#hopefully I’ll be able to post the surprise by Wednesday or Thursday

[shywhumpauthor]

Stress position idea

Muzzle your Whumpee and then connect that muzzle to a very short chain attached to their collar, essentially forcing them to keep their head bowed.

Imagine how stiff and unnatural it will feel once they are released for them to raise their head up normally. How much pain that will bring.

Use this for particularly defiant whumpees, guaranteed humiliation and suffering!

#whump #whumpblr #everyone ignore how awful this is I feel like I need to post *something* #hopefully I’ll be able to post the surprise by Wednesday or Thursday #whump community #its me coal #whump writing #coal wrote something #whumpee #whumper #whump prompt #creepy whumper #captured whumpee #captivity whump #whump prompts #intimate whumper #writing prompt #whump drabble #kidnapped whumpee #abused whumpee #tw torture #torture #pet whump #writing prompts #torture methods

[girlwiththenegantattoo]

It's been a while since I posted on this story so you can find the last chapter Telephone here

So this is the end. Its been rewarding to be able to write for these 2 and hopefully I improved my writing along the way. Pretty sure I have good closure in this chapter but I'm tired and really wanted to get this posted so it may feel a bit rushed.

Rating: Mature (18+) Tagging @everythingbutresolved @plainlo-inthemorning

Jeb shifted for what felt like the up-tenth time, in the driver’s seat of his Oldsmobile as images of Mila played behind closed eye lids. If he ever wanted to make it to Friday, he knew he'd have to find something to take his mind off the rather risqué phone call he received earlier that day. For Jeb unfortunately, nothing really worked.

Much like Wednesday night, Thursday was filled with reading month old reports, writing what he’d claim to be reports of his own and several whiskey crystal glasses filled halfway. Friday, Jeb had spent his time locked in his office, sulking after a particular unjustified, outburst towards his secretary. He was absolutely certain that his week could not get any worse, when the shrill ringing of his office telephone was soon to tell him how wrong he was.

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Mila had only experienced what it was like to be let down a few times in her adolescence. With that came the reminder never to put her excitement or hopes in other's hands. Heartbreak, however, was a completely different story. Only experiencing such a devastating feeling once, the last thing she wanted was to feel her most avoided emotion while looking into the big blue eyes of Jeb Magruder.

He had only knocked twice, which wasn't unusual per say but they were well passed the nervousness that the unknown brought Jeb. Still dressed in his usual work attire, his tie looked to have been yanked loose, laying around his neck like a big silk necklace. Normally he'd offer a smile, no matter how unconvincing, when he was upset. Tonight however, there was no such attempt to hide the heart sinking look of sadness on his face.

Standing by the door Mila watched as Jeb walked straight to the bed. Sitting on the edge he leaned forward, placing his elbow on his knees and his head in his hands. With his dress shirt sleeves rolled up to his elbow Mila would have admired the way his muscles flexed under taut skin but now wasn't the time. Walking closer she spoke, being mindful to keep the disappointment out of her voice. This is not about you

 "Should we do this another time?"

"I think I'm going to jail!" Jeb blurted out as he continued to keep his head buried in his hands. "I've done some questionably...bad. I've done bad things for the people, person I work for." He was ramble and shooting for honesty however, the encrypted words still left Mila confused. "I've done these things... and now I’ve been summoned to court and…and I’ll have sit there and be drilled for answers...I just I-" Jeb’s voice was now beginning to crack. As vague as Jeb was being he could have easily been talking about murder, but that wasn't him. Not the Jeb she knew.

Mila walked to the spot between his legs forcing Jeb to sit up off his knees and look up at her and for the first time he couldn't interpret the look that covered her usual soft features. Though the surprise of feeling her fingers combing through his hair had made him gasp, it was the action of her bringing his head to her stomach and wrapping her arms around him, that convinced him it was all just a cruel dream.

"Talk to me."

With Jeb’s arms now around Mila's waist she could feel his trembling body as the tears of his silent sobs dampened the front of her dress. She'd give him time to collect himself then. Maybe he'd even calm down enough to realize it wasn't as bad as he thought. With a deep breath, Jeb told her about his wife and how she left him months ago. Claiming she had gotten bored, and he worked all the time gave Mila the sense of receiving half-truth, but this was the story he wanted to tell. He told her about Watergate and how his involvement was a blind act of service for the very people that thought the least of him. Though he had gone silent for a moment it felt like there was so much more he wanted to say. When Jeb finally pulled back, he expected to see a look of disgust or even disappointment however, he found neither. Just the same comforting green eyes and look that said I understand. With the information she just received Mila decided to unpack it all at a different time. Whipping the last tear that made its way down his cheek she motioned behind her with her head. "Come take a bath with me?" A defeated head shake and the feeling of Jeb grabbing her outstretched hand was all Mila needed to know he was on board.

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"You want us to fit in that thing?" Jeb asked looking down into the empty tub surrounded by small white tiles. The disbelief in his tone had caused Mila to playfully roll her eyes. "We'll make it work," she replied, leaning over to turn the faucet on. The manner of which Jeb divested himself was solemn, making Mila want to assist in hopes of cheering him up. Adding some flirtatious elements always got her a smile but like the few men she knew, comfort came with a type of seriousness and Jeb had been no different.

Stepping in, Jeb used his heels to push himself against the back of the tub, trying carefully not to send any water sloshing over the side.

 "Ah. Scoot forward."

 It was a simple request, spoken with soft words yet it hadn't stopped the furrowed brows Jeb gave her in confusion. Taking her place behind him she signaled for him to lean back. Wide eyes and unsure movements caused Mila to finally speak again. "Jeb just trust me. Would you please lay against me?" Hesitantly leaning back Jeb kept a death grip on the sides of the tub because the last thing he wanted was to pin Mila uncomfortably to its cold porcelain surface. A huff of air, from what he only assumed was a laugh, rolled on the back of his neck as he watched Mila place her hands on his.

"Relax," she whispered kindly in his ear.

 For a brief second, Mila thought she heard a whine before he removed his fingers and slowly laid against her. From where Jeb rested on her chest, he was able to lay his head on her shoulder, leaving his long legs to bend at the knees well above the water. Soft hands roamed the expanse of his chest while Mila placed a heated trail of kisses from behind his ear to the end of his shoulder, playfully nipping where his upper arm met his clavicle. As time passed her once leisurely touch turned to determined fingers sliding down Jeb’s stomach and settling around his rapidly hardening length. Setting a slow pace, absent of any teasing, Mila was now given easy access to Jeb’s full neck as he threw his head back against her shoulder. Light nips and swipes of her tongue stretched from just under his jaw to the base of his neck, all while leaving small hickys in places she knew people would see.

 She would have been lying if she said she wasn’t a little upset when Jeb softly stopped her moments. Turning as best he could there was something that caught Mila off guard, a look that provoked a feeling she liked to keep buried. “I would really like to see… you, could I take you to bed?” It was timid and hopeful and there was no way she’d deny him this request.

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Pleasure was a word Mila understood well but it wasn’t until that night that she truly got to experience it for herself. Eager lips danced over what felt like every inch of her skin while his hands went on their own exploration. “You’re always so good to me” was whispered in one ear before he entered her and “I want to make you feel as good as you make me,” grunted on a particular hard thrust. Mila held Jeb tighter than anything she held in years that night and now it was her with tears in her eyes. After they both caught their breaths there was a tranquil silence that fell over the room. Mirroring each other positions as they laid facing each other Jeb had been the one to break the silence first.

"Is this my last hurrah before I never see you again."

Propping herself up on her forearm, Mila gave him a look akin to hurt. She never thought about the last time when it came to Jeb or how many first times there would be. But wasn’t the unspoken at that very moment not obvious? Had he not paid attention to anything they've just done, what she just did? Searching for the words Mila finally just let her heart speak.

“Jeb. I love you.”

A soft gasp left Jeb and for the first time the sight of tears in his eyes had brought tears back to her own. "What will you do when I-I don't want to do what I’m doing anymore but I don't know-" Mila softly placed a finger on his lips and it was her time to offer a teary-eyed smile. A simple "We'll make it work”, was all Mila said as she reached for the hand Jeb tucked under his pillow. After encompassing it with the both of hers, Mila continued. "I don't want to do this anymore either. I don't want to spend my time with other people or lay awake at night wondering what you’re doing or if you're happy." Removing one hand, Mila used her thumb to wipe a tear that had settled at the end of his nose. "I want to wake up to your sleepy blue eyes and kiss these soft lips before I go to bed."

"But what will you do if...if I go away?"

“I’ll wait for you.”

The answer to his question was the easiest answer Mila ever had to give because this was exactly where she was supposed to be. In the short time Mila had known Jeb she learned a lot about herself. Of all the things, the one of most importance being that Jeb taught her how to love and she taught Jeb what love is.

#hamish linklater #jeb magruder #gaslit

[sour--disposition]

Drunken Words, Sober Thoughts

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harry x fem!reader

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Request: OOoO what if you do one where reader similar to Harry and is friends with talia and the other girls, but has never met the sidemen yet and gets invited to do a drinking video with them and they don’t know that reader can hold her liquor and Harry is at awe watching her smash the drinks and pins after her

please check my masterlist to see if requests are open

“Hey, are you busy on Thursday? Simon wants to know if you’ll be in a moresidemen video”, Talia asked as soon as you picked up the phone.

“Well, hello to you, too”, you laughed into the phone. “Yeah, I’ll just make sure I get my editing done by Wednesday night. Let Si know I’ll be there with you. What are we doing?”, you asked her.

“I think he wants us to do a say it or shot it. They wanted to do a lie detector but they couldn't find anyone to administer it or lend out the equipment”, she said.

“Yeah, sounds good”, you replied. “Just make sure someone tells me when and where, yeah?”.

It was Sunday evening, which meant you had 3 full days to film and edit a video that you were happy to put out. Being a a fast-growing youtuber, you tried to stick to a consistent schedule when you could. Along with streaming most nights, staying on top of your content kept you pretty busy.

“So, if I film tomorrow, I’ve got tomorrow night, Tuesday and Wednesday to edit. Need Wednesday night free for a shower to be ready for Thursday. There’s the stream with Talia tomorrow night and hopefully Gee on Tuesday. If I clear Wednesday night out... Okay. Seems good!”, you mumbled to yourself as you tried to make a game plan for the next two weeks.

Talia: youtube studio space, be there for 11am xx

Me: so im getting peppered mid-day or spilling all my secrets to like 5 million subs? lavely xx

Talia: shut up its bc you love me xx

Knowing you’d set yourself a schedule from tomorrow onwards, you set about enjoying your night. You had a bath, ordered your favourite take away and sat and watched your favourite show. The next few days were going to consist of hard work if you wanted to keep on top of streaming and getting a post-worthy video up by the end of the week.

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By Thursday morning, you had a video you were proud to post, a few more hours of streams logged and were ready to face the moresidemen shoot in all its glory. You met Talia outside the Youtube studio space with a few minutes to spare before the guys were expecting you in there.

“You’ve not met Harry, have you?”, Talia asked as she pulled the door open for you.

“Thanks”, you smiled. “No, I think I might have been in an Among Us video with you lot that he was in, but other than that, no”, you confirmed, holding the next door for the two of you to go through.

“You can’t hide that blush from me by opening a door, Y/N”, Talia grinned, poking at your side.

“Oh, shush. Just because he’s cute...”, you trailed off, walking into large room. Immediately, you and Talia were ushered over to some of the crew, having mics strapped and clipped to you.

“Hey”, Simon said to the two of you as you finished being fitted with your mics. “Thanks for doing this”.

You were both pointed over to a table with assorted bottles on it, two Krox shot glasses and three chairs around it. There were a handful of chairs to one side of the space, a few of the guys already sitting down. “So I’m gonna ask the first questions and then the guys are probably gonna pitch in a few once those are done with”, Simon told you.

You and Talia both made noises of agreement, walking over to the chairs and sitting down. Simon started with his intro to the video, explaining what was going on and who you were. “Okay so, you either answer the question or you take a shot of your choice out of what we’ve got in front of you. We’ve got questions from instagram and twitter, and then our lovely audience are going to be able to ask questions themselves. Are we ready?”.

The questions started relatively tame, most of them were about your friendship with Talia, Gee and Freya or the guys, and most of Talia’s were about her and Simon. You didn’t even think about pouring a shot until Simon had sacked off the instagram and twitter questions for not being ‘juicy’ enough.

“What’s the weirdest sex story Y/N has told you?”, JJ asked Talia. 

“I will take this shot for you if you even consider telling anyone this”, you told Talia immediately. She rolled her eyes as she grinned at you, reaching for the vodka bottle next her shot glass and untwisting the cap. “Thank you”, you sighed.

“Y/N, what’s the story that you won’t let Talia tell us?”, Ethan asked from next to JJ, the two of them breaking out into giggles as soon as you let out a huff. You reached for the closest bottle to you, pouring out a shot and throwing it back straight away.

From then on out, the questions started going downhill. The guys kept it somewhat reined in for Talia, probably out of respect for Simon and knowing how awkward it could end up being with the two of them sat right there. You, though? No ground was left untouched.

Bra size? Asked. Favourite position? Asked. How many one night stands? Asked. Have you ever faked an orgasm? Asked. Ever had an STI? Asked. There were some questions you had to drink to just so they could make it into the video. 

Talia leaned over to Simon, tipsily giggling as she whispered something into his ear.

“Y/N”, Simon stated, setting his eyes on you. “Who’s the best looking out of the Sidemen, in your opinion?”, he asked you.

“Oh, that’s easy”, you shrugged. “Harry”, you answered bluntly. It was only when Talia’s eyes widened slightly that you realised you’d actually said it out loud. You smacked a hand over your mouth quickly. “I didn’t actually mean to say that out loud”, you whispered to Talia.

The guys had broken out into a ruckus behind you, cheering Harry and shoving him around lightly, seemingly amusing Talia and Simon. You were the only one out of the three of you with your back to the boys, and you daren’t turn around now. 

Talia leaned over to you whilst the guys were still poking at Harry. “I only got Simon to ask because Harry hasn’t stopped staring at you since you started drinking”, she whispered to you, sending you a little wink.

“I - er - think it’s about there that we wrap it up”, Simon laughed sheepishly from next to you and Talia. 

You were directed over to the same people who strapped you into your mic to help you out of it. The woman finished fiddling with the microphone on your collar and got you to turn around, bringing you face to face with Harry.

“Oh, hi”, you blushed. He smiled back, seeming surprised you were speaking to him. “I wanted to apologise, I didn’t mean to just blurt that out. I clearly drank quicker than I’m used to”, you laughed awkwardly, reaching up to scratch at your neck nervously.

“Ah, no need”, Harry laughed lightly, scratching at a spot on his upper chest. “You handed the shots really well, if you ask me. Half of how many you drank would have had most of these guys on the floor, it was quite impressive”, he told you with a smile.

“Thank you, I was terrified coming in here that I was going to make a massive fool out of myself”, you admitted.

“It’s part of being on a Sidemen shoot, unfortunately”, Harry chuckled. 

You were both finally released from your microphones and wires, being told you could go on your way by the crew members. Just as you were about to leave, you heard harsh whispers behind you. Turning around, you saw JJ and Ethan both spurring Harry on to do something.

“Uh - er. Before you leave, could I get your number?”, Harry asked quietly, hand returning to the spot on his upper chest.

You smiled, walking over to him and holding out your hand for his phone. “Of course you can”, you told him, typing your information into his contacts. “I better get a text though”, you told him cheekily.

“You can count on it”, he told you, watching as you turned to Talia and linked arms with her before walking out of the studio space.

“I so totally saw that”, she told you, poking at your side with a massive grin plastered across her face.

“Just let me be happy and tipsy, Talia”.

#harry lewis imagine #wroetoshaw imagine #w2s imagine #harry lewis x reader #wroetoshaw x reader #harry lewis #simon minter #ksi #talia mar #sidemen #sidemen oneshot #sidemen imagine #sidemen x reader #uk youtube imagine #imagine #uk youtube

[makeste]

BnHA 6th Popularity Poll Reaction Post - Risky Spoiler-Dodging Edition

hey guys, so seeing as the results from the 6th popularity poll were leaked today, I figured I would do a separate reaction + analysis post this year, rather than piling it in as an extra on top of the chapter reaction post tomorrow. I figure this makes more sense anyway, since they’re really two completely different things. also this way I can write as much as I want lol.

also, just fyi, I am still completely unspoiled for chapter 293. and probably the smart thing to do to keep it that way would be to log off tumblr and hold off posting this until tomorrow, but I apparently have no impulse control today so oh well. anyway, so I’m hoping you guys will keep this spoiler-free if you don’t mind! as always, I would prefer to just jump right in completely unaware tomorrow like Troy returning to the study room with the pizza boxes lol.

okay so this first part is just going to be my predictions. fyi I am writing this part on Wednesday night, and then I’ll add on the results part on Thursday or Friday (ETA: Thursday, apparently, since I am impatient.)

okay so first of all, just as a refresher, this poll was open to Japanese voters from Aug 3 to Sep 30. meaning chapters 279 through 285. meanwhile last year’s poll took place around the tail end of the MVA arc. so between then and now we had Heroes Rising, the Endeavor Agency arc, and the War arc up to the part where the 1-A kids took on Gigantomachia in Gunga, and started battling Tomura in Jakku. so technically only a couple of arcs, but a LOT of stuff going down in them. oh and season 4 of the anime as well

so! firstly, I predict that my truculent africanized honeybee son will hold on to his crown at #1, coming off a year in which he did some internship-boosted soul searching, borrowed OFA in movie canon, and finished out the voting period as the my-body-moved-on-its-own character development MVP. like CALL ME CRAZY lol, but I’m pretty sure his title is safe. and then after him will be Deku and Shouto as usual

Aizawa should hopefully also have a strong showing because the dude had a banner fucking year. reunited with his old dead friend, took on Tomura with his hopelessly inept hero pals, and then chopped his fucking leg off. he had better be in the top 10. his fucking leg died for this, idk what else he has to do

Endeavor also stands a decent chance of doing well given the internship arc and the final episode of season 4. which I’m sure will go down just swimmingly if that does happen lmao. especially if he somehow manages to rank higher than...

Dabi, which I don’t think he will btw, but you never know. anyways though, but I’m thinking Dabi’s going to have a stronger showing than in past years (in the last poll he only got 367 votes and was ranked 19th). mostly because of his fight in the Gunga mansion, and his cheekily censored name reveal to...

Hawks, who is also going to rank pretty high here, I think. might be he loses some points for killing off Twice, but his back was basically to the wall there. and he has always been very popular, and I think season 4 will also give him a boost, along with his heavy involvement in the first half of the War arc

Tomura was already in 6th place last year and I think he cracks the top 5 this year. he’s gotten exponentially more popular since the MVA arc, and got a boost in the last poll even though his flashback had only just barely happened, and he hadn’t finished Awakening yet and all that stuff. anyway, so he’s only gotten cooler and more tragic since then so I think he makes a big play here

Kirishima, Momo, Tokoyami, and Mina should also hopefully do well, since the poll opened right in the middle of all that Gigantomachia action, and Toko had just got done being an absolute badass and protecting his birb dad. I don’t think he’ll quite make it to the top ten, but he should

and last but not least, I’m hoping that Mirko will come out and take the polls by storm, although I have no clue how popular she is in Japan lol. she’s clearly Horikoshi’s favorite though. she SHOULD be everyone’s favorite, but I mean, we’ll see how it goes

anyway that’s it as far as predictions! and so now, through the magic of writing stuff at different times, we will fast-forward to the part where we actually find out the results!

OH MY GOD YES, STEAMPUNK KHLKSLLKL. HERE FOR IT. JOLLY GOOD SHOW. 5 STARS

Kacchan looks SO COCKY and SO HAPPY and SO ADORABLE, YES I SAID IT. he is adorable as FUCK. I don’t quite know what it is about this particular Kacchan that just screams “LOOK HOW FUCKING CUTE MY STUPID, LOUD SON IS WITH HIS BIZARRE WINDOWPANE-LOOKING CONVERTIBLE SUNGLASS GOGGLES and his POORLY TIED CRAVAT”, but I think it’s because he looks like if a Digimon character and a FMA character had a baby

anyway, so it looks like most of the people present here are more or less who we expected to see. except that I can’t tell for sure if that’s Dabi or Shindou, and if it’s Shindou I’m going to punch somebody in the face so you will have to excuse me

Iida wearing a TRENCHCOAT and a TOP HAT with ENGINE EXHAUST GOGGLE ACCENTS is my new favorite Iida of all time. take note how there is no possible way he can wear those goggles with them sitting on top of his hat like that. plus he’s already got glasses on. these are just purely for aesthetic and IF THAT AIN’T JUST THE STEAMPUNK WAY

Deku out here speaking softly and carrying a lead pipe. Kacchan you best look out. seems like he’s done watching you take first place year after year while he languishes in the number two spot. your only hope is that he trips while attacking you because his boots are unbuckled

Shouto’s standing over there with the rest of the non-first-and-second-place characters, but what are the odds his results are actually within spitting distance of Deku’s same as always. anyway he doesn’t mind, though. also his outfit is by far the most sensible one here, but if you look closely he’s got some sort of fire extinguisher/jet pack thing strapped to his back that’s got a control switch on his belt. Shouto are you jetpacking or putting out fires

Kirishima out here all “I’m not sure what steampunk is so I’m just going to take off my shirt and pose”

AIZAWA WITH THE EYEPATCH SKLKSDLKFJLSKJLDFKJSLDFFJLDKSJFL:KS. SIR. SIR. also, lowkey furious that Horikoshi refuses to show us the automail leg that he is clearly sporting here but which we just can’t see, SHOUTO MOVE GODDAMMIT

Endeavor has TWO fire extinguisher-slash-jetpacks. THE BETTER TO... WHATEVER. look at you here in the top ten again. you really live for that controversy

HAWKS OUT HERE WITH HIS STEAMPUNK BEATS BY DRE AND HIS WEARING A RING ON EVERY FINGER. nice to see you’ve still got your wings there, kiddo. then again Deku still has both of his arms too so who even knows what is going on

BUT SERIOUSLY THOUGH, IS THIS DABI OR SHINDOU. as if I don’t know the truth deep down in my heart. y’all I am gonna flip lmao. it’s not that I dislike Shindou, strictly speaking. but just... I can’t explain what it is, but if you put him and AFO next to each other and told me “you can only punch one”, I would be having a serious crisis. just, THIS FUCKING GUY, idek. STOP SMILING

Tomura looks like he just wandered onto the set here by mistake and has no idea where he is or what is going on. it’s because you’re wearing a bigass severed hand that’s blocking your entire view, Tomura. just take the hand off your face my sweet murder dumpling

anyway! so I managed to also find a link to the full poll results while somehow managing to avoid spoilers, and then I wanted to compare the results to last year’s poll, and so I made... this

hopefully you can all see this. if you’re on desktop you might be screwed, but on mobile you should be able to click and enlarge it. I mean, assuming you actually give a fuck about boring poll analysis spreadsheets lmao

anyway, so there were actually 13k fewer votes cast this year which is a bit of a surprise. is the series not still growing in popularity? do people apparently have better things to do during their quarantine lol

anyways but despite this, and despite getting 8k fewer votes overall, Kacchan still managed almost twice as many as his closest competitor. well fought, Deku. please put down that pipe

I somehow always underestimate the power of ship popularity to influence these things. but for example, it looks like Present Mic got that Vigilantes Trio bump. ride that wave for all it’s worth my man! hell, you got me on board

Iida fucking Tenya somehow got some sort of POWER BOOST out of NOWHERE which I can’t explain at all lmao, but I’m here for it. NOT BAD FOR AN OLD MAN

Sero managed to get the exact same number of votes in both 2019 and 2020. clearly the most loyal fans in the business

Mirko being all the way down at #20 is, of course, a travesty, and I hereby nominate her to be the one to punch Shindou in the face

ngl though, the lack of a single female character in the top ten hurts just a bit. it’s not overly surprising, but still. the worst part of it is that even if you kicked Shindou to the curb and moved everyone else up one slot, it would still be all dudes since Mic beat out Momo by a margin of a little more than a hundred votes. hard to stay mad at Mic for too long, though. ah well

Tomura actually lost a bunch of votes which is a genuine surprise to me. I know the villain standom isn’t as dominant in Japan as it is in Western fandom, but still. you can go ahead and punch Shindou too I guess

Tokoyami lowkey doubled his vote count over the past year while hiding down there at #18. he is slowly becoming more powerful. biding his time

anyway so I think that’s it! I mean not really, but I’m getting kind of tired lol. so just, you know, insert the usual gripes at Overhaul’s ranking here, although we can be happy about Magne making her way onto the list (r.i.p.), and Mineta and AFO taking a very satisfying slide down (all the way out, in AFO’s case; good riddance you bum). Hadou also got a huge boost which is awesome. Mustard’s persistent ownership of the #36 spot will forever remain a mystery to me, but oh well

anyways, this was fun. and I really do feel like everyone is looking away on purpose so that when Deku brains Kacchan with that pipe in about two seconds from now, there will be no witnesses, oh my fucking god

#bnha 293 #bnha popularity poll #bakugou katsuki #midoriya izuku #todoroki shouto #aizawa shouta #shigaraki tomura #bnha #boku no hero academia #bnha spoilers #mha spoilers #bnha manga spoilers #makeste reads bnha

[crescentfool]

all synced up! some posting changes from now on ✨

hi everyone! thank you so much for the support in the past month on tumblr. it really means a lot to me, to be able to see all of your cute tags, replies, asks, etc! i wasn’t really sure what to expect, but i can’t stress enough how grateful i am for the kindness. truly, you are all so sweet! 💕💗💞

now with that said and done- some changes will be happening on the blog! after 100~ art posts (holy shit p5 brainrot strong), my posts are now caught up and synced to my twitter account! as such, the release of my art posts are now going to be synced with my twitter account. for specifics, look under the cut! (~400 words)

first of all, i try to uphold a posting schedule of posting one art on monday, wednesday, and friday! this totals into three art pieces per week, and i do my best to be as consistent as possible. sometimes i post more than that (i.e. fandom weeks like the upcoming shuake week!), but it’s generally three posts per week. i’ve been maintaining this schedule since mid-march 2021- but it may be subject to change w/o any prior notice.

secondly, the queue will now be used for reblogs! should i come across a SHIT ton of art or posts i want to reblog, i will (hopefully) be interspersing my reblogs using the queue so that they’re more consistent and spread out. (how much per day is unknown to me but i’ll figure it out lmao)

third! i may look into porting over some of my favorite twitter thread posts, hcs/AUs, shitposts, etc. over on tumblr. i really enjoy the permanence and organization that tumblr has to offer! these posts will come over randomly whenever i feel like porting them over- and will NOT be synced with my twitter account. i will tag them according to the tags i’ve listed in my master list here!

and last but not least, thank you for reading! i’ve been pleasantly surprised with my tumblr experience in the past month and i’m very happy to be here. my activity on here will likely decrease in frequency- but i promise i’ll still be here! if you’d like to interact with me, feel free to check out my twitter (i talk a lot there and i welcome conversations with open arms!), or watch one of my weekly thursday streams on twitch! alternatively, feel free to leave an ask! i’m more than happy to answer questions; it’s fun for me to interact with people. 💗

anyways, that’ll be all! i’m super excited for shuake week (it’s coming up so soon!!!), and i’m sure as heck looking forward to seeing everyone’s creations! i’ll see you around in another text post at the start of august for a list of fic recs (i have been reading some really good ones and i can’t wait to share them!!).

later tater tots!! stay amazing, and make sure to take care of yourselves! ✨

#AAA terribly sorry for not knowing how to write in capitalization im just really lazy lmao but capitalization is too professional for me #but here's the update post i mentioned in the tags of my last akechi post! #tl;dr art will only be on MWF now and queue is for reblogs #i say that but i found two things to reblog before posting this and i.. forgot about the queue... lmao help #you can tell that im a twitter user at heart bc whenever i find things i wanna reblog/rt whatever I JUST SPAM IT ALL AT ONCE #anyways!! thank you thank you everyone for being so kind ily all. i have lots of p5r brainrot and im happy to share it w/everyone! #just!! very mushy and appreciative noises for all of you BC YALL ARE SO COOL????? like thank u!! #i know that u guys dont rlly get a chance to see much of my personality on here outside of tumblr tags but like. i appreciate yall!!! #anyways have a lovely tuesday!! or wednesday. or whatever day ur reading this lol #lizzy speaks

[life-with-my-three]

I keep going to write a post with some positives of the last few months, because all I seem to write are stressed out vents, but then something happens. I will get there.

For now, though another vent.

We almost spent Easter in hospital. Luckily it didn’t happen and we were all able to be home together, but it’s been a long week.

I also still really dislike our local hospital!

I got home from a GP appointment on Wednesday, to Aaron walking down the hallway, and in that moment Harriet’s feeding tube came out of her stomach. Stomach contents EVERYWHERE!! It was a quick tape and bandage it in place and then drive to our local hospital.

She had only been connected to feeds for half an hour so had, had a total of 30mls (1oz) of feed before it broke, and hours off beforehand.

I almost drove straight to Melbourne hospital. Our management plan says for this we go to local hospital though, so I sucked it up. I concurrently rang our gastroenterology team at Melbourne hospital though.

We sat in the waiting room for 5 hours before we were even seen. That whole time she didn’t have any feed/fluid, because we had no way of safely giving it to her. We were finally seen at the 5 hour mark, and a nurse looked at me and went “oh there’s already a tube in it, why do we need to replace it”. Uh maybe because it is legit taped in there, which is the management for surgical feeding tubes, because the stoma closes super fast.

We spoke to Melb gastro and they wanted to trouble shoot her current tube, and hopefully it was just a matter of reinflating the balloon that holds it in her stomach. It took another few hours of sitting around before a doctor at local hospital came to attempt that. By which point she had been off feeds for 8+ hours.

While waiting for Melbourne hospital to get back to local hospital, they did a blood sugar which was below an acceptable limit. But we still waited another 4 hours before they did anything feed wise. I was getting livid! I had to explain to a doctor, why we could not give a 1.5 year old who is tube fed because of dysphagia (and reflux) causing aspiration an icy pole “to keep her sugars up”, which was their suggestion.

Melbourne hospital decided we would do a slow gastric feed trial, every time we’ve tried one, Harriet has ended up with a resp infection, until we could get her J tube replaced. It took hours longer for local hospital to arrange the tube going in though, so she had missed 12 hours of feeds, with nothing replacing it before it went in.

The NG insertion was horrible. It took 3 nurses holding her down, me cuddling her and another nurse inserting the tube to get it in. Harriet went blue, coughed and retched and I’m pretty sure traumatised a poor student nurse, who was observing. I heard the nurse reassure the student that NG tube insertions are rarely so horrible, and Harriet it complex. Apologising that, that was why she didn’t let student do it in the first place on Hatt. We got to go home once it was in.

Thursday we got a call in the afternoon from Melbourne gastro team. Consultant had played for us to feed through the broken J tube IF the X-ray she had asked for the day before showed the J extension was still in the correct place. Except local hospital “forgot” the X-ray. We then had to go back to local emergency and wait to get it done. Luckily Melbourne gastro team had rung ahead, and local hospital were crazily efficient having had orders giving to them. When we left a few hours later, people were still in the wait room that were there before us.

Luckily the X-ray showed the J extension still in the correct place, so we took the NG tube out, created the biggest patchwork tape job to hold the outer feeding tube in place, but still be able to access the tube, and we’ve been able to resume normal feeds. It’s now Tuesday and it hasn’t been replaced properly yet.

Of course from the gastric feeds Hatt has now brewed a resp infection. With our resp doctors insistence we needed to have a very low threshold for getting her checked, we knew we didn’t have much choice. We pushed through Easter Sunday, then 7am Monday I took her back for another day in emergency because of course no GP clinics were open being a public holiday.

Emergency doctor said her lungs were complete crackles ALL over. Half an hour later another doctor said her lungs were completely clear. So I don’t know which it was. Second doctor consulted with resp team in Melbourne, and they decided to do oral antibiotics. They also wanted to do viral swabs and a mandatory covid swab, pretty much to rule out it being caused by a viral illness and not aspiration. No wonder hattie is traumatised. A swab shoves up each nostril at the same time, then both down her throat.

Viral swab came back negative this morning. Covid swab is still pending (so we’re in isolation until it is received). I’ll be extremely surprised if it’s positive though, as we haven’t had a covid case in the state for 6 weeks or something now.

Hopefully covid swab is back by tomorrow morning as, we’re supposed to be going to Melbourne hospital for tube replacement. Plus we have a super full week of appointments.

My sister-in-law (and my brother)’S due date with my niece is today, but little miss hasn’t made an appearance yet. I can’t wait!

[lazywitchling]

Dabbler’s Week - research proposal edition

I say “Research proposal” because this isn’t so much going to be what I’d ACTUALLY use as a guide, it’s just the STRUCTURE I’d use to write the guide, and why I chose what I did. For a little background on what the hell is going on, see @asksecularwitch‘s post here.

Monday - Spellwork

What: A simple candle-and-petition-paper spell. Dabbler chooses what they want, but with the instruction that it is straightforward, specific, and tangible. The Drake-Meme format would be: “I want to increase my wealth” ✋ - “I want ten bucks in the coming week” 👈 The spell is written out exactly as performed, really hand-holdy, Do This, Then This, Next This, Finally This.

Why: Look, if I were brand new and gonna pick a “dabble in witchcraft for a week” thing, I’d want to start out doing some effin’ witchcraft. So we’ll start with casting a spell. It’s written super hand-holdy because at the beginning, you really just want some step-by-step instructions on what to do. Also a week is a good time frame to give a spell, and casting it at the beginning gives it a chance to manifest by the end of the week. And FURTHERMORE, it’s a surprise tool that will help us later...

Tuesday - Cleansing a Space

What: Dabbler picks out a space to cleanse, told that the space they choose will be made into a sacred space tomorrow. They will play music of their choosing (with a few suggestions to get them started, just so nobody’s floundering, aka “relaxing yoga music, or something loud and peppy, your favorite childhood song, a meme song that makes you laugh, etc.”) while they also mundanely clean the space.

Why: Cleansing is one of those Cornerstone Witchy Things that everyone talks about offhandedly, like “cleanse your space after this spell”, and giving the Dabbler a simple way of doing that is a good first tool to have in their bag. Music is freely available, and it’s customizable, and playing music while doing a mundane cleaning associates the Magical Cleaning with the Mundane Cleaning in their mind, so they get a sense of “clean vibes” as related to “clean space”. Sidenote: the space can be a shelf, a box, a corner of the room, whatever. Might have some notes in there about other things they can add to their cleansing, like the usual magical washes or sprays, lighting a candle, or whatever. Nothing too complicated at this point, though, we’re still taking baby steps.

Wednesday - Creating a Sacred Space

What: The Dabbler picks out items they already have on hand to create a sacred space in the area that was cleansed the day before (the shelf, box, corner, whatever). Sacred here meaning “Set apart; special”, not necessarily “holy; religious”. Dabbler is encouraged to decorate and arrange things until they feel it has the proper vibe.

Why: This is to encourage the Dabbler to think about the mundane things around their own home, and how those things can be magical just by Deciding That They Are. The idea is not necessarily to create an Altar, though it can also work as practice for that should the Dabbler later choose to have one. In my own practice, I don’t have a permanent Sacred Space, because it doesn’t really fit what I do or how I live. But I tried making some when I first started, and I think it was an important learning point. Now, when I feel that I DO need a sacred space, I’m able to whip one up with whatever is around, and I think that’s a great skill to have. It’s helpful to know and feel what “Sacred” or “Special” feels like to the individual, what it takes for you to really vibe with a space or setting. My spaces are more about reining in my hyperactive brain and creating a boundary for it to focus on, not about creating a holy circle of ground, but I know what that distinction feels like BECAUSE of the times I dabbled in creating sacred spaces. This is when your brain gets to learn what It’s Witchin’ Time feels like.

Thursday - Herbal Correspondences

What: The Dabbler goes to their own kitchen or garden and picks out three spices, herbs, and/or flowers (that they 100% know what they are). At this point, it isn’t necessary to actually gather them, just to write down what is easily accessible at that moment. They then check out the Wikipedia article on their chosen herbs, and build their own correspondence list from that article.

Why: “Whoa whoa whoa, Jes, why are you suggesting Wikipedia??” Oh easy. Because it’s accessible, it’s free, and it’s not witchy. Wikipedia gets a bad rap as a resource for a variety of reasons, but for what it does, it does well. It’s an encyclopedia, so it is by nature a surfacey resource. That’s okay. That’s all we need right now. Instead of googling magical correspondences of cinnamon and finding 1000+ lists that all copied from a copy of a copy of a copy of Crowley and then not knowing WHY that thing has that correspondence, the Dabbler is going to learn to make their own by starting a (very basic) relationship with that herb. Example: I was trying to research magical correspondences of base oils, but everything I found was one-word answers, most of which was “fertility”. Which was... entirely not helpful. So I set out to make my own. Specific example: I looked into castor oil (according to “magickal” sources, it’s correspondence is simply “protection”), but my mundane research taught me that it’s been used for hydraulic and brake fluids, used in food preservation, sold as a laxative, and historically has been used as torture and humiliation (with the laxative effect, I’m sure you can figure out exactly how). Well NOW we’re getting somewhere, because now I associate it with “getting things moving”, whether in a negative or positive way. Having the Dabbler learn to do mundane research like this helps strengthen their relationship with what they use, teaches them that they can research their own materials without needing another Witch (or an Amazon Lisa) to do it for them, and teaches them that they can use what they have on hand rather than consulting a magical list of things they don’t have and wondering where the hell they’re supposed to buy white willow bark.

Friday - Divination

What: The Dabbler will gather small trinkets that they already have and collect them in a box or bag. They then ask questions (possibly with the aid of a list of suggested questions?) and draw a trinket (or cast a couple, if they’re feeling adventurous!) and interpret.

Why: I love Tarot as much as the next witch, but it’s not always practical for the starting witch. And in my experience, I can be dragged just as hard by my trinkets as I can by my traditional tarot decks. Gathering trinkets is (again, as you’re starting to see a theme, I hope) a way to use what is already on hand. And after the Wikipedia exercise from the previous day, the Dabbler should have a little bit of practice in thinking about associations. The action figure their nephew left at their house can mean “lost” but it can also mean “found”, or it’s Spiderman and means “responsibility” or Wonder Woman means “truth”, etc.

Saturday - Crafting a Charm

What: The Dabbler will create a simple charm (most likely a protective one, but I’m not married to the idea). They’ll use their own skills to hand make something tangible, however simple it may be. Could be crafting a keychain using their beading skills, or embroidering a small design onto their jeans pocket, or as simple as wrapping a colored thread around a ring they wear. Whatever it is, it will be a thing that they make with their hands.

Why: We’re falling away from the railroad guidelines at this point in the week, and encouraging the Dabbler to start thinking on their own about what they can do. There’s still suggestions so they don’t get totally lost, but it’s far less hand-holdy than the first spell of the week. With two whole exercises about thinking through associations of things, hopefully they can start to come to conclusions on their own (”You know, I think I’ll hang a safety pin from the keychain, because that just Feels Right to me” or “This string should be blue, because that’s the color of my protective gloves at work”). And the second purpose of the charm is... it’s a tangible thing. It’s a souvenir. If at the end of the week the Dabbler decides that they had fun but witchcraft isn’t for them, cool. But maybe three years down the line, they find that keychain they made during Witch Camp Week, and they think “Oh hey, I remember doing that...” and perhaps it comes to them at exactly the time they need it and they decide to pick it up again. (Or they find it and go “lol that wasn’t for me” and chuck it in the trash. Failure is always an option!)

Sunday - Spellwork Redux

What: Get in losers, we’re casting the same spell again. Well, not the SAME spell, but the same sort. That candle spell from the beginning of the week? The Dabbler will now repeat it with similar purpose. BUT, this time they are to modify the spell somehow. Even less guidelines here now. Maybe they want to perform the spell in their sacred space. Maybe they want to cleanse before performing it. Maybe they want to sprinkle some herbs on the candle, or steep some herbs in hot water and use a brush to write on the paper. Whatever they do is theirs to decide.

Why: EXPERIMENTATION. Really, how often do any of us see a cool spell and then perform it EXACTLY AS WRITTEN? I don’t know about you, but I always always always have to modify it somehow, whether it’s to fit what I have, fit my paradigm, or just because personalization is important in my craft. Redoing the spell with a little bit of tweaking means the Dabbler gets to close off the week with a little more of that Witches Casting Spells stuff that they probably expected, but with a chance to see how they can change it now, how they can make it more suited to them, or how they think it might work better. Maybe it will work better. Maybe it will be worse. Either way is a result.

Conclusion - or the TL;DR

Guidelines at the beginning of the week, transitioning to more creative freedom by the end of the week. Heavy encouragement of using what’s freely on hand and easily accessible, rather than buying specialty materials that may or may not be helpful or ever used again (not to mention could be hella expensive). Some spells, because let’s be honest, some people just really really want the spellz. And mundane research, because it’s too often neglected even among the veteran witches.

#long post #dabbler's week #asksecularwitch

[occasionaltouhou]

be the cryptid you want to see in the world

Usami Sumireko was in a good mood, and why shouldn’t she be? After several weeks of her dreams suddenly vanishing, she’d finally been able to return to Gensokyo the previous day. Plus, apparently she’d gotten some good attention online with some photos she didn’t remember taking.

As part of a celebration for her return to Gensokyo, she’d gathered a box of sweets and the like together, and she planned to have a picnic with Reimu and company during her first lecture of the day.

It was only as she began nodding off at the start of the lecture that it occurred to her, in the most idle of thoughts, the box she held in her arms was about to disappear. Even then, the most significant outcome her mind came up with was that she’d make up with her head on her textbooks.

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TranquilShadows posted at 4:38pm, Tuesday 14 August 2018

So you guys remember the girl in my Human Curiosity class? I mentioned her as #14 in my blog post about weird phenomena at university a few months back. She goes around wearing a hat and a cool cape and spends half her lectures asleep.

But today she brought in this cake box and fell asleep on it, but when she did, the box vanished!! And don’t tell me I was just seeing things. She put her head on it, put her arms around it really deliberately, and the box faded away and her head landed on the table! Then, she just woke up at the end of the lecture as if nothing had happened!! I don’t know if anyone else saw it, but I’m definitely not seeing things.

I’m going to keep an eye out for more stuff like that. I wouldn’t have noticed if it wasn’t so huge, but maybe she’s been doing that with other things? If so, where are they going? Is she a sleep wizard? I’ll find out! Will keep you all posted!!!

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When she’d first started at the university, Sumireko had tended to take her “lunch” in the library -- which is to say, she’d fall asleep and bring it with her to Gensokyo whilst hidden away in a corner underneath the stairs. After her investigations earlier that year, though, she’d switched to a small corner of one of the staff floors, almost completely out of sight thanks to a quirk of the architecture. As a result, she was able to sleep almost uninterrupted until her alarm in Gensokyo reminded her that she needed to wake up again.

As an unintended side-effect, it was almost impossible to work out where she actually went on her lunches without very obviously following her. That meant that the experimentation with her abilities would have to occur during class -- and more than that, that she would need to be sitting next to the mysterious girl in order to do those experiments.

Her name was Sagami Maki. Compared to Sumireko, she was an amateur, but like many of those who had enrolled into that particular university, she had an interest in the occult. She was a popular -- that is to say, a regular -- poster on a minor occult forum, where she would talk about visiting mysterious places on her weekends or holidays.

And now that she had a legitimate phenomenon before her, she couldn’t help but succumb to the natural human desire to investigate.

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Sumireko was in Gensokyo, talking with Reimu and Marisa outside the Hakurei Shrine, when a small red ball suddenly appeared in her hand.

The three of them stared at it. Sumireko carefully dropped it on the ground, and it bounced gently, before rolling off into the untrimmed weeds on the side of the stone path. The three of them watched it go.

“How’d that happen?” asked Marisa.

Sumireko thought for a moment. “Maybe someone put it in my hand…? I didn’t realise I could still bring stuff over whilst I was already asleep, though.”

“Who’d be putting stuff into your hand, though?”

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TranquilShadows posted at 5:22pm, Wednesday 22 August 2018; edited at 8:46am, Thursday 23 August 2018

Operation successful!!! I put a ball in her hand, and it vanished! I even got a recording of it! She’s definitely a psychic! A genuine somnopath! I’m gonna confront her next time I see her!

EDIT: So a lot of you are saying you’re having trouble with the video?? It’s working fine for me, but just in case I’ve uploaded it here and here as well. Hopefully one of those will work! I promise it’s not just special effects, too!!

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“Hey, I’m not sure how exactly to ask you this, but did you put a bouncy ball into my hand yesterday?”

“Uh--”

She’d been beaten to it! She’d intended to confront Sumireko with the evidence, but before they even got to the tutorial class, the girl herself had confronted her!

There was only one thing for it, then. She’d lost the initiative, but she could still go on the offensive and retake control of the situation!

“I-- Well, maybe I did, but it disappeared when I put it into your hand! Explain that!”

“Huh? It did that because of my ESP.”

Eh--?

“EH?! You’re admitting it!”

“Of course I’m admitting it, but that’s no reason for you to be putting weird stuff into my hands.”

--Sumireko had made a miscalculation. Whilst she was in high school, she had managed to repel people who wanted her attention through intentionally behaving strangely. But she wasn’t in high school anymore, and this was a place that already attracted people interested in the unusual.

“You’re really, truly a psychic?”

The note of awe in the girl’s voice surprised Sumireko, who hesitated. Then, she levitated a nearby chair.

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TranquilShadows posted at 11:24am, Thursday 23 August 2018

Guys, you’re not gonna fucking believe this.

#touhou #sumireko usami #my ocs #maki sagami #(who i may or may not use again. we'll see) #occasional prompts #occasional fics #i don't remember a dang thing about high school so i'm doing my university setting #tho if ulil was 2015 she'd be in uni by 2018 anyway so the math adds up #touhous are only permitted to age when it is convenient to me.

[scullysexual]

Jewel Sequel: Chapter Two.

There’s been a change of plan. I was originally gonna get this out on the weekend (so it had a similar system to what Jewel had) but then I finished it and edited it today so the post day will either be late Wednesday/early Thursday and hopefully I’ll be able to stick to that schedule. Hi, hello, if you’re new to this. This can arguably be classed as a ‘Titanic au’ still cause it exists within that universe. This is a sequel to that and it is highly recommended to read A Jewel Beneath The Moonlight first, it’s not long, it’s thirteen chapters and if you’ve read my stuff before you’ll know my chapters/one shots are never long. You won’t regret reading it either. It’s been a while since I’ve been in this universe but most wanted me to continue with it so here you go. I do really hope you enjoy this as much as you did Jewel. If you have any questions, feel free to ask them :)

Tagging: @baronessblixen @suitablyaggrieved @purrykat @today-in-fic. As usual, let me know if you want to be tagged in future chapters. 

Link to Chapter One.

Scully sighs in frustration as she turns the pages of the newspaper. It was the third one she had picked up so far and nothing; nobody advertising for any job, nobody looking for extra help.

She places the newspaper back on the rack, her hand hovering over the next before…

“We’re not a library. If you’re going to look through it, you better pay for it.”

Scully looks up to see an old man peering down at her from his stall.

Reluctantly, she leaves the fourth paper where it is and saunters over to the counter.

“Yes?” the man asks, warily.

“I was wondering if there had any job requests,” Scully answers, her elbows coming up to lean on the counter.

The man eyes her cautiously. “What kind of job?”

“Nanny, housekeeper, that sort of thing,” she shrugs.

With one last careful glance towards her, Scully watches with apprehension as he pulls a piece of paper off the wall and hands it to her.

“The Burkes came in a few weeks ago saying they were looking for a new housekeeper. They never came back to tell me they found someone so you can always check there.”

Scully looks at the yellowing paper. The address was not of a place she had heard of but it sounded upper class enough for them to have money so it was good enough for her.

“Thank you,” Scully says, exiting the shop. Too busy still reading the paper, she misses the sign If you read, you buy the man tapes onto the newspaper rack.

   Three knocks and she’s stepping back, praying that her appearance is presentable enough for this family to consider her.

Physical appearance had been everything with the other family; hair up, clothes tucked in, and not a single curl out of place. Scully’s curls always fell out of place, regardless.

She hears barking from the other side of the door and smiles. They have a dog.

Out the way, Bruce, she also hears before the door is opening and a boy no older than herself stands before her.

“Uh…can I help you?” the boy asks.

Smiling (just as she had been taught) Scully begins,

“Hi, uh…there was a housekeeper request made and I was wondering if it was still open?” She extends the note towards the boy and he looks down at it, looking as if he’s unsure as to what it is or what to do with it for a second before he’s taking it from her.

“Uh, yeah…just, hold on a minute.”

Scully nods, still smiling, as the door is placed on the latch and waits for him to return.

To say she was disappointed to being back in this position again perhaps wasn’t right. She knew even four months ago that there would have to be an adjustment period, and while her future turned out differently than she imagined before stepping onto the ship, career-wise, it wasn’t entirely off target.

The four months she had been here was really about allowing Mulder to settle. She knows how much of a drastic change this is for him, how important it was for her to be there when he came home every evening- she was his only familiarity anymore, after all- but Scully couldn’t shake away the feeling that maybe she had pushed her dreams too far back, all just to accommodate Mulder.

Had she still been here with Charlie, they would have found the swing of things fairly early on; him at some construction site, her in some upper-class house. And she wouldn’t have to try and get the weekend off.

Charlie…

It still stung to think of her brother.

The door reopens to an older woman, late 30s Scully assumes, holding the note Scully gave to the boy.

The woman looks her up and down. “You’re the help?” she asks, distastefully.

“Aye, ma’am,” Scully nods.

The woman sighs defeatedly. “I suppose you’re better than nothing.” She opens the door the little wider to allow Scully entrance. “Well, come on, then.”

Scully enters and immediately the dog bounding towards her, curious as to who this intruder is. She laughs as the gold Labrador slobbers all over her skirt, not minding at all as she pets the top of his head.

“Edward!” Mrs Burke shouts towards the rooms leading off. The boy who answered the door exits out of the nearest doorway. “Take the dog somewhere else.”

Edward moves towards the dog, gripping it by the collar and tugging it away from Scully. “Sorry,” he says sheepishly.

“You won’t need to worry about the dog,” Mrs Burke says, shutting the front door. “That’s Edward’s job. What did you say your name was?”

“Ingrid Brevik,” Scully answered.

The woman smiles slightly, a smile that tells Scully the woman knows she’s lying.

“You’re real name.”

Scully hesitates for a moment. They had been using their fake names since they got here, every new person they met they introduced themselves as Leif and Ingrid and nothing was said on the matter. Even when they had got to Ellis Island, they had been allowed to pass through immigration fairly easily.

“If will remain within this household if you’re scared,” Mrs Burke reassures.

And maybe Scully was scared. What if they knew the Mulders had been her first thought, was always her thought when meeting anybody. Scully knew first-hand what vultures these people were.

But what if not all of them were? Mulder certainly wasn’t.

“Dana Scully,” Scully finally answers.

Mrs Burke nods, “That sounds more like it. Come on, I’ll show you around.”

Scully gets a tour of the house. It’s easy enough to navigate, give her two days and she’ll be able to walk around with her eyes closed.

She’s finally led to where she’ll be staying. A room in the basement. Minimum furniture; a single bed, a set of drawers yet the added bonus is the small bathroom attached. The last house hadn’t had a bathroom and Scully had been forced to use the one they had outside.

“You’ll work from six to nine every day. Dinner is usually served at seven. Any meals you have are to be had after we’ve eaten. Yes?”

Scully nods.

“Any questions?”

Scully fumbles with her fingers, unsure of how to proceed.

“Um…I have one request, actually.” The woman looks at her, waiting. “Can I have Saturday to Sunday off?”

  An agreement was made. Monday to Friday she would work, for half the wage.

Scully hadn’t tried to bargain with Mrs Burke. She hadn’t been too impressed with Scully’s request but had granted it anyway once Scully explained Mulder. She may not have been truthfully honest, Mulder was far from inept and she had no doubt he could take care of himself if it really came down to it but needs must.

Now she had the task of actually telling Mulder, something she had been dreading since this idea first came to mind. Five days a week Mulder would have to learn to live without her which meant he had a few new skills to learn.

Scully braces herself at the sound of the door unlocking. It opens to reveal Mulder, worn out and dropping his sketchbook onto the floor. He looks over to her, smiling tiredly, taking off his shoes.

“Long day?” she asks.

Mulder smiles in agreement, placing the money jar on the table. Scully’s eyes fall to it and widen when she realises what sits inside.

A dark green dollar bill.

She brings the jar towards her, twisting off the cap.

Mulder is full smiles now, pulling out the opposite chair and sitting down.

“Took a bit of convincing, but I managed to con them into giving that over.”

She looks up at him disapprovingly. “Mulder! We agreed you weren’t gonna use any deceitful tactics.”

“Look, I only did it the once, and look what it got us,” he points to the bill she holds in her hand. “I promise I won’t do it often.”

Scully sighs, placing the note back into the jar and pushing it out of the way. “You won’t have to. I got a job.”

Mulder stares at her in surprise. “Really? Where?”

She slides the note she got from the newspaper stall over to him.

“It’s just a housekeeper. I work Monday to Friday but I get to be home for the weekend.” She smiles, hoping it’ll lift his spirits.

Mulder stares glumly at the note. “You won’t be here for five days.”

She reaches her hand out, grasping his. “But I get to be home every weekend, that’s something right?”

Mulder shrugs, his fingers playing with hers. “When do you start?”

Scully looks down at their entwined hands. “Monday.”

“Monday?” Mulder exclaims. “But what’s in two days.”

“Well, it’s better than starting tomorrow, isn’t it?”

Mulder looks glumly down at their hands. “I guess,” he mumbles. “Scully, how am I meant to survive five days without you here?”

Scully smiles, “I’ll teach you how to cook. That should keep you alive.” Another thought passes through her mind then, one she hadn’t thought about before this moment.

“Mulder, will you be okay at night? You know, with the nightmares and that?”

She watches him think for a moment, a flash of panic crossing his face. Often their nightmares consisted of something happening to the other, or just a memory of what happened that night, and when they would wake up, the other’s presence would soothe them, allow them to go back to sleep knowing the other was safe and alive next to them. With them both being separated, there was a worry that that safety, that comfort wouldn’t be there anymore.

“I’ll be fine,” he says, trying to sound like he was convincing them both. “What about you? I know you have them, too.”

Scully tried to be less vocal about hers. Sometimes, Mulder’s dreams would have her waking up- usually because Mulder’s woke her up- sometimes it was the only way he could really go back to sleep if he knew she was really alive. Scully would just cuddle closer to Mulder, listen to his breathing and fall asleep that way.

She grasps his hand tighter. “I’ll be okay. I promise.”

It was going to be strange, being away from each other for so long. They had been in each other’s company since the day they met. They have never gone a day since that day without seeing each other at some point during the same day. Scully just prayed Mulder would be able to manage without her.

#txf #titanic au #jewel sequel #i write

[haile-marie]

i know i don’t post updates anymore and im weaning off this website but i gotta post this somewhere

we got a lot of TWs under the cut:

The past few months have been hell trying to find a place to move out while not being able to work. I don’t have an income anymore and while I have money from my first settlement (part two coming soon hopefully), management companies don’t give two shits about how much money people got (im not mad i get it someone could literally spend all of that money in one night lmao) so like i CAN move, but they are looking for steady income but im needing a new job bc i cant go back to my other job for a lot of reasons, but yes i am almost lifted from my surgery restrictions (i could work technically, but i can’t with kids so) But uh, my dad is getting...worse. and im not really safe right now. physically I am... I think... my dad hasn’t tried anything and I don’t think HE physically can cause he’s in so much pain and he can’t do much anyway but whatever i feel cornered and so obviously its affecting my ability to do literally everything but especially schoolwork and so i’ve been having major panic attacks and i’ve been thinking about putting a minor pause on school for a semester or two just so i can find a job and move and then go back to school. 

Wednesday comes around I see my therapist and she tries to be the voice of reason and says that school is a positive outlet for me (she’s right....) but I knew she was gonna say meet with your advisor so I made an appointment with my NEW (I changed majors-so new) advisor. Thursday comes along, but the scheduling got messed up so we didn’t have a lot of time to talk. Basically, I had to meet with a random person from my school and tell her “hi, nice to meet you, i’m being abuse at home, i don’t know about school, uh....” so, obviously, we made an appointment for next Thursday to talk more and yes we made sure it was correct. 

All of that has been SO so SO tough because I don’t talk about my abuse to anyone in my life besides my therapist and my CLOSE close friends. I posted that gofundme so now some of my distant friends and old work friends know which is fine, but now school administration knows, and I’m going to have to tell one of my doctors (more on that in a second), and its just happening so fast I can’t keep up and it’s giving me a migraine.

Besides all of that above, I’ve been sick (if you’re in the field, it shouldn’t be a surprise that they’re connected though), but, turns out, my asthma came back, but not really since it’s always been there apparently. I was diagnosed with asthma as a kid, but the doctor I had as a kid said “it went away”... nope.

I have intermittent asthma and this situations is just a flare up. Since my initial diagnosis as a kid, I’ve had asthma. And now, because I haven’t been taking care of this flare up, I have pneumonia (we caught it SUPER early thank god). I am extremely happy that we caught my asthma problem. My doctor and I have concluded that it’s always been with me and I “never grew out of it” because I’ve always struggled with “”being out of shape”” when in actuality I probably wasn’t. Up until three years ago, I never struggled with my weight, and while I didn’t work out, I was active, but I still had problems with my lungs/chest and always put it off as being out of shape and deep down I was EXTREMELY ashamed. After awhile it got worse, my depression got worse, I got into my car accident, and so on. Here I am today, on my birthday, learning that for the past ~15 years that my asthma never went away. That for the past 15 years I was, after all, “”in shape”” and I was feeding myself lies and it eventually became a self-fulling prophecy and I became out of shape and now I’m going to have to work harder to get back to my life AGAIN.

but yeah speaking of “”being out of shape”” and all that shit, i’m “”officially” insulin resistant, thanks to stress/mental illness, genetics trauma, trauma recovery, trauma processing, and still living with my abusive parent(s). I’m at a low level, so diet will help turn it around. I haven’t met with my weight loss doctor yet, so i’ll probably post something next week when I have more information.  

I know it sounds bleak, and I’m mad (mainly at my parents), but ALL of this is the turn around I needed. Everyone has been incredibly helpful and understanding. January sucked ass, but this month is going to be the official first month of my turn around and the beginning of the new and better me. 

Hello, if you’ve read all of this, thank you very, very much. Have a picture of Paige as gratitude.

#this was a whirlwind #if youve read the whole thing i owe you...something #haile talks

[lovehugsandcandy]

MASTERLIST

ROD

Colt x MC

It’s Only A Game

It’s Only A Game (Part 1) -  Colt beats Ellie in a game of pool but really, everyone loses.

It’s Only A Game (Part 2) -  No one can sleep, Colt and Ellie talk, and Toby is bae.

It’s Only A Game (Part 3) -   The crew has a job to do and Colt wants to make sure that Ellie is prepared, with no ulterior motives at all.

It’s Only A Game (Part 4)-  The crew needs three rare cars to pacify The Brotherhood so Ellie and Logan go undercover.

It’s Only A Game (Part 5/Interlude) - (N*FW) Ellie spends the night in Colt’s bed. For real this time.

It’s Only A Game (Part 6)- Everything falls apart.

It’s Only A Game (Part 7)-  Colt has a plan to hit the Brotherhood, but at what cost?

It’s Only A Game (Part 8/Epilogue) -  “I still love you though. I still love you though. I still love you always….Keep the evenings long, let’s not crack and break and part ways.” -An Evening I Will Not Forget/ Furthest Thing, Dermot Kennedy

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Eight Days a Week, Eight Seconds a Kiss

Ellie wants to live her life to the fullest, starting with her first kiss. She just needs a little encouragement.

Saturday: I Bet You Dream of What You Could Do

Sunday: That’s No Way to be Living, Kid

Monday:  I Was Young and I was Selfish

Tuesday:  Time To Show Your Worth, Child

Wednesday: Somewhere Between I Want It and I Got It

Thursday: Give Me Love, I Put My Heart In It

Friday: Girl, Don’t Treat Me Like a Stranger

Saturday: I Hate That You Don’t Think I Belong To You

Three Months Later: When Love Was Found

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Who Killed Jason Shaw? -  When Jason Shaw dies under suspicious circumstances, it’s up to Ellie to find the killer before her dad does.  

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One-Shots

Follow Me Down -  Ellie confronts Colt about his fight with Logan.

Hold Me Like a Grudge - 5 times Ellie couldn’t kiss Colt and 1 time she couldn’t not.

To Be Safe -  Set after the vault ending of Chapter 12, Ellie’s dad brings her home.

Never Take Us Alive -  When Ellie sees the crew being arrested, she knew she needed to act.

This is for real- (Drabble) Always isn’t as long as Colt wanted.

Four Words, One Reply-  Ellie graduates from Langston.

Worth It-  Ellie is hurt taking down The Brotherhood and Logan and Colt have very different ways of dealing.

Independence Day- Ellie and Colt are free from the horrors of the past, but what of the future?

Junk and Ash-  Colt returns to the garage one last time.

Terror Don’t Prey On Innocent Victims-  Colt can’t deal after seeing Ellie crash (post-chapter 15).

You’re My Favorite Kinda Night- (N*FW) Prompt: Less talking, more fucking.

Hit Like You Love: Fast, Hard, and with Maximum Scarring-  Ellie’s first year at Langston, punctuated by the inevitable breakdown.

I Want This Shit Forever-  Drabbles of Ellie and Colt and baby, thrown together with no semblance of plot, but hopefully a semblance of love.

Criminal Activity-  (N*FW) Ellie’s a girl who knows what she wants and Colt’s just along for the ride.

My Heart Calls Your Name-  Ellie keeps thinking it’s Colt on the phone and it never is, until it is.

Nobody Knows Your Body Like Me- (N*FW) Colt finally makes it to Langston, to see the girl he knows better than anyone.

kiss me heavy heavy (’cuz you know we ain’t done yet)-  Ellie and Colt’s family breaks apart; Ellie and Colt’s family comes together.

Bad Girl Go Good-  (N*FW)  Ellie knows she shouldn’t try to make Colt jealous. She knows this. She just…does it anyways.

Take Me Back To Places I Feel Loved In-  (N*FW) 5 times Ellie wasn’t alone for the night; 1 time Ellie wasn’t alone anymore.

First Snow-  Ellie has always wanted to see the snow. She just didn’t know she had to live through so much snark to get there.

Jingle Bells- (N*FW) Colt and Ellie have a mild disagreement on what constitutes a Christmas present.

In Sickness- (N*FW) When Ellie is sick, Colt tries to help (tries being the operative word here).

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Multi-Shots

I Still Been Plotting on the Low - (Drabble)  Colt and Kaneko disagree on the plan to take out The Brotherhood.

I Still Been Mobbing on the Low-   It’s prom but Ellie needs to come clean about how The Brotherhood was able to spoil Colt’s plan.

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Until Next Time- (N*FW)  Colt with tattoos is really freaking hot.

Until This Time- (N*FW)  Colt said he would find her.

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Love in B&W-  Colt has to sort through his dad’s stuff and finds something unexpected.

Love in Color, Full Bright- (N*FW) Colt has to go back to the safe deposit box. (and an Untitled Part 3.)

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Fire on the Floor- (N*FW) Spin on the chapter 2 sideshow where Ellie dances with Logan and makes eyes at Colt.

Fire in the Bed- (N*FW)  Ellie has been waiting for Colt to get his hands on her.

Fire in the Car-  (N*FW)  Colt finally gets his hands on Ellie.

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Sea Salt Garnish - My entry into the Margarita Challenge.

Sea Salt Garnish (Part 2) - Margarita Challenge Part 2.  Ellie doesn’t really like salt.    

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A Queen Protects Her King- (N*FW)  A mission goes awry and, as always, Colt is damn lucky Ellie’s there to save the day.

A Queen Stands By Her King-  After the nightclub job, Logan confronts Ellie, Colt needs to drop the car (but gets distracted), and Ellie needs to finish her calculus homework for crying out loud.

A King Adores His Queen- (N*FW)- Colt comes back from a job and finds a surprise in his bed. (Spoiler alert: It’s Ellie.)

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Carcanet-  (N*FW)  Colt despises when Ellie wears that necklace.

Riviere -  (N*FW) If two necklaces are good, three are better.

All the Jewels in the World- (N*FW)  Colt doesn’t just hate that necklace, he hates everything. Even Ellie. Especially Ellie. …maybe not Ellie.

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Drabbles- 1 (N*FW), 2 (N*FW) , 3, 4,  Grey Sweatpants Season, 5 (slight n*fw), Know Your Strengths, Thankful, WWCD

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Logan x MC

The Archduke, The Virgin, and the Speed Racer- (N*FW)  Ellie had never been so glad she was a diligent student (because being smart can get you laid, who knew?).

The Best Presents are the Ones You Give Yourself-  “I’ll come for you if you just stay where you are.” - “Outnumbered, Dermot Kennedy

Drabbles- 1

Gen

Dusk after Dusk - (Drabble) Colt after the death of his father.

The Times I Tried to love You- Kaneko knows that love is a verb, not a noun.

OH

Rafael x MC

Perfect Day-  Casey and Rafael do not sell seashells by the sea shore. They do a lot of other things though.

#choices fanfiction

[jaegermau]

Week 1 of Prototyping: My Thoughts.

As this first week was quite hectic, on top of dealing with all the legal work that (as a non-EU citizen living here) I’m expected to complete, just this week is going to be one post. In the future I’ll have more consistent writings. Anyway without further ado let’s get into the week.

Monday, day 1: I must say, I hated JavaScript passionately, so going into the intro I was on the edge of my seat to see what was hopefully NOT in store. I was pleasantly surprised to see that JavaScript would not be the main focus of the course and I my mind was at ease for the most part. I’m quite excited for this course actually.

Tuesday, day 2: As a professional artist and illustrator I quite enjoyed Tuesday, it was nice to see people fresh to drawing learning good technique. I think drawing a portrait upside down is a great way to train people how to see objectively, as an artist, as opposed to drawing what they *think* is there; it’s a great way for people to avoid drawing iconographically. 

Wednesday, day 3: The workshop was a lot of fun. I’ve always loved the entire process of bringing a concept to reality. The facilities were quite awe-inspiring, the room adorned with hundreds of beautiful machines and tools. I can only imagine  and await what lies ahead in working there, and what challenges will be faced and ideas hashed out.

Thursday, day 4: I didn’t have my Arduino kit, since they forgot to send my tracking info and I got it a day after. However, I did try my best to learn it by working with my buddy Anton. We both struggled quite a bit with it and felt discouraged with how quickly all our classmates achieved the outcome of the exercises. I think it was fun anyway, but I hope I’m able to learn it, and not struggle too much.

Friday, day 5: I finally got the relief I needed concerning JavaScript, we learned about p5 and I was happy to see it was much easier to build a program versus using normal old JavaScript, but even so I still hilariously couldn’t get anything to work, which was both infuriating and depressing, but I suppose it could’ve been much worse..

This concludes week 1, I overall enjoyed it, I’m concerned about the amount of time we must have invested in the program, as I’m busy as is with legal work, commissions, personal projects, and just the day-to-day in general, but nonetheless I think I’m really going to enjoy this course and I find it quite inspiring.

[prettywordsyouleft]

Weekly Schedule 28/1 - 3/2

I cannot believe it’s the end of January ALREADY! I’ve gotten a lot done this month, and looking forward to getting even more done in February.

This weekend I have injured my right hand and whilst I can still type, I am definitely not as efficient. If I find I cannot keep to the schedule some days for any reason, I’ll let you all know! But for now, I’m looking to be a couple of days ahead in the schedule and will hopefully remain that way! 

As I established a couple of weeks ago, I am currently posting new content every day at 10am NZST.

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Scheduled content:

Key: [O] - Original fiction/scenario [R] - Requested fiction/scenario, [DG] Drabble Game Request [S] - Original Series

Monday: The Morning After [DG] - Jaebum (GOT7)

Tuesday: Too Good To Be Wrong Part 3 [S] - Chanyeol (EXO)

Wednesday: Daehwi’s birthday fiction ** please read the fiction info for more about this**

Thursday: Beyond the Palace Walls Part 10 [S] - NCT

Friday: Requested content yet to be decided

Saturday:   Requested content yet to be decided

Sunday:  Requested content yet to be decided

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Last Week’s Digest:

To Love You [O] - Jinyoung (GOT7) *Destined sequel*

Too Good To Be Wrong - Part 2 [S] - Chanyeol (EXO)

Be Okay [O] - Kyungsoo (EXO)

Beyond the Palace Walls - Part 9 [S] - NCT

Out of Time [R] - Kun (NCT)

Sanctuary [O] - Moonbin (ASTRO)

Different Kisses with Himchan [R] - B.A.P

The Sex Contract: 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | 11 | 12 [S] - Changmin (TVXQ)

Chelle Chats’ Saturday Drabbles [DG] - various idols

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Requests Schedule & Fiction Info:

Daehwi’s birthday falls on Tuesday which is when I already have scheduled content. I unfortunately don’t have time to write an extra fiction this week so decided to put it up the following day. I will have reblogs of his fictions I’ve already written on his actual birthday scheduled though! Thanks to the Wannables/Daehwi fans for your understanding! I promised I would write a birthday piece for every W1 member at least once!!

Requests I hope to get done this week: Boyfriend Taehyung, Different Kisses with Bae Jinyoung and maybe Different Kisses with Ren as well. Otherwise one of those slots will be another drabble request! I’m hopeful I can get all three done because then I will only have TWO requests from the first batch left! Ahh, I’m so excited!!  Once requests are done, I’ll be steadily working through my drabble requests list!

Beyond the Palace Walls looks to have only one more part left so HOPEFULLY as long as it doesn’t bring any more surprises along the way, this series will end this week! Too Good To Be Wrong is well under way and I thank you for your support so far! And for those who requested it, my old Changmin fiction The Sex Contract is still currently being shared every day at 2pm. It’s pretty old but I’m glad those who are reading it are enjoying it!

For those who are following along with my saga with Jinyoung / GOT7, I have all the endless ideas for them all safely written down and over February will be trying to get some done! Please note, as much as I love GOT7 (they’re one of my ult groups after all), my blog is multi-fandom and I will try to keep the GOT7 content limited to 1-2 a week so not to keep other ideas and content of different idols waiting! 

For future requests: I will be accepting a small amount at the end of every month starting February. I’m not sure on the number yet, but I know there will only be 2-4 slots each month for scenarios as I prefer to write fictions. I know a lot of you love Different Kisses and the other scenario based series I have on my blog, and even though I do act like I don’t enjoy them anymore, I really do love them too! But I definitely need to be able to explore more options and fiction ideas so scenarios will be limited in a way that makes it still enjoyable for us all!

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Chelle Chats:

Thanks to everyone who stopped by this weekend to participate in Chelle Chats. I really had a LOT of fun writing drabbles and answering your asks! It will be back on this Saturday NZST so those who missed out, come and join in then!

You can find the drabbles I wrote that day up in the digest list.

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Other information:

Youxidol Drabble Game List I am accepting requests for is HERE

The completed list of drabbles on this game are HERE

My WIPs Livestream can be found HERE

[Main Masterlist] | [Request Guidelines]

#pwyl; weekly schedule

[aj-draws]

300 FOLLOWERS!

🎈🎈🎉🎉🎊 I CAN’T BELIEVE IT HAPPENED AHHH I’M SO HAPPY!!! 🎈🎈🎉🎉🎊

So. A 300 follower milestone deserves some kind of big surprise, right? Well, you are very correct.

Starting tomorrow, my blog will officially undergo the ‘Squad Takeover’!

What in the world does that mean?? Basically, for five days I have chosen to let the Heart Squad take over/run my blog (each person getting one full day to do so). 

Here’s what the schedule is gonna look like: 

Monday: Sienna ( @danyulsdimple )

Tuesday: Izzy ( @izzyfandoms )

Wednesday: Lea ( @bubblseri )

Thursday: Piper ( @phlying-squirrel ) 

Friday: Sly/Gillian ( @sly-is-my-name-loving-is-my-game )

Am I terrified? Yes. Am I kinda crazy for doing this? Definitely. Will this be entertaining? Dang, I hope 😂😂 

To my followers, I just want to say a quick thank you. There’s no other fandom I’ve ever been in that has given me as many opportunities as this one-whether it’s personally befriending people online, or being able to post my art and writing in such a kind, accepting community. All you gotta do is sit back, relax and enjoy the show!

To the Heart Squad, haVE MERCY ON MY POOR BLOG 🤣👏👏🙌🙌 This is actually happening and I m s h o o k but I trust you guys which is most likely a mistake I’ve just gotta hope you won’t do anything too crazy. (Btw I’m gonna change my password daily and tell each of you in the Slack chat once it’s your day) 

I’m really sorry if it makes me seem overprotective but here’s a few rules n stuff (which hopefully aren’t too hard to follow?):

1. Please don’t look through any of my PMs (or send any messages)

2. Please don’t reblog/post anything NSFW related on my blog (cursing is fine tho)

3. You can send asks/submit stuff to people, just no private messages 

4. Please don’t go through/change anything in my drafts or any scheduled/queued posts (I schedule a lot of my art in advance so pls don’t edit/delete anything there)

5. Don’t go beyond the post limit (looking at u Sly haha I don’t want to torture my followers that much)

6. Don’t post on any of my side blogs, only on my main

7. If anyone messages me, please don’t answer them. (I’m too lazy to tell all of my friends that I won’t be able to message them, so they might like ask me about hw or something so just don’t respond.)

8. You are allowed to change everything on my blog, except the colors (if u change it I probably can’t find the right shade afterward pfft) and the description. That includes the header, icon and title. (I’ll just change it back when this is all over)

9. Try to remember to tag anything you post on your assigned day as #squad takeover. This includes both posts and reblogs (If you forget once or twice, that’s totally fine, I’m going to be editing the tags on all the posts when this is all over anyway.)

10. Honestly, other than the obvious ‘don’t be mean to ppl’ lol u can do whatever you want. Wanna write a short and purposely rlly crappy fic and post it? Go right on ahead. Feel like submitting a weird meme to someone without any context? Man, why not?? Want to mimic me, draw a stick figure and post it? I’d literally burst out laughing, so heck yeah!! Just remember to have some fun, you guys <3

Hope this won’t be too much of a train wreck lmao 😂😂 Welp, I’ll see you guys in five days, just in time for October’s Movie Night!! Love ya 💜💜💜

#squad takeover

[gdwessel]

NJPW Strong Episode 26 - 2/12/2021; Castle Attack Tour Lineups Announced: Title & Feature Matches, New Young Lion Debuts; Review of NJPW World Pro Wrestling on Roku Channel; KENTA AEW Match On NJPWWorld, Other Notes

Last night was this week’s edition of NJPW Strong on NJPWWorld, continuing the Road to the New Beginning USA:

JR Kratos [Team Filthy] d. Jordan Clearwater (Fisherman’s Buster, 6:20)

Bateman [ROH] d. Clark Connors (This Is A Kill, 8:41)

Chris Dickinson & Danny Limelight [Team Filthy] d. TJP [FREE] & Ren Narita (Dickinson > TJP, STF, 15:04)

Can’t say I’m too broken up about Dickinson beating TJP. There appears to be a feud between Dickinson and Ren Narita brewing here. Between the first and second matches, Kevin Kelly interviewed KENTA, in response to Jon Moxley’s interview last week. KENTA declared he would save the title from “rotting” under Moxley. The last few weeks, now that Moxley is actively part of the feud, this has really heated up. A mere two weeks away from the title match. Next week’s episode is the start of the New Beginning USA series of episodes. 

The full slate of cards for the two Castle Attack shows on 2/27 and 2/28/2021 have now been announced, as well as for the Road to Castle Attack tour that starts tomorrow. I won’t be posting the full lineups here, but rather in an Upcoming NJPW Events post later on today. 

Already, there are two things working against the tour. First, the state of emergency in Tokyo, which later got expanded to Osaka as well as other prefectures, has been extended, with no sign of letting up, so the cards are going to be as limited as they were on the Road to New Beginning that just ended.

Second, the show next Sunday, 2/21/2021, is scheduled for the Toyota Crown Arena in Fukushima. Fukushima got hit with a 7.3 magnitude Earthquake at 11:08pm Saturday JST (so about 8:08am CST) with tremors also being felt in Iwate and Yamagata prefectures, where shows are also booked for this tour. There is a distinct possibility those shows may not happen now because of this. The good news is, there is currently no tsunami alert right now, so hopefully we don’t have a repeat of 2011. That being said, this blog/podcast extends our hopes and good thoughts that everyone will be alright in the end.

All this said, there is a full slate of title and special singles matches due to take place at the Castle Attack shows, and even one on the final Road to Castle Attack date. That one will be Los Dos Peligrosos, Hiromu Takahashi & BUSHI, challenging Taiji Ishimori & El Phantasmo for the IWGP Juniorheavyweight Tag Team belts on 2/25/2021 at Korakuen Hall. This will be a prelude match to Hiromu’s defense of the IWGP Juniorheavyweight title on 2/28/2021 v. ELP.

The biggest title match of the tour will be Kota Ibushi defending only the IWGP Intercontinental title v. Tetsuya Naito as the main event of 2/28, following Naito’s challenge on Thursday. In a press conference yesterday, Ibushi had this to say about Naito’s challenge:

Perhaps one reason (Naito challenged) is out of opposition to my idea of unifying these two titles. I want to say that I have a deep, deep connection to both of these titles. I have my own way of thinking, and when these two belts become one, then I can really achieve my dream, and bring professional wrestling to new heights.  

Also featuring on Night 2 will be Hiroshi Tanahashi’s first-ever defense of the NEVER Openweight title, he will face off against United Empire’s Great O-Khan for that title. And the challenge has been made official, as Guerrillas of Destiny will defend their IWGP Heavyweight Tag Team belts against the CHAOS tandem of Hirooki Goto & YOSHI-HASHI.

Night 1 will feature five singles matches, however the only “title” match on there will be a Provisional KOPW2021 match between current holder Toru Yano v. Chase Owens. Kazuchika Okada and EVIL finally get their grudge match, as does Jay White, looking to finally beat his current nemesis, Tomohiro Ishii. 

Another highlight of this tour is a debuting Young Lion, the first in two years! 24-year-old Yuto Nakashima will be in the opening matches on this tour starting tomorrow, although, the way they list him, I am not sure he will be on the NJPWWorld streams. More information:

24 year old Nakashima will see action in special opening matches through the Korakuen Hall events on the Road to Castle Attack, in singles bouts against established Young Lions Yuya Uemura, Gabriel Kidd and Yota Tsuji. These special matches will take place at the earlier time of 5:40 on each night. He will also be competing on non-televised live events through the tour.

Standing 180cm tall and trending at a potential heavyweight 95 kg, Nakashima has an athletic background in MMA, judo and jiujitsu, as well as water polo. Having spent a year in the Fale Dojo before it became the NJPW New Zealand Dojo, he entered the Noge Dojo in June of 2020.

Best of luck to Nakashima as he begins his NJPW career.

As I mentioned above, I’ll have the tour lineups in an Upcoming NJPW Events post later on today.

Last night, I was able to finally sit down and watch the debut episode of NJPW World Pro Wrestling on Roku Channel on-demand. They definitely did start with Wrestle Kingdom 14, as the match they chose to debut the show with was Jay White v. Tetsuya Naito for the IWGP Intercontinental title. They did not go with the “World Pro Wrestling RETURNS!” intro like the earlier episodes of NJPW on AXS (and honestly, I don’t even know if they do that anymore on TV Asahi), but rather, a recap of the storyline by Kevin Kelly, which, fair enough, for the supposed “new” viewers out there. The match commentary was lifted from the NJPWWorld English feed from the event, so Kelly, Chris Charlton, Rocky Romero and Gino Gambino on the call here. 

It’s a little befuddling to once again have NJPW on American (and Canadian, and UK) TV be behind once again, after the efforts of NJPW on AXS to be as close to current as possible, however, there could be a bit of desire to show how big NJPW was prior to the pandemic too, as Night 1 of WK14 was their biggest crowd in many years. There were also multiple commercial break spots, which did take me out of the match, but sadly, that’s par for the course with “free” streaming these days. 

In truth, this did seem to be lifted from a TV Asahi episode, as the final credits did show the TV Asahi logo. And they ended as they used to, with Naito’s post-match backstage interview. Strangely, despite this being a “weekly one-hour TV program,” the second episode was available, showing Kazuchika Okada v. Kota Ibushi for the IWGP Heavyweight title from that same show. I didn’t watch that one yet. 

Overall, it’s a decent presentation, but with Roku being the streaming powerhouse it is, I’m not altogether sure what the point of the program is, when they could just have NJPWWorld available on the platform (which it is not). Between that, and the weird Thursday 5pm (EST?) timeslot, I don’t feel like this is best serving the product, especially now being a year behind current times, something NJPWWorld can provide easily. I hope it’s a success, but at this point I don’t feel as if weekly TV is something NJPW needs.

A few other odd notes:

The match from Wednesday’s episode of AEW Dynamite featuring KENTA & Kenny Omega v. Jon Moxley & Lance Archer is now up on NJPWWorld, if you had not been able to see it when shown live on TNT.

Contrary to what I felt about it, Keiji Muto did indeed beat Go Shiozaki for the GHC Heavyweight title at Pro Wrestling NOAH’s Destination 2021: Back To Budokan show yesterday, a show which also unveiled yet another new logo for NOAH (at least with this the green was brought back). I still think this is a mistake, but also, the Muto/Muta fanboy in me is happy that he’s joined Kensuke Sasaki and Yoshihiro Takayama as holders of the IWGP, Triple Crown and GHC titles. Congratulations to my favorite wrester of all time achieving that milestone.

There is talk right now that if there is health department approval, venues in New York including Madison Square Garden could start allowing fans back in at 10% capacity as early as 2/23/2021. There hasn’t been much talk about Wrestle Dynasty of late, since the pandemic overtook the world and cancelled the event, however NJPW did say they hoped to hold it in 2021. If this goes through, don’t be surprised if NJPW starts pushing that again. I think allowing fans back anywhere in the USA is a massive mistake right now, but then, nobody asked me and they wouldn’t listen anyway. 

I think that’s it for this post. Upcoming shows post later.

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[iankarlo]

42 Days Before Christmas

It was a weird week for me. I really feel unproductive and I don’t feel like pushing too much this month. I really feel lazy and I don’t know what’s happening to me. I just feeling talking to Dade or to my officemates. 

Today is Friday and I thought I will be productive as much as possible. I was trying to be busy the whole day but I don’t really feel to work at all. I had a little interactions with Jehan today as we talked about few things at work. 

He was so silent today and I tried not to look at him that much and I focus on what I’m doing. We talked about the merch of Start Up series, I don’t why he suddenly up to that series too. I mean, I admit it was a good series to watch but I didn’t expect that he will come to the point of getting a merch too. He is even the one who told me to get one. I don’t know what’s with him but I find it funny really. 

Anyway, I was so busy or being fake busy at work and I just wanted to end the day as fast as it can be. I am trying my best to be okay. 

I had a chance to talk to my team mates about the music videos I am so enthusiastic. I feel like discussing things about the music video to them, my ideas, my skills. I really like doing those kind of things and I enjoyed discussing things with them. I really hope that one time soon, I’ll be able to work it off.

I shared a post about the Start Up merch, I didn’t expect his reaction. He is very excited to get one of the merch. I don’t know why he is like that. But, I am really surprised about it. He is even posting the posters or memes about it. I don’t know what’s on his mind but he seemed like enjoying the series too. 

I went out this afternoon to get a sweetened potato from my cousins. We went to a BBQ store earlier and got some. I went home late and I managed to order our shirt and it will be available either Wednesday or Thursday, hopefully. 

I am excited for the shirt. 

(CCTO @peachtie)

(CCTO @peachtie)

I just don’t know why he is acting that way lately. I don’t know what’s on his mind. But, lately, I often think of him. I  really don’t care a lot when is not around. Sometimes, I think of him but I prefer not to chase him anymore. I know he has more things to deal in his life. More people to meet and more flings to do. 

I know already my spot from him and I really take it as my stopping signal not to go further. 

Also, we are planning to go to beach on the last weekend of November. I haven’t asked him yet to come over with us but he already advised me last time that he can’t as he got plans. So, I just invited his best friend and maybe I can get some answers from him. I don’t know if I should really ask about it or if I should still.

I don’t know. Maybe it will just hurt me. 

Maybe not? I don’t know how long will this feeling stay with me. I hope it ends too soon. I hope we can both move on. I hope I could very soon. 

Good night.

Love Always,

Iyaaan

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