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am-i-the-asshole-official · 2 months

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AITA for not wanting to babysit my nephews?

Before you judge me based on that, I know how bad it sounds - there is a lot of context behind it.

So, I'm 17 and in my last year of high school. My older sister, Hum, 23 and has two kids, both under the age of three. I have a younger sister too, CJ, who is 16.

(The father of Hum's kids is an asshole, which is why he is not mentioned. His family is the same.)

A few months back, around early November, Hum asked CJ to stay with her kids in the car while she went shopping for food (CJ has a boyfriend that lives semi-nearby that she usually stays with on weekends). Now I know that it sounds reasonable, but CJ later told me and our parents that Hum had borrowed money from her (100+) and is yet to pay her back.

Hum does not have a job, and gets money from the government to keep her and the boys healthy and happy (roughly 1100 per fortnight, with a varying payment each week). She often complains about being out of food or not having enough money to buy things that she needs, which I understand but whenever I stay with her she always has a cupboard and fridge full of food.

CJ said no, because she wanted to stay at her boyfriend's house and because it's common for Hum to take a long time to shop and get things that she doesn't actually need. This caused Hum to essentially blow up at her, calling her a slut and saying that CJ only ever comes around anymore when she gets something out of it (which is a lie. CJ has spent probably the most time with Hum and the boys just because she wanted to).

Now, my parents and Hum have always had a rocky relationship from when I was younger, enough so that Hum stopped living at home at roughly CJ's age. They've mended it in the past few years, but Hum does still occasionally argue with them or text them hurtful things.

When CJ told our parents about what Hum said to her, they confronted her about it. It eventually got into the family group chat, where I tried to calm the situation down by defending CJ (Hum proceeded to tell me to "get a dick") and stopped when our father told us to just go to sleep and stop interacting with Hum.

The next day she blocked all of us on everything, and the next time we heard from her again was around Christmas. We have a yearly lunch at my Gran's house, and we weren't sure if Hum was going to attend. She eventually did, and it was fairly civil.

She never formally apologised, as far as I know, but we're all on generally good terms now. During the school holidays just passed, Hum asked me on multiple occasions to come to her house and help take care of her kids for the night.

I used to do it often before the big fight, so the request wasn't unusual, but I still felt weird being around her due to what happened. Hum's told me about what happened at home when I was younger, but she also has a habit of blowing things out of proportion or lying/telling an exaggerated her side of events.

The most recent was a week or so ago, when Hum showed up at my house to take me to hers. I was not aware of this beforehand and tried to say no a few times before caving and going with her. Legally, she has to have a night away from the kids for her mental health, so it feels really bad to deny her that, even though I had holiday homework to catch up on that I intended to do.

Even though I have stayed with Hum for a lot of nights, I feel horrible about myself when I say no to her since I know that that's just how she is. I know that she's getting help for her BPD and trying to be better, but it's just uncomfortable for me to be around her sometimes.

And I love my nephews, but I am not mentally equipped to help take care of them very often. I suspect I have autism, and find it difficult to take care of myself sometimes, especially when I get frustrated (which is inevitable when taking care of a toddler and an almost-toddler). And I was very stressed at the time due to the upcoming school year, so my fuse was a lot shorter than usual.

What are these acronyms?

#aita #am i the asshole

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golden--doodler · 11 months

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Linda's parents suck.

Like, really suck.

Definitely not an original thought in the slightest, but I feel like the way the show portrays Gloria and Al is really interesting. They're an example of abusive parents being portrayed in a more subtle, realistic way, which almost makes them feel even worse than if their portrayal was obvious and over-the-top.

Starting with Gloria, because she's definitely the worse of the two. She constantly gaslights Linda all the time, and never feels remorse about it, or even acknowledges her own behavior. The best example of this behavior is the Season 11 episode "The Terminalator II: Terminals of Endearment", where she literally forces Linda and the rest of the family to buy cream for Al, one that he doesn't even end up needing, mind you. The airport is also pretty far, so the drive over must've not been very fun (Bob has even stated on one occasion that it's difficult to drive for a long time with everyone because they all end up getting each other carsick).

Apparently, one time in the past, Gloria straight-up stole Linda's phone charger and refuses to admit she did it. Even when Bob is confronting her and becomes rightfully upset, she doesn't say anything about it. This leads to Linda saying that Gloria didn't do anything, even when the signs are extremely obvious that she did. And just in general, everything the family went through that day just to gather Gloria and Al in one place was a complete nightmare, because Gloria kept getting sidetracked and doing things like going on the wrong tram. It's no wonder that Bob went on a whole rant about Linda's parents not deserving her and her generosity.

There's also the fact that Gloria lied to Gayle about her goldfish being immortal, forcing Linda to keep up the lie too and to be on the receiving end of Gayle's outburst when she inevitably found out the truth. In general, she's very enabling of Gayle, pretty much letting Gayle do whatever she wants and not being very helpful in terms of Gayle's behavior. This must've led to Linda having to be a parent to Gayle growing up and also gave Gayle the impression that she can just do whatever around Linda.

And during her first appearance in "Crawl Space", she's really not much better. All she does is criticize Bob and is just no help whatsoever. You can't really blame Bob for wanting to stay in there instead of spending time with her. Not to mention that she and Al literally had sex presumably knowing that their grandchildren could hear them. Gene even recorded them and got in trouble for it.

Al isn't much better than Gloria. While he isn't as horrible, he's very enabling of Gloria and doesn't do anything to stop her or encourage her to be better. Not to mention that because he's hard of hearing, he has difficulty communicating. He just seems like a distant sort of guy, and one has to wonder how present of a father he was during Linda and Gayle's childhoods.

Gloria and Al also don't really acknowledge their grandchildren that much, and Tina, Gene, and Louise definitely don't have a good opinion of them. It doesn't seem they spend many of the major holidays together, either--it feels like they've seen more of Big Bob than them despite Bob's strained relationship with Big Bob. Or at least, it's obvious they have a better relationship with Big Bob. It's just interesting how Gloria's awfulness is very realistic, just doing little things and refusing to acknowledge her own wrongdoing, leading to Linda always being the one to apologize even when it's not necessary. And Al just doesn't do much at all, which is bad, too.

Linda deserves better parents, or at least her current ones really need to shape up. It's probably not too late for Al.

#bobs burgers #i've been wanting to analyze these two for awhile #let me know which examples i missed because i'm sure i missed a few #i hate them so much but they're interesting to talk about #i'm surprised how (relatively) stable linda ended up after being raised by them and being around gayle so much #i'm still disappointed linda didn't let bob tear gloria a new one

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ashwhowrites · 1 year

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Hi :)! I know you've got a lot of requests and drafts right now, but I'm in my sad bitch hours and you're my favorite writer, so I wanted to send this request to you.

Tw: past SA and anxiety

I was thinking about Steve asking out reader and she doesn't even think about it, cause duh. She's been crushing on him for years. But then later she's thinking about it, about him. She's heard the stories and Steve is a known sex God. But she doesn't want that, because she only wants to do that with someone she trusts. And she *thought* she trusted her first boyfriend, but that turned out to be a lie.

So they go out and she's worried that he's gonna try to pull something (he's not, changed man and all, but she doesn't know that). But as they get further into their relationship, he notices that she always changes the subject or moves to do something if they start getting heavy. Like she's fine making out, but as soon as he starts touching her body, she's gone.

He finally asks one day and she just breaks down. She's so scared he's gonna leave her, but she doesn't want sex. And she's almost guilty because she knows that's what he wants, she's just not ready. And he just holds her and tells her that he's fine to wait. He loves her for her. 🖤💜

Favorite writer 🥹

As always, thank you for your patience as I worked to get this out. I hope it's what you were looking for. I haven't written Steve in ages so he may be rusty.

⚠️mentions of SA and anxiety ( no real description of assault or sexual actions)

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Steve Harrington, is known to be the sex god of Hawkins during his teenage years. He knew the ways to please any girl he snuck into his huge house. He knew how to make every girl underneath his body moan and shake.

Y/N knew all of that, but she saw something else in him. She saw a boy who craved physical touch because he sat alone in his room. He craved a connection with someone because he was left behind. Sex was something he was good at, so that's all he did. But she knew, Steve Harrington is the type to fall in love. And he deserved someone that fell in love with him too.

She was that person. She adored Steve Harrington for years. His quirky smile, horrible jokes, and of course, his hair. She loved hearing his laugh, and watching him with Dustin and the other kids. She watched Steve grow into a beautiful gentleman.

So when he asked her out, how could she say no?

At the beginning of the relationship, Steve kept his distance. He kissed her softly, always cradling her jaw. Pushing loose strands of hair behind her ears. Since he was so shy, it was easy to pass on the sexual part of the relationship.

But the longer they dated, the more she grew scared of the conversation they would need to have.

Steve knew he used to sleep with girls on the first date, but he's a changed man. He likes taking it slow, learning about Y/N, and knowing her mind just as he would her body. Except, he hadn't gotten to learn her body. Which, he's completely fine with. He isn't in a rush. She didn't seem to be interested in taking that next step, and he was perfectly fine with waiting.

Now they've been dating for around five months, and Steve was obsessed with her. He adored everything about her. But he noticed there was something wrong. They'd kiss softly, slowly growing heavier. Placed her on his lap, hands working up to her chest, then she'd snap out of it. Pulling away, out of breath, a smile on her lips. Climbing off his lap and turning the movie on louder. Steve never questioned it, he didn't want to make it seem like he was pushing her.

But then she did it over and over. Anytime his hands went to meet new skin, she was off him in an instant.

She knew Steve was starting to grow suspicious. She could feel his eyes on her whenever she loved a muscle. Kissing Steve was the best feeling in the world. He was soft and gentle but knew when to be rough. He knew how much tongue was too much. But Steve's past was ringing in her mind, alarms blaring in her head once she felt his hands working up near her chest or her jeans.

She couldn't help it, she'd fly off. Stopping him in his tracks and moving on to the next thing. Distract him with something else. It's been working, but she felt that he was going to ask soon.

And he did

Another make-out session on his couch, her thighs straddling his lap, his hands on her back slowly trailing her spine. Without thinking, his hands went underneath her shirt, going to unclip her bra when she flew off. Standing in front of him with a panicked look in her eyes.

"Woah woah, hey" Steve panicked with her, holding his hands in the air as she panted

"I, sorry," she said, shaking her head as she tried to calm her body. Looking past his eyes as her heart raced and her gut clenched.

"baby? Don't apologize, what's wrong?" He asked softly, slowly raising his hand to touch hers. He kissed her knuckle when she held his hand back.

"It's nothing, don't worry about it." She smiled, moving to sit next to him.

"it's nothing. I've noticed...you don't like to be touched. I'm not saying we need to have sex, but why won't you let me touch other parts of you?" He didn't know how to ask it, he tried to frame his words the best he could. He didn't want to upset her but he wasn't sure what would.

But whatever he said, was definitely wrong

He watched as she yanked her hand out of his, covering her face as she sobbed into her hands

"shh, hey it's okay. You don't have to say" he said immediately, throwing his arms around her, and cradling her in a tight hug. He cuddled her into his chest, rubbing her back as she cried into his chest.

"I, just, I can't Steve" she tried to choke out.

The one thing she loved about Steve was he knew how to care for people. He knew the right way to hug someone when they were afraid of falling apart. He was the glue that kept her together, she couldn't lose him.

"can't what baby? Talk to me" he tried again, pulling away slightly to see her face. Frowning at her tears as he cleaned off her cheeks.

"you are going to leave me. I can't lose you" she admitted, her stomach filled with fear.

"I am not leaving you. Talk to me baby, it's just us. It's just me"

"that's the thing, it's you Steve! It's the king of Hawkins. The sex god. It's been five months and I can't give myself to you. I'm not ready to have sex with you! How much longer are you going to wait? Huh? You are going to get bored and leave me!" She ranted. All her fear and anxiety taking the wheel.

"that's not me anymore. I don't care if it's five months or five years or never. I am not with you for sex and I certainly am not going to leave you because of that! I'm with you because you are amazing. You are smart, funny, kind, and creative. I've never felt happier in my life. I want to be with you because you are you." He explained, his brown eyes watering as she cried.

"you say that but I don't know when I'll ever be ready to be intimate with you. You want it, I know you do. I thought I trusted my first boyfriend and I was wrong. I don't want you to leave me but I'm scared. I'm sorry" She accused him. Men were the same, they wanted sex and they'd get it anywhere they could.

"Am I going to leave you because you don't feel comfortable having sex? No. I am perfectly fine with waiting until you are ready, even if that is years from now. And don't you ever apologize for it? You hear me?" He grabbed her chin to make her look at him. Giving her a tiny smile of encouragement.

She nodded as she sniffled

"we will wait until you are ready. I love you for you" he confessed. Fear in his eyes as he realized what he said

"Oh, Stevie. I love you too. Thank you" she cried, throwing her arms around his neck as she cried into his neck.

He held her all night and refused to leave her side. Hugging her from behind as he trailed his fingers on her arms.

She wasn't sure when she'd be ready, but she now knows, she doesn't need to be ready. He wasn't going to leave her, he loved her. And that's all she needed.

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drama-glob · 3 months

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Hazbin Hotel Thoughts (Based on what we now know about Lucifer)

HAZBIN HOTEL SPOILERS!!!

Now that we've seen Lucifer and gotten to see how he acts/how bad his depression is and his disgust/disregard for Sinners, it had me thinking about a few things about Hell, the other Deadly Sins and motivations for messing with Earth.

As mentioned by Lute, Lucifer pardoned Charlie and the hellborn from the Extermination when it was being set up, so by the time this happened, Lucifer had already tried to rehabilitate Sinners too but had given up (based on what he said anyway and since it likely took centuries to a thousand years or so for Hell to have enough of a population that Heaven felt threatened by it), so clearly he doesn't want the actual natives to be harmed during the slaughter; this and the fact that Lucifer has the Sinners restricted to Pride indicates to me he does at least care about them and maybe even saw them as less horrible than Sinners since we've seen that they're not wholly evil despite where they're born. (Yes, I know there's a chance Lilith played a big part in the negotiation if he was so disheartened by this point, but Lucifer didn't seem particularly evil or cruel, so him having some compassion for those that are true citizens of Hell that would also be killed without a second thought doesn't seem too hard to believe :/).

But with the fact that Lucifer shows such disdain for Sinners as a whole and even seems to regret them being given free will, it makes me curious as to the fact why would he want Pride to be riddled with more of them by having the Deadly Sins infiltrate Earth more and more? The best I can figure is that since he found himself as the King of Hell and despite his angelic origins, this is his home and kingdom now, so his concern lay with making sure it was as powerful and fortified as possible and just resigned to believing that humans were basically awful and the Deadly Sins' influence wasn't really going to change what was predestined, basically seeing the souls in Heaven as the exception not the rule. :/ I wonder if the Extermination also helps Hell's environment by feeding the planet or whatever with all that energy from the Sinners when they are killed, so there's that potential possible "silver-lining" to having so many die each year. :/ Earth does seem admittedly crucial to some grand plot in the universe, but since Hell only seems to get souls from there, it makes sense so much focus would be spent on it in addition to the stars that affect it.

On a side-note, I'm guessing the more depressed Lucifer got, the less engaged he was with the others and held less and less meetings, maybe even sending Lilith or Charlie in his place. It may have even got to the point after Lilith left that Lucifer was just apathetic about the whole thing and said, "Do what you want. Just keep your rings in order and don't let humanity catch on. I don't care." :/ I also wouldn't be surprised if Charlie even spoke/found comfort with those like Ozzie and Bee more than Lucifer just because they were more open and available to talk. :(

I just don't think he had the Sins and the Goetia focused on Earth out of spite/it being a big middle finger to Heaven, but merely as a recourse to make sure Hell survived since they are after all at Heaven's mercy with how powerful their weapons are. Granted, I'm sure the royals held their own feelings about Heaven and have their own intentions with the whole spreading Hell's influence agenda, (whether they all turn out to be fallen angels or not, which so far they've only mentioned Lucifer is one so that leaves their origins still up in the air), but Lucifer seemed more defeated and scared of Heaven taking what was left from him at this point than needing to prove his ideas were right and that it's purely Heaven that's wrong (even if he did try to defend them in the past mind you). :/

*It's just some things that were rattling around in my brain and I wanted to get them out, especially before we get the season finale that may debunk some or all of this. :)

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thewisebyers · 2 years

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Mouse Trap (Jason Todd Imagine)

fandom: titans (its honestly the only version of jason i know) prompt: After losing Jason to the Joker, the reader falls right into Red Hood’s trap. ship: past!jason todd x reader, minor connor x reader (its mentioned like once if you squint) requested?: no but i couldn’t stop thinking about it warnings: death, grief, mentions of wanting to die

A/N: set in season 3, between the first two episodes but before the third (when Hank dies :( rip) but before they've connected Jason with Red Hood, they just know about the red hood attacks

You wanted to scream, yell into the sky and ask why the fuck life had to be so fucking cruel but knew you couldn't, your words would cause physical pain to whoever was closest or whoever you were aiming your words at. And the closest person was you and years of ugly words were already spread across your silver skin. The news had broke about Jason's death and you found out from the fucking television; you had glared at the newscaster on the screen before leaving without looking at any of your teammates. You needed to be alone and luckily your friends understood that because none of them had followed after you.

Or so you had thought; because you had nearly jumped out of your skin when your saw Connor already waiting by your bedroom door. I'm not in the mood, Connor, you sign, your hands doing the talking for you. Memories of teaching Jason how to communicate with you come flooding back and tears threaten to spill out. Connor must sense the tears threatening to escape so he doesn't say anything; instead he just pulled you into a hug. A strong, comforting hug that was almost a little too tight but it was so needed. The warmth of his chest against your face finally made the tears spill out and onto his shirt.

You had been on your own and on the run before the fatefully meeting the Titans, they had been sent to take you down and you had put up a good fight, refusing to use your actual powers until you felt you had to. But as soon as you opened your mouth; you were quickly taken down by Rachel. Your mouth was forced shut, your hands and legs tied together with invisible forces. Luckily, instead of seeing an enemy, the Titans saw a scared teenager and you've been apart of the team ever since. You've never used your powers since that day; your fighting skills were more than enough to help take down a few bad guys. Most of your team had learned sign language to communicate with you but there was still a disconnect with others.

Connor's movements were quick as he picked you up in his arms and brought you into your room. Things were him were complicated since Jason had left the Titans but your feelings about the superboy were the last thing on your mind as he gently laid you on top of your bed. An empty feeling began building inside you as his warmth left your bed. "Do you want me to stay?" Connor asked, his tone was neutral and careful, like he didn't want to upset you any further. You shook your head no and before you heard the door close, you hear Connor say, "Let me know if you need anything." Once you were alone; a sob shook through your body.

You didn't have much time to sort your feelings because soon the you and the rest of the Titans were in Gotham; in the Wayne manor. Now that Bruce was gone, killing the Joker before going, the Titans were in Gotham until further notice. You couldn't help yourself; as soon as you entered the building, you went in search of Jason's room. You'd give anything to feel closer to him again, to breathe in his familiar scent and wash yourself in him. Room after room, you finally find the one you're looking for and tears spill out once you're behind his closed door. It smelled like him; which brought you to your knees on the soft carpet.

After a horribly failed bank robbing mission; you needed to get out. You didn't care about the threat of these red hoods going around; you were ready to open your mouth and scream. The thing about not being able to scream and let out your emotions is that it begins to boil over and you're ready to take your anger out on anyone. But you bit your tongue because you couldn't just let it out so instead you found yourself in a bar that you were barely old enough to enter.

The music is too loud but it helps drown out your feelings as you head to the bar, you point to some random drink on their sticky menu that's taped to the counter. As you wait you look around the bar; there's an upstairs which seems like a VIP area but majority of people seem to be dancing on the ground floor. There were couples littered around the dance floor and it made you envious. How dare they be happy and dancing together while your heart felt so heavy? You were in the wrong place if you didn't want to see people be happy so you were trying not to be so bitter.

Once your drink was ready; you paid and tipped but before you could walk away, the bartender spoke, "There's someone in VIP asking for ya." You wouldn't know anyone in VIP, you were sure about that, so you raised an eyebrow. "A Jason, I think? Little fuzzy with names, miss." The drink in your hand threatens to fall at the mention of the name, your heart picks up. But Jason was dead, it couldn't be him. But he was the only Jason you knew. You just nodded and held your drink tighter, closer to you. Did you dare climb the stairs that lead to whoever was up there? Was it a trick?

Curiosity killed the cat and Jason, you thought bitterly as you climbed the stairs, using the railing to help steady your trembling body. You couldn't help the hopefulness that was bubbling inside your body; you'd let yourself be fooled in your grief if it let you be closer to him. Your heart was leading the way, all logic thrown out the window with each step you took. Once at the top of the stairs, you looked around for some other form of life. You didn't realize just how empty it was upstairs, just rows of empty tables and what looked like someone sitting in the back corner of the room. You had a bad feeling yet you gulped your drink to reassure yourself before heading towards the mysterious figure.

You had only taken a few steps before you head began to spin; your world tilting around you. You tried to steady yourself with an empty table but in your dizziness you were completely off and missed the table by a few feet. Your body hit the ground with a thud but your body felt numb and tingly so you could hardly feel the impact of the hard floor. Darkness began to consume your body as the shadow rose from his spot; even in your state you could see a male figure but that's all you could make out before everything went dark.

When you finally come to; your body feels like its on fire and there's a stabbing pain coming from your mouth, you can feel the rope tied around your wrists and ankles. You're weak; groggy from the drugs you assumed had been slipped into your drink. How could you be so fucking stupid? The mention of Jason and you had become completely weak; you hated yourself for that. Once you're fully aware of your situation, you begin to look around the unfamiliar room. There wasn't much to it; a basic abandoned building with graffiti scattered around.

"Pity," a voice makes your head turn and you realize you're not alone. So this was the Red Hood that was causing all the chaos in Gotham and you fell right into his game. And you had made it so easy. "I thought the Silver Tongue would be a bigger threat but little mouse-y fell right into the trap." You open your mouth to speak but quickly realize why you were in such excruciating pain (how you hadn't realized when you had first woken up was beyond you); you tongue had been cut from mouth. "Cat got your tongue?" he laughed.

Panic began to set as tears rolled down your face; you began to thrash in your restraints as Red Hood closed the distance between the two of you. He was laughing as you squirmed against the cold ground. "Sorry, not sorry," he said, grabbing your hair in his hand and held your head in place, holding a gun to the side of your head with his other hand. "Tell-" he paused to laugh again; you wanted to kill him. You were embarrassed and angry you had let him get you in this position but mostly at yourself. You wanted to die; you silently prayed he'd pull the trigger but you knew it wouldn't come. It was all a game and you were bait; he needed you alive to send a message. "Tell the Titans this is a warning." But before you could react, he hit his gun against the side of your head, successfully knocking you out for a second time.

When you come to for the second time; you wake up with your teammates surrounding you. You were back in Wayne Manor; your head spinning as people rushed to your aid. All you could think about was your ripped out tongue, they probably didn’t know about that yet. Everyone was talking at once; asking if you were alright, saying you had been gone for hours and you had just shown up unconscious on the manor's front steps. You opened your mouth to show your missing tongue; answering their questions without any other explanation. You pretended to pull a hood over your head; telling them exactly who did this to you.

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willow-springpaw592 · 3 months

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My thoughts on the newest main story quests, some positive and some...slightly on the fence:

First of all, I like that Linda is shown to actually have a backbone and will snap back at people if they insult her. Maybe I'm remembering wrong, but for a while it seemed like she was just the token intelligent one of the group who never got into conflicts. So I really liked seeing her stand up for herself this time against the dark riders!

I like how the druids can send messages via runestones to each other in times of crisis. It's something I never would've thought of, and although the way the runestones just grow out of the ground could seem silly and nonsensical in a way for some, I personally really like it!

Also, the magnetising void! It was so cool! I wonder what past Soul Rider performed it with Concorde? I would say Elizabeth, but that just seems too obvious. I love that we got to see a more dangerous side to the magic of the Sun Circle, and I really hope that this is something they will continue with for the rest of the Circles. Maybe for the Moon Circle, Linda could be able to cast dangerous illusions to confuse the dark riders? Or send visions that can drive people mad? It's probably too 'evil' for the Soul Rider circles, but I think it would be cool to see the dark side of the Keepers' magical abilities.

Now, onto the bombing of Dark Core Headquarters. I find it really difficult to believe that DC was never actually drilling any oil. They couldn't have partnered with GED forever, could they've? How could they have made money otherwise? At some point in history they must have drilled for oil, and then stopped for some reason. Maybe to put all their money into the equipment to build the Hadal gate (which btw confirms that Garnoks prison is indeed super deep under the sea, and not in some untouched corner of Pandoria) Anyways, I really hope this is not SSEs attempt at portraying DC as somewhat redeemable with 'oh no they actually weren't polluting the island at all, they were doing nothing wrong!', nevermind the fact that they are working towards releasing Garnok, who has made it very clear by now in regards to his plans for the island.

Well whatever, moving on from that, Erissa! Finally! I was hoping she'd have some lines of dialogue, but I did love her cartwheel/flip coming out of the portal. It's nice to see that Mr Sands is back in action again after not being present in the story for damn, what 5, 6 years now?! I though he and the Dark Riders would've been a bit more annoyed about the oil rig's destruction, so I guess the Soul Riders have got their war crime charges dropped for now at least.

Now for the obligatory Darko mention. With every new release of the main story, I get increasingly more worried about what SSE is planning on doing with him now. He should've been in the ending of this quest, yet he wasn't, and there's been absolutely zero mentions of him ever since the saving Anne quests from other characters, even though he was probably a massive source of trauma for Anne if he was the one who guarded her prison cell, and she seemed to have a very deep hatred of him going off of her mentions of him at past seasonal events. I can't find my screenshot of her one at Midsummer but she said something along the lines of, "What do you think happened to Darko? He had better still be alive. I won't let him take away my chance for revenge." Yes I know, I remembered one line of dialogue at an event years ago, can you tell I'm obsessed yet? I want to say that they're planning something big with him and the Nightmare Institute, but I've got this horrible feeling that they'll either reveal he's dead( even though the soul riding missions are proof that he isn't) or they'll just totally write him out of the story from now on because they've got the new Dark Rider models now, so they can do more with them. I know most people hate him, but I think he has the potential to be a really interesting irredeemable mad scientist type character, so I really hope they haven't given up on him yet. I'm probably being really over dramatic right now XD, but he's been my no.1 character hyperfixation since 2018 so that's my excuse lol.

I really didn't think this would be so long but to summarise: Anne and Linda are badass, I want Avalon to deck someone across the face, and I want Darko to make his dramatic appearance again someday :''(

Well, goodnight! Please share your own opinions with me if you'd like, I'd love to know everyone else's thoughts!

#ssoblr #sso anne #sso linda #sso mr sands #sso avalon #sso darko #sso soul riders #sso dark riders #sso spoilers #sso

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stardew-obsessed-ora · 8 months

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I've been really busy, so I haven't been able to write anything I've wanted to in the past little bit. Regardless, I'd really like to expand on the concept of Trans Morris and my HCs revolving around him. They've been sitting in my brain for a while, and I'd love to share them with the audience.

Word Count: 1.5k! CW/TW: uhhhh not sure what to put here but Has themes of self doubt, dysphoria, and less upbeat societal stuff around the beginning OH ALSO UNSAFE BINDING IS BRIEFLY MENTIONED.

୨﹒Trans Morris HCs

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- I see Morris as a Trans guy who experiences dysphoria. (He/Him) - I imagine he first realized he didn't align with his agab as a young child. He realized he had more of a connection toward masculinity and toward other boys, but it never really clicked until he was older. All he knew was that he didn't like wearing anything overly feminine, and that he preferred to wear his hair up to make it look short. I imagine as a kid he’d pitch an utter fit being forced to wear any kind of dress, but it was just brushed off as him being a defiant kid. - Its not that his parents wouldn’t have been supportive, they just didn’t understand what his issue was, and were left even more confused when kid him tried to explain it. - He went through his teen years knowing something was off but never quite understanding what it was. There weren’t answers for him in any of the books he looked through, nor were there answers around him. It was isolating. It felt right being mistaken for a guy when his hair was up, and it felt mortifying when people corrected themselves. But it shouldn’t have. Why did it feel like that? - He was raised entirely oblivious to LGBTQ+ identities. After all, he was raised sometime in the late 80s/early 90s. Identifying as anything within the community was still seen as a taboo, so to say. He had heard about it in passing, and even heard about it in a somewhat positive light from a few people, but was too nervous to look into it himself. For every positive thing he heard, there were dozens of negative things. I heavily HC this man as having been bullied. It was terrifying to him. He was terrified of the possibility of being something that wouldn’t be accepted. Of something which was such a large part of other peoples’ existence being something that caused his more turmoil. A part of him felt like he was just looking for attention, and the other part felt like it’d be a dead end and that he’d end up worse off than he already was. He’d likely look into it too much and mislabel himself. Self doubt! Confusion! Imposter Syndrome! - Sometime in his teens he started feeling horrible dysphoria and ended up giving himself one of those choppy botched haircuts on numerous occasions. - Dysphoria hoodies were practically an everyday outfit. If anyone asked, he’d just tell them that hoodies and sweatpants were comfier to be in. - He fell victim to the bandage binding trap. He wanted to try to use anything to hide his chest, and so, he tried to bandage bind. Obviously after a bit of trial and error he realized this was an outright horrible idea and stopped bothering, resorting right back to the hoodie grind. - He started fully transitioning sometime when he was in his 20s. - He had absolutely no idea what the fuck being trans was, nor what how he felt was considered. He was nervous over bringing up how he felt, as it seemed entirely alien. He felt like it wasn't worth bringing up to anyone, and that it was in his head, really. If his parents didn’t know what he was talking about, if none of his peers understood, then clearly the issue was him. Right? He didn't know what transness was until he caught a conversation from a coworker within his department about it and realized their experiences and emotions aligned with his.

- Bro was standing there in his Joja apron thingy like :O.

- He didn’t confront them about it or anything, but knowing someone else felt similar to how he did was enlightening. It felt like there might’ve been people out there who understood his experiences, and that he wasn’t alone. There were people like him, and they were thriving.

- Eventually he’s able to find more information and resources pertaining to his feelings and he looks into LGBTQ+ identities as a whole. This is when he’s finally able to seek gender affirming care for himself, and also be able to better understand himself as a whole.

- The day this man started binding a weight was seemingly lifted off of his shoulder. It was more difficult for him to find a binder at first due to his size, but when he did… He stared at himself in the mirror for a solid 10 minutes in disbelief. It was his first ever experience with gender euphoria, and he could have cried on the spot.

- Coming out to his parents was another weight off of his shoulders. Well- after the long-winded explanation he had to give. His parents weren’t unsupportive, but they were entirely clueless like he was. It took a lot of examples and carefully expanding on concepts for them to finally start wrapping their head around his identity. They’re still a bit confused, but they’ve got the spirit!

- He actually let his mom help him with figuring out his preferred name! His dad rushed in to give his own input and ultimately they decided on his current name as one he liked :3

- Pre-T his voice was lower on the register, but after taking testosterone his voice noticeably changed. He didn’t have to force a lower voice when speaking anymore. Of course, he did end up making it a habit to force a higher voice around people he didn’t quite trust anymore. At least until it was difficult to.

- Adjusting to testosterone injections was… not fun! I don’t headcanon he necessarily has a fear of needles, but he does hesitate every fucking time he gives himself a shot if there isn’t a distraction around for him to focus on. - bro has definitely done his T shot in a dingy ass joja restroom before

- I personally headcanon that even as a lower ranking Joja Employee he didn’t have much of anyone to speak to, so there wasn’t really anyone for him to come out to aside from his parents.

- He worked overtime constantly so that he could eventually afford top surgery.

- Post OP was even better than he could’ve imagined. After getting over the soreness of the procedure and resting for as many days as he could before the Joja demons wrangled him back into work, he stared at himself in the mirror and just grinned. Seeing himself the way he had always wanted to look was everything he could’ve dreamed of and more. He felt sheer gender euphoria and if it wasn’t for the fact that he was still sore as hell from surgery he would’ve probably pranced around.

- He was able to walk around his house with a shirt off more often, if not, almost all the time during the hotter seasons.

- Over the years I imagine he grew into his identity more and came to be really proud of who he is, and what he’s been through. Though, he still prefers only bringing his identity up to people he can trust. He’s still skittish over the thought of being chastised by others and still worries about the possibility of being outed to someone he can’t trust. Hate him for being a corporate drone, don’t hate him for who he is!

- He still experiences dysphoria, but it isn’t even remotely as bad as it was in his younger years. He can still be found in blanket-nests on the off day though, and he’s definitely snuck into a hoodie after work on numerous occasions. Why doesn't he wear a hoodie during work hours, you may ask? He's a FORMAL man who craves FORMALITY and STYLE. Removing his suit on work hours would be like removing a part of his soul, it'd be embarrassing stepping out and being seen as so informal for once.

- He looks at his surgery scars fondly, thinking of how far he’s come and how much farther he’ll inevitably come. - Coming out to any friend he makes is ultimately nerve-wracking for him, but he always says it with such a prideful, soft smile. - Despite being more discreet about his identity, he would 1000% be happy helping younger trans folk figure out their identities and help them grow into themselves. - He's not the best boss in the world, but by god is he great when it comes to inclusivity and making sure everyone is heard and accommodated and heard on that department. He's the guy who would absolutely risk his job yelling at some executive over their backwards ass views. Yes, he's a corporate suck-up, but he's not a big enough one to let that slide. - Bro absolutely reps that tacky Joja Brand Pride Merchandise every pride month. (and all year, for that matter. pride is an all year affair and hes letting it be known no matter how awful the mug is) - Eventually, with a lot of hesitation on his end, he openly comes out as trans and is greeted with just about nothing but support from the acquaintances he has. It took him by surprise for sure, but he could've swore he viewed the valley in a much softer light that day, and even moreso post community center. - After this, he's able to go to the beach topless, which was one of his longtime future goals. Not only does it feel reaffirming, but its the marking of him fully coming into everything regardless of his age. Plus, no longer would the days of a tank top and socks and sandals remain!

#sdv headcanons #sdv morris #sdv #morris sdv #stardew valley morris #stardew valley headcanons #ora headcanons #im literally trans idk why i was struggling with writing this one #but the thought of trans morris makes my heart happy RAHHH (especially since older trans folk never have rep)#stardew #stardew valley thoughts #his relationship with his parents is based on the sve and marry morris mods soooo #semi canon divergence yessir #longposting #trans hcs #trans

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bluecrazydriver · 3 months

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Chapter 1 - Under the tree

It was an ordinary afternoon. Under that ancient tree next to Hogwarts castle's secluded river, a pair rested in its shade. Severus wrote notes in his Advanced Portions book while his perhaps best friend, Anasthasya, relaxes her head on the boy's thigh.

There were years and years of those moments, every free afternoon in every school year. It wasn't a simple school friendship, they didn't just know each other, they connected with the beat of their hearts and mind. Maybe like soulmates.

The light breeze announced the arrival of summer, a season they both hated. It wasn't because of the infernal heat but because of the inevitable separation for painful weeks.

— Are you sure you can't come to my house? — she asked, remaining with her eyes closed.

Severus takes his focus off the book and looks at her. What did she think about hanging out with him? Snape the Greasy-Haired Sniveler had the unconditional friendship of the most beautiful girl in Slytherin.

Anasthasya seemed like a divine tear, a gift from God who wanted to apologize to the Earth after creating James Potter. Not only outstanding beauty, but also her wisdom and kindness made Severus' heart flutter in her presence.

— My family would love you! — Hydes finally opens his black eyes, then smiles friendly.

- Why do you think that? — he questioned. Also letting out a sideways smile. Anasthasya was infectious.

— Because I talk about how smart you are and how perfect your glue-pasting strategies are! — The two laugh, with Anasthasya taking her head off his thigh and sitting next to him

— Fuck! Did you mention that?! — he asked incredulously — You're not even ashamed to admit that you cheat.

— They've known this for years! My Portion grades the first year were horrible and the second year it increased considerably! Don't you think they would suspect?

— You could have said that you studied! — Severus mutters, still laughing.

— Oh! As if they would believe it... —she sighs, trying to get back to the subject — Can't you spend even a week of our vacation at my home?

— You know I can't.

— Okay then, I'm going to kidnap you at 11pm in your bedroom, be ready...What are you writing again there? — she asks, approaching Severus to look at his book.

Anasthasya notices his breathing becomes unregulated with the contact, which ends up speeding up her heart. The girl touched Snape's hand that was holding the object.

— Well...I'm developing a curse. — the Slytherin responds, immediately beginning a visual fixation.

— Will it work this time? — she teases him, remembering other failed attempts.

— Don't fill it — Severus rolls his eyes, earning a genuine laugh from Anasthasya.

— I love when you do that. It's so funny.

— I love when you laugh like that. It's so silly...but in a way I like.

Anasthasya blushes at Snape's sweet (and rare) words. Her mind raced, trying to stay focused, however, she couldn't get the idea of hugging Severus out of her head.

— So...it's something to use against Potter and those little shits?...the curse— Hydes mutters, returning to the subject.

Those full, pink lips, how he wanted to delight in those lips, feel her kiss and caress those cheeks with his cold fingers. I'm too hideous for her... he imagines

— Yes, exactly that — Severus gets up, putting the book in his bag — I'm going... I'll see you after the holidays. Bye.

— Byebye Snape! — she says goodbye, still sitting under the tree.

Hydes watches his figure slowly walk away. Enjoying the image of that black hair blowing in the wind, she keeps focused on him.

How do they have the courage to say that his hair is oily?

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AN: hi. Firstly, I don't know how to use Tumblr, so bear with me while I organize things. Secondly, English is not my first language, so I sometimes use Google Translate. Thirdly, see you later. (I don't fucking know what I'm doing)

#severus snape #severus snape fandom #snape content #severus x oc #young snape #fanfic #fanfiction #severus fanfiction

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abloomingsunflower · 10 months

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Unpopular opinions.. :,)

[TW!! Mentions of pedophilia, abuse and rape]

1- Honestly? I absolutely despise Crescent x Palette. This is the one thing I really hate about Crest, him showing romantic love towards a FUCKING MINOR- Otherwise he's a pretty great guy, but did he really have to catch feelings for Palette? He's freaking 25 for fucks sake.

"God did say, love is love.."

"And jail is jail."

I fucking ADORE Lux for saying that! <3 Though she is the villain in this story, she did the right thing for once and stood up against this. What in the world would possibly make pedophilia okay?!

The fact Palette reciprocates though..And even ended up dating him in another timeline.

I'm sorry, it's just- ew.. I'm glad he stops hanging out with Crescent but I hate the fact he still does like the priest. Crescent should honestly put his morals before his desires and get rid of his feelings for Palette.

I know I made this ship happen in the Good Ending of Sunflower AU, but it was only for lore purposes for this ending's future arc. Imagine it like a choice in a videogame, that leads to a certain route: Palette chooses Crescent, thus Arti becomes queen and ends up catching the Hanahaki disease, out of her love for Palette. And now Crescent has left too and she can't handle all the stress of being all by herself. And this is where Neon steps in to save Artemis.

Other than that, I absolutely hate this ship and it makes me super uncomfortable. Also one of the reasons why the Good Ending isn't canon.

I feel terrible for making it canon in the good ending but I need that future arc lore man- Or, yk, might change stuff. That seems like the better option.

2-Believe it or not, I actually started to like Killer.

She's portrayed pretty well, and her reactions to trauma seem very realistic to me.

I would react that way if I was tricked that my son was a monster that killed my other son. I would be in shambles mentally and always on guard if I experienced the same traumas Killer did.

While indeed, I don't find her mean comments pleasant, can I really blame her? She never asked to be put in this situation and she was already mentally unstable before Cor.Nightmare suddenly fell for her and forced his way into her.

She's trying to be a good mother to kids that remind her too much of her abuser. (-Merciless I guess.)

Like..damn. This woman has gone through a lot already, she deserves some peace and hope.

Hehe..get it?

:,)

3-Sometimes I wish Cross and Cor.Nightmare didn't do such huge fuck-ups.

I..honestly don't know what to think of them. I shouldn't like them. They've both done the most unforgiving stuff ever and I fucking hate them for that.

I feel bad for Cor.Nightmare due to what he endured in the past, he reminds me so much of Mateo from that Homesick webtoon. I just- have mixed feelings towards Corrupted. I HATE ITTTT..-

And Cross? If it weren't for the fact that he genuinely seems like that one uncle who's fucked up BADLY and was kicked out of the family but somewhat does regret everything he's done, and that in The Sunflower AU I ship him with Albedo/Wicked, he'd be dead to me-

I feel like a horrible person for SORT OF tolerating these two..UGHHH-

4- This isn't really an opinion, more like a question- I've always wondered, WHY is Lux so mad at Palette that she wants him dead? Like- what is going on, what did he do that did so much damage?

Passive definitely has part in this mess, that's for sure. And I know Palette was a bratty kid at the time who always spouted bad words unknowingly, because that's how small his brain was back then- Was the situation THAT bad..?- Like- Damn-

5-And finally, I want to express my genuine opinion on Drop's crush on Merciless..

WHO IS TEACHING HER THESE STUFF- Istfg if it is Goth encouraging her I won't be surprised- I am sending the nuclear bombs on that white-haired Karen-looking bitch

I am in my silly goofy mood right now and I feel like DESTROYING-

Someone, anyone, for the love of god, please, she's precious, but fucking get these stuff out of the 10 year old's brain-

Merciless, Ink, Dream, Hope, PALETTE, I am looking at you, tell her this is wrong- Don't let her become like her future self in E.L.A's good ending- Please- SOBS-

Anywho, yes I wish Drop didn't like Merciless romantically and try to get his attention like that..- But she's just a kid, maybe she'll learn in the Surprise Ending..-

E.L.A and all it's characters belong to @anotherrosesthatfell

I was in my silly goofy mood, Rose- I don't mean to insult, just pointing out some stuff I don't like in E.L.A. Other than these, I think the AU and characters are pretty well-written.

#a sunflower in full bloom au #evil lux au #too lazy to put other tags.#unpopular opinions?

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[meet the guards!] guard 001 and guard 002: sanada eiji and andou miki

YAY THEY'RE FINALLY HERE! i probably should've made actual references for them instead, but i really wanted this post to feel special in some way, since, you know, they're the guards. also sadly i don't have a lot of time right now because of uni, but maybe i'll be able to make full body references for my ocs soon! also tbh i actually really like how this drawing came out hehe..

and yes, these two come as a set. do not separate them.

Warnings: mentions of physical abuse, unhealthy family dynamics, eiji is supposed to show just how bad past milgram wardens could get, so i hope you're ready for that.

Sanada Eiji's profile.

General info.

Name: Sanada Eiji (真田栄司) (his last name means "true" and "rice field" and his first name means "glory, honor" and "manage, control")

Age: 19 y/o

Gender: Male

Status: Prison guard, "Guard 001" (not official)

Birthday: November 6 (Scorpio)

Height: 167 cm

Blood type: O

Occupation: Unemployed before Milgram, likes to say that being a prison guard is his actual job now.

Personality: Eiji was more than happy to become a Milgram guard and he's very proud of his job. Sure, maybe he's still pretty young, but he truly believes that he's the only person who deserves to judge these prisoners. He was very excited when he found out that he can do pretty much anything he wants with them and that he can use literally anything to torture and punish them for their sins. He's strict, prideful and never goes easy on anyone. If he sees someone misbehaving or he just hears them saying no to him, he will punish them immediately. Interrogations would end with the prisoners crying and screaming, if it wasn't for Miki who is always there to calm him down and stop him when he goes too far. However, it would be wrong to say that Eiji is simply a cruel and cold-hearted sadist, there's actually much more to his personality than just that. He's willing to listen to the prisoner's story if they can prove that they're innocent or they at least can admit that they've done something bad. But considering that most prisoners here, including Eiji's own brother, believe that they've done nothing wrong.. yeah, it will be hard for them to get on Eiji's good side. Also, if you're close with Eiji, you will notice that he actually doesn't enjoy torturing the prisoners that much, but he still believes that they deserve it and there's no other way to deal with them. He's also more soft than he appears, for example, Eiko managed to fluster him and make him blush once and he also makes sure Miki doesn't overwork herself.

MV info.

Which canon Milgram song he would cover: PLEASE IMAGINE HIM AND MIKI SINGING UNDERCOVER TOGETHER. PLEASE

Which DECO*27 song he would cover: .. yeah, he would totally cover Animal. Yeah.

If he could cover a song by a different Vocaloid producer, which one would it be: Hop! Step! Instant Death! A Happiness Dance Death Trap by Utata-P

His Trailer 1 Voicelines: (also yes, my guard ocs have THOSE voicelines too. so what)

"Why hello there! My name is Sanada Eiji, and starting from today, I'll be judging you for all the horrible crimes you've committed! Oh, you look so scared.. Haha, don't worry, I'll take very good care of you~.. That was a lie."

"STOP! PLEASE, STOP, IT HURTS SO MU- I CAN'T TAKE IT, KEI, STOP, I'M BEGGING YOU!"

Andou Miki's profile.

General info.

Name: Andou Miki (案藤心希) (her last name means "plan, idea" and "wisteria" and her first name means "heart, mind" and "to hope for, to beg for")

Age: 18 y/o

Gender: Female

Status: Prison guard, "Guard 002" (not official)

Birthday: June 2 (Gemini)

Height: 170 cm (yes, she's 3 cm taller than Eiji, haha)

Blood type: A

Occupation: High school student, prison guard (?)

Personality: Miki has no idea why someone like her would be chosen to become a prison guard. She's shy, clumsy and she finds everything about this place too scary. Prisoners often forget that she's a warden as well and tend to call her "Eiji's assistant". And it's kinda true, she's not that good at being a guard, but she's the one who writes down everything that she and Eiji learned about the prisoners after interrogations and watching their MVs and she's also the one who tries to talk to them as calmly as she can, so that they don't feel scared and they can actually talk about their crimes. Sure, a lot of prisoners can't take her seriously, but surprisingly, she often manages to make them trust her enough to reveal some important information about their murders. People like Yurika, Asahi or Shun can't talk to Eiji at all, but they feel much safer around Miki. But of course, Miki definitely has her weaknesses and one of them is her refusing to accept that people can do bad things just because they want to and not because they had no other choice. She genuinely believes that all Milgram prisoners are innocent and she will even come up with tragic backstories for them to make them look more sympathetic. What about her other weakness? Well.. pretty boys. That's it, that's what easily makes her vote some male prisoners innocent.

MV info.

Which canon Milgram song she would cover: Again. Undercover.

Which DECO*27 song she would cover: I know that this song was made for Project Sekai, but listen. Her cover of Journey would sound so cute..

If she could cover a song by a different Vocaloid producer, which one would it be: Menhera Janai Mon! by Isana

Her Trailer 1 Voicelines:

"Ah- H-hello everyone! My name is.. um.. Andou Miki.. I'm 18 years old and I'm a high school student. As you can see, I'm not the best person for this job. I cry a lot, I'm too weak, I get scared easily.. B-but!.. I want to give you all a chance to atone for your sins!"

"Out of all the people in this world.. No matter what horrible things they've done, I'm the one who doesn't deserve to be forgiven."

Trivia:

Just a fun fact: I originally planned to have only one guard OC and that OC was Eiji. But I realized that it wouldn't make much sense for someone like him to vote someone innocent, especially during Trial 1 even if he's controlled by the audience, so I decided to give him a friend :) Also I thought that it would be very interesting to see two guards who have completely different opinions, but they still have to make a choice together.

I got an idea for my first guard OC when i remembered how Jackalope said that "the guard is so naive this time" or something like that in the first voice drama. I immediately went "OHHHHHH 👁️👁️". I really wanted to think about what the past guards could be like and how cruel they could be and that's how Eiji was created!

Yes, Eiji is the one who will punish the guilty prisoners. He's scarier than Kotoko because he's the guard. You literally can't stop him, you can't vote him guilty or anything like that. If you vote someone guilty, that's it, Eiji will take care of them as he said. Not all of his punishments are physical, some of them are more about the prisoners' mental state. For example, Prisoner ??? would get handcuffed to the prisoner they're very scared of and they would be forced to share a cell with that prisoner, if they get voted guilty. What makes it even worse is that the other prisoner actually likes them a lot and wants to become closer with them. And Prisoner ??? would get their own special cell and they would be isolated from the rest of the prisoners and they would never have to leave that cell. Eiji would also force other prisoners to ignore them or even bully them. And all of that happens after they committed their crime because of not getting enough attention (or getting the kind of attention they didn't want)..

You're probably wondering, how the voting would go in this timeline. Like, do Eiji and Miki go to sleep and wake up after the voting is over, just like Es? Nope, they actually have to discuss their opinions before they can finally vote. And because one of them wants to vote everyone guilty meanwhile the other one wants to vote them innocent.. They have to try and convince each other to change their opinion and agree with the other guard. Basically, Miki has to make Eiji vote someone innocent and he has to make her vote someone guilty. When they're done, they vote for that prisoner together and that prisoner gets their final verdict. This explains why some prisoners still get voted innocent in canon even though.. well, Eiji exists. Miki is actually smarter than she looks like and she's capable of making him agree with her.

As mentioned earlier, "Guard 001" and "Guard 002" are not their official titles, that's just something they call themselves sometimes.

No, Eiji and Miki don't even know that Jackalope exists (and fem!Jackalope too, if we're going with the novel timeline)! They don't meet any rabbits and they have to do everything on their own. It doesn't mean that Jackalope doesn't exist in this universe, it just means that Eiji and Miki are most likely simply being watched.

Speaking of Jackalope, since he's the one who cooks for the canon prisoners, but Eiji and Miki don't meet him, Eiji has to do his job because he's better at cooking than Miki. Surprisingly, the food he makes is actually very good and hey, it's not even poisoned! When Miki asked him about it, he said that poisoning all prisoners would be an easy way to punish them, but it would be too boring.

.. I probably don't have to explain why Eiji is covered in bandages now that you've read his voicelines, but still. When you have a sibling who often gets very bad mood swings and who tends to get violent because of them.. it doesn't end well. I won't describe everything Kei did to Eiji, but trust me when I say that even though Miki can convince him to vote other prisoners innocent, he will still vote Kei guilty. He wants his own brother to be executed right in front of him. And no, it's not because of revenge, in fact, he gets offended when Miki mentions that. He just thinks Kei deserves it and not just because of what he did to Eiji, but also because of what he did to other people.

Because some of Eiji's injuries are still not fully healed even though so many years have passed, it's actually very hard for him to walk and even move. He refuses to get any help because he's afraid he won't look as intimidating as he wants, but eventually he gives up and allows Miki to carry him when he feels too tired. And yes, Miki is actually very strong.

Both of them eventually get their character development: Eiji agrees to vote some prisoners innocent, if Miki can prove that they really deserve forgiveness, meanwhile Miki becomes more confident and refuses to go along with everything Eiji says because she's also a prison guard and not just his assistant as everybody thinks. She's also a guard, so she has a right to have her own opinion and she doesn't have to nod and go "Yes, you're right, Eiji-san!.." every time he says something.

Some prisoners assumed they were a couple at first, but these two eventually start to view each other as siblings. Eiji gets a cute little sister he never had and Miki gets a reliable older brother who can be a bit too much sometimes, but still has good intentions. Their relationship is surprisingly wholesome when you forget about the whole voting thing, because Eiji teaches Miki to be more confident and he wants her to stop being a doormat, and Miki wants Eiji to know that forgiving people for what they've done to him doesn't necessarily mean forgetting about their sins and saying that they're not a big deal. He can just let those people go.

Both of them remember their past, unlike Es, but they don't know why they're here. And speaking of family-like dynamics, Eiji and Miki suspect that they were chosen as guards because they have some kind of connection to the prisoners here. Not all of them, but only two of them. Eiji obviously has to judge his own brother, but what about Miki? She remembers her past very clearly, but she has no idea who she's connected to..

#YES ALL CHARACTERS ARE FINALLY HERE #how are we feeling about these two. how are we feeling #remember when you vote you have a chance to help your favorite guard win <3 /hj #also both sanada brothers getting the horniest deco*27 songs is so funny to me.#sorry guys no jackalope in this timeline 😔 i love him i swear he's just like me fr i also want to be a bunny and i like pretty girls #and yes their hair accessories are supposed to represent their opinions about the prisoners!#🗡️guard 001: sanada eiji 🗡️#🌼guard 002: andou miki 🌼#milgram #milgram project #milgram oc

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Idk i went into a spiral now im thinking about Mai x Suki x Zuko x Sokka. Oh the wars they could bring (or crack). Thoughts?

Ooh, great potential!

Imagine post-war that Zuko stays close to Sokka & Suki. After all, doing a prison break together seems like the kind of activity that will leave you bonded for life. Of course, Zuko is close to the entire Gaang postwar. But, for the sake of this potential ship let's say he's spending a lot of time with Sokka & Suki, visiting the Southern Water Tribe a lot, & when they visit, the time gets lost. Mai isn't the type to act outwardly jealous, but she feels left out because she doesn't really know them. Zuko wants to make her feel more included once he figures this out (possibly after she's acting snippy for no reason & he gets mad & eventually it comes out during an argument). So, he starts arranging double dates, & pushing Suki especially to do "girly bonding things" with Mai.

Okay, apparently you're not the only one who can spiral, Anon, because I started rambling about this poly ship way too much :) More thoughts below :)

Well, Mai isn't much for "girly bonding things" but perhaps someone tries to assassinate Mai on a failed outing that mostly involved bickering. She is after all the Fire Lady. Mai can obviously hold her own in a fight, but maybe she throws all her knives & they're surrounded or something. Suki kicks ass & Mai has an "oh shit she's hot" moment that she misinterprets as starting to like Suki platonically.

Mai & Sokka are actually the ones who bond over girly things, & it's completely accidental. Mai mentions a specific goth fashionista she admires & Sokka gets all excited because he thought Mai's Look was accidental & upon discovering that she has an interest in fashion, he invites her shopping. They get mani pedis & lunch & Mai actually enjoys hearing Sokka ramble on about the Southern Water Tribe versus Fire Nation culture, & clothes, & engineering, & everything else. She's quiet, so it's nice that someone else is doing all the talking, & there's not a lot of pressure.

The four of them become good friends. Then moments start happening between Mai & Suki. Lingering glances. Hand brushes that last too long. Games of footsie under the table at supper or beneath the blankets while sitting at the beach. Zuko & Sokka start having these moments too. Zuko tells himself it's nothing because Sokka is a guy & he doesn't like guys (he tries to forget a certain rebel boy who died during the war that he kissed a couple times in secret, that was nothing, he never thinks about it, or so he tells himself). Sokka is just a good friend, who listens when Zuko talks about how hard it is to have a sister he can't be close too, & makes Zuko laugh even when he feels like crying. It's nothing more than that. Right?

Sokka & Suki are both bi & they've talked about it privately & are open to involving Mai & Zuko in their relationship, but they don't know if Mai & Zuko are up for it. They agree not to bring it up, for fear of ruining the friendship. If Zuko & Mai are into it, they'll tell them. Zuko & Mai have a talk one night, & both admit that they're having these feelings. Zuko brings it up first & Mai shuts down, & Zuko starts freaking out thinking she's mad, so eventually she explains it's just that she's having some uncertainty too.

Zuko & Mai agree to try to move past these bisexual awakenings until one night Mai & Sokka are hanging out one on one. They get a little tipsy & Sokka makes Mai laugh really hard, which never happens. She falls onto his shoulder, & when she draws away, he kisses her. She's into it for a moment, then she runs away without a word. Mai tells Zuko what happened. They agree to keep their distance, for a while, but they never explain why. Katara tells Zuko that Sokka asks about him. Zuko pretends there's not a reason for the distance.

Time passes. The distance hurts. Sokka feels horrible & ashamed. Suki tells him it's not his fault, but he still feels bad. They agree not to tell their other friends, they wouldn't understand. Aang tries to ask both parties about it, & bring peace, but they blow him off. Toph always knows that these four are lying about something, she just doesn't know what. She tries to push them, & it leads to the biggest fight she & Zuko have ever had.

Then, something big happens. There's an assassination attempt & Zuko almost dies. He'll make a full recovery, but he's got a bad injury from getting shot with an arrow. The entire Gaang comes of course. Azula comes to check on Zuko, & that's weird, & Zuko wishes desperately that Sokka was around to ask advice.

Then, Sokka & Suki show up. In her excitement to see her old friend alive, Suki full on kisses Zuko on the lips right in front of Sokka & Mai. At first, Mai is shocked. Sokka starts laughing then, & Mai is even more shocked.

Well, finally, the truth starts to come out. Zuko says something about it being a good kiss, & that breaks the tension & they start to talk. Slowly, everyone slowly realizes that they should all just be together as a foursome, actually. Activities start to ensue right there in the hospital room, but Zuko's injury stops them. They realize that they should maybe talk more, actually. But they agree to all four spend the night together, & maybe cuddle, that night.

#atla au ideas #atla fic ideas #zukka #maiko #maikka #maiki #zukki #no idea what the ship name for this ship would be or what else to tag lol!#but anyway yea i like this idea

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weabooweedwitch · 1 year

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I'm a fan of your work and generally like you but I have to be honest and say that it's super fucked up and really selfish of you to choose hanging out with your buddies who you literally just saw last week over helping your abused and victimized sister who is in the hospital. Not to mention acting like the trip is so important and unmissable to try to justify it when it's just a casual hangout with friends and again you literally just saw them a week ago and can see them again later. Sorry to be blunt but that's how I feel. You're being really selfish. She might not get mad at you because abuse victims usually don't realise when they deserve better but it seems to me that you maybe don't care about her much? I'm shocked and disappointed because I thought you were a kind person, maybe this kind of thing is why she doesn't talk to you much. You were also talking shit about her on this blog when you found out she was abused too which ngl was pretty fucked up. Sorry I usually like you and appreciate your content and don't want to say something that will make you feel bad but I can't look past this without saying something, I feel really sorry for your sister and the *abject horrors* she's been through and you're prioritising a casual trip and acting like it's a hard choice and you're the one who is in a bad position. It's so fucked up. I really hope you have a change of heart and cancel your trip to tend to your poor sister during this horrible traumatising time for her. You can't understand the *real* traumas she has been subjected to being truly abused and truly beaten down by so many people. She needs support, not to feel like even her own family doesn't care, this is very serious and important. Sorry I feel a little bad chastising you but i feel even worse for your poor sister. She has it so hard.

You know there are a lot of things I could reply to this huge text wall. I could bring up that it's extremely uncalled for that you randomly blame me for my sister not communicating which has been an issue for almost as long as the both of us have been able to speak. I could bring up your line about judging her being attacked which I assume is you referring to my criticism of HOW she was attacked which was doing coke with strangers which uh im sorry that's not an invalid thing to criticize in the slightest, or how her experience with domestic violence was from a guy that was showing red flags all along and by her own admission they were horrible for each other but she stayed with him anyways and it horribly escalated. I could bring up that I'm also mentally ill with my own traumas and was planning to kill myself with the pills I quite literally carry with me on a daily basis until these friends came back into my life and one thing they've taught me is that I deserve to be happy and that I don't always need to seek validation from others

But I guess if you really want me to cut to the quick and not be polite with you I think I would say it's vaguely chronically online and parasocial that you're so emotionally invested and disappointed by and putting all your hopes on someone that you probably never even spoken with one on one or have even any sort of vague relationship besides uh, I write the stalker porn content you consume

Sorry, but I guess this is also on me for treating my blog as a feelings journal and seeing the validation of strangers. I'm not a Salvation Army endlessly dispensing sympathy until it kills me. My relationship with my sister and the dynamic from my entire family is not really something for an internet rando to insert themselves into, to be quite frank about it

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what-do-1000-swords-look-like · 1 year

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finally binged the last season of TWD and I have to say, I'm okay with how it ended. I won't lie, the Commonwealth arc was a little boring for me. It didn't feel as high stakes as other villain arcs in the past have felt like the Whisperers or the Saviors or even The OG Governor, but I think that's why they upped the ante on the walkers themselves. Which...maybe I missed it but did they ever say why the walkers were suddenly climbing up walls and picking up weapons? Talk about terrifying. LOVED that they brought back the Whisperer angle this season by the way, in all aspects. That was really cool.

I'm a hardcore Caryl shipper but I was okay with how they left things with their story. I know some might not be happy with it but Idk I got a very unfinished vibe from it? Like there's more to their story. Idr if Melissa McBride has said she'll make an appearance on the Daryl spinoff or not, but I still get the 'there's something there and it's still unspoken' vibe.

I felt absolutely horrible for Luke and Jules. I didn't expect that one. But it also kind of made me think they brought them back to be the ones to die so none of the mains had to. Again, the whole Commonwealth arc just didn't feel as high stakes, even when Eugene was on trial for his life, even when Ezekiel and the others were taken. The only other time it felt high stakes is when Negan and Annie were about to be executed and Ezekiel and the others stepped in. Not saying that I wanted any of the mains to die; they had more than earned those endings but I felt like it kind of got away from the theme of the show a little, if that makes sense.

Judith getting shot was indeed shocking and you do worry for her, but it was obvious they were doing a callback to the pilot, with us seeing her pov from the pain haze she was in at the hospital, Daryl blocking the door to her room like Shane did with Rick. Not a bad callback at all, I appreciated it, but you knew then that Judith wasn't going to die. (which thank goodness she didn't because I'd riot)

Rosita's death was tragic but at the same time beautiful. Christian and the others did a wonderful job and my heart broke for Rosita (she was one of my favorite characters too). I had heard Christian's explanation of why she wanted Rosita to die from it being mentioned by a fan at a recent SPN convention to Jensen (in relation to Dean's ending and how he felt if there was closure or not), but now having seen the season, it makes more sense.

Idk, overall, I just felt like it was a good tie-up besides some of the issues I mentioned. I was happy to see Rick and Michonne at the end but I do wish I could have seen them reunite with their kids, ngl. I'm hoping however the movie goes, that's the ending for the Grimes family. Like Judith said "we're the ones that live". After everything they've been through, they deserve it. Rick deserves to see Judith and RJ at least once.

One thing that popped out for me that I didn't expect was Maggie x Negan. Holy crap, I did not see that ship coming. It feels so wrong for many reasons but JDM and Lauren just have that chemistry as those two characters. And while I enjoyed Negan/JDM as a villain, and he was alright in his limbo phase, I never was a Negan fan so to speak. But after the bottle episode from season 10 and we see his backstory (which he and Hilarie crushed btw), I became very interested in his 11A arc, especially where Maggie was concerned. When he showed up with a pregnant wife in 11B, it felt off to me. Like I get that was his redemption arc in full swing and it was done to get Negan to the point where he earns his place at Alexandria 2.0 (3.0?) if he wants it, that Maggie can be the one to extend that offer (which leads them into the dynamic/place they need for their spinoff) because he finally understands how she must have felt when he killed Glen and he apologizes, and Daryl gives him a nod of semi-respect at the end, but idk it just felt off to me. It should be interesting to see how things occur for Negan and Annie moving forward. Will they be in the new series, too? And I'm not really a hero x villain kind of person (i.e. I'm not a Reylo shipper at all) unless it's something really great like Dramione but Negan and Maggie, I can get on board with that one a bit. And even if that never occurs, I am good with just seeing those two on my screen together. I can't wait to see the Maggie and Negan spinoff!!!

So yeah, an end to an era but I'm personally okay with this end. I still love the series and it's definitely one of my favorites.

#the walking dead #twd #twdposts #twd finale spoilers #twd finale

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traumasurvivorshelpingsurvivors · 2 years

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Please don't answer this if it isn't anonymous. Trigger Warning- Mentions of Online Grooming & Self-Harm & Slight swearing. I'm looking for reassurance since I am highly worried. Perhaps advice as well would be needed. --- Dear individual/s, I have this close and long (online) friend who I'll call Moon (she/they). There's a few things I'd like to mention in regards to them. However, I suppose I might post it in different asks to prevent the post from getting too long (though, this post still is somewhat long). Both her and I are minors (they've just turned 14 while I'm turning 15 later this year) and recently, I've found out that they've been talking to these guys around 17 and 18 to "fix their daddy issues". They're aware these guys are acting weird and are seemingly attempting to groom them. I'm really worried about her. Especially since they don't want to leave the chat nor delete the app of where these chats are in (I'm trying to convince her this). They mentioned that these guys are always online and give her attention.

She mentioned that one can be creepy with love bombs while the other can be shitty if she doesn't respond "the right way" or takes too long to reply. But, according to her, "they can be nice". Which I highly doubt nor believe considering how these damn dudes are willing to groom a minor. Nice, my ass.

This might be..too much, but I ended up making an account of that app she's in just to find her. Though, I failed, since I don't even know the username but I made guesses.

Is that too much? Was it wrong of me to do? I feel like making a whole account just to check on them in that app is...well..creepy..? Bad? Excessive? Should I delete my account, then?

I urge them to delete the app as well since I know there's been past encounters where it was similar and whatnot. I don't remember a good encounter in said app.

Not to mention, but I feel like deleting the app would make it much less tempting to continue or reach out to those guys (or of anyone and everyone similar) again.

How can I convince her to stop talking to those guys? How can I help Moon on this?

I can see that it's so very hard with her and her absent (not a good person) dad.

But I know that there must be much better ways to heal and recover from this instead of talking to potential groomers online. But even then, I'm unsure. Am I right on this or should I just stop pestering Moon on this?

At the moment, I feel like she's ignoring/avoiding me (though, by the time this ask is answered, they've probably replied by then). I'm considering giving them attention as much as possible every day from now on. That'd cover the attention part.

But I also really want to help her be satisfied with their own validation- not anyone else's. Though, that'd be a ton of work for the long run, so the "I'll give them as much attention as I can every day" will have to do for now.

Truth be told, the thought of gushing over them (a way to give attention) makes me feel somewhat uncomfortable but there's a chance I'd no longer be and that it might actually do Moon some good and give them more the reason to no longer to talk to those potential groomers. So I'm willing to do so.

Likewise, I ended up self-harming. At times when I am highly worried about Moon, the best way I cope with this horrible worrying feeling is self-harm.

I'm not looking for advice on this since I'm not planning to discontinue cutting on my thighs as a coping mechanism anytime soon. Mainly just advice on how to help my friend Moon.

I worry an incredibly much about Moon and I just..don't know how to cope with this dread feeling. I've turned to self-harm a lot of times. Worrying about Moon is one of the main reasons I cut.

I see people on TV shows and movies and I wonder, "How do you do it?" Seeing them with close ones in a much more concerning state and yet, they don't look like they're about to break down at all. They take it much more well than I do. I admire it sometimes. Other times, I'm ashamed.

Anyways, yeah.

Moon just responded to me. She supposedly blocked the guys but isn't deleting the app. I'd really prefer them to delete the app but it is what it is.

I don't know if I should believe them, though. I know this is a problem with me. Not believing them often and needing to see proof if they're really honest or not. I wanted to ask her to send a screenshot that they actually blocked the guys; but I avoided it to prevent getting them upset.

So, yeah. Thank you for reading and responding, I hope you take care. Sincerely, Ko.

Hi Ko,

I understand worrying about your friend, and that’s so valid. But I think it’s important to get to a point where you understand that it’s not your job to save her. You can’t force someone to do something, even if it’s for their safety.

It’s also not on your to be the sole source of the attention they need. This really sounds like something beyond the capabilities of a friend or loved one.

I’m not going to give you advice for stopping self-harm, but I do want to link an article I wrote about self-harm (it does talk about stopping so feel free to skip the majority of it, but the part I think is relevant to you is harm reduction. It’s underneath the phrase in italics talking about myths “It’s a choice someone makes that they could stop doing if they wanted to. “)

I know this isn’t what you wanted to hear, but the truth is that we have to take care of ourselves first in order to even have energy to give others. You should not have to do something that makes you uncomfortable, and having boundaries is completely valid.

I’m opening this to followers to see if anyone has any advice on how to handle the situation with your friend.

#tw self harm #mod april #trauma talks #online grooming #tw nccsa #tw swearing #ko

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puppiedotcom · 2 years

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Uuuuuuugggggghhhhhhhh complaining abt work and surgery under the cut, nothing new

TW for SI

My parents mentioned me starting back at work next week and it immediately put me in a horrible mood. I know i basically "have to" bc another sushi chef is gone for vacation for a week but i have this new weird pain in my surgery leg that is basically preventing me from walking without crutches. Idk how I'm supposed to do an 8 hr shift of standing and walking the whole time and having to walk around even more because our normal prep fridge is out of order. For the most part areas are wide enough for a crutch but it would be a huge pain to try to do all of that with one. Standing for that long sucks for swelling and some soreness but I did that when I first injured my knee. Wasn't fun at all but it's doable.

The stress from this family business makes me hate my life and has been one of the biggest contributing factors in my suicidal ideation for the past 2 years. The pandemic ruined everything for my family and I feel like I have no choice but to be here and help, because my not being here would make things worse, so it would partially feel like my fault. My parents deserve so much more for how hard they've worked their whole lives and I want to help them but it's killing me (and them too). I was so burnt out and stressed and suicidal right before my surgery 11 weeks ago that the surgery and recovery, while difficult, painful, and a genuine disability, have been preferable compared to work. I also say this knowing full well I have had the money, resources, and people to care for me in this time that it has been a relatively easy experience.

While I have clearly still been depressed in this recovery period, I have consistently been eating healthier and more regularly, doing my physical therapy exercises daily in accordance w pain, making some new social connections, and keeping up w my medication and dental hygiene (which is usually one of the first things to go for me). Unfortunately my sleep is very fucked in terms of the window, but I am getting 8 hours..... but yeah I just feel the most regulated in awhile; none of this was happening consistently for months before the surgery. The last month before surgery I was barely scraping by, over-sleeping and rolling out of bed 30 min before I had to drive to work, then coming home after dinner and going right to bed. I'm literally starting to weep thinking about the possibility of that happening again and how it feels like going back to work only guarantees that.

Even outside of surgery I depend on my parents for a lot of things-- housing, car, really good health insurance thru the restaurant which I desperately need for all my therapy and psych as I try to find something that will help my bipolar and make sure I can function. I feel so incompetent at 28 and I know so many of you are on your own and have gotten through or are constantly going through it but I'm so scared of that. I feel like I can't survive on my own, like the only way I could is w massive amounts of help. This recovery process has cemented the idea in my head that my mental illness is a legitimate disability and yet it's not debilitating enough, and even if it was I wouldn't get any help.

I wish we could win the lottery lol. I would love that. I wish everyone's needs were taken care of. Fuck.

#yambles #surprise!! my debilitating si isn't the fault of the family restaurant but CAPITALISM

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