#i know there are like 100 posts abt this but i had to rant into the void ig

[skitskatdacat63]

This photo was life-ruining for me(and @sweatyflytrap ) honestly....

#wanna make a comp of bahrain 2010 for both seb and nando tbh #probably seperate but #there was something in the air that weekend!!!! #i was religiously looking through seb pics from this race the other month to draw statue seb #and was super enamored w him aasjkfkgl but didnt look too much depeer cause i didnt wanna spoil the podium #and then i finally got here and damn nando looked fucking majestic on the podium #like i was absolutely dying making those gifs bcs he just looked so beautiful #<- i actually made a comp of all the close up shots bcs bark bark bark 😵‍💫😵‍💫 #AND THEN I GO LOOK UP THE PICS AND MY GOD 🫠🫠 LIFE RUINING #this pic is from before race day obviously but like smth was in the air no????? #all the podium pics live in my head rent free. golden and shining and beautiful #but i also downloaded like...100 pics of him from this race so jusy this one seemed pretty baseline to post #but just know. bahrain 2010. haunts me. #as i said im so irritated it wasnt a vett/onso podium bcs my god both of them were slaying that wknd #well yeha. there's my rant. maybe ill make a comp :) #smth also that i find funny is that he was pretty stubbly for the whole wknd but then #shows up for the race itself smooth like a dolphin....HE KNEW!!! HE KNEW HE HAD TO SLAY!!! HE KNEW HE WAS GONNA BE ON THAT TOP STEP #*lmao maybe my comp post would be titled: 'pics from the 2010 bahrain gp that were life changing' #im looking back at the podium pics rn and its just insane how youthful and bright and pretty he looks #also abt this specific pic. his lashes his big cow eyes his pink lips his fluffy hair GODDDDDDDDS #f1 #formula 1 #fernando alonso #we do a little bit of f1 #2010 bahrain gp

[cowboyreminders]

"Take a break or your body will take it for you" is true and it absolutely sucks when you are disabled and work/study full-time and can't even afford a day or two "free" when you need at least a week to recover.

#actually disabled #actually autistic #spoons #chronically ill #disability #autism #im completly out of spoons and idk what to do #since even disability bureau cant do anything #i know there are like 100 posts abt this but i had to rant into the void ig #also thinking abt my best friend who is also disabled and working. gh

[rafuyeni]

so called toxic yuri fans when i

#i dont even know how to tag this last time i checked the ship had like 3 posts total on all the tags i searched #these are from like maybe 1 month ago #i didnt care abt minomob originally until i considered it with girl mob and it did something to my brain u_u #been ranting about them on twitter with the minomob yuri oomfs (all 2 of them) #minomob #mob psycho 100 #my art #fanart #minori asagiri #shigeo kageyama #shigeko kageyama

[castingcomets]

Every summer I feel like i've grown a lot and I'll do better this time around but then the Autumn hits and the specific way it makes me feel has changed and grown and compounded too and now like every year im sitting here with so much homework feeling so lost and uncertain. And I want to make cookies

#GIRL .. GET A CLUE. Every year #Last year i remeber feeling at first that the autumn madness was the same as the winter madness and that #it shared elemnts with the spring madness #and i stopped thinking of it like that bc Thats Stupid. #I understand seasonal nostalgia sure but you dont need to put it quite like that . Im sure theres too much overlap for discretion of terms #But right now im like. OK this is autumn madness ceritifed like 100% pure #Lastb year i had a lot of energy so the signature enervation was curtailed so i confused it with some other things #But this is certifed . And i feel like an idiot #''oh i can do fall classes of course i did that my whole school career didnt i? my whole life'' DROP OUT OF HUMANITIES NOW . #Im not sure if there even is a winter madness but i know that there is the January Reckoning to be weary of (seasonal deporession) #I feel like winter classes would be easier at this point come on . #I was hoping that this year would be easier bc ive grown and learned stuff and like #I DID NOT WANT TO RELIVE THE MISERY OF LAST YEAR DOING ONLINE HOMEWORK IN THE BASEMENT #THINKING ABT dbgt characters like my life depended on it even though i hadnt the time . #And it's already better im sure bc im doing in-person school now which helps but STILL. I just want to sleep for forever #I did this last year too i made a post like this and ranted to myself in the tags EXPECT ONE NEXT YEAR TOO

[saneriddlefan67]

ace who had a whole ass conspiracy board abt who the other basketball team members are dating vs. Jamiazu being vague as hell, Jamil never talking abt personal info, and neither of them doing a ton of pda (but just enough to make him suspicious) and also florid. Just being them.

Thank you for this amazing ask. Unleashing my ship demons rn to reply to this🙏

The moment Ace sees Jamil giving Azul a TINY genuine smile he already starts suspecting, he tells Deuce and the Ramshackle dorm and they all say he's just making up stuff, Ace keeps trying to explain to them how they're totally dating or they at least have a crush on each other like:

Jamil is completely aware of how Ace knows him and Azul are dating and I can see two outcomes to this:

1- He mentions it one day casually acting like he doesn't know Ace was for months looking like a conspiracy theorist trying to prove their relationship and then he laughs with Azul about it later.

2- Jamil and Azul decide to mess up with Ace. Everytime they're walking down the halls and they see that he's the only one there they hug each other and start acting like a typical overly affectionate couple on purpose. They do this multiple times and then when Ace asks Jamil about him dating Azul he goes "Dating Azul? Try coming up with better jokes next time" Ace loses his mind everytime Jamil says that, he's convinced they're messing up with him but after weeks of gaslighting he starts thinking it might be his imagination.

Now you would maybe ask: why they would do this? Because I think they should be evil/chaotic together. They're already busy enough with their own tasks and they spend a lot of their time together relaxing (like cuddling, talking about their days or stuff about themselves, doing schoolwork together, etc-) they're only missing the being evil together, I want to see them pulling little pranks on people and having fun (Also neither of them had the possibility of doing this when they were kids, Azul was studying all the time and refused to participate on pranks the Tweels would pull, while Jamil had to take care of Kalim and prevent him from dying).

I think that they don't exactly hide their relationship but they don't show a lot the fact that they're dating?) Or at least from Jamil's side. Azul takes every chance he gets to mention HIS BOYFRIEND JAMIL in any conversation he has, he wants to make sure everyone knows that he's dating the beautiful and smart Jamil Viper, but then in public they don't do stuff like high PDA or kisses and shit so people get mixed signals and they think Azul is lying about Jamil being his boyfriend💀 they can believe almost anything that comes from Azul's mouth, but him dating Jamil??? Not in a hundred years.

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With Floyrid it's a slightly different situation. Just like Jamiazu no one really expected them to be dating, not even Ace, he was expecting Riddle to end up murdering Floyd rather than them dating. Worst of all is that he found out on accident, I can think 100 different ways of how Ace found out they were dating but idk which one to write so this is up to your interpretation.

I think I would need to do a whole separate post for them, I have a lot of ideas. Don't trust my word though I might forget to write it💔

Thank you again for this ask!!! It was pretty fun to think about and write, you're always welcome to send me stuff like this :3 Ranting about my favs is my favorite thing so I love this kind of asks.

#jamiazu #azujami #ashenviper #twst #azul ashengrotto #jamil viper #jerryrambles #jerryanswers

[st4rducki]

SPEAKING of tubbo again (ФωФ)

(I'm talking abt tubbo. It's me, I'm going crazy. It's 3 am. where I am-)

I'm still wondering if I'm thinking of it 2 much, or if I'm over complicating things 4 me again. Bc like- I've read the other ppls head cannons that reposted in my last rant abt what the heck tubbo is made of, was gonna make a post abt it, but questioned if it would be rude if I just take it (or if i need permission(?) and questioned it 2 much-

(I did make the post just it's just collecting dust in my drafts-)

But anyway, for rn, hear me out while I lose my mind again.

Okay, so we know that tubbo can do things any other islander can (obvs), but like he dies, he can die. He can die like how the eggs do. Ik there's the whole effing thing abt tubbo already being dead in the first place, BUT WHAT DOES THAT MAKE HIM???? Like, is he a zombie??? Is he an egg??? He can't be a robot for some reason even tho that would make all this 1000% much easier and more of a "Oh that makes sense." o|-<

Like we have to take into consideration on what ever steps he does, apparently. He is rlly good at the role play, and I did say b4 I liked the little puzzle of this, but oh my goodness. I will admit tho I might be leaning into the whole tubegg thing now. Maybe he's like gegg and can just shape shift and just happens choose to be a "human"

BUT that still doesn't make any sense bc, like then that would asking make ironmouse, Tina, Niki, and willyrex also potentially eggs. It would make any islander an egg if that was the case too- (fits chat is an expectation, I think he calls you guys eggs or heuvitos I'm not 100% sure)

All the islanders, tho, can't die apparently- they all can respawn and brush it off as if it were nothing (except jaiden apparently- rip jadien) but TUBBO (more thought off tbh) set himself to have 2 lives, and only he can decide if it's cannon or not

But then again, I'm pretty sure he thought everyone had 2 lives bc of the eggs- (._.)

#qsmp #qsmp tubbo #I think to much for being sleepy #o|-<

[wifegideonnav]

Okay, so I get that I think Tamsyn has said that while you can draw some clear parallels (Gideon is Female Dave, Harrow is Rose, Ianthe is Vriska), obviously Homestuck and TLT aren't one to one, in the same way that the two other big Would Not Exist Without Homestuck pieces of media, Kill Six Billion Demons and Undertale/Deltarune aren't one to one with it either. That being said. I would like to submit. Isaac is Tavros.

😭 that's so mean. to isaac. wtf.

i don't really see it but let me counter with:

babs is the tavros. obviously i've posted before about how his personality/aesthetic is similar to cronus ampora, but if you think about his relationship with ianthe, i feel like there's definitely some similarities to tavros and vriska.

now ianthe "being a vriska" is something i have a LOT of thoughts about, which i will. probably write out at some point. mainly, while they share surface level plot points and arm deficits, their motivations are very different. i've been holding off tho bc there's a lot we still don't know abt ianthe's motivations while the series is still unfinished. but in general, vriska is a child who has no idea what she's doing and just wants to be safe (although she thinks she wants to be important - and she does, but because she thinks that if she matters enough, she'll stop being vulnerable, both emotionally and physically), whereas ianthe clearly has some actual irons in the fire. (given what little we know about the tridentarii's parents and childhood, i could 100% see ianthe trying to protect herself in a similar way, but we just don't know enough to be sure.)

but to compare babs and tavros:

both the "some guy" wedged in between some very toxically codependent girlies

both killed (run through) with their own weapon by their counterpart in a mysterious facility during a very tense afternoon

you can't tell me that if it was relevant, vriska wouldn't be happy to chew on tavros (use his body for what she's trying to do)

both an intimate part of their counterpart's ascension, in opposite ways

that last point is the most interesting to me, because vriska's ascension involved her own death and ianthe's ascension involved babs's. vriska begged tavros to kill her, and he would not, leaving her to die alone and in pain, whereas ianthe had no qualms about killing babs. as we learn in the unwanted guest, babs's soul has had an effect on ianthe's - they are fusing, in a sense. compare that to the very brief existence of tavrissprite, whose constituent parts could not reconcile and merge. in the end, vriska has always been both obsessed and disgusted with tavros because the world has allowed him to be soft, and kind, and nonviolent - all things that she was never given the chance to be. whereas for ianthe and babs, they have always been fighting side by side, concealing corona's secret and managing third house high society.

so essentially, babs is a tavros who has been strong and active enough to both protect and support his counterpart. while ianthe killed babs because she needed power for whatever she has planned, and she is always going to prioritize coronabeth over anything and anyone else, she had no real beef with him and saw him as, if not an ally, then at least a means to an end whom she didn't mind being bitchy with in the meantime. meanwhile vriska killed tavros not out of necessity or duress, but because he had betrayed and abandoned her at her moment of greatest need and vulnerability, and then decided to be her enemy.

to be honest you didn't ask for any of this longass response lol but to be honester its my blog and i get to rant about vriska if i want 😌 i'd be interested to hear your case for why isaac reminds you of tavros tho! bc i seriously do not see it at this point lmao

#asks #hs

[fruity-phrog]

ok hi i read ur anon post i agree w everything n now i NEEED 2 know allll of ur thoughts abt colinmichael + colin's arc and also if u have any colinjamie/ bi jamie or roy hcs. love love love ur blog!!!!!😌💓💓💓🫂

First off, the serotonin you two anons are giving me is insane, this is such a nice ask and I am very happy rn. Thank you for actively inviting me to discuss my hyperfixation.

So most of my thoughts are compiled in the aforementioned anon post, but I have more so here you go:

Since you mentioned Colin's arc, there's something I've noticed. Ever since Colin has been canonicalized as queer, and even before when people simply headcanoned him as queer, his entire arc and history has been pretty much erased. He's not just this closeted guy on the team. He was a dick to Nate for the most of s1 and maybe even some of s2, but then had an uno reverse card pulled on him and got bullied. His character was developed throughout the seasons, especially when Jamie left. He began to change and stopped being Isaac's cocky right hand man. This is something most people forget as he progresses, something I think we need to remember simply because it's a part of his character.

I think that when Isaac and Jamie find out Colin and Michael are dating they will not let Colin forget Michael's height. Isaac definitely makes fun of Colin's height even though he's the same height as Jamie, so for him to be dating a man smaller than him? Instant comedy.

As for bisexual Jamie... firstly, just look at that man. Singular dangly earring. Ridiculous sitting positions. Eyebrow slits. Istg if he turns up one day with black nail polish I'm gonna throw something at my computer. But also, I think he doesn't really understand attraction to men. Obviously, with a dad like that, he has his fair share of toxic masculinity hurting his chances of coming to terms with any kind of sexuality. But I feel like sometimes, maybe as a kid or maybe as an adult, he'll look at a man and feel something and immediately go "Nope this is jealousy I am jealous nope nope nope". Also he definitely had a crush on Roy as a kid. But I'm not to sure about Jamie x Roy in the present. They strike me as more big brother/little brother vibes, but I can definitely see where the shippers are coming from.

And since we're talking about gay Ted Lasso - Barbara 100% has a crush on Rebecca. It's just a fact. She has a crush on her. Maybe that will segway into bisexual Keely being brought back because even though it's already canon no one talks about it.

Actually, I'm going to touch on that as well. Keely is canonically bisexual. Colin wasn't the first queer character - Keely was. "If I'm going to dip my toes back into the lady pool, I can't think of a better body of water to do it with than you." I know it was played off as a joke but it's still canon. I'll actually be quite disappointed if they don't revisit that because the GA has completely ignored it. Keely. Jones. Is. Bisexual. This is a fact.

Okay I've once again diverged from the plot of the ask so I'll steer it back with a theory (kinda). I mentioned this briefly in a post but I really want Colin to stand up against Isaac and the team's comments. Nothing much, just "That's rude". And when Isaac jokes about if Colin's gay, he just says "Yeah. I am. And I want you to stop it". He needs to address the things he said to stay in the closet and I'd love it to be like that.

I actually wrote a random fluff oneshot for Colin coming out. I still think he'll be outed, but I'd love for him to have some control before that happens.

Okie that is my rant. Thank you for asking, and thank you for the compliment about my blog! Have a nice and gay day <3

#cedar crap #colin hughes #michael ted lasso #keely jones #jamie tartt #bisexual jamie tartt #ask

[navxry]

Rate your friends

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well damn alright fine LMAO

My mutuals from discord and/or Tumblr (utc cause the post is LONG)

Carmine: def a 100/10 if I have to be honest. They dealt with me SO much and my absolute nonsense as well since 2020, no words can describe how much I appreciate them for being there with me in my highest and lowest of my era. I also love terrorizing them with my muses (Lyney simp in denial), and I dont regret at all meeting and befriending them. Love you bestie <3 /p

Ryan: also a 100/10, I genuinely owe him a lot for helping me realize just. how certain things in life isn't 'normal' and fueling my brainrot/s so much. We both had so much to talk abt during the 3 years I've known him (and we're still friends to this day!), and Goddamn do I enjoy playing games w/ him and esp abt our current hyperfixations (Persona and Raincode. I still want to rattle your Yuma bot you little shit /t)

Esther (@mixed-kester) : I just met you like months ago when I first joined astronetwrk, and tbh I genuinely am v happy to have met you and enabled you BAHAHAHAHA I've been friends with her for a while but its so fun just going through the plot + AUs, and also going through pain (and making me go through a crisis with enabling and "NO YOU DID SO MUCH FOR ME" "NO, I DIDNT" LMAOOOO). Yeah, there were times when we both have our disagreements, but I genuinely could never ask for a better friend to yell at Tinuvion/Kunimitsu and the rarepare between Wanderer and Kaeya than her.

Meirin (@meimeimeirin) : I'LL SAY THIS ONCE AND I'LL SAY IT AGAIN: You are so cool and amazing and I'm so amazed with how you deal with my nonsense. I never saw an opportunity to talk to you outside of being on anon back then, and I genuinely thought that it won't be possible, but when EBG happened? I saw it and took it. You were so so so enjoyable to talk to, to rant about the entire event, and even after that, I enjoyed talking to you about even your simping with Zhongli and Alhaitham! I also enjoy bouncing off ideas with our threads (even if I have them on hold, I swear I'll reply to them orz). You're the sweetest person I've known and I am so, so glad to have met you and got to know you as a friend ;v; you also inspired me in writing for Genshin and for my faves, and for also sharing my thoughts on my sona and my selfships. I know you're busy but I hope you can see this because I genuinely appreciate you /pos

Yami (@pastel-rights) : YOU'RE SUCH A GOOD ARTIST WHAT THE HELL— honestly, how the fuck do you deal with me, Sam and Tae? (/lh) like I genuinely am so surprised I'm actually friends w/ you, but in a good way because you are?? So cool?? I swear I sometimes admire your art and when I say I wanna eat it, I would. You're such a good friend and I wish we can talk more fr

Tae (@nice-chiaki) : My first victim (/j), but really, I am in awe that I've met you in the mun's corner. I saw your blog with Itha and I genuinely loved interacting with him— your muse of him helped a lot in bringing me out of my idv writer's block slump because I had no ideas and ooooh, genuinely having you on vc and hearing/seeing you go through your cycles and bs with Sam and Yami (and Fifi as well) is the funniest thing. I also hate you (/exag) for the fandubs, and you making me go through a huge moment with Andrew and Cro. 0/10 wont recommend voicing villains (/j /j)

Sam (@paperbcy) : You are the biggest menace I know, and tbh I wonder if you're like a mirror to my menace self /j, but I'm kidding BAHAHAHAHA. I dont regret enabling you so much for your immorphy AU and our own shared AUs, and I sometimes wonder what would happen if I hadn't met you, Tae and Yami. Also, do not pull Father on my inbox ty

Fifi (@fffiii) : You dealt with my ass for years and I honestly question how you're still sane BAHAHAHAHA, but fr, even till now we're still together from 2016 - 2017(?) and I cannot stop but wonder how long it's been. It was v fun just looking back on our days at Q and even now, and I still appreciate you for everything even if you're a bigger menace than me.

Shiro (@leftdestiny-posts) : We may not talk as much or as often, but you are so kind and ouuuu you make me ;-; honestly. I am v thankful for you in dealing with my brainrot over TCO (which! I plan on revisiting and reviving as a long drawn series haha), and I hope that we talk more often when you have the time (ofc, no pressure!)

Ying (@yinyinggie) : OOOOH YOU'RE SO SWEET AND LUCIEN/YUZU TOO LIKE AUGHHH, I genuinely love you both as mods in astronetwrk AND outside of it. I genuinely appreciate you as a mod and a friend in keeping the server together and hosting games for us, and even when those went awry (read: the mafia game), you and the others made sure we had fun anyway and prioritized our comfort, which is so?? sweet??? I genuinely wish I can hug you and I wish we can speak more orz ily /p

There are more but I can't remember them all so o7 o/ hope this is enough anon

#👁️ | navi speaks #👁️ | consulting with: anonymous #;; theres so many moots but I cant list them all out #;; if I didnt mention you Im so sorry #;; my brain is fried rn HAIUHUIDF #;; okay im gonna go back to work o7 #;; gl to my notifs! /lh

[hibiscusbiue]

do you guys remember when i made that really long raph rant

raphs fear is the only one i am 100% sure on (being afraid of himself) and with the others i’m like. Jeez. Why do you three have to be complicated.

but since there’s nothing confirmed i’m basically clawing at scraps

because we KNOW leo’s fear it’s shown theoughbthe WHOLE show. his fear is failure, failing his brothers and letting them die or not being strong enough to save them. that was his ENTIRE season 4 arc, learning that he did all he could’ve done and getting stronger from it. the reason i say this is because in the first seeing of his fear splinter died and he wasn’t strong enough to save him.

donnie’s. i can’t be 100% sure. i want to say it’s somewhere along the lines of not only failing but watching people close to you die (sainw). the reason i say this is because angel Fell Off and Died in his

mikey’s i actually had a talk w my dad abt… i’m kind of unsure on this. hesitant to throw it out there incase the sharks get to me and eat me. BUT.

my dad said it’s his family turning on him and attacking him or leaving him behind because in his fear induced nightmare leo had turned to the dark side and attacked him

i think that’s true but also another route we could go down for mikey is being the sole survivor of his family (ahaha tlr reference jn my tumblr post? noo..) and i say this because as i was typing this out it struck me that mikey would have been the only person alive in his family. being the sole survivor and watching everyone fall down and being left alone to fend for yourself not only because you weren’t strong enough but also because you can’t change what happened to them now.

that makes the kanabopocolypse feel a little more ouchie .. yeesh

anyway

i’d LOVE to hear other people’s speculations. i over analyze little things and under analyze the big stuff so please let me know your thoughts..

#tmnt #tmnt 2003 #blue talks #tmnt mikey #tmnt raph #tmnt donnie #tmnt leo #tmnt mikey 2003 #tmnt leo 2003 #tmnt donnie 2003 #tmnt raph 2003 #tmnt rant #tmnt 2003 rant #teenage mutant ninja turtles #rambles

[quadruple-a-battery-under-ur-bed]

💭 ⛪️✨️

For ask game!

💭 Some character headcanons

ok so rufus is like 100% gay like ik hes mlm thats canon bc vincent but i dont think his sexuality is ever mentioned lmaoo so like + he would be a fan of like dua lipa n shit but like hide it so much and act like he listens to acdc and like clive is the only one who doesnt realise his music taste tbh

farah is defos like omni/pan romantic and greysexual + she defos checked ao3 n tumblr to see if there was rpf about her. she definitley wasnt going to read it. why do u ask

gary is transfem bc i said so rn (im bsing these hcs on the spot based on vibes ima be real) and defos experimented w dudes in like pallamistus equivelent to collage/uni and still fucks em sometimes so hes like hetroromantic/bisexual w preference for women also he learnt how to make coloured metal and then made pride flag swords (i dont think pallamistus would have many pride flags but i think there would maybe be a rainbow pride one + jason showed ppl pride flags from earth and started making it a bit of a thing by accident

⛪ Favorite deity

knowledge or healer r my faves bc like knowledge as a deity their domain speaks to me like yesssss facts n shit and then healer as a fuckin person is so cool like they use i belive its he/they or he/it since jason refers to them w they/them or it/its at some point idk which but like i just find em v v interesting i love em also death is such a cool goddess bc like theyre not a bad deity like other similar ones like pain and trickery n stuff which i just like symbolically like "death is not unnatural it is a force of good just like life"

i do have a bit of beef w the whole evil gods being purged out bc like mortals doing that like sure ig (but also like yall r piss scared of a god but u wanna kill em and yall have the balls to do that damn) but like the fact that ALL OTHER GODS ACTIVLEY HUNT THEM is a bit like why? yall r litteralyl forces of nature personified why are these ones bad dumbass why is pain exterminated why is trickery frowned upon WHY IS DISGUISE A BAD GOD????? and then FUCKING PURITY WHO IS TRYING TO DESTORY THE WHOLE WORLD TO BE TAKEN OVER JUST IS NEVER FLAGGED AS AN EVIL GOD??? like yes the gods know its decipt and cant say shit but like surley theres a god who that is within their purview to speak about??? like truth or some shit can reveal lies or smthn

damn thats another rant abt some worldbuildy thinks (im working up the post rn idk y)

✨ Coolest power (essence or otherwise)

ok so i think skill books r super super cool and also masivley underused like wdym theres fucking skill books and noone uses them like sure u need a whole new power to use em but like just make a ritual like cmon theres prolly a ritual for every cool ass essence ability and like jasons power that absorbs essences n awakening stones also gives him the skill book one like they r absolutley linked JUST FUCKIN RITUAL THIS SHIT UP

FREE KNOWLEDGE

HOW HAS NOONE MADE A RITUAL FOR THIS YET

oh also on the topic: knowledge prolly has a shit ton of skill books on like everything why dont they make skill books for basic skills like reading and writing and simple maths and do free rituals for kids to bypass the whole years long education system that fucks up kids mental states later on (the mental health but is more high school but still) like yes theres prolly a min age like essences n shit but like. just wait?? cmon its like fifteen years CMON oh also speaking of the min age is that like a last minute puberty thing or is it like a second magic puberty also surley it would be like "ur defos gettin fucked up" -> "prolly gettin fucked up" -> "maybe gettin fucked up" -> "no fuckedupedness now :3" (like normal)

soz that last one was a worldbuilding rant abt skill books goddamn i didnt know i had that in me wow

#:0 someone spoke #question-of-violence #hwfwm #he who fights with monsters #my autism is popping off today goddamn

[little-cereal-draws]

I’ve seen a lot of posts abt how wonderful it is when Neurodivergent ppl live together bc they finally understand each other and don’t have to deal w neurotypical living expectations. Well here’s an angry three am rant abt my experience as an autistic living w an autistic roommate. (This is just my personal experience that I need to get out)

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He stims vocally a lot and it really bothers me. I can’t focus on my work, especially writing, but I don’t want to stop him bc I know how important it is

He plays video games until 3am most nights (including rn) and I’m so sleep deprived that I want to cry all the time and almost fall asleep as soon as I sit down but I don’t want to tell him to stop bc I know those are his special interests. I know first hand how soul crushing it is to be told u can’t engage w ur special interests so I let him do it

He’ll have the tv, his laptop, and phone all playing different things at the same time and forget doing my work, I can’t even be in the same room. It’s too much. But I don’t want to tell him to stop bc that’s stimulus he’s needs Ig

I know a lot of ppl have trouble w temperature regulation and he’s got a space heater that’s on 24/7, even when he’s not home. I live in the south and it’s summer now so it’s around 80-90 degrees every day but I’ll come home and it’s even hotter in our room. Walking in feels like getting slapped in the face w the sun. I think it baked my plant alive bc even tho I got one that could survive heat, it’s crispy and white like a ghost. I didn’t even know plants could do that. But he also always wears a hoodie and jeans no matter how hot it is so maybe he’s cold all the time. Idk

He’s got no spatial awareness. He likes to do his projects on the floor and completely spreads out so I can’t access my bed, night table, food, or supplies. His stuff already takes up 2/3 of the room anyway but this makes me dance and tiptoe around his projects for days on end

Adding onto that last point, he doesn’t remember things very well. And I know that’s not his fault but it’s so annoying to come home and he’s done his share of the chores but didn’t put the cleaning supplies away. Or he’s ironed his clothes but left the ironing board out in the middle of the room. He finally washed his dishes today that had been overflowing from the sink for eight months. And I know executive disfunction can be a bitch but I’m so tired of not even being able to wash a single fork bc there’s no more space in the sink

And the lights,,,, I know a lot of ppl have sensory issues w overhead lights but it’s so frustrating when I’m obviously working on a project, putting fine details on a still life or whatever, and he just turns the light off. I can’t work in the dark but I know what a pain lights can be so I just let him do it

And he’s a good guy and is nice and all that but I can not wait to move out. And I’m not blaming him for any of this, it’s 100% on me and I know it. I haven’t expressed my displeasure for these things or asked him to change so I shouldn’t expect him to magically know what I’m thinking. I’m too much of an anxious ppl pleaser to assert any boundaries

#i wrote this at 3am bc he’s playing video games #i might delete this later #i just needed to get it out of my system #I’m an asshole I know #i need to communicate better

[lietpolski]

please ramble about yugotalia, i would love to hear 🤲🏻

THIS IS THE ASK EVER THANK U ok!!! uh my version of yugotalia isn't like?? the established yugotalia TM? it's inspired by it !! i read yugotalia fanfics as a young teen, but that's as involved as i was with it :O so some of my versions of the characters are inspired by the popular yugotalia versions, and some are a lot different!

under the cut because i'm sure i'll end up ranting for ages

if it wasn't obvious from how much i freak out whenever i see fanart of him, my favourite is serbia!!! :,) ISNT IT INSANE BTW how hws serbia and yugotalia serbia are literally the same guy with a different haircut. anyway i LOVE him i love unlikable greasy men ❤️ i like shipping him with bulgaria because i think their combined swagless energy is so powerful fr

i also ship him with slovenia!! or i think they're fuckbuddies BUT slovenia is my favourite oc :) he's also 100% made up by me, because i didn't remember yugotalia slovenia when i came up with my version! i drew fanart of him once it's under #mine if u wanna see that

in my head he's a sociable guy, but he often comes off as prissy or judgemental (and often refuses to acknowledge he's balkan, what an L) and he idolizes austria quite a bit while also kind of disliking him (weirdo) and he's closest to croatia! and i.. had to integrate the stupid internet memes about slovenians being femboys so..... let's say he likes dressing frilly in bed :) oh oh and he's a nature lover (sidenote, i have a serbia/slovenia smutfic i wrote that i was never gonna post or show other people but since we're talking about it lmk if you want that)

i also like montenegro a lot :D i hc her as serbia's younger sister & they're each other's closest relationship! (although they bicker more often in modern day) off-topic but i use a design for her that i've seen other people use. and she looks almost identical to me it's a little jumpscare-y HAH

i think of her as laid-back & a nature lover too, but less in a "buy expensive equipment and do fancy mountain climbing" slovenia way, and more... she's a chill gal who likes a good nap on a hammock by the sea or on a mountain u know! that said, she has a roguish side!

i don't have as many thoughts on the others (yet!! still developing my hcs on them!) but i have a set design for albania (not yugoslav so i guess not yugotalia but come omnnn he counts) & some hcs for his personality (cheerful prideful guy, sometimes a lil naive!!) and i think he'd be very good friends with greece

i'll shut up for now but lmk if there's anything else u wanna know!! i have general thoughts on the other countries too, but def have thought more in-depth abt serbia, slovenia & monte!

#i only got into balkan history recently liiiike 4-5 months ago? which is why im not as confident on headcanons about everyone #but im doing my best to learn!! #THANK YOU FOR THIS ASK I LOVE THEM SO MUCH #maia talks #ask

[just-a-tiny-goldfish]

Your post has me thinking, how might Orellia react/how did she react to finding out Ortega went through her things after HB? Was there anything in there she would have been afraid of Ortega finding/seeing?

Okay so I thought abt this for a hot sec 😂 cause I was like she def just lives in a junkyard, no one but her can really see the value in any of it.💀

I don’t think there’s anything in particular that she would have been ‘afraid’ of Ortega seeing per se- maybe if Ortega gave her anything super sentimental she might be like ‘oh no she knows I care!’ But nothing super secretive that would give away anything abt what she was- she probably did have some journals with rants in them but nothing that would give context to her ‘situation’-anyone trying to read it would probs just figure it was a kid mad at a parent, aka super vague.

Now as to how she would react? Not good. Not good at all. Girls got anger issues like heck now. Shes looking for the slightest spark to blow up at Ortega, I can’t imagine it would be pretty given a ‘good’ reason in her eyes at least; she would 100% see it as an invasion of privacy🙄 . She probably would have taken it better if a stranger had gone in there to get rid of everything rather than Ortega. She really saw her little living area as an extension of her, so having a stranger come in and junk everything would be fine, they won’t be able to read into most if any of the things in there-unlike say, someone who actually ‘knows’ her like Ortega.

#thank you for the ask I genuinely had to be like #does she actually have anything worth money in there 💀 #she probs has a few select things from Ortegas fancy spending but that’s abt it #she’s a pack rat 🐀 #🐀 🐀 🐀 #Orellia becerra

[chrisbangs]

tbh u do deserve to be paid for ur content if i had the money i would personally pay u 🥲 your tags make me want to protect ur heart and give u everything nice in this world tbh. seeing a chrisbangs li tag rant makes my day a little better (when it's about something not so good for you personally it makes me want to send u something sweet and give u a hug 😕) idk i can't even put it into words but i love u and i love ur love for chan it makes me soft and i hope u know how appreciated ur content is here <3

snsjsksksks i famously don't know abt that 🫂🫶💗 but thank you for thinking so 😭🥹💗 i think i've gotten to a point where i'm like .. i think my gifs are just nice enough like they suck less than they used to but they're not like ?? 100% great but ?? like who am i giffing for at the end of the day 😁👍 it's me so!! if it's enough for me then it's enough for posting HEBDKDNDKD that's how im rolling with it these days BUT!! 🥺🫶 you're so sweet truly to say that i appreciate it :<

😭🫶 im glad that my tags can make your day a lil better im sorry i talk abt peeing my pants as much as i do SNDKDMDKS 😔👎 thank you for enjoying my tags i feel like i just have so much to say and i don't really talk irl so the online space i've curated is subject to my incessant talking...

wahhh... you're so cute 🥺🖤🌙🐺🪐 i'm happy that you enjoy my content :( 💗 i feel like i hate everything i make and i never feel like it's good enough but i'm glad at least ik 1 person likes it ☹️🤍🫶

#HWHWJSNSKSMSMS YOURE SOOOO CUTE ☹️☹️☹️🫶🫶🫶 #big big big hug :(((( #i don't really like sweets but i will accept the hugs huhu 🥹💗🫶🫂🤍 mwah #so cute :< 🫂🤍 #love uuuu......... #anon #answered

[bookwyrminspiration]

Hi! I saw you rb'd the post about autism and I rlly wanted to talk abt it! I don't live in the US, and therapists where i live are almost the same as you described. Idk if i have ADHD or Autism or something else entirely, but I do know there's something different from me than other people. I've known ever since I was little. I know my brain works differently, I see things differently, and I feel left out because of it. I relate to almost every obscure ADHD symptom (like i relate to the "i got distracted" but also the very specific "not everyone goes through that" ones).

I don't want to self diagnose because I'm nowhere near being an expert on neurodivergency, but I also know I'm different. Idk what to do because I talked to a therapist once about it (we didnt discuss it, i just mentioned it) and she said that if I've gotten this far (i'm 17) without a diagnosis and I've done fine, a diagnosis won't change that. I think that a diagnosis would 100% help because i would at least know for sure because rn i feel like i'm going crazy. Maybe everything I've been experiencing has just been the product of undealt with trauma, idk, but i rlly wish i knew for sure.

I imposter syndrome myself into thinking i'm actually just as normal as everyone else and am just thinking this becusde i want to think i'm "special". Which isn't true i'm 99% sure-

Sorry for the rant. I just dont know what to do :(

Hello, Nonsie! No need to apologize for the rant, I'm sorry you're in this situation. It absolutely sucks when therapists and other mental health professionals are like that. Sometimes it feels like they've made a decision about you already and are just tolerating you the rest of the time and dismissing everything else.

I've also been through the exact same thing with the "I know there's something different about me." I always chalked it up to me being "the gifted kid," but then I was different from all the other gifted kids as well. I didn't know what it was, so I instead turned to fiction and to stories. Especially those with magic and inhuman creatures, because I knew that whatever it was that made someone human, I didn't have it. So I saw myself instead in fairies and fae and as I got older, in monsters (I mean this in a good way). My point is that I think I understand the knowing you're different but not being able to put a finger on it experience. I often describe it as living in a bubble where I can see everyone else and they can see me, but I'm not with them. I'm separate even amongst everyone.

I will just say that if you don't think you're qualified to self-diagnose, I'd suggest looking into it more! Self-diagnoses are incredibly valid and are fairly accepted from what I've seen. Most people are very understanding about the process and about reasons why you might not be able to/not want to get an official diagnosis. I think almost all people who have diagnosed have also had the "I don't know enough to make this call" experience and then go on to look into it before doing so. They're generally not made lightly, instead made with the insight and reflection of weeks, months, years worth of work and research.

Also, I don't know how the rules work wherever you live, but it's possible that you'd be able to look into evaluations outside of your therapist if she is adamant about you not needing one. I know where I live I could find an evaluation location and submit the paperwork independently--though I think as a minor I'd need to include parent contact information, but then again maybe not. And that's also just where I am

You could also approach her or another therapist about it again and say that it's an avenue you'd like to explore even if it won't change much. Therapy is about you, so if you want something you're allowed to express that. One note I'd like to add is that I'd advise against relying on outside sources entirely for confirmation that your experiences aren't you "going crazy." That's not to say that an official diagnosis wouldn't be a relief or a breath of fresh air and a "finally! it was real!" That's an entirely understandable reason to want an evaluation or diagnosis, it's just that things don't always work perfectly and people can be wrong. So if you're basing your understanding entirely on someone else's assessment and they miss something, it can feel like a huge disappointment. And it's more likely when the system isn't friendly towards you.

I can tell you that you aren't making it up and that whatever you've experienced and been through, it is real and valid and you deserve answers about it. Whether those answers come from yourself or through treatment, I hope you find what you're looking for. I actually think a very common and relatable finding out you might be autistic/adhd/something else is obsessing over it and then convincing yourself you're making everything up and are actually normal and just suck at being a person.

I don't know if you want advice, but I think if I were in your situation (based on the knowledge I have) I'd look into it more. There are plenty of YouTube videos and online resources you can use to help figure things out, and if it's something you want then research what options are available in your area and what the requirements are (e.g. age/information/if you can do it alone or not). When I was first exploring all these possibilities, I started a thing in my notes app to keep track of different experiences that could potentially indicate or relate to something so I could look into it later, so maybe that could help!

I'm wishing you the best of luck in whatever comes next for you in this experience <33

#quil's queries #nonsie #autism #adhd #neurodiveristy #I don't know what other areas you might want to look into but if you wanted a few references for looking into autism #then I could share some #in terms of like. online information #different tests you can take (not official evaluations) to give you a sense #or if anyone else wants them :) #long post