#i am absolutely exhausted

[bloobydabloob]

Rudimentary things for today. Queue applause from the fishing enthusiasts

#homestuck #homestuck fanart #dirk strider #hs fanart #blooby posting #Uninspired things happening today #my bad #I am absolutely exhausted #free me… #enjoy nonetheless #(hopefully)

[phoebepheebsphibs]

THAT was AMAZING

Thank yew

I has one more update to do...

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #until i found you #no fun in fungus #crossover #tutant meenage neetle teetles #writer on tumblr #tmnt fanfiction #fanfic writing #angsty fanfic #tumblr asks #i am absolutely exhausted

[cheekblush]

it's been A WEEK

#hello everyone yes i'm still alive but at what cost? 😭 #i am absolutely EXHAUSTED #survived 2 practical & one written exam this week but one of the practical exams went horribly 😭 #it was microscopy & i just suck at that i never see what you're supposed to be seeing 😭😭😭 #and you can't study for it either bc either you recognize what you see under the microscope or you don't & unfortunately i don't 😭😭😭 #we're even allowed to use books & our own sketches but i still got it wrong 🙃 #i was so busy this week i didn't even have time to reblog cute posts about march... school is getting in the way of me being a tumblrina 🙄 #and rn i'm supposed to be studying as well bc i have one of the most difficult exams in a few days but i have an excruciating migraine 🤕 #yesterday i didn't study either bc it was my dad's birthday & we celebrated a little with our family & now i feel guilty for it 😞 #i honestly have no idea when & how i'm supposed learn & remember ALL of this material bc it's simply an insane amount #please pray for me that i'll pass this exam idec about the grade anymore i just want to pass that's how desperate i am 😭😭😭😭 #let's hope the ibuprofen i took kicks in soon so i can get at least a little studying done today 😕 #i wish i could just hibernate through the next few weeks i am drained 😣 #☁️

[einstetic]

i don't know about you but to be honest i am not feeling too great

#i feel line there is a massive mass of grey clouds and fog in my brain #my ability to focus is nowhere to be found #i am absolutely exhausted #i have a hard time just doing the bare minimum to take care of myself #my apartment is a mess and usually i am very neat #i have started comparing myself to others and i just feel so behind #i feel like no one cares about me and that all my human relationships are just draining and one sided #its friday night and i am actually just sitting here in my pyjamas feeling left out & my thoughts are just going from one end to the other #i just want to have a hug that makes me feel like someone actually cares and a proper meal and some proper sleep #literally no one cares emma

[lunarlegend]

okay, i am finally home and in full re-charge mode for the next few days

i'm working from home tomorrow, and then i have two long weekends in a row (and a short work week next week)

i plan to make the absolute most of it

#i've been in like. negative spoons for the past 3 days lol #i am absolutely exhausted

[lenteur]

i am so tired

#to a point where i fear i won't be able to get up from #i am absolutely exhausted #i have no energy for anything #it's a miracle how i manage to get up every morning #negativity tw #sorry had to get this out of my chest #smal talk

[purple-dahlias]

you would not believe the day i’ve had

#i am absolutely exhausted

[inkskinned]

he says i hate everyone except you and that is addictive and that is kind of romantic and beautiful because you're young and you're kind of a sarcastic asshole too and you don't like bad boys, per say, but you don't really like good ones either. and you like that you were the exception, it felt like winning.

except life is not a romance book, and he was kind of being honest. he doesn't learn to be nice to your friends. he only tolerates your family. you have to beg him to come with you to birthday parties, he complains the whole time. you want to go on a date but - people are often there, wherever you're going. he's just so angry. about everything, is the thing. in the romance book, doesn't he eventually soften? can't you teach him, through your own sense of whimsy and comfort?

at first - you know introverts often need smaller friend groups, and honestly, you're fine staying at home too. you like the small, tidy life you occupy. you're not going to punish him for his personality type.

except: he really does hate everyone but you. which means he doesn't get along with his therapist. which means he has no one to talk to except for you. which means you take care of him constantly, since he otherwise has no one. which means you sometimes have to apologize for him. which means he keeps you home from seeing your friends because he hates them. you're the single exception.

about a decade from this experience, you'll type into google: how to know if a relationship is codependent.

he wraps an arm around you. i hate everyone except you. these days, you're learning what he's actually confessing is i have very little practice being kind.

#i used to think it was romantic too and then i was like. now i see it as a HUGE red flag #writeblr #it is also almost EXCLUSIVELY said by immature ppl who think this is normal #fyi even if u think it's funny and ur like 'im an introvert it's just TRUE' like. you need therapy (ily tho) #healed introversion is just ''i would prefer to be by myself'' not ''i hate every person'' ... hate is not normal. that is not healthy #im sorry. i know it feels accurate. but if you're walking around with that kind of rage.... #1. you're making a LOT of assumptions about every single person u have ever met. which is often unfair and unkind #and also usually involves judging people based on their worst moments or little mistakes #2. you are being unfair to the person who is ur ''exception'' #3. there is a VAST difference between ''ur my favorite person'' and ''the ONLY person i like.'' #idk i think this is just a personal bias thing tbh #im sure there are people who have this experience normally #but i have YET to find a man who thinks like this and ISNT absolute DOGSHIT. although tbh.... like. im sure he exists #when u hit like 30 some of the things that were once kind of hot now just sound fucking exhausting. like ''im in a band'' #edit in the tags: i used to kind of be like this too. but the thing is that like. my life became so much more peaceful #once i started believing that people are generally good. like yes i am mad at the world at large #but it's just.... a very hard way to live. you're not a bad person or wrong for the ways other people hurt you and taught you to be angry. #but that anger will continue to hurt YOU. it will punish YOU. it will prevent YOU from making new deep connections. it will protect you yes #but it will also cause MASSIVE blowback. bc if you lose the One Person... your life will fall apart. i know this personally. #i really recommend just trying to be... cautiously optimistic instead. like. yes #people can be horrible and cruel and there are some communities (incels for example) that aren't worth that optimism #but i think like... most people will hold a door for you . most people want to help you find your wallet . #i hope one day you are able to find peace. i hope that rage eventually smooths over. i know how hard it is PERSONALLY #and i know what must have happened to you. and im deeply deeply sorry we share the same wound. #but i promise - sometimes we all need someone else to help us carry the weight. eventually the rage has to die so that we can let help in #i had to spend years biting at outstretched hands. i still often do. im still very wary . and my heart breaks that you flinch too. #here's the thing: i don't blame you. but we were both acting out of fear and pain. .... not out of healthy behavior. and ... change #was needed. i needed change too. rage was useful for a while. then it just left me isolated and bitter. i had to (with effort) #choose to let that rage go. and let people in . VERY SLOWLY THO LOL

[yukipri]

Good morning.

A very kind follower let me know that my clones art has been stolen and reposted, again. This time on Tiktok.

So here's a new version of my art. It's called: "Apparently putting 'Do Not Repost' on the art 4 times + in my bios of every social + FAQ isn't enough, so how's this?!"

I'm feeling very defeated and exhausted.

I just finished filing a DMCA yesterday. This new art theft version already has more views than every like/note on all versions of my art on all of my socials COMBINED + multiplied. This art was only posted a few days ago. I'm beginning to deeply regret drawing it.

Art thieves getting views and likes does NOTHING for the community. Imagine of those likes/comments/followers had come to me, on any of my socials. Think of how excited I'd be to connect to new folks, how hyped I'd be to draw more.

(how maybe, just maybe, someone official might one day notice and it might lead to more😭)

I don't think I've hit 10K likes on ANY art I've ever posted on Twitter in 8 years, and certainly nowhere near that on Tumblr in a while. That's ok, I understand that's due to my own lack of skills, which is why i work hard daily to improve!

But ART THEFT DOESN'T HELP. This person did NOTHING but stress me out, make me regret sharing my work, and take away valuable time and mental energy from me producing more work. And I promise you, they will not be able to make my art for you.

Don't worry, I'm not just complaining about it. I've filed a DMCA (tho gosh TikTok's form is WEIRD, really hoping it worked🥲)

But please. If you see an art theft account, please don't give them views & likes. Someone else worked hard on that. They could really use your support.

Anyway, here's the link to my art on Tumblr. On my account. Since, y'know, I drew it.

#YukiPri rambles #art theft #idk i'm just so tired and sad and wondering why i worked so hard what's the dang point #yeah this is from my twitter thread bc i'm too exhausted to write it again this ate all my spoons and then some #yeah u may be wondering aren't u used to this why are you complaining #because this art literally went up days ago and i almost died marathon working on it for an entire goddamn week #because i still feel exhausted and then this fucko who did absolutely NOTHING is just like hehe look at how many views i'm getting! #and i am just. yeah. exhausted

[itwasabeautifulwebbing]

baldur’s gate 3 really is the game of all time for the gays who want to celebrate both sad pathetic wet men AND women’s wrongs

#baldur’s gate 3 #bg3 #astarion #minthara #minthara baenre #i am still thinking about that post i saw a couple of days ago #where OP was mad about men being categorized as babygirls and women as the only braincell havers #and OP was right that the latter girlboss-ification of women while subsequently never letting the narrative focus on them #(or having fandoms actually focus on them) #is depressing and exhausting #but that’s why!!! bg3 is so great imo!!! #the women characters in bg3 are absolutely the main appeal of this game!! #like yes astarion is extremely popular and with good reason #but he is not the only character with a delightfully feral and dedicated fan base happy to excuse all his wrongs because of his big sad eyes #/flourishes both hands @ minthara baenre will smith style #look at this sad war criminal and her big sad eyes and her arrogance and her insecurity #and her devastating sense of humour #she is hyperfixation material

[sunny12th]

dany was so broken in agot, physically and mentally. she was ready to kill herself to escape drogo. her childhood had been a long unfortunate series of running away from the alleged monsters that killed her family and left her exiled and desperately trying to appease her abusive brother/guardian.

but then, after she's resolved herself to suicide, she has a dream. and then, she starts to notice the beauty in the new world around her. how the dothraki grass sea swallowed her up, the new sights and sounds and smells all around. she found solace in the people, she ate with them, learned their language in a matter of months, enjoyed their food. felt freer in dothraki riding clothes than in the fine silks ilyrio had dressed her up in.

I'm still deeply touched everytime I read about dany giggling, joking around, moving forward, hugging her friends, leading, and fighting after enduring so much. it's not about her being right in everything she does or everything ending well for her. she went through hell, was already going through it before the series even started, and she kept going. she grows and fights and fucks and laughs and cries and rages. she falls and she gets right back up again.

dany is ready to end her own life. the next day, she notices how pretty the sky is. she learns a few more dothraki words everyday and starts to connect more with those around her. she tries some new foods and starts to feel more comfortable on her horse.

the dragon dream certainly did Something to dany - a scarlet and black dragon (drogon, balerion come again) baptizing her in flame. scouring her, tempering her, making her clean. after this, dany makes the quiet choice to live. there is no grand revelation, no "i want to live!" monologue. she simply starts to notice the beauty in the world she's traveling through, the loyalty and easy comradery in her companions, the tasty food and comfortable clothes. dothraki smells, horse smells. riding leather, painted vests, the gently singing bells braided through hair. dany chooses life everytime she giggles, everytime she tries a new food or convinces her friends to try one, everytime she stops to stare at a pretty sight.

she was ready to choose death and she chose life. when her entire world had narrowed to the scope of her pain, to the strength of her abusers, to the golden collar drogo had put around her neck - she still chose life. and just like that, her world expanded and she could see all that was worth living for.

#i dont see the fandom talk about this much. how dany was ready to kill herself and then chose life #in a story where choosing life - to live and fight is kinda the whole point #dany already did that! she already chose life #main character of all time. protag of all time #and then she just keeps choosing life. only this time it's not just for herself #her life is not just her own anymore. she chooses life for her people too #idk i just. love to see characters go thru absolute hell and then choose life anyways #mine #this is probably v badly written but i am exhausted and emotional #daenerys targaryen #asoiaf #valyrianscrolls #suicide mention

[pinkhairswagtourney]

and the winner of the pink hair swag tourney part three , with 3,049 votes , is ...

MUKU SAKISAKA AND SATSUKI MOMOI AKA TEAM FRIENDSHIP !!!!!

thank you sososo much to everyone who participated in this pink hair swag tourney !!! i've had a blast hosting these tournaments , it's genuinely so much fun to see everyone root for their favorite characters . thank you for this amazing experience !!

the pink hair cringefail tourney will be out soon ! make sure to check the blog for updates !!! ♡

#muku sakisaka #a3! #a3! act addict actors #act! addict! actors! #satsuki momoi #kuroko no basket #kuroko's basketball #knb #pink hair swag tourney #team friendship #mod post #sorry if the art looks bad or if there's any spelling errors i am . absolutely exhausted but i wanted to get this done ;;;

[chimeracreates]

Wake up with a hatchet over your head

You wake up with a hatchet over your head

#transformers earthspark #optimus prime #fanart #mine #hello i worked on this for like a week straight i feel absolutely exhausted now that it's done but i am SO PROUD #some notes on this: i wanted to use mind-controlled OP to represent optimus' anxieties about GHOST that he can't place (yet) #so i did that by using a silhouette as well to make it look impending. but slightly distant and formless. not yet realized basically #(also meant to invoke the sword of damocles and a sort of judge or executioner with the way the blade is raised. but at himself) #hello!! es op is one of my most favorite fictional characters ever! please talk to me about him!!! #maccadam #transformers

[moshaeu]

hoyo knew they’d be too powerful with short hair

#genshin impact #genshin impact fanart #columbina #arlecchino #arlebina #i am sick and absolutely exhausted but #i needed it to be known that as amazing as she still is #arlecchino short hair???? #give her back #so yeah #mosh draws

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

ON THE SUBJECT OF A MARCH 1ST UPDATE LIVESTREAM.

so due to newly-employed circumstances, i most likely won't be able to stream my exploration of the update until the Sunday after it drops - March 3rd, likely around 10 am pst.

im not gonna ask anyone to wait because that's unreasonable and absurd, However! I am curious:

#im asking instead of cancelling it outright #because i know how fun it can be to see someone explore/discover/watch something youve already enjoyed #plus. if i may so bold as to say! #who knows! maybe some of you actually Want to hear me speculate and go bonkers On Mic <3 #absolutely unprompted #marked for deletion #welcome home #Why Am I Waiting Until The Third? #it will most likely be my first day off! #i dont wanna explore the update when im exhausted after a 9 hour shift lmfao #and i don't want to explore it in the morning before work when im on a crunch #i want Time! i want Energy! im gonna need all the brainpower i can cobble together! #oh man the upcoming full day of Active Avoidance #i might actually turn off my phone lmfao #bc muscle memory is gonna take me to tumblr & That has burned me so many times... #im not gonna use tumblr im not gonna use discord #im gonna queue up youtube videos so that i dont risk seeing anything on the homepage #babey im Hunkering Down! #i will simply spend my free time after work with myself. crochet. doodle. sit and stare at a wall #sob viciously bc im missing out #its interesting. so much of my life has been Being Late To The Proverbial Party & Missing Out On Experiences. #and by interesting i mean it makes me violent. sigh. but we deal! what else is there to do!

[lesbianturrets]

ALRIGHT. NEW PAGE- NEW THEORY!!

So we all know that in chapter 7 Jekyll is sort of opening up more about his alchemic experiment with Frankenstein, finally speaking at least a tiny bit about what he’s done without really saying anything about Hyde and all his issues, blah blah blah you get it.

So in the new page, zooming in on her, what if.. Henry has someone to confide in even more so now? yes he has people of comfort like Rachel and Lanyon but they don’t KNOW the depths of this, now do they? NOPE! But she does! At least more so than anybody else. She at least knows the beginning of the story, maybe not the full bit but maybe she’ll even get that! Hell, these two are some of the few MAD mad scientists (™️ ), I mean she brought a fucking person from the dead back to the living world, if anyone will understand the depths of mad science, it’s her, and she probably knows that science knows no bounds. So if she can do that, she’ll understand that Henry could do that mind split.

And at the ending of their interaction in chapter 7.. she does ask about this so called “evil.” And he does give her a sort of look like “OH I’LL SHOW YOU-“ because well, everyone has an ego, and we all know that people love proving others wrong <3 So maybe, just maybe for once, we’ll have some sort of mentor, apprentice shit or just something good come out of these two being in the same vactinity as each other (probably not because they’re both insane but hey, no judgements here.)

#the glass scientists #guys it is 7:48 am and I am absolutely exhausted and sleep deprived this is the only thing keeping my brain going #anyways! kitty goes to school now.. blahg… #I should really make a rant tag