#i am not sure if i have a tag for u-

[obsob]

the accolade ( the...the cat-olade...)

#mine #original #i cannot even begin to explain the anguish. the torment. this drawing has brought me #and i STILL dont like it. i simply cant work on it any longer i cant i cant. i must be rid of it #eating drywall as we speak #you want to know how many weeks ive worked on this. THREE. ALMOST. #you want to know how long my other cat drawings take me ?? 3 days absolute MAX #anyway. begon foul creature etc #i havent left extremely long tags for a long while hello everyone good lord there are many of you #we are going stratford this weekend very exciting #its going to be a little chilly and i want to take my new coat with me but issue its not chilly right now so i cant wear it onto the train #i do not think. i can. stuff it into my suitcase i dont think that will happen #i am sure i will figure it out #also. no longer vegan . eggs have won me over. egg egg egg. #im having to restrain myself SO hard from buying more wool i want a shawl i want a shawl #i want more cute DRESSES why are nice comfy dresses 10000£ #i look on vinted and its like dresses for popping your pussy in like not. the vibe im going for thank u #anyway. im going to eat crackers now

[inkskinned]

he says i hate everyone except you and that is addictive and that is kind of romantic and beautiful because you're young and you're kind of a sarcastic asshole too and you don't like bad boys, per say, but you don't really like good ones either. and you like that you were the exception, it felt like winning.

except life is not a romance book, and he was kind of being honest. he doesn't learn to be nice to your friends. he only tolerates your family. you have to beg him to come with you to birthday parties, he complains the whole time. you want to go on a date but - people are often there, wherever you're going. he's just so angry. about everything, is the thing. in the romance book, doesn't he eventually soften? can't you teach him, through your own sense of whimsy and comfort?

at first - you know introverts often need smaller friend groups, and honestly, you're fine staying at home too. you like the small, tidy life you occupy. you're not going to punish him for his personality type.

except: he really does hate everyone but you. which means he doesn't get along with his therapist. which means he has no one to talk to except for you. which means you take care of him constantly, since he otherwise has no one. which means you sometimes have to apologize for him. which means he keeps you home from seeing your friends because he hates them. you're the single exception.

about a decade from this experience, you'll type into google: how to know if a relationship is codependent.

he wraps an arm around you. i hate everyone except you. these days, you're learning what he's actually confessing is i have very little practice being kind.

#i used to think it was romantic too and then i was like. now i see it as a HUGE red flag #writeblr #it is also almost EXCLUSIVELY said by immature ppl who think this is normal #fyi even if u think it's funny and ur like 'im an introvert it's just TRUE' like. you need therapy (ily tho) #healed introversion is just ''i would prefer to be by myself'' not ''i hate every person'' ... hate is not normal. that is not healthy #im sorry. i know it feels accurate. but if you're walking around with that kind of rage.... #1. you're making a LOT of assumptions about every single person u have ever met. which is often unfair and unkind #and also usually involves judging people based on their worst moments or little mistakes #2. you are being unfair to the person who is ur ''exception'' #3. there is a VAST difference between ''ur my favorite person'' and ''the ONLY person i like.'' #idk i think this is just a personal bias thing tbh #im sure there are people who have this experience normally #but i have YET to find a man who thinks like this and ISNT absolute DOGSHIT. although tbh.... like. im sure he exists #when u hit like 30 some of the things that were once kind of hot now just sound fucking exhausting. like ''im in a band'' #edit in the tags: i used to kind of be like this too. but the thing is that like. my life became so much more peaceful #once i started believing that people are generally good. like yes i am mad at the world at large #but it's just.... a very hard way to live. you're not a bad person or wrong for the ways other people hurt you and taught you to be angry. #but that anger will continue to hurt YOU. it will punish YOU. it will prevent YOU from making new deep connections. it will protect you yes #but it will also cause MASSIVE blowback. bc if you lose the One Person... your life will fall apart. i know this personally. #i really recommend just trying to be... cautiously optimistic instead. like. yes #people can be horrible and cruel and there are some communities (incels for example) that aren't worth that optimism #but i think like... most people will hold a door for you . most people want to help you find your wallet . #i hope one day you are able to find peace. i hope that rage eventually smooths over. i know how hard it is PERSONALLY #and i know what must have happened to you. and im deeply deeply sorry we share the same wound. #but i promise - sometimes we all need someone else to help us carry the weight. eventually the rage has to die so that we can let help in #i had to spend years biting at outstretched hands. i still often do. im still very wary . and my heart breaks that you flinch too. #here's the thing: i don't blame you. but we were both acting out of fear and pain. .... not out of healthy behavior. and ... change #was needed. i needed change too. rage was useful for a while. then it just left me isolated and bitter. i had to (with effort) #choose to let that rage go. and let people in . VERY SLOWLY THO LOL

[spicyvampire]

How to not be vanilla a guide by Dr. Wandee or Yak's extremely confusing one night stand

WANDEE GOODDAY (2024) Official Trailer

#wandee goodday #wandee goodday the series #yakdee #thaidrama #mjtag #uservix #userblmpff #userrlaura #userbon #esmetracks #userbunn #tusermona #asiandramasource #dramasource #dailyasiandramas #asiandramanet #asiandramaedit #tansedits #edits:wd #greatinn #tagged the usual suspects lemme know if u watching this #cuz i sure am gonna be having fun with that one #p'golf i own you my life #we are SOO fcking back!!!

[ria-starstruck]

actually, this is why the vessels don't have mouths

from this:

#sorry if the caption doesnt make sense i couldnt make it funnier </3 #hollow knight #hollow knight fanart #idk what else to tag this. whatever i didnt even intend to draw it #i drew this in like <30 minutes can u tell. maybe even 20 minutes or something. or could it have been 10...nah surely not. or could it have #yes i am aware this is a case of ''he would not fucking say that'' given that pk made vessels specifically for the sake of ''kill that big #rat'' but uhhhh consider this: your m— #...no....i shan't say it...

[whoopseydaisy]

An addition to the cocktail chapter of the @worldsbeyondpod Unofficial Cookbook:

Honey With A Note Of Song

an absinthe wash (the green fairy, for your roots)

2 oz. rye (your liquor of choice, strong and spicy)

1/4 oz. pine and rosemary honey syrup (you cannot go home again)

1 barspoon of saline solution (for your first divine smite, where you found your breath once more)

1-2 dashes of peychauds bitters (because this is a play on a sazerac)

a grapefruit twist (a touch of the bitterness age has brought you)

serve in a glass reminiscent of a chalice

#worlds beyond number #wbn unofficial cookbook #Eursulon #the wizard the witch and the wild one #for absinthe wash: swirl a small amount of absinthe around the sides of your glass #for honey syrup: 2:1 honey to water ratio #i used pine in the common sense foraging various evergreen needles including pine fir and cedar (and rosemary) #for saline solution: 20g of salt dissolved in 80g of hot water #when foraging for needles make sure u know what ur grabbing and be wary of yew especially #in the words of Alexsis Nicole happy snacking don’t die!!! #cw alcohol #your honey is quiet (non-alc drink with honey syrup) and Ame cocktail coming soon #no idea what to make for a Suvi cocktail i’m so sorry Aabria #Ame cocktail will be slightly impossible to replicate bc it uses local ingredients but that’s the point u will have to brew ur own potion #if u make this ur not legally obligated to tell me about it in the tags or comments but it would make me really happy if u did!!!!! #update after staging the Ame cocktail with a little extra ✨✨ i wish i put more ✨✨ into staging this one as well #put my thing of bark behind it #¯\_(ツ)_/¯ o well

[vcrnons]

[ MIX & MAX ] NCT MARK & JISUNG 'Some Minds & Voices' ( for @ncteez <3 )

#mark #jisung #mark lee #park jisung #nct #nct dream #put simply. i did this a) on a whim and b) for hon. #look okay i barely even go here. i just saw she said she wanted someone to gif this video and i said yes. that. #something i can and will do. so happy christmas or birthday or event of ur choosing i guess ;o; #am i aware that u may or may not have been joking or at least a little unserious? sure #but now. a few hours of hyperfixation and ignoring my sore throat later. here we are anyway #i don't know how to tag this && tbh i don't particularly care abt tagging it /gen #i am just playing the silliest of buggers and trying to navigate some more fun colouring rn. don't perceive me<3 #cw flashing #tw flashing #flashing gif #(this is probably part 1 of 2 because the other half where they've got the metallic shit goin on? OOF) #*mine #my gif

[stealingpotatoes]

I swear, Cal and Merrin are one of the few sane enough couples in Star Wars

AND I LOVE THEM SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#YADA YADA DONT READ THE TAGS IF YOU DONT WANT SURVIVOR SPOILERS BLA BLA DONTREAD!! BLA BLA BLA ITS ON U IF U READ OK!!! #I AM soooooooo normal abt them #(< girl who finally got to the merrical kiss scene today) #like sure i knew they did kiss. okay. thats the one single spoiler i had/have for survivor going in. but IT HAPPENED in FRONT OF MY EYES #and I LOVE THEM #thanks for the ask! #THE WAY CAL JUST STARES AT HER FOR A FEW SECONDS AFTER!!!! UNTIL BD TAPS HIM CAUSE THEY GOT SHIT 2 DOO #OBSESSED I HOPE THERES MORE MERRICAL TO COME #INSTANT GAME OF THE YEAR IF SO #thinking abt it it's really funny how i've made so much merrical art and yet have only JUST played the game they canon in LOL #...i hope

[nonranghaes]

warnings: reader has... problems with expressing themself/letting ppl in + implied baggage that makes them like that.

this wasn’t supposed to happen.

“it’s okay,” jun keeps saying in this quiet mantra, arms wrapped around you as you fight back your tears, battling with your own fucking body to get everything back under control.

this was not supposed to happen. and yet the door opened, and jun called out that he brought dinner to surprise you because you’d been working hard lately... and then he saw you. his gaze softened when he did, and he realized why he hadn’t found you anywhere else in your apartment. it’s like he actively avoided acknowledging every warning sign telling him to go away, that you didn’t want anyone to see you.

yet when he came closer, you didn’t know what to do. if you snapped at him the way you almost did, fire on the tip of your tongue and venom behind it, he’d never forgive you (no one ever does, right? you aren’t allowed to be angry with people, you’re supposed to wrap it up nice and neat and make yourself as small as you can). if you cry openly, he’ll leave, too: crying as an adult looks pathetic. that’s why you’re supposed to swallow your feelings and anything past a few tears, pretending as though you don’t have any ugly feelings like that.

“do you want to talk about it?” was what he said to you next, and when you furiously shook your head, he slowly came closer. he sat down at the foot of your bed. “... can i hold you?”

you don’t know why you said yes. you shouldn’t have. even now, you should push him away and tell him to go. that this was a mistake. it’d hurt him, you know it would, but he’d be free from all of this bullshit and your bullshit...

yet the moment he starts to rub circles into your back, cradling your body against his chest, it seems to do something to you. you lose control, body betraying it as it chokes out those first sobs before all you can do is cry in his arms. that’s when he started with the “it’s okay” thing. somewhere between the mental fog and the ache in your lungs and the stinging in your eyes, you realize you’ve never cried in front of jun before.

his head presses against yours. “it’s okay,” he says again in that low whisper. “you aren’t alone anymore. i’ve got you.” 

(and something about the gentle way he says it makes you want to believe it. so you try to, until the day that you can fully embrace the statement with open arms.)

#nonranghaes.thoughts #nonranghaes.svt #seventeen imagine #seventeen x reader #seventeen x you #svt x reader #svt imagine #svt x you #jun x reader #wen junhui x reader #junhui x reader #jun angst #wen junhui angst #junhui angst #idk what else to tag this as #i dont rly want to live anymore gamers i am just. tired. #u dont have to worry abt me if u see this. i promised 27. after tht? idk ill make sure my funerals bumping #nonranghaes.vent

[canon-gabriel-quotes]

i switched back from androgel to testosterone injections after 2 years and im having a male puberty crisis over gabriel and this blog isnt helping. thank you (genuine)

oh you are in special type of hell, good luck soldier 🫡

stay strong and try to stay sane

#never go full caveman mode you must stay sane STAY STRONG. THINK WITH YOUR BRAIN FIRST #im having middle school flashbacks............................ #im sure its a bit easier when ur an adult #i hope its easier?? #either way this is a safe place go crazy if u gotta idc #i enjoy reading everyone's insane tags (is also insane) #ask #asks #non voice post #hm i remembered that this is the 0 reading comprehension website and some rando may not understand what i meant #so i will clarify i am saying Good Luck dealin with The Thoughts you get used to it eventually #tame the beast......

[monotone-artist]

[pls dont tag as ship]

i think amy is one of the few people shadow would actually tolerate being near him, let alone touching him

[id: digital drawing of shadow the hedgehog and amy rose. shadow is wearing an open leather jacket with a maroon shirt and jeans torn at the knees. he has a square-shaped notch in one ear. amy is wearing a dress with a striped skirt colored cream-white-black-blue-red, a blue shirt, and a striped blue shawl with a red ribbon on it. she also has an eyebrow piercing, a couple earrings, and an industrial piercing.

shadow is sitting cross-legged on the floor, a phone with a red case in his hand. however, even as he's facing forward his attention is on amy, who's sitting on a stool behind him, braiding his quills. he's got an eyebrow raised and is trying really hard to not smile as she animatedly talks, gesticulating with her free hand. text pointing to her reads, "gossiping about Sonic." end id]

#monotoneart #sonic the hedgehog #sonic #shadow the hedgehog #amy rose #yall i am so happy with how amy's design ended up u have no idea sdfjhsdf #i kindaa tried to be more closer to her original dress at first but i decided i hated it. #also i decided to punch a hole into shadow's ear to parallel with sonic's / imply he probably had a tag in it once #shadow seems to have a habit of running into his own clones from what ive seen?? #so i like to think it's a pretty small yet easy way to identify who is the real shadow #...there seem to be a lot of shadow clones now that i think about it #though to be fair im pretty sure everybody has at least several clones of themselves #idk i only vaguely remember sonic lore and mostly what i currently know is what ive seen in the fandubs o_o #i specifically recall there being a tails doll and little 10 year old me was a little freaked out by it #but i digress :))

[colgatebluemintygel]

WE ARE SOO BACK

#MISSED THEM............ #slipping back into oao s's brain is the easiest thing i've ever done #for sure going to have to re-read oao in its entirety (yuck ! ew!! torture !!!!) because i have forgotten much. but #love u forever s... #also had to return with benjy slander rofl #there was no other way #nobody's favourite wet noodle of a man !!!!! #uhmm also to avoid confusion this is not a chapter post... i am just working on the doc for the first time since august 😇 #also slowly catching up on all the tags/asks/etc !! speaking of. one of my new years resolutions is to ANSWER MY ASKS #i feel perma guilt about how terrible i am at answering them and it occurred to me recently that there is a v simple solution #and that is. to actually answer them :o) #oao

[b4kuch1n]

fuck it sk8 sketches from da sketchbook. get sk8ed idiot

#sk8 the infinity #kyan reki #hasegawa langa #renga #sure whatever. tagging ship is probably easier than explaining what the fucks up with these two in my head #hi. I watched sk8 with my friend cosme a while ago. I actually dont care about the allegations that much I just got #blasted with teenage years flashback. and now I need reki to have everything on earth and be well #these have been around for like a week lol Ive just been debating posting them to tumblr. bc like. Im not finishing these lol #hesitant to call sk8 ''therapeutic'' but boy oh boy. does it make me confront some stuff. yes a sport anime leave me alone!!! #its just. I think I was this way about raz too actually. listen I have History with Stuff. I'm allowed ok? I'm totally allowed #u can See it in some of these doodles actually. this fuckign anime got me so unwell #hey. if ur a fellow adhd potentials-havers out there. ur a real one. thanks for still hangin out doin what u love/ur best #if u were an 'if u wanna do art u have to be excellent and high-art at it otherwise it means nothing' kid. I am holding ur hand #I'll be normal now I prommy (lying) #well. what I'll be doing now is taking a nap. maybe. gods my schedule backslid like four hours again #eh whatever. I go to bed anyway. got my portion of the day done and tomorrow I go buy new knife #hope someone come give me a new table top and lower the whole thing a bit soon. so I can stop sitting like Im in a shopping cart #have a good night lads. have fun. its imperative

[luvbug724]

obsessed w jeanee Actually. she drove hours in the middle of the night for him. she organised a heist for him. she blackmails a university for him. she was willing to break into the nest w brute force for him. she was willing to rob a hardware store to do it. she seriously contemplates climbing over barbed wire fences to get to him. she handles diversions and distractions with grace for him. she has the invasive curiosity to want to know all abt his little knick knacks. she resorts to violence when someone tries to stop her from getting to him. she prays for him. she talks to him softly when the only feeling in the room is rage. she pushes his hair out of his face. she checks his pulse obsessively. YEAH………… are we all seeing this rn

its so wonderful to me too because like this is RENEE. renee, who is a bad person trying very hard to be good. there was a post going around maybe a month ago how empathy for everyone circles back around into empathy for no one i can't remember any of the specifics but it rlly did something for how i see renee because shes a protector. its defensive. its safe. she knows the limits, she knows the point of no return because shes been to rock bottom and clawed her way up but she's willing to do whatever she needs to to get jean out of the nest.

there is a big difference between cradling allison when andrew hurts her vs actively threatening eau, going on the offense to make sure jean leaves safe with her. there's something insane to me abt how a few months of texting and calling jean could push her to that point, the point where she needed to be talked down off the ledge before the plan was more natalie than renee because this was something she absolutely could not fuck up. she knew that her efforts would be worthless if she didn't create a plan that couldn't backfire, because the punishment for jean trying to leave and failing (and i'm sure that message to renee would be used against him) or leaving and coming back would be 1000x worse than whatever they could do to him from a distance.

and then when she has him in his arms and she knows he's going to be safe, he'll be okay as long as she can get him to abby, she can let herself be kind again.

#IT DRIVES ME INSANE #like helloooooo?????? #i genuinely am not sure if this makes sense or if its just wordvomit but DO YOU GET IT #it may not be love yet but it IS something worthwhile. you know #they havent even known each other for that long!!!!!!!! #i said a few tags back that renee's actions arent lesser if theyre based on romance and like i know its been maybe 2 hours since i said it #but i still agree!!!! renee i think doesnt get her due diligence for her motivations. in the pursuit of like the strong independent #woman archetype i think we've neglected the fact that you know. a woman can be motivated by romantic feelings and it doesn't make her any #less strong or liberated #having a connection with a person isn't a weakness #feminism is so nuanced! there is no one size fits all! restating this idea for the third time this post but there is no weakness in love #even though misogyny has made it so easy to get reactionary with it and claim that any show of strength isn't motivated by it at all! #do u catch my drift. i can say it a different way a fourth time if necessary i dont think i can verbalize my thoughts well #hm ok thoughts to chew on! #back to my shitty hockey novels while i wait for tsc to drop! #jeanee #asks

[christiangeistdorfer]

ILKKA KIVIMÄKI, MAURIZIO PERISSINOT & CHRISTIAN GEISTDÖRFER having a rest stop during the 1983 PORTUGAL RALLY

#for me. the picture of all time. #this has been on my blog before but never been tagged properly. #so it deserves it's own special post #this picture used to chill in my tabs back when i first got into rallying #it's just really funny because i'd just stare at this christian because i thought he was so cute with his little face and adidas shoes !!!! #not even knowing that the man he is talking to will hold a very special place in my heart!!! ILKKAAAAAAAAAA !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #maurizio u will have a chance i am sure one day!!! #wrc #1980s #motorsport #world rally championship #ilkka kivimäki #maurizio perissinot #christian geistdörfer

[roitaminnah]

series of ppkm messy things real quick before buttsoup 2 electric boogalo be upon us,,, i just think it would be neat. to see them date. however i will take whatever crumbs i can get <3

#butterfly soup #ppkm #sketchbook #I know based on the asks brianna lei has done that they probably do not get together in highschool. so consider this. erm an AU. #if i were to make actual headcanons based on events we actually know happen i would say one of rhem was visiting while they're in college #noelle maybe... and she gets there an akarsha is like hey can we go to fucking gamestop i need to get something there. #and noelle is like. i literally flew here to visit u u want to go to gamestop. what the hell akarsha (she goes with her anyways) #u know how gamestop goes. but i just think its neat lord i am so excited for buttsoup 2. #um i may not play it for a bit! i am not sure i likely will be. inactive for a bit till i catch up 😎 #have fun out there at 12pm PST yall!! 👀👀 #help i didnt even explain mild cheese maybe its funnier that way #erm theres different kinds of baguette and technically speaking a sweet baguette is one that isnt sourdough. #so it has a less. intense flavor on its own which makes it a good bread to pair with cheeses rhat have a mild flavor #what a fucking stretch . i love my brain #novel in the tags! help! #roi draws

[zoroshonkingbazonkadonkas]

why did i decide to read the bad reviews of tfc.... pls i'll commit hate crimes

#making my head hurt #idk im probably being a major hypocrite by writing this post out but like be so for real #theres a review like 'this book was trying so hard to test my reading comprehension skills' i am very sad #to tell you #that perhaps u do not have reading comp skills u mindless buffoon #these books fucking flowed like WATER DOWN A STREAM #'as a writer myself' boy i sure hope no one is subjected to ur mindless writing #tw vent #im sorry for anyone reading these tags theyre so unbelievably bitchy and catty