#i fucked up the roots so bad

[linusbenjamin]

She wanted me to remind you of how the story ends. When everything is over, and the worst has happened, there's still one thing left in Pandora's Box. Hope.

#person of interest #poiedit #tvedit #poi spoilers #harold finch #john reese #samantha groves #root #sameen shaw #nikolatexla #this scene fucked me up so bad. like if i watched this in 2014 i would explode from trauma

[earlgodwin]

"There are moments where [Juan] manipulates other people in a similar the way they’ve been manipulating him. The scene between Jeremy and myself with the dagger is a last ditch frantic attempt at trying to win [Rodrigo] over." Do you think Juan was genuine in the knife scene? Do you think he would have killed himself? "Yeah I think so. He always does what is true inside him...It wasn’t simply about the eventual confrontation, but all about the richness of this twisted family make-up."

#top 5 scenes that changed the trajectory of my life #it's also the 1st time we see juan vulnerable (2nd time is his final scene where he confesses to ces about how messed up he is all his life #“we were betrayed father!” maybe if ces put his jealousy aside and helped his lil bro by letting him know about ludovico's army #he's so broken and tired. trying so hard to prove he's useful but he has a shitty luck and a jealous megalomaniac big brother #like even from a military stand point ces could've helped juan with the forli mission but noooo he wants juan humilated! #anyway. look at rodrigo being soft to his baby boy!!! he loves him immensely and trying to comfort him :( #david and jeremy not getting their emmy nominations doesn't sit right with me ngl #“i defend this family with my heart and my soul” i was really rooting for juan so bad because he was just a kid and he was Trying #it's why the people who view juan as some sort of villain are hypocritical and need to fuck off the show btw <3 #like he knows he's a fuck-up and the circumstances made him a fuck-up. no one gave him a damn chance. just ganging up on him lol #juan borgia #david oakes #jeremy irons #rodrigo borgia #the borgias #theborgiasedit #perioddramaedit #about juan #juan and rodrigo #by jen

[henrybelly]

honestly when i tried to figure out why some fans are so mad at ivypool these days i was looking through avos and. the scene where ivypool apologises to twigpaw for not supporting sending a patrol for skyclan is genuinely very sweet??

i actually saw someone characterize this as "ivypool forcing twigpaw to forgive her". is it crack you smoke. is that what you smoke. you smoke crack?

#she apologises THREE SEPARATE TIMES #she acknowledges that dovewing and tigerheart's situation made her ignore twigpaw's feelings #she reassures twigpaw that this is the right thing for the clans. she tells her she's proud of her & tc is lucky to have her #you guys do understand that to apologise you have to Do Something Wrong?? or is that the part that's so unforgivable? #i am fASCINATED by the treatment of dove and ivy by the fans in recent years #i'm still pondering it but i think there are a few root causes #1) I think a lot of people read oots as kids and hated dove & identified with ivy because of the underdog storyline #maybe this fandom worship of dovewing is kinda part of that? wanting to feel like you've grown out of fandom misogyny? #but i also feel like 2) tigerdove has really increased dovewing's popularity #and i think because ivypool is so staunchly opposed to their relationship people then have to villainise ivypool #3) is maybe too spicy of a take but to be honest #i think people are subconsciously way more comfortable with a woman whose story ends in heterosexual marriage and childrearing #dovewing's mom role in TBC to shadowsight probably helped her popularity #so ivypool whose relationship w Fernsong & her kits is much less of a focus. and is mUCH less maternal #and who still exhibits Ugly Female Emotions like anger and hurt #and who God Forbid now holds a position of authority... #is too complicated to fit into :) she's such a good mom :) she's such a good mate #dovewing is easier to like because she tends to be a victim of circumstances (🤫 and often lacks agency in her storylines) #since ivypool regularly uses her agency to Fuck Up #fans revert to idealising dovewing because not only is she too good to do bad things. she also doesn't do Things in general #never mind that ivypool is the one who sacrifices and apologises #anyway <3 i think if i made a full analysis of ivy and dove post OOTS i would get too many spicy anons so i will cower in the tags

[karamazovanon]

draw Pyotr topping Stavrogin

#Like could i at least get a fucking please. #SLASH JAY THIS ASK MADE ME LAUGH SO HARD #happy birthday dostoevsky. #woke up opened tumblr saw this in my inbox closed tumblr #anyway. thank u for this #i dont draw n/sfw but i hope somebody can fulfill your request 4 u. im rooting for you #anonasks #my asks are either really nice comments/thought provoking questions or the most out of pocket shit #fucking incredible #down BAD #also god i hope the video embeds correctly #devils

[cienie-isengardu]

Lin Kuei vs Shirai Ryu characters and teaching/training outsiders

Kuai Liang as Sub-Zero

Sheeva: What can the Lin Kuei teach the Shokan? Sub-Zero: The art of stealth and surprise. Sheeva: Enemies should be met head on.

Jax: So the Lin Kuei train Special Forces. I'll be. Sub-Zero: It was at General Blade's request. Jax: General Blade. Still not used to that.

Spawn: Ready to freeze Ten Hells over? Sub-Zero: First, we must train together. Spawn: Training's over. Time for assholes to die.

Sub-Zero: Back for another training mission? Cassie Cage: Gonna kick your ass in a snowball fight. Sub-Zero: I doubt that.

Jacqui: I've got new gear to test. Sub-Zero: Want to know if it's cold-proof? Jacqui: Let's find out.

Bi-Han as Noob Saibot (MK11 intro dialogues)

Noob Saibot: I could make you the perfect killer. Terminator: By improving my programming? Noob Saibot: By teaching you to embrace darkness.

Mileena: Out of the shadows, Bi-Han? Noob Saibot: To teach you the power of darkness. Mileena: My father has already taught me.

Frost (MK11 intro dialogues)

Frost: I can train you in the assassin's art. Sindel: Dear, I'm several millennia your senior. Frost: Which hasn't made you wiser.

Hanzo as Scorpion (MK11 intro dialogues)

Jacqui: Any chance of a Shirai Ryu training mission? Scorpion: Training outsiders is Sub-Zero's passion. Jacqui: Huh. Takeda thought you'd be interested.

Erron Black: Don't s'pose you'd teach me that rope spear. Scorpion: And divulge Shirai Ryu secrets? Erron Black: I can make you share, Scorpion.

Kuai Liang as Scorpion (MK1 intro dialogues)

Kenshi: Why won't you help train the Taira? Scorpion: The Shirai Ryu's methods aren't to be shared.

Johnny Cage: Now what's the harm in me riding along? Scorpion: The Shirai Ryu's secrets must remain so, Cage.

Ashrah: I'd do well to follow your example. Scorpion: Then start by studying my kombat.

Raiden: You honor me with this lesson. Scorpion: Pay attention. There is much to learn.

Tomas as Smoke (MK1 intro dialogues)

Smoke: "Let's go, Kung Lao. Liu Kang wants us to do this." Kung Lao: "What could this fight possibly teach me?"

Smoke: "Sareena wants to train with us." Ashrah: "She has good taste in instructors."

#mortal kombat #sub zero #bi han #kuai liang #noob saibot #tomas vrbada #frost #hanzo hasashi #scorpion #scorpion kuai liang & smoke improved a bit the shirai ryu will to teach / train outsiders #at least a bit #but you know something is truly fucked up when frost and noob are more willing to each others than hanzo #and i will be forever angry at hanzo how he denies jacqui a chance to train with him #and will forever find it funny that jacqui can and did train with sub zero kuai liang #and sure all characters meet and presumbly fight/interact but like old lin kuei seems the most comfy with teaching & sharing their knowledg #compared to shirai ryu especially hanzo's version of clan #and dunno if the shift between former lin kuei changed into shirai ryu doesn't come from their lin kuei roots? #man hanzo looks so bad compared to others

[themoonking]

finally finished the priory of the orange tree after putting it off for like a year, and putting aside the fact that it's insanely boring, way too long, and the romance is lackluster, it certainly was a choice to, in a book at least in part about finding common ground and coming together, basically go "religion a is correct and good and its believers can continue on their merry lives, but religion b is a 100% incorrect wrong bad lie founded by a wrong bad misogynistic lying liar, and everyone who believes in it should convert and in fact we're going to end the book by heavily implying that the recently-converted queen is going to slowly but surely pressure the entire country to convert because their faith is wrong and bad". like that was certainly a decision that samantha shannon made.

#idk i don't love an entire religion being painted as objectively inherently bad and wrong #especially since none of the six virtue's actual teachings are that bad like #and also esp since the only other thing we learn about galian berethnet is that he was fucking r/ped by his own mother #and was so distraught upon learning this that he killed himself #the fact that aside from that its just like 'he was a lying liar who lies and hated women' just didn't sit right with me... #the priory of the orange tree #priory of the orange tree #the roots of chaos #anti booktok #samantha shannon #like the entire time before this was revealed i was like #'ah its so obvious - both faiths are going to end up being a little bit wrong and a little bit right' #'of course it will be revealed that cleolind and galian actually worked together to defeat the nameless one' #'and learning this will really press into the characters that they themselves need to work together to defeat him again' #but instead like???? #and like even with the kalyba stuff it would have been so easy you can say like: #cleolind and galian worked together but kalyba (canonically posessive and jealous and willing to do horrible things to keep galian w/ her) #uses her magic to make cleolind believe that galian betrayed her which she then goes and tells her priory #+ in an effort to keep as low a profile as possible for herself while disguised as cleolind she makes galian believe that he did everything #and when her disguise falls he's so distraught that he kills himself and so the only one who knows the truth is kalyba #who certainly has no motivation to reveal the truth

[conartisthaiji]

i am a niclays roos apologist btw like free my man!!! he did do all of that but he was sad :(

#lyz talks #the priory of the orange tree #niclays roos #LISTEN I KNOW HE SUCKS. its ok the council (me) has elected to forgive him #god if u told me like last week that id read a book featuring so many cool women and become an apologist for the sad selfish old man #i wouldve been like lol??? im literally a misandrist??? #but like idk he's sad. and miserable. and fucked up. i like that in a man. i like him and his bad decisions!!! #roots of chaos

[jinstronaut]

this is also why i stopped using my tracked tag for a while tbh

#and i might do it again bc its just #a reminder that no one rly cares abt what i do / who i am etc #which might sound over dramatic idk how else to describe it tho its just hollow #it feels very much like a Chore and a Task and if i dont reblog things fast enough from my tag #people get very angry and/or upset with me even tho theres just #so much content and i have 0 time so everything gets queued no matter what #like this whole experience feels like a chore lmao #and it never ever used to #but now theres so much animosity if i dont behave / interact with things Properly #or whatever the make believe rules are idk #this dash can just be so negative like have we all truly descended into madness during this hiatus #bc like i get it ive been up and down and all around too but ive never been straight up MEAN to anyone in this community #and i never want to either so this entire situation thats been bubbling for months just feels like shit #bc what the fuck changed and how do we get back to where we were #i never ever ever ever felt this way before like idk the middle of last year #but ever since like last fall its just been idk. Bad #once again im sorry if ive ever done anything to upset anyone but my silence / absence doesnt mean i dont care #ive just been Incredibly busy due to some real life changes that are out of my control #i might not have energy to answer everything but i do Read everything and it does make me smile #and i save messages that are kind in my heart so i can be reminded of the root of what this blog is supposed to be #a space for something im very passionate about and previously had nowhere else to express said passion #so like idk if we all like the same things why does this weird feeling of competition linger over us lmao #why do all ccs have to fight???? each other???? when we all love and do the same things???? #i have nothing against anyone personally but what i Do take issue with is the way that ive been doing this since 2021 and im fully just #ignored and shoved aside by so many people for reasons i fully dont know or understand #so yeah idk this is a novel i just woke up from a spontaneous nap bc im so exhausted i can only stay awake for 3 hours at a time #but yeah anyways idk ! #be nice its so easy ! #tbd

[cerealmonster15]

truly part of why most things i show or whatever r sketchy doodles i did in one sitting is that it is always a race against the clock when im doing something before The Evil takes over and eats me. i get stressed about if i try to actually make something pretty bc i know i cant lol, and if i take too long [staring nervously at the google docs i keep opening and closing] on a fic it's harder to finish bc i start Thinking about it too much and if it's any good or if it's cringe or What Ever

#a battle against myself truly lol .................. #ive been making slow progress on the kalim/silver and jamil/azul story but. but. #im stuck and afraid lol #the heartslabyul thing i started writing a month ago i am like. at the end ? it's a short little simple thing but #ive frozen in like 'oh this is lame and bad and boring and cringe actually' and cant bring myself to finish #i have a cater/trey thing where i wrote up the idea/concept notes when the idea came to me #bc it's both a ship fic and also a character/relationship study #but then thats one where im extra afraid to write it bc it's likeohhh i want it to be good and handled well and i want my #point to come across and i dont want to fuck it up #grrr grrr grrr the downside of perception is thinking too much of. the perception of others JKLFDSJKFLJS #i want to be FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE #also i just have. personal issues. self love issues LOL but im not getting into that rn. #i also have had nasty allergies all week girl help it's raining pollen and my throats fucked up #i took a covid test today just in case and it was negative #and my partner hasnt gotten sick from kissing me so im more sure its allergies lol but OUGHGHGHGHH feels ick #ok anyway. fics and fanart or w/e. it all comes back to the root problem of I Have Low Self Esteem GOODBYE!!!! #🤧🤧🤧!!!!!!!!!!!

[bumblingbabooshka]

B'Elanna in 'Maneuvers'

#SHE WAS SO GOOD IN THIS ONE <3 #I was rooting so bad for her when she was trying to convince Janeway to go easier on Chakotay #she cares so much about her friends <3 #speaking of...Seska was her BEST friend????? #You can tell they didn't give a FUCK about women bc Seska & B'Elanna's apparently strong friendship like literally never comes up #all in all Seska is a really wasted character =_= her writing is so 'men did this' ... like c'mon. #but anyway back to B'Elanna - she literally sounds like she's about to cry as she tries to convince Janeway not to abandon Chakotay #& I was like 'O H HONEY!!!!!' #It makes me think B'Elanna might be the type of person who cries when she gets mad enough (and she hates it) #star trek screenshots #I like her lil berries & cream cut better than the long bob she has in later seasons #curly hair is my favorite obviously but there's a charm to this one I think! #IMPORTANT things to (me): Tuvok's little hand vein & B'Elanna's little mole <3 #B'Elanna Torres

[ejacutastic]

broke another tooth apparently

#NOT the same as chipping a tooth #I mean like vertically cracked partially in half #honestly doesn't hurt that bad but the current filling in it is HUGE so I'm inevitably going to end up having a root canal #but really the crown prep is the worst fucking part #medical

[qilinkisser]

I need to stop engaging in things that make me compare the attention I get with others. unfortunately if I want to exist on the internet at all I have basically no choice. sorry about that 😔😔

#Vents 🌧️ #I think I may die (exaggeration. probably) #just. bad bad bad all around #unfortunately jealousy is rooted deeply into my heart. I love everyone so so much and I wish I got that love back #I feel like it's filling up my chest. its surrounding my lungs and tightening my body #I can't fucking do this anymore. I can't do this #every time I finally think I have enough of anything it's never enough because everyone around me gets more #it hurts. I can't fucking do this. but I don't know where else to turn to #am I supposed to take a break from the thing that was supposed to comfort me? the outside world isn't any better #perhaps I'm condemned to a life where I can do nothing but simply get over myself.. #sorry. I didn't mean to. say all of this #I'll probably delete this later but I need this out of me now

[sapphicclaw]

JESPER FUCKING KISSED KUWEI?? AND WYLAN WALKED IN??? FFFUUUUCCCKKKKK JESPER I WAS ROOTING FOR YOU FUCK

#crooked kingdom #six of crows #6oc #six of crows wylan #soc wylan #six of crows jesper #soc jesper #jesper fahey #wylan van eck #jesper x wylan #wylan x jesper #wesper #i was rooting for you #how do you fuck up so bad #what the fuck #bookblr #book readers #bookworm #book spoilers

[maddy-ferguson]

This might be an odd complaint but I really don’t like how people act like Byler endgame would just excuse every other shitty thing that’s been done to everyone but conveniently attractive presumably straight white men in this show writing-wise. I’d be more than happy to have Byler be endgame and I expect it, but the amount of racism that’s been brushed off is ridiculous in and outside of the show. The weird St*ncy moments this season, the fact that she doesn’t get a storyline related to her trauma. Even season three was incredibly white of them. Joyce not getting hardly any scenes with Jonathan and Will these recent seasons. All of it and more—it won’t suddenly go away and make everyone on that writing team geniuses. And this isn’t to sound ungrateful or anything, but it really is disappointing sometimes. They exceed tremendously at some points such as the Upside Down lore but as for other aspects…

not an odd complaint at all! the only thing byler endgame makes okay is the fact that they didn't use will's feelings to fix a straight couple. there's so many other things they got wrong, and a lot of it has to do with the fact that the people writing the show are white men. and white women. white people

NOTHING they do could ever make what they did to lucas right. having their one black character go against the little white girl in season 1 which resulted in people being racist to caleb irl, having billy literally get physical with lucas and say he's gonna kill him and then saying in an interview that they "think" that billy was racist like they didn't write it themselves, the fact that it's literally never brought up again...lol. i know stranger things isn't a "this thing that happened was wrong. let's talk about it and try to make it better :)" type of show but still. it's crazy. also this regarding erica in season four

and you don't even have to dig that deep to find things that byler endgame won't fix: like you said, stncy being pushed on us and on nancy again in season 4? 98% sure it won't be endgame but like. why did you have to put us through that. WHY. and yeah lol, remember when they brought nancy back to that pool at the end of volume 1 like they remembered she was traumatized by the death of her best friend and then...nothing happened? idk, it's just so weird

also, the byers being sidelined? for will i guess you can rationalize it and come up with great and convincing meta reasons as to why his character was sidelined in seasons 3 and 4 (which, yeah, fascinating, i will still hate it ten years from now, no matter how important to season 5 will is), but what about jonathan? what about joyce? how does one justify the fact that winona went from being the reason 75% of people older than 15 started watching the show to having less screentime than fucking jason in season 4? it is annoying when people act like byler endgame will make everything right and will make stranger things a perfect show because it really won't

#also. s5 probably won't be as will-centric as most bylers/will stans are imagining #realistically😭 #i'm sure it will be but yk #it's not like this is a season of skam where everything is about one character yk this is stranger things #is joyce having less screentime than jason true idk i read that on the news with no source website and i'm repeating it. #i know writers saying they 'think' a character felt this way is like a thing they do sometimes but it annoys the fuck out of me in #this situation here #it's like whoopsie yeah he's a little racist. maybe! who knows though ^^ not me the person who invented him #can i also just say steve in general #this won't help me beat the steve hater allegations and i like him i promise but the fact that the most popular character in their the #freaks are great and we are rooting for them and for the underdog at all times show is mr normal straight guy is so #and it's their own fault (obviously) #there's a lot of other things i wanted to say like i know what they're saying with the show isn't bad right it's like i just said #but the execution is so questionable and acting like it isn't simply because the gay kid isn't gonna end up heartbroken alone or dead #is kind of offensive. even though people mean well #ask

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

HI HI MAC. I JUST WATCHED THE NEW GEMINI VIDEO (was going 2 watch it this morning but i forgor 💀) HOLYYYY SHIT i am so creeped out EAUGH it was so good. creepy faces fuck me up AUGHHH. many thoughts head full. also i apparently love drawing characters as teru vash plush bc i started drawing teru vash and then realized oh iam just. drawing patton. so then i drew el woowoo 2 keep him company!! holds out my hands and places these guys in ur palm <3

OH FUCK LITTLE GUYS...... ohbtheyre so perfect. squeezing them like stress balls. <3333

UGH THE GEMINI HOME VIDEO. GOD. I KNOW. i rewatched it like 3 times this morning. that bit after it says the deal is broken with the body that gets progressively more shriveled up made me feel soooo fucking crawly. also the comeback of the jack dialogue. fuck yes. jack do you see me... i have become something else... im still in here dont leave me you bastards..... god that bit was so cool. the face jn the window at the end was what absolutely broke me last night tho like holy fuck thay shit gets me so bad

#patton doing the little.... dog peace sign pose. hell yes #i want to shove patton in vash in the same room for like 3 hours and see what happens . theyd fucking break down i think #BACK TO GHE THO LIKE. UGHRGGHH. THE MOUTH MOVING. THE SILENCE. IT FUCKS ME UP #reminded me of the bit a few episodes ago where they find the deep root disease victim in their house and its just like. #an exposed nervous system sitting in a chair. and they get closer and the eye moves. #like thays the kind of shit that freezes me to my BONES. makes all the blood drain out of my face. u know. its so freaky #ITS THE SAME REASON WHY AMIGARA FAULT GETS ME SO BAD. SMTH THAT USED TO BE HUMAN SHAPED GETTING ALL STRETCHED OUT AND CONTORTED AND WEIRD. #FUCKED UP #I LOVE IT #ghe is soooo fucking good dude #asks #friends!!! #anachronistic-falsehood #hows ur night whiskey i hope ur night is good. i love ur art so much its sooo cute #im like. dying for my vash plushie to come in the mail. i wanna caryy him around in my comfot backpack. #i wanna take him on vacation with me and show him the ocean. #theyre supposed 2 be like. either manufactured or shipped in june right???????? #it would b a MIRACLE if vash plushie showed up before my birthday. epic present 4 me #we ordered from the same website ri ght???? did u get urs from meccha japan. #i dont remember what the shipping details said and i cannot find them without signing in or making an account smh #anyway. i am rabling. i want vash plushie #hi

[morningmarionette]

finished rereading and annotating Great Gatsby. Daisy and Tom make me sick /non negative.

#dorian reads classics #dorians great gatsby analyses <3 #no bc like i cant even bring myself to hate Tom by the end of the book anymore #everytime i reread it i get to page 179 (lmao) and its just like. he doesnt even see what he did as wrong. #he is able to completely justify himself and his actions bc its Right By Him and like while its not right hes so deep rooted in his beliefs #but also because he doesnt want to be the Bad Guy in this situation where most everyone is a bad guy. Ough. #AND THEN AND THEN #'[...] They were careless people; Tom and Daisy-they smashed up things and creatures and then retreated back into their money...' #'...or their vast carelessness; or whatever it was that kept them together; and let other people clean up the mess they had made' #(pg 179; The Great Gatsby; F. Scott Fitzgerald) #<btw guys that credit took me three times to type it correctly in the right format pls appreciate it) #THAT PARAGRAPH MAKES ME SO SICK BC THE PARALLELS??? #Absolutely UNMATCHED. #This might seem really silly and really fucking stupid but I really hope Fitzgerald knows that theres someone SO autistic bc this book #that it consumes most of his thoughts (its me.) #Yall should see the book mark Ive been using too bro...