#have a total of 3 drafts for it...

[happilychaengs]

thinking of doing a writing thing for october but like...

#my brain is not braining #have a total of 3 drafts for it... #and they're not even finished #i die a little inside

[ranger-crow]

‘Bout time I got around to posting this-

We got six healthy chicken nuggets! In order from oldest to youngest we have-

Jovi: Female, March 11th

Halen: Male, March 12th:

Chili: Male, March 13th

Pepper: Female, March 13th

Fleetwood: Male, March 14th

Roxie: Female, March 16th

I will definitely be breaking into the daycare over the next week to see who opens their eyes first! I’ll try to get some better pictures of them later ‘cause these guys have some very pretty colorations and spots starting to come in that isn’t done justice under the heat lamps. Fleetwood has a very heavy melanin pigment and pepper is a reddish purple that seems to grow deeper each day.

I’m holding Roxie- I ended up giving her shell a little crack since she was struggling to get a start and she’s very reactive to my voice. Despite her late start she’s easily the chunkiest of all her siblings and a lovely rosey purple color with some larger splots of white. Don’t tell anyone but I definitely have a favorite <3

#the daycare workers are laughing at me- I’m totally not attatched nope not me! #pokeblogging #pokemon irl #pkmn irl #pokeblr #pokeblog #pokemon roleplay #crow.txt #pokemon rp #pkmn rp #ooc: wanted to get this out days ago but I’m slow rip- #i got too many hobbies and stuff I want to do- on top of a job that kicked my ass today especially #I’m trying not to get so hung up on dates and timeframes tho- I can’t control that and when I get the chance to post stuff I’ll take it #I do want to go through my drafts and inbox tho- stuff has been piling up so if you sent an ask and I haven’t answered it yet I have seen- #it I’m just busy and will hopefully get to it on a rainy day <3

[animalsandskyyy]

I will forever stand by the thought that simply “being online” and consuming or even posting content, takes a completely different amount of energy than messaging or interacting with others online does.

but that’s something I had to train myself to acknowledge and learn. because it used to hurt and make me overthink when i’d message someone and they wouldn’t respond, but would still be active or posting. like I wouldn’t say that to them, but it overtook my thoughts.

then somehow I just stopped and realized- maybe they’re just tired. or maybe they’re scrolling on the phone in their 5 minutes of free time. maybe they’re in the middle of 3 conversations and are trying their best. maybe they’re in the middle of making a post and didn’t see your message. maybe they’re deep into searching a topic and can’t be distracted. or maybe they just don’t want to talk to you rn, and that’s perfectly okay and valid.

all that to say- it can still hurt sometimes, but giving people grace and thinking the best of them and their intentions, and sincerely hoping they do the same for you, makes life so much more enjoyable, and I highly recommend ♡

#is this a good take? Idk but it been in my mind A LOT lately #this was created by me having a really hard time messaging people back in a timely manner lately lol #but having energy to scroll and having to draft any posts I want to reblog #because I can’t reblog anything when I have unanswered messages because I feel bad and don’t want people to feel ignored. #hence my habit of ‘send message’ then going to my drafts and posting like 5 things lmao #because being ignored absolutely sucks #but it’s also fair and valid and sometimes social interaction is hard and takes too much brain energy #also I realized I really like thinking the best of people and their intentions (but in a safe and not naive way ofc) #and try not to take shit as personally- because everybody has shit happening in their life that’s consuming their energy #anyways that’s all #this will either go totally viral or make people mad at me idk #thank you and goodbye #also I have to respond to like 3 people before posting this lmao #grace is dramatic #grace is feeling unnecessarily insightful #online #online friends #social battery #social interaction #low energy #friends #long distance friendship #messaging #text #text post #personal text #shitpost #emotions #rambles #Tumblr

[todayisafridaynight]

'he's probably losing his mind' yeah about that

#long post #rgg #ryu ga gotoku #ryu ga gotoku 7 #yakuza series #yakuza like a dragon #yakuza 7 #ryo aoki #masato arakawa #jo sawashiro #snap sketches #i love making jo suffer thats what you get for putting a baby in a locker king #SORRY i have like three comics drafted </3 #prob wont get to those but i at least really wanted to do this one #all my fave aoki comics just happen in his office ig LMAO #and theyre both about the omi dissolution.. lmao #totally forgot thats why he has masumi game ended #anyway ima doodle somethin silly next so #please enjoy this while i go do that

[aroaceleovaldez]

I really dislike the inherent main plots of TSATS and Chalice of the Gods as they’re being explained to us currently, mostly just cause I feel like they take away from already established lore of the series and other plot points.

There is no way TSATS can go that doesn’t make either Tartarus feel cheap and/or the entire book just feel like Percabeth In Mark Of Athena: 2 Electric Boogaloo. Unless the twist is that they don’t go to Tartarus it is physically impossible. Because either they go to Tartarus and breeze through it, which makes Tartarus as a setting feel cheap and ruins all prior instances of it being used as a landscape of suffering, or they suffer Lots and Lots and it just feels like we’re rehashing the same exact plot over again purely for the sake of treating solangelo the same as percabeth, which doesn’t work because they’re vastly different character dynamics and putting them in the same situation has nowhere near the same emotional weights. Also it makes Nico’s original foray into Tartarus feel null because it makes it feel like his trauma doesn’t have any actual meaning, because why would he jump right back into it? Even with Nico’s character being extremely self-sacrificial, we’re at a point where we’re being told he’s improving on that and this is possibly the one circumstance he would think twice about. AND it makes Tartarus feel overused - Nico surviving Tartarus once? Okay, makes sense, he’s the son of Hades, and it’s cool that he’s the first mortal to ever survive it. Percabeth too? Getting iffy (especially since we see their trip in detail and that inherently means it’s lost a lot of potential oomph, because when you’re going for horrifying a lot of the time less is more) but okay, sure, Nico probably gave Percy some Tartarus Tips after being rescued and they had a literal dues ex machina or two helping them out, and they fell in accidentally so it’s not like how Nico waltzed in there. Third time? And it being Nico AGAIN and Will Solace (who as far as we know has little to no quest experience and most of his experience is being a battlefield medic) and then purposefully going there? Nope. It’s just a poor set-up. Plus “the major gay couple goes on vacation to superhell” is a... questionable plot set-up to begin with, especially when it’s been heavily implied it will be traumatizing for them, and we have already been told explicitly that references are being made to things like Call Me By Your Name so there is a self-awareness about the themes there (also that alone raises questions about how we’re going to be taking the tone of things - again, there’s two ways it can go and both would be extremely difficult to get right). If Mark Oshiro were not co-authoring this I’d be a little horrified. I’m very glad Mark Oshiro is co-authoring this. I don’t believe it can’t be done tastefully, and yeah it’s a situation ripe for symbolism, but it is definitely the kind of subject that would be difficult for a non-queer author to handle appropriately.

As for Chalice of the Gods, we know two things: A.) It takes place prior to TOA, and B.) The chalice Percy has to retrieve has the power to make anyone who drinks from it immortal. ..... so basically, without the book even being out, we are told “If Percy had waited like 20 minutes, all of TOA would be null.” Admittedly, this does give justification for Percy specifically to be doing this quest outside of “college” reasons, and in my opinion, “The gods asked Percy specifically because they have verified he adamantly does NOT want to be immortal” is hilarious. However, adding yet another universe mechanic to the repertoire that nullifies death is annoying as hell, because death as a consequence in the series has been completely ruined since HoO. The more avoiding death options there are, the more every death scene feels completely pointless and avoidable.

#pjo #riordanverse #tsats #the sun and the star #chalice of the gods #forgive me for complaining this was in my drafts and i figured since i was talking about plot changes i'd make yesterday #might as well post this then yknow #while we're on the topic #i'll find something lighter/sillier in my drafts to post later #also my hesitancy about the overarching plot does not say anything regarding my expectations for the actual quality of the book(s) #just putting that as a footnote #could the plots be total shit but the books themselves end up lovely? sure. totally. #i am just personally grumbly about Tartarus' use as a narrative device and how it keeps getting overused #and also the growing lack of consequence in the riordanverse which tends to make any stakes feel automatically low and cheap #mind you i would LOVE if the twist in TSATS is that they end up not going to Tartarus at all #im currently 50/50 on reading it but if it turns out they dont go to Tartarus at all i'd be sold immediately #and i do think Percy being saddled with a quest because he's the only one who wouldn't be tempted with immortality is hilarious #tbh if we had a third plot concept rolling here and we condensed all three ideas down we could just do another 3-short-story book #like Demigod Files and Demigod Diaries #we have options #heck. yknow. if we're talking particularly long short-stories here we could probably roll with two #if demigod files is for the first series and demigod diaries is for HoO we need a TOA one anyways #cause CHB:C and CJ:C and those ones are their own category they're different

[grumpy-nyks]

The Fernweh Saga by @lacunafiction - Agnes edition

Who would have thought? 🤭

Agnes "Nes" Sigrún 🌑RO: James Corvin

Personality: sincerity // cautious // friendly // merciful Traits: heart // compliance // believer Past affinity: writing [horror stories] Primary ability: empathetic impressions Past susceptibility: receptive

☀️Fernweh: She never really thought about leaving Fernweh… It was her place, near her family and friend(s). She felt good there and assumed she’s gonna spend her whole life happily in this little town. Even if Fernweh brings back devastating memories, she’s curious about what’s happening in Fernweh now, in her true home. It’s always been her dream to work in Turn The Page, and during her ‘short’ stay in Fernweh, she started thinking about it again. Why not stay for longer…? She would love to carry on her grandfather’s work and bring his legacy justice. 

☀️Grandpa Jóhann: When she was young, she had an amazing relationship with her grandpa. They were completely honest with each other, and she loved him wholeheartedly. Some people thought that making her grandpa proud was her main hobby. She used to tell him all about her dreams that she had, which were always wild... and also about the nightmares… It took her by surprise when her grandpa, one of the most important people in her life, started being less involved. She was hurt and began to wonder if she had done something to cause the distance between them. His decision to move her out of Fernweh so quickly after this tragic event made a huge impact on her mental state. She needed time to cope and be with her closest ones, especially her grandpa...but after all she didn't blame him. She often heard that she looked exactly like her mother…like her grandpa's daughter... She assumed he could not look at her, without thinking about her... And she could not blame him for wanting to escape that pain. Agnes knew it was the best thing that her grandpa could do for him, and she accepted it, too eagerly. She always too eagerly took the blame for everything.

☀️Beckett Warrick: After what happened in Fernweh after James she had even more trouble interacting with other people and making new friends… However, Beckett was an exception. He was the first person who got to truly know her after the events in Fernweh. When she got the letter about her Grandpa, she considered hiding the truth from him, because she knew deep down that he would be there for her if she needed him… even if he would not particularly enjoy it. It's a good thing she’s such a bad liar… Her main concern is about Beckett’s well-being. She noticed that this 'little' trip made a huge impact on him. He wasn’t supposed to be here, and it’s because of her that he–... She needs to make sure that nothing happens to her friend. And she will somehow manage to bring him back to his home.

☀️Reese Verner: They had an unconventional relationship. Reese saw her as a rival, while Agnes thought of him as a friend. She was confused about why Verner, someone of great importance, would even look at her see her as a rival. She knew there were better candidates for his games. She had only one question on her mind - “why?”. Despite Verner's playful teasing, Agnes always remained polite and friendly towards him, even when he attempted to push her boundaries. Girl knew how to keep her true feelings behind a warm smile she still does. If I can be completely honest… Agnes was rather shocked that Reese still remembered her… and was actually looking for her, which sounded so unbelievably. His concern for Milton's well-being made her see him in a slightly different light. Of course, she already knew Reese had a good heart, but his behaviour really touched her. Additionally, Agnes noticed that Reese and James’ relationship became stronger and deeper… It’s for the best. James deserves someone as dependable as Reese. He will always be there for James. 

☀️Sofia Dorran: Their bond was formed over a shared admiration for books and... the color blue. It may sound funny now, but these things became central to their lives and deepened their friendship. Sofia was the first person Agnes entrusted with her writing, and valued her honest feedback, knowing that Sofia would not make her feel bad if something needed improvement. They frequently borrowed books from each other's collections. Agnes yearned for the days when she and Sofia had reading sessions together, sipping on their favorite beverage. The only issue back then was when the book ended poorly or their library didn't have any new positions for them to read. She's willing to know how Sofia's taste toward books shifted (if shifted) and how she changed as a person. She's also extremely grateful because her grandfather received constant care from Sofia and her mother.

🌑James Corvin: …Do I really need to tell you that James was her first crush? And that she never found the courage to tell him so? maybe now will be the time? Agnes and James were always together, wherever one went the other followed. They were inseparable. Agnes even used to bake oatmeal cookies for James with her mother's help. They dreamed of their idyllic life together. As friends, obviously. Seeing him again after all those years was much harder than she anticipated. Agnes felt overwhelmed with stress from the moment she stepped out of her car. Every time she heard his surname, she unknowingly flinched. Her mind was full of questions about his well-being, life, and changes. She couldn't help but wonder if he would be happy to see her. …she did manage to hold his hand for a moment, I can consider it as a success

☀️Alex Corvin: Agnes has always looked up to Alex for their adventurous spirit and their willingness to embrace life to the fullest. She has always wanted to adopt a bit of Alex' wild side. Whenever they are around, boredom and dullness seem to disappear. They both share similar values and support each other's life goals. If I would say which person Agnes was the most willing to meet during her stay in Fernweh that would be Alex. She was confident in their friendliness towards everybody and was sure that their kindness had not wavered. Agnes was touched when she heard that Alex was looking after her grandfather's bookstore… It appears that Beckett has a new admirer, which Agnes wholeheartedly approves of.

☀️Mal: Agnes has a sense that Mal might be suspicious, but she is quite naive and doesn't believe that he could mean trouble. Although she is wary of him and finds him a little untrustworthy, Agnes believes in being kind to everyone, and she is willing to give Mal a chance, not judging him by her own impressions of him.

☀️Goldie: Agnes is grateful that her grandfather had a furry companion like Goldie, who probably managed to brighten his spirits. She fondly recalls how her grandfather would tell her stories when he once had a dog, when he was younger and how his eyes would light up with joy as he shared his story. Agnes is committed to taking excellent care of Goldie and ensuring her safety.

#don't get me started how she is BLAMING herself for the situation Beckett is rn. she needs to go back for her theraphy sesions right away #that's why she went with him into the woods looking for Milton and not James even so she wanted to spent every single second with him :sob: #she's conflicted. being with James is something that she dreamed of but in her opinion he deserves someone better //obviously// #...that's why she's cheering for James and Reese lol. Look she just wants James and Reese to be happy and she can see how those two care of #-each other. She's happy : ) #she's an idiot 🙂 #is there a potential happy ending for the three of them..? maybeeee. we'll see what the story will bring 👀 #im totally confident that Sofia and Agnes had their own shared little library #Agnes wrote a poem for James when she was young but it wasn't really her forte. that's why she showed it to Sofia because she knew she will #-help her. //Agnes didn't want to tell for who it was but Sofia figured it out anyway. they both knew that the other knew but weren't- #-talking about it out loud. XD it was hilarious -- for me and I assume Sofia but Agnes was terrified. XDD// #....cough James never saw this poem anyway cough... #I have this headcanon that Agnes made up amazing horror stories that James was willing to hear (for a bunch of oatmeal cookies) when- #-they had a sleepover //those stories were from her nightmares but she never said that to James knowing he would only worry about her// #btw her parents called her 'little star' and James must have heard it and (maybe?) asked Sofia to make a necklace... Sun and Moon. #did you know that Agnes had her piece of the Sun as her necklace for the WHOLE TIME. but she hid it away under shirt... x"D she was looking #-if James had his Moon somewhere... but she did not see it. anyway she wears it always. #omg i finally made it. there's also one in my drafts nearly finished and three more to go. XD #sooo curious about book two <3 #fernweh saga #my art? #Spotify #oc: agnes sigrun

[rosaacicularis]

“i want to spend the rest of my life with you, scar,” grian said slowly, constructing the sentence carefully, trying to perfectly articulate exactly what he was trying to say. “but, i can’t give you what you’d want.”

“how do you know what i want?” scar asked, it sounded more like a desperate plea, for something, for grian. he took a step forward, closing the distance between them a little bit more. “i want you, i don’t care what that entails. i just,” he paused for a second, shrugging helplessly. “i can’t lose you.”

#idk what this is??? #but it would not leave my brain!! 😁 #i have no idea what the plot would be around this??? but that’s for me in the morning to figure out 😘 #future me is going to hate present (then past) me so much but it’s fine because i don’t care <3<3 #perhaps like…. watcher grian trying to save scar from his world of hurt #life series grian feeling so bloodthirsty but knowing that that’s not how scar goes about it #just throwing out some ideas for myself <3 #see! i’m not totally awful 😌 #hmmmm… weird conceptual thing that i’m sure i’ll remember in the morning!!! what could go wrong if i don’t write it out 😁😁 #anyway into the drafts this post goes for now #it’ll see y’all in the morning #EHAT WAS TWO AM ME ON? THISNIS KINDA GOOD #i could make this qpr scarian 👀 like aroace grian sure that he can’t give scar what he wants meanwhile aroace scar is willing to love #grian in any way to still have him <3 #scarian #desert duo #hermitshipping #snippet

[wolves-in-the-world]

I am never not thinking about hardison and eliot looking at each other while parker changes in the elevator and turning away once it's immediately clear the other dude's spooked too

#am I reading a lot into a tiny moment: yes #do I wholeheartedly believe it: 100% #just that barest hint of dudes prepared to keep other dudes in check #(pausing to picture for my health eliot smacking a military buddy on the back of the head #for saying something shitty #shelley is allowed at team poker games because he did that to eliot once) #leverage #for me this is one of those shows where you're trying to pin down what's weird about it #and you realise ages in you're not low key worried on behalf of the vulnerable characters #'cos we're shown from so early on that these characters are Safe #—and THEN eliot and parker standing close to each other while changing is an entirely DIFFERENT kind of safe #the one that says it isn't a big deal to either of them so they're not gonna be weird about it— #listen I'm just slightly feral about it alright #do you know how much it bothers me that I'm not totally convinced the last episode elevator scene even HAPPENED #nate is not a reliable narrator folks we never SEE the actual thing #but the cosiness and flirtiness and humour and respect of it kills me #that is all <3 #dug out of my drafts because it is Time To Vibe #[tags have been copied over in a reblog]

[daisywords]

not joking about the "world's slowest writer" in my pinned post btw like not only can I only get myself to write once in a blue moon, when I do actually write it feels like I'm trying to squeeze frosting out of a bag but instead of cutting off the corner there's just. a hole poked with a needle and what I mean to say is that it's like 20 minutes a sentence sometimes lol

#anyway hooray for the *checks docs* 928 words I have to show for the large swaths of writing time I have taken over the past two days #actually never mind post canceled I got 358 words of that scene in act 3 that's actually not too bad as a total #anyway I cannot stress the amount of story and worldbuilding progress I have made since then #but it's frustrating that um. in my chronological drafting I started act 2 when I was visiting my sister for the birth of her baby #and now I am visiting again and the kid can literally walk #and I'm *still* working on act 2

[dangaer]

halloween but the real scare is me digging out year old threads / asks like <3

#❛ 𝐒𝐈𝐃𝐄 𝐒𝐓𝐎𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐒 ⧽ — ooc. #have done a peek at whats in my drafts and some of them are that old but. #THE THING IS ... i mean it when i say i dont really drop threads #the only time i do is when someones deactivated #or theyve moved blogs and shown theyre not moving drafts on #i dont wanna put anyone under stress. so i always try sticking to my lanes! #im hopin this week to get through the chunk of my other blogs stuff and then im dedicating time to here #i have the 4.1 archon quest to play but also ... i wanna write my boys too. #if your not comfy with me doing something! just hmu! <3 #totally understand

[chenqingssuibian]

No one ever expects the little blind girl to take out their ankles. It was the first thing A-Qing learned on the streets; look weak, act meek, and the second their guard is down? Either smack them unconscious with your walking stick or simply snatch their coin purse from their waist, whichever is quicker, whichever gets the quickest get-away.

The snivelling Jin boy certainly hadn’t expected it.

“Where is Song-daozhang?” She has asked him three times now. The boy curls up further, shaking hands protecting his head, and when she raises her walking stick he squeaks.

“I keep telling you!” He wails, and though her vision has always been blurry she knows what frustration and fear look like. His face is indistinct aside from the red smudges around where his eye should be, but the shine of wetness on his cheeks speaks of tears. Good, she thinks fiercely. “I don’t know who that is!”

“You work for him,” A-Qing hisses, tightening her grip on her walking stick. “The one in the hat. Don’t lie to me, I know you do!”

“T-that doesn’t mean I know everything!” He peeks out from under his hands, flinching when A-Qing just bares her teeth. “I mean it! I don’t... I do what Yao-ge asks, but I-I’m...” He trails off, wrapping his arms around his knees. “I really don’t k-know. But...”

A-Qing raises a brow. “But what?”

“I.... I know where he might’ve been taken,” the boy says after a moment. “I... I can take you there? Please don’t hit me again!”

She stares down at him for a long moment. He’s taller than her, with long limbs he hasn’t grown into, and he’s a cultivator - but he’s no Xiao-daozhang. He’s not close to Xue Yang, even, and he’d needed the lump of metal he carried everywhere to do much of anything. It sits in the pocket of A-Qing’s inner robe, now, pressed against her skin where no one will find it. The boy in front of her probably wouldn’t even be able to pick it up.

He’s her only option.

A-Qing sighs and extends a hand. “Get up.” The boy takes it and yelps when she pulls him up with one hard tug, nearly stumbling into her as he gets his balance. “What’s your name, Cultivator?”

The boy stares at her. A-Qing thinks he’s smiling. “M-Mo Xuanyu.”

#found this going through my drafts #i should finish it... perhaps one day <3 #mxy #mo xuanyu #a-qing #mo dao zu shi #the untamed #cql #mdzs #ly's writing #i'm fairly certain i was going to have them free song lan and wen ning??? i think i wrote this in a discord chat. or came up with it there? #totally original queue tag

[vamptastic]

one small thing that bugs me about disco elysium is the lack of Fantasy Jews. i mean every setting that creates analogues of real world cultures tends to forget about us (i am generously overlooking when they make us into goblins or some shit). but still, idk, it'd be cool, and for the setting you'd figure we'd factor in a little. idk though, i know a decent amount about the history of jews in american socialism but little about our role in european communism especially outside of the ussr. there were certainly jewish communist movements within the ussr but most of us would've been gone long before the fall of the soviet union ig.

#i suppose im mostly interested in it bc my family was around in roughly that time period in western europe #ukraine and romania primarily (moved around very often) #and per my mom my ulta ULTA zeyde was a massive trotskyist #and i belieeeeeeve he was first in our family to come to canada (and then the us) #so if i haven't totally fucked the timeline he was around maybe... a couple decades before de is mostly set #i mean its an anachronistic setting and i am also talking out my ass here but #most of my family stayed behind ( greatgreatgrandpa left to dodge the draft <3) #which is a whole historical thing abt the russian army initially refusing to admit jewish soldiers and then switching it #essentially to use us as cannon fodder for a losing war #but i don't remember the exact timeline there so #that may have not been when we came to the us but when we left russia for bordering countries #anyway regardless. would be cool to have jews is all #particularly bc the game tackles fascism head on but then ignores one of the biggest factors in esp european facism #honestly we could be somewhere in measureheads ramblings and i just didn't make the connection

[icewindandboringhorror]

various little Pictures of thinges

#photo context/information described here in the tags since there are no longer photo captions #(from top Left to right) image 1: BABYY!!!!! SON!!!!! HE!!!!!!!!!!!! #image 2: I found a patch of these clovers that were kind of mutated or infected or something? like they were not actually Red clovers #it was patches of totally normal green clovers except every once in a while one of them would have one leave thats red or half red or even #be completely red. AND they were growing near a patch of these wildflower weeds that have red stems to them. so I wonder if it's even poss #ble that maybe some of the red like.. got mixed in with the clovers somehow? a lot of the patches with a few red ones look spotty and unhea #thy so it could have been the sun or something. I dont know how plants work. I just thought it was really cool to find these one or two #special mutant clovers in huge patches of ohtwerise totally normal green clovers.. :0 #image 3: look at these weird round fat baby carrot things... Rotund #image 4: laying out some fabrics for a costume just drafting them and seeing what looks okay in the pile and what doesnt etc. #thats my whole process is just 'throw things into a pile on the floor that look okay and match then put them on eventually' lol #image 5: MORE wii scores lol.. I think this is my best score on this one though. There's 10 little markers you have to select so getting 7 #means I selected more than one per second. #image 6: I couldnt decide which type of muffins I wanted so I just made a batch of plain/vanilla batter and then added things to each littl #section to make multiple flavors without having to actually make a full batch or multiple batters lol. I think it's chocolate swirl (with d #rk chocolate chunks). banana cinnamon. strawberry. normal chocolate. rosemary and lemon. peach. ginger peach turmeric. and #'scraps of the other batters all thrown together' lol. Decent however the random recipe I found online for a basic cupcake batter was #not very good and they were weirdly dense and spongy. #image 7: A PICTURE OF THE dishscapes that I watched and rambled about (to the like 5 of you who saw that post #and read the tags of it lol).... beach houes..I still so much wish I could make my own Fantasy Screensaver Story.. oughh #image 8 & 9: a really cool flower from outside. I like that it has all these weird spindly little things from the center :0 #photo diary

[heartbeetz]

GRRR the built in speedpaint / timer thing in ibis is busted for this one drawing I'm working on noooooo. It's saying I've spent 7 hours on it so far but I HAVEN'T I just forgot to close the canvas. Also I thought usually I could do that and it's fine? But this time there's a huge chunk of the speedpaint playback that's just nothing happening so I KNOW it was registering SOMETHING during that time... sad!

#I don't use the speedpaint function for anything but I like the timer feature #I mean ig sometimes I like to watch my own art process just bc it's so sloppy #but that's not the part that's making me annoyed lol #DON'T TELL ME IT'S BEEN THAT LONG... IT HASN'T... #the finished timer for this piece is gonna be FUCKED #a finished drawing that I spend a Long time on will be like 8 hours. usually bc sketching something takes me forever #bc my sketch/draft process is deranged #I've had a comic take 15 hours #but that's the longest I've ever gone #usually things are around 4 #this one would probably be another 8 total type drawing bc I'm trying to mimic a style I'm unfamiliar with #but having it at 7 NOW when that is NOT the case is fucked up. gonna skew the final time so bad #there's like 3 or 4 wasted hours in there #roz posts

[friendofthecrows]

TW extremely triggering dark topic but with a positive message, I promise. I just needed to get this out somewhere.

It's not about whether you deserve to be happy. "You deserve to be happy" type messages never rung true to me, because sure, other people do. But me, I've been told I'm a monster, that I deserve to die. But very recently, as in today, I've realized it isn't about that. It's about whether you can be happy. If you can manage it. If you can scrape together moments of joy, then you should. Whether you deserve it or not, you can be happy, and you will, and that is worth it. All that matters is that it is possible.

You have to be alive to see if you can.

#hal rambles #tw sui ideation #depression #for the fellow 'reprehensible monsters' out there i promise it will be okay #even if it isn't we have to try #now for a personal note that no one needs to read lol: #there's a series i've been writing on and off for oh wow. EIGHT whole years #and it helped me realize this #it's like my brain clawed tooth and nail to finally arrive at this theme #i experienced so much during those eight years and you can see it reflected in the characters #there was a stage where i was exploring exactly how awful can you be before everyone leaves you #to 'how far can you go before you're irredeemable. is there a way to come back from this?' #to 'what if someone could love you even broken. even with the myriad of things 'wrong' with you' #to 'you can be okay. no matter what you did -yes even that- it is possible to find joy and it is worth it to try.' #I've also decided morality is a moment to moment decision. it is not the sum total of everything you've done in your life #and it is not anything inherent about you. even if you don't have morals you can still be good #just by choosing to be kind #this idea started sort of between stages 2 and 3 as far as story themes and still isn't completely explored haha #i am 100% sure if someone read the current draft they would not pick up on ANY of these things but that is fine because it is for Me :)

[bloodawakening]

ooc, don't reblog.  Where does the time go?

#｡･ ╱╱ out of character † ･｡ #( hi hello I winded up being busy and having some mh stuff going on I really lost track of time keeping track of or keeping up #- like what do you MEAN my last post was 2 months ago??? - #with things has been pretty difficult atm despite having muse just been very sidetracked with art and making icons etc. ) #( t/otk also totally did not happen when I stepped away to have a small break ) #( tldr I dont like the depths but I'm sure Dan.te would have a blast - ) #(all I need to do is beat the final boss but I have put that on pause because of the prep I foresee myself needing to do TvT ) #( but I've been as okay as I can be atm I'm currently occupied mostly with art ) #( I can't say for sure when I'll be around when energy allots it but I lurk nonetheless <3 ) #( I am still gonna attempt to slowly chip away at things like icons and drafts etc. )