#homosexual synchronicity

[unhhhhbelievable]

Trixie & Katya live, Sydney

#the way that they have fun together #the way that they make each other SO. HAPPY. #LOOK at their smiles #that moment when you can physically see love #love joy happiness #homosexual synchronicity #SERIOUSLY IN SYNC AT ALL TIMES. #I'd die for them. #also the new outfits for this show are amazing #LOOK at them!! #flawless. #trixie mattel #katya zamolodchikova #trixie and katya live #my gifs #flickeramy on twitter

[mikkaeus]

house md hilson fic rec - medium to long fics (10k+)

Other house rec lists: short fics | episode tags | postcanon | infidelity trope (all of these are mutually exclusive apart from the infidelity one) // Edit: I added the longer postcanon fics to this reclist as well because this one got the most traction!

These are all House/Wilson unless otherwise stated. Before we get into the fics, here are some of my fave authors that have written several house fics.

fourteencandles: im literally in love with them . 10/10 writing no notes. also long fics?? hello???

ictus: this author has the range! from emotional to fluff to funny. very smooth writing. all of their fics have different vibes which was fun to read. they’re all very good. 

Transformatron: fics that are transcendent and porny, all featuring a d/s undertone or theme (wilson as the dom)

Namaste (livejournal / ff.net): Some short fics, some much longer ones. Mostly gen focussing on H&W friendship, with some fics on canon pairings. Interesting character studies and discerning prose.

In order of length. *faves, ***underrated faves

*Brain Damage by fourteencandles (8k) (Ok I know this isn’t over 10k but I wanted all of their fics on one post and it’s close enough so.) This was brilliant. Like a real episode of House, with Wilson as the unfortunate patient-of-the-week, with bonus House/Wilson. Characterisation was bang on, and the plot was original and engaging and had a satisfying conclusion. Love to see House taking care of Wilson.

Down to the Water + Bound for Home by blackmare (~10k) Aftermath of season 4. House and Wilson go on a road trip. Quiet and sad and fragile, with excellent writing. This fic appears to have been fairly well known in lj days but I don't think a lot of newer people know about it.

*A Smaller World by fourteencandles (10k) The thing between them works, if Wilson doesn't push for more. God I’m so soft. I have so many feelings!!! In love with this established relationship hilson, still a little precarious, but with Wilson adapting, and House willing to put in effort.

*What's Past by fourteencandles (10k) The guy who used to have Wilson's job comes back for a visit, and it turns out they have more in common than Wilson ever knew.

*Touch Therapy by nomad (10k) It's not that House needs the human contact. It's just that when you're sharing an apartment, these things happen sometimes. Light hearted and funny, canon divergence from when Wilson’s staying on House's couch in s2. This is pretty much the homosexual waters have started flowing in House's direction post. Excellent dialogue.

***not another medical drama series (10k) by captainharkness Retelling of season 1 with House and Wilson as an established relationship. Great slice of life stories! Ongoing. The first is H/W POV, the second is Cameron, and the third is Chase. My favourite is definitely the second one (someone else’s story). I adore seeing H/W through the ducklings’ eyes. 

Synchronicity by copperbadge (10k) Dead patients, car wrecks, drug overdoses, journalists, Comatose Charlie, and orange chicken. Must be love.

systemic by ictus (10k) Ever since Wilson moved in, House has presented with some inexplicable symptoms. Fortunately, he has a team of talented doctors to aid him with his diagnosis. Season 2 fic! This one is funny and sweet and overall a great read.

Rush Down Darkness by Starlingthefool (10k) House MD/World War Z crossover. Told mainly through interview dialogue from house’s pov. Engaging story. House/Wilson definitely takes a backseat to the plot — there’s no grand getting together or anything. That's not to say it's not about them though, because there were still lots of good moments (good in the sense that my heart hurts). More succinctly, it has the vibes of an established relationship fic., although it isn't technically one.

Defensive Strategies by Milkshake Butterfly (~10k) (lj) In which Wilson is tired of being asked out by women when he's not ready to date again, and naturally House proposes a simple solution: pretend to be together. An enjoyable read.

******Commonplace and True by celestialskiff (11k) It would be a simple story--House and Wilson meet at a medical conference, have sex, and enjoy each other's company--but nothing is ever easy, or simple. Explores Wilson's relationship with House, with women, and with himself. House and Wilson throughout the years — with the version of canon where Wilson has cheated on every wife and girlfriend with House. When I tell you I am FROTHING!!! Pining while fucking?? The way it’s never the right time?? The greed of wanting to have your cake and eat it too? (That one’s specifically for Wilson, our beloved three-wives guy.) The vibes are immaculate. The prose is elegant verging on poetic. I’m eating this fic whole and it will be on my mind always. It is THE hilson fic for me. It is criminal that this fic has been up since 2012 and it only has 200 kudos. Go read it immediately & give the author some love.

***Declarations of Independence by Namaste (ff.net, also on livejournal) (11k) House and winter, throughout the years. I really enjoyed this. Excellent writing. Copy pasting a part of a comment by bedawyn which articulates why this fic is unique better than I can: “So far, I've seen a lot of focus in the fanfic (and the eps) on the pain and the Vicodin, but very little awareness of the practical aspects of limited mobility and the emotional impact of those even apart from the pain. So this was a very nice change.”

***Rule of Three by Transformatron (11k) (House/Wilson/Foreman) Foreman sees something he shouldn't have. And, maybe, wants something he shouldn't have, too. This was well written and super hot, with fun dialogue and descriptions that do justice to the excellent writing of the show itself. Foreman is faithfully characterised in a way that made me sympathetic. Also H/W outsider perspective as a third is such a treat to read. Lower me into my grave!!!!

*Warning Signs by out_there (12k) Excerpt: House looked to the left, staring down at the open box. Wilson knew that expression on his face: House was torn between denying it all and gleefully acknowledging his schemes. Normally, his ego won out and, like a comic super villain, he'd explain all. Wilson just needed to stay quiet and wait. This fic was fantastic. I am disgustingly fond. Superb characterisation. Light hearted and funny.

The Oncologist Trap by zulu (13k) (2007) House subtly seduces Wilson. Somehow.

The Line of Thought by tevinterimperium (13k) House and Wilson pretend to be together to play a prank on the ducklings, which is an extremely plausible scenario. From the perspective of the ducklings. Set sometime after 3x15: Half-Wit.

hail mary by ictus (13k) A post-canon fix it! In the weeks since finishing the show and reading this fic there are times I forgot that this wasn’t canon. It’s such a believable (and well-researched) alternate ending that feels like an actual episode.

Son of Mine by simoneallen (14k) Sherlock is House’s long-lost kid. Usually I’m not a fan of cross-over fics but I enjoyed this one. Established relationship on the johnlock side, getting together on the hilson side.

***hearts turn red by ictus (14k) In my head this is the counterpoint to Commonplace and True. When I found it after reading that one it really was a holy shit two fucking cakes?? moment. The delicious infidelity vibes are similar, but the vibes of the writing are pretty different -- whereas the above fic has a more quiet, subdued atmosphere, this one has more snappy prose and it’s more light-hearted with funny moments as well as emotional ones. It’s not just the infidelity theme that makes me crazy about both of them though; it’s how they play on the great tragedy of House and Wilson. In the author’s own words: In a way they do feel a little bit doomed to never quite be on the same page with each other until the very end of the series and by then it's too late. Of course, in these fics, they’re rescued earlier than the end, but the wretched vibes remain. Also, I’m obsessed with this line: By Wilson’s read, House is somehow simultaneously joking and sincere: Schrödinger’s sexual advance. That is the entire fucking show.

An Inconvenient Truth by annathaema (15k) Wilson helps out Cuddy and reveals something about himself in the process. House freaks out accordingly. Also features banana-colored babies, the men's room, and Skee-Ball.

*at the rind by ShanaStoryteller (19k) An AU where Wilson experiences all the near death moments House has in the show as a series of nightmares. Set between 1.19 and 2.05, but spoilers for the whole show. Protective Wilson!! We love to see it. I also like Wilson’s characterisation here - you can very much see how not-normal he is. We love unhealthy co-dependency.

***Esopus Creek by shaycat (24k) An eighty-year-old widower by the name of Eugene Skinner ventures out one September day in upstate New York for his usual morning activity - fly fishing. His leisurely hobby is interrupted by a bickering pair nearby in the river. That chance encounter with Greg House and James Wilson changes the course of his life. Told from the perspective of the last friend the boys make on their final road trip. This was the perfect post season 8, Wilson-still-dies fic. A sad fic but not a depressing one. It’s quiet and heartwarming, in a bittersweet way. Highly recommend. It has great use of outsider POV — I’m always a sucker for it but it worked particularly well in this case to have the angst but not be drowning in it. Also I just really liked the OC.

***Howler Tone by baffledbear (25k) The calls always happen late at night, and they're extremely sporadic, with weeks, sometimes months bridging between them. They talk on the phone otherwise, of course; about patients, or dinner plans, or carpooling. Typical stuff. But the calls that always end a certain way always start a certain way. Wilson is so repressed but so attracted to House. House is taking as much as he can get while still remaining in relative safety. Together they push a platonic relationship to the absolute limits of plausible deniability. Overall totally realistic within the canon of the show — the natural step up from the gay chicken already depicted. It’s just such a perfect scenario for them! That combined with silky smooth prose, faithful characterisation and accurate dialogue makes this fic is a definite hilson favourite and also a hilson-thesis fic.

*The Open Road by Pun (25k) A fandom classic. Road trip fic set in the earlier seasons. It's good; read it.

*He Won't Tell You That He Loves You by hellshandbasket (25k) [In which Nolan pulls at the Wilson thread, and House can't stop it all from unraveling. Repression is a hell of a drug.] Early s6. Another fandom classic that is worth its salt.

no need to worry (making up your mind) by scribespirare (25k) House makes the mistake of telling his mother he can't join her for Christmas because of his new boyfriend. Somehow, this becomes Wilson's problem. Cute and fun. I put off reading fake-dating fics because I was worried about them being OOC but this one definitely wasn’t!

***Sticks and Stones by Transformatron (25k) (WIP) House has an innovative new idea for managing his chronic pain. Wilson’s not sure he approves - but when has House ever asked for permission? This is such a great concept I am climbing the walls!!! D/s with House as the sub. The story is currently still at pre-relationship stage, with House experimenting with BDSM and Wilson being unhappy with the proceedings (for some unknown reason /s). Also the writing is nice and snappy with some great figurative language that manages to incorporate medical themes impressively well. 

Fresh Feeling by justkeeptrekkin (30k) House is tricked into going on a team-building trip with his colleagues. He does far more bonding with Wilson than anyone else. Funny and well written. The team interactions are very cute.

***Tracking Time by Namaste (37k) (ff.net) A look at House and Wilson's friendship over the years and how it has changed from their meeting through the end of the first season. I don’t usually read long genfics but this one was exceptional. I like Namaste’s take on House and Wilson’s characters. And they are a very good storyteller — one thing that you don’t tend to see as much of in fanfiction is the old adage of ‘show not tell’. The writing in this fic is careful and subtle, and lets you read between the lines, making it so that no part of the 37k words is a drag to read.

*The Body Found by fourteencandles (46k) Wilson's missing. When I tell you I cried... Premium angst & hurt/comfort. Excellent dialogue with some alternating POV (House mainly, but you also get the three ducklings & Cuddy).

You Already Know How This Will End by fourteencandles (46k) What if House had gone to rehab right after/around "Merry Little Christmas"? (3.10) This fic was interesting. It’s told in a series of short vignettes with a variety of different perspectives. It’s not really a hilson fic (or a fic for any ship). It just explores the characters. I did wish for more hilson but it’s a good read (I mean, it’s fourteencandles). The one hilson scene near the end where they hire a hooker in Atlantic City lives in my head rent free. Warning that the ending is rather abrupt and I didn’t find it satisfying, but I think it works for this kind of story, in a way. Messy people and their complicated relationships, with a lot of loose ends left untied, because that’s just what life is. 

***For Every Closed Door by starlingthefool (around 50k?) (lj) Overview of the chapters (14 with 4 interludes and an epilogue) is on the author’s lj (scroll down).  House MD/Dead Like Me crossover.  I love this fic a lot! It’s canon divergence from Season 3. House gets killed in a freak accident and becomes a reaper, remaining in the mortal world to harvest souls, able to interact with people but not be recognisable to those that know him. As the author says, this is an Afterlife!Fic and therefore a deathfic. They also said it’s not depressing — which is true, because it’s more plotty than an angstfest, and there are lots of light-hearted parts, but it is definitely heartbreaking at points. I literally cried all the way through the last chapter. Happy ending though!!! Don’t worry about the cross-over aspects. I haven’t seen Dead Like Me, and as far as I can tell, it just takes the premise of the show. I’m glad I found this fic whilst trawling 2000s livejournal because it’s really a hidden gem. Great plot, dialogue, compelling OCs — the whole package! I got so emotionally invested in the story. I think there were maybe a few parts that were a little unpolished but just keep reading. It’s really worth it. 

*A Modest Proposal and Involuntary Commitment series by ignaz (98k) The one where House and Wilson get married so Wilson can’t testify against House in the Tritter arc.  I have an unfortunate habit of downloading fics and then forgetting to bookmark & comment once I’m done, so I don’t have anything detailed to say about this one, but it’s a classic and a favourite of mine.

Twenty Years of Stealing My Food by hwshipper (100k) A backstory taking place over twenty years, from how House and Wilson met all the way to canon. A reimagining of their fucked up, magnetic relationship, with a straightforward writing style. They get together nearly as soon as they meet and maintain a steady open relationship whilst cheating on their various girlfriends and wives throughout the years. 

#house md #hilson #house x wilson #house fic rec #house fic #house md fic rec #house md fic #my rec list

[thesirencult]

THE TRUTH ABOUT ESCAPING TWIN FLAMES AND OTHER MLM NEW AGE BULLSHIT

"You don't get rich writing science fiction. If you want to get rich, you start a religion."

L. Ron Hubbard (Founder of Scientology)

I won't lie to you. What got me into tarot was a very raw and real dream about a man I've never met in my life. I had this dream when I was 15 and it felt like I was floating in a parallel universe.

Dreams with this "stranger" kept coming and going and during a search I stumbled upon the concept of "twin flames".

As with anything NeW AgE it is nothing new. All New Age bullshit are concepts familiar to human civilizations for thousands of years. In all ancient cultures these concepts show up again and again.

Astrology, cartomancy and other forms of divination and guidance have been used by Mesopotamians, Egyptians, Greeks and Hindu people for centuries. They were villainized after the come up of Christianity.

I always have believed there is a higher power. Some name it Allah, others Moses, other Dias etc. Doesn't matter, it's one God above us. Actually contrary to what many want you to believe the Ancient Greeks didn't have "12 Gods" but 12 (and much much more) expressions of DIVINITY. Metaphors and symbolisms.

Hermes Trismegistus has written everything about "manifestation". Others just repackaged it. Some help us understand the concept and others just want to make a quick buck.

All people have some primal needs. Connection and love. Money and wealth. Wanting to be beautiful and powerful. Some people prey on that and, in my opinion, the self-improvement industry will only keep on growing.

The concept of twin flames can be found being expressed by Socrates in the dialogue "Symposium" by Plato :

“Now, since their natural form had been cut in two, each one longed for its own other half, and so they would throw their arms about each other, weaving themselves together, wanting to grow together...

This, then, is the source of our desire to love each other. Love is born into eve­ry human being: it calls back the halves of our original nature together; it tries to make one out of two and heal the wound of human nature.

Each of us, then, is a ‘matching half’ of a human whole, because each was sliced like a flatfish, two out of one, and each of us is always seeking the half that matches him."

Sidenote: Obviously I used only two snippets of the dialogue. Socrates' stance on homosexuality and other matters of love can be found in there and it is a good read. It will definitely show you that some concepts have been around since humans walked on this earth.

Moving on, I want to give you some tips on how to best use astrology and tarot/oracle cards as TOOLS to better yourself.

1. First try them yourself.

Don't let others dictate how you see astrology and tarot. Go online and search up your birth chart on astroseek or visit the Light Seer's Tarot/Muse Tarot website which has an incredible pick a card feature.

Don't contact an astrologer or tarot reader before familiarising yourself with the tools and "taking the magic out" of them.

2. No one and mean NO ONE can predict the future 100%.

In our lives there are moments who seem synchronized. They make you believe in fate. I do believe that God intended for us to live through some things but I also absolutely believe in FREE WILL. I always say that to clients especially those who have tarot readings.

Tarot and astrology can help you see the paths laid in front of you. They help you dive in your unconscious mind. Don't let anyone fool you that they are magical and whatever the cards say can not change.

3. If you purchase a reading don't purchase a love/romance one at first.

Don't get me wrong. I love love and romance. I love doing love readings. They are sweet and sexy.

BUT. Even in my love readings I incorporate a "general energy of you" for the person. I do that cause I want to show to my client, who trusted me and chose me that a tarot reader can be vetted.

Sadly even with PAC readings I can see that the romance ones are read and reposted way more than ones that assist with personal development. I try to keep a balance and do both.

The thing is a good tarot reader, astrologer even a therapist or a fitness trainer want to help you become INDEPENDENT. I don't want you to keep coming back and purchase love readings about your ex.

It's toxic. I won't accept that.

4. You are perfect the way you are.

Telling you that "yeah, you have an issue right here and it can be fixed by doing so and so" is okay.

Telling you that "YOU SHOULD LOVE YOURSELF. YOU DON'T LOVE YOURSELF THAT'S WHY YOU WON'T FIND LOVE UNTIL YOU DO THAT" is toxic. People control you this way.

It's like saying give me more money. Ask me how I can make you LOVABLE.

Your other half won't cheat, manipulate or make you feel awful. Your ex who was an asshole is not your Twin Flame.

Light up the flame within and love out your dreams. You will attract people who will adore and love you by being AUTHENTIC.

Anyone that abuses you and puts your flame out should GO.

5. All big corporations prey on your weaknesses & Do not trust anyone who tells you they are the only ones that can set you free or solve your issues.

Be disciplined. Control yourself and your mind. Read "The 48 Laws Of Power" and other books on influence and manipulation. Learn how narcissists and cult leaders operate.

All big companies do not sell you products (I will probably post this part by itself too).

They sell you emotions, feelings, status. BMW doesn't sell cars, it is selling power and prestige and confidence.

Nike doesn't sell shoes and shirts, it is selling dreams of being powerful and different, of making it in the jungle, of WINNING.

But there are some companies which I'M NOT GOING TO MENTION by name who influence you by breaking you down. Astrology apps that send you negative predictions about your day to make you anxious so you will check back every single hour. Cult like influencers who sell "How to get rich quickly" courses that cost thousands of $ and offer no value.

Be careful. Be prepared. Be strong and firm.

I hope everyone who was taken in this cult (wait ! myy username is the siren cult, lol) can find peace and the power within them.

#astrology #tarot reading #tarot #pick a card #pick a pile #pac reading #level up journey #pick a photo #pick a picture #soulmate #self education #self development #hypergamyblr #personal improvement #siren energy #femme fatale #dark feminine energy #art of seduction #astrology tumblr #astrology tips #astrologer #astro notes #tarotblr #tarotcommunity

[uncharismatic-fauna]

Surprising Black Swans

A popular ornamental waterbird in Europe and North America, the black swan (Cygnus atratus) is a species of swan endemic to Australia and New Zealand. In both their native and introduced ranges they can be found near bodies of fresh or salt water, especially lakes and wetlands with plenty of aquatic vegetation. The species is highly nomadic, and migrate based on yearly rainfall patterns.

Black swans are the second largest swan species, with a maximum weight of 9 kg (19.8 lbs) and a wingspan of 2 m (6.6 ft). Despite being smaller, black swans have the longest neck of any swan. Males, also known as cobs, are slight larger than females-- aka pens. As their name suggests, C. atratus has black plumage, although the flight feathers on their wings are white. The beak is a bright red with a white stripe, thought to be indication of an individuals health and sexual maturity.

Like all swans, the black swan mates for life. In addition to their high fidelity rates, C. atratus is also unique for its high rates of homosexual couples; about 25% of pairings are between individuals of the same sex (primarily males). These mates are known to steal eggs from other nests or form temporary ‘throuples’ with a member of the opposite sex, and some research has shown that homosexual couples are more than twice as likely to successfully raise their young as heterosexual couples.

The mating season for black swans occurs from February to September. While pairs are generally solitary, groups will nest in the same area to increase the chances of finding a mate and decrease the risk of predation. Pairs form when one an individual approaches another and initiates a ritual known as the Triumph Ceremony, in which the individual extends their wings and calls out. If the mate is receptive, they will repeat the gesture, and the pair will then go through a synchronous dance to solidify their pairing. This ceremony is repeated multiple times throughout each breeding season to strengthen the pair’s bond and affirm that between parent and chick.

Females lay 5 or 6 eggs in a clutch, and will alternate incubating them with her partner for 35 to 48 days. After hatching, the young- also known as cygnets- are fairly precocial but will stay in or near the nest for 2 to 3 weeks. It takes up to 6 months for them to completely lose their grey down and grow their adult plumage, though they remain with their family units for up to 9 months. Once they have fully fledged, juveniles join groups of other cygnets for 1-2 years, at which point they become sexually mature.

Black swans can present an intimidating threat to potential predators, so there are few animals that attack fully grown adults. However, eggs and young cygnets can be a target for ravens, birds of prey, and rodents. C. atratus themselves are herbivores and feed primarily on aquatic vegetation.

Conservation status: the IUCN has classified the black swan as Least Concern, and their native populations are stable.

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[autoantonyms]

Joker Out as Eeveelutions (Pokémon)

Bojan as Eevee

"It's ability to evolve into many forms allows it to adapt smoothly and perfectly to any environment."

- I know we joke a lot about how he can do anything, but this is literally an explanation for that ^

- smallest of them all

- also the cutest

- fluffy brown hair and brown puppy eyes

- I feel like the normal type gets overlooked a lot but it can be quite useful

- abilities: run away from your finnish lover and homosexual feelings

Kris as Espeon

" It evolves from Eevee when leveled up with high friendship during the day." (0:19)

- Kris needed Bojan to evolve into his full form ^ (Bokris agenda is high in this household)

- I associate pink with him

- both of them just stare into your soul

- model face and slay pose

- they both look like elegant bitches with their long limbs and juicy asses

- ability: synchronize *if the Pokémon is hurt, the responsable Pokémon will be inflicted with the same status condition* I just feels like that's something Kris would do. If someone's e. g. mean to him, I think he would give them the same treatment

Jan as Umbreon

"When exposed to the moons aura, the rings on its body glow faintly and it gains a mysterious power."

- Jan's just overall the dark kinda vibe

- needs high friendship level to evolve as well but at night (0:20)

- blue lights elevate him in my eyes (Shiny Umbreon has blue rings instead of yellow ones, which I like a tad bit more)

- Umbreon seems like someone who would look sexy while smoking

- gay vibes

- feel like they both really need time to get comfortable with people but when they do, their bond becomes inseparable (X)

- also Umbreon and Espeon are counterparts of each other, both from the same gen, Kris and Jan being the guitarists of the band (yes that is the same thing in this case) and they're both so mysterious on their own way

Nace as Leafeon

"When you see Leafeon asleep in a patch of sunshine, you’ll know it is using photosynthesis to produce clean air."

- photosynthesis as a metaphor that he's capable (and essential) to help his friends when they're in need (Bojan's panic attack)

- they both give chill vibes

- lovely, nice and pretty

- Pokédex is claiming that Leafeon smells so good, it's scent is also sold as a perfume (Nace looks like he smells really good)

- it isn't really a happy fighter, but it WILL fight for its friends <3

- also: "Leafeon is very proud of being able to split tree trunks itself." is so Nace-Dad coded lol

Jure as Jolteon

"It concentrates the weak electric charges emitted by its cells and launches wicked lightning bolts."

- the hair

- Jure always seems like he's buzzing with energy

- Jolteon would be the drummer in a band

- weakness: ground (7:14)

- Jolteon looks like trouble, and so does Jure

#this took so long omg #Fun fact: Umbreon and Espeon are my favorite Pokémon #also this is kinda a crack post so please don't be mad at any of the points I made if you disagree #<3 #joker out #bojan cvjetićanin #kris guštin #jan peteh #nace jordan #jure maček

[trans-girl-nausicaa]

tumblr choose your own adventure: part 16

STATS:

AGGRESSION: 4

CAUTION: 0

HOMOSEXUALITY: 7

ENDURANCE: 1

SKILL: 4

INVENTORY:

[Wallet] [Cash: $14.50]

[Mobile phone] [Battery: 19%]

[Keys]

[Antique Czech Typewriter] [Ink ribbons: 0]

[Antique Czech Lighter] [Fuel level: 0%]

[Antique CZ 75 Pistol, 9mm, Automatic] [Ammunition: 0]

>Research vampires.

Your SKILL stat has increased by two.

“Look, let’s not do anything rash yet,” you say.

“I’m going to try and understand what we’re dealing with.”

Louisiana sighs, and massages her temples.

“Uhhh… What should I do,” she says.

“I have work tonight. Should I just go to my shift? Are you gonna be safe here?” she asks.

You pause. Will you?

You clear your throat.

“I think it should be ok for you to go. That Dr. Jágr guy didn’t expect the situation to go that way, so I think we’ve bought ourselves some time until he or some other vampire figures out what to do next. Go ahead and go to work. I’ll stay right here and try to do some research. Separate some fact from fiction.”

Louisiana shrugs.

“Okay, if that’s what you think is best,” she says

It is 4 PM: nearly time for her to leave anyway, so she bids you good-bye.

You grab your aged laptop, bring it to the kitchen table, and dive in to the topic.

You know how to do serious research, after all you DID go to college, but this is really stretching the boundaries of conventional research practices. Obviously there’s nothing on JSTOR about this shit.

You find yourself going from the most general of legends to more specific reports of sightings and attacks.

You stay away from tabloids. They’ll print anything. You go to individual blogs and social media posts. You sigh. Most of them are simply roleplay or patent lies.

You have deduced some basic facts about vampires from your personal experiences, so you use those to rule out reports that contradict what you already know.

There are a few reports that seem factual. Unfortunately they are mostly glimpses, chance encounters, mere shadows. They don’t shine much light on the subject.

You haven’t found any reports of survivors of vampire attacks. Only deaths, suspicious disappearances, and sightings of attacks. There are a few sightings of vampires biting people, but all of the victims in these accounts died.

There were two accounts that seem to describe enthrallment- the process of turning a person into a thrall. One was seen by a terrified birdwatcher deep in the forest, watching through their binoculars, another witnessed by an urban explorer wearing night vision goggles creeping through an abandoned building.

The enthrallment in both cases involved the vampire biting the human, drinking some of their blood, and then while the human was still conscious, staring into the eyes of the human while reciting some sort of incantation.

And one report of a ritual to turn a person into a vampire.

It was witnessed at a very long distance, through the scope of a hunter’s rifle, in the Canadian outback, in winter.

Apparently the vampire and the vampire-to-be must drink one another’s blood, and then they participate in another incantation, and a synchronized movement or dance of some sort…

But all these isolated cases don’t get you any closer to finding out the basic strengths, weaknesses, vulnerabilities, and social structure of vampires.

On the nth page of Boolean-modified search results in an obscure search engine, you find a very strange website.

It has a nonsensical domain name, for one, but its preview tells you that it is “AN ACCOUNT OF THE VAMPIRE HYPOTHESIS.”

You navigate in.

You’re met with a popup banner. You try and exit it before even reading it, as is your instinct. You can’t dismiss it.

The banner asks you “ARE VAMPIRES REAL?”

You click yes. Whatever. Just show me whatever paltry information you have.

“HOW DO YOU KNOW VAMPIRES ARE REAL?”

More of this crap? Annoying.

You click “I have seen a vampire.”

“WHAT HAPPENED?”

And an empty text field. It awaits your response.

Impatiently, you type a period and try to skip it.

It won’t let you proceed.

New text appears.

“DESCRIBE YOUR EXPERIENCE.”

You just type the word “text,” and click to proceed.

It rejects your answer.

You sigh impatiently, and type “bitten by vampire.”

The banner disappears.

And the site has a bounty of information. Not only does it have a compendium of reported sightings, including most of the ones you found, but also more sightings, as well as commentary, and a compendium comparing facts that can be gleaned from each of the different accounts.

The essays and commentary are all seemingly from the singular owner of the site, who does not state their name anywhere.

There’s a section on the “latitude hypothesis” which supposes that not only are vampire attacks statistically more common further from the equator, but also proposes that some vampires may be “migratory,” moving south and north seasonally to avoid longer daylight hours.

You see another essay, entitled: “The Yellowknife Killing: Death Of A Vampire.”

The essay does not involve knives at all- to your American surprise, “Yellowknife” is a town in Northwest Territories, Canada.

There is an actual news article this time- about the disappearance of a gold miner near Yellowknife in 1936. The miner’s name was Cowl Thrawley; apparently he was an itinerant laborer on a private mining claim belonging to a prospector named John Frost. The events reported in the article are that on December 5, 1936, Thrawley and Frost descended into the mineshaft and there was a cave-in. They were trapped. On December 17, only Frost emerged. Nobody knew that he was trapped, so he had had to free himself.

In his lifetime, he never spoke of what happened in the mine.

But after his death in 1981, in accordance with his last will and testament, his memoir was released to the public.

A scanned passage from that book is on the screen in front of you.

John Frost states that Cowl Thrawley ate and drank nothing during their entire time in that mine, but that he had superhuman strength, endurance, and night vision, guiding Frost around through the dark and doing most of the excavation that would eventually free John Frost. However, as the days dragged on, he became less and less “sensical,” as Frost put it.

Thrawley eventually attacked Frost, declaring that his thirst was too great to bear. Frost claims that he could see Thrawley’s eyes glow red in the darkness.

Frost evaded Thrawley, running through the labyrinthine mine tunnels guided by the waning light of his last lantern, before eventually trapping Thrawley by allowing a large boulder to fall on him.

Thrawley’s legs were crushed by the boulder, and he was unable to free himself.

Thrawley wept and implored Frost to free him, to let him drink his blood, and Frost refused. As time dragged on, Thrawley implored once more: if Frost would not free him or give him blood, Thrawley asked Frost to kill him and spare him the fate of an immortal life trapped in a mine.

Thrawley explained that he was a vampire, and revealed a few of the secrets of vampirism:

A vampire is immortal unless killed.

A vampire cannot eat or drink anything except for human blood.

A vampire is stronger and more stealthy than any human.

A vampire has an uncontrollable thirst for blood that must be quenched or they go mad.

A vampire craves the dark; the dark is soothing while the sun is painful.

A vampire does not fear garlic, nor crucifixes, nor salt, nor hallowed ground, nor running water.

A vampire can recover from almost any wound, most will only weaken them temporarily. They are healed by time and by drinking blood.

The only way to kill a vampire is to pierce the heart with a stake, leaving the stake in the heart so that the heart does not heal itself, and then burning the body to ash.

Following Thrawley’s instructions, Frost pierced Thrawley’s heart with a pickaxe, doused him in oil, and set him ablaze. The scream as Thrawley was burning was the worst thing he ever heard.

His strength failing, Frost managed to dig through a tunnel that looped back towards the initial excavation shaft, and escape.

The passage is followed by a bunch of analysis. It goes into excruciating detail on practically every line, making references to the other vampire sightings.

You find that part kind of boring. You aren’t here for legitimate scholarship.

You just want to protect yourself.

And Louisiana.

You are tired, and you make some coffee. It’s drip coffee, but the beans are pretty good quality. They’re from Hawai’i. You don’t drink a lot of coffee, but when you do, you kind of want a good flav-

You hear a knock at the door.

You glance at the clock in the corner of your computer screen.

It is 11:15 PM.

Who the hell could it be at this hour?

Hopefully it’s not another fucking vampire. Or the cops.

You get up, plod to the door, and look through the peephole.

There’s a woman standing in the hallway.

She is wearing an olive-green anorak jacket, olive-green cargo pants, and brown combat boots.

She’s a tanned brunette with a buzzcut.

“Who is it?” you ask.

You hear her reply excitedly, “Hi, uh, my name is Bunny Paulson. I, uh, have reason to believe that you’re in serious danger. I think you know why.”

She pauses, and clears her throat.

“Vampires are real, and I’m here to protect you. From them,” she declares.

“……………..Why… do you think that I, specifically, am in danger?” you ask.

“Because you’ve already been bitten, and they’re going to be after you know!” she says, confidently.

“……….No, I mean……. What information do you have, that would indicate, that I specifically, have been bitten by a vampire?” you say, slowly.

She looks slightly nervous now.

“You, uh, filled out the form… when you read my website…” she replies.

“DID YOU TRACK MY FUCKING IP ADDRESS?” you blare.

“Keep it down!” she says.

“Ok, yes, I tracked your IP address! Ok, yes, I did some things, pulled some strings, followed some threads, and found out where you live! But, like, it wasn’t even that hard!”

“WASN’T EVEN THAT HARD?!” you scream.

“Shhh! Jesus! Stop being so loud! And yes, it wasn’t that hard for me! So it’s only a matter of time before THEY find you too! So I’m here to protect you! Look, just let me in and I can explain everything! We can make a plan!”

You turn around and go to the hall closet. You know there’s a baseball bat in there.

Jeez, this closet is a lot less organized than you remember. You have to rummage around in there for a minute. You hear some noises from the door. You find the baseball bat, and grab it. You turn back towards the door, to see Bunny Paulson in your apartment, closing the door behind her. There’s a small metal tool in her hand. Did she just pick your lock?!

She has a big smile on her face.

“Hi! Allow me to introduce myself again. Bunny Paulson, vampire expert. You really need better security. Aaaand I can help with that!”

#CYOA #choose your own adventure

[wormsdirt]

Today I met a Faggot Fish

I’m currently visiting an aquarium in southern Florida. For some context, I look very visibly queer. In this wide land of posh country clubs and golf bros- I am very much a fish out of water.

I saw some Bluefish, and Clown Wrasse But what REALLY stuck out to me was this Rainbow Parrotfish. For anyone that doesn’t know what this fish looks like, I’ll insert a photo below.

This fish just reeks of homosexuality- it is quite visibly dripping with faggotry. For fucks sake this fish was all decked out in and had the lips of a Youtube MUA twink that had just got a discount on lip filler. This fish just has the vibe of a boy fish that kisses other boy fishes. And a lot of them. All of the other fish in this tank looked completely ‘normal’-based on my little knowledge of tropical fish standards. they were all silver, shiny and all crescent shaped like half of a broken mirror. As beautiful as they were in symmetry, their synchronized movements were jarring compared to the Faggot Fish. He was the only one swimming alone. And he was beautiful.

Now, evolution is a funny thing. Species develop certain traits to survive. The most suitable of one’s characteristics for one’s environment get passed down- natural selection takes charge and the fittest win.

The thing about Faggot Fish is that I’m not particularly sure which instances proved that it looks would be valuable to its survival to be so fashuonable cunty prissy and proud. This little zesty fish warmed my heart. The school of silver fish were so clearly evolved for conformity. To fit in. For survival.

The very act of conformity in the natural world/our own society exists as a reminder that standing out can be deadly. Conformity exists within safety. Conformity often exists out of fear. As someone who looks really fucking gay in Florida, this stuck with me. Maybe that’s why Faggot Fish’s defiant existence is resonating with me so much at the moment.

Collaged next to those sparkly silver little fuckers, Faggot Fish was beautiful.

To me, the very the existence of a visibly unique trait on an animal/person is not only a marker of its celebration of survival, but it is a marker that it’s been loved. Years of natural selection and evolution resulted in this gay looking fish.

This is a thought I lingered on for a while.

I wonder if anyone has ever been on the outside of my life looking in. I wonder if my existence has ever been a parable for someone else’s.

I hope I was someone’s Faggot Fish today.

This zesty fucker.

#queer community #zest fest #oceancore #we have only discovered a tiny part of the ocean and I think the rest of it is all gay

[gnfkitten]

storytime with mari

Lately I've been beta-testing my Twitter oomftual's webapp and within the last week of testing it:

The number of daily active beta testers has dropped an order of magnitude, according to him.

I am pouring my heart, life, and intimate coming of age thoughts into this webapp that is public and probably unencrypted.

This has probably been the most intimate I have been in writing for over a year.

The energy for this kind of dedication most likely derives from my residual crush on the dev.

When people say love makes you crazy, what they really mean is that love makes you beta-test a webapp for free.

I am recalling an old post I made on Mastodon about a similar time this happened: "maybe i dont want to betatest your webapp maybe i want to kiss you on the lips"

Clearly, I was more punctual, and more aware of what I wanted.

Of course, I would be an idiot to admit any of this in the webapp.

Luckily, I am enough of an idiot to admit this on a public Tumblr with leaky opsec.

Oh wait. I was enough of an idiot to have said I was gay on the webapp.

Though, the exact word I used was "homosexuality".

Perhaps the recent vividness of my attraction to men has affected the intentionality of my behavior.

In any event, I like to think that whenever he messaged me about my writing he was just asynchronously refreshing the webpage and reading the updated appends.

Like the rest of the beta-testers, when they want to get caught up on each other's activity.

Assuming, of course, that these beta-testers are particularly active.

(They are not active, as I have implied.)

Frankly, I think he gets a notification whenever someone sends a message to the webapp.

If that is true, then he's gotten plenty of notifications from my part of the webapp.

It is most likely true, because it seems like he's running the webapp on a personal server.

Oh. He's running it on Replit.

Oh. He has his code and account on Replit.

Which makes sense, because you need to pay Replit to have private conversations.

Did I say conversations? I meant repositories.

I wonder where that word came from.

To be honest, I am resisting the urge to stalk him.

Which is also funny, because some of my internet experiences and knowledge have -- how should I say this -- refined my awareness of the latent contextuality of public social activity on the internet.

I have it in good faith such problems will sort themselves out with time.

Emphasis on time, because I should finally mention that he lives in my opposite timezone.

We actually have a very narrow slice of synchronous time.

I do not foresee him moving to my timezone nor I to him.

I'm not sure why he would, or I would.

He has friends in other places.

Do I count as a friend to him?

He seems receptive to making friends.

I suppose "making friends" will be enough bounds to have an overdue conversation with him, very soon.

#LONG post #mod mari #storytime with mari #stream of consciousness

[sadistic-cockatiel]

Félix González-Torres

"Untitled" (Perfect Lovers), 1987-91

Two touching identical commercial wall clocks. Signed, dated and synchronised, but will eventually fall out of sync. Following his death in 1991, the artist created a nearly identical work by the same name. It also consists of two identical wall clocks but also includes light blue paint, painted onto the wall of the installation location.

Don't be afraid of the clocks, they are our time, the time has been so generous to us. We imprinted time with the sweet taste of victory. We conquered fate by meeting at a certain time in a certain space. We are a product of the time, therefore we give back credit were it is due: time. We are synchronized, now forever. I love you.

- From a letter written to his partner Ross Laycock in 1988. One year after Laycock was diagnosed with AIDS. In this letter was also a rough sketch of the piece, then just titled "Lovers".

"...Two clocks side by side are much more threatening to the powers that be than an image of two guys sucking each other’s dicks because they cannot use me as a rallying point in their battle to erase meaning. It is going to be very difficult for members of Congress to tell their constituents that money is being expended for the promotion of homosexual art when all they have to show are two plugs side by side or two mirrors side by side…"

-Félix González-Torres

*The red in these photos has been enhanced for symbolic reasons.*

#art history #queer art history #gay art #queer history #clocks #memento mori #vanitas #red #found art #postmodern

[whats-in-a-sentence]

Rolling can become quite vigorous as the two animals spiral synchronously underwater and at the surface (often in a vertical position), sometimes gently mouthing or biting each other's neck, chasing each other's flippers, yelping and snarling, blowing streams of bubbles underwater, or slapping the surface of the water.

"Biological Exuberance: Animal Homosexuality and Natural Diversity" - Bruce Bagemihl

#book quotes #biological exuberance #bruce bagemihl #nonfiction #harbor seal #phoca vitulina #pair rolling #vigorous #spiral #synchronized #underwater #mouthing #biting #flippers #yelping #snarling #blowing bubbles #slapping

[infjtarot]

Page of Cups ~ Anna Maria D'Onofrio Tarot

   Valet De Coupe wore a wreath like a young girl in the Lover – Lamoureux Tarot (VI), he walked with a cup in his hand and was wondering whether to let it open or close. This is a timid character, has never been loved out of love from family or has had a habit of unconsciousness for a long time. His bisexual appearance can also show us that this character has yet to acknowledge his homosexuality. Discovering the emotional world that interests him and makes him frighten at the same time. At first, his heart said yes, then it said no again. He can be an embodiment of a desire to live mixed with fear, the one that can anticipate being rejected and hurt. He also evokes the transition from a child to an adult and the first love with great doubts and enthusiasm. He can also represent an older person who no longer dares to love. He can express a lack of faith in life and relationships and a pessimistic idea of love. On the negative side, he could be an emotional obstacle stemming from fears as a child, immaturity in emotions, tendency to dream too much, or a specter clinging to a failed love. A powerful creative inspiration pushes you to start projects or to create new things that strongly related to your emotions. In general, Valet De Coupe touches the world of art, whether it is dancing, painting, or some other aesthetic activity. You are likely to go through a period of great intuition, with all kinds of synchronicities and unusual, prophetic or inspiring encounters that will somehow reveal the path to follow, guide you, and drive you to follow it. In any case, your subconscious will always look for ways to get in touch with you, through inspiration. You will feel a strong desire to follow your intuitions, and it is quite possible that they will always be right. It is, therefore, time to follow these impulses. This is usually a card that conveys positive messages related to family and loved ones: weddings, commitments, births, pregnancies and all kinds of good news that will put you in a good mood. It is also important to listen to your emotions, to talk about them, to open your inner world and to share it. Perhaps, you have experienced extremely intense emotions compared to what you have been through. But you now look like someone with a heart on their hand, without fear of being hurt or affected in any way. Valet De Coupe has a lot in common with our inner child, who will always be creative, innocent, carefree and optimistic, so this card will recommend you more than ever to connect to that inner being and not to repress anything. Freedom and imagination are closely linked to this, and they are the fuel that drives your dreams. It about never stops dreaming because many times, the imagination is the only way to escape when the rest does not seem to work anymore. The message of Valet De Coupe is: “Have confidence”! It is possible that this card will appear after a period of austerity. She will then bring a ray of sunshine and carelessness. In the field of work, even if things have gone bad lately, it brings a wind of hope and good news because everything will improve, and even faster if you carry out a positive attitude, if you release fully your imagination and if you trust your heartbeat. If you are looking for a job, this card is a good omen. In love, it can announce the beginning of a relationship with a person younger than you. Although this person seems inexperienced, you should give him/her a chance. If you are already in a relationship, the card can announce the arrival of a child or the celebration of a marriage or a serious commitment, something very encouraging. When it comes to finances, this card brings good news: favorable agreements, salary increases or debt resolution. If you have been waiting for a long time because your financial situation largely depends on others, this card indicates that you will find a way to control the situation. Let’s use your imagination and keep hope, the money will come.  

https://tarotx.net/tarot-card-meanings/marseilles/5-de-coupe-tarot.html

#Page of Cups #cups #tarot #court cards #Anna Maria D'Onofrio Tarot

[1111jenx]

Firstly, I just want to thank you for all your insightful posts! You've given us a goldmine of info to peruse and ponder! As for my question -- I know this might be super controversial but i'm just curious if you've noticed any astrological placements that could point to transgenderism/feeling like you were born in the wrong body...? Not judging, just curious.

Hey there beautiful!

Thank you for your encouraging words this is literally the reason why i'm soooo excited to put in more&more effort into my posts for yall🖤

In addition to that, ofcourse I'll be more than happy to answer your question! let's get right into this post shall we🥳

–Astro & Homosexuality

For today, I'd try to discuss transgenderism in astrology at the start and will touch base on homosexuality in general as I think the conversation for the whole community & astro should be saved for another day!

So from my perspective, I've always been a supporter of the LGBTQ+ community and one of the reason why I was very skeptical when I first learned astro was because the mainstream media has molded it into pinterest pictures with bullet points, grouping the 12 sun signs in a box with stereotypical ideas. Not only that, you can find a lot of "Zodiac Signs and how they are in bed"(LOL for instance) which lacks a lot of crucial info and should rather be read for fun only.

But more often than not, I'd come across post where there would be a lot of short-sighted post, where they'd talk abt the zodiac sign's men&women and assuming heterosexual roles for the men&women of the signs. While I know that these posts usually are harmless and are only there for entertainment purpose, I really don't want anyone to unconsciously feel left out or singled out by the astro community.

In addition, you can see (even in some of my posts in the past) theres a lot of post which assign feminine energy&masculine energy to certain aspects or signs and when I first started astrology, I didn't realize how harmful and how damaging this can look. Astrology has been around for a long time and simply saying "Oh if you have Venus square Uranus or Neptune then you must be gay" is extremely subjective and homosexuality is not a perversion. Astrology has always had such a strong connection to everyone and astrology is never limited in any instances.

Hermaphroditus was the son of Hermes and Aphrodite in Greek mythology. He was born as a boy, and was raised by naiad nymph on Mount Ida. When he reached the age of fifteen, he decided to explore further from his surroundings and eventually reached the forest of Caria near Halicarnassus. There, he met the nymph Salmacis in a pool, who was overcome with desire for the boy. However, she was rejected by him. Then, when Salmacis had left, he undressed and entered the pool. Salmacis then suddenly appeared and wrapped herself around him. While he was trying to evade her, she asked the gods to be forever united with Hermaphroditus and the gods listened to her wish. As a result, their bodies were blended into one and became a creature of two sexes.

Since the ancient Mesopotamian and originally mythic time, astrology has changed and developed with the times. It is quite amazing that the interpretations of the nature of their gods have survived to this day . . . with contemporary clothes, if you will. The gods that underlie the naming of the planets are no coincidence, but more a synchronicity with the times and culture.

This is what astrologers have to say when it comes to this matter:

" if we try to “genderize” astrology, we do limit it..rather we should look at gender issues through the eyes of the horoscope, and how the individual person can come to terms with his or her individuality and simply be a healthy person!!! The chart tells us what kind of a person is this, and in what way are they inclined toward what areas. If transgenderism or other-ness is involved, then the chart tells us how he or she is dealing with any issues that can and will arise with making this “normal” instead of a cultish thing. This will happen, it is meant to happen, there will come a day when there is no issue with gender, BUT there will always be issues with being a human being!"

I also think that The planets' aspects to each other are the most important factor in reading a chart! The interaction between a person's Moon and the other planets, as well as the Sun's aspect/conversation with the other planets, may indicate a role reversal in the parental archetype. This is why, lets take my Saturn in 10H post for example, Saturn here can be anyone to you, doesn't matter their gender but rather their influence on you 10H, and the role they took. My experience with Saturn 10H greatly differs from others as I see Saturn here as my father, yet others may see it as their mother-who was harsher on then and tend to pushes them to perfection more.

Also, in a woman’s horoscope, Mars is the capacity for her use of her innate drive, desire, passion, ambition, cultivation, focus, direction; and ability to really get her life out there and done. The sign and aspects to anyone’s Mars will tell us the manner for extroverting herself in ways that are productive. If she keeps her Mars function stifled and projected onto “men”, then, she can introject her own anger, and become passive aggressive, thus unable to complete or finish ideas or projects. And, become a rather difficult partner – for anyone!

Women and Mars are natural “mates” – the animus is “the man we all would love to be” (and the anima, the woman we all would love to be) and both can be projected out onto an actual guy or “men” as a collective (or a woman). In classical myth, Ares and Aphrodite mated, and produced a girl child, and her name is Harmonia. So the God of War and the Goddess of Passion/Love can bring Harmony to us.

So a lot of astrologers had agreed that it is impossible to know the sex by looking at the chart.

But we can say this for example, that Mars in 11H people or Mars aspecting Uranus are more inclined to experimental, since its the individual's love for eccentricity and uncoventional that lead them to be more curious with all aspects of sexual experiences! Yet we can't say that Mars in 11H will have a higher chances of being gay(💀)

In Relationships and Life Cycle by Arroyo, he said link Venus/Pluto aspects with “sexual problems”. He states that: “Homosexual or bisexual inclinations are not uncommon; and even in those who don’t act out all their urges, there is often an intense emotional resentment towards either the person’s own sex or towards those of the opposite sex.”💀💀💀💀

Heres what Peter Clamp, a famous astrologer has to say about Arroyo's book:

" Arroyo like some other psychological astrologers, links coldness, impersonality and promiscuity with being homosexual with not a shred of evidence for this connection, reinforcing the hoary, unsubstantiated old cliches and myths about gay and lesbian people, and pandering to the homophobic collective shadow."

To me, Uranus indicates something “different”, but being different doesn't mean they identify with homosexuality, it can mean they like to play out different positions in experimental sex for all I know💀

So to answer your question, as someone who believe in exclusivity, I would say no, I don't think astrology can predict transgenderism but I do think people can feel as if they are born into a body that they don't feel comfortable with will have some harsh aspects between Venus-ASC, 10H ruler-ASC, 2H ruler-ASC, Saturn-ASC, etc

I really hope I can offer you some insights luv, here are some good read if you are interested in reading more about this topic:

one two three four

Thank you for such an amazing question!

love,

saintjenx🖤

#astrojenx #astro lesson #queer #astro notes #astrology observations #astrology notes #astro lessons #beginner astrology #astrology genderism #lgbtq+

[pagesofkenna]

one of the librarians at work the other day asked me my pronouns and I started thinking of my journey from identifying as a straight girl in highschool who was openly homophobic but trying to be a nice person about it, to identifying as a genderless bi-ace person who has to consciously swat aside both internalized homophobia and a casual disinterest in relationships-in-general to admit attraction for other afab people

and then I started thinking about how this journey basically all happened on tumblr, and because I've always talked about myself constantly I basically liveblogged my way through it??

so I started digging through my own blog archives and I'm gonna compile the posts I find here. this is basically a callout post for myself lol

(Starting dates - I left High School in June 2010, spent the '10-'11 school year almost completely alone and friendless. Met up with some friends in July 2011 who introduced me to Tumblr, and I made an account. Made some Tumblr friends. Started reading Homestuck beginning of 2012 (this is relevant).)

February 28 2012 - "Am I the only weirdo who doesn't think Troll Relationships are that confusing?" I tagged this post with "i like how he defined moirallegience" and follow it up with a post days later about how much I love the concept of moirails (aka platonic lifepartners. I'll talk for years about how jealous I am of queerplatonic relationships)

March 9 2012 - This incredibly embarrassing Sherlock post I actually stole and reposted (??? remember when asks used to not be rebloggable) about how I (and the person whose post I stole) didn't ship those characters because I hated the idea that people couldn't be close important friends unless sex was involved. I'm only including this post because 1) it's clear this was from the time period when I was trying to be less homophobic but obviously failing, and 2) I talk about only shipping characters when it's obvious they're going to get together, like... kid you're ace...

April 4 2012 - I finish catching up with Homestuck and am reading the regular upd8s (originally I'd linked the wrong post, here). I reblogged this DirkJake fanart on April 26 - from my commentary it's clear I was trying to be 'haha cute but not in a gay way!' about it which continues to be embarrassing

June 28 2012 - This is the first post I can find on my blog that mentions asexuality, and it's not even that kind of asexuality (Bill Nye is talking about how reproduction works). I don't remember having a big Asexual Awakening so I'm trying to figure out when I first heard the term at least, and it was sometime this summer at the very latest

July 9 2012 - Homestuck posts the [S] Dirk: Synchronize/Unite updates, which apparently I watched/read while babysitting rip. A lot of complicated feelings go into this! It's the moment I officially start shipping DirkJake, and I tagged this liveblog with "I'm kind of freaking out" to completely undersell what my brain was actually going through at that moment lol. I'm including this because this was a big step for me and also ties into my asexual awakening. Before this I'd gone through a process from 'homosexuality is a sin' to 'I can accept gay people, but I can't support their gayness' and was, blessedly, not liveblogging my process evolving from that. Realizing that I might be ace, that my indifference to sex and romance was a me thing and not a moral failing of everyone else, was a huge part of that. Another huge part was the fact that I latch onto depictions of people having crushes (which I attribute to my asexuality; its the longing, not the relationship necessarily, that moves me). When this update went live, I could not emotionally distinguish the joy I felt for this gay character from the joy I would have felt for a straight character - and thus, hypothetically, as a person who didn't really do crushes, the joy a gay person must feel from the joy a straight person must feel - and it made me reanalyze a lot of things.

August 7 2012 - I liveblogged myself watching a movie that would lead to me making friends with a girl who would eventually be the first girl I have a crush on (who wasn't a celebrity)

September 14 2012 - The first post I can find that I reblogged that uses the term Asexual (as in the sexuality). My tags on this post are hilarious, watch the joke sail miles over my head lol. It's clear I must have known about Asexuality by this point and started identifying with the term soonafter, though I don't record when that happens

October 12 2012 - I tried as respectfully as possible to ask, 'as a cis person', what trans people were identifying with. It's amusing now as both an honest look at the process of shifting the notions we'd been raised with, and as an example of me not yet having the language and self-awareness to say that I had no internal gender.

November 13 2012 - Someone asked about my sexual orientation and I said I'm 'heterosexual with asexual tendencies' like a fool. Past!me was so missing the point, that poor child. From what I can remember from that time, I had crushes on male celebrities, and occasionally thought about sex as an abstract or hypothetical, and figured 'yes this is what normal Straight People think' despite the fact that I had no desire to actually pursue a sexual relationship (and I was also consciously celibate - I was 19 at this point, still very active in my church, and I had honestly thought my disinterest in sex was just because of how good I was at the 'no sex before marriage' rule)

January 11 2013 - I made a textpost asking for anyone to explain 'Gender' to me and literally no one responds. Valid.

(Sometime early 3013 I start working at Target, my first real job. )

February 14 2013 - I breezed over the massive crush I had on Allison Paige by declaring Gigi Darcy (the character she played) as my valentine for the year. In fact I made a bunch of posts about her that year, this is just the highlight (I didn't consciously acknowledge this as a crush; I called her my 'girlsquish'. Looking back it was totally a crush, and everyone who didn't call me out for it at the time is a saint).

June 25 2013 - I made a readmore textpost basically saying 'I'm going to keep calling myself female because that's the only thing I've ever called myself, but I don't understand why anyone should have to be one or the either'. In this post I allude to a message I'd gotten weeks previous, which I never responded to publicly and cannot find in my inbox now. That message, from an incredibly patient friend, asked 'wouldn't you get upset if people started calling you a boy, or referred to you as a man??' I remember that as my 'aha' moment because... no, I wouldn't, because if everyone called me a boy then even if nothing in my body changed I would be a boy (because my gender had more to do with how people saw me than how I felt)

July 20 2013 - I reblogged this video about BMO and gender roles. This on its own wasn't a huge revelation, but there's a series of posts I reblogged this summer/fall about characters I adored and identified with, who I started to realize were genderqueer (see also this post about Hana Kimi 2011, which I was watching at the time (I express gratitude for a character who doesn't see the big deal with another character's gender reveal), this fanart of Momiji Fruits Basket, this post about Haruhi Ouran High School, and this essay on Hanji Zoe, under which I admit to loving Hanji because of their gender ambiguity. I'll talk more about Hanji further down, but I want to point out that if I hadn't realized I was asexual, I wouldn't have been able to categorize my feelings for them as a crush).

September 18 2013 - The first post I reblogged that I tagged with my secret crush tag. Around this time I realized I had a crush on a girl I was tumblr friends with - I was way too scared to ever tell her, and we lived too far away for anything to come of it. I characterized her as a fox and myself as a duck - incompatible, with the very real risk of me getting eaten alive. I made dozens of posts about her in November (the height of the crush, I think?) and by the next June we'd stopped talking to each other entirely. Looking back, I was probably way more obvious than I'd thought, and she might have been trying to dissuade the crush, but 2014 was a rough year for me and this friendship ending was a big part of it.

(January 2014 I leave home for University for the first time, have what I style as "the worst year of my life." Looking back I can see that all my gender stuff was happening that year, so, woof, that was a lot to be working through.)

January 4 2014 - I wrote a long textpost about how I thought my conscious decisions to not date and not have sex had effected my ability to recognize my own sexuality. I ended by tentatively defining myself as 'bi-romantic gray-ace'. Then I followed this up with another textpost about the massive crush I had on fictional character Hanji Zoe. I refer to my feelings as 'aromantic/sexual' and I'm not sure if I meant 'aromantic/asexual' or 'aromantic + sexual' but I probably was being intentionally vague because UHH FOLKS it was definitely sexual (I've since thought a lot about how the sexual crushes I get are only ever on nonexistent/unapproachable people, like fictional characters or celebrities) Later I got a message that prompted more discussion on celibacy and asexuality, and labels.

January 18 2014 - I made another textpost about how important Hanji's gender was to me, in which I admit that I didn't feel comfortable talking about my own gender at that time

February 13 2014 - I made a textpost regarding pronouns, in which I say that I'm still not emotionally prepared to talk about my own gender ("every time I start thinking about it I just nope") but state that I don't care what pronouns people use for me, and I hadn't cared in years

February 14 2014 - Facebook had made a change allowing you to define your gender as something other than 'male' and 'female', and I made this post complaining about the limitation of options. Essentially, I had no problem saying what my sex was, but none of the gender markers seemed to apply. Eventually I changed my Facebook label to 'gender nonconforming' (and, later, 'agender'). (I also briefly mention the fact that it took me years to be comfortable referring to myself as 'female sex', and that learning about gender had helped me feel comfortable with that identity. I'm honestly surprised to find that comment; I was poorly attempting to say that I struggled with femininity all my life, and that learning I didn't have to be female-gender as an adult had made being female-sex easier.)

February 27 2014 - A short textpost I made complaining about how gender didn't make sense ("i dont know how to relate to posts that talk about it").

May 31 2014 - I reblogged this short post and made a joke that I "turned off gender whenever people weren't paying attention"

June 14 2014 - I got a message asking how I identified. I responded that I was "asexual or graysexual" and over-explained that I didn't feel sexual attraction and "I'm not even ready to be in a relationship yet so I don't really think about it much" (friends I was 21 years old). This is also the first time I openly acknowledged I was biromantic to another person (after tentatively using that label in January). I also talk about how I don't understand gender ("gender just seems arbitrary"), and how I'd realized the previous September that 'gender' might "actually be an actual thing that actual people have and feel... and I don't feel it." I state that 'she' 'he' or 'they' pronouns are all fine with me.

July 16 2014 - I wrote a very frustrated rant about how I couldn't figure out 'Gender', saying that since it's a 'social construct' is it not 'real'? Is it a Tangible Thing? A friend responded and likened gender to more of a 'Force', which I responded to here, saying that made much more sense to me (making an analogy to imaginary numbers, "they're only imaginary because we can't quantify them properly").

August 26 2014 - Post in its entirety reads "About me: Gender Edition. Gender: N/A. Pronouns: English." After dancing around it for over a year I believe this is the first time I actually state that I'm agender (or, practically so). I make a few more posts for the next year expressing frustration at sex vs gender terminology but from at least this point forward I'm very openly agender and nonbinary.

(also September 14 2014 - I wrote about how I was "raised pretty gender neutral." I talked about my four older brothers and how my mom didn't make a lot of attempts to raise me 'girly'. I also talk about trying to be a feminist and realizing I didn't notice media sexism because I always identified with male protagonists just as easily as female. My mom later privately responded to this post and made the argument that she raised all her children pretty 'neutrally', inasmuch as she could, which honestly she makes a great case for.)

#about me #i might update this later if I find more #for now I've dug through what I can dig through and I'm embarrassed and delighted in turns #I wanted to look at the timeline and it really is me joining tumblr and quietly working on internalized homophobia for a year #then me figuring out amatonormativity for like six months #im still shocked i never made a 'huh thinking about it' post re: asexuality #and then a year and a half of me slowly addressing transphobia and dissecting gender on the hunt for my own #also now i know i was fully 21 when i started IDing as agender and i didnt realize it was that early?? my first year at BYUI?? #I know it would be a while longer before I started using 'nonbinary' and years before 'trans'

[deathxiii]

"The Pink Choice" by Vietnamese photographer Maika Elan is a series that depicts LGBT Vietnamese couples, "focusing on living spaces, the affectionate touches, and more importantly, the synchronized rhythm of lovers sharing life together." http://maikaelan.com/photos/the-pink-choice.html

#lgbt #photos #affection #fav

[thal-chandra]

Watch me draw a whole ass Cast for a new Danganronpa Inspired story after my girlfriend introduced me to the idea.

Héloïse : 20, She's french, a lesbian trans girl and demi sexual. She's the ultimate Dungeon Master, meaning she's an expert in DND. (Funfact, the drawing on her shirt is of a story I am also writing with my different SOs and friends)

I've done half of my cast for now and here they all are ! A little presentation is under the cut.

??? : We don't know where he's from or how old he is, but we know he is gay ! He's the ultimate ghost... I mean, nobody yet succeeded to prove he is NOT a ghost.

Émile : He is 15, he is a french trans guy and he is pan and sapio. He is the ultimate voice imitator, he just need to ear your voice twice to be able to reproduce it absolutely perfectly.

Ringo : He's 23, he's Japanese and is very gay for his boyfriend Atshi ! He's also confortable with all pronouns as a cis guy. He's the ultimate cosplayer. (Fun fact, when I created him, he was the Mastermind of a killing game. Like Tsumugi, yes)

Van Kim : He's 21, he's vietnamese and a het trans guy ! As the ultimate synchronized swimmer, he actually works a lot with his friends. He is also very muscular.

Morgan : 17, non-binary using el/ol pronouns, he's a canadian ! El works out a lot and is actually the tallest of the whole cast, almost taller than the frame. Guess it helps with hockey games...

Isla : She's wonderful, she's from New Zealand, she's 16, she's biromantic and homosexual ! She actually don't have a right arm, but that doesn't stop her from enjoying surfing.

Genesis : Using he/she pronouns, he's non-binary and the oldest of the cast as well as the smallest ! She is 25, only attracted to guys, demiromantic and aegosexual. If I had put her at her real height, she's would've been too short. He's actually 4'11. Also, yes, his outif's color is a reference to Kaede's, because Kaede's my favorite character.

#danganronpa oc #too lazy to tag more #thal'imagination

[prusina]

Felix Gonzalez-Torres, "Untitled" (Perfect Lovers), 1991

"Untitled" (Perfect Lovers) is an installation of two identical, battery-operated clocks, synchronized and hanging side-by-side. As ordinary objects elevated to the level of fine art, the clocks undoubtedly reference the Duchampian readymade, and, with their austere forms and serial repetition, Minimalist sculpture. Like all of Gonzalez-Torres's works, however, mundane materials are springboards for subtle personal and political meanings that vary with their context. The viewer's response to the clocks shifts dramatically knowing that the artist created the installation while his partner Ross Laycock was dying from AIDS. Gonzalez-Torres acknowledged that clocks would fall out of synch, one eventually stopping first. "Time is something that scares me . . . or used to. This piece I made with the two clocks was the scariest thing I have ever done. I wanted to face it. I wanted those two clocks right in front of me, ticking."

On the other hand, the clocks exemplify his desire to create works with multiple possible meanings. Although it obviously reflects his own homosexual relationship, the abstract nature of the clocks' substitution for bodies allows it to be read generally, as a metaphor for love. Gonzalez-Torres explained how he resisted the label of "gay art" during a period of increased censorship and furor over the NEA funding for Robert Mapplethorpe: "Two clocks side by side are much more threatening to the powers that be than an image of two guys sucking each other's dicks, because they cannot use me as a rallying point in their battle to erase meaning. It is going to be very difficult for members of Congress to tell their constituents that money is being expended for the promotion of homosexual art when all they have to show are two plugs side by side, or two mirrors side by side..."

Gonzalez-Torres often produced multiple versions of his installations, and his detailed instructions for their display became an important element of the piece itself. For "Untitled" (Perfect Lovers), the instructions require the commercial clocks to be of exact dimensions and design and that they touch; before the exhibition opens the hands are set to the same time; an essential part of the work is that the clocks can be perpetually reset and, therefore, the work is infinite. A rule around the work is that the clocks can fall out of sync but if one of the clocks stop, they are fixed or replaced, as the case may be. With such directions, Gonzalez-Torres created the basic boundaries of the work, while still allowing for certain flexibility in any given exhibition or installation.

#untitled #perfect lovers #Feliz Gonzales Torres #art