#i’m not quitting yet but when i do

[indigo-stars]

my latest embroidery piece!! this one’s a christmas present :)

#good omens #embroidery #art #good omens fanart #fiber art #ineffable husbands #i realize it looks a little wrinkled near the stitches :’) #it was fine in my plastic hoop while i was making it akdhdhjs #but then it flopped when i moved it to the nice wood hoop to finish it #i haven’t quite got the hang of this yet #if anyone knows how to stop it from doing that pls help #still i’m really proud of this one!! #might make one for myself to keep LMAO #my posts tag

[jasontoddenthusiastt]

Imo Jason is “irredeemable” by default because I don’t see what he needs redemption from.

#I don’t know if I’ve mentioned this before but joining this fandom made me fucking hate the word ‘redemption’ #no person I’ve seen who is in love with the concept knows the who what where when why or how it should work in a story #apparently it isn’t just themes and tropes anymore people don’t understand the proper use of the word ‘villain’ #kelseethe #also hilarious: Jason should recieve sensitivity training HR style from Bruce ‘I’m the government and children are my cronies’ wayne #if Jasons headstrong/‘answers to no one’ attitude towards vigilantism is what makes people think he's villainous #I hate to be a broken record but the baddie you’re describing is Bruce #nobody thinks he’s a villain for only trusting in his own methods/self and repeatedly isolating himself #and on top of that gaslighting and hurting people around him in attempts to do what HE **thinks** is the right thing #you people always thought *him* heroic not problematic for all these traits #the only difference is Jason isn’t psychologically abusive & controlling #yet he’s still the bad guy just cause he liberally kills folks in the crime business. #l'd argue goth ham war is the b*tman story to remind you of everything that makes Bruce authentically himself #Idk how to tell you that Bruce mentally compromising/crippling his son in a twisted attempt to ‘save him from himself’ #is perfectly in line with slitting the same son’s throat because he couldn’t stand to see him avenge his own killer #and yk what a redemption arc could be interesting for someone like Bruce #because he rarely questions or doubts his choices esp wrt Jason. no matter how morally dubious they may be #I think it would be quite fun to witness his extremely restricted worldview be challenged/shattered he deserves that humbling experience

[xmo-rmon]

Just an extra tidbit re: the body safety of “Inseminary” - before using this toy, I’ve never actually had a reason to use condoms, and I was/am actually kind of thrilled about it because that’s just a realm of my special interest (sex) that had otherwise gone unexplored. That’s how much of a geek I am. There’s also an enjoyable added mentality to it, esp if you think about it as wearing a barrier to protect from the hateful scriptures sinking in.

I also had to special order a pack of non-lubricated condoms because the kind you can get at the pharmacy are all coated in silicone lube, and therefore unsafe for silicone toys. I use our water-based lube both inside and outside the condom instead (X-Lube, which I can’t recommend enough).

Also, just for the record, before using it on my partner for the first time I recited both sacrament prayers and fed them a bite of bread and sip of wine. You know, to bless and sanctify this dick, for the souls of all those who partake of it,

#exmo #exmormon #apostake #apostate #nsft #i havent quite taken it myself yet #i’m a switch but i lean towards service top most days #and its way too big to use during solo play #but when I do I will return with a review of my own work

[erytherion]

Going to pull a Kim Dokja here and tell everyone that they should definitely go read The World After The Fall (novel version) all the way to the end because it is SO AMAZING and very very similarly mind-fucky about universes and reality and imagination and legitimate scientific theories you can go research about but the majority of the story itself feels mostly like a silly and bizarre action plot, when really it hits you with so many deep and philosophical quandaries and feels that you really don’t realise til the end and then you bawl your eyes out, kinda like what happens with ORV. I don’t want to spoil it by giving specifics, but like… it’s truly SO WEIRD that you will undoubtedly question how an author actually decided to go with those options, but obviously they had every reason to choose those metaphors and bizarre choices, yet you’re still left a bit like “What the actual fuck?” even after knowing how weird it is.

DEFINITELY BE CAREFUL if you experience delusions as part of your mental health though! They hit so many of my own at the end, I was so so glad that ORV had already given me actual psychosis beforehand so I knew how to take it in stride and not let it make me spiral. On the plus side, if you DO have the same type of mental illness as me, the story is even MORE relatable than ORV (or maybe like, relatable for different reasons to it, since ORV is still really cool too!) This only really applies to the latter third of the book though.

Anyways, READ THE WORLD AFTER THE FALL! Sing-Shong are geniuses with their stories and you don’t always realise til the end when they hit you with all the extra realisations! It truly is so impressive and also a little aggravating because GUYS BE NICE TO ME! But they’re already nice since they shared it with us, it just feels mean because then we get pulled into all their stories’ meta bullshit as a result.

#like when we rec ORV to friends and have to apologise in advance because we love the story but also good luck surviving it bestie! #like I’m SO sorry but I hope you have fun with it! #congrats on your new mental illness! #<- a sincere threat of becoming true if I am any example #READ TWATF IT’S SO BRAIN-MELTY AND WEIRD #twatf #orv #the world after the fall #meta bullshit #is an understatement #Sing-Shong I love you but please stop making me question reality unless you give me your protagonists to hug as collateral #I didn’t like Jaehwan at first but now I will defend him so hard #he is baby you just don’t realise quite how much yet #also that man needs HUGS #also clothing #do I need to elaborate? no! he’s just so fashionable tbh

[permanentreverie]

@cordiallyfuturedwight has tagged me every single month this year to give my receiptify, i am so sorry this is the first time i’m doing it these have looked so fun!! @cosmicdreamgrl has also tagged me in this, as well as @raplinenthusiasts (from my sideblog, @mikrrokosmos)

get your receiptify here!

tagging @mixtapedoh @gobarbie @musicallisto @ohwarnette @delilahsbard

#i’m literally doing this 50 minutes before the new year idk if it’ll work if they do it jan 1 💀 #sorry yall! #kayla i promise ill do better at doing these in the new year! #i’ve literally been obsessed with into your room it’s been quite on repeat #i’ve been meaning to get into more of holly humberstones work i just haven’t yet 🙈 #i was like wait closer than this is so close when it came out 10 days ago?? (on my birthday <3) but i streamed it akdjsjdb #i’ve been quite obsessed with skool luv affair bangtan what can i say #y’know honestly i never think that i listen to taylor that much yet she’s always no. 2 lol #can’t wait to grow my music library more in 2024 <3 #tag games #monthly receiptify

[ratislatis]

hey. what if. i made a second animatic (still havent finished the first) for glenn in “just a man”

just trust me on this one ill talk in the tags

#dndads #dungeons and daddies #glenn close #‘how could I hurt you’ toward taylor because of the degree of seperation they have #‘i would trade the world to see my son and wife’ hey what if I threw up right now #the last repetitions of ‘when’ will be assigned to the kids and their granddads #specifically leaving out glenn with taylor’s and having jodie therw #EXCEPT I KNOW FOR SURE ‘when does the reason become the blame’ IS SCARY AND RON #I’m not sure what I would do with the choral parts quite yet #maybe draw some callbacks to plot points #but that shit is heavenly #I ascended when I listened to it for the first time #anyway thanks for joining me on #the first step of all my animatic projects #in which I brainstorm images to lyrics #goodnight gamers #Spotify

[soft-serve-soymilk]

Wow I love asshole gay people (things have ALIGNED in the ASTRAL PLANE and Pav is WATCHING SOMETHING?? 🤯)

#Yeah it’s the scott pilgrim anime adaptation~ #I actually did see the film originally when I was like nine? I enjoyed the nerd vibes and completely missed ALL the subtext lmao #It was also one of my first experiences of Canada as a concept other than South Park (especially the SP Bigger Longer and Uncut film #which I ALSO was certainly too young for) #It’s kind of funny now having a friend who is actually from the mythical land of Canada 😂 Hi V #BUT ANYWAYS THIS ADAPTATION IS GREAT #Yeah it went bonkers off the rails but I’ve told you guys I LOVE it when the plot feels like it’s just snorted 30 grams of cocaine #Episode 5 is going to live in my head forever. I was howling. Mock documentaries are already a fav trope but that was on another level #I love Wallace too. Homosexual icon. I really do have a soft spot for asses with a charming veneer to them #It’s what I love so much abt soren fe too #I have yet to see how Inigo will spell himself out on the page but I think he’s mellowed out compared to his roots #His game needs some more spice. character. nuance. You don’t quite get it in wafty daydreams 🤔 #But from one tangent to another: I swear the next batch of head children whenever they come NEED to have just the silliest of times #YHNN was kind of locked in from the start— the inspiration was THE tragic musically-inclined anime of all time #And younger me just had some strange fascination with suffering and dystopia. So Sad LadsTM it was #But crack-fic is my thing and boy do I want it in my house. carnally #just pav things #Sry for disappearing for 4 days I forgot I actually have to reblog stuff on here 😅😂 I’m alive.

[beencryingfor25years]

So this month I’ve jumped back into my willex chiropractor au (after not working on it for almost a year) and it just passed 20k words tonight!!

#that’s crazy! #this started as (yet another) thing that I thought about but wasn’t gonna write but like… look how it’s grown #and it’s feeling… good #like I know where it’s going mostly and what parts I want to write more about #but it definitely has taken on a life of its own #a whole lot less chiropractor and a whole lot more of willie and alex watching movies together? #which seems random but go off I guess #I need to give them more variety in their bonding actives but it’s not my fault willie is a movie buff he’s the one who is steering the ship #i am not in control of this fic I’m just a vessel #tbh thought I might try a mini nanowrimo this year but forgot after the first day #so now it’s just a write more when possible month which is also quite helpful #things are happening and it’s all coming together #though I also feel like I said that last year when I actually was doing nano but things went off the rails for valid life reasons #I’m just seeing what happens no pressure but I do actually want to post this at some point and share this world with people #jatp #julie and the phantoms #willex #fic writing

[mobbothetrue]

I’ve reached the point in my Fairy Tail rewatch where it’s further along than tfd ever got, which means shit keeps happening that makes me go “fucking WHAT”

#mobbtalks #I’ll be real tfd embedded in my brain more solidly than the actual plot did. because tfd is my baby #specifically I’m on the oracion seis arc which I mostly remember for trying to puzzle around how to like. actually tackle it in tfd #it was next up on the chopping block. when I hit the wall I was like. I’d say 3-4 chapters away from it #so the plot beats I remember -the seis themselves #- the guild alliance and (most) of who’s participating in that #- big weird land thing goes walkabout and they have to destroy all its legs at once #things I did not remember but that have BLASTED me. - Ichiya. #and I. I fucking hate to say it. bc I hated ichiya the first go round but I think he might genuinely be funnier in the sub? god. god. #maybe it’s also because every time I have an episode going I’m also doing a few other things #- the monkey guys. genuinely thought they were a filler side plot didn’t expect them to come back #- Erigor comes back???? I uh. I killed him off in tfd bc I forgot that. haha. whoops. #- fucking *JELLAL* which is something I am. quite frankly. *shocked* I forgot #this guy is at the centre of like. every goddamn arc <- exaggeration #things I half remember which have yet to be confirmed one of which is kind of alarming #- there was a guy who was real obsessed with potatoes? #- I’m pretty sure this brain guy was uh. white. he’s black. he also has a line about switching ‘dark’ and ‘light’. the implications of this #concern me.

[dragonanon]

Me: *Trying to go about my day like a normal person *

My brain: “What if we made a TADC OC that’s basically a slime monster girl, but she’s based on the kind of toy slime that has a bunch of cutesy objects in it?? And when she was a human she was a highly skilled and respected Intensivist working at an ICU?? And as a doctor, she was known for being gentle and compassionate to all her patients, and she treasured the staff members working under he?? And she saw all her staff as members of her family, and was fiercely protective of them?? But also while she always appeared extremely confident and well put together, deep inside she struggled daily with a massive inferiority complex and imposter syndrome?? Because she never believed she deserved any of the praise she received despite her work, and constantly felt the need to prove herself by going above and beyond in her work?? And all the plays into why she’s a slime girl now, because even though she always appeared as strong and confident in the surface, inside she’s soft and anxious??

And while she doesn’t remember her life prior to entering the Digital World, during times of crisis or when someone’s injured or at high risk of abstracting, suddenly doctor mode activates?? She quite literally pulls herself together and becomes completely solid like plastic, and gives off a strong aura of confidence and authority?? Thoughts, terminology, and emotions that are foreign yet seem SO familiar surge through her, and without really thinking about it she talking and acting just like she did as an ICU doctor; leading her to quickly take control of the situation with firm confidence before gently tending to the injured/abstracting individual. She doesn’t understand how she knows any of what she’s saying as she gently tends to, and or talks the individual back down from the edge, but it feels so natural to her! It’s like she was MADE to do this, and had actually done it many times before despite having no recollection of doing anything like this previously?? And as she slowly helps the individual ground themselves in reality once more, she’s still maintaining a perfect composure during the whole ordeal, not once showing just how afraid she really was and instead just remaining laser focused on helping the “patient” in front of her??

And it’s only when her “patient” has finally stabilized somewhat that she finally notices everyone staring at her in awe, and then she starts barking orders to everyone to get the “patient” back to their room so they can be admitted into the hospital for surveillance, and that she wants a full blood panel and PHQ-9 assessment completed while she fills out an incident report for the hospital’s records. And everyone is so taken aback/still in shock that they just kinda go along with it because she sounds so sure of herself no one knows how to argue otherwise.

It’s only when someone breaks out of their stupor enough to ask her how she did all that/what the heck happened that she snaps out of it, and she softens into her goopy self again as she tries to clumsily explain she has no clue what happened but was just overwhelmed by these sudden thoughts and emotions, and despite not knowing where any of it was coming from it felt like she just instinctively knew what to do and how to do it.

Someone points out to her that she looked and sounded just like a doctor back there, and that maybe that’s who she was prior to entering the Digital Circus. She doesn’t believe it, insisting that there’s no way someone like her could be a doctor, but everyone insists that she absolutely could be and that what she did was incredible?? And now she’s kinda the unofficial doctor of the circus despite still not believing she was, or could ever be, a doctor??”

Me: *Sitting on the couch letting my brain hyperfixate* 👁️👄👁️

#this…this ended up being WAY longer than i intended #but my brain has literally been CONSUMED by this idea #that trope of ‘amnesiac somehow instinctively knows how to do the the thing because they did it previously’ is a fav of mine #she might not remember her old life but the caregiver instincts and knowledge is still very much ingrained into her #and it comes out full force when someone is in need of medical attention #she orders caine to go prepare a hospital bed and he’s like ‘yes ma’am!’ before taking off to do that #he makes it 2/3s down the hall before realizing what just happened and poofing back #in his defense she was so confident and authoritative his coding went ‘ah a doctor. you should always listen to medical professional.’ #shitpost #tadc #long post #the amazing digital circus #tadc oc #haven’t quite figured out a name for her yet #but i’m tryna name her in a way that would allow the nickname ‘squish’ to be acceptable #because squish as a nickname for a slime lady makes me laugh

[kingdomofdrawings]

Illustration for The soldier and the princess

Hope you like it!

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#HUISDVCIWJEBDCOJWDBCWD #I LOVE IT SO MUCH #IT TURNED OUT SO GOOD😍 #JUST LIKE WHAT I HAD IN MIND #Im definitely going to draw stuff for this AU again #don’t know when #but I’m definitely drawing more of it #her design is just too good to be forgotten #i might do one of Norman later🤔 #idk yet #drawing characters in perspective is so fun you have no idea #also drawing sand is quite fun as well #and I for once manage to draw decent looking water #the promised neverland #tpn emma #noremma #norman x emma #the soldier and the princess #princess emma #TPN soldier & princess au #the soldier and the princess TPN au

[blueish-bird]

sorry if I don’t remember your name or conversations/experiences or basic things about myself, every few weeks my brain gets factory reset and I have to relearn how to be alive

#lighthearted but also serious bc what is going on here buddy #been feeling weird as hell these past few months #like I can remember some stuff… but it doesn’t feel normal to forget the names of anyone I haven’t seen/heard the name of in a few days #or forget about basic interests and personality traits and experiences and feel like a blank slate every day #idk like ultimately life goes on and I’m happy to live in the moment but it would be nice to understand why my brain is doing this #just thinking #meposting #I think my brain just. does this sometimes when I’m stressed. which is annoying #I recall (lmao) feeling similar during earlier parts of life so this isn’t *new* it’s just unexpected and much more disruptive as an adult #I’m feeling better about it than I was. after like. acknowledging it. bc my mind has not always felt like a sieve it isn’t always this bad. #whatever #I’ll tag as dissociation just in case it’s related/reminiscent and ppl don’t want to see that #dissociation #me and her go way back… haven’t seen each other in years though #she wasnt all bad! coping mechanisms can provide relief and a sense of safety #and as far as coping mechanisms go it’s not the most unhealthy. though it ranks high in ‘socially stunting’ #I kind of miss the distance sometimes to be honest everything’s just So Much all the time #I’m so solid now #so stuck in the ruts of capitalism #fuck capitalism #I wish my imagination didn’t feel so dulled #sorry I love talking #and I don’t miss dissociation when I feel mentally present because I feel so Here with the people and things I love but rn? #it’s like a lose-lose bc I am not Here nor am I untethered. I’m heavy yet hold nothing #I enjoy being dramatic/poetic about it — I feel pretty fine. I just hope this isn’t a permanent and/or long-term state of existence. #like it makes me awful at my job I went from remembering a solid amount of the student body’s names (built up over a few years) to. like 5. #overnight it felt like. like Stressful Thing happened and I went to work and I couldn’t remember anyone’s names. #can’t believe I have to start from fucking scratch AGAIN I’d be better off quitting and working at a different school #bc at least then my lack of knowledge/remembering is justified rather than strange and seemingly rude #I’m getting better now but at the beginning of this it was blue screen in my brain all the time

[aurosoul]

no stream tonight because I need some more time to set up the new hardware, but I GOT IT WORKING. (also: new company shirt hehe)

#incessant meowing #me #gpoy #there is no hmd that looks cool yet #but i love the mad scientist vibes the magic leap has lmao #i wonder what people will think about me when i’m using this out on nature trails and stuff hsgshsj #ps: hmd means ‘head mounted device’ #it’s an umbrella term for all ar/vr headsets #there are some ar glasses out there that actually look quite fashionable #but they have the computing power of a potato and can’t really do anything #we are still very much in the bulky era of this new technology

[strohller27]

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#I’m just gonna use this blog as a diary because. y’know. I already do. anyway #I don’t know what’s gotten into me recently but I just feel like. like I’m supposed to be ‘further along’ in my life than I am now? #and like. I know it’s bullshit because. the milestones I was told I would hit as I grew older have definitely not been predictable #they tell you you’ll get a job and a car and a significant other and you’ll get married and buy a house and have kids and grow old and die #and it’s like. that’s all we’re given to measure our lives by; these big milestones.. people are supposed to feel accomplished when they hit #but those things are just titles to chapters like. nobody tells us that there’s all this other plot happening between those pages #and so yeah I mean. it feels like I’m not on the right chapter and I really want to skip ahead but like #the truth is. I’m not even to the climax yet. I’m still in the lore-dump stage of ny story #and that’s been so hard for me to accept recently. I’m yearning to be in the chapter where I fall in love and get married #but that’s just it like. that chapter comes earlier in other people’s stories than it seems to be in mine #although I’ve fallen in love many times. I’m not at the ‘get married’ chapter. because it’s not the right part of the story yet #and sometimes I wish I could just find the author of my story and tell them HEY GET ON WITH IT ALREADY because things seem to be moving so #so slowly. and yet they’re moving so fast I simultaneously feel like I’m running out of time #like. why do some people deserve to have co-stars in their stories from almost the very beginning who stick by those protagonists and grow #together? What did I do in my last story to deserve such a lonely one this time around? #Why am I so unlucky that I have good close friends that stick by me and all I know how to do is hold them at arms length because I don’t #think our relationships are quite as deep as I feel that I need out of a relationship? #why is my story about desparately trying to find a place where I feel comfortable enough to belong and share myself with others #and hey. why am I not at that part of my story either? #and maybe it’s that I don’t do enough. as a protagonist my toxic trait is that I’m pathologically suspicious of others #if someone shows interest in me I’m suspicious of why. what are they trying to get from me. because in the past people have taken from me #without giving much back. and if someone wants to date me I’m immediately suspicious of their intentions. #because I’ve realised that there’s much more to being in a relationship than ‘you’re hot let’s fuck’. and I know that’s not what I want #I want to be at the part of my story where I can share myself with someone without worrying that they’re going to take more than I can give. #I want to be at the part of my story where I can trust someone with myself when I’m fragile and they can trust me with themselves as well #I want to be at the part of my story where my life slots together well with someone else’s; so well it just feels normal and right. #I want to be at the part of my story where…I know I could live without this person because we can both take care of ourselves but. #it’s just preferable to spend time and solve problems and exist *together* #and you’ll have to forgive me for saying so but I’ll need physical affection from that person whoever they may be #I feel like certain things are falling into place. I like where I am. now I want to set down roots. and I can’t. I’m not at that page yet.

[flippedorbit]

sure mom. get mad at me for napping most of the day

#Rasp Rambles #not my fault i stay up all fucking night because all you want to do is fucking bother me constantly during the day. night time is the #only time i have any free time to myself. it’d stupid of me not to use that time for myself to do the things i want to do during the day. #she acts like she’s not the prime reason i sleep most of the fucking day. #because i don’t wanna deal with her bitchass. want me to not sleep all day? quit treating me like shit when i’m awake then. #she’s very lucky i don’t have the guts to rid the world if myself yet like i’ve thought about doing for more than four years now. #she’d better be glad she still has both her fucking kids alive present day. the way she acts towards me makes it less and less likely for #that to stay the same in the near future. like mother i don’t have fucking therapy anymore. i barely have an outlet to speak my mind freely #and even then i feel bad about speaking about how i feel because hundreds of thousands of people can fucking see it if they so wanted to. #suicide mention

[hongluboobs]

limbus has me so excited u guys

#pachiposting #i was in the woods when canto 5 pt2 droppped so i couldn’t be there on time😭😭😭 #but i’m there and not quite at the big thoughts yet but i’m cooking #if i do more Hong Lu effervescent corrosion analusis it’ll be after part 3 #but i’m beginning cookin #also i’ve been playing ruina. every time i learn more i go more insane