#i am choosing not to be embarrassed

[eternally--mortal]

Things I’ve always craved more of in the PJO fandom (translate to — things I’ve always wanted to write but have never managed because I have too many non-writing projects):

Percy getting caught in mortal nets while swimming around, either because he’s distracted or fighting a monster or rescuing sea life. They just pull up this human being in a net and everybody’s like ‘what the hell’. Or you could put a fun twist on it and make someone in the crew an ancient civilization researcher who’s convinced he’s a merman and . . . isn’t that far off.

Post-mist reveals where the mortals can see everything and somehow get their hands on artifacts that split open the Duat (therefore showing what demigods really look like based on their heritage) and having reveals at the most in opportune, but still mundane, times. Like, my favorite idea so far is that the mortals want to use it to have some fun at Prom so they station it at the entrance to the dance hall and when Percy and Annabeth walk in they’re all like ‘aw shit’ because Percy’s an Atlantean prince and Annabeth is in a mix of elements that show her Grecian godly heritage and her Norwegian royal bloodline. Which is . . . Inconvenient for two demigods that have just been trying to keep a low profile.

Royalty stories that are just. Not AU’s. Because Percy is already a prince but he totally doesn’t think of himself that way. He just, like, forgets. Like I love the hilarious mix of a mythological figure showing up and being like ‘your highness’ and him being like “who now?” Or mortals post-mist reveal pretending to be / to know the famous son of Poseidon and boosting the royal rhetoric while Percy’s just there like ‘ha, yeah, my family is nothing like that’ and being unsure whether to hate that they’re pretending to be him (and therefore putting themselves and everyone else in danger) or whether he should be tiredly amused.

Atlantean princes having fancy upper-arm bands instead of crowns (you don’t understand how badly I want this. I really do).

Crazy mortals with doctorates in history and archaeology who are convinced that Atlantis exists and have done a shit ton of research and found, like, artifacts that only work under an Atlantean’s touch, or plants that cause a response only in Atlanteans (like, are toxic or cause an allergic response like frequent sneezing or smell differently, etc.) and are using them to try and track down Atlanteans. (There’s a museum exhibit with really old graffiti that does Not say what they think it does, etc.)

Percy being picked on / targeted as Poseidon’s youngest humanoid child who chose to live on the surface instead of spending eternity at his father’s side (*cough* little mermaid *cough* *cough*)

Annabeth dabbling in Rune magic (her Norse heritage) and Egyptian magic (see Crown of Ptolemy). Having to carry a notebook of spells around with her. Looking some up on her phone and accidentally blowing it up when she speaks the spell out loud straight off the screen instead of writing it down first. (Demigod Egyptian magic vs. House of Life is like humans in the Owl House having to use written spells instead of just speaking them. Which is something that I recently realized and I Love it.)

Realistic mortal-friend stories that aren’t written like all of the horrible unrealistic TV high school drama shows society already subjects us to. I just want people to act like people and be compellingly appealing. Demigods and mortals are equally relatable. I find it funny that so many of us write shallow mortal characters when all of us are, you know, mortal. (*gasp*! I know, I know. I’m sorry)

Swim team Percy where he’s literally only doing it to get a scholarship because he feels guilty about the stress he caused his family while he was missing. Him and Annabeth going to legitimate colleges and him having to keep up the act because it’s paying for his schooling.

Just, basically as many stories as possible where the mist dissolves for various reasons and Percy and Annabeth have mortal friends who figure out who they are because All The Pantheons Know About Them and word gets around. But like before they figure it out there are lots of discussions debating how dangerous monsters are and demigods (if they even know what demigods are). Maybe one of the mortals has like a government agent uncle who’s always spying on them.

So many time travel stories. Of like Magnus accidentally knocking someone into a magical Norse well or something. Percy and Estelle could get sent back to that limbo period where younger him was on Calypso’s island and Annabeth sees him and goes “oh my gods he was on Calypso’s island and time was frozen there and he grew up with her and had a baby.”

Annabeth being sent back to BotL because I want them to see how much of a badass she is and I want her to use magic (and for Kronos to berate Luke because ‘I thought the girl wasn’t a threat). Also for Percy to sweep in to take her home and for miniature Annabeth to have a breakdown because he’s alive. (All of the monsters getting overwhelmed by his scent when he shows up and all the satyrs thinking he’s a god except Grover who recognizes that scent.)

Post-mist reveal where a group of mortals running an aquarium have also started a secret smuggling business for trafficking merpeople and Percy and Annabeth’s mortal friends accidentally stumble onto it and call Annabeth because some of them have suspicions about Percy’s heritage and figured he would care. (Yes I’ve been reading Not So Shore again. What of it?) Fun times sneaking them out in wheelchairs and wheely carts with water tanks on them. Percy and Annabeth singing lullaby’s in Greek to calm down the kids while the mortals are just, like, there trying to help. The kids all over Percy and not caring that Annabeth is a daughter of Athena. One of them asking if she’s a princess, too. (Lil baby guppies. Just the best)

A spin on Disney’s Lost City of Atlantis but instead of abducting the Atlantean princ(ess) from the kingdom to export, they try to use Percy as a living tracker to grant them access to Altantis.

(Can you tell that I’m obsessed with the fact that Percy’s Atlantean? I am. I totally am. Let me milk it.)

I want a scene where Nico turns a battle field pitch black and Jason illuminates it periodically with lightening and monsters are screaming because Nico and Percy are tag-team killing them with skeletons and water. (He can sense where they are because of blood-bending.)

Percy as a mortal getting dragged into the war because he just keeps running into Annabeth and accidentally assisting with quests. (I have a whole thing with this one. I romanticized it a lot like five years ago. It’s just stuck with me)

A version where the events of the books stay the same but Percy realizes at the end that his dad actually Is Neptune because Poseidon didn’t want to break his promise not to have a kid with a mortal woman (thus him always wearing Neptune’s lucky fishing hat).

Versions where Paul is Neptune, Poseidon, or another water deity from a different Pantheon. Or he’s accidentally hosting a god.

More of Annabeth touching Percy’s Achilles spot to ground him and pull him back.

Oh, and Reincarnation stories. Of like every kind. I remember being a sucker for those.

(I’m sure there are more. I weep inside and then just . . . Don’t write them. Like a monster.)

#pjo #pjo headcanon #percy jackson #percy jackson and the olympians #riordanverse #percabeth #annabeth chase #I have too many ideas #I’m so sorry I don’t just #write them out #like a better person would #still obsessed with percabeth #you can tell #i am choosing not to be embarrassed #by myself #at least I try #hyperfixation for the win

[beanhusk]

the doctor took donna's memories as she cried and begged him not to. she would rather die than forget. still, he robbed her of agency. he played god and betrayed her trust.

here he finds himself, lifetimes later, caught between saving a city and keeping her alive. what she wants is to give her life and save her family, save millions. why does it have to be this?

he listens this time. without argument, he returns what she lost. he honours her choice. and if she dies while he holds her, she dies remembering. smiling. the doctordonna forever.

#except she doesn't even die yayyyyyyy 🥳 #sorry for waxing poetic i am so embarrassing but i love parallels & i love subversion! #liiike. i'll choose 55 more seconds of life if i can be with you. if i can know who i am. if i can save who i love. if i'm whole. #as much as i wanted donna to be sooo angry with him #ik the episode didn't have time for that & also #this journey's end reversal felt so redemptive & cathartic i can't even complain #doctor who #donna noble #tenth doctor #fourteenth doctor #doctor who spoilers #bea.txt

[fluffy-ami]

aight you sillies, I see y'all... So he'll be our sacrificial lamb (wink-wink) because- reasons. I can't take this anymore bro, I need to wreck his ass. And you're gonna help me 🫵🏻. I AM EMBARRASSED AND I'M CRINGE BUT I'M FREE- dw we'll get him a nice smoothie as a reward afterwards ✨🌸

Edited: oml you're evil guys what 🤨🤨🤨 (i am looking respectfully)

#hazbin hotel #doesn't matter what you choose he'll die ALJFKDK #hazbin hotel tickle #boop booth #tickling #tickle art #hazbin tickles #adam #lee!adam #THE HYPERFIXATION IS HYPERFIXATING 🗣️🗣️🗣️ #HELP 🗣️ #i'm not sure how many parts i'll draw #BUT☝🏻 #i am feeling very enthusiastic despite the embarrassment lmao aslcjjckszk #sometimes..... i love being an artist 😈

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Quickly put this together today, I hope you like it! I'm really happy with the textures and emotional storytelling in this :3

#pmatga #pacman and the ghostly adventures #pacster #cylindria #pmatga fanart #art #my art #pmatga comic #Here I am with another ramble on the show and its ✨missed opportunities✨ #Cyli grew up surrounded by nature (from what was alluded to at least) since she grew up in a treehouse #and I'm choosing to believe that her family's treehouse was actually not the stereotypical wooden box held together by branches and screws #but an actual livable house that's big enough for a family of four that just happens to be built into a big tree #anyway so Cyli clearly cares for nature and has a sentimental attachment to it #and going to Maze High in the city meant that she's been far away from home for the longest time ever #You can't tell me she won't get homesick from time to time #She WAS shown to feel a bit embarrassed about growing up in a treehouse though #so perhaps she hides it well and just pretends to not care over it #but deep down she misses that treehouse dearly #So missed opportunity from the show to explore her background in a bit more depth like WHY she cares so much about nature #because to her #nature is her home

[napping-sapphic]

You should make me fall so deeply in love with you that it’s embarrassing

#wlw #wlw mood #sapphic #sapphism #lesbian #and BEFORE any of yall say that ‘oh um actually love is never embarrassing’ shit— fight me #respectfully we cannot vibe #half of love for me is goinn around KNOWING that i would eat a cardboard box if it meant i could see the person i love smile at me #and it is my god given RIGHT to cringe at myself for it #also love in general is so fucking embarrassing #having the feelings doing the in love thing expressing it #it’s all EMBARASSING #the whole POINT is that the love makes me do it anyway #like if i love you enough to EXPRESS it??? like damn i love you A LOT #like obviously it’s different for everyone but this is what my post is about #and i am choosing to say in advance that NO this is not where we’re doing any of that ‘love is never embarassing’ business #let me watch someone trip and think it’s hot so my brain can go: :/ #in PEACE pls #embarassment or cringe isn’t always a bad feeling and yes i WILL die on this hill😤😤😤 #im gay and i like sleeping

[barry2018-2023]

do you think the tortured poets department situation is one of those things where she's gotten too famous and successful for anyone to tell her when she has a stupid idea

#am i being mean or is that an objectively embarrassing album title. for the most famous woman on the planet to choose.

[thebirdandhersong]

btw in case you're wondering if, after reaching adulthood, you finally escape the horrible pain of always being picked last for sports/games: unfortunately, it does still happen, and it still hurts as much as it did when you were a kid

#did i cry about it? i am embarrassed to say yes #listen. i know i'm short and slow and don't know how to play most sports #but still. #also i may be used to this #but being the last to be chosen means you're not chosen at all because you're automatically part of the team #that didn't choose you either. so there's that! #anyway you guys everything feels really heavy right now and so something as small as this feels like so much #i couldn't help for a little moment thinking. well y'all SAY you like me and want me around. but clearly none of you wanted me on your team #not a single one of you! what's up with that!!!! #and i understand that i really do. i'm not aggressive or intimidating on the field. but the point still stands #anyway that is something i would like prayer for. even though community building IS going well #and there ARE bright spots #but the general feeling of this season is feeling unwanted and undesirable and in some capacity unlovable #so would really appreciate prayer in the larger as well as the smaller things #the small things like this accumulate SO quickly and i really.....hate that actually #the waiting room chapter

[canongf]

didn’t realize there was a pair of panties stuck in my jeans and they fell out of my pant leg while i was in starbucks. very sexy of me 😙✌🏻

#it’s only embarrassing if you’re embarrassed it’s only embarrassing if you’re embarrassed it’s only embarrassing if you’re embarrassed #i don’t know if anyone saw i am choosing to believe they did not #called eddie to make me feel better and he can not stop laughing #live

[mirkwood]

just once i want to comment on a lotr post on insta without having a stupid, annoying, ridiculous, pretentious white bald m*n reply to my comment by pushing his stupid, annoying, ridiculous, pretentious thoughts and beliefs that no one asked for. just once.

#also these bitches will just say Anything without checking their sources first. #you're embarrassing yourself and im making fun of you #they're also choosing the wrong person to reply to bc i am a hater and im gonna fuck them up so just stfu #that's the rant for today i simply can't stand these bitches. #he got blocked though bc i didn't wanna see what else he might pull out of his ass so

[ladysqueakinpip]

not me lying wide awake at 5:30am on a sunday on my day off bc after almost a full year I finally FINALLY realized the implication of the end of remember them from the cyclops saga

#that song has one of the most powerful ending crescendo sequences ive heard in maybe all of musical theater #so it. always felt incomplete after ALL that buildup during the I AM THE INFAMOOOUS #only to just drop to SILENCE. no music. no fanfare. just ODYSSEUS! #he doesnt even really sing it he just sort of... shouts it #and then its followed by the faintest sound of ocean waves #its poseidon. listening. THATS why athena said DONT #poseidon heard that declaration and came back to get him later #😬 #i just looked up the lyrics for ruthlessness too and poseidon basically spells it out 😂 #ive only listened to that song once or twice tho and i guess i wasnt too focused on the words #anyway i relistened to the songs on friday and theyve been rotating in my mind like a 7/11 hotdog #the whole cyclops saga especially is just.... so so good #they truly dont make music about bashing peoples heads in like they used to #the first 3 songs of the saga especially... oof #how they blend one into the other back to back and end up making like a 10 minute narration of events #the whole thing is so bone chilling #it gets my heartrate up lol #PLUS the theme of pain and vengeance bring more pain #EVERY time polyphemus says 'what gives you a right to deal a pain so deep' #and when odysseus says 'what good would killing do when mercy is a skill more of the world could learn to use' #rocking back and forth sobbing crying #remember them the next time that you DARE choose not to spare! remember them... remember us... remember me! #cant wait for everyone to turn their back on this musical in 5 yrs #like they did with hamilto.n #hamilto.n never stopped being good actually #yall are just embarrassed about being weird fanatics over people who rly existed

[toxictranny]

google search how to not be poor …

#i’m being funny but my eyes welled up with tears typing thisssssssssssshow am i gonna survive :-) #once my lease is up i need money to ship my storage unit and transportation to wherever i go #idk where to go #i can’t drive either so i literally need my hand to be held every step of the way and it’s just so embarrassing !!!! #the first issue is choosing a place to live. literally can’t handle that part.

[isdalinarhot]

last teft wife post im going to make but i cant even conceptualize tefts wife really. to me shes just teft in drag

#for my sanity i am choosing to believe that tefts wife (who is teft in drag) left him for Hes Choosing Firemoss Over Me reasons #and teft is embarrassed by this so he just tells kaladin shes dead and its never brought up again #luke.txt

[coffeeandcalligraphy]

editing the recording of BODY BACK chapter 1 & me trying to figure out how to do harrisonvoice is funny TO ME

#he's like coolguy but only to Himself #also i am doing u all a favour by listening to this YOU ARE WELCOME!!!!!!! #this is for the ppl who supported me posting the audiobook chapter lol ily <3 #I LOVE MY VOICE I REALLY DO IT'S ONE OF MY FAVOURITE THINGS ABOUT ME #I ALSO LOVE MY READING VOICE SO MUCH #SO I DONT KNOW WHY IT'S DEEPLY EMBARRASSING TO LISTEN TO ME READING MY WORK #SINCE I LOVE LISTENING TO MY RECORDED VOICE LMAO #I think it's that listening to where I verbally choose to inflect my writing is embarrassing #I really don't think the writing is embarrassing (I am the best) and I'm not embarrassed to share it #BUT IT'S SOMETHING ABT ME READING IT #I'M LIKE BANGING MY HEAD INTO A WALL IT'S CRIIIIINNNGGGE #to all of you it is totally fine but to me i am dying

[valentinesparda]

Hey Valentine!! Been thinking about DMC lately and was wondering if you could tell me some stuff about your DMC s/i? :0 perhaps what their relationship with Vergil is like? -[Wayfinderships]

@wayfinderships OH BOY OH BOY IVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT DMC RECENTLY TOO !!!! i miss my half demon husband. it sure has been a whole hot minute since I talked about gabriel in general, and it sure has just hit me that you and most of my current mutuals completely missed my dmc era, so!!

gabriel is my self insert, and they are a collector of demonic goods, a purveyor of powerful artefacts, and they meet vergil shortly before dmc3 is taking place, mostly because their paths cross through happenstance and they offer up information for him. they're around the same age as the twins at this point during the timeline, the two of them are kind of friends and kind of bickering back and forth, and eventually when Vergil Goes To Hell, they kind of dig themself into a hole of work since they're the apprentice to the actual collector they have been working for

um to make a long story short these are bullet points:

find a particular artefact associated to a general of hell named haures, who has his own little plans and manages to take possession of gabriel gradually over time, for the most part they function like they green goblin talking to his own mask

haures corrupts them and essentially demonizes them so they functionally stop aging / age so slowly that it isn't really noticeable

they are also hearing from haures about mundus and sparda and are doing their own little research, maybe in hopes of coming across that one weird white haired dude they met before

their research brings them to fortuna when nero is a little kid !! will expand upon that when i get back around to dmc4

they cross paths with dante a lot!! and he is their friend somewhat

the whole time they're doing all of this they are like actively dying from haures and have to stay in tip-top shape otherwise he will actually kill them!! but no one else can communicate with haures so he's just kind of their intrusive thoughts

badabadaba dmc5 rolls around and v shows up and suddenly it's like they're 20 again and experiencing feelings

anyways gabriel's relationship with vergil was initially a little fling for the short time that they knew each other when they were younger, and tidbits of that are echoed in meeting v. like gabriel wouldn't admit to it and they think they're doing such a good job of hiding it but everyone they know can SEE how they act

and then suddenly vergil is back!! and they are a dam in the process of breaking!! the two of them proceed to bicker like an old married couple and most of vergil's time spent as v winds up being mental anguish and maturity and confronting his own human emotions, so even though they are continuing on that leftover thread from when they were younger and they didn't spend very much time together, it's like they've known eachother forever. like they do care about eachother, clearly, but they're overall very sweet in their own ways and completely awkward in navigating their relationship and feelings. because they are eachothers first love or something. yucky. I'm not approaching the lady in red topic right now because if I do then I have to do mental gymnastics but it's fine, we'll just loophole it

anyways blah blah gabriel and vergil are like. aggressively embarrassed in how they interact with each other, because they're kind of too similar that it's funny, but they do genuinely like eachother. maybe it's just because they were each other's only friend when they were in their teens and were both being manipulated for someone else's gain lol. and after vergil's stay in hell and subsequent Speedrun of the human existence he calms down a little and lets himself learn to love, not just romantically but like, familially. he gets to learn about the people that he left behind again and the one he's never met before (his son), and that is just. so important to me

so gabriel is kind of the only person initially rooting for him, even if they would rather swallow glass than be vulnerable, but they can also have vergil help them control their corruption and possibly use haures to their advantage because i had it set up where he was yeah, a dumbass trying to usurp the throne, but I wanted to plan a whole plot surrounding him and maybe lore connecting him to sparda, specifically

I know i joke about them bickering and being unable to function as real people but i have a very special place in my heart for vergil, not just favourite character wise but also self ship wise. im personally very hardheaded and dragging my real feelings out of me is like literally pulling teeth, so I've hidden a lot of my affections behind jokes and that kind of is also reflected in how I talk about vergil. but i did eventually open up about it and that's where the handfasting ceremony came from. i finally just accepted that i loved him as a character and ive been trying to unlearn my bad behaviors and learn that it's okay to be vulnerable, and not to hold everything in all the time

i like. rambled but its to avoid having to voice how their relationship is in full detail, so all i really have to say is that it's complicated but also plainly simple how they work together, how they love. they do deeply care about the other, and while it takes some time to let the initial feelings go unsaid, they are at their center both very lonely people who have put their trust into someone that they can see themselves in, who know how the other one feels and expresses feelings, with the addition of v functioning as an a-ha moment for vergil while gabriel has had 30 years to think on the guy they first loved - and proceeded to immediately fall back in love with upon seeing again

#asks #panchi tag #UMMMM. sorry i rambled. i got embarrassed and ended up repeating myself a alot #i know what i want to say but there is a lot of feelings that also have to be parsed through and im like. snervous about it #there is actually a lot that has gone into their relationship but i'd rather die than elaborate on the true sweetness #like gabe memorizing poems from vergil's book knowing that their memory is bad & v using blake as a calling card for his bare flirtations #him calling them little vagabond and a sick rose and them having a split second of familiarity ring in their head but choosing to ignore it #and shadow being used as not only a coping mechanism and a method of self protection but also a subconscious extension of his own emotions #and haures being a symbol of gabriel's own sins and his corruption being representative of their trauma and how it sits in them #and haures being an extension of my own chronic illness and pain and my own intrusive thoughts manifested #i dunno am i a little insane?? maybe. #si: gabriel #otp: my morning star #long post

[theweightofyesterday-if]

Just some tiny snippets since I've been neglecting y'all lately ♥︎

#The kid doesnt really sound like one but I'm working on it #disclaimer: belva is the title that humans will mostly use to refer to u. but u will be able to choose ur name dw #and i think the most interesting thing will be seeing your Belvas' different thoughts on their title. Some will 100% love it and be proud #some will be reminded of their past actions every time they hear it #some will be like “belva is something that I no longer am and no longer relate to” #some will be straight up embarrassed by hearing it; like a teen who grew out of their awkward phase #etc . So I can't wait for the demo to come out and to hear how everybody's MC is #interactive fiction #the weight of yesterday #if wip

[blkkatsuki]

i wonder if anyone would be able to guess what Naruto character got me into the series. like without them I dont think I would have paid it too much attention😭 (which would have been sad)

#If you guess right first try I will do a quick doodle of any character of your choosing I am not jokign #its not TOO embarrassing but it also is I fear.. #ludo.txt