#i uh IDUNno (does know)

[smokbeast]

"reach for me, hold me, no matter how much it tears you apart"

#whose hand is that #i uh IDUNno (does know) #art #my art #body horror #abstract art #gore #cw gore #digital painting #my ocs #craig

[liliallowed]

the urge to read a dust x reader fic is strong but like...

I get frustrated by the interpretations. it's like... they did dust so dirty man.

bro is NOT a friking... idunno. feral beast or an egotistical maniac that only uses others as tools like your avrage charismatic bad guy. he's a fucking depressed mess of a man scrambling for any sense of control. an asshole at best and a killer at worst but he won't care enough to ... uh... you know...uhm... erm...

look the guy does mercy killing. he doesn't drag things out. he would NOT FUCKING DO THAT.

no I'm not calling him a saint or saying he's above it. he would do it IN THE RIGHT CONTEXT and not just out on a whim.

like he's still horrible but it's a different flavor of evil. he's like a minty vanilla flavoured kinda bad guy that won't cross some lines such as [REDACTED].

like I'd expect that from fanon [REDACTED] sans but like COME ON.

he's not a fucking [REDACTED]

heck he wouldn't even bother doing that to crimson who he's WANTS TO KILL with all his being.

it's weird but like... crimson and dust... they're weirdly in sync? like they've been fighting toghter for so long they already have memorized each other's micro expressions body language fidgets lil perks... they're FAMILIAR with how the other ticks. and like...

after so long I don't THINK dust actually wants to BREAK crimson. if they leave he's going to just be alone with his voices...

crimson IS head over heels for the guy but they respect his boundaries. THEY'RE not just gonna go there and like idunno. KISS him out of nowhere. not without a build up or him being open to the idea.

it's HARD to even call it romance. they've been stuck toghter for so long that some personal boundaries sorta... washed away? like they're both used to invading each other's personal space as pranks. but not to the extent that it'd actually TRIGGER either of them.

like he doesn't really mind it. he's used to them flirting.

as for crimson...

they're up for anything he give a green light for and if not? they're ok with it. they don't really wanna put a name to this codependency. friends enemies soul mates lovers they're just words and labels.

they prefer companion or... murder buddy.

so like I FEEL like dust yk... wouldn't really uhm... you know JUMP on the opportunity to link his soul to them to kill them both at once? even for the sake of resets.

specially cuz souls don't just... work like that. you can't FORCE a soul link in most fanfic interpretations...

unless that's not the case then that's just my thornbound souls au which it's LITERALLY a forced bond formed from spite...

that aside sometimes they kiss mid fight either to gain the upper hand and stab the other person... or not and just yk. make out n shit. it's not even really a commitment or a sign of trust or anything.

it's like... they know each other so we'll that the mental barriers. the shame. the stuff you have when you're with someone who doesn't know you and everything you ARE?

they don't really do anything without reading the other's vibe. like. it's not a HEALTHY relationship by any means but they WON'T cross some lines.

and if they do cross it it's likely because crimson or dust allowed it so because they felt playful or just feeling adventurous. they're BOTH STRONG. they can justake seperate choices.

they're both unstable individuals and crimson doesn't want to break his fragile mind even further.

also the fact that crimson can't actually feel any pain.

that also creeps dust out lmao.

#potentially suggestive #suggestive #most dust fanfics suck #must i do everything myself... #crimsondust

[technodromes]

Morty fidgets with the box in his hands. He has picked a paper with punk decorations to wrap it, thinking that it would be fitting his friend's tastes, but now he's starting to wonder if he should have picked something less...flashy. He's never been too good with gifts. He does his best to make them as thoughtful as possible, but that's not always enough. He has sort of made peace with it, yet he can't help being anxious in this particular occasion. Bebop and Rocksteady are the first cool people who have openly welcomed him in their gang and he wants to impress them. Well, stalling won't help him. So, he takes in a deep, calming breath and approaches the mutant. "Uh, h-hey, I mean...Hi," he stutters out, mentally cringing. Great, he's already making a fool of himself. "S-So, Rocksteady mentioned that today would be your birthday an-and...I thought that I should get you, uh, something." And with that, he hands out the gifts. Under the paper there's a slick, dark purple box, a little casket holding a collection of selected music albums. They are shaped like small, flat squares and they are obviously not from Earth. "Y-You can listen to them with...well, everything. J-Just set it on whatever device you want to use. T-The thing will attach itself to it an-and...then use the device as you'll normally do." He rubs the back of his neck with a nervous smile. "T-They are...it's alien music, b-but it's basically all rock, punk and similar. I-I hope you'll like it. H-Happy birthday!" [[ Morty for Bebop's bday! || Sorry for the delay, I ended up working super late yesterday x.x ]] @countlessrealities

[Beedeedledee’s Birthday]

[🎸]   Rocksteady gifted Bebop a vintage set of punk badges earlier which he's already wearing proudly all over his red vest. And, after days of constant begging, Krang finally improved Bebop's arcade station with another bunch of 'brainless' games, as the Utrom would call them. (However, Krang also installed a device into the arcade that might be more than the Mutant bargained for, but that would be subject to another day).

Shredder on the other hand would organize a bunch of Foot Soldiers to leave a huge pile of pizza boxes in the Mutant's abode. It is the Ninja Master's way of making sure the 'giant baby' would stay quiet for a while instead of pestering him all day about going to a funfair for his birthday like every year.

And so, Bebop is stuffing another rolled-up piece of pizza into his snout before turning a curious gaze at Morthy. He didn't really expect any visitors, let alone more gifts. His pointy ears perk up in excitement and he yanks the box out of Morty's hands. "Woah, youse even brought me somethin'? Lemme see what'cha got!" The excitement of getting a gift wrapped in rad-looking papers is overpowering the urge to poke fun at Morty for acting like a shy schoolgirl, despite it lying on the top of the mutant's tongue.

Upon discovering the weird flat squares, Bebop tilts his head in confusion. But Morty's explanation quickly shifts his mood into pure joy again.

"You mean like N'-sho-v? Damn Morty, we listened to that in one of those weird spaceships. Idunno where they came from, but that sound was fuckin' rad. Rock an' I named our dinosaur after it. That's remindin' me, YOU still need a gang name too, because 'Morty' ain't it! Youse know what? I go get Rock an' then we listen these babies together! Maybe we find somethin' that's fittin' you!"

#Muse: Bebop #Blog Event: Bebop's Birthday #V: Portal Travel Shenanigans #countlessrealities #The Mutants discover that being nice gets them nice stuff too =`) #If this were the IDW comics it would be 'let's see how long it lasts this time' pretty much tho xD #Technodromes Rp

[sambambucky]

hiiiiiiii is it annoying if i ask about... like 4 bc i am CURIOUS Jamie’s eight, tiny favors, best behavior, A ghost story of Sorts, Competitive pay plus benefits?

HELLOOOO lmao you know i cant shut up! the more the better; could never could be annoyed by you!

k so: -jamies eight is an oceans eleven-ish type au... thing. i drafted this a long time ago and picked up again recently & hehehe o boy its so messy!

The dog tags and wedding band are as integral a part of Sam’s body as his birthmarks and scars, the tattoo on his ribs.   How long have they been shoved away in this drawer?  “I shouldn’t have –” Sam sits back on Bucky’s thighs, hand out. “Give me that.” Bucky pools the chain into his palm, and Sam loops them onto his neck and climbs off Bucky’s lap. He shivers in the cold Sam leaves behind. “This was a mistake.” Sam whispers, eyes downcast, running the metal through his fingers as he paces. He’s beautiful even when he’s ripping his heart out of his chest.

-tiny favors, best behavior is another lets-torture-rhodey fic from the they're always like this 'verse... rhodey's cousin is in town visiting and she's a big Falcon fan..

“Hey is it okay if Bucky comes too? I shouldn’t leave him alone, he gets all anxious.” “I might scratch up all the furniture,” Bucky adds. And, no. That’s not what this is about. The reservation is for four, but he was planning to bring Tony, which would have been its own can of worms, but worms Rhodey can handle - gummi worms at worst. Bucky was never a part of this equation. He should put his foot down and tell them no. “Yeah,” Rhodey says, “of course he can come.”

-a ghost story of sorts is, like, uh, bucky gets kidnapped or something as a kid, and then meets sam in a record store as a teenager? and they promise to meet there again in ten years? idk

“Wait,” he says, delicate but firm, like the hand on Sam's wrist. Sam doesn’t pull his hand away, too stunned by the sudden introduction to the sound of his voice. “My name is Bucky.” It comes out like a secret. Soft, and with sincerity. A name he’s given himself, or an identity gifted by someone he holds dear. Sam bites back his smile, telling himself not to spin this whole thing up into something bigger than it needs to be. Then Rhodey lays on the horn, and Bucky lets go of Sam, and the moment breaks around them.

& last but actually least -competitive pay + benefits is the tentative(?) title for the office au! i hadnt looked at this doc in a while... the only coherent thing in it is a 'bonus chapter' thats not even in the mockumentary format???

“Ugh, is that today? Can’t believe we let him sign us up for that.” “It’s impossible to say no to either of them since the divorce. He probably just wants to get Steve on camera saying he still loves him.”  “God, they’re so pathetic,” Bucky says, putting his hands underneath his head, looking up at Sam dreamily. “Idunno." Sam sits back onto his thighs and smirks. “You divorce me, and we still have to see each other at work everyday? I promise I’m gonna act up way worse than those two.”  Bucky smiles, but he starts to look a little queasy the way he always does when Sam brings up marriage, or anything to do with their future. He reaches down to brush Bucky’s hair out of his face and watches his expression clear. 

hehe thanks for the ask!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#ok obligatory ramble in the tags #there is a sambucky oceans eleven au on the archive im p sure! #i was going to link it but i cant find it so sorry #and if anyone knows wha ti mean lmk #p sure its pre fatws era and only one chapter where bucky talks to tony??? #also im remembering i wrote that last one JUST to explain why sam and bucky arrive separately in ordinary workplace behavior #as if anyone cares #anyway this was so fun #lmao at the next few asks #jo do be writing or whatever #sambucky fics #tag games #crepuscularqueens #the wip tag

[blisterinballista]

👂

I am of a listening

heavy pacing echoes behind the locked door. looks like boss is on a call. again. you can't derive who's on the other end of the line, but baltimore seems more talkative than he is with regular clients.

a friend, perhaps.

> " ... no, no, he ain- hes not- not yet... i... idunno. i mean- "

> " • • • "

> " -yea, yeah, i do, i... really do. wouldn put up with em if i didn like him, heh... "

> " ... uh. "

> " • • • "

> " i-its, jus... i, feel, like... its neva really, around, yknow? ... like- okay, the, parties, an, yknow, every now an then we... yea. but, its like none o that even matters as soon as somethin, serious comes up. ya feel? "

> " • • • "

> " i mean like- i tell em, all the time, to call me if they need somethin- anythin. an he neva does. then theres me with- "

... a sigh. thumb and index claws come up to smooth out his brow.

> " i.. jus wanna talk to them. no strings attached. "

> " • • ? "

> " ... you an i both kno why ion do tha.. an is not like i can jus, bring tha up outa the blue... ugh. hes so pushy sometimes i swear. you cant not eva tell me shit an then expect me to explain why im havin a meltdown-- IN the middle OF havin a meltdown--! "

> " • • • "

> " ... im alright. is cool, everythin fine. "

> " ... maybe im the problem. "

> " • • • "

> " i mean... my issues ain, exactly... his fault... "

> " • • ?- "

> " --NO, NO I CANT. ... not yet. or ever. i don know anymore... ill jus, fake it till i make it, i guess. "

> " • • • "

> " -yeah, ill let cha kno if he hurts me.. an no, ya don get ta snap his neck. cuz he don got one. "

> " • • • "

> " oh, the otha thing? yea i showed em. befo you ask, yea, i trust em with it... as scary as that might be... maybe, itll like, iunno. make it feel safe trustin me too. "

> " • • • "

> " i ain... too, worried.. after all, he saw wha i do to traitorous dogs. dante may be dumb, but it ain stupid. bsides, i can tell hes good at his core. he wouldn sell me out to that windbag... im sure ovit. "

> " ... alrigh alrigh, i should shut up now befo i spiral again. whaddabout you an, your, uh...- "

> " • • • "

> " ... my god. yous actually insane. tell me everythi- "

just as blitz begins laughing, his voice is getting away from the door, deeper into the room. sounds like that other person has some good hot tea of their own, eh.

#comically proceeds to spiral anyway #hothead dante #ask meme #include emoji plus prompt thanks #^^^^ #📀~ic

[anxiouslyextroverted]

please do the tarot reading i wont take it srsly i just need to know ok because tommy said "uh idunno currently no but we will see i guess" and I am just trying to figure out his facial expressions and tone please does he not know dream is going to twitchcon

anon i can't I'm sorry

take my watch list and rewatch list, see if any of these shows can give you comfort <3

tbhk

demon slayer

avatar last air bender

starwars

bluelock

owl house

amphibia

my little pony

invincible

mob psycho 100

chainsaw man

spongebob

invader zim

rvb

percy jackson (a new movie for its coming out soon!)

spiderman across the spiderverse

puss in boots the last wish

bocchi the rock

suzume

dhmis

ruby Gillman, teenage kraken

akiba maid wars

land of lustrous

futurama

infinity train

soul eater

full metal alchemist

jessica jones

sp

moongirl and devil dinosaur

kagerou project

the boys

alice in borderland

beastars

attack on titan

death note

miraculous ladybug

saiki-k

spy x family

#ask #I've seen the clip I don't think he is against him but I dont think stressing about it is healthy and will change anything #oh also messing around with fic!prime are nice too and helps take ur mind off it

[thedianadiary]

0019.

Do you want the last dream you had to come true? looooooool. so get this. my most recent dream i can recall was that i had been married to K for like 3 years. we had just had twins (our first kids) one boy and one girl. they were like 4-5 mos. old. so we were like super happy and involved in church and like i remember being so happy. but then i found out he cheated. so like i went to one of our pastors and i was like i honestly dont think i can even think about reconciliation because we were happy. we like had no problems. and like i want to be kind to him because he is my kids dad and hes a good dad, but i cannot live life with someone who repeats this cycle to me. so like the dream fast-forwarded and we had gotten divorced and he was so upset by it he just wanted his family back. and we continued to go to the same church and like sundays was drop-off day for him to pick up the kids from nursery and have them til tuesday night. and so like after church we agreed to talk briefly and i told him i was going to start dating n stuff and he was like SO upset and we had this long convo about it. then i like started seeing someone from church. i woke up when K went to like get really upset with me. sooooooooooo i wouldn’t say it would be phenomenal to have it come true.. i love the idea of having babies and such. but idk.

When did you last talk to the person you’d most wanna talk to right now? i honestly dont want to talk to anyone rn lol

What kind of pill did you last take? lactaid

Do you like wearing glasses? not particularly.

Does your mom know the last person you hung out with? Yepppp

What were you doing 4 hours ago? i was playing sorry with my nephews

What would you most like to eat right now? the cake in the fridge but oooooomg my tummy hurts so bad currently.

How long were you last in the car for? Like 5ish mins

What is something good that happened last weekend? my brother got married

Do you like holding hands or do you think it’s stupid? i love it. i am often complimented that my hands are very soft.. and i love to do that whole thumb rubbing fun stuff. makes me happy.

The last song you heard, what does it make you think of? something in an ad

How’d you get your last injury? i jammed my finger and got a big blood blister from it.

What do you like about your birthday? i love gifts and good food and like .. ugh i used to date someone that would send me these gorgeous florist assembled bouquets and i just felt so... idk special. maybe that makes me self centered idk.

Do you like being home alone at night? i seldom dislike being alone

What first comes to mind when thinking of 10th grade? That was not an easy year. my parents were divorcing, i was dealing with some friendship losses. 

What’s the scariest thing that’s happened to you? near death experiences.

Has an ambulance ever came to your house? looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooool yes

The person you’re thinking about- what are you thinking about them? our babies tho..

When did you last skip class? uhhhhhh never? once maybe 

Do you like the shape of your fingernails? yes 

Did you look at your fingernails for the question above? after i typed yes lol

Whose pool did you last swim in? My sisters. i am eager to swim again.

What’s something you like about your 3rd hour? uh i never had that considering i was homeschooled.

Is formspring a good idea? idunno what that is.

What’s your biggest problem at the moment? career probably.

What’s the cutest thing someone’s ever done for you? oh man i would need to think about this.

When did you last see a police car? today

Why aren’t you doing something more productive than this? Its bedtime.

How many people know about the last person you kissed? i mean plenty. 

How many different cars have you driven? goodness. many. 

What did you do on Thursday? took care of the cats, went to VBS, went to the grocery store, cleaned the house, etc.

What color was the last thing you drank? gatorade

What do you do on Fridays? usually that has been date day/night

Have you ever had to take desperate measures in a desperate situation? yes im sure i have.

What door did you last open besides any on your house or car? the one at rainbow cone

[chickentendieboi]

ʜᴏʟɪᴅᴀʏ || ᴍᴀᴛꜱᴜᴏᴋᴀ ʀɪɴ

—tw/cw: none (:

—wc: 1,900

☼ a/n: {originally on my quotev and wattpad, revised slightly} Figured I'd start to get into the holiday season with one for my lovely hubby!

You walked around the living room at your apartment. You looked at the fireplace mantle, debating whether or not that’s where you wanted the stocking to be hanging or whether or not you wanted the candles positioned the way they were now.

“Why does it matter…” You huffed out as you turned around, emptiness filling your heart as well as the emptiness in the apartment. Rin called in mere hysteria, his coaches weren’t letting them go home for the holidays, they had a very important meet they needed to practice for. So, for Christmas… Rin was stuck in Australia while you were sat alone in the apartment you both shared.

“Gosh I’m bored.” You sat back on your couch, laying her head down over the arm. You pulled your phone out of your pocket and decided to call up Gou.

She answered on the 3rd ring. “Y/N?”

“Gou! Hey! What are you up to?” You started to bounce your legs on the couch.

“Oh, uh, I’m just a tad bit busy, but what’s up?” You could hear chatter in the background.

“Ahh, sorry. I was kind of just wondering if I could, idunno, stay the night tonight? I’m so bored and I didn’t know what you were doing later.” You got out pretty fast.

“Ah, I’m sorry. I can’t tonight. I’m going to be at my friend’s house. That’s actually who you can probably hear in the background. But, Y/N, I’m sorry but I have to get going. I’ll see you on Christmas! Bye!” and with that, she hung up.

Damn.

Now, what were you to do? You grabbed a pillow from your side and put it on top of your face and sighed out loudly before throwing it on the ground. Gosh, you were so bored. You looked over to the side at your Christmas tree, looking at the small array of gifts you had wrapped underneath it.

You were excited about your present for Rin. You’d made him a scrapbook that held all the memories for you both for the past 5 years. First date, first vacation, first apartment. It held close to everything from your relationship like old movie stubs and entrance tickets to aquariums or museums.

Giving up on finding things to do, you settled with binging Criminal Minds in bed until you fell asleep.

~~

Finally, it was Christmas day. You’d spent yesterday at your parents to celebrate the holiday but now you were getting ready to head over to the Matsuoka household. You grabbed a bag before you left and placed the gifts for Gou and their mom in it.

Ringing the doorbell at 8:30 in the morning, you were greeted by Mrs. Matsuoka.

“Oh, Y/N! I’m so glad you made it.” Miyako gave you a heartwarming smile and pulled you in for a hug. She was still wearing her pajamas as she let you in, closing the door behind you.

“Y/N!” Gou chirped and gave you a hug as well.

“Gou! Happy birthday girl!” You slightly yelled as you ran and gave her a hug.

“Thanks.” She smiled as her ponytail swished to the side. “This wasn’t too early for you? I know we pushed it up two hours this year, but we’ve got a lot of things to prep for this year.”

“We didn’t want to have to rush, Mimi will be over in an hour or so and she won’t make it easy to focus on cooking.” Mrs. Matsuoka patted you on the back as she talked about her mother-in-law before heading to the kitchen. “Would you like any hot chocolate before we start opening presents?”

“Yeah, actually, that would be great. Thank you, Mama Matsu.” You gave her a smile before turning to look at the Christmas tree. “Your tree’s so pretty this year.” You said as you walked up to the tree, looking at ornaments made by both Rin and Gou when they were little. “And wow, there’s a lot of presents here.” Your eyes widened at the massive amount of presents under the tree. There seemed to be more than the years before.

“Yeah… A few of them are Rin’s… but we’re going to have to send them down to him but mom didn’t want to not have them under the tree.” Gou sighed as she looked over the presents herself.

“Makes sense… Rin’s is under our tree regardless of him being back for it.” You spoke somberly as your hand grazed across a clay handprint ornament of Rin’s. You sighed and sat down on the couch, being greeted by Steve. Their house cat. “Steve!” You chirped as you began to pet him and his purrs got louder.

“Do you want whipped cream, sweetie?” Miyako spoke out from the kitchen.

“Oh, yes please! That’d be perfect, thank you!” You yelled out, slightly spooking Steve but you scratched behind his ears to calm him down. “So, Gou, any plans for break?”

“Not really, no. I think I’m just going to catch up on my boy’s magazine. There have been so many new, hot muscles shown and oh my god.” She fanned herself with her hand. “They’re just so perfect.” She was daydreaming about muscles, again, like usual.

You chuckled. “Well, did you want to do anything sometime? I don’t have work and obviously Uni is out. So, I guess I’m just doing the same. Well… not catching up on muscle magazines.”

She put a finger up to her chin, pretending to think intensely. “I guess I could squeeze you in.” She laughed out and then her mother appeared and placed the mugs down on the coffee table.

“Alright, who’s ready to open some presents!?” Mama Matsu clapped her hands together and grabbed a random present from under the tree. “Gou, this is for you.” She smiled and handed her a hand sized box.

Opening it revealed a neckless with a turquoise gem and damn, was it gorgeous. “Mom… this is… this is beautiful.” She looked up to her mother who just had a beaming smile.

“That one’s not a Christmas present, it’s for your birthday.” Miyako continued to smile as she helped her put it on. “Alright, now, this one’s for you, Y/N.” She spoke as she handed you a long rectangular flat box on your lap.

“Oh, uh, thanks Mama Matsu.” You bowed your head awkwardly. Yes, it’s been 5 years since you’ve been receiving presents from them but you still shied away from their gifts. You began to unwrap the present and opened the box. It revealed a smooth cotton cardigan. It was a dark maroon color with a scarf that was just a tad bit lighter with colors that accented the maroon. “Mi… Miyako, this is gorgeous… Wow…” You stared it and picked up, unfolding it and you stood up, “trying” it on by just holding it up in front of you. “It has pockets too!” You exclaimed as you admired the piece of cloth.

“I thought you’d like it.” She smiled and kept handing out presents after presents, opening some for herself and she had one more for you. “Oh! Y/N! Hold on one second. I have one more present for you. I had to lock it in my bedroom because Steve would have gotten a hold of it.” She held up one finger as she ran off into her room.

You both sat and waited on the couches and started up light conversation again before Miyako reappeared and nodded at Gou who nodded back and she disappeared again.

“Uh…” You blinked, looking back and forth between the now empty hallway and Gou who was staring at you.

“Okay, you need to keep looking at me, don’t turn around.” She spoke out as she came over to you and held your shoulders in place, turning you slightly so you couldn’t see the hallway.

“Ooookay…?” You questioned out but kept looking at Gou and she had a smile the was slowly creeping on her face.

“Alright, you can turn around in… 3… 2…” Gou was counting down and Miyako came up to your side with a smile and they both said 1 in unison.

You blinked a few times and turned and you could have sworn you fainted.

There stood the red-headed shark boy, looking at you with a huge smile that met his eyes.

Your eyes had widened, shock clear across your face as you tried to process the boy in front of you. “R…Rin…?”

He took a few small steps forward and chuckled. “Yeah.”

His voice penetrated your thoughts in real time and a squeal exited your lips as you ran the few steps closing the gap. “Oh my god, Rin!” You threw your hands around his neck and jumped into his awaiting arms and tears started flowing from your eyes as you felt the warmth of his body. “Rin.” You mumbled out into his neck and dampened his shirt.

His arms tightened around your waist and he put his head into your neck as well and he chuckled again. “Oh baby, I’ve missed you.” He lightened his hold on you and put you back to the ground backing away and taking your face into his hands. His grin was wide, bearing his pointed teeth and yours was cracked open a bit with a smile as the tears fell down your cheeks.

“You’re here.” Your voice cracked out as you held his upper arms in your hands.

“I wouldn’t not be here for you.” He tilted his head slightly then you heard Gou cough. “Well, and I couldn’t miss my favorite sister’s birthday.” He chuckled, peaking his head around to look at a cross-armed Gou.

“But… you said you had to stay…” You looked at him questioningly.

“Well, I did, but I told my couch I would be practicing a lot at home so he let me leave 4 days ago.” He shrugged.

“4 days?! You were here for that long and left me alone in our apartment?!” You looked at him with chuckling bewilderment.

“It killed me knowing you were alone... I wanted to go over and hug you so badly... But I wanted to be your Christmas present.” He spoke out as he brought you in for another hug. “I just wanted to surprise you when you least expected it.”

“Well, Rin. You are by far my favorite present.” You pulled away from the hug and placed your lips upon his and you could feel him smile against you.

“Merry Christmas, Y/N.” He leaned his forehead against yours and looked into your still teary eyes that were filled with happiness.

“Merry Christmas, Rin.” You chuckled out and you both started laughing a bit before embracing each other again.

“Alright, let’s have Rin open his presents now and then we’ll get this show on the road.” Miyako chirped and you both sat on the couch waiting for her to pass out the presents.

“Mine for you is still at the apartment…” You spoke softly.

“Don’t worry about it. I can open it later.” He spoke out then leaned into your ear and whispered. “I also have you to unwrap later.”

And just like that, in a split second, your face flared up with a bright red as you kept your gaze straight, refusing to look at the smirking swimmer. Now, you just wanted to go home.

#rin matsuoka #rin free #rin matsuoka x reader #free x reader #anime #anime fanfiction #anime x reader #fanfiction #matsuoka x reader #my lovely red head #i love you so much

[failedintsave]

Ok fine, fine ok. It's Nategaar hours around here today, and I need it to stay out of my current project so here's me purging it from my system til it resurfaces with vengeance in probably like a day.

You Spin Me Round

The rattling of the window panes was audible even over the bass of Murderface's boom box, rain blowing almost horizontally in tropical storm gales. But seasoned Floridians weren't afraid of a little stormy weather, as proven by the groups of drenched partygoers who continued to filter through the door of their crowded apartment.

Nathan weaved his way through the sea of bodies, returning from the keg with four Solo cups balanced overhead, trying his best not to spill everything down his arms. He squeezed into the corner where most of his band stood gathered around a wooden cable spool he'd taken from his dad's hardware shop, the tabletop littered with a scattered deck of cards, an overflowing ashtray at it's center.

"Who the fuck are some of these people?" He grumbled as he approached, passing out beers to waiting hands.

"Shit, man, idunnoe. I invited some chicks from deh show, and I know Magnus told some folks to come back, but deh rest?" Pickles shrugged. "Stuffs closin' fer deh weather I think, people lookin' fer something ta do."

He grunted, handing a cup over to Murderface next to him before reaching across the table to pass the last beer to Skwisgaar wedged between two fawning groupies.

"Shoulda put someone at the door to take money for cups, they're draining the keg." He took a slug of foamy beer, glaring down into the contents. "And there's no room to play games or do anything."

"Juscht play drink-the-beer, who needsch a game for that?"

"Auuuggh that's boring. And besides, I'm really good at that game and we'll run out of beer faster."

"He ams gots a good points."

Pickles rubbed his chin in consideration before snapping his fingers, a proverbial lightbulb going off over his head. "I gaht it."

He scurried off, slipping easily through the throng of bodies towards his room. They watched him disappear, barely a glimpse of fiery red hair visible over the shoulders of their so-called guests. After a few minutes he reappeared with a Cheshire grin and a green bottle of whiskey. He held up his first two fingers, a single die pinched between them.

"Alright, I've gaht a game fer us. First step, we empty dis bottle." He cracked the top and handed it to Nathan. "As you were deh inspiration fer dese shenanigans, you may do de honors."

"Perfect." Nathan tipped the bottle back and took a long pull, passing it off to Murderface to share around the circle as Pickles continued.

"Next t'ings, we need a couple extra players, ot'erwise dis will get real predictable quick." He stood on tiptoes, waving over a few familiar faces from their show. He flagged Magnus down, but the guitarist didn't move.

"What do you want?" He shouted across the room.

"Come play a game!"

"What game?"

"Russian roulette, whaddya think? A party game!"

"What game?" Magnus repeated, moving slightly closer.

"Spin deh bottle!"

That stopped Magnus in his tracks. "Nope. Not this again. Fool me once, shame on you. Hard pass."

Murderface sputtered as he handed off the bottle down the line. "Hold on, what wasch that?!"

Ignoring him, Pickles threw his arms up at the goateed guitarist. "Why not?!" Magnus shook his head and turned back, melting into the crowd. "Ah yeh fuckin' killjoy, fine den!"

Nathan frowned, tracking the bottle's progress around the circle. "Uh, Pickles. Why exactly did you think we'd wanna play that? Together? Do we look like middle schoolers?"

"It's fun! Dere's stakes!" He slapped the die onto the table, smirking around at his audience. "Me an' Tony an' de guys made up dis version back in deh day."

Skwisgaar wiped his mouth on the back of a slender wrist, handing the liquor down to the woman next to him. "Sos you always play deh kissingk games wif your bands?" To Nathan's ear he didn't sound put off, merely curious.

Murderface, meanwhile, was less impressed. "That'sch totally gay! We can't play thisch together, what'sch wrong with you?!"

"Eh, it's just a goof we made up, touring ain't all blowjobs and snortin' coke off tits, sometimes ya just wanna have fun." Pickles reached out and poked Murderface in the belly. "Wouldja lemme finish explainin' deh rules before ya quit?"

The bottle made it's way back to the drummer and he tilted his head back for several long chugs, holding the glass up to the light and sloshing the liquid around. He nodded and handed it off to Nathan again with a wink. Frowning, Nathan took another long draw. He wasn't going to be the first of them to back down from this idea, even if it was stupid.

"Okey, so here's why dis game is different. Dere's two parts." He indicated the die and the bottle with a flourishing gesture. "First you roll de dice. On a one, two er three, it's normal rules. Little smackaroonie. No big deal. Four an' five, ya elevate it a little bit. Makeout, pull some hair, whatever."

"Oooookaaay I think maybe Murderface was right about this." Nathan looked around at his bandmates. True there were almost twice as many girls at the table than them, but he wasn't sure he cared for the odds.

"Schee?!"

"Oh waaaaah, you buncha babies! Yer the one who said you were bored! Let's see whet you can come up with!"

"I'll plays."

Nathan's head jerked to face Skwisgaar across the table. The blonde wore an amused smirk as he focused on Pickles, a faint flush on his cheeks from the alcohol. He cocked his head to the side, accepting the drummer's challenge, golden waves cascading over his shoulder as he moved. Of course that smug bastard would play, this game sounded like a routine Thursday for him.

With a heavy sigh, Nathan's eyes shifted back to the drummer. "Alright. So what's six?"

Pickles grinned impishly. "Oh we call six 'Make It Look Good.' Thirty seconds on deh clock or til ev'rybody else makes ya stahp."

"What the actual fuck, Pickles."

"Ah-ah! Lemme finish! You have options!" He ticked off on his fingers. "One through three you can skip fer a shot. Four an' five you chug a beer. And six…"

The group around the table leaned as one, craning their necks expectantly in the drummer's direction. His eyes flashed as he snickered.

"If you want outta six, yeh gotta run a naked lap around the apartment building."

Thunder boomed outside as if to punctuate the final rule.

"Schon of a bitsch. We need more schotsch if we're doing thisch. I'm gonna get fucked up."

Pickles produced a second bottle and slammed it down on the table in front of him.

"Where were you keeping that?"

"Don't ask questions, are we playin' or what?"

The initial bottle finished it's second loop, landing in Nathan's palm again. With a grunt, he slugged the last of the booze and slammed the bottle onto it's side in the center of the table.

"God I wish there was room to play pong right now…" he picked up the dice and rolled.

The game didn't go nearly as badly as he'd expected, and after several rounds of making out with hot girls and taking shots to avoid kissing his bandmates Nathan was really starting to enjoy himself. Defying statistics, the only six rolled so far had been between two of the girls, and they'd all cheered like hooligans.

And then the fickle dice gods reconsidered their influence.

"Alrights, my toirns." Skwisgaar, who hadn't yet opted out of any of his rolls but was starting to get fairly tipsy regardless, snatched up the dice and shook it in Nathan's face, squinting one eye and grinning. He dropped it, four pips staring back up at him. Laughing, he gave the bottle a rapid spin.

It whirled and Nathan found himself holding his breath, eyes glued to the bottle, a little confused about what he was hoping would happen. Slowly, slowly the neck of the bottle came to rest pointing at Pickles.

"Uh-ohhhh, ya think the keg is tapped? Ya might be outta luck pal." The drummer laughed, pumping pierced brows at the blonde.

"Pfffft, shuts up." Skwisgaar leaned past one of the giggling girls, seizing a handful of Pickles' shirt and hauling him forward into an open-mouthed kiss. Nathan stared as they pulled apart, his skin heating and head swimming with whiskey.

"Well okey den," Pickles stroked his chin, nodding sagely. "Now I see whet all deh fuss is about, nyeheheh."

Swaying upright again, Skwisgaar clumsily flung his hair back over his shoulder. "Whats can I says, I ams a master ats everyt'ings I dedicates my times to."

"Scho like, two thingsch."

"Ams better den no t'ings."

"Hey!"

Nathan zoned out, staring at the table for the next few turns, snapped back to attention by Murderface's repeated 'No, no, no no!' as Pickles rolled a three and landed on him.

"A'right, yer turn Nate." The drummer smirked, sliding the bottle and the die across the table.

"Ugh, are we still playing this? When is it over?"

"Aw aments Nat'ans havingk any funs?"

He raised his eyes to the willowy guitarist across from him. Skwisgaar's thin arms were crossed over his chest, hip popped jauntily to the side. A thin sheen of sweat glistened on his high forehead from the dense mugginess of the apartment, a teasing smile playing over his lips, bruised pink from being crushed against Pickles'. With an effort, Nathan tore his gaze away and redirected it towards the table.

"Fine. Whatever." He started the bottle spinning with more force than necessary, rolling the dice as it rotated.

Six.

Shit.

The rest of the table was already hooting in glee as the bottle spun down, slowing, taking an agonizingly long time to stop. Finally it came to rest at twelve o'clock.

Pointing at Skwisgaar.

The table erupted.

"OH SCHIT! Can't drink your way outta thisch one!"

"Nyeeeeheheheheh! Now's tha real show!"

"Oh dear sweet lord." Nathan covered his face with his hands, cheeks burning already.

"Hey you have an advantage, everything he does looks good." 

"Why t'anks you, what was you names again? Monicas?"

"Yeh could always take the second option agin?" Pickles offered, biting back a laugh as he patted Nathan's shoulder.

His heartbeat throbbed in his ears, and something like pre-show jitters fluttered in his stomach, arms and legs tingling. 

"Huehuehuehhue, ams lookingk pretty nastys out dere." Skwisgaar's drunken chuckle was underlined by another peal of thunder, window panes jumping in their casings. "Yous gonna gets blowed away."

Fuck that.

He dropped his hands away from his face, narrowing his eyes at the smirking blonde. "Fine. You dildoes want a show?"

His audience yelped as he reached down, grabbing the edge of the wooden spool and throwing it aside, playing cards and ashtray scattering to the floor, bottle toppling to the ground and shattering. Nathan lunged forward, relishing the shocked widening of blue eyes before impact.

Fighting against muscle memory of past football tackles, he grappled Skwisgaar against his broad chest, wrapping his arms beneath the other man's flailing limbs, his palms cradling bony shoulder blades. He walked the blonde backwards into the corner, pressing him into the wall.

"Timer! Start deh count!"

"No don't, I've scheen enough already, augh!"

As Skwisgaar recovered from the initial shock of being sacked, the natural showman in him awoke. Fire coursed over Nathan's scalp as calloused fingers threaded into his hair, holding his head steady as Skwisgaar turned to deepen the kiss. Nathan's clenched jaw unlocked and his lips parted before he could overthink it.

"...seven, eight, nine..!"

The sound of their onlookers counting faded into the background, drowned out by the blood rushing in his ears. He pushed a knee forward between Skwisgaar's thighs, catching a long leg as it wrapped behind his and hiking it up to his hip, leaving the blonde standing one legged like an albino flamingo.

"...fifteen, sixteen, seventeen, eighteen..!"

Skwisgaar bit down on Nathan's bottom lip and something in him broke, a cage door swinging open on its hinges. A growl rumbled in his chest as he reached down and grabbed the guitarist's other leg, hauling it up to his waist, lifting the other man from the floor as easily as he would carry groceries up from his car.

"... twenty-four, twenty-five, twenty-six…!"

Fingers clawed into the material of his shirt, scratching against his back. The sudden urge to carry Skwisgaar away from the party, to drag him back to his cave like a neanderthal, blindsided Nathan and his muscles locked. Sensing the end of their performance, Skwisgaar sighed into his mouth, the pressure of his lips softening as he started to pull back.

"Thirty! Dat's time!" Pickles howled a laugh. "Holy shit guys, dat's game. Ain't nobody gonna top dat act, even if you hadn't broke deh bottle!"

Nathan opened his eyes as they broke off, the heated blue gaze in front of him driving any and all coherent thoughts from his brain. Gingerly, he released one of Skwisgaar's legs, then the other, white boots touching down on the floor, toe-heel, toe-heel. Standing once again under his own power, a slow, crooked smile stretched across Skwisgaar's face, a breathy chuckle shaking his shoulders once. It took every ounce of willpower Nathan possessed to tear his eyes away from the curve of those full lips, and he turned to face the other two members of his band.

Murderface had his eyes squeezed closed, cracking one to peek. "Isch it over? Are they done?"

Frowning, Nathan grunted through his nose like a bull, stomping forward to snatch the second bottle of liquor from the bassist's hands. Glass crunched beneath his boots as he retreated wordlessly to his bedroom, passing Magnus on the way out.

The older guitarist shook his head, curly mane swishing. "I coulda told ya… every time Pickles tries to pl--"

"Just. Don't." Nathan pushed through the hall, evicting the gaggle of strangers standing around in his room and slamming the door behind him.

Hours later, after the storm had slowed to only a downpour and the party had fizzled out, Nathan lay awake on his back, staring at the ceiling. From the second his door had closed behind him, his brain had flipped from a crawl to light speed, hurtling through thousands of moments from the last couple of years, all of them centered on interactions with his lead guitarist. Slender fingers brushing against his own as he passed the tv remote, blonde hair tickling against his arm as they drove with the windows down, the nervous fluttery feeling in his belly at the sound of a dorky, throaty chuckle.

Nathan ground the heels of his palms against his eye sockets hard enough to see stars. How long? When did these thoughts start popping up? And when had he started stomping them down, locking them away without acknowledgement? Sure, Skwisgaar was hot, he wasn't blind, he could admit that much. But this wasn't that, this was...he didn't know what this was.

But he needed to find out.

Swinging his legs over the side of his bed, he crept out to the door directly across the hall. He started to knock, then paused, not wanting to wake anyone else in the apartment. Nathan turned the knob and cracked the door enough to wedge his face into the gap.

"Hey. Psst. Skwisgaar, you in here?" Another thought struck him, an irrational jealous pang vibrating through him. "Uh, you alone?"

The red glow of a digital clock was the only source of light in the guitarist's bedroom, a faint silhouette shifted on the bed, backlit in flashes by the blinking 12:00.

"Nat'ans?" came a groggy voice from the covers. "What ams you doing up? What times am it?" He rolled to check the useless clock and groaned in exasperation.

"Can... can I..?" He didn't wait for an invitation, stepping inside and closing the door behind him, leaning back against it and clutching the door knob like an anchor.

As his eyes adjusted he could see Skwisgaar sit up, scrubbing a hand over his face as he tried to wake up. Nathan chewed his bottom lip, the flesh tender in an not-unpleasant way. For the second time tonight his mind blanked on him completely.

"What's de matters?"

He swallowed. "Uh."

"Nat'ans?"

"Uhhhh."

Skwisgaar waited, studying him in the dark, giving him time to organize his thoughts. It was something Nathan had always appreciated about the Swede, having (mostly) learned a second language, he understood the occasional difficulties Nathan ran into expressing himself verbally.

"I uh. Earlier."

"Ja."

"I didn't. I didn't think that."

Skwisgaar shifted on the bed, turning to fully face Nathan, still waiting patiently.

"That it would…"

"Hm?"

Nathan inhaled deeply through his nose, forcing the last words out in a rush. "Wouldbelikethatthefirstime."

He waited, certain that Skwisgaar would brush it off, dismiss it as nothing, a game. Or worse, that he'd laugh. Nathan held his breath, ready to bolt in embarrassment. This was stupid, he was stupid, what had be been thinking, it had been a game, it meant nothing.

"Ams you sayingk you wants a do-overs?"

He could hear the smile in the other man's voice, cadence low and teasing, but without cruelty. Playful.

"I-I uh." He'd used up his words for the day, instead opting for a jerky nod.

A ghostly white hand reached out in the dark, forefinger crooking, beckoning him.

"Come heres den." As Nathan shuffled forward he could see Skwisgaar's eyes shining like a cat's. "Ams a firm believer dats practice make perfects."

#skwisgaar skwigelf #nathan explosion #pickles the drummer #william murderface #dethklok #metalocalypse #nategaar #the tickets were confusing how did i board this ship? #this game is a version i played in my early 20s #you know the days when everyones dumb and extra h*rny 😳 #anyway that's the fic let them all kiss ok bye

[senor-cummies]

Revali is so stupid and so gay omfg I was watching this video of all his extra dialogue from champions ballad and I-- Link stroll up to Vah Medoh like;

 “AYO BITCH!” Revali looks down like;

“You again?” Because he must seem angry and upset to see another person at all times, but really its refreshing to see him cus he’s just up there with nothing but the sound of the wind and his own thoughts which is ~*~☆*: .｡.not poggers.｡.:*☆~*~ and he sighs and then this bitch says;

 “UHm, so you know that book, uh... what was it called? The Diary of Revali: A Rito Legend or somethin idunno I never read it 👀 but erm...if you ever read it just know it is a lie it is not true I did. not. write it. okay? please say okay so i know you understand. alright? I did not write anything in that book. and I especially did not write that 12 page dissertation about the color of your eyes okay????? and also! contrary to what it says on page 24, chapter 13, line 36, you are the most ugly thing I had ever seen in my life and i did not and do not want to lick your abs!” 

and then after saying that, when Link comes back he’s like;

 “AND ANOTHER THING!!!!!!! Do not ask princess Zelda anything about me, okay? She probably has a horrible memory, she will say nothing but lies, do. not. pursue. the topic. okay? blink twice for yes. Don’t ask her ANYTHING!!!!! If she does end up telling you things about me, believe nothing she says, okay? Especially if she tells you anything along the lines of me wishing I was a hylian so I could suck your dick, alright? B--because it’s not true. I--I never said that. Ever.”

motherfucker is so gay. 

#revalink #revali botw #link botw #botw #revali x link #link x revali #shit post #mandy makes shitpost #mandy makes shitposts #I don't know it was funnier in my head #mandy is dum #Mandy rambles #mandy is confused #mandy is sleep deprived #mandy is lowkey on drugs #see; this is why you don't get to male tumblr posts before your morning coffee you dumb bitch

[donnieluvsthings]

what are your thoughts and favorite quotes from this episode?

my thoughts are that this is one of my favorite episodes EVER it was so good so soft i absolutely LOVED IT and just. ALDKQLDKAL IT WAS AMAZING

anyway this got long who would’ve guessed so its going under a read more aldjaldls i just have a lot of feelings. SPOILERS UNDER THE CUT

okay but to actually answer ur question i think it was just. what we NEEDED in this series rn there’s been a lot of angst and i loved POF, i did, but this was just so SOFT and FUN and there was a sprinkle of angst but not OVERWHELMING angst and it was so good. i love that virgil is the one who TOOK CHARGE and he DID THAT himself. he’s the PROTECTOR and he SHOWED IT here. i love that for him❤️💘💙💓❤️💖❣️💖❤️💓💙

also the art was so pretty!!!! all of them look so ADORABLE. the artists are so talented. and story-wise i like how it allowed them to physically interact!!! in the same frame!!!!! virgil turned roman’s face!!! roman put a hand on virgil’s shoulder!!!!! they both grabbed thomas’ shirt and both pushed him (literally) to do stuff!!!!! just. more freedom and i loved that

and idk fam they’re just so HAPPY even tho roman and virgil are two of the sides that maybe are not talking to the others as much bc of, yknow, many past events. i like the allusions to virgil not approving of janus’ acceptance/of lying in general but!!

as @subtlereferencetomyinterests pointed out to me in a galaxy brain moment, virgil’s line “are you gonna rely on deceit for all the answers? is that fair to him?” could mean that virgil recognizes how depending on a single side can hurt that side so he may not like janus but he still doesn’t want janus to get hurt by thomas relying ONLY on janus, bc it will hurt janus—just like relying too much on patton has already hurt patton in the past.

this is turning into me rambling as usual but just!!!!! yes i loved the ep!!!!! i have MANY favorite parts but some are:

Roman: oh, what lad is that which doth enrich the mack on yonder slate // Thomas: huh? // Roman: SIGH cutie at 12o’clock

i literally dont know if thats even what roman says but its hilarious aldjaldk

Virgil: thats a classic introverted method of talking about yourself without having to do anything too extreme......like talking

Roman and Virgil: *seeing Nightmare Before Christmas sticker* OH. MY. GOD.

Virgil: no, DOOFUS

Roman: i hate to rain on ur black parade gerard gay, but—

Thomas: good points guys! I don’t want to be doing this either and i will gladly sit back down now // Roman and Virgil: NO WAIT—

anyway theyre in sync this episode i love them sm

Virgil: u have 5 seconds max // Roman: i’m not MAX, i’m PRINCE ROMAN // Virgil: NO, MAN // Roman: uh its RO-MAN. with an “R”? you’re really struggling today.

Virgil: When it comes to antisocial etiquette, i’m like a TRIPLE expert. an EX-EX-EXPERT // Roman: easy tiger

I’m just gonna end up quoting the entire episode at this rate

GAY EYES (does that work? no. no. it does not. not for me at least)

everything about Nico i love him

Virgil: oh nonono i wasn’t testing you. i was just panicking :)

Thomas: idunno, PLANT

THEY HIDE IN A TRASHCAN

Roman: you were being a baby about the buttons, and the pins had you panicking (roman i love u)

V: thats like CYBER STALKING but REAL LIFE // R: so... stalking // V: OH UR RIGT

The bathroom monologue 🥺 and the GUY IN THE BATHROOM ALSKAL

V: you did it again // T: yeah i gotta stop wooing strangers in bathrooms ALSALDKS STOPPP

R: i so badly want this. i’m desperate for it. ROMANNN

V: HE FEARS THINGS TOO???

Nico: You almost forgot ur food! // V: if you could call it that. // R: YE—AH—UH TELL HIM TO CALL U SOMETIME. whats his number??? TELL HIM HOW CUTE HE IS!! a REAL textbook cutie pie!!!!! OH my gosh i cannot BREATHE right now *excited stuttered breathing* // V, at the same time: whAT?? you can’t just TELL someone to call u! we TEXT each other nowadays!!! and you will NOT tell him he’s a textbook cutie pie!!!!

Nico: you mind kinda telling me about that? // V&R: HUH?? // V: What’d he say? // R: I DUNNO I DUNNO // V: okay thats okay except its super NOT i am FREAKING OUT // R: i think i saw a lot of wide vowels // V: Nevada?? // R: MORE THAN THAT // V: anaconda???? // R: ANACONDA!!! Thomas he’s a Nicki Minaj fan!!!

VIRGIL PUSHES THOMAS BC HE SEES THAT THOMAS AND ROAMN ARE SADLAOWOFJWJF

the entire nico/thomas convo omg

SHUT UP EMO SHUT UP EMO

THE E N D C A R D!!! HAPPY FLAPPY HANDS

EDIT: VIRGIL’S PURPLE EYESHADOW IDK HOW I FORGOT THIS THE FIRST TIME

EDIT 2: also when thomas reads his tweet and virgil INSTANTLY has black eyeshadow again and goes “HUH.....delete it” alfkalfkal

i did in fact end up quoting most of the episode yeah i loved it okay sorry this is so long aldjaldksld goodbye

#donnieanswersthings #anon #sanders sides #ts spoilers #tss spoilers #sanders sides spoilers #roman sanders #virgil sanders #character thomas #nico flores #donnieluvsrambling #aldkaldlald that definitely applies here #theres probably so many typos i cant type when i get excited alfkaldla #all caps

[deeeelightfuldee]

Are you better at cooking dinners or making cakes/biscuits/sweets? baking definitely. I want to get more comfortable cooking.

Have you ever cut someone else’s hair? yes. I used to be pretty good at doing my brothers hair-- even the fading. But I’m sure I’ve forgotten it all by now.

Who was the last guest in your house and what were they staying for? probably my sister or my nephews.

How many long term relationships have you been in? blegh. not many. Whenever I’d know that it didnt have long term potential, id drop it. no sense dragging out the inevitable.

Do you sleep with all the lights out, or do you leave a lamp or even the television on? so for the longest time I kept my room super dark. I slept well. once miller died and kile broke my heart, I couldn’t sleep without the tv playing. I needed to hear something calming and voices talking so I wouldn’t be left with my thoughts. I still can’t turn it off.

Who is one person you have forgiven, but still have not “forgotten” what they have done? i think its easy to say “forgive and forget” but the reality is that once we have endured trauma we don’t easily forget. I think its kind of unrealistic. I’m trying to forgive kile but thats going to take.. i dont know how long. As for what it was... it was just betrayal.. lying. for six+ years. lots of laughing at me. 

Are you a fan of Lana Del Rey? I like some of her songs.

Do you know your blood type? o+

Do you know your mother’s birthday? Yes. its coming up. 

Have you ever been pregnant? I dont think so. I was really late after my assault but who knows.

How old were you when you first went on a plane? like 7ish

Have you ever had to take out a loan for anything? Yeah, student loans. 15k feels so daunting right now.

Are both of your blood parents still in your life? One is. My mom.

When was the last time you went apple picking? highschool maybe?

Someone asked you what you wanted, what would you say? money.. or a trip.

Have you ever been drunk at school or work? definitely not. 

How many bedrooms are in your house? four. 

Are you smart about computers? I know some stuff.

Have you ever played Just Dance for Wii? oh heck’n yeah

Do you own a Xbox 360? I had one from my brother for a little while but I traded it for the gamecube since Kile was going to send me one of the 15 he had lol. That didn’t end up happening, but its OK i really dont need more gaming.

Would you ever do a sex tape for a million dollars? oooooooo.. probably not.

So, do you need a nap? all day is full of naps to try and get over this.

What would you rather be doing? school

What sport are you the best at? maybe volleyball or swimming

Do you have a little sister? What’s her name? Nope, im the baby. 

Do you complain a lot? no, i try not to. I find complaining to be the most unattractive and yet common human trait and while there are definitely situations worthy of complaining, most of the time it just makes a situation worse than it actually was.

Would you rather go to an authentic haunted house or an ancient temple? temple

Do you like fruity or minty gum? definitely minty

Are you looking forward to any day of this month? i was really looking forward to Kile’s birthday on monday, but since we arent talking anymore then there is no joy in that. all the other special dates have been ruined by covid.

Have you ever gotten detention? Nope. homeschoolers and detention arent a thing. 

Is there a traumatic event that you’ve experienced that’s changed your life? oh sure. heartbreak, deaths, assaults, etc.

Do you buy a majority of your clothes from a certain store, or do you just pick out items of clothing you could see yourself wearing, not caring about the store it came from? no, i can’t be super picky because not every store carries clothing long enough for me.

Have any of the artists you’re fond of released new albums recently? i havent got a clue

Would you ever keep your favorite animal as a pet? I mean I’m very fond of cats & dogs

Ever cried so much you threw up? this is what happened the whole 2-3 weeks following finding out about Kile.

Who is your best guy friend? I suppose now that would be Nathan

What do you two do when you hang out? drives, game nights, get food/drinks, or just talk.

What is a movie that you thought you would hate but you ended up loving? Her

Do you even like horror movies? not particularly. I’ll watch them if someone else wants to but its not my preference.

Do you live in the country? i live in the suburbs i suppose.

What is your favorite accent? Some southern and British accents. <same ... i have no idea how I made the font like this.

Have you ever had a boyfriend your parents didn’t like? Not that I can think of.

Do you drink Pepsi or Coke? diet coke

What do you plan to do on your 21st birthday? my family celebrated during the day and then I think nathan took me out on the town

Do you have any person in your family with an addiction to beer? nope.

Do you take a lot of pictures? man. this question is hard. I used to love taking pictures of myself. I had much more self confidence and some of it was because kile LOVED my selfies -- or so he said. and I just had so much fun doing that. Since the heartbreak, I’ve maybe taken 10 selfies. I just don’t have any self confidence in my looks anymore. its so different now. most of my pictures now are of other people or scenery.

What kind of face wash do you use? cerave when I want to. otherwise i use water and a very particular type of fabric. 

Does drama always seem to follow you? No, i dont think so.

Does anybody in your family race? like cars? running? no.

Are you closer to your mom or dad? My mom.

How much money did you used to get from the ”tooth fairy?” I think i got it like 2x and it was a dollar.

Do you have a laptop or desktop? Laptop.

Do you like your parents? i love my mom.

Do you secretly like someone? No.

Would you ever date your best male friend? I don’t see any romantic feelings developing between nathan and I

What are you currently listening to? I have gilmore girls on.

Do you want to be single? oooof. Um. I am torn on this subject. On the one hand, i really am ready to be loved, held, protected, cared for, etc. I love the idea of building a life together with someone and us both protecting our unit. I miss supporting, cherishing, loving on someone. Yet on the other hand, im fine being single. I have so much insecurity about myself lately that I dk that anyone else needs to deal with that baggage. Idk

Did you go out or stay in last night? I stayed in. ill be staying in for some time.

Have you pretended to like someone? romantically, no. professionally, yes.

How is your heart lately? Sad. heavy. 

Are you wearing socks? not at the moment. 

What do people call you? Di, diana, dee, ana, di-nan-na, dine-uh, deenah.

Do you get stressed out easily? no, I really dont

Have you ever been taken to the emergency room in an ambulance? yes

What is wrong with you right now? im sick. im heartbroken.

Do you own something from Hot Topic? not that I know of. if I do, it’d be from like middle school. I never shopped there but people tended to give gifts from there.

Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone? Alone. maybe I havent found the right sort of person to share a bed with.

Do you still talk to the person you last made out with? No.

Have you ever seen your best friend cry? Yes, several times. 

Did you get any compliments today? No.

Have you ever gone to a beach? many many many times.

What would you say if someone asked you to get high right now? not my thing. at all.

Do you believe that everything happens for a reason? Yes.

Have you ever done volunteer work just because you wanted to? Yes.

Do you have long nails? they are healthy length. I want to grow them out a bit more. 

Do you like the gender you are? Yeah.

Do you generally look nice in photos? Not anymore

Have you ever had a stick insect as a pet? no haha

What colour are your father’s eyes? Blue.

If I handed you a concert ticket right now, who would you want to be the performer? uhhhhm, blue october

Would you ever get into a long distance relationship? maybe not anymore. 

What’s your favorite hot beverage? hot chocolate from dunkin

Did you ever play an instrument? If so what? i did. no comment.

Would you rather carve pumpkins or wrap presents? oooooohhhhhhhhh man i love both.

Do you think you’re important? I mean i offer some importance to this world but eh.

What’s the best compliment you’ve ever received? Hmm no idea.

Have you been diagnosed with any mental disorders? no

Have you ever moved to another state or country? If so, how did it feel to be new? No.

Do you know how to properly eat food with chopsticks? Nope.

What was the first thing you ate today? I haven’t eaten since breakfast yesterday

If you could spend the day, doing absolutely anything, with anyone, anywhere, what would it be like? for the longest time it was to spend the day driving aimlessly and getting food and talking about everything and nothing with Kile. now, its just.. idunno. blank.

If I were to ask you how you are doing, and you were only able to answer completely honestly, what would come out? I’m not doing well.

What is the one thing that you have been avoiding that you should do? There’s a few things related to school.

Is there anything that you wish you could take back? not really, no.

What, in your mind, could make you truly happy? this whole covid nonsense going away, heartbreak to soothe, and my miller back.

If you could change one conversation in your life, what would you say differently? Would it have REALLY made any difference? i dont know. 

When is the next time you’ll change your hairstyle? Will you color it? I just changed it up so itll be a bit.

Do people normally say you’re a fast typist, or are you rather slow? Fast.

Have you ever been considered the ‘smartest person in school?’ yes. several times.

How many drugs are in your system? lol lots of meds rn to kick this. usually none.

What’s on your schedule for tomorrow? the same as today.

Do you currently have any bite marks/hickeys on your body? No. i dont like the idea of bite marks but hickeys were fun for a time. in not visible areas tho.

Do you call anyone baby? Not anymore.

What’s your current mood? Bleh.

What were you doing before filling out this survey? Watching gilmore girls

How late did you stay up last night? I took PM meds at i wanna say 8? maybe 7? I don’t remember.

When was the last time you cried really hard? its been a few weeks since ive cried about Kile. I’m in the numb stage.

Is your hair longer than your shoulders? hahahahahahah

[terminally-karkalicious]

allow me to rant about the only thing that has been in my brain for the past two months and that is doll customizing babeyyyyy

i know there’s a 90% chance that you wont give a Shit about any of this but here we go anyways

SO first you gotta choose a doll. preferably one with a high range of motion to avoid creating new joints or having annoying limitations like not having elbow joints for some fucking reason. what the fuck mattel. give monster high dolls back their ball jointed shoulders and elbow joints. smh

the most common dolls ive seen used as bases are monster high and ever after high. most customs ive seen are highly stylized so the stylized face molds work well for those types of dolls but dolls like barbies are good for when you want a more realistic face-ups.

once you’ve got your base picked out you gotta wipe that bitch’s face off with like. acetone or nail polish remover or something strong like that. you can also use acetone to shrink doll heads which is cool as hell imo. n e way once the face is wiped you gotta chop off the hair and remove the hair plugs from the inside. ive seen this done several ways but the easiest and most common way ive seen is to dunk the head into boiling water for ~30 seconds until it gets squishy and malleable. once you’ve got the head back, you can use pliers (i think tweezers would work in a pinch) to pull out the hair plugs which are kinda icky because theyre covered in glue and other gross shit. ew

now you must decapitate the doll. dunk em back in the boiling water to soften them back up then just tug the head off. the neck pegs look funky and are usually a different color than the body so thats cool ig

once the head’s off, you can start the face-up which is basically just giving the doll a new face using stuff like watercolor pencils, acrylic paint, gouache, and a whole lot of other stuff. hell ive seen people use person makeup on these dolls.

next,,,,, hair. there’s about twenty million ways to do hair from gluing yarn wefts to sewing to rerooting with purchased nylon doll hair or yarn wefts but i’m gonna talk about the most common one ive seen which is rerooting and gluing.

before you can reroot, you need doll hair. which, as i mentioned, can be bought at stores like the doll planet or made at home with yarn in literally any color. have fun with it! make rainbow hair or something idk

to make homemade wefts, you take some acrylic yarn, cut it twice as long as you want the hair to be (keep in mind you can cut and style the hair once it’s been rerooted), fold them in half, and tie it to something sturdy like a wire coat hanger for the next step.

once you’ve got your yarn tied to your hanger, use a pet brush and brush the yarn until it’s wispy and looks like hair. then take a straightening iron and iron the weft flat. then remove from the hanger and boom. hair wefts. ta-da

to reroot the wefts onto the head, use a rerooting tool (which can be as simple as a needle with the eye cut at angle) (just google it please i’m shit at descriptions)) to poke small sections of the hair into the head. you can use the pre-existing rooting holes for your own reroot as they’re usually pretty reliable. to reroot, take a small length of you doll hair (about 10-15 strands), loop it in half, and put the middle of the loop into the reroot tool. poke the end of the tool with the hair on it into the pre-existing hole and remove the tool. the hair *should* stay in and fill up that plug!! also remember to plug thickly at the hairline and part of the hair where it's most noticeable. it doesnt matter as much in the center of the head as that’s not usually visible on the doll. once you’ve rerooted, squeeze in strong glue through the neck hole and squish around the head to make sure it covers all the plugs and secures them in place. then pour hot water onto the head to make the hair lay flat for styling later.

also, you can reroot yarn directly into the head to make thicker, more textured hairstyles. and since the yarn is thicker, you dont need to glue the inside of the head for the hair to stay in place!!

if youre not doing body modifications (which are also cool as hell) then it’s time for clothes but clothes are boring and i like body mods more so i’m gonna rant about them instead

the material ive seen most doll artists use is apoxie sculpt, which is like play doh on steroids. it comes in two parts which you gotta mix together for some reason. why dont they sell it pre-mixed. what was the reason. also once it’s dry it’s super super strong and you can sand it, drill into it, paint it, and all kinds of stuff. very nice and i want some for myself.

you can use hand saws and drills and shit to whack off doll limbs to make stuff like digitigrade legs or new joints. also dont be afraid to use other mismatching doll parts when customizing like heads and bodies and forearms and hands and shit. it literally does not matter if youre gonna recolor the doll anyways so have fun with it. make frankenstein’s doll if youre feeling spicy

accessories my beloved. stuff like tiny beads and clay baubles and shit will literally transform the entire doll plus they’re adorable and multi-purpose

i suppose i must talk about clothes now. ah well. you can find great clothing patterns if youre new to customizing on other customizer’s etsy shops and probably google although those will probably be lower quality than paid pattern pieces. and keep in mind that if it exists as clothing irl, you can likely make it doll-sized. there are literally no limits to your clothing options as long as you can execute your idea.

the once all your components have been made, you can assemble the doll again!! and finally see what all the parts look like together!! very cool 10/10 stars.

ight that wraps up my doll rant. i could really go into more detail on certain parts but thats a whole other rant for a whole other day smh. sorry for fucking flooding your inbox ender ahaha……………. you asked for this

little did you know that dolls have been one of my favorite things since like ever. if i can read a 25 chapter long fanfic i can read this B)

mattel definitely fucked up by completely ruining MH doll designs and just stopping EAH, alot of their profits most likely came from people who collect and customize dolls and by changing MH doll designs/Stopping EAH dolls they 1. most likely lost a small (or big if we're not jus talking people who customize dolls) part of their profit and 2. made it harder for doll customizers to make dolls/get commissions out rather quickly because they probably have to waste more time making joints or learning how to make joints.

EAH/MH dolls (specifically MH dolls) had AMAZING MODELS because there was so much variety with height, face shapes, etc (my favorite molds had to be the short/tall dolls and the cat molds because of the tails) and doll customizers really went all out with enhancing a molds unique features. The only "downside" abt MH dolls is that they (or atleast most)(from what i remember)) had slimmer faces but wider eyes while EAH dolls have wider faces with slimmer smaller which left a canvas for the face and not the eyes (and vice versa for MH dolls)

I've never seen any videos where a barbie is customized (maybe because i absolutely despised barbies at the time) so I'll definitely have to check those out but they seem to be good for realistic makeovers. I've seen like like semi realistic makeovers for EAH/MH dolls that were pretty good too tho (pretty sure mostly EAH dolls since yk MH dolls were used for creature makeovers while most EAH dolls weren't)

yeah i was always amazed by the head shrinking with acetone. honestly i still am?? idunno i have no idea how that chemical bullshit works. Ive seen a few of uh makeovers that just pain over the face (in multiple layers ofcourse) but that's usually when they're painting the entire body a different colour (again usually when they're turning a doll into a funky little baby man). I've also seen a few that just chop the hair off and take out the hair plugs yk without uuh like softening the head or just go straight for the hair plugs after taking off the head (i used to do that it was funny to me??). i always really liked when they used watercolour pencils or just colour pencils in general to draw/sketch on the face cause like wow ur drawing on ur doll without ruining it?? kinda epic maybe even poggers and pogchamp?? oh god my brain is failing wjshsmsj.

Watching them putting the hair back on the doll was, other than the face stuff, was the BEST part for me. Favorite type of hair was iuuuuuh was either thick yarn or brushed out yarn. Literally worship the people that would reroot the hair, theyre the most patience people on this earth!! it's literally insane but i guess that's what happens when you've been doing that for years? you guess kinda get used to it. when they put glue into the head does it just become stiff?? like it's just a clump of dried glue or does it like..hollow out again??

dude you literally cannot convince me most of the supplies used for doll makeovers. APOXIE CLAY LOOKS SO FECKING GOOD. its edible and i will die on that hill. The body mods are literally so amazing!!!!! it's so impressive how theyre able to imagine certain features THEN LIKE ACTUALLY MAKE IT LOOK ACCURATE TO WHAT THEY WANTED TO LOOK LIKE AFTER LIKE ON TRY (or many yk trial and error is very necessary for..everything). Absolutely loved when doll customizers would saw off a dolls legs and use different ones or just completely get rid of the torso to use a different one. it's like uuh that one big guy that's mismatched and sewn together. very cool. The accessories are so fun!! just small little details you seen really need but can add because it's your feckin doll!! I used to be absolutely obsessed over the doll clothes i would find on etsy, so much so that i started sewing shitty shirts and dresses for my uh "customized" dolls (they were absolute HORRORS idk WHY my mom let me feck up my dolls like that).

Thank you for this!! i haven't been able to talk about any of my interests for a while and this just really made me happy!!

Question fer u my fellow MH/EAH enthusiast: what was your favorite MH/EAH movie/episode and doll series. Mine was The fusion dolls (MH obvi) and that MH movie "Haunted" cause we got to know more about Spectra :D

#YOOOO LONG POST?! #long post #:) hehehe #this was very fun to read cant wait for ur next fanfic length ask #asks :D #theoreticallyjasper

[meeraria]

Hii, I'm so shy asking this but I read somewhere you have a list of upstead moments, would you share it with me? If it's not too much 🙈

I am very sorry I just saw this!! I hope you haven’t sent this a long time ago. I’ve finished the last season recently but I haven’t done this one yet. and pls don’t be shy!! I am so happy you asked. not many people like them.

I don’t have time stamps just some shorthand notes to remind me of the scene. and every instance they call each other by their names (I had this idea to gif them or make a video etc.) but all the moments are in chronological order so if you see the third moment before the first one when you’re watching an episode that means you skipped the first two. the list is under the cut.

ps. there might be some other moments that I liked that are not necessarily upstead.

4x21 first time at the back of a van

4x22 jay on haileys desk

        erin is the one who calls her hailey for the first time

4x23 hailey meets will

        hailey looks after jay when he leaves

5x01 jay touches hailey on the shoulder for bust

        hailey calls him jay for the first time, to Kev and Ruz

        look at each other at the hospital

        if you need anything

deleted scene: jay I got your back. he is quick to escape her. pats her back. she respects. he’s with his brother

5x02 looks at jay when he starts lying to suspect

        sits on her desk

        jay checks out hailey in the interrogation room

        jay calls him upton. for the first time

5x03 they open doors to cupboard at the same time

        butchers blade-look to each other

5x04 sb assumes hailey is ruzek’s gf

        stops a witness from prosecuting ruzek

        ruzek calls her hailey cause he thinks she’s gonna snitch, jay tries to stop him

5x05 hailey puts her hand on jay’s shoulder jay looks and she recants

        they save the kids look at each other

5x06 Le Snob (he’s not in love yet-doesnt look at her)

        jay brings her jacket

        mcgrady you run the log hailey they look at each other

        their hands touch when jay gives her the camera

        j: is this really about the case? h:see u 2morrow

        jay(grabs her shoulder): u sure u ok? let me know if you need anything

        how’supton? jay: idunno  

5x07 look at each other to open door

        voight: you got a take hailey? neutral

        microphone up (first time saying jay 2hisface)

        looks at hailey so she’d start the fight

        iknowwhathesaw, was what u said true. jay is pissed

        first fight: voight says hailey. she denies jay’s request

        jayx4 points the gun at her

        hailey calls him, he rolls eyes

5x08 first time calls her hailey (don’t need no babysitter)

5x09 hailey texts him, rolls eyes

        I’ll stay with the suspect hailey

        big potato talk (she’s driving)

        flirty let’s check out his alibi

        he looked at her and then they look at each other but it’s fast (questioning junkie)

        they take a selfie, he puts arm around her she wants to but stops herself

5x10* camila episode

        introduces her as hailey - but she’s gay

        we’re gonna talk about her, now (calls her jay) I’m fine lie.

        you can’t talk to her - jay you’re not thinking straight

        thinks she betrayed her

        “back off jay”

         looks at him over camila’s shoulder

         they look at each other - after camilla’s dismissal

         hailey is worried about him

         she threatens camilla, saying I - his real name is jay x2

5x11 if you’re not serious I need a new partner (shoulder tap)

        he wants back to therapy cause of ultimatum

5x12 “jay come back.” platt’s birthday (shoulder punch)- lookateachother

         he uses her desk like he doesn’t have one

         she pushes jays back to get to voight

         they’re hiding together

5x13  look at each other at restaurant

         how’s therapy going?

         “jay!” - spots the suspects

5x14  flag dispute

        look each other when they get shots fired

        sits on hailey’s desk

        I used to be a soldier-looks at hailey x2

        she admires that he respects the kneeler

5x15 she puts arm on his shoulder

        sits on hailey’s desk about q

        italian guy flirting, women are more loyal then men

        jay, you got her?

5x16 bomb-she falls down he grabs her

       he sitting on her desk

       cF(6x13) calls her to ask about voight

5x17 he’s sitting on her desk

        uh-oh i just saw a rat arm tap

5x18* titus episode: jay also calls adam ruz?

        how do u know this guy?

        looks after she explains

        i pitch jay as a potential buyer

        you look like a real couple

        hailey, thought he bit but

        you were hailey’s case officer, she’s my partner

        hailey, we gotta talk about this, did he rape you

        i can handle this jay- I said the same thing u called me out (shoulder tap)

        touches her arm, booth notices

        he asked me if i slept with her,

        hailey you’re way too emotional

        jay: me too. hailey’s solid,hailey’s gonna callme

        he reaches for his gun when booth gets handsy with her

        5 time hailey, please (grabs her shoulder)

        looks after her when arresting

        comes to her house, hailey u got him

        two deletes scenes: therapy is over

        you’re incredibly aloof about your private life

5x19 sitting on hailey’s desk, gives her jacket

        looks at homeless jay

        saves her life, you good? good.

5x20 look at each other during shootout

        talk about erin

5x21 he and kevin fight and she calms them

        h:I just talked to halstead

        sarge if you need sth - she’s same to everyone

        he’s sitting on her desk

5x22 hank x trudy hug (personal ship)

        jay comes back from crying grabs her shoulder, she grabs his hand

        jay sits on her desk

deleted scene: pushes her out of line of fire

6x01 trudy comes to see hank (personal ship)

        “jay” go be undercover junkie

         gets his jacket to him

6x02 look at each other in morgue

        she uses his computer

        she looks at him worried before they go busting

        damn it jay. jay, I almost shot you

        need me to talk to u. I don’t need anything jay.

        innocent man, jay. second fight? keeps looking at him

        jay, back off. she pushes him hard, grabs his chest

        she grabs his arm to pull him back

        “you’re too close jay” I’m done being your punching bag -his eyes never leave her

         he’s shot, she’s distressed jay x 4 (she checks his body)

         Hailey, I’m sorry. touches his knee as she gets up then cries

deleted scene jay I thought you were with will, pats arm working this case?

6x03 halstead calls her. she slept with adam

        I gotta meet jay

        you’re like never late. he looks at her after she dismisses him

        checks to see if she follows

        gonna grab halstead and dig in

        look at each other

6x04 greets her when nobody notices

        she gets  the suspect by jumping on him (gay moment for me)

        ready? eye contact

6x05 she knows how to handle idiots

        makes way for her like the first time they met

        I don’t care if we’re sleeping 2gether talk to voight (to adam) LOVE HER

6x06* voight learns about upzek

        i dont do violence

        adam undermines her, she gets angry

        look at each other when talking to voight

       keeps looking at jay when he talks

       hailey we gotta talk. I confirmed his alibi

       hailey you did what you have to, she cries to him about her guilt adam interrupts.

       nothing good comes from workplace romance (he has some feelings?)

       even when he’s debriefing; he looks at hailey. adam doesn’t

       I know u don’t wanna talk about it flirting. she’s sad

       tries to explain to adam: this halstead thing

6x07* looks at him when they’re listening to wire

        he wants to help kev, she grabs his arm to stop

        legally blind witness flirting

        bomb goes off - are u ok? grabs her

        va is dead, she checks on him, he look at her. all with eyes

        pushes her in the room, through her shoulder

        u got me? yeah.

        burqa woman incident. jay x2 , hold on. hailey x7, stop

        we’re not mind readers hailey. *whispering softly you’re not in war anymore*

        look at each other, in the interview

        she doesn’t believe the guy he does.

        sits on her desk

        introduces her as upton to racist woman

        save the commentary and scroll look

        this thing between us. I screwed up hailey. I have bias (her hand on his shoulder)

        looks at her when they walk (feelings maybe?)

6x08 u know she’s with me right?

        adam compliments, jay looks at her

        steals a pen from him in the background when antonio is on the phone

        kev’s suspect calls her out look each other.

        kev asks to talk to snitch, she taps jay to leave

6x09 when adam talks about commitment she gets scared

        jay calls everyone by surnames except “hailey”

        flying blind is fun flirting

        “jay” spotted a camera

        sweeps the house, touches her arm

        suspect pushes her, he catches her and adam punches

        she dresses kim’s vest (gay shriek)

6x10* hailey, come on x2

        she’s angry. looks at him. he look to voight

        voight: trudy. ride with me to the scene (personal)

        asks his opinion on ruzek and iad.

        he catches upzek. she’s upset he saw.

        “a guy I’m dating upzek talk with voight”

         we’re always gonna be good talk

6x11 kelton comes. look at each other.

6x12* he gets agitated, she supports him with her looks, he checks for support

        “jay you allright” kelton denied funds. hailey, we got him rn.

         looks at the bus stop. supporting love. looks.

        she catches him over the body “jay, you ok?” hailey arrived after me.

        she’s angry and he looks at her.she leaves he stays. head salute.

        hailey, what’s up. jay you went dark. is that what you think? jay…

        voight warns him. she’s worried behind.

        she looks you ok? he looks yes go. first nonverbal.

        voight compliments him.

        long week. u can’t right every wrong “jay”. flirting then adam calls. go..

6x13 surveillance flirting about kev

       what the hell look at her

6x14 kim catches upzek

        she gets kidnapped he’s worried

        he’s ok with voight’s tactics cause she’s missing

        he fights with ruzek.

        she’s proud of kim. (personal)

        ruzek goes to kim first.

        he stands up when he sees her. he’s so sad and angry

        she checks jay. he’s upset

6x15* he’s talking to her on the phone

        check if he’s coming behind her

        pushes back her chair to sit on her desk

        “Hailey he’s headed to you” “squad advise my partner ” x 2

         upton are you copying? copy jay are you ok? hailey he’s armed.

         jay! we’re coming in!

         you good? yeah you? yeah

         she’s driving

         jay we’re good. “do what your ladyfriend tell you to do”

         looks at her before he gets out

         they look at each other, he says no she listens

         she keeps checking on him, he assures her after

         he has a hunch, she supports him. he thanks with eyes, she says np with eyes

         he defends his hunch, she silently supports him. then look at each other for thx

         eyes talk: come with me? right now? ok?

         suspect says he’ll snitch, they look at each other we got it

         I’ll follow you blind talk. (she half-confessed her feelings to him)

6x16  “sarge what you don’t let me and hailey go?” “hailey?” and gets her jacket

         I’m halstead and she’s upton.

         I’ll catch up with you, forearm grip

         he waited at the entrance

         serial killer talks to her, he gets nervous

         runs to the car/him, “I got Hailey”

6x17 sitting on her desk

        looks at her, checking out buildings

        “oh yeah good one” arm pat

        looks at her when she’s not looking and looks away when she turns

        throws usb to him, he catches

        they judge the juvie guy together

        voight offers himself to suspect he checks her face to see what she thinks

        they look at each other this time when they been judgey

6x18  sitting on her desk

         hands on her desk when she’s not there like it’s his :)

6x19 towering over her while she looks at the footage

        jay! blue buick

        she tries to help the victim and looks at jay to see if she can he looks no

        she supports kim no qs ask when kim barges in, normally follows the rules

        ruzek keeps checking on kim-believes her immediately  like jay and hailey

        he was sitting on her desk since before hank came in

6x20 she doesn’t wanna meet ruzek’s family?? i dunno

        pats her arm after she’s shot at

        they shadow ruzek but she calls it off. jay doesn’t interfere & looks the whole time

        ruzek wants answers he tries to cover and supports her and tell ruz to let it go

        ruz thinks it’s cause of burzek but it’s not.

        “jay talked to”

         she holds off the op he’s worried a little in the car.

         upstead communicate silently and without questioning

         she checks on jay while he fights the suspect

         she questions her relationship with adam, platt says if he’s not the one end it

         she breaks up with ruzek, and admits they’re not the one for each other

6x21 she’s a bit cocky to the suspect and he smiles a little whilst he turns???

        TRUDY AND HANK what could have been

         they sit at their desk together

         “hailey tell the port supervisor…”

6x22* voight explains the plan, they look at each other worried

        he breaks into the car so fast she flirting

        “jay you close”

         she crashes to save him

         “I’m going where you go” they’re both surprised he said it

         he protects her first when they’re shot at in the van, ‘we’re good“

         she looks at her happily when there’s a lead

         they arrest their shooter together, “me and my partner”

         he’s pressured, she notices. “you’ll forget about me” “hailey” never.

         he want to confess sth but she stops him?

         adam kisses platt :)

         he’s sitting on her desk

#ask #rrrogah-taylaa #rrrogah taylaa #upstead #chicago pd #my post

[princeboop]

2, 16, and 19 for the cosplay asks!!

2: Favorite thing to cosplay?

I answered this before and Imma stick to that answer and say Aoba from Dramatical Murder. Super comfy, I can hold a lil stuffed dog around, I can wear jeans (considering most other cosplays of mine are pleather of some sort) The only problem I ever have is I don’t know how to handle long hair but like.. neither does Aoba so it works out. 

16: Would you, if given the chance, cosplay at school/work? 

I have!!! Silly story for you all! Right before I ever actually got into cosplay I was first becoming friends with @tyger-prince in highschool (like the literal last days of school too) and xe were reading Death Note and uh Spoiler alert? L died. Xe was soooo upset that... I showed up to class dressed as L to cheer xim up... We still barely knew eachother at this point!!! Idunno why I thought this is a logical and sensible thing to do to make a friend. But like, I guess it worked? 

Besides that... nope. I don’t want my coworkers to see me in cosplay though they all really want to. Pft.

19: Do you consider cosplay an art?

It is! Though when I do it, its not. Cause I think what I do is bad and not as amazing and detailed as other peoples cosplays. But yeah, it is clearly an art and I don’t know how someone would think its not? Even if its all store bought cosplay, its still an art performance wearing it out!

#boop answers #very late reply #but me n you usually only talk once every 24 hours xD #sunduvhar

[zalieza]

So my flight change cooldown is coming up, and I’ve been playing FR for a few months now. Ideally I want a flight that does frequent to semi-frequent dom, cool eyes, nice aesthetic, and cool lore. Unfortunately none of the flights have all that to my tastes.  If anyone has some suggestions, I’m open to them. But I’m putting my reasons for all of them below.

Im kinda ambivalent about community size? On one hand a small community tends not to be very active. On the other a large community can have a lot of young kids who are in their “LOL SO RANDOM” phase. Can’t win there really

Ice Flight (am here now)

Awesome aesthetic, very scenic

Ok lore. Its cool (geddit?) but its not entirely to my taste. Eldritch horrors arent really my style

Does not dom frequently

Holy shit I hate the eyes so much. At first I kinda liked them? Its mostly inoffensive white or very pale blue. But my god... they can look super creepy on certain dragons. Do not want. Plus theyre boring. The primal is cool but thats about it

Small community

Water Flight (started here)

Ok aesthetic. Im really into beaches and ocean and such, but I feel like the banner for water is extremely outdated and boring looking. Its not the worst but it could really use an upgrade I think

Meh lore. An oracle is cool. An entire society of oracles is less so. I can kinda dig pirate lore but its just... not really evident. Idunno. The whole missing dad deal is interesting but not that interesting.

Also doesnt dom frequently but since theyre small community they tend to win if they bother

Eyes are cool. Bit dark for me but the primal is awesome and they dont tend to bother me. Its overall just there.

Another small community. Very inactive on site

Earth Flight

Boring aesthetic. Im sorry Earth peeps, but its just not that appealing to look at

Cool lore. Honestly some of the most varied lore on the site. You can take it in pretty much any direction you want and theyre all valid as hell.

The dom flight. Cant get any dom-ier

Eyes are ok. Some of them are awesome, the common is kinda blegh. Primal is kinda lackluster but the other eye varieties make up for it.

Small but older community. Seems chill

Fire Flight

Unappealing aesthetic. Volcanoes have a ton of variety but Fire’s stuff is all similar and dark looking.

Boring lore. They’re smiths. And theres a slight rebellion. Uh... thats all folks?

Doesnt dom frequently. Like Water I bet they could be great at it if they wanted to.

Awesome eyes. Like some of the coolest in the game. Don’t really match with much but still cool

Another tiny community

Wind Flight

Very nice aesthetic. A smidge plain going off just the header but its bright and airy (puns).

Lore is fun. Not terribly exciting but not boring either. I imagine most of Wind to be very peaceful

Doesnt dom frequently, in fact basically negative dom

Another group of awesome eyes. Theyre a bit same-y but thats ok. The color is pleasant. The primal is meh

Large community, feels like most everyone is in Wind

Shadow Flight

Another very nice aesthetic. Honestly seems cool and beautiful.

Lore at first glance seems boring. However upon rethinking, its basically completely open ended. That leaves a lot of room for interpretation and that could be fun.

Another flight that doesnt dom frequently

Eyes are ok. Not a huge fan of the common purple but the rest are amazing. Except the primal which freaks me out

LARGE community. But also seems like the youngest community?

Lightning Flight

Ok aesthetic. Its really dark but not in a great way? Like who doesn’t like thunderstorms in a messa but its not the most appealing look that Lightning has going on

Lore at first glance seems awesome. But its really backed into a corner in some ways. Not my favorite at all

Man lots of flights not into dom what is this

The best eyes in the game. Theyre all fantastic

Medium community?

Light Flight

Nice aesthetic. Bright, sunny, greek/roman inspired architecture mixed with a mysterious dark blemish? Sign me up

Lore is kinda boring. Like you can take it in lots of directions and it holds potential for some edgy shit. But its nothing fantastic

Dom regularly. Nothing on Earth but the next best for dom\

Eyes are ok. I range between love and hate for most of them. Primal is meh

Large community

Nature Flight

Great aesthetic. Probably my favorite in the game

Tied for some of the best lore in the game. Honestly fantastic. Looks really cute and innocent at first glance but then you read into it and youre like “Wow this is honestly terrifying”

Eyes are great. Im a sucker for them honestly

Dom whats that?

Medium/large community?

Plague Flight

Ok so the aesthetic is uh... gross. Its consistent but its really unappealing to me. Thats not to say its bad. Just gross, and thats the point

Tied with Nature for best lore in the game and for the exact opposite reasons. Looks really gross and necromancy-ish. Instead its about the fight for survival and honestly, I dig it.

Eyes are honestly pretty cool imo. Except the primal which is body horror lol

I hear they were a powerhouse in dom, and now are not quite so into it but still more than most flights

Large community? But again seems like a young community

Arcane Flight

Aesthetic ranges from beautiful to meh. I hate the header. So so much. But the rest is pretty cool

Lore is ok. Im down with the magic and radioactivity. Dont care much for the scholar part but thats ok

I know the eyes are love them or hate them. I love them. Fight me

I have a feeling they want to give a crap about dom but suck at it

Large community, but honestly most obnoxious annoying players seem to come from Arcane. Forum clickbate seems to be their MO

#Flight rising #Zali talks