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inkandpen22 · 3 years

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It’s Pretty

Pairing: Sirius Black x Female!Reader

Warnings: death, fighting, swearing, fluff

Word Count: 1k

Summary: Y/N is newly pregnant and Sirius is over the moon. Then, the unexpected happens.

A/N: I usually post imagines on Mondays, but I wrote this last night and couldn’t wait!

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Lounging on the couch with my head in Sirius’s lap, we go over baby names. I’m only less than a handful of months along, so we’re keeping the news a secret until we’re certain it’s safe. The only people who know are Remus and Harry. We told Remus because he’s our oldest friend and Sirius accidentally exploded when Remus came over the other day. The man-made it through from the door and Sirius just let it out. It came as quite a shock to me too and I’m the pregnant one. Harry was planned. We wrote to him asking to be the godfather, it only seems fair. Sirius pushed for Remus for a while, but with his responsibilities to the Order, I felt Harry was the best choice.

Ever since we found out, it’s all Sirius can talk about. When everyone comes over for meetings he has to bite his tongue. I’m afraid the meetings' firewhiskey sessions will perhaps be my worst enemy one day. Sirius loves to blab. Recently, he’s been talking about names all hours of the day and sometimes randomly in the middle of the night. No seriously- no pun intended- he’ll wake me up in the middle of the night when he’s thought of “the most perfect name for the little guy.” We don’t even know if it’s a boy yet.

“Alexi,” I announce for a boy.

Sirius cowers, his face scrunched like a bulldog. “Alexi? What are we Russian?”

“It’s pretty!” I defend.

“I won’t let my son have a pretty name,” he mocks. “It’ll be handsome and strong!”

I roll my eyes. “And Sirius isn’t pretty?”

“It’s majestic,” he corrects.

I hum, “oh! What about Torryn?”

He taps his finger against his chin, pondering it over. “Not too shabby. Better than Alexi...” He remarks slyly. “We always do-”

“We’re not naming it James!” I repeat, yet again. “Let Harry have that one.”

“Fine...” he grumbles, all pouty. “What if it’s a girl?”

“Sheridan,” I answer.

“So now we’re Irish?!” He sighs deeply, resting his head back dramatically on the couch.

“Do you have any bright ideas?!” I challenge playfully.

“Cressida,” he states calmly.

“Cressida...” I repeat, thinking it over.

“You like it?” Sirius smiles, petting my hair gently as he looks down at me.

“Yes actually,” I admit. “It’s pretty!”

“Don’t sound so surprised,” he laughs, leaning in for a kiss.

The sound of the front door causes Sirius and I to leap up from our position. My heart pounds in my chest. We weren’t expecting visitors today. The sound of footsteps, a series of them, brings me panic. Sirius immediately blocks me from the archway, protecting me. His wand is raised in front of him in one hand and the other grips my hand behind him. Then, Remus and Tonks turn the corner panting.

“Quick! It’s Harry and the other kids!”

“What?!” Sirius and I say in unison.

“They’re... They’re at the ministry!” Remus pants. “The prophecy!”

Sirius curses under his breath and starts down the hall the way they came with our friends. I follow the trio without a second thought.

“You’re not going!” Sirius shouts just before we reach the door.

“I’m coming Sirius!” I yell at my husband.

“Y/N!” He whips around angrily.

Tonks and Remus move aside, creating a clear path between me and my husband.

“I’m not even showing yet!” I defend.

“You’re pregnant!” Sirius reminds sharply.

Tonks gasps, her hand flying up to her mouth. Remus whispers something to her. Probably along the lines of ‘sorry, I couldn’t tell you.’

“And you’re an idiot,” I fire back, stifling my laughter. “Looks like we both have a gamble!”

Sirius rushes down the hall to me and cups my face in his hands pleadingly. “I can’t lose you.”

“Then you should be able to understand why I can’t let you go without me,” I claim quietly, placing my hands over his. “I can’t wait here doing nothing when I know you’re out there risking your life! It’s not just your life Sirius, it’s both of ours. It’s always you and me.”

He exhales deeply, lowering his head as he struggles with the internal debate going through his mind. “Okay,” he mumbles reluctantly. Rushing, he plants a kiss on my lips and takes my hand.

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I sprint to huddle behind a bolder with Ginny beside me. She’s brilliant, I’ll give her that. Granted, I could already tell after hearing her subtle comments at dinner that never failed to make me laugh.

Remus runs into view with Hermione and I take the opportunity to hand over Ginny. “Remus, watch them!”

“Y/N! Where are you going?!” He shouts, leaving the girls hidden to stop me.

“I have to help my husband and godson! I can’t just stand there!” I argue, marching aww.

“No!” He grabs my wrist and yanks me down behind a rock. “Sirius wouldn’t want you to!”

“Since when have I ever listened to him?!” I move to stand.

Remus yanks me back down, much to my annoyance. “You have your child to think about!”

“I am thinking of them!” I hiss at my oldest friend. “I won’t let them grow up without a father!”

His eyes pour into mine, awestruck. It’s highly unlike me to argue with him or anyone who isn’t my husband I suppose. Taking the chance now that he’s a little more compliant, I rise to my feet. Sirius and Harry fight off Lucius on the giant boulder in the center of the room. I run to join them urgently.

“Avada kedavra!”

I halt upon hearing the horrific words echo in the room. My eyes scan the room for the source and I spot Bellatrix towering above the rest of us, a wickedly grin on her face. I follow her eyesight to the center, to my husband. He has an unfamiliar blank stare in his eyes as he peers at Harry. Out of my peripheral vision, Remus runs past me. Before he can reach the pair, Sirius slips away into the archway.

“No!” I scream at the top of my lungs. “No!” I cry.

Kingsley wraps his arms around me, keeping me back. I fight him off, aggressively. “Let go of me!”

“No, no don’t let her win!” He warns in my ear.

I wail as my legs give out on me and I slip to the ground. “No,” I cry toward the ceiling.

“Get her out of here!” Shouts Remus.

I hear Bellatrix’s laugh ringing throughout the room. Something in my snaps and my tears stop altogether. Kingsley reaches to apparate me home, but I snatch my wand off the ground beside me and runoff. I follow Bellatrix out into the crevice she escaped through.

“Y/N!” Everyone calls after me panicked.

“I killed Sirius Black!” The crazy lunatic repeats like a song as she skips through the Ministry. “I killed Sirius Black!”

“You raging bitch!” I yell as I shoot a spell her way and missing.

“Aw cousin-in-law coming to get me?!” She mocks, continuing her celebration.

“Crucio!”

Bellatrix falls to the floor with a yelp. I continue my spell, putting at much focus as I can into her. She flails on the tile in pain, screaming. I wonder if it reminds her of torture in Azkaban. I sure hope it does.

I ease up on the spell, lower my wand to her chest. Catching her breath, she peers at me terrified. As she should be because now I’m the raging bitch. She thinks she’s evil because she was filled with hate. Well, now I’m filled with hate!

Pointing my wand directly at her chest, I smile wickedly at the woman who killed my love. Just two words and everything will be set fair and square.

“Aw, afraid of me now?” I tease with a mocking pout.

“I don’t need a blood traitor feeling sorry for me!” She bites.

I snicker, amused by her pointless insults. Swiftly, I kneel down on the floor beside her, getting in her face. I point my wand at her chest and dig it into the skin intimidatingly. Then, I hit her where I’m certain it will hurt.

“You’ll never be anything more than just another loyal follower,” I remind her smoothly with a smile on my face. “He will never want you. You alone will never be enough for him. You can try everything in your power, but the Dark Lord will never love you.”

She pushes back against my wand. “How dare-”

I slap her hard, causing her face to snap to the side. “Tell me how it feels Bella! Tell me how it feels to be worth nothing in eyes of the person you love! Because I wouldn’t know that feeling! Because unlike you, the man I loved, loved me in return!”

“Go to Hell!” She screams in my face.

“I’ll see you there!” I laugh, leaping to my feet and ready to kill the bitch.

“No Y/N!” I hear Remus shout a distance away.

“What is this?” I hear a sly voice question directly behind me.

I glance over my shoulder to be met with Voldemort. Bellatrix laughs loudly.

“Y/N, it’s been too long,” he smiles wickedly. “You’ve grown up so much!” He pauses for a moment, then his eyes fall to my stomach. “And you’re with child, how wonderful.”

I remain silent, restraining myself from doing something rash. The Dark Lord slithers toward me with a smile. Remus and the others stay back, ready to intervene if necessary, but don’t want to cause anything detrimental.

“You know, it’s not too late to join my ranks,” Voldemort whispers to me as he circles me.

“Never,” I stand my ground, knowing it may cost my life.

“Pity, you have such potential,” he mutters disappointedly, starring into my eyes.

He stays for a moment and I can see the wheels turning in his mind. Reaching up, he brushes the back of his hand against my cheek. Then, he sighs and turns to walk away.

“Aren’t you gonna kill her?!” Bellatrix whines, following after him.

The Dark Lord halts and snaps his attention to her, “are you questioning me?!”

The sound of blasting fire as people arrive through the fireplaces signal Voldemort that he must depart. Voices erupt once they see him for themselves.

Voldemort looks to me. “The honor of being my right hand is always open to you, Y/N,” he purrs before disappearing into a cloud of broken glass.

I fall to my knees, utterly exhausted. Tears well up in my eyes and soon I feel arms around me. I glance to my side and Harry’s head rests on my shoulder. I turn to face him, wrapping my arms around him. His head falls to my lap and he wails. I lean over him, protecting him from the world as I’ve always done. I didn’t just lose a husband, he lost a godfather. The realization hits me hard, we’re each other’s only family now.

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#fanfic #harry potter imagine #harry potter #marauders x reader #sirius black imagine #sirius black x reader #btvs fanfic #hp fanfic #sirius x remus #remus lupin #remus #harry potter fanfic #sirius black #sirius black fanfic #sirius x reader

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autumnpleaves · 4 years

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can you tell me about your friends? -C (you dont have to)

Ooh! Sure, C! No problem! Hmm, since it doesn’t really specify which ‘friends’ you’re talking about, I’m going to talk about IRL and online ones! XD

This is gonna be a long one, but only because I love, appreciate, and care for my friends :)

So let’s start with my...

IRL friends ^-^

I won’t be using their ‘real names’ so... meh.

First up we have Eggen! :)

She’s such a joy to be around (no this is not sarcastic). She has this weird fluctuating emotions sometimes and it’s scary to deal with (but not as scary as Jessie-). Funny story about how we actually met was that we had this conjoining class in Ext. Maths and she was from another class. I was still a new student then, so I wasn’t really familiar with anyone and my friends from *my* class were in Ext. Maths too, and were friends with Eggen, hence we all had this weird group thingy at one portion of the classroom and we hung out together.

Now see, here, we weren’t really *friends* then. More like acquaintances XD

BUT-

I texted her because I saw in her profile, that she was a *HUFFLEPUFF* (which is different now, because it didn’t fit anymore- She’s a slytherin now :)) and I texted her saying “OH MY GOSH! YOU’RE A HUFFLEPUFF TOO?!!” I was a dork. It was stupid. And she replied “Haha, yeah...” and lemme tell you, I’m surprised why she’s still my friend to this day XD

She’s improved a lot since then, and I am honestly quite frankly really *really* proud of her. She’s grown a lot (literally, coz she’s short and metaphorically, coz she’s so talented and skilled and smart now! [Not that she wasn’t smart before, just saying, definitely you can see progress]) She’s talented in drawing, ballet, has great ideas, really hard working, productive, one of the most inspirational person I know :) I’m glad to call her my friend :D

(Only I get to call her Eggen though 0-0 ANyONe else who dares, will get a smack from me-) ALSO did I mention she likes to torture people by throwing her erasers at them? It’s funnnn memories :’)

Next up we haveeeee Lizze!!

Lizze now this one, I didn’t meet until like... at least a year after Eggen. Honestly. Don’t judge me, our school is biiggggggg. She had long hair then. At first I see her here and there, and it was pretty chill. Nothing too... ya know- friendsy just like oh yeah I recognize you. We were in the same scholarship program! So that was fun! :)

We didn’t officially properly meet until like a year after though, and well let’s just say it was fun. She’s one of the only friends I was able to rope into watching Sanders Sides with me and is also a huge geek nerd XD She’s ALSO REALLY REALLY HECKING TALENTED IN WRITING?! LIke WHAT?! WHo even?!

Yeah, such a great friend. She’s one of the people I go to when in need of any writing advice, or just advice in general! She really gives that second opinion and really takes things into account and I’m really just plain glad to call her my friend. I love her so much and like we would discuss and hang out sometimes on VC late into the night and it’d be funny watching her trying to navigate around her messy room :’) Ahh! Fun times XD

Then we have... NICO!! :)

Nico... was my first ever friend. Literally. In the new school. I’m gonna lay down the scenario XD

I walked into class on orientation day, not aa lot of students were there yet, I was early (for once). Nico was sitting on the left side of a table (we had two student tables) two rows from the back, near the windows. I walked in and was like Hm. Where should I sit? So I Decided that I wasn’t gonna be a wimp and decided to walk and sit next to Nico. He was also surprisingly a new student, so we kinda like related for a bit XD

Flashforward and Nico is one of my close friends? I mean he’s there and he’s fun to hang out with XD (I don’t do labels, sorry XD) We would joke around, play around, and he’s just a great fella all around! It’s just sometimes people might make fun of him and he’d get insecure sometimes, which makes me sad and yeah! Favorite memories with him would always be in Ext. Math. We’ve landed in the same class (coz we switch around every year) like twice and everytime it’d be the same! And well every time in Math I would ‘show off’ my amazing math skills and he’d try to compete with me. It was fun every time. *dreamy sigh*

I miss the competitions really. We’d compete to see who would finish first, who would do what part, and when either of us are confused we would annoy the other to get the answer XD I miss him :’)

Then we get... JILL! :D

Jill was another friend I met in my first year at the school. At first, she used to hang out with this other friend because they were stuck to each other since like primary, but slowly they drifted (which in my opinion might be for the best 😬)

She’s an otaku. A pure bred otaku. I had to deal with her anime fanatic years for like... 3 years and counting now. Why. But she’s wonderful and drawing and would always have this bad habit of drawing on anything and literally whatever surface she finds. The desk, her notebooks, her test papers, her *SKIN*, *MY* skin, her WATER BOTTLE (like what THE HECK- JILL?!) but like, it’s endearing XD

She’s great at complaining and hates hugs. She also hates mangoes- (If you remember what my catchphrase was? Yeah the, “GUESS WHAT? JILL HATES MANGOES” yeah it’s this Jill XD) I’m not joking. She’s great at complaining XD

Funny story is that once we had to do this video project thing and we just had Jill complain about the amount of homework we had to like compare stuff and what not, and she did it. IN ONE BREATH. NO HESITATIONS. NO SCRIPT. ONE TAKE. WE were all DYING after that XDDD Coz she’s literally known as a complainer and she has great logic skills. She also really LOVES money... so... i mean... yeah. She’s really like... conservative with her money but isn’t afraid to use it to spoil others, but not herself XD

Finally but not the last (I got more friends, but I don’t really... connect with them enough?) is BEEP! (no this is not her actual name, I just don’t really call her by her real name much)

The OG friend from first day of school! Nico? YEah Step ASIDE BRO! XDD This gal is my go-to cuddle buddy. LIterally. Our moms are kinda like... besties? (*shrugs* it’s complicated) so we kinda do a lot of things together XD We go to gym together, go to places together, road trip together. She’s a joy to be around. She is like the cuddliest and well usually she does get teased about for being fluffy but like that’s the best part about her 🥺. Her mom is also really picky about her appearance which as her friends, we were pretty annoyed by it, but I love her the way she is :)

First day of school and she walked by and asked to sit next to me. I said yes, without looking at her, coz I was *shy* (shush). Then we had an ice-breaker thing and LMAO guess what we bonded on-

FRICKING HARRY STYLES AND WATTPAD- (look, if you’ve been on wattpad, you’d know that Harry Styles stories on there is never really... safe. in a sense.) SO, we’d immediately bonded over that and literally the rest of the day was history. We’d go through class everyday together and it would be a blast, OF COURSE she had other friends and I had mine, we weren’t really in the same ‘stereotypical’ group (like she has the more... *mean girls* kinda group [I’M NOT SAYING SHE’S MEAN! But, I’m saying that they have the popular group- yeah there that XD])

I had my own group but we hang anyways because it’s fun. She has the most beautiful laugh, like... literally the loudest and beautiful-est laugh ever XD We have so many inside jokes. She’d hold on to them and start laughing randomly XD She cries a lot when she laughs so that always spurs us to continue laughing, gosh damn it, I miss her. I’m smiling so hard writing this.

XDD

Aight! That’s from my IRL friends!

Next we have my online friends! :DDD

First up, we have YAWN! :D

Yawn is quite frankly, the first person I ever actually connected to on Tumblr here XD

I’ve been through tens and hundreds of discord servers, jumped in tumblr group chats, and no where have I ever met anyone as wonderful as Yawn. Literally.

I would say we pretty much clicked and when *she* (look I asked okay. they said yes to all pronouns so- >:3 I’m going to have fun with it XD) expressed xeir love for PUNS of all things, literally, I was shooketh. SO I LITERALLY SPAMMED HIM WITH ALL THE PUNS I COULD THINK OF- ANd then HE LITErally PropOSEd- XDDD I don’t know man. It’s amazing :’) I don’t know how I got this lucky.

Yawn is like that refreshing giddiness you have as a child when you see a new toy or something. Yeah that’s Yawn. Literally every time we text it’s just so damn wholesome and so fun and it’s great! We’d talk about the most random things ever and it’d be amazing :))

Hhhhhhhhhhh, I’m just so damn proud of zem. LIke. Literally. Xir has come so far, and like... we haven’t really met for long yet but I just care about xir sooooooooooooooo much. It has always been there for me and I’m just so appreciative of it. We have so many- *WHEEZE* inside jokes- XDDD

One I can think of is literally “I run you, Shakespeare” and it’s HILARIou- XDDDDDDDDDDDD

I can’t- It’s beautiful XD

I just can’t believe that our friendship literally started with me just sucking up my anxiety and just texting people stuff and I honestly don’t know how it continued from there- XD

They are the most accepting person I know. Genuinely. I don’t know where I’d be without them :’)

Next we have... VOMMY! :DDD Or C-Gal... We gotta bring that nickname back XD

First of all, we met in a Fander Pride Meet Up server. VOmmy CAN SPEAK DUTCH and is SOO CREATIve and SO FRIckING Hard WOrking and such an inspiration. Always greets us and is always down for hugs and cuddles XD

Such a great tea friend, and has like the best aesthetic ever- literally. So old and vintage like a vintage mom and always down to talk about stuff! Ze is soooooo smart as well! And would infodump sometimes when ze’s not busy about stuff that I absolutely adore and love to hear about! Honestly the best vommy ever and ze has PLANTS like- *Woooooooooo!*

We met vommy and literally we can always geek out with zem. Sometimes life gets hard and we need to scream it out every now and then, and vommy would be there :)))

I am so proud of zem and just so damn happy to call zem my friend uwu

ALSO HAVE I MENTIONED THAT ZE CAN SING AND PLAY THE UKE AND WRITE SONGS LIKE WHAT THE HECK THAT’S EPIC AH

Then we haveeeeee... STARBURST! OR BOB THE BUILDER!

ANOTHER friendo we met in the Fander Pride Meet Up Server (seriously a lot of cool friendos there). One of the best advice givers and the most caring older sibling ever. Literally. Like I can’t stress this enough. He’s such a great cousin duck and just a great listener friendo ever.

Such a fricking talented writer and MUSICIAN AND FRICKING ARTIST LITERALLY THE WHOLE SHEBANG IT’s RIDICulOUS

I’m literally so proud of him. It’s crazy. He’s always been there for us, all of us. And is there to provide hugs and arms to cry on. ALSO HAVE I EVER MENTIONED HOW BEAUTIFUL HE IS??! LIKE WHAT THE HECK- AHhhhhHHHHHH

SO BEAUTIFUl- and PRETTY and GORGEOUS

Next we haveeeeeee- POPPY the POPTART! :D

First time we met in the Fander Pride Meetup, I may of may not have offended them. 0-0

woops.

I still feel really bad about that honestly. Uhhh, anyways, I won’t go too in depth on that. BUT ANYWAYS-

THEy Have been such a WONDERFUL presence in my life. LIterally. LIke They have such an cheerful vibe ever and would never fail to make me laugh or like coo or like anything coz they are soooo ADORABLE! They are also like really great cuddler and hugger and sooooo sooooo sooooo handsome :DD

Sure there are rough patches in their lives, but I adore them and am sooo sooo soo proud of them for being able to go through it and still come out with their heads high and just so damn happy that they will not give up that easily. I really admire their strength, and we are always there to support if they need help :)

Also, go check out @/poptartsaysurloved pinned post. See if anyone is willing or can help! :)

Next we have... ATLAS! Or LAssie as I like to call him XD

He’s one of the screaming cereal that I most definitely did not meet in the Fander Pride Meet Up and instead in another server and I’m glad to have met him XD

I don’t know the *exact* thing I texted him, but I definitely remember asking him about something in his status and I most definitely was satisfied with my answer and we just started talking in DMs for a bit, before I invited him in to the screaming cereal bowl server! :D

IT IS A BLAST

LITERALLY

ARSon kid can’t go a day without wanting to blow something up and frankly I’m concerned but such a great friendo

Provider of memes, jokes, laughs, hugs, cuddles, and fun time XD

I can’t even, it’s crack head moments every time with that lassie XD

AHHHHHHHHHHHH FINALLY but obviously not the LAST W E HAVE HEDGIE the ShellY HOGGLES

HONESTLY I LOVE THIS GURLY SOHECKING MUCH

She deals with my bull crap every day kind of and deals with a bunch of my mushy feelingsy moments! I can’t stress enough. Literally Shelly McScotty over here is like the most relatable person ever. Mood all the way and we have like SOO MANY SIMILAR INTERESTS

IT’s CRAZY! When I first found out that she watches like Unus Annus, Winx Club (SHOOSH IT’S A GOOD SHOW SHUSH) Literally, I’m like this is the best person ever. She’s also knowledgeable in a lot of stuff and is literally like the best person to go to when you need to get like informational stuff

Literally. I would info dump on her and she’d be such a great listener. Fricking Disney and Potterhead GEEK of the decade. HOly heck this lady is the literal embodiment of a disney princess. FIRST OF ALL, PERSONALITY IS THERE. SECOND OF ALL, HER LOOKS! HAVE YOU SEEN? LITERALLY SO DROP DEAD GORGEOUS ON FLEEK MAKEUP! AHHHHHh

I can’t get enough of this dude. Gives great advice and insight on soooo many things and I’m just so glad to have met this gurl. I don’t know how exactly we met, but I’m glad we did.

MIND YOU most of my friends are either from Tumblr or Discord so XD

AHHHHHHHHh

Welp! This was a fun! I definitely spent wayyyyyyyyy too long on this thing, but it’s worth it! XD

Hope you have fun learning about my friends from like a freaking geeking out stand point Canon! :D

I have a feeling you wouldn’t read through this entire thing, so well... AH! Hope you have a nice day and don’t sleep too late! Tell me about your friends as well! :))

#caps tw #caps #tw caps #anon stuff #anon #c-anon #canon #friends stuff #long post #I definitely did tag them in my Recs and Friends. And you'll see the occasional reblog or ask #answered stuff

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flying-elliska · 5 years

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Hii Ellie. This is kind of a personal question and it’s totally okay if you don’t answer it. How did you come to terms with your sexuality? How or when did you know you were bi? I know that it’s not about putting tags on people or anything like that, it’s just that I’ve kind of been struggling with it and it’d be nice to read your experience if you want to share it

Ooooh anon do you have three hours ? lol. Of course I want to talk about it if it can help anyone even a little.

The tl;dr is : in stages, I struggled a lot, and bi characters were super important to me.

So I think as a kid/teen I always had this vague notion that ladies were very pretty, but I was not a lesbian bc I liked boys too much, and besides I had these horrible ideas in my mind about queerness being immature and yucky, it was bad. I think I pretty much did have crushes on several of my girl friends but I just didn’t understand that’s what it was, just super intense friendship and being jealous when they got boyfriends hmmmm. Also my ‘fashion folder’ was full of pics of Keira Knightley in a tank top, cause that’s the height of fashion, am I right. I also wrote a letter to a girl I met at camp telling her her voice was so soft and eyes were beautiful and full of stars...do you wanna be friends ? Lol I was so obvious I swear, but it’s funnier in hindsight.

Then when I was 18 I met this older girl in my circle of friends who was bisexual and I thought it was really cool, but I didn’t really connect the dots. I am ashamed to say, I thought she was saying that to give herself a vibe.

Then when I was 19 i bingewatched the series Torchwood ( a Doctor Who spinoff) and it felt like an absolute revelation. Jack Harkness, the MC, is this incredible badass rogue time travelling adventurer from the future who charms women and men left and right without any issue about it. (I think he’s...omnisexual or something ?) But this is the first time I saw the possibility of being attracted to multiple genders as something that’s actually valid. Seems silly now but this was almost 10 yrs ago, lol. It was the dark ages in terms of queer rep back then. And it’s such an integral part of Jack’s character, and he’s just so cool and it really struck a chord with me, this idea that in the future anyone can love whoever they want. There was the idea of a society that is founded on those principles, and well, I am very political in nature I guess, and i was like. yes. i can see it now. but it remained theorethical.

Then the year after that, Erasmus exchange and I meet this girl. Like, it was bam! in your face, I fell head over heels. Now, tbh, I don’t get attracted to people all that often, but when it came to her it was absolutely indeniable. Now, she was already with someone else, so we remained just friends and it did suck a little, but I’m not sad, because it taught me a lot about myself (and she was just such a cool person in general I’m glad I met her). I just couldn’t get past it, yeah she was cool and stuff but I didn’t just want to be her friend, I was attracted to her, I daydreamed about being in a couple with her, doing romantic stuff, etc. And it was super validating to learn she was also bi a little later down the line (she was such goals in general, god.) So then after that I was like...um am I a lesbian ? Like I do have a lot of issues with men. And so I spent a lot of time having this wishy washy thing in my head. Also that year, I was in Amsterdam taking all those gender studies classes. And it opened up my mind in a radical way - learning about queer history, the fact that sexualities are socially constructed, feminism, activism, etc etc....it allowed me to let go of a lot of my crappy internalized prejudices. I also wrote an essay on burlesque with in field research because i ‘liked the costumes’ yeahhhh right okay. The levels of denial oh my god. ANyway.

Then i got really, really into Supernatural for a while (sigh...it was better back then, I have to say). This was s8 and the high moment of the ‘let’s prove Dean Winchester is bi’ meta palooza on tumblr. And spending so much time hunting for clues and reading so much about people explaining their own experiences of being bisexual and not realizing it until later I was like....wait a minute....That’s just so me. Dean probs will never come out of the closet, because they’re cowards, but I certainly did, so yay, I guess. I looked over my past and I was finally able to understand. I wrote the meta of my own life. Lmao. And I was able to come out to one of my friends on the phone. I felt so fucking powerful afterwards. Then to a few other friends. And it felt good.

Then I came back to Amsterdam and I was like, alright, time to stop being a coward and actually get involved in some real life LGBT stuff. So I joined a student association and man. It was so fucking scary. I remember, they had this meet up at a bar every month, and I actually went twice, and every time I just was too nervous to actually go inside, i stood in front of it, and I went home. So in the end I actually signed up to be a member and for the integration day, so I just forced myself to show up. And I did. It was so incredibly nervewracking. I met up with a group of students holding up a rainbow flag in front of the central station and we had these series of challenges to do - take a pic with a rainbow flag in front of one of those bible thumpers, stage a harry potter duel in public, order a starbucks drink with the name ‘Vagina Jensens’, mimick the titanic scene where they’re on the edge of the boat...it was so silly and fun and everyone was so nervous in the end, it was awesome. I ended up on the newsletter committee of that association and I had a blast, interviewing people, writing book reviews, etc...I did have complexes though, that everyone was more cool and gay aware than me lol. But it still did a lot for me and helped me come out to my family. (at a restaurant for my 25th birthday because i am a drama queen lol.). At the same time it was very...mainstream gay frat house lol. Focused on partying and drinking and being sociable in a way that can be exhausting to me, and a little light on the politics, which has always been important to me. After that I volunteered for the Eurobicon as I spoke about earlier and it was so important to me, that being bisexual is such a worthy identity to have in itself and important to me beyond being just queer, it was really cool.

I’m not totally there yet I guess, because I find relationships in general difficult, it’s been a while, I often feel like i don’t have enough experience to call myself bi, I’m nerdy and awkward, I don’t fit the cliché of the seductive bisexual, etc etc. i sometimes think that i’m a little bit on the ace spectrum too or at least demisexual because i don’t seem to be into people as often as most of my friends, and even then it’s very emotionally-focused. I also feel very weird about gender in general so that’s also a whole other thing. And my brain is wonky and i feel it interacts with all that. I still have moments of ‘oh what if i’m actually a lesbian ! straight ! ace !’ looool.

But less now. I’m learning to let myself just...Be. ahahahahaah. And also I have more and more bi friends and that helps a lot, to just randomly swoon over multigendered celebrities and learn to be very casual about it.

Anyway my point is. I included all those messy (kinda embarassing) details because : getting to terms with your sexuality is fucking hard. The wow i figured it out young and then came out and it was great thing ? still not for everyone. I think a key part is, we grow up with these ideals of the perfect life, of what it means to be the protagonist of your life - and most of the time still it involves hetero couple, marriage, babies - and to look beyond that, for a while, it feels like you’re going off track, disqualifying yourself. So it’s hard. Sometimes you actually need several moments of revelation, of it sinking in. It’s fine, it’s all fine. You’ll get there. No pressure. Don’t try to fit your story into a certain pattern. It’s yours, so it’s valid.

#bisexuality #coming out #pride #lgbt

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blankdblank · 6 years

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Scotland Pt 18

Fluffy, bit emotional at one part, implied smut at the end.

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A relaxing sigh left Richard under you as you settled halfway across his chest while he switched on the tv before you. With a firm smile in place his arm settled around your back while his free hand smoothed circles across your hand and arm that not so subtly undid each of the buttons down to his belt. Biting his lips he tried his best to hold in his chuckle the lower you got, with eyes locked on the film playing his body relaxed as your fingers smoothed over his now bare chest after your head settled on his shoulder again.

Halfway through the film your eyes glanced at Richard’s phone that he drew from his pocket at the constant dinging, the top of the long row of missed messages all under Lee’s name causing him to simply turn the display off again and set it on the floor beside him.

“Lee’s bothering you?”

Returning to his stroking of your arm he replied, “I wouldn’t say bothering. Just trying to get all the details.”

With another reach out to his side Richard brought your purse from the table closer to you when your phone rang, his eyes shifted to your face as your eyes widened and you muttered, “She didn’t…” Within a moment you answered the call with a cheerful tone while you sat up, “Grandpa.”

An easy smile smoothed onto Richard’s face as his hands came to rest on your legs you curled across his lap while you replied after releasing your lip from between your teeth, “Yes. No. It wasn’t exactly-. I will let him know. We will see you there. I love you too.” Lowering your phone you met Richard’s gaze, “The Duke approves of your ring and you have his blessing to propose.”

His head nodded, “Well that’s a good thing, how’d he know about it so fast?”

Your eyes lowered to Colin’s number popping up in a text next as you replied, “I gave them a list of relatives I would be inviting, including Colin.”

Richard chuckled softly, “He alright with attending?”

You nodded, “He won’t try to stop it if that’s what you mean.”

He chuckled again, “I have no doubts of that happening, Love. I trust you, if you want him there he’s welcome. Not a terrible guy, at least to me.”

You giggled softly and answered Colin’s call, “Hey Col.”

“You’re getting married, so soon? I know Lee-, but a week after?”

“You haven’t seen the news have you?”

“No, storm flurry, cables been out. What did I miss?” After your quick explanation you stole another smiling glance at Richard at his next loving stroke along your legs, “Ah, that explains it. You’re happy with the decision?”

“Yes, incredibly.”

Wetting his lips again he nodded and replied, “Well the Duke called me, mentioned you wanted Steve, Daryl and Merle there?”

“Yup.”

He nodded again as his smile grew, “Alright, well I’ll call them next, and I’ll pass on it’s not to be spread before I drop by your Pop’s.”

“Thank you.”

“Not a problem Lady bug, congratulations, I mean it. Anything in particular you’ll be needing?”

“Steve has the list, yellow lace dress, he knows the one, clan shawl, Pop’ll have the ring for Rich.”

“And?”

“I think that’s it.”

“Upon my death bed, you will not ever marry a man in pants Lady Bug!”

With a soft giggle you asked Richard, “Are you alright with wearing a kilt?”

He nodded, “Of course Love.” Sending you a dazzlingly adoring gaze you could swear made those blue eyes of his sparkle through his deepening smile.

Easing the phone back to your ear you replied, “Alright, add a kilt to the list.”

Colin nodded again, “Good. I’ll pass it on, you two enjoy your next few days. I can’t wait to see it, thank you for adding me to the list, and no worries on the girls, they’re out under Mum’s watch.”

“Good to know, thank you Col. Bye.” Hanging up the phone you sighed and shifted making Richard’s smile grow as he moved his arms to curl around you again and glance at the twitter alerts you had. Most of which being wedding ideas for the pair of you and suggested locations from both your actor friends and fans that had tagged your page. “Wow, everyone is in wedding frenzy.” With another tap of your finger you skimmed through your private messages and read through each of the pleased messages of the disbelieving cast members all stating they were already choosing their gifts for you along with their outfits.

Richard chuckled again as he glanced at his phone, “Looks like we may have more than the Queen crashing our wedding, Love.” He tilted his phone so you could see the confirming messages from Aiden, Dean, Graham, Martin and Luke already sending word they were crashing the Bloom Festival family outing to get to the bottom of the whole situation.

“Oh, blast it all.”

Richard chuckled again as you quickly fired a message off to Harry about the new additions that would possibly crash the ceremony. With a cheerful response he reported he would relay the message to Her Majesty as Richard said, “Bet that will go over well.”

Setting your phone flat on the floor before you, your fingers started another trail across his skin deepening his smile as he decided to skim through Lee’s messages and curtly respond to his inquiries that should an engagement occur it was customary for it to be publicly announced. But not until after he made sure to state that he certainly was in no position to stand in your way for happiness after how badly he’d treated you, especially with his stringing you along into believing he’d wanted something serious when he was just going to run off so easily with someone else right after.

Quietly you read their back and forth until a single message popped up from Lee, “We said we would be on a break! You’re supposed to have meaningless sex filled romances, not get engaged!”

Before you could stop it a tear rolled across your nose and dropped onto his chest with a downward glance he set his phone on the ground by yours and turned towards the back of the couch curling you tightly in his grip as you mumbled, “I’m alright.”

Smoothing his hand through your hair again he rumbled back sweetly, “He’s obviously a jealous ass. When you truly love someone you don’t go running around for a meaningless fling after.” Pressing a kiss to your forehead before your head tilted back as he stroked your cheek with his thumb, “I love you, I barely made it through two dreadfully dull dates with women I knew wouldn’t want anything past a night being photographed with me. Women that I knew were no threat to you at all.”

In a disheartened tone you replied, “And here I jumped for a full on boyfriend-.”

With a creeping smile he replied, “I don’t count us as on a break. I realized I was in love with you when we ended. But to me, we didn’t start until I got to know you. We didn’t have a full relationship yet, you wanted what I didn’t give you. Lines blurred a bit towards the end, at least for me. So yes, we were on a break of sorts, but you in no way did you hurt me by dating him. I wanted you to be happy, even if it wasn’t with me. What hurt me was seeing and knowing you were in pain.”

“I suppose then he’s gone after what we didn’t have then. Something purely physical and casual.”

With another gentle stroke across your cheek he purred, “You, my Love, will never be something casual or purely physical to me.”

Through your creeping smile your arms slid around the back of his neck as you scooted up, brushing your nose against his, “I know.” His smile deepened as his arms curled around your back pulling you closer to him, “Though I will warn you there will be times when we could very likely spend the full day in bed.”

He lowly chuckled, “I look forward to those times.” brushing his nose against yours before you closed the distance pressing your lips to his for a deepening kiss that broke when you rolled him onto his back and said, “I think I’m gonna make some tea.”

He chuckled and turned his head to watch your path to the kitchen allowing him to quickly message back to Lee, “You had two choices, work or Jaqi. More than once you chose wrong. Accept it. She’s happy. Let it go.” Shutting off the screen again before leaving it next to yours again then he wet his lips and joined you in the kitchen. Smirking as he guided you through the whole process of adding the right amount of tea before showing you how much of each side to add to the warm brew. Ending his lesson he stole another kiss and lovingly guided you back to the couch again for more snuggling against his chest while he held you tightly after you’d finished your tea.

Tilting your head up again you asked, “You don’t mind your shirt like this?”

Chuckling lowly he replied playfully, “I’ll have you know the future Mrs Armitage dressed me this way.”

Giggling softly your smile grew, deepening his, “Really now, you just wear your clothes however she asks?” He nodded, “What if it involves only wearing your right sock and left pant leg?”

Through another chuckle he pulled you a bit higher onto his chest to tap his lips to the tip of your nose before purring, “Is that how you want me dressed right now?”

Giggling again you replied, “You are not giving me that much power over you.”

Pecking your nose again he replied, “My Love, we’re going to be married soon. If you wanted me in nothing but socks all day I would oblige.”

Your joint chuckles muffled through his stolen loving kiss. “I would never do that. It gets far too cold in Scotland to leave you in naught but your socks.” His smile grew again, “Wear what you like, just don’t be surprised if I randomly take a layer or two.”

His lips met yours again, “Deal.” After another stolen kiss his forehead gently met yours after his teasing his nose against yours through your next giggle, “Did you want a nap. We’ve got a bit of time.” With a nod he reached up grabbing the blanket on the back of the couch as you settled across his chest through his covering you and purring, “Get some sleep. I’ll hold you tight till dinner, Love.” In another glance up you stole one last kiss before snuggling against him and closing your eyes for a short nap while he clutched you and wrangled the Hobbit cast into line, getting a clear list of who all was coming to pass it on to you later while he realized Lee still hadn’t sent anything back after his last message yet.

Warm lips landed on the crown of your forehead, waking you from your nap as the low voice from the man currently being used as your pillow purred, “Love?”

Your head tilted up locking your eyes with his allowing you to catch his adoring smile, “Time to leave?”

He nodded, “Feel better?”

You nodded, “I had an incredible pillow.”

As he chuckled deeply you smirked and rose, feeling the blanket slide off your back before you set it aside, standing beside the couch and stretched, feeling Richard’s hands sliding over your sides helping to smooth out the folds your dress had formed into. With his hands still fixed on your hips he rose, stealing a gentle kiss along the way then pocketed his phone and moved to grab his wallet and keys from the table, easing his hand through his hair as he did. Wetting your lips you added your phone to your purse again and followed him to the door while he buttoned his shirt again, adding your heels as he pulled on his favorite boots.

For the short ride over his hand stayed fixed in yours as he shared more about his Father at your asking to sooth your nerves, only drawing him to repeat, “He will love you, and they’ll be thrilled.”

Locking your eyes with his at the next light you asked, “You’re certain?”

He nodded, “I am, Love.” With a sigh you settled your head on his arm for the rest of the ride. Through the quiet ride you watched the roads, buildings and houses shift around you until a small cottage came into view stirring a smile onto your face making him chuckle when he noticed it, “Like it?”

“It’s seems perfect for your Mum. Just what I pictured her in.”

He chuckled again, “Well that’s good, Chris and I worked hard to get them settled into it for their retirement.”

His smile deepened again as your smile grew at your eyes locking, “You are amazing. I hope out of our twelve, Trevors at least one of them is like you two towards us.”

Leaning in he stole a quick kiss, “All twelve will be scrapping to see who gets to.”

You giggled again and climbed out, joining him at the front of the car where his arm looped around your back as your fingers skimmed through your curls, pulling it over your shoulder while you settled against his side. By the time you reached the door the thick wooden barrier opened revealing an older version of the man curled around your bag with a big grin as he offered you his hand. “John, been anxious to meet you. Rich won’t stop talking about you,” His grin widened as he leaned in to add, “Something my Wife seems to have picked up since your meeting.”

His grin deepened as you softly giggled and released his hand after his gentle shake, “Rich has been telling me all about you. Feel like I know you already.”

With a nod of his head he ushered you both in as he snuck an agreeing hand signal to his Son who did his best to hold back his own deep grin and the chuckle that followed. Scanning over the halls and rooms you passed you smiled at the quaint decorations between scattered pictures, awards and items snagged from a few of Richard’s movies along with other prizes from Chris and Trevor as they grew. Your eyes turned forward and landed on the smiling face of the woman that popped out of the doorway to the kitchen saying, “Cake is out of the oven and cooling, with supper already on the table. Her eyes scanned over you with her smile creeping wider before she chuckled and said, “I’m going to pour the tea.”

A firm grip on your side led you towards the table where you claimed the seat between the two men and barely had the time to bite your lip as John stated, “It’s been a bit quite since the other Dwarves moved out, but at least we got the deer to stop trying to wash our dishes.”

With a hand over his eyes Richard’s shoulders shook at his low chuckle as you replied through a quick giggle, “Must have been difficult, they do enjoy a tidy home. At least it isn’t elks or the door would be scraped up by the wide antlers.”

A chuckle came from John as he nodded and accepted the mug of tea Margaret passed him before handing you both yours as he replied, “Don’t even want to imagine how they’d handle the china hutch.” Raising his mug for a sip as Margaret claimed her own seat and laid her napkin over her lap signaling you to do the same causing Richard’s hand to move from your lap to the table at your side to grab his.

Her smile grew as she asked, “So, Jaqi, Dear, I couldn’t help but notice you’re still wearing Trevor’s gift.” Sending a hopeful gleam through her eyes as she looked between you two as you lowered your mug from your sip and Richard raised his to hide his creeping grin.

You nodded, “Yes. Well, um.” Your eyes scanned over to Richard who lowered his mug as he swallowed and met your gaze through his blush coated ears slowly spreading to his cheeks. Meeting her eyes again you saw her smile spread expectingly as you stated, “Um.”

Richard’s hand lowered to rest on your lap as he stated, “We had some plans of our own for the trip to the Bloom Festival this year.”

Her brow rose as her expression shifted at possible news far from what she wanted to hear, “Oh?”

Richard nodded, “Yes. Well, Jaqi got a call this morning, or text rather, and we had a guest for breakfast.”

John, “One of the cast members?” Raising his mug or another sip as Margaret raised her fork for a bite from her plate.

Richard tried his best to hold his straight expression as he replied promptly, “Prince Harry.” A cough came from John in lowering his mug from his sip as the fork in Margaret’s hand clattered to her plate. Through a sharp inhale from Richard they both glanced at each other then back over you two. “Turns out Jaqi is on the list of Royals requiring permission to become engaged.” He wet his lips, “Her Majesty saw the video of Trevor proposing and loved it apparently, thought it was adorable.”

Margaret, “And, the Prince came to breakfast to tell you that?”

“No, he actually came to drive me back, I was asked to tea with Her Majesty.”

Margaret lowly parroted, “Tea-.”

You nodded, “Apparently they’d already checked up on Richard, and she expected me to be wearing his ring not Trevor’s.” The pair nodded again, “So she’d already started the planning for the typical wedding.”

Richard, “But in Scotland of course.”

John nodded and softly replied still slightly stunned, “Of course.”

“But, with our tastes we both would prefer something smaller. So naturally our trip came up when I mentioned we could use it for ideas.” Your eyes shifted quickly to then back again from their hands clasping on top of the table, “And one thing led to another, an aid sent for the information for the festival and she loved it.”

Unable to hold back his grin or the words any more Richard put them out of their misery, “They had drafted the prenup already, along with the license-.”

Margaret, “License?”

Richard nodded, “All that’s left is the actual service through the festival.”

Her free hand rested over her lips with a tearful gaze over you both as John smiled and gave a cheerful chuckle looking you both over as he said, “Congratulations, and I must say, about time.”

You giggled softly before watching Margaret rise and move around the table to hug you both as John rose giving him a firm hug of his own and a gentler one for you welcoming you to the family before Richard stopped his Mother on her path for her phone, “There were a few rules though, Mum.” As she turned her smile flickered before he added, “Firstly, this is going to be a private service, just us, Jaqi’s family, a few of our friends who seemed determined to crash the festival anyway,”

Margaret, “Well I won’t be putting it online-.”

Richard, “Along with the Royal family.” Their expressions dropped in shock.

“Her Majesty loves weddings.”

Richard, “This is our service, but the festival is going to be seen, publicly, as our official engagement announcement for the full service in the Spring, meaning the service is private, between us not to be shared publicly.”

Margaret, “So, we can’t say anything?”

Richard exhaled moving closer and setting his hands lovingly on her shoulders, “Between us, yes, publicly no. To the world we’ll be simply engaged, giving us plenty of time to have a good start to our life together by the time we get to the official service.”

John, “Official service, is that the one with the parade and all that?”

Richard nodded, “Yes.”

“Which hopefully, at least for my own comfort, it’ll get stumbled upon by then and it’ll save everyone a whole bunch of time and money.”

John shot you a playful glance, “Big wedding not for you?”

You shook your head, “Big party perhaps, but not the full circus around the service.”

After another stolen hug Margaret ushered you back to your seats and claimed her own before asking, “What are the other rules?”

John, “And I’m curious to know what the prenup was about.”

Richard, “Mainly the prenup was about our property being our own, along with our money. Mostly protecting her trusts especially. No alimony unless we reach five years, I don’t get a title until she inherits her Grandfather’s, and even then I won’t be referred to as Duke, I’ll be called Lord Pear.”

Margaret, “After you?”

You nodded, “Yes, since I’m the one of noble birth he would be ranked lower than me since he’s male to begin with.”

Richard chuckled, “Not really interested in the title anyway. Only other main detail was she’s not allowed to take my name.” You shrugged at their next glance at you, “Old tradition. Even Her Majesty had to follow it. Though as far as children go they can have hyphenated names, nothing past that really other than the silent enjoyment of our secret union.”

Margaret, “And there’s no other rules?”

You shook your head, “None so far. But nearer to the official service there will be.”

Their questions continued as you delved farther into how the service would go until you caught John adjusting his ring on his ring finger causing you to say, “My Pop and his Son both wore their wedding rings through the full engagement.”

John’s smile eased back as he caught his Son’s eye as he stated, “So I won’t be carrying on without my ring. We’ll both have them, found a way to slip it in so I could, and it will give us at least some privacy until the big day so it won’t just be a ring out of nowhere if I forgot to take it off when I left home.”

With growing smiles they both happily delved into their own hopes for the day, along with asking proper behavior and clothes to wear for the trip followed by your moving to the couches where they settled around you both, happily showing you the footage of their own service along with their photo album. Which stirred Richard’s groans as you giggled and awed at his life in those thick books.

Parked back in his own driveway as you climbed out Richard rolled his eyes at your next giggle before firing back, “I was a string bean!”

Through your playful glare you reached his side and gripped his shirt loosely stirring a grin from him in return as you replied, “Hey, I would have dated the hell out of you back then.”

Chuckling lowly he replied, “Oh really?”

Inches from your lips as he leaned in to kiss you you continued, “You would have been my string bean.” Giggling against his lips that crashed into yours for a deepening kiss through his own brief muffled chuckle.

Pulling back he stroked his nose against yours while his hands drifted from your back and slowly lower as you nipped at your lower lip, “Call Colin, tell him to bring your scrapbooks.” You pulled away towards the door rolling your eyes through a grumble causing him to chuckle again, following you to the door where he circled his arms around your middle and pressed a firm kiss to your jaw before purring, “You saw my pictures, now I want to see yours.” In a low rumble between warm kisses left along your neck through his leading you inside he continued, “Every single awkward and adorable captured memory of yours.”

“Hmm, I may need some convincing. I believe there was some cake and cuddling offered earlier.”

Biting his lip as you turned around he chuckled and nodded, following you through the hall as he playfully rumbled, “Cake is that way.”

Your smirk grew as you turned to face him continuing your steps backwards into his bedroom, “I never specified which order would be the most convincing.”

His gaze shifted lower to your hands slowly freeing the ribbon tied behind your back loosening your dress stirring a smirk on him in return. Stepping closer his hands eased around yours in your attempt to remove your dress, pressing his lips to both of your palms then released them and leaned in purring, “I think you’ll find,” firmly his lips landed on yours as he guided you back to the bed easing his fingertips slowly up your thighs. Guiding you to lay back across the bed where he broke the kiss leaving a warm trail from his lips along your jaw while his fingers inched your skirt higher causing you to bite your lip as he purred against your neck, “I can be very convincing.” Slowly trailing his fingertips around your thighs then dipping between them as he chuckled at your soft gasp.

Pt 19

#Richard Armitage x Reader OC

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thephantomsrevenge · 7 years

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Miracle Mile (1988)

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In this movie my man Harry Washello aka Anthony Edwards is on his way to get some with his special lady friend when he picks up a random phone booth call from a dude who straight up tells him that a nuclear war is about to start, fecal matter is about to hit the ventilation device you might say.

Here is the thing, i’m obsessed with end of the world / post apocalyptic / dystopian movies and this is one of the best and one of my favorite movie ever. We’re talking nuclear apocalypse here, we’re talking human on human extermination action. I guess it was popular in the 80s because of the nuclear arms race leftovers, i have been lately deep down into this twenty-four episode television documentary series about the Cold War, you know when usa and the soviet union were threatening each other of mutual nuclear blast and now president orange man decided to bring it back into fashion, so it’s text book convenient. I guess later on hollywood decided to make it more about weather disasters and space rocks because they thought we were done with this shit HAHA GOT TO LOVE THINKING ABOUT TOXIC CLOUDS AGAIN. But i have played the fallout games i am ready, fuck the minutemen though, anyway...

Miracle Mile aka 70 Minutos Para Morir in Spain and Soluzione Finale in Italy is a romantic end of the world movie directed and written by my dude Steve De Jarnatt in 1988, known for his work on Cherry 2000 (another 80s cool SF movie) aaaaaaand the Lizzie Mc Guire tv show, that’s a very peculiar curriculum right here. The movie is named after a real neighborhood in Los Angeles, never been there sadly but it’s on top of my list next time i’m in LA because i’m that dude in Parks and Recreation who goes to Paris and check the bridge from Inception.

dude where is my car part 2

Few words about the cast, main dude Harry Washello played by Anthony Edwards aka ACE, that Goose dude from Top Gun and also from the ER tv that you watched whenever you wanted your anxiety to beat records. Main girl Julie Peters played by Mare Winningham, look i know it was the 80s but that haircut is a straight no no, anyway very busy actress, been in like a 100 tv shows and movies, she also released albums, i mean so busy it makes my head spin.

But i guess what i like most about the cast are the small parts. I mean you have that jerk dude who send the ghostbusters to crazy people jail Kurt Fuller who’s also being a dick here.

tbh maybe we will all be that dude when the bombs start dropping

Then you have the jerk psychiatrist from Terminator Earl Boen who made a living of not believing the end is near.

there’s no more incoming nuclear attack than there is naked robot dudes coming from the future to kill the head of the future resistance trust me

But most of all you have muscular dude Brian Thompson, a very interesting fella. You might also know this dude by being one of the dudes who made the mistake of contesting the terminator fashion choices at the beginning of the first movie. This man, with a master of fine arts in his pocket is the official hollywood shapeshifter, if you know anyone who played 5 shapeshifting dudes in 5 different programs you let me know, 2 of his most famous shapeshifting works were of course in the X-Files and Buffy the vampire slayer.

even though he plays a muscular gym dude in this movie after investigation he turns out he gets all his power from windsurfing, you’ll do whatever you want with this piece of information

This movie has everything you need, the impending doom scenario, a cute love story, humans turning on each other like you thought they would in an apocalyptic scenario (come on if the end of the world sirens start blasting tomorrow you think people are gonna wait in line at the grocery store to stock up on water and smoked ham ?)

But it’s still has this stupidity type vibe you get from 80s movies, the main guy randomly answer the phone call announcing the end right in front of a diner at 4 am, same diner where is peacefully drinking coffee a woman who supposedly works for the government and also used to date a dude who worked at the Rand Corporation (real thing responsible for the creation of the Mutual Assured Destruction or MAD which basically meant during the cold war that both United States and USSR had to have the same nuclear power which meant that any attack could result in the assured destruction of any side, meaning if both sides are convinced they could fuck each other up real good they would never actually do it, it’s freakin crazy you should read about it if u never have) and knows only way to escape a nuclear cloud is to fly to Antartica but then the same woman also gets a dumb waitress and a random workman to make a list of important people to bring by on the trip, i mean the waitress suggest nba coach Pat Riley.

part of the movie happens in this diner, fat boy probably because the 2 bombs the United States dropped on Japan were named Fat Man and Little Boy, you thought you were reading about a movie but you got hit by the history class

Most importantly this movie provides one of the best soundtrack ever made, brought to you by the Tangerine Dream collective, mainly Paul Haslinger in this case. You might know them from the Thief or the Keep ost that i should probably talk about later, but also maybe from GTA V (you’ll hear the similarities mostly on the first track called Teetering Scales which really sounds like the mission music theme in GTA V). The music makes the first minutes of the movie amazing, mostly thanks to the track called On The Spur Of The Moment really one of the best piece of ambient stuff there is. Check the ost here :

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I don’t know what else to say about this movie but you need to watch this you won’t regret it.

Special Shout Out to this background couple who decided to welcome the end with a bang

Spoiled Cabbage rating : 99 %

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consider this: SMH & one direction

i just wanna talk about smh and 1d ok im so sorry this wasnt supposed to be this long i have no control

dex grew up with sisters (let me have this he has a bunch of sisters ok) so not only was he completely unable to escape one direction he was not allowed to get away with any sort of ‘bands that have mainly young female fanbases are not real music’ misogyny that lots of teen boys and adult males have

so he likes 1d he doesnt advertise but he had to listen to them a lot so he knows their entire discography and what they have some good songs ok bro

so yeah they find their way into his workout playlists so fucking what man they’re fucking hype songs

his fave is niall bc hes chill and just wants to drink beer and play his guitar and listen to dad rock and he’s irish (dex is irish and is grandma loves niall bc she’s irish and what a sweet young lad) he’s not like die hard niall stan but he knows all of the 1d discourse from his sisters debating (im willing to listen to other opinions my back up is louis bc hes a punk)

he save up one year (and got help from his fam) to get tickets for his sisters to see a wwa concert as a birthday/christmas/every holiday present bc theyre expensive and they dont have a lot of money

his mom technically bought the tickets he just helped pay for them and the girls surprised him with a ticket for him to come with (mama poindexter: well i cant let them go alone who’s gonna watch them you have to go make sure they dont get arrested for doing something stupid) dex played it cool but it was such a fun concert and so fun to hang out with his sisters tooo

nursey now is a goddamn hipster u cant tell me he isnt into a bunch of british alternative bands and bc of his brit music phase he knew about one direction from the very start at the x factor stage (he definitely mentions this all the goddamn time when they start becoming popular but he chills out through the years)

hes been to at least one concert for every tour (he even got tickets to the madison square garden show) - he went to every concert with his sister but it was his idea to go and she was just there to keep an eye on him

also a big reason he got into the band was zayn like heres a pakistani muslim boy who’s super talented with these white dudes and that representation is super important (i also hc nursey as muslim or at least partially but zayn is a brown muslim boy killing it so yeah its awesome)

but nurseys fave tho is harry especially when harry is a total hoe with long hair and jewelry and those red carpet looks like nursey is in love but also in awe bc those sparkly boots and that floral suit like those are iconic Looks™ and nursey loves it bc gender isnt real and he loves hoe looks (zayn is like 1.5 tho bc nursey is in love)

nursey tries to serenade dex with little things one day when they’re chilling by the pond on the grass and dex punches him bc nursey is making him emo even when he knows dex doesnt have emotions (in public in front of people who can see him cry)

bitty likes them they’re no beyonce but theyre fun and attractive and yeah hes gonna have some fun dancing to them he isn’t really up with all the drama and disc*urse until the boys have 1d nights and they watch this is us and the concert dvds bc he learns a lot

he loves 2013 era harry and all the time liam (that boy is thicc and bitty 100% does not swoon)

holster like come tf on holster loves them he unironically and passionately loves one direction completely unashamed he does not care for your opinions and no one makes fun of him bc he’s a 6′4 fucking big ass hockey player who could drop kick u across campus if he wanted to

he claims he doesnt have a fave but he would die for all of them

his fave rotates seasonally and he has a different fave for each era

he went to the tmh tour and he’s gone to every tour since - he goes with his sisters bc its a bonding topic for them he sits at the edge of the floor or at the end of a row on the sides bc hes so tall he feels so bad and he tries to stay out of the way of the little girls behind him but hes nice to them and talks to them and so they like him even if hes a giant

but really he and his sisters are so close bc they have a lot of similar interests and they talk about pop culture stuff and its hard to keep intouch when hes away so much but they have group chats about 1d and tv shows and stuff so its so nice for them to keep up a strong bonding time

ransom is a britney bitch and holster dragged him into 1d. he’s in it for the memes and the drama really. (he likes the songs and thinks its fun but he wouldnt have been a fan and gone to concerts if it wasnt for holtz)

holster takes him to the wwa concert and they have a blast

holster also drags his ass to see this is us opening night (they both cry)

chowder just loves everyone and he doesnt understand why people hate 1d (or other pop artists with majority young female fan bases that ppl hate bc misogyny) when theyre so fun he’s not an active /fan/ until smh has team bonding nights involving one direction jam sessions and concert dvd watching and drunk history

on such 1d nights they put on one of the dvds and it accidentally turns into a drinking game (mainly drinking bc this part of my god did u see that !!! THAT NOTE CHANGE !!!! and ZAYN WHY !!!! and other painful parts) and some of them *cough* nursey dex and holster *cough* get possibly the most drunk they ever get bc of this

theres loud awful drunk singing along and some sobbing (this is definitely not based off of any sort of personal experience whatsoever nope never done this before)

after the movie when everyone is so drunk they talk about 1d history which is how the veterans teach the others about the exciting drama and disc*urse

lardo is a bad bitch who is tough as fuck and manages a division I mens hockey team and every single one of them is afraid of her. AND she would not let any bro tease her for liking one direction bc why the fuck not.

she has plenty of their songs thrown in arting playlists and in pump up playlists

and she knows theres nothing better to cheer holster up when he’s having a rough day than a 1d dance sesh

dont forget where you belong is the first song on her team bonding playlist bc its a love song to ur bandmates which transfers very well to love songs to ur teammates

shitty unapologetically loves 1d and boy bands and girl bands and he supports all things that young girls love but are not taken seriously bc girls like them

he’s written at least 3 papers/projects on the misogyny surrounding young girls and their interests and involvement in fandom and also boybands (he tries to fight all guys who disrespect girls’ interests and the power of teenage girls)

he’ll randomly show up to a 1d night bc obvi he’s in that gc and he’s ready to party and express emotions and dance and talk drama

he loves harry bc “THAT FLOW MAN!!! HIS FLOW IS SO SICK!!!”

he cried when harry posted the pic of the hair he chopped off and cried when he saw the another man shoot where harry was defying all sorts of societal norms it was beautiful and his flow is still so nice even this short its ok it’ll grow back better than before

one friday night the lax bros sneak over to try to prank the haus and peak in the window and see half of the hockey team in the living room drunk off their ass singing loudly to a one direction concert on the tv - holster and nursey jumping around attempting to dance along, ransom clinging to bitty on the floor crying about a ‘hiatus’, bitty soothing ransom, dex forgetting about the drink in his one hand to drink rum from the bottle, shitty naked (not surprising) and slow dancing with a life sized cut-out of harry styles with tears streaming down his face (more surprising), and chowder lying on the couch singing through mouthfuls of pie

they walk back to the lax bro house without executing the prank and they never mention it again

#p #should I put this under a read more??? I didn't think about how long it was yikes #i am ??? so sorry ???? i odnt know what happpened i have So Many Thoughts ok #omgcp #omgcheckplease #i just have so many feelings about this i have so much more to talk about really #omgcpx1d #1domgcp #i need to like sort out an actual tag for this #nurseydex #im so sorry but also im not bc i needed to say this #mine #my hcs #omgcp headcanon

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