#i guess there are still good ppl out there

[cottoncandyhairedrgodess]

CHAOS THEORY TRAILER SPOILERS CUZ IT BLEW MY FREAKIN MIND OMGG

FIRST OF ALL BROOKLYN DEAD?? OMG it hardly sunk in and yet I’m still shook I HOPE SHE EITHER ESCAPED OR JUST CAPTURED PLEASE DONT BE DEAD DEAD

also side note I feel like they would be freaking out more if she died??? Besides worrying for themselves in danger like more sad ig for her (especially Kenji, like dude ur gf died???) They prob will in the first ep of the show tho

THEIR CHARACTER DESIGNS ARE SOMETHING like idk what to feel they’re not bad buts at the same time I feel a little weird about them MAYBE ITS BECAUSE WE SAW HOW THEY LOOKED AS YOUNG PPL SO ITS ODD TO SEE THEM GROWN UP

LIKE I SAID THEY KINDA LOOK LIKE SIMS

YAZ HAS BANGS?? ITS COOL THO LIKE SHE KINDA LOOKS BADASS

DOES KENJI HAVE A BOWLCUT 😭😭 SOMEONE GIVE MAN A GOOD HAIRCUT

BENS DESIGN IS GROWING ON ME (still a Bit goofy)

DARIUS LOOKS GOOD AS ALWAYS

SAMMY LOOKS CUTE SHE HAS SHORT HAIR AND I THINK I SAW PINK

BROOKLYN I COULDNT REALLY SEE BUT HER HAIR WAS DYED SOME COLOR AND IT WAS SHORT AND TO THE SIDE? HOPEFULLY WELL HAVE MORE THAN JUST THAT ONE CLIP OF HER

THEY ALL LOOK DIFFERENT FROM THEIR FINALE DESIGNS BUT IN A GOOD WAY

I ALSO WISH WE CAN SEE THEYRE FULL DESIGNS

IMMA GO THRU THE TRAILER LATER AND LIKE PAUSE AND SCREENSHOT EACH PART TO SEE HOW THEY LOOK PROPERLY IM JUST EXCITED RN

OKAY NOW THE PLOT

SO OBVIOUSLY “someone’s hunting us Darius” SO SOMEONES AFTER THEM

it’s prob someone new and I’m guessing someone from either the government or Jurassic world just someone powerful

everything’s def gonna be darker which I’m excited for!!

also they said they’re using raptors to hunt them and I’m not sure by that so maybe they mean like they’re controlling them again or idk

im kinda forgetting the trailer so imma rewatch again and prob make another post saying more BUT THIS IS A LOT ALREADY

AHHH SO EXCITED FOR CHAOS THEORY

#Jwct #jwct spoilers #camp cretacous #camp cretaceous spoilers #jurassic world chaos theory #jurrasic world camp cretaceous #Jwcc #ALSO I DIDNT PROOFREAD THIS SO SORRY IF ITS HARD TO UNDERSTAND #wow I haven’t posted in a while

[asteracaea]

guys, a stranger from reddit got me the long sleeve tour tee and is mailing it to me at cost, no more, and i am truly overwhelmed and touched by the kindness

#swifties can be good and kind sometimes #seriously my heart is overflowing #v emotional #especially seeing all the scalpers buying shit and marking it up 500% #i am so full of gratitude! #i guess there are still good ppl out there #i wanted it but i didn't see it at my philly show for some reason! #i've been looking for it on ebay and mercari but they're all twice or 3 times the retail price #i had just about given up and decided to wait till after tour when maybe it would be for sale on her site #i had also been thinking of deleting the reddit app #and then this kind king offered to get things for ppl #😭 #eras tour #💗

[turtleblogatlast]

No but like every time I think about Splinter and what he had to go through just to keep the boys alive, my heart hurts for him so badly. Is he perfect? No not at all, but none of them are and by god does he love his sons.

The fact that all of them are alive, and grew to thrive despite the circumstances surrounding them is a testament of how much Splinter loves his boys. He raised four babies following the most traumatic time of his life, all alone with nothing but the sewers to house them (to hide them.) I feel like he’s not given the credit he deserves for all he’s done.

And I get that it’s easy to hold up his flaws and faults when it comes to parenting, I myself like looking into them because flawed characters are super interesting and said flaws make them more realistic and engaging, but he tries, and again, so many others would have given up on the boys or failed along the way but Splinter didn’t.

He’s their father, for all his faults he did his damndest to make sure they survived.

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt splinter #rise splinter #he’s not perfect as I’ve said #and he’s got a whole slew of flaws and faults #but he’s a person - we are all flawed #he loves his sons dearly dearly dearly even if he struggles along the way to show that #parenting is not easy! especially as a traumatized mutant who is forced to do it alone #side note but I think this is one of the reasons why it kiiiiiinda ruffles my feathers to see so many people assign parentification to Raph #and in turn make Splinter out to be way worse and way more distant than he is in canon? #like idk I just don’t see what so many others see ig but maybe that’s just me #i guess my thoughts are like- let parents have flaws without villainizing them? #they’re still parents even if they mess up? #we can discuss the repercussions of a parents actions on a child while not casting that parent as an awful person #parents are peopleeee #I could go on but yeahhh #idk it bothers me seeing splinter’s efforts undermined when he’s been through so much #idk if ppl realized this by now but I love me some flawed characters #tho I do think in this fandom the ones whose faults are discussed the most are like #Splinter mostly then Draxum then Leo #of the main cast #and in Splinters case in particular his faults are made to cover his good qualities which makes me sad #because he is SO INTERESTING #they’re all flawed characters and tbh so interesting because their flaws are ALSO their strengths in many aspects

[cinna-bunnie]

i like modding bc it gives me sm more control over the semantics of my gaming experience. if i was playing video games the same way i was like 10yrs ago i don't know if I'd still be into them! 😹

for the past year almost, every time i get a new game one of the first things i do is look into how to mod it lmao.

#more than half the time either devs share tools themselves or there's a discord channel for modding #but there r more general decompilers u can use to mess around with the code #it's interesting.. I've always wondered how ppl made mods and i guess i slowly figured it out :› #i don't necessarily make a bunch of changes right off the bat it's more so just making sure i know How to make those changes and #where i would want to look to make them. still gotta play some amount first to actually know what u want to mod exactly #also good for context on what's in the files ur changing lol

[anaalnathrakhs]

oh god ed reddit is having the “uwu anorexia isn’t rooted in fatphobia my mental illness is not abt you” talk again please god help me

fatphobia doesn’t mean “being a meanie to fat ppl” i’m begging you to use critical thinking skills for five seconds and apply what you know about literally any other form of oppression to this situation.

people’s point isn’t that you having anorexia makes them feel bad and therefore you’re a bad fatphobic person.

they’re pointing out how the deeply ingrained fatphobia our society upholds, from misconceptions about health to moralization of looks and weight, including yes being jerks to fat ppl’s faces bc they’re fat, is affecting what you think about your own looks, weight, health, body, clothes, eating habits, etc.

the logic isn’t “you became anorexic because you hate fat people so much you never wanted to be fat yourself (and that makes you a bad person)” it’s “fatphobia is a prism that transforms the root cause of your ed into disordered thoughts, behaviors, and patterns (and unlearning fatphobia will help you with recovery and harm-reduction)”

like. it’s not for no reason that anorexia is a disorder that disproportionatedly affects women. it’s not for no reason that there’s sky high comorbidity rates for eds and ocd. it’s not for no reason that people who need control in their lives so badly that they develop a mental disorder abt it get obssessed with being skinny and not with being a sumo. it’s not for no reason that ppl who feel the need to retract to childhood due to trauma envy things like being skinny light and frail, instead of being a tubby baby. it’s not for no reason that there is an incredibly common anorexic thought pattern (internal and self-directed, don’t make me say what i didn’t say) that associaties restriction and weight loss with moral goodness.

for each of these there IS a number of exceptions, but you can see case by case how the root cause (trauma, need for control, for self-destruction, growing up poor, whatever you think is “unrelated to fatphobia” basically) is processed through the prism of the fatphobic culture we’ve all been raised in. some people just, voluntarily or not, deal with those root causes in different way, which might or might not be healthy. but it’s a consequence of ambiant fatphobia that “i should starve and be skinny about it” is a statistically pretty common response to this distress.

the point isn’t “it’s fatphobic that you don’t deal with your neuroses in a body positive way uwu” the point is that no matter how cool you are with fat people on like, a personal level, you’ve been (like the rest of us) bombarded with fatphobic thought patterns your entire life basically, both directly fatphobic things and reactions to this fatphobia. maybe spoken to you directly, maybe not. maybe about you maybe about other people. you live in a society that places moral values into looks and health, and also pushes some deeply rooted falsehoods about how those things tie into each other. you have a disorder defined by obsessive behaviors. maybe, just maybe, deconstructing the logic that those obsessives behaviors are based upon will help you deal with this disorder. and recover or reduce harm.

basically, anorexia isn’t “getting skinny disorder” it’s “obsession disorder”, obsession with looking attractive, or pleasing your family, or going back to being a kid, or being healthy, or being fit, or being driven and capable, or being worth saving, or having your suffering known, or having control over something, or whatever. the fatphobia that is omnipresent (and i repeat, omnipresent, nobody is singling you out as a bad fatphobic meanie, or even talking about your behavior towards other people around you) in our society picks the direction in which many many people will express that disorder.

of course if you live in a society that tells you “being fat is morally bad” at every turn, when you start developping an obssessive pathological need to control things, without another factor weighting in, most people’s default reaction will be anorexia. food is a regular fixture of everybody’s life, everyone wants to be morally good, and even if we know/understand/believe to an extent the flaws of that “fat = bad” logic we know the world around us still believes it, and nobody wants to be treated like shit. we can think it’s stupid and fight against fatphobia and work to treat fat ppl better in our lives and support body positivity, but in any case, one always judges oneself on different metrics than they judge others, cuz we control our self-improvement. that’s natural. just it doesn’t mesh well with a pathologically obssessive need for control above self-preservation.

#ed tw #ana #notprojusttags #proana #ed #last year i got into an argument abt this that was so potent #it caused me to turn all my childhood attempts of having anorexia into actually having purging disorder #out of fucking spite #guess what you dicks from last year i have anorexia now i still think you're wrong #in an act of good faith i'll say i'm ready to admit that maybe it's just that my debating skills suck #maybe i'm just a shitty argumentative writer #maybe i didn't formulate things right and that's why people got the wrong idea #and that's not a maybe i was not considerate enough of causes of anorexia that aren't related to weight directly #like food insecurity as a child and whatnot #however #no matter how bad the delivery might've been #we're not working with a completely different dictionary here #i remember people actively arguing with things i literally said the opposite of #you can't chalk everyone and everything up to that but man some ppl were really not in a state to have this kind of discussion #come back after your omad #broadcasting my misery #discourse #vent #fatphobia #fatphobia tw

[skunkes]

what they dont tell you about being incredibly introspective is that you'll think you're done making realizations and then you'll just make more realizations always all the time forever

#dude. guess who just found out the reason he's incapable of imagining himself in a good relationship #is bc he's never witnessed any growing up. #my parents dont have a relationship i would want #only one of my siblings is married and her husband sucks. other has never dated while ive been alive (im much younger) #+ my other sibling had. a strange relationship i wont mention details of but this was also like 5 yrs ago and he hasnt dated since #i have very few close friends and none of them dated as we grew up either #or even with some its like. i wldnt want your relationship lol... #the only Good relationships i see are online from ppl i follow. and then i cant trust em bc we only see the Good Parts #so like. do they even exist... i dont think so.... #if i wasnt starved for physical touch id consider throwing in the towel permanently #but idk maybe ill buy one of those pillows with the arms that wrap around you #and a few more **** and try and cope with it in kenland or al's farm forever #talkys #im still 100% serious about ppl who have good relationships being lucky bc i feel like #the chances of finding someone you mesh with and are attracted to and can communicate with. are so slim. #i can barely ever find someone meeting one of many requirements. i can barely make friends. etc

[httpiastri]

broccoli boy 🥺

#i sincerely apologize to everyone who’s getting annoyed about me posting so much about ppl who aren’t oscar 😶 #im just yk still kinda freaking out about this :)) #there will be osc posts this weekend too #don’t you worry #anyways #the broccoli boy <3333 please he’s so cute #imagine calling someone with those arms ‘cute’ #now my fault that he is super cute 😁😁 #not* #love to see him in the trident clothes :) #looks very good #ALSO no one’s gonna read this far but if someone is #nocco…. is that actually a thing outside of sweden??? #because i know Paul is like sponsored by nocco in estonia #but i thought that since it’s a swedish brand then only sweden had it kinda #so when i saw him sponsored by it i was like :0 #(like not when i saw it in these pics… when i saw it a long time ago) #so i guess lmk if you have nocco where you’re from 😍 #f1 #f2 #paul aron

[lanaluthorlang]

smallville clark frustrates me to no end, but he also has the prettiest smile I’ve ever seen so that makes everything alright in the end

#smallville #clark Kent #like I can look at his character and the way he treats other ppl and acts out when things don’t go his way and think #ah yes this is just him growing and maturing into superman #but also I’m not sure if the writers are purposely writing him like That yknow? #bc eventually the show just stops challenging him #like the only character that really challenges his worldview is Oliver but the writers LIKE Ollie so he’s allowed to be nuanced #unlike some other characters… #then there’s Tess but she’s never truly evil and Clark’s goodness gets to rub off on her and she’s welcomed onto the team #and I guess that’s showing that Clark has learned from his mistakes with Lex #it works on paper but it’s still kind of messy bc clark HAS to be the beacon of morality on this show

[writings-on-the-moon]

I don’t know if it’s a headcanon for the sake of angst, or if people genuinely believe this: but where did we get the idea that Morro starved Lloyd to make him easier to possess?

At least, when I look at this dialogue.

“This armor, it weakens me. At the same time, Lloyd is fighting my possession.” - Stiix and Stones.

“Lloyd's spirit continues to fight my possession. He's getting stronger.” Peak-a-Boo.

“Save your strength, because I'll be needing it.” - The Crooked Path.

This whole Possession has been a double-edged sword. Now especially that last line? That’s the main reason I highly doubt Morro was starving Lloyd. Whatever Lloyd feels, so does he. If Lloyd is hungry, hurt and weak, that’s not going to be helping anyone. Not saying this makes Morro a nice guy, just that for all that he’s got a list of wrongs; starving someone likely isn’t one of them.

#Ninjago #Lloyd Garmadon #Morro #Season 5 Possession #Anyone is free to HC what they want but *gestures* #also don't think he did that bc he was thirsty soon as he returned #and that he didn't make Lloyd drink alcohol bc surely a bar serves water or non alcoholic drinks as well #he’s in a HUMAN body it won’t kill him. The liquid is on the inside not outside #he also seems to prefer complaining about Lloyd and making tiny fists like an angry toddler #And pushing himself through icy mountains even when Soul Archer says to ditch. Morro is so the type to be sick and near black out #But still continue to stubbornly walk as if he’s fine since he’s all >:( in the season and making struggling pained noises #I guess I’m mostly mentioning it bc re: double edged sword. Nobody is having a good time. It’s not Morro abusing Lloyd 24/7 as some think #He’s got more important stuff to do than waste time punching/stabbing/starving #the body he’s possessing before climbing a literal 55 thousand feet ice mountain a minute later #(So yes of course I have trouble buying the “he made Lloyd bleed out to make him weak”) I see in fic too how’d you guess #I know why ppl write it that way...I just struggle to buy the logic #Morrology

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

:(

#cw animal injury #i turned on the lights and our dog is covered in blood like??? hello??? #since when were you doing that and why didn't you tell me??? *cue frantic searching for gauze* #there's a big cut where his ankle meets his leg (inside of the hind right leg) #i have no idea how that happened #our dogs play rough but have never drawn blood #and he was outside alone and he was acting normally and not whining or anything? like speak up man i need to know this shit #his name is bunny btw and he's a big dog. purebred great pyrenees(?) if the ppl we got him from are to be trusted #i don't know how he got hurt #its way too big/deep for a cat to have done it and even if they're really upset they just paw at his face #my only guess is that there's something sharp in the yard? but it's too dark to look #idfk but we found the gauze and stuff and he did Not like that process good thing there were 3 ppl awake to hold him down safely #he still didn't whine through all of that though like. pls speak up man. we gotta know if ur in pain so we can fix it #i'm hoping it doesn't get infected. we don't have money to go to the vet but he's my sister's dog and she might actually kill someone if #he isn't fine #she has a theory that he may have gotten cut on smth our brother threw out there and like. she may literally kill him if this #was his fault and bunny isn't fine #so far he seems fine there wasn't too much blood and there seems to just be the one cut #but i didn't hear him yelp or whine or anything #and he didn't seem to be limping but the lights were off #idk man but we have cleaned him up as best we can for now but it is the middle of the night so we'll see what we can do in the morning

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#tfw youre hanging out with friends and u throw out controversial take after controversial take #like its me hi im the hater its me #u wanna hear them? i mean thrm in in like the silliest way possible. its not that serious lol #i hated h4n solo growing up and still do. i dont think i like the writing of ne1l gaim4n and only liked the 1st season of g0od 0mens #i thought the 1st season of 0ur flag was fine and didnt really like the 2nd. i dont think anyone in l0rd of the rings is hot. especially #not 4aragon. leg0las is like whatever. sam is my favorite character. i also didnt like l0rd of the rings when i 1st watched it #the gathering was a watch party for that 1st movie and i like it way more now lol. also i dont like overt romance. i like the implication #of romance. if u kiss onscreen im like 99% of thr time not interested. also while im being a hater. i dont thibk steven king is a good #writer and domt like his books. i like the idea of them. wish they were written by anyone else lol. also im too dyslex1c to read physical #books :-( which no one vibes with bc everyone's a grad student overachiever lol. and back to back it all sounds like im trying to b #contrary but i promise its maybe just that i have weird standards. like i also hated movies about animals growing up. it made me mad that #those movies were trying to manipulate my feelings. like jesus child chill tf out. i would also randomly decide i hated lots of things and #characters. some of which i stand by today but most of which im like lol chill #so idk maybe i just have bad opinions. i also wander the earth wearing outfits that i pick out bc it feels like im playing dressup #and i have unhinged options abt narut0. sas and naru fall into the 1% of kisses i care abt lmao #and unhinged options abt bleach the show. idk maybe im just kinda weird. i also study organisms that most ppl look at as globs of goo #and i used to study bits of dirt. my brain was just build ever so slightly weird. not too weird. just enough that i have quote unquote #controversial takes ans im not afraid to say them in a room full of ppl who disagree with me bc its really not that serious lol #i dunno i just think its kinda funny i guess #im just slightly weird in the least interesting way possible #unrelated #also i don't yuvk other ppls yum im just like ay not for me i guess

[mossflower]

stares at my bio

#realistically. i do not post owl house anymore and haven’t really for months. and am unlikely to post about it again #but i feel weird taking it out!! i loved that show!! i still love it!! i’m just not fandombrained abt it anymore #like it’s not even on the backburner like tma or good omens is. dw is a long term interest. i’m actively into tlt #i think of toh as a show i love. just not in that way anymore ok this sounds like a breakup why am i being so dramatic #tbh i do not miss the fandom. kinda a cesspit of deranged takes and insane discourse. made me a main tags avoider #it felt like secondary school? everyone being weirdly mean and hiding it under a progressive skin and jokes? #lbr thats bc most ppl were teenagers. me included lol #but it was more good than bad. staying up late to watch the streams and getting excited over theories and all of it. i’ll miss that part #but the next time i say ‘hey this cartoon looks pretty cool’ i need someone to bodily tackle me to the ground and stop me. it’s not worth i #rip morgan’s animation era 2020-2023 i guess <3 #nvm. i’ll just replace toh with homestuck! which is still kinda wild to me lol #like if you told the me of a year ago that i would be into homestuck more than toh rn i would not have believed you #morganposting

[racke7]

Me vs FF14 part... 2?

It's taken me pretty much three full days of running from cutscene to cutscene. But I've finally reached Heavensward.

And like... on some level? I'm kind of offended?

Like, a part of me genuinely wants to replay the entire game from the start "as something else" (different main-class, different race, different starting-area, whichever), because the dungeon-queuing system is actually really fun when you start to Understand it.

As in, FF14 has somehow made an MMO that has almost eliminated the feeling that it is a level-grind? Partially? It's turned the whole thing into a surprisingly comfortable level of (limited, but genuine) social interaction.

To the point where even someone who isn't obsessively grind-focused like me, can genuinely enjoy themselves. Just queuing up for dungeons, Hunting some bounties, and-...

And then FF14 has so many fucking quests that it literally chokes the life out of the gameplay.

As an example, one of their biggest dungeon-draws (bcs high rewards) is a quest that almost everyone hates playing. Because doing that dungeon means watching literally eighteen minutes of unskippable cutscenes.

And that's with them having reduced the amount of cutscenes in that dungeon, because the players complained so much about them.

Like... I'd be perfectly happy replaying the game from the start with a different character, even knowing that leveling isn't some kind of pain-free thing. But the thought of having to restart the fucking Main-Quest? Of having to spend literal days just running back-and-forth to cutscenes?

I'm currently feeling a bit burned-out as a result of the binge I went on to get here, but I'm pretty damn sure that I wouldn't replay this fucking thing even if you paid me for it.

(And, of course, Heavensward also has a Main-Quest continuation that you have to follow. And now I'm not even allowed to fly everywhere to cut down on the "running back-and-forth"-part of my complaints. Not until they arbitrarily allow me to discover flight for the new areas, by going through even more of the Main-Quest.)

(Not to mention that now I have to go back and do even more Class-quests, with their own cutscenes, in order to unlock a bunch of skills.)

(I'm very fond of the "the church is evil because it doesn't let you fuck dragons"-meme, and I'm very much seeing it. But like... come the fuck on. Why is this MMO a feature-length movie-series? Why can't I just play the game and have fun?)

#and yes. i'm very much aware that ''you can do anything with one character'' #bcs everyone gets one (1) race-changing potion. and classes can be switched out super-easily. but that's not the point. #video games #ff14 #rants #personal stuff #also like... i'm unemployed and waiting for my classes to begin a few weeks from now. i have INFINITE free-time. #and i still feel like ff14 is actively trying to waste my time by ''telling a story'' that should be in a single-player game. #... actually. that'd explain a lot. did the writers of this game learn to write from single-player games? #is that why there are so many cutscenes and minor characters to constantly juggle? did nobody tell them that they were making an MMO? #(the feeling of going ''all-in'' on the genuineness in the cutscenes even when it's corny as shit? good.) #(being forced to sit through cutscene after cutscene instead of actually playing the game? bad.) #like... even just the dungeon-cutscenes? to some degree it's expected that you SHOULD skip them? bcs you're making others wait? #(and during the Raids. that means outright being left behind. ain't nobody stopping for anyone.) #so you're losing a massive bit of story-telling. bcs it's trying to tell that story in the WORST place. #it's a good story? i guess? but it's so fucking inconvenient to _play the game around_ that it feels more like a chore than an adventure. #and in a single-person game? i think it'd be great. maybe not entirely my kettle of fish. but genuinely good. but as an MMO? #like i get that a lot of it has been added onto it over the span of YEARS and that ppl playing it since launch would've been desperate #for new content. despite how the amount of content seems incredibly overwhelming for new players. #but jesus fuck. at least let people wanting to start a new character to just... skip the fucking thing? they've already seen it once. #* nevermind. they thought of that. they're selling ''story-skip''-potions for 10$. wow. just... wow.

[yugiohz]

I won't publish the ask becuase i was asked to keep it unpublished but i still want to reply so:

i agree that i should have worded my post better even if it wasn't meant to be taken seriously so I'll keep that in mind :) language matters and I apologized for whoever i hurt

i still think it's difficult to talk sth like this out, especially when it's just anonymous messages and again, I'm not disagreeing with anything that was said but it's still not that easy to talk this out properly when there is no partner/opposite

like i guess it makes sense that my mutuals and friends didn't read it in bad faith and defended me, but it's also a justified reaction to criticize what i said, which is why i apologized in my final post (just in the tags but i meant it lol)

i have nothing else to say except that I'm def keeping this whole thing in mind :-)

dont rbelog etc im on my laptop i cant disable reblogs

#sth like this happens rarely on this blog so its whatever but i wish ppl would just reply with their blogs on dm me i dont biteee wallah #its much easier to try to communicate and listen to each other in good faith if u have a name or blog #even if thats still not a real identity but i guess u get what i mean #but i also understand that that might put u on the spot as u said this blog unfortunately has a large following so i understand why people #prefer anonymous and unpublished messages i dont wanna drag this out either #just wanted to let you know i read it and i took it to hear uwu #i guess i was irritated that my oomfs read my post in good faith but i cant expect that of random ppl online that's on me #i keep forgetting this is a public site and im a stranger to u guys so next time i will be more careful :)

[aroaceofthesea]

I thought i had friends but turns out they have a group chat without me and when i found out i asked one of them if they could add me but its been over a week and i havent heard about it again

#i mean i understand why they have it #i guess it evolved from the group they made when they started going out which i consciously avoided #but idk it feels weird that now that they use it for other things too they didnt add me #and that when i saw it i was like oh i dont think im there! and the one i was talking about was like oh thats true do you want to be added? #and idk its not the first time it happened either #when they made a group chat with the guys they also didnt include me and i thought it was also bc it was for going out #(which it was) #but turns out a couple guys who also never or almost never go out were actually there so idk #not feeling great about my uni friends these days #at least im on pretty good terms with most of the class so i dont think it will be very hard to change groups? #like permanently i dont think ill be able to until next year starts (yay anxiety) #but i still spend like most breaks etc with other ppl bc at this point idk i dont trust my friends a lot.... #also doesnt help that my 2 closest friends barely come anymore😔 #mine #uni #rant

[whydoifeelthisquiet]

Morality OCD sucks

#abby doesnt shut up #I’m constantly second guessing what I put on my blog and how I live my life #and I’m still feeling extreme guilt and confusion about this taylor situation #I’m disappointed in her bc I know she’s capable of great activism and has a good heart #but has no prob staying silent and associating with bigots #but then I’m like there’s only so much I can do in holding her accountable even if I try #and at this point I think it’s honestly best to move forward doing the work in my own life bc it’s #counterintuitive to call her out and not look at myself #I still love her and I’m hurt can both exist? #so it’s been weighing on me and I feel like a terrible person no matter what happens lol #and I’m not worried about the optics of looking like a bad person I’m worried about hurting ppl I love #I’m worried about what silence does #does this make sense? can anyone relate?