, for exactly this reason— and I think fandom artists and authors are well within their rights to express a desire for opting out to be the socially-respected default within the fandom community.

#maybe this is an ice cold take but i've been meaning to go off about datasets for a while so here we are i guess #i can respect what op's frustrations were and what they were trying to get at! but also i do not want my fic in chatgpt's dataset #regardless of whether it will make a practical difference #and again i don't think the people doing this are necessarily bad actors or having a huge negative social impact #chatgpt #chat gpt #ai #fandom #negative #(possibly! i'm trying not to be!! especially because this is very feelings-based and there are many things i am not considering) #the model may not demonstrably change because of your fic. but it does have your fic now and that does matter maybe idk

[literaryspinster]

I hear a lot of talk about how Hollywood isn't comfortable with showing romantic relationships, interracial or otherwise, without a white person involved. But I'm not sure that fans are actually comfortable with that either? And I don't think they're comfortable without a significant white (white male specifically) presence in their favorite genre shows.

#i'm not trying to start drama but i'm hearing some takes on gen v twitter that are making me not know how to feel rn... #like we have a show that doesn't go out of its way to center white men too much and yet i sense they wish they would do it more #and like #why? #because the combo of cate emma and sam can literally do the job of whatever new white character they think would add something to the cast #if you need a nice white character to be a man for whatever reason then maybe watch the boys? you'd probably like it. i do. #dm me if you're curious i guess but again i don't want drama and i don't want to automatically think the worst of people

[journey-to-the-attic]

the rest of the cast got their new song covers, so i wanted to try putting the others in a band :>

i did want to make it look a bit like an album cover but i have no idea how those are designed so eh?? i also couldn't think of any band or album/song names so. if anyone has any ideas...

#art #obey me #obey me raphael #jtta ik #obey me mephistopheles #obey me thirteen #from left to right they are: lead singer/rhythm guitar - drummer - lead guitar - bass #tbh any of them could've taken any role but bassist girl thirteen spoke to me and raph canonically sings well so that felt like it fit #i did consider ik as lead but she'd absolutely shred on the drums. she has so much pent-up rage to let out... #in context this is for a music festival diavolo's putting on but it'd be a fun au as well #i like to think thirteen is the overwhelming favourite of all the fangirls #also in terms of band name... #i was thinking something based on the fact that there's one of each species (human/demon/angel/reaper) but what word can i use for that #jo has suggested something involving the numbers 3 and 4 for 3 realms and 4 members #3.4HZ Harmony was the best we could come up but it feels like there should be a sorta other-world element to it #then again if it's an au then i guess they'd all be humans anyway #ah whatever #life and work related obligations have been growing so naturally i've been starting a bunch of creative endeavours to try to get away from #is this a long term good thing for future career prospects? probably not. but i'd rather be happy

[howmanyholesinswisscheese]

Imagine for me.

Crowley and Aziraphale crying as they kiss for the second time. Tears staining their lips with salt, their voices broken and long abandoned for words cannot begin to describe this feeling, sniffing as they break apart to dry their eyes, their faces breaking into watery smiles at the sight of the other in their arms. Crowley reaching out and drying Aziraphale’s cheek with a shaky swipe of his thumb. Aziraphale cradling his hand, grasping it before it can be pulled away, leaning into it and whispering, “I missed you.” Crowley’s eyes, red and puffy, softening even further, his sunglasses discarded a few paces behind him. “Missed you, too.”

Aziraphale choking back a sob, Crowley doing the same, both falling into each other and smiling, smiling so hard, despite the tears that spill down their cheeks and trace familiar lines that were born of heartbreak and pain, now carved deeper by the spoils of their joy. Grasping each other in an embrace so tight the forces of Heaven and Hell could not break them apart again, but God knows they’ll try.

Crowley and Aziraphale crying as they kiss for the second time, their sobs rich with relief, and for the first time in so long those tears are happy. For the first time in so long, they have each other in their arms. And they will never let go.

(update on this its a fic now)

#what the fuck I was trying to write something happy and yet HERE WE ARE #I mean I guess it’s kind of happy? #failed attempt I’ll try again next time #SORRY #good omens #good omens 3 #crowley #aziraphale #ineffable husbands #ineffable divorce #aziracrow

[scificrows]

i like to make fun of murderbot for being all "i hate everyone, i don't care about anything or anyone, fuck off" while simultaneously caring very much about the people around it and the situations it finds itself in. i love how it "accidentally" ends up caring quite a lot about the friends it makes along the way. but i think something that i tend to forget is that murderbot actively decides to care - at least at some point in its story.

idk, as a person that struggles with depression, this paragraph from artificial condition really resonates with me. prior to all systems red, murderbot had contracts. it had routine and it had protocols. it knew what it had to do to just get by, how to perform so no one would notice it had disabled its governor module. it was deeply depressed, yes, but it was functioning (for lack of a better word). in artificial condition, murderbot's routine is gone. it cannot go on in that state of numbly going-from-contract-to-contract, putting in as little effort as possible, consuming media to cope. that option is gone because it escaped (and note that escaping the company was not an active choice, it kinda happened to it). murderbot has two options now: it can either gather all its energy; actively do something new and difficult and distressing; change something in its life and try. or it can let the numbness and the emptiness take over and stop trying. if murderbot wants to survive as a rogue secunit, it has to try. no matter how difficult that is. the wording in that paragraph really hits home for me. the way the non-caring sees an opportunity to slip in and to take over. does murderbot even care? does anything really matter? is anything really worth the hassle? wouldn't it be so much easier to just let your mind slip away a little, to go numb, to be passive, to watch media and wait for things to happen to you? wouldn't it be nice to stop thinking and struggling and feeling complicated things? to stop making an effort? you've been dealing with a lot lately and maybe it's time to just shut down. maybe you'll just take a little break. just slip deeper into this chair and start the show. time flies when you're not paying attention. trying is exhausting. who cares if you don't do the things you wanted to do, you were supposed to do. it'll be fine. let's just ignore those things for now. just let the non-caring take over. just stop thinking. you can deal with the aftermath later. just watch your shows. who cares. but murderbot cares. it decides to care. it decides to fight with all it has and i think that is so brave. and i think in the later books caring is less of an active decision for murderbot. once you start caring, it's easier to keep going than to stop; and murderbot, for all its "i'm a grumpy rogue secunit, leave me alone" behavior, knows just how important caring is. so it's not that it doesn't know what's happening; rather, it lets itself care. tl;dr: caring is not the default for murderbot, it's just the more difficult of two options. and it decides not to take the soft option. it decides to struggle. it decides to care. and so it does.

#sorry i'm rambling i'm a little depressed rn (hah) and i've been thinking about murderbot again #at least writing this got me out of the adhd/depression paralysis :) yeah this might be self-indulgent so what #the murderbot diaries #murderbot #𓄿 #i just love martha wells' writing for things like that #and i love murderbot as a character so very much #also i'm pretty sure some of this could be read in a way i did not intend #i'm not trying to say that depressed people have the option to just not be depressed #or that it's as easy as going “okay well i can either care or not care... i guess i should care! done!” #listen i know it's not like that; i know that first hand #but murderbot had just enough energy and fight in it to try and it had people in its life that cared about it and helped it #and it managed to get out of that deep dark hole #and we see it struggling with trauma etc in the later books #things are not magically better #just yeah #okay imma add #tw depression #tw suicide #(this is not about suicide though; this is about sitting on the couch while the dishes and the laundry pile up #and watching netflix because getting up and taking care of yourself and calling a friend or going outside are too difficult) #(but i can see how this might hit a little close to home if that is something someone's struggling with&better safe than sorry) #also sending lots of love to everyone who this resonates with

[mortysmith]

In theory i like the idea that rick is growing and developing as a person. In practice it ends up falling short though, because no one balances him out. rick is getting better while no one else is getting worse, and it causes the whole thing to end up feeling a bit stale. The biggest draw, at least for me, has always been rick and morty's shitty dynamic, but it barely exists anymore because rick has been so watered down.

The ideal solution is literally just to make morty into a bigger asshole. Essentially flipping the main characters' personalities would offer a wide variety of conflict into the show, and would also help keep it "fresh".

Instead it feels the writers are pretending that they can't possibly do anything with morty's character, that they have to keep him the same anxious idiot he was in season one. I've said this before, but it's incredibly frustrating to watch the show have no problem with expanding rick's character while struggling with keeping morty's heavily stagnated characterization consistent. Where rick has space to develop between multiple seasons, morty is constantly forced into one of two boxes (smart/stupid) depending on the episode.

#rick and morty #again i dont hate ricks therapy arc i just hate that morty doesnt have a parallel AntiTherapy arc #not to mention how. even if morty IS more bitter it usually only lasts for like an episode #there is no smooth progression or development. the show is just ping ponging between him being an idiot vs him being capable #this is why im sooooooososososo badly hoping the roy machine comes into play again. #otherwise this is genuinely offensive treatment of a main character #genuinely at the moment i feel like fandom understands morty better than the writers. #this is a half vent post to be honest im just so tired of the rick bias within the staff. Like make. a new show at this point #i also have thoughts on the way rick has been written these past few seasons and um . #well it feels lile fans are in the writers room and im afraid this is a negative. it sort of seems like the show is trying to- #sweep ricks past actions and behaviors under the rug #as if he isnt literally the worst person ever. up until recently i guess. #like its just frustrating seeing mortys abuse being handled so haphazardly? like the s5 2 crows episode #it just feels like the writers are trying to fill out a checklist instead of writing them as people. #“what we had was abusive dont you see?” who talks like this #okay im over it(lying) #rick sanchez #morty smith

[legogender]

dr s2 is really great so far

#ONLY 2 EPS IN NO SPOILERS PLEASEEEE #ninjago #ninjago dragons rising #dragons rising #artsbotz #ninjago spoilers #so vaguely. #trying to do at least one doodle per ep. for fun #id like to rewatch the whole show at some point so it cld be fun to do that too for old eps #i probs wont post them all individually but im excited abt watching it again #me: heh... guess ill watch the new ninjago season. im kinda over it tho / me five minutes in: [passed out from excitement] #very fun . we WILL get the therapy arc. i can feel it coming #sorry abt the zane pic but that line rlly made me giggle bc i wasnt looking at the screen when it happened. the possibilities

[luck-of-the-drawings]

smth smth about 'the thing that the character did that you thought was rly rly funny in the moment is actually linked to a terrible trauma that lies within said character.' or wahtever.

#jrwi show #jrwi fanart #jrwi riptide #gillion tidestrider #made this within a short span of wahtever bc i gotta go up to the mountains for my stupid gay job tonight n im trying #nnot to frrRREAAAK THE FUCK OUUTTTTTTi dont wanna work but. get that bread we fuckin shall i guess #ONWARDS TO THE FISH TORMENT!! sometimes flowers feel pain when you trim them before their blossoming. atleast i imagine so #i used to draw gillion with loooong hair tied into a big ol braid. and then it was confirmed that he had short hair when he was little. #AT FIRST I WAS SAD. but then i realized the duality of. when they were little. gill had short hair. edyn had long hair. #AND NOW THEYRE OLDER. and gillion has long hair. and edyn has short hair #both mirroring eachother. looking up to eachother. subconsciously or not. they most certainly care. and most certainly miss eachother. #GILLION ALWAYS LOVED HOW LONG HAIR LOOKs. atleast i imagine so. he hasnt cut it since he left the undersea. sure he wanted to go back home #but even at the very start. he knew he was free in some way now. free to grow out his hair. an adventure would await him before he returns. #he knew it would be a while. so he cant let this go. he cant let this sought-after hair-length get cut away from him again #not yet. not yet. i like to think he loved music too. I SAW SOMETHING INTERESTING A BIT AGO #i see alot of ppl commenting on my baby gill comics like;'i wouldFIGHT this teacher i wanna KILL EM i want them DESTROYED #all very good and nice sentiments! i LOVE the energy here! and it would be nice. to have that catharsis #but the story of young tidestrider is not a story of catharsis. it is a story of agony and being so so small and so special and also so dum #and sucking so bad. and just being a kid and doing the things that a little kid does and so many tired tired people reacting badly to it #youre supposed to be the hero that will save us. our world hangs in the balance and you are the one who tips the scales. #YOU are supposed to SAVE US!! you NEED to SAVE US! CAN YOU PLEASE STOP SQUIRMING IN YOUR STUPID CHAIR!! #you'd think that young tidestrider ought to prevail. and be tucked someplace all safe and sound. #elders gone missing and rotting in a jail. their cultists nowhere around. but theres no happy endings. not here not now. #this tale is all sorrows n woes. you may dream that justice n peace win the day. but thats not how this story goes #BIG ideas for this lil baby gillion series. if anything i make ever gets disproven im killing myself in a well as to poison a water supply

[juniemunie]

Don't you have anything better to do?

Just let them go.

(Yes its based off that pic from Veil)

#okay sansnomaly rant time. #ITS ABOUT. THE YEARNING. #one of the main themes of undertale is letting go #toriel lets go of her stubborness. letting you go and giving asgore mercy #asgore letting go of his anger #flowey/asriel accepting that chara is gone #chara refusing to let go of hating humanity... to the point of destroying themselves to take em down #and of course #us. #if we cant let go then neither can they. but thats tough. to let em go #we have that “perverted sentimentality”. #as mr alex hirsch says #“the first hardest challenge is to convince people to fall in love with your work" #“second hardest challenge is to create a finale because youre trying to break up with the people who just fell in love with you” #okay personal time #so guess whos semester is starting up again #so high chance i cant post as much as usual HAHAHHA oof #med school is gonna be a toughie ; w ; #ill try to interact but i probably cant draw as much anymore... enjoy this extremely rushed drawing... maybe ill clean it up one day #the brainrot is still strong though #thank you sansnomaly #keep trucking on everyone #sansnomaly #sans x self insert #sans x reader #junie art post

[coachbeards]

again saying that beard knowing about rebecca's actions would've caused delicious tension in season two. ted forgave her immediately, but i know damnnnnn well beard would not. not even just for ted's sake, even though that's a huge portion of it, but also....for the team??? beard loves the team, of course he does. he's the coach who claims being competitive and wanting to win, but he never wants it at the expense of the team. also again. "those were kids and are professionals and winning does matter to them, and it matters to me...and that's okay! how do you not get it? losing has repercussions. we lose, we get relegated. we get relegated, this is over and we will have built nothing." like that SPEECHHHHH. he cares about the team on a professional level, and he wants them to succeed. if he knew they were being deliberately sabotaged.......oh man. like i wish beard knew within canon (because trust me. we'd be able to tell if beard knew) because the tensions,,,, THE TENSIONS. beard not trusting her, ted trying to get him to come around,,,, you know??? two of ted's important people not on even grounds....

#i think we deserved it </3 #also beard's speech like why did they never use that energy again for beard lmao #i guess it was his crippling depression that they brought up one episode and never again about how he thinks he's a terrible coach #coach beard #ted lasso #I KEEP SAYING THIS BUT I CAN'T HELP THINKING ABT IT #rebecca and beard going from strangers to on uneven grounds to becoming friends... #them having a relationship arc of him trying to trust her ....... #TRUST

[nuclearanomaly]

Post workout cuddle, y/n?

pose ref

#ffxiv #Ninira Nira #Estinien #Estinien Varlineau #Estinien Wyrmblood #estinien x wol #wolstinien #I guess ship content on valentines afterall? #art: mine #Nothing fancy just more gracious pose refs because my brain is buffering a bit again #and like sometimes I try and size Nini more when I use a pose ref but ehg I couldn't be bothered today... big lala lmao #funny bc I did try to make Estinien's legs longer and did a little but was like no I want 0 effort left beef rn #Nini says gross ur all sweaty #is this a pushups reference? kinda? same fit #do u ever look at how they gave him his AF pants but his casual boots in that scene #and think why didn't u just give him those pants with his casual outfit ALWAYS #do you think they loaded him in in the horrible eureka leggings and saw the shot of his ass when he stands up like: we can't do this #bc it would have been horrible #would have RUINED the scene 1000% #lets all be thankful for the AF pants #this has been: I bitch about the stupid eureka pants again ty for listening

[bimbosupreme]

Your undying loyal servant

#mine #ashiya douman #wooooo #doumans circumstances around HOW and why they were summoned especially the nature of what they are…. #it’s a big gray area #are they happy about this circumstance? do they truly enjoy being a servant? #the material works mentions Douman not changing their nature despite helping us #I guess it’s kinda scary and admirable at how ambitious they are #I don’t have a good title I just think Douman can be scary at times #blease open up ur heart beloved funny onmyoji I’m sure we can punch seimei together #I wanted to go for a melting painting look but.. #I think I will have to try again wehehe. that just means Another douman painting don’t it? 😜 #like to think of douman just staring at you and this is them being tender lol

[ywpd-translations]

Ride 741: Danchiku's “shout”

Pag 1

1: In their eyes,an unshakable will....!!

Pag 2

3: Ahhhh

4: Danchiku is exhaling!! For so long!!

3.... 4....

5: 5 seconds!!

Ahh

6: No, he's exhaling even more!!

8... 9.... 10 seconds!!

Ahhhhh

Pag 3

1: 11 seconds.... 12 seconds!!

3: He's emptying his lungs using all his muscles around them!!

5: This is bad!!

Pag 4

1: It's coming!!

2: “Panda shout”

“It's a breathing technique”

“I become twice as fast”

The onw who reaches the sensor line first wins this race!!

If I don't get ahead now

3: He'll catch up!!

4: Ahhh

Pag 5

5: Filled up of “fresh”!!

6: Panda....

Pag 6

1: Shout!!

Hiigaruaaagh!!

Pag 7

1: Hiigaruaaagh!!

Pag 8

1: He caught up to me!!

2: Twice as fast!!

3: Kuaaaaagh

Pag 9

1: We entered the last curve!!

And Danchiku is still accelerating!!

2: This is Danchiku at “100%”!!

Pag 10

1: Cough cough

This is so hard!!

2: 300km left until the sensor line!!

3: Catch up, catch up, catch up

Catch up!!

Pag 11

1: Sugimoto Terufumi!!

2: Kuaaaaaa

200m left!!

Pag 12

1: Cough

Cough

2: We're all both human beings

We all have limbs, and a head

Danchiku, and Onoda, and Naruko too

3: We're all human beings!!

4: Our bikes aren't all that different

My Colnago is ligh and fast!!

5: So, I'll catch up

I'll catch up!!

6: I should catch up!!

Pag 13

1: I watched it, their running

3: I watched them from the sidelines

For three years!!

4: Onoda!!

Onoda-kun!!

Sakamichi!

Pedaaal!!

5: Doesn't matter how hard it was for them

Pag 14

1: They never gave up!!

3: Calm down, heart

Calm down, breath

4: Panda shout? Bamboo Hop Shot?

5: You're working hard,didn't you, Danchiku?

That's nice

6: Then I'll indulge you and let you practice with me!!

Kuaaaaaa

Pag 15

2: They left Onoda and the others behind.. so the race is on this lap!!

Nii-chan!! On!!

They're coming!!

3: Danchiku and Sugimoto

4: 100m left!! This will settle it!!

They both started the final sprint!!

Danchiku is ahead!! And he's smiling!!

Pag 16

1: Sorry, Sugimoto-san

As expected, you ran and practiced in Sohoku with no breaks for three years

2: But

It's over now!!

3: I'm sorry, but give up please!!

4: Sugimoto!!

5: Nii-chan!!

Pag 19

2: Kuaaaaaagh

4: Ju... just now....

Pag 20

1: They arrived at the same time.... on

2: At the end.... Sugimoto stretched ahead with a long sprint...

Who knew he could do something like that!!

3: Nii-chan really is amazing, on!!

4: But

A tie at this moment means that-

On

5: This race

Pag 21

1: Hasn't ended yet!!

It's a suddent death match until they settle this!!

2: A long.... sprint...

You still had.... something like that....

4: Good job.... my Colnago-chan, good job

5: No... now....!!

Should we go another lap, Danchiku?!

6: This guy.... he doesn't give up!!

#yowamushi pedal translations #yowamushi pedal #yowapeda #yowapeda manga #yowamushi pedal manga #yowamushi pedal spoilers #ride 741 #sugimoto is so cool????? #i did not expect it tbh lmao #this chapter is prettu surprising??? makes it so difficult to guess whats going to happen #i was talking with my sister earlier and we got to the conclusion that its possible that neither of them will go to the ih in the end #and both rokudai and kinaka will #because - lbr sugimoto is too weak to compete in the ih like IM SORRY AND I HATE TO SAY IT BUT ITS TRUE!! #and he's still treated as weak or anyway not so strong you know? and yes i do know we had junta last year who was the same #but thats it we cant have the same kind of character twice right? #so yeah the chances of him going are still low for me. but at the same time. danchiku and kaburagi are being too obnoxious #its like watanabe is trying his best to not make us cheer for them #and for sugimoto to be beaten once again by them? that'd be harsh #and its suspicios that thei race ended in a tie for two times. it should have ended already at this point #so. my guess is that for some reason (maybe onoda's choice? he is the captain after all. or maybe something will happen with the first year #for some reason neither of them will be chosen and roku and kinaka will #but tbh the only thing im 100% sure is that rokudai will go to the ih #everything else is a big ?????? in my mind lmao

[ghouljams]

how many children do you think cowboy ghost and goose would end up having ? 😭 i feel like after the first the baby fever definitely hit them HARD

In my mind they have 3 little girls running around(each 2 years apart). Not a huge family, but definitely enough that it's an issue when all three of them decide Ghost's a jungle gym. Just enough to make juggling all of them a little tricky. Their kids do a lot of extracurriculars: soccer, dance, art, choir, science fairs, you name it one of the goslings is probably there.

#ghoul speaks #they get a kid potty trained and then go #well I guess if we are ever going to deal with diapers again now is the time #Gaz and Birdie have 2 kids plus Bug #Soap and Moon have 4 kids #I don't want to think about Bee trying to talk Konig's number down #she seems like an only child

[smollandkindaannoyed]

I see and hear so many people going "I can relate to Simon", "I defently am like Wille", "I can see myself in Felice"

But here I have to dit with the knowelage that I can't say those things cause if we talk about "Which character in Young Royals are you?" I will have to say August.

I will have to talk about my obsessive need to be liked by everyone around me, talk about how I put a shit ton of my self worth on the school I go to even though I am failing right now, talk about the ED and other mental illnesses I also didnt want to admit to having. I will have to talk about how I have this idea of what love is supposed to be which makes me rush into it only to know I will break both of our hearts because my idea of love has been off for years. And like don't get me wrong, I would never post pictures or videos of people online, I don't get angry like August does, but I would have to talk about the way he feels anger. The way it just keeps stewing inside until it is to much and I do something I really fucking shouldnt have done.

#young royals august #like this sure isnt my proudest character I am to much like moment #but like in S1 i already saw the ed signs and from there everything just got more and more recognizable #and then the hunger monologe came #and holy shit it was like they took that thinking process right out of my head #so i started rewatching it with the knowelage of S3 August #and I just kept seeing shit that hit to close to home for me #so ye not the proudest moment for me i guess #young royals season 3 #young royals #yr #yr 3 #august of årnäs #and like tbh is this making me once again question whether or not I am a horrible person? yes #cause I dont like august #i sympatise with him i feel empathy towards him but i dont like him #but god are we similair #so this is fully giving me a crisis again trying to figure out if i am a good person or not