#idk if i'll get back to this story now that my life's been taken over by a different one

[saint-vagrant]

Sab stops running.

mine, he/him

#thygatrion #illustration #butch #trans #not sapphic just brutal dykes #sab #cyborg #sci fi #trans art #trans artist #idk if i'll get back to this story now that my life's been taken over by a different one #and besides that #read superpose #he/him #i'm also he/him thank you! #trans man #not transmasc just trans man

[sweetestpopcorn]

Hi, hope you're well.

I've started re-reading your fic from the beginning and I love the scene with Rhaenyra and Mysaria.

Do you think anything would be different between Daemon and Rhaenyra had his child (son? Idk if them having a son is canon or not) with Mysaria lived? Rhaenyra is clearly rather possessive, and while in canon she seems to be a good stepmother to Baela and Rhaena, idk how much she'd like Daemon having a little person who is a permanent attachment to Mysaria around.

Thanks!

Hi there ❤️

Thank you for the wishes, I hope you are well too.

Let me begin with a HUGE apology for having taken so f_cking long to answer, but I really was a bit overwhelmed and struggling with updates so I had to take a step back and prioritise the writing over the asks... but I'm back 😊

Then, I hope you are enjoying the fic ❤️ and thank you for the beyond kind words.

Now unto the ask itself, so it is canon yes that Daemon impregnated Mysaria during the time they spent in Dragonstone (when Rhaenyra was a child of 8 years, all important details), and that he gave her a dragon egg. When Viserys found out he commanded Daemon to return to his wife in the Vale under penalty of being considered a traitor - which he did - and he also commanded Mysaria to return to Lys and leave the egg behind- which she also did. All of these things are canon. The parts I have added - and that we have no information about - is how far along Mysaria was, if the baby was a boy or a girl, and what they planned on naming the child. But the child indeed existed and died during a storm in the sea, when Mysaria was sailing to Lys - also canon.

How that could have changed my story (and even canon)... hum... I think at around 111 AC and 112 AC it would have made little difference. Daemon was 30/31, and a married man at that. Rhaenyra knew that he had had women (since he had no issues consummating things), and it was not at all that unusual for men to have bastards in asoiaf. Just like she overlooked his wife and just figured he could set that marriage aside, I think it's fair to say she would overlooked his potential bastard child as well, just as long that as Rhea Royce, it was kept away from her. Which without a doubt Daemon would have done. He was no fool, and if you haven't read the books - I highly recommend them, if you don't wan't the whole story you can just go to "The Rogue Prince" and "The Princess and the Queen" novellas - you wouldn't know, but his seduction of Rhaenyra was flawless I would say - minus the getting caught part. He spent his entire days with her, gave her countless gifts and praises, made her laugh, read poetry to her... you know, the kind of things almost every women on the asoiaf universe - very much including canon Rhaenyra - would swoon over -> and no these weren't rumours they were facts.

I don't think someone as skilled as Daemon would dare to bring up any subject to Rhaenyra's attention that could displease her or make him fall from her grace. It's clear in the books he came back to King's Landing on a mission - get the girl or get exiled trying.

Later on, and I'll just focus on my AU's case to keep this briefer and less complicated, she would definitely be highly displeased if she felt like actually his bastard child was a big part of his life, and most of all, if that was taking away from any time he spent on her and their actual children.

I agree with you that in canon Baela and Rhaena were a particular case. For once, we know that Rhaenyra and Laena were friends and Laena was also dead, so she posed no threat to Rhaenyra. Then, the two were girls, while her children with Daemon were the sons he waited so long for, doesn't take a genius to figure which of them Daemon would have been closer to and would have preferred. And then, if we have a positive view of Rhaenyra, we could even say that she didn't want to be to Baela and Rhaena what Alicent had been to her - and I subscribe to this view but I'm biased.

We do see Rhaenyra having no such friendly thoughts at the mere mention of Daemon having a son with Nettles, and honestly, who could blame her? Not anyone with half a working brain I would say.

Going back to how she would feel about a child between Daemon and Mysaria, I would say maybe something in between. She would make no attempt to have any such relationship with him, but I also don't think she would be irrational enough to expect Daemon to pretend like this child, who he clearly cared about didn't exist, so likely, as long as it wasn't brought up and she knew as little as possible, she might tolerate it. But I think that's as good as it would ever get. Definitely, however, I think Alicent would stay on the back - or on the front - of her mind in not wanting to turn into some Karen making her stepchild's life into hell, though neither would she want to be like she was to Baela and Rhaena in canon - not that we know many details, but Baela's loyalty to Rhaenyra's cause speaks volumes, as does Rhaena's stay in the Vale.

Nonetheless, no doubt that this would add to her dislike of Mysaria, and going back on my take of only speaking about my AU, I doubt Rhaenyra would have been ok with Daemon taking to Mysaria's bed again. Like I have previously argued, I believe she did because Mysaria at the time was no threat. Pretty much - and apologies for the very direct language - she was a h0le for Daemon to use since Rhaenyra was not in the mood and that was it. But being mother to his first child... ouch... yeah I don't see that flying with Rhaenyra, not even DanceRhaenyra because as we saw with Nettles, a threat of actually losing Daemon was enough to turn Rhaenyra from - obsessed with the war - to - obsessed with cutting a b:tch.

And people say that Rhaenyra didn't love Daemon and that they had a political marriage.

Anyway, I hope I answered your ask and sorry again I took so long ❤️ all the best to you!

#daemon targaryen #canon daemon targaryen #rhaenyra targaryen #canon rhaenyra targaryen #mysaria of lys #canon mysaria #I add the canon so we are on the same page that this concerns asoiaf and asoiaf based content and that has nothing to do with redacted mk? #because yeah... sorry not the same story I ship daemyra not mattnada #the rogue prince #the princess and the queen #fire and blood #pre asoiaf #the blacks & the greens #dance of the dragons au #daemon x rhaenyra #daemyra #canon daemyra #popcorn answers

[halfmoth-halfman]

So I just read the new chapter, beautful work with the afterlife of Canary and seeing her father Adler again. The flames, the rage, Canary finally being SICK of it---- I am ready for the rage. I also appreicated the way her father just said "you're fault, I may have been shit and like hiring the docotor whose wife I killed wasn't the best idea, but the shit you got yourself is all you" talk bc Canary did try, but now she has that "bitch better have my money", "Jawn" Wick, Alabama riverboat brawl, 'cuz I'll air this bitch out', 'fuck it, I'll do it myself', energy that I just love to see on women *chefs kiss*. And then the face shift from Adler to Makarov really did it for me, and miss girl still held her owwwnnnnnn. She not playin' with y'all no more Graves, Kira, Makarov, 141 + Price inlcuded and even Kate (idk what she'd do, but if Canary got beef, then we all got beef).

And then her choice to go back to the land of the living bc she ain't no punk ass bitch???? Water my crops and made me want to get on my Zoom since I ain't been in session since I graduated and told myself to only take a 2 week break max then get on these job applications. Waking up and already being sarcastic and witty with Rudy is such a change to what I would've imagined her waking up like (being more frazzled, and scared, etc.). And then having everyone in the room tired as hell, weeks taken off her life and whatnot--- THEN TO BE TOLD PRICE GOT ARRESTED BC HE MURDERED HER!!!! Kate better swoop in and do her job, Shepherd better do some white people and police offer shit to get Price out so Canary can dog him for what he put her through. Then I wanna see Canary with the nine from Jamal, I need her hands Rated E for Everyone as a testmant to her last name and who tf she is and always been.

Also, your story is the first story I ever been waiting on for the chapter drop like when people wait on Rihanna for an album. I was pacing, then was like 'why tf is she in PST????' with my EST ass. And I even watched the new Zoey 102 movie to pass time then have a friend on FT bc I was STRESSED. I read through that too fucking fast, and you legit give me the energy to write, I just don't know what to write or feel that spark really. I legit sat here refreshing this forsaken app like it was Twitter lmfaooooo

Lots of love

aaaaaaaa thank you so much!!! 💜

i'm also ready for canary's rage, and her deciding to really embody the adler name and get her money and estate back like the queen she is. adler and canary have a very complicated relationship, and a lot of it stems from her mother's death. i think adler knows that his wife's death falls like 98% on his shoulders, but has shifted blame to canary because it's easier for him to be mad at someone else even if it's his own daughter. he's always been a little harsher on her than he was with graves, but convinced himself that it was for her own benefit and to make her stronger in the world that he was raising her to be a part of and take over.

so, of course, when everything goes down with graves and canary waltzes into purgatory/limbo while graves has control over everything, adler is pissed, regardless of the circumstances leading to that outcome. to me, he has a very black and white view of canary's situation and thinks that if she wanted to, she could've found a way out or to get rid of graves when it's not that simple. for canary, it feels like just another thing he's blaming her for, and she's realizing that almost every man in her life - graves, makarov, adler, shepherd, even price - are all the same; they all see her as a tool to be used, a bargaining chip, and she's not having it anymore. canary really is out for blood now, but whether or not the 141 is going to be included in that is undecided.

i don't think there was any other choice for her than to go back. like wanting to continue the story aside, adler was right when he figured she wouldn't be able to live with herself letting graves win, and canary knew that. sure, if she'd stayed she would get to see her mother and not have to worry about makarov or price or anyone else, but letting graves get away with no consequences after everything he's done to her? absolutely not.

i think she is a bit frazzled, but also more resolute after talking with her father. she knows what needs to be done, she knows she's going to need the 141 to do it, but she also knows she doesn't have to be happy and nice about it either. cordial, yes, but she's not going to forget what they accused her of anytime soon.

who knows what shepherd is going to do with price, but i can absolutely tell you canary's hands are rated e for everyone 24/7 365. she is out for blood, and she doesn't intend on taking any prisoners.

"refreshing this forsaken app like it was Twitter" LMAOOOOO i'm so glad that you're enjoying this fic that much omg, i love reading through everyone's thoughts about where the story's going to go. honestly, you guys give me a lot of inspiration to write these chapters, esp after the 12k one because ngl that chapter was kinda draining for me to write, but y'all made it worth it! 💜

#chrisemi #moth answers #answered #cod ask #private

[plaidpyjamas]

fuck it, Avengers Dead Dove Do Not Eat fic idea/outline

This is mainly an AU for my Avengers OC Desmond - he grew up in a lab and has a regenerative mutation because of it. In his main story/universe, Tony and Pepper unofficially adopt him and his life is able to finally turn around. The set up is the same here, except that Tony Stark is a Monster with Too Much Power I can try and write it as an "x reader" fic if people want, but portions of it do hinge on Desmond and his own origin story, plus I'd need a beta reader to go through and swap pronouns over. Anyway here's some quick thoughts on the fic, laying down a little bit of groundwork as far as Desmond's situation goes. I can't guarantee I'll actually write it though hhhhh TW: NON-CON (the focus is Desmond's sexual assault at the hands of Tony & Bruce), transphobia, and probably a whole load of other stuff if I do write it

DARKFIC – Tony x Desmond x Bruce Non-con, DEAD DOVE DO NOT EAT

Desmond is taken in by Tony around the same time [somewhere around Avengers2012?]

Because of all the tech and money Tony has provided SHIELD he’s gained too much freedom and power – no one is really able to stop him from doing what he wants, because he could rip away nearly all of SHIELD’s resources at this point

What Tony wants, in “adopting” Desmond, is a plaything (he also brings Bruce into it- he's in this weird limbo where he still joins Tony in assaulting Desmond, but he apologizes nearly the entire time, which makes Desmond feel worse)

 Fury feels partly responsible for what Tony (and by extension Bruce) is doing to Desmond – he’s unable to do anything and the guilt eats at him - Fury's constant apologizing and trying to “make it up to him” just makes Desmond feel worse (are you noticing a trend)

Pepper is also trapped – first in her job and now in her marriage w/ Tony – she and Desmond, while living together and going through the same things, aren’t able to do anything to help each other, aside from sympathetic glances now and then (Tony doesn’t allow them together unsupervised maybe?)

Pepper tries to comfort Desmond when she can - by making him food or other small things. She genuinely cares about Desmond, but is really doing these small things for him so she doesn't have to think about her own suffering

Tony won't let Desmond get any of the gender affirming surgeries he wants - claims it's simply not possible with his healing abilities and won't let him talk about it past that - Tony really just wants more control over him (potential forced pregnancy?)

Tony does not allow Desmond to see Loki at all, so sadly that relationship never has a chance

Luckily though he does still meet Bucky - they keep their friendship a secret and Bucky really wants to do something about Desmond's situation but he can't without risking Desmond losing his one single solitary genuinely safe place (Bucky's room) so he's stuck just trying to comfort Desmond and be there to put him back together whenever he needs

Steve either does not notice all of this or he is in denial, so Desmond can't go to him (there has been at least one incident where Desmond felt safe enough to vent a bit to Steve - Tony knew everything by dinner that night, rip)

Steve's unwillingness or inability to see how awful Tony is towards Desmond and Pepper causes a rift between him and Bucky

Potential happy/bittersweet ending - Bucky somehow manages to help Desmond escape and they flee to.....idk somewhere. Maybe they're just on the run from then on. Maybe they go to Wakanda? Maybe Shuri and T'challa take them in and hide them?

I really want to try and find a way to work Loki into this, since he's such an important character in Desmond's canon universe, but idk how I'd go about doing that - unless!!!!! Thor finally catches wind of what's happening and offers to take Desmond to Asgard (Bucky too cause he's not leaving this poor guy all by himself). I guess that could still happen, but it could be like a failed escape attempt? And after that, Loki gets involved in trying to help Desmond or something? I'm hesitant to give Desmond more people who want to help - I feel like that makes it less dark? And if I write this thing I'm going whole-hog like it's gonna make me sick to write it I bet lmao someone help me

idk I haven't really thought about a coherent plot line, just this absolute nightmare scenario lmao

anyway if this sounds like something you'd wanna read please tell me!!! I have so many ideas for this but I don't wanna write and post it if nobody wants it, yknow?

#tony stark x reader #dark!tony stark #bruce banner x reader #dark!bruce banner #avengers fic #dark fic #dark!avengers #dead dove do not eat

[shivunin]

✨ First Lines Meme ✨

Rules:  Share the first line of your last ten published works or as many as you are able to and see if there are any patterns!

Thanks for the tag @greypetrel!

This feels like sorting things to my brain, so I am feeling very !!! about this rn. (Also. I didn't figure out how to change text color on tumblr until literally just now, so that's fun c:)

Zevwen, Cullavellan, Fenhawke

AO3 First Lines:

Byways and Lay-bys (Zevran/Tabris, 1,855 Words):

The fight was quick and brutal.

Palimpsest (Fenris/Hawke, 11,038 Words)

Hate had been scrawled over Fenris’s skin long ago.

As Two Reflected Stars (Fenris/Hawke, 12,436 Words)

“Well, what do you want to do, Fenris?” Hawke asked, crouched beside him with her elbows resting on her knees. 

Katabasis (Cullen/Lavellan, 25,324 Words)

“Dying.”

Sleight of Hand (Fenris/Hawke, 7,470 Words)

In the hours before showtime, Hawke sometimes liked to come to the stage and stand just behind the curtains.

Book of Memories (Cullen/Lavellan, 62,304 Words)

Echo—a basement or dungeon, dim and close and stinking.

Pour Forth (Fenris/Hawke, 3,845 Words)

The first time she said it, Fenris had just taken a crushing blow to his leg on the Wounded Coast.

Breath of Life (Zevran/Tabris, 7,562 Words)

“When I heard that the great Zevran had gone rogue, I simply had to see it for myself.”

Winter's Grasp (Fenris/Hawke, 4,834 Words)

Winter hung heavy over Kirkwall.

Your Fate for Mine (Cullen/Lavellan, bg Fenris/Hawke, 129,681 Words)

How long had they been running through this endless dreamscape of rocks and seas and the endless, roiling green sky?

Cracking up at Katabasis haha. I decided to do a couple of my WIP ones under the cut and I'll stick the analysis there, too, for neatness. But for now:

Tagging @scribbledquillz @heniareth @zenstrike and you!! (I've just realized idk how many of my new mutuals write fic and I don't want to pressure anyone who hasn't posted unfinished stuff yet! please count yourself tagged if you want to do this!)

WIP First Lines:

Aerolite (Fenris/Hawke, 4,214 Words so far)

Hawke was not unobservant.

Stardust in her Hair (Josie/Lavellan, 1,995 Words so far)

Josie had never really been much of a teacher.

When to Walk Away (post-Act 2 Fenris/Hawke, 1694 Words)

Hawke had finished fixing her clothes and hair before she stepped out of the Rose.

These Last Strands (Fenris/Hawke, 2,992 Words)

“Hawke will come for me.”

Signifying Nothing (no pairings/ Hawke & trauma, 3,544 Words)

“What does it say?” Hawke asked.

Contrivances (Zevran/Tabris, 2,252 Words)

Something had been weighing on Arianwen’s mind for hours.

Leave With the Tide (Zevran/Tabris, 698 Words)

Arianwen didn’t understand what Zevran was saying to her at first.

Analysis:

So choosing a very concrete and short sentence to start is definitely intentional. As a reader, I like to have at least one basic detail about what's going on before I dive into a story. If I have to wade through a lot of commas and clauses to figure out what's going on, I tend to check out a little bit.

I also like to state who is the POV character close to the beginning, which is why a lot of them tend to have at least one name in them. I think it takes out some of the confusion jumping into a story (and w/third person, since anyone at all could be talking, including an unseen narrator, I like to anchor the text to one person to start if I'm not describing a big, chaotic scene).

Beyond that, I like to try to reflect the mood and/or tension in the story with the first line.

YFFM's is long and sort of dreamy because I wanted it to mirror Elowen's sense of detachment from what's happening.

The short, hard start for Katabasis is like that because Salshira finding out that she's dying is like this giant, immovable rock dropped into the stream of her life. It's not something she can get around. It's a slap in the face. I wanted to mimic that in the flow of the text.

I also like to establish contradictions and circle back around at the end of a fic, so sometimes (Josie had never really been much of a teacher) the first line is directly contradicted within the next few lines or paragraphs (Josie was…for once, she was glad to have been wrong). Idk, I just like people lying to themselves. I like making it clear to the reader that their self-perception is a lie, an obfuscation, or an act of self-deception. Or---in this case, it's a way to exhibit that anxiety does not always play out the way you feared.

I also went through and looked at the last few fics I posted on tumblr, but I chose not to add those here because most of them were from the micro-fic prompts. Unlike the other things I write, I tend to pack as much information as possible into each sentence of those prompts, so I didn't think they were as indicative of how I write. Since sentences are at a premium, they just don't wind up flowing as well as other things I've written.

#sorry if all the colors make this hard to read i got excited #hmm it's interesting to look at these laid out this way #tag game #long post #shivunin scrivening #i am getting the urge to put all of this in a spreadsheet lol #i have so many thoughts

[arsontastic-fandom-takes]

A/n: I forgot to post the wip. This might change in the future, idk I'll wait until after NanoWriMo to say anything difinitive

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What's the worst smell to appear on an orc's way to Falkreath? Blood.

The iron scent permeated the area around the woods. Times like these, Massacre wished they were a vampire so that they could just know how many different people were involved or tell where the scent was coming from.

"Red.... Tastes different than I thought." Thank the Gods, someone's alive. The voice is faint, but hopefully, it'll be enough to help Massacre find whoever it is. They followed the direction the voice came from, and the next time this person talked, it's much closer. "I wonder what Blue smells like... Oh Gods! I'm hallucinating." A laugh sounded west of them, and they stumbled upon a scene that'd be in the back of their mind for a while.

This was a massacre. No wonder the air smelled so heavily of blood. No deity's shrine should be disrespected like this, let alone one of the Aedra.

Three Talos worshippers' bodies were strewn about. They obviously put up quite the fight since there were two Thalmor agents as well. To Massacre's disappointment, it was one of the agents that was alive. Slowly, they approached the altmer man, and he noticed them immediately.

"And just who in oblivion might *you* be? Another traveler on

a 'life-changing pilgrimage' of worship? Because, so help me, with the mood I'm in right now, it *will* be life-changing."

Massacre groaned. Why did it have to be the Thalmor that was alive? "Calm down. I didn't come here to honor Talos, I came here because I could smell blood. I heard you talking, followed the sounds and found you. Simple as that."

The high elf sighed. "Good. I'd prefer to avoid spilling more blood than is absolutely necessary." A cough. "... Including mine..."

Massacre felt a bit bad for the man. He was obviously in a bad state, even if he was Thalmor scum. Thinking over their options, they sigh."Honestly, I don't particularly care for talking about the obvious. I know you and that dead agent over there started this and that you killed these people. I know you are not okay, guessing by that wound on your side, so I'll make this short for both of us. I'll help you, but it's up to you to decide if you'll accept my help willingly or if you want to be pinned down while I heal you. I know how to make any experience an unpleasant one, so the choice is yours."

The man seemed taken aback. "You want to help me? For Gods' sake, why?"

They shrugged. "I don't know, to be honest. There's a part of me that wants to skin you alive where you lay purely because of who you work for. On the other hand, you're hurt, and - even if you are Thalmor- bleeding to death is a pretty bad way to go. I also have principles against killing someone who's injured, so, unfortunately, putting you out of your misery isn't an option. So, count this as your lucky day."

"I reckon most of skyrim would have left me to bleed out. What makes you so certain that I won't kill you the second I'm healed?"

At that, Massacre grinned wholeheartedly. "Oh, trust me, you won't. Even if you were to try anything, you wouldn't be injured anymore, so I could smear your blood all over this shrine if I wanted to."

The man grinned back. As much as he could while being in immense pain, anyway. "Oh ho ho ho, that's the spirit! I knew you were a feisty one. I like that. Very well, I'll cooperate. For now..."

Massacre nodded, stepping up to him and hovering their hands over his body while white light emitted out of them and swirled around him. Getting the lights to work was one thing, getting them to heal was an entirely different story, and one that required a lot of focus and brainpower.

The key to Restoration magic, they've found, has been to think about their dad. About how good his hugs were. About cold nights in Winterhold, huddled up under their blankets while Pa read them a book because they had a nightmare again. About how they couldn't look at a book, especially not a skill tome, without feeling fuzzy and wondering if he's doing okay. About how his letters always somehow managed to smell faintly of pinecones. About how he'd be so excited and concerned about all that's happened to them so far.

By the time his wounds were healed, and Massacre's magicka was two thirds gone, they were getting homesick. Quickly pushing those feelings away, they looked to the high elf, looking out for any indication that he'd attack. To their relief, he didn't show any. All he did was twist his back and sigh.

"Ah... That's much better. Well, uh- I- Thank you." His demeanor quickly turned nervous. "I- Well. Turns out I haven't got much in terms of a reward right now, but I can offer you the pleasure of my company."

Massacre raised an eyebrow. "Are you coming onto me?"

"Don't be absurd! I hardly know you. Although... that can be fixed, if you're interested... Joking, obviously."

"Right. Unfortunately for you, you're not my type."

"Not like that, orc. It's for the best anyway, I prefer to keep my bones intact. To put it plainly, I want to travel with you, lend my skills to your little... adventure or whatever you're doing."

The orc considers him for a moment. "Why would *you* want to travel with me?"

"I think you'll find that having a member of the Thalmor in your pocket can be quite beneficial. And, if your first thoughts are 'this dashing mer is going to betray me at the first opportunity',then you're smarter than you look." He sighed. "I know why I was sent to accompany Sanyon, I was expected to die here. And yet, you came along and changed that. So, why not?"

Massacre narrowed their eyes, before realising that the worst-case scenario was that he'd be a nuisance. They knew he was right about having been expected to die, and even ratting out the Dragonborn wouldn't keep you fully in Elenwen's good graces. She'd still send him on suicide missions, with his personality. "Alright. What's your name, by the way?"

A second of silence passes before he replies. "Taliesin. And before you ask, yes, it's an alias. For both your safety and mine."

They nod, reaching out a hand. "I'm Massacre. Nice to meet you, Taliesin."

Hesitantly, he shook it. "Is that a name or an alias? Either way, it doesn't strike me as particularly orc-like."

"It's my name. And before *you* ask what parents would call their child 'Massacre', I chose it myself." To their relief, he didn't do anything but nod.

Changing the subject, they spoke again. "You said that you wanted to travel with me?" At his nod, they continue. "Well, you better be ready for a lot of walking. Only one guy sent me a letter, but trouble has a way of finding me, so we're going to be busy."

#current wip #wip #writing wip #skyrim #skyrim fic #skyrim taliesin #original post #Massacre the dragonborn

[viofthecollective]

My First Hypno Story Thingy

Based Off The Above Gif

Source: idk

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"It Was Just A Fun Little Game."

You Say To Yourself Over And Over In Your Head. And It's True. That's All That It Was Meant To Be. A Fun Game To Play, With Your New Friend. But Now You Find Yourself Tied Up In A Room, Left Alone.

It Started Innocently Enough, You Met In A Coffee Shop And Instantly Hit It Off. Joking And Flirtling And Generally Having A Wonderful Time With Each Other. You Exchanged Phone Numbers And Agreed To Meet Again On The Weekend. Throughout The Following Few Days, You Couldn't Get Her Off Your Mind.

Her Sweet Voice, Beautiful Eyes, And Smooth Touch. You Loved Everything About Her. And Getting To Hear Her Voice Over The Phone Was The Only Thing That Calmed Your Mind. You Don't Really Remember What You Talked About. But It Just Nice To Hear Her Talk.

As The Weekend Arrived You Eagerly Agreed To Meet Her At Her House, As Discussed. Upon Pulling Into The Driveway And Greeting Her. You Catch The Faint Scent Of Incense. A Soft Floral Scent Which Makes You Dizzy.

She Opens A Bottle Of Wine, And Lights Another Incense. As The Night Wears On And The Wine Takes It's Toll. The Conversation Turns Playful. She Looks You In The Eyes And Asked, "Have You Ever Been Hypnotized?"

You're Taken Aback For A Moment But Quickly Laugh It Off. "It's Not Real." You Reply, And The Two Of You Laugh. She Gets Up And Starts Lighting Two Insence, As She Does She Says To You. "Well, Then How Bout A Little Game? If I Hypnotize You, You Have To Do Whatever I Say. If I Don't... I Have To Do Whatever You Say."

The Scent Of The Freshly Burning Insence Fills Your Nostrils And Overwhelms You With Dizziness. With Your Head Spinning And Your Decision Making Impaired, You Agreed. "Sure, I'll Play Your Little Game." You Say Cockily. "And When I Win, I Think You'll Be Serving Me Up Wine For The Rest Of The Night."

You Two Share A Laugh And She Pulls Out A Pendulum. Sitting Next To You, She Begins. Something About The Motion. Of The Pendulum Swaying Back And Forth Draws Your Gaze. The Smooth Back And Forth Of Its Sways Make It Hard To Look Away.

To Focus On Anything Else. Her Voice So Soothing It Fades Into The Background Of Your Perception You Don't Know What She's Saying But You Can Feel Your Body Begin To Lock Up. And Feel Your Memories Being Erased. The Aroma Overwhelms Your Sense Of Smell And Brings The Last Remnant's Of Your Mind To It's Knees.

She Tricked You. Convinced You And Brainwashed You. To Become Nothing More Than Her Slave. You Were Already Too Far Gone By The Time You Realized. And Your New Life. Dictated By Her Began Filling Your Now Memories.

The Last Thing You Saw, Before Your Mind Was Erased Is The Smirk On Her Face. As She Knew She Had You Under Her Spell. It Was Just A Fun Little Game, You Say To Yourself, In Your Head. And Then Everything Went Black.

With A Flash Of Light Your Brought Back To The Present. The Voice Of Your Goddess Playfully Calling Out To You. Walking Over She Unties You And Shoves Your Mouth In Her Crouch. And Just Like That Those Unpleasant Memories Of Someone You Aren't Is Forgotten.

You're Serving Your Goddess Now, Exactly Where You Need To Be. Exactly Who You Have Always Been...

The End~

#hypnosis #hypnotic #hypnotism #brainwashing #hypnosub #hypnotized #mind control

[rahleeyah]

Do you think that by killing off Kathy instead of a divorce between her and Elliot, that El is still not "choosing" Liv? That when EO get together it's more of Elliot being "well my wife's dead so I guess I'll be with you". For many fans the choice of killing her off was not the best choice for the reason I state, and cause to fridge a female character is gross too.

What are your thoughts? Hopefully you understand what I am saying.

No, I don't think that.

I know a lot of people feel that way, but as we've discussed on this blog before I really do feel that Elliot couldn't choose Liv over Kathy while Kathy was still alive, not least bc Olivia wouldn't let him. And yes, of course, he could've gotten divorced from Kathy and then turned up looking for Olivia - and it would've been interesting to see Olivia be able to really vent her anger at him in those early days - but there's something....off, if Kathy's still around. She's still such a source of insecurity for Liv - does Elliot really want Olivia more, did he only come to Olivia bc Kathy finally got rid of him (which is essentially the same as only coming to Liv bc Kathy died, maybe even worse), has Olivia taken something from Elliot's family, do the kids resent her, etc - and Olivia's own reticence I think gets in the way too much if Kathy is alive. Olivia has been telling herself that Elliot is someone else's husband for so long that even a divorce isn't enough to nudge her, I don't think; it certainly didn't the first time. And yes the first time they were still partners but this time he's left her for a decade (why is he only coming back now? Isn't Liv still a consolation prize in this version?) and if she leaps straight into her anger without those months of caring for him maybe they don't ever recover.

And like what's the timeline. Elliot comes for the ceremony while still married to Kathy and Liv is furious and he leaves Kathy? Idk about that. Elliot gets divorced and only then turns up? Yeah I don't love that either.

And yeah, obviously, fridging is a serious issue that we do need to talk about but also characters have to die sometimes. We can't just never have a character die, never have the other characters experience loss; that's ignoring a whole vast swath of human emotion that does need to be explored in media. And if you're gonna kill someone off so that you can talk about grief and trauma and love and healing, pragmatically you're gonna kill a side character. Bc you want to keep your mains around for later. You need your mains. They're the story.

On the one hand, it would've been nice to see Kathy stand up for herself and go out and make a new life and not be beholden to Elliot. On the other hand, life doesn't give us all happy endings. Kathy had just as many choices as Elliot did. She asked him to come to bed, she asked - pushed - him to come back to raise Eli. She was happy in Rome. With him. Maybe Kathy didn't want another life. Maybe she wanted her husband - she worked hard enough to keep him - and maybe her ending is tragic, but life is tragic. A man looking at his cell phone while driving hit my mother head on and we spent a week in the hospital with her, jumping every time her eyelashes fluttered even tho we knew there was no activity in her brain. In the perfect story, her eyes would've opened. She would've woken up. We wouldn't have lost her. We did. The story doesn't have a happy ending. We stumble thru our grief. I kind of like it when the stories I consume reflect things I've felt in my own heart; it helps learn to name my emotions, and find connection and solace in the knowledge that I am not alone in feeling them.

Not every story has a happy ending. Kathy's didn't. That's not a crime imo.

#anonymous #e.o asks #s.vu

[ticklishbeans4]

What do you like about each of the BATTS/Raine's adopted kids? Do you have a favorite?

Ok is this the BATTS or Raines adopted kids? I'm gonna answer for the latter, cause they have more adopted kids than just the three!

And it's gonna get long so I'll put it under the cut!

Amber: Sweet baby girl. I love and adore her. She strikes me as the kind of person who acts mean at first because she's been hurt in the past (likely by her parents), but she also gets attached quickly when shown the slightest amount of affection from a potential parental figure. Hence her reaction to Eda (from "I don't think she'd be a good fit" to "BYE MAMA EDA!")

Katya: My giiiiirl! You write your fanfics baby I love you!! I'm so glad she came back to be a more important part of the story! I loved her in the first episode, so seeing her again as part of the BATTS was so awesome! She deserves to write about food and food being in love! While toppling the empire!

Derwin: The lad! I love his design, and his little two handed wave when he met Luz was so sweet! He strikes me as the strong but silent type, preferring actions over words. But he's still a silly goofy guy! He's just quiet about it! And this it total headcanon, but I imagine he had a bit of a rough life that lead him to his quiet disposition, likely bullying and mistreatment from his school mates or those who thought the Bard Coven was dumb. But he's a fighter, he's sweet, and he loves his found family with all his heart!

Luz: Sweet baby girl I love her so much pls Dana let her be happy!!! I love Luz as a character, the way she's grown, the way she interacts with the world around her, the way she accepted the boiling isles and all it's wild magical danger, and still changed it so much! She made friends, which lead to the entire day of unity being taken down. She reunited Eda and Lilith which lead to Belos's reign (I didn't say all the changes were good). She started dating Amity which lead to her gf's parents divorce! :D She's just such a strong, loving, caring, crafty, creative, amazing character. I love her endlessly!

King: He is baby. Pls protecc him. He's just a little guy!! He's been going through so much pls Dana! Now, King wasn't my favorite character when I first saw him. I thought he was cute, and endearing in an annoying younger sibling way. But he's grown so much, and he's such a caring kid. He wanted to be a king, but he became so much more. I love his brief friendship with Steve, and I wish they could have explored it more. I love his relationships with his family, and I really hope he and the others reunite soon.

And this one isn't exactly supported by canon yet, but I'm counting it.

Hunter: SWEET SON BOY LOVE OF MY LIFE BAD BUT SAD BOY I LOVE YOOOOOU! Ahem. Yes. Anyways. I adore Hunters character. He went from an intimidating presence in the shadows, to an awkward, shy, but caring lad just wanting a chance to find himself amidst all the chaos in his life. He deserves the world, and I'm gonna give it to him. In my own way. He's so expressive, and fun, and I love how he still trys to be intimidating, but he just can't pull it off like he used to.

SO! In terms of favorites...

Favorite of the BATSS: A tie between Derwin and Amber. Idk I just love them. Though it might be my headcanons talking.

Favorite adopted kid: Hunter, cause I love my son boy.

I hope this answered your question! :D

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#toh headcanon #raine whispers #Derwin toh #Katya toh #Amber toh #hunter wittebane #luz noceda #bards against the throne #the BATTS

[rhyme-draws-stuff]

Ayaka x Lumine (AU)

Just a drawing of Ayaka and Lumine being in love and kissing that I drew last summer, except their designs are different because I drew this as part of an au idea I came up with. and also because I enjoy changing up character designs in my fanart sometimes for no real reason.

(Note: This has been in my drafts for over two months and I wish to set it free, hope you enjoy my ramblings)

(EDIT: If you're interested in this idea, please tell me! I'm busy dying to college homework right now but if people are interested I'll probably make more art for it, and maybe even write something when I have time)

The concept for the AU:

When Ayaka told Lumine that Thoma had been taken by the Tenryou commission, Lumine said she'd bring him back safe and Ayaka should avoid getting involved. But in this story, Ayaka doesn't. When the Shogun raises her blade to strike down the traveler, it is Ayaka who saves her.

After this, Ayaka travels with Lumine and Paimon to aid the rebellion. Ayaka is left without her duty to her clan, and uncertain if she'll have a future within it after the war has ended.

But as her world seems to crumble around her, Lumine is right by her side, helping her through it. Holding her hand. Making her laugh in spite of everything.

And at watatsumi island, Ayaka has a chance to live more freely. She's not holding the reputation of her clan upon her shoulders anymore, and many of the people there have never seen her as the Shirasagi Himegimi.

I also like the idea of Ayaka making friends with Kokomi, they've both had to make compromises in their life out of a sense of responsibility to the role they found themselves in and the people depending on them.

Some concept art:

If I remember correctly, I first came up with the idea for the AU while drawing Ayaka with short hair just for fun. I don't know how it went from "I think Ayaka could look very cute with short hair" to "what if Ayaka got exiled from the Kamisato clan what clothes would she wear" but here we are???

Here's some sketches I did to get their designs down for the AU! I chose the upper right one for Ayaka's outfit, but I'm still figuring out some details for it so it'll probably change some more in the future. Or I might end up going for something closer to her original outfit, idk. Feel free to offer your thoughts!

I didn't really need to make any changes for Lumine to fit the story better or anything, but I decided I wanted to try out some alternate designs for her clothes anyways. I chose the bottom right dress design for the illustration at the top of this post.

I've talked a lot about my ideas for Ayaka already, so here's my thoughts for Lumine:

I think that if Lumine hasn't already fallen for Ayaka before the divergence from canon, she would while the two of them fight for the resistance. And then once she realizes she's has these feelings for Ayaka, it becomes a thing where she doesn't want to confess them while Ayaka has so much else going on in her life.

#thinking about this au gives me happy feels #i can have these two fall in love in so many ways the power it's amazing #also wow this sure is a lot of words i wrote and if you read most of them then pls tell me what you thought #genshin impact #genshin au #genshin impact au #ayalumi #ayaka x lumine #kamisato ayaka #genshin impact lumine

[fantasydaydreamers]

heyyya ! i’m new here and a little late to the party, but i just read your récents asks about seven minutes in heaven and i totally agree with the don’t trust boy anon lmaooo !

i like hitoshi’s character a lot but he feels more and more disgenuine i really feel like he just wants to get into readers pants but his toying with her feelings, making her hope for more… where as touya, even though he’s saying he wants more than just fucking the reader, they know they can’t expect more than that, so even if she goes for him there’s less at stake.

Now regarding the spin the bottle décision reader has to make, i would, personally, take a page out of the Joestar book (hello jojo fans), and run for my life, hide somewhere safe (maybe kidnap tomura since he’s the only one how seems to care) and really think things through motives and all and come with a plan to deal with them horny boys……..

really really love this story omg can’t wait for next chapter (but also no pressure, take your time !!)

can i be the 🍡 anon ? idk if it’s already taken

Oh wow!! First and foremost, HIIIII AND WELCOME TO THE DREAMERS!!!!!💕💕 You're never too late for anything!!!😊 We're all here with open arms and some have pitchforks aimed at me lmaoo jkjk but it's fine we're fine💕

Hmmm...🤔 I personally think it's so interesting how a good amount of you guys really don't like Hitoshi and think he's not genuine!!😭 Though I can understand the reasoning for it...Hitoshi loves to tease and has tried acting on it before Keigo and Touya walked in...and Touya just wants you in 7 different positions and has no problem telling you and almost showed you until you were brutally reminded that he's been around.

...A lot😅

Soooooo....I think both of them have been little shits with the teasing. But c'mon...Hitoshi said he'd be your good boy 🥺 and Touya wants to take care of your-

Tomura has seemed to have caught on though and is annoyed. And we all thought Yo was in his own world until he tried asking you a truth. Maybe it was gonna be something stupid and you over thought it. Or maybe he knows more than you think. Keigo is...Keigo. And Katsuki is back.

WOW!!!! WHAT A FUN TIME!!! DON'T YALL AGREE?!?!🎉💕

With that being said~ running and hiding is not an option. Y'all better boss up and pick!!!!🤐 Part 6 is hopefully out this Friday 💜💙 I'll let y'all know!

#you can be 🍡 anon if you want! its been a long time since any anon went by an emoji so go for it💕 #welcome to my blog again 🥺💕 #ask miss fantasy

[stfu-im-thinking-abt-blorbo]

Copy/Pasted from my other pages, a little update on my art and mental health, and wanted to leave my situation on a slightly more positive note than this morning.

So my Apple Pencil/stylus has died for good today. I've been having issues with it for months now, and today was officially it's last day. There's nowhere nearby to take it for repairs, and I'm more than likely not going to be able to send it away to be repaired. I've had this thing since 2019, and in the past three years it has served me incredibly well. I won't be able to reopen any commissions until I either get it replaced or figure out how to mimic my style on Procreate in a different program. Replacement is definitely not going to happen any time soon, especially so close to Christmas, so idk when I'll be comfortable with my art in FireAlpaca or SAI2 again. Pretty much all of my WIPs on my iPad are going to remain unfinished for a while.

I'm very upset at the moment, not just from my stylus. A lot of stuff has happened over the past few years, this has been the worst year yet, and all of it is making me reconsider every step I've taken as an artist. I'm not well, I haven't been well for years, and I won't be well for many many more. I don't really have a good way to vent nor anyone I feel safe with to vent to, and I don't really know how express what I'm feeling on my own. I don't make vent art because I hate how it makes me feel, plus I can barely bring myself to pick up a pencil when I'm like this anyways. And while I can still write in a state like this, writing about my problems just makes me spiral further into depression, anxiety and paranoia. I literally have a doc titled "Why My Life Sucks, From Before I Was Born to Now." If that isn't unhealthy idk what is. This situation particularly stings right now. Yesterday I made my list of what I wanted to do in 2023 in an attempt to feel more positive and hopeful about my future, but I've already been set back before the new year even started. I'm not at risk of hurting myself or others, but ngl it'd be pretty nice to simply not exist right about now.

Sorry if this was a downer to read, but I wanted to give an update on my art situation and let everyone know what my headspace is like atm. For what its worth, I'm not "giving up" in any sense of the phrase. I'm definitely taking a break from any serious work on my stories or reopening commissions, but not forever. I'll still be making silly doodles and reacquainting myself with my screen tablet and FireAlpaca or SAI2. I have a lot of editing I want to do so I can update my deco and themes for my pages and blogs. And I've also realized there's also a lot of writing requests building up on my fanfiction blog, so I could also tackle that. Even though it feels like positivity has brought my life nothing but negativity, I'm still trying. I've been a pretty decent therapist for myself after all these years, why would I stop now lol

Happy holidays everyone 💖

#long post #i guess? idk but its important

[icharchivist]

How did you get into A3?

hey hey hey!

I got into A3 in October 2019 when the English Server for the App opened. I had a foot in some seiyuu franchise at this point (i was still a lot into hypmic, and my besties were trying to get me into gbf), so turned out i started to see a lot of the localization on twitter.

There were a lot of completely unreal screenshots that made me laugh so hard, but this screenshot was ultimately the culprit into having me download the app:

I couldn't stop laughing when i saw that and i knew i had to try it. I took a look at the characters, already got psych dmg because of Azuma being pretty, and then i started playing the app.

It took me about two weeks to unlock the whole story and i read it all during that time, and i fell so, so in love with it. Like most people, my first focus was Itaru and then i got extremely enamored with the Summer Troupe, then, on a less popular experience, I really cemented Azuma as my fav, with Hisoka that i had often in the back of my head.

It was before any of the events started to go live, and i've participated to every single events on the a3 English Server. I grew to adore all of them, i cried at every events, more and more...

and then act 2 dropped and i lost my mind completely, the Winter Troupe destroyed my life, Chikage came along and added to it, making Azuma/Hisoka/Chikage my top 3 fav characters making me cry on the spot, and now this is all that's on my mind ever ahah. Ever since act 2 i was ranking up for every single events, it was a mad time.

And then the English server closed last November and officially shut down a few months ago. It is still breaking my heart and still something i have a hard time processing. I miss my boys very much every day.

The JPN server is ahead from the English Server of about 3 years, and is now well advanced into its 5 years. Since the plot really followed the flow of time and made you feel like years passed with the characters, i had a hard time thinking about catching up to the JPN server and wanted to read at the EN server's pace.

But now that the EN server is done with, i have been considering seriously getting into the plot of the JPN server, meaning, following through the wiki's translations and catch up on the plot while i play the JPN server on the side.

But tbh i didn't really touch a3 since the EN server closed because i'm still heartbroken, and the push in a3 i have recently is because one of my best friend recently decided to get into it by watching the anime with me (which, idk if you're asking me it out of curiosity in general or out of interest in getting into a3, is a fine adaptation but does some missteps here and there and really butcher Autumn/Winter's part of the story) and then decided to start watching what was skipped and going onward into act 2 from reading from the recordings of the secret archive EN server fans made to at least save the localization for a time. (which i can share to anyone who wants to experience a3 in its English Localization glory, but keep in mind we're keeping the link as secret as possible to not get in trouble and having it taken down)

If this ask is out of curiosity/knowing a3, this is my history with it. I miss it every day.

If it's out of curiosity wanting to get into it, unless you want to experience it directly from the JPN server and/or from watching the anime (that only covers the 4 first chapters of the main plot), i can guide you through the archive, as long as i can send the link in private, and then i'll tell you the chronology of the stories so it's a little clearer.

But yeah. A3. I miss them.

and it all started over "if you catch a cold, you're gonna catch these hands". Legendary.

#sighs lovingly i miss a3..... #ichareply #anonymous #ichafantalks a3

[aceissour]

Warning this kind of turned into a rant so tdlr life's been shit, my health is shit so writing has been difficult (I ain't no A03 I don't got that type of magic). I'm sorry that the stories are so backlogged. Update i post one of the backlogged stories and sorta fixed up this post.

Hi I'm back logged on stories as I said before. I bring this back up because something has changed I am still in school but I haven't actually gotten most of the days because my body has been acting up.

See ,ever since I was 10-ish probably before that (I don't remember much before that) I would get random bouts of excruciating pain that might be a slight over statement but really bad pain. Sometimes it'll be in my leg, other times my stomach. Right now, I am experiencing even more vertigo, my limbs will start to feel like they're giving out on me, I started to pull(?) my muscles more, and I'll get muscles spasms. overall just a lot of shitty shit.

Most doctors write it off as anxiety or very simple things like a stomach bug. anyways I take the medication they give me for my anxiety my other mental health issues, I limit my acid/lactose intake, and do everything they tell me to but still there's pain. Sure doing what they said helped but it didn't make it go away it is very fucking obvious that there is a deeper source problem than just anxiety, a stomach bug, food intolerances but they've never taken me seriously.

Due to the pain I have to deal with I have only gone to school for 1 6/8 days. I can't even get checked out if I wanted to(which I do because despite how other doctors have been, I still have hope) I can't because we don't have Tricare right now well we should have it soon hopefully by tomorrow but that's army shenanigans.

Point is couldn't/can't get checked out so miss a whole bunch of school probably going to give up on going to high school and switch back to homeschool if the doctors can't find out what the fuck is wrong with me because I'm not about to miss a whole bunch of class and get in trouble because of an illness I can't control.

Thank you all for listening to my rant I will try my best to finish writing the things in my inbox. I know one of them is super old and I am extremely sorry about that but as you just read above life's been shit and I don't have the magic of an AO3 author.

Update: I'm doing online school now and things have only gotten worse but i uploaded one story from my drafts :p. Also try to kinda fix this up but still keep the ranty nature of it cuz shit is shitty idk what you want me to say.

[kitcat-italica]

A very specific and complain-y rant that is probably an example of kitcat's thin-skinned-ness incoming:

There's been 2 major instances this week of my fandom spaces being invaded, and I'm so fucking tired of it.

To clarify: I don't mean 'invaded' in the sense that I found some discourse I didn't like on Reddit, or people started showing up with bad faith takes in the Tumblr tags. Those are annoying, but they're not my fandom spaces — they're public spaces. Anyone can post whatever they'd like. You explore the public spaces of the internet at your own risk.

What I mean by 'invasion' is because these incidents happened on my own specific corners of the internet I have curated for my own fandom experience — namely my AO3 account of my own fic, and an invite-only discord server specific to a particular fandom. (Theoretically anyone out there could join that server, since the invite links are floating out there in public spaces? But the fandom is relatively small, and the number of active users on the server even smaller, so my experience of interacting with people on there qualifies it as a private fandom space.)

I am very protective of my private fandom spaces. I curate my internet experience through these spaces to be fun happy escapism from reality with like-minded people. If you find your way into my private fandom spaces, I would hope the understood expectation is that you add to that experience. Maybe that was too much to ask, idk.

Basically what happened was:

1. I started getting a bunch of comments on a fic from someone without an account. They kept changing their anon name to be different names? But it was obvious it was the same person. And they took the story that means a lot to me, and just started quoting certain parts of it wildly out of context, not really making coherent points and just kind of rambling, and making gross assumptions about it. I'm not really sure what response they're hoping to get? It's the strangest troll I've ever received, but I felt all kinds of gross after reading their 13 comments of this nature over the last 3 days.

2. Yesterday me and my discord server buddies were talking about the parts of canon that we really like, good-naturedly joking about parts of it, having fun. When all of a sudden, someone butts in to say that one of the parts I mentioned was one of the worst things about it that they didn't like. It was such an abrupt tone shift from the fun conversation that it really caught me off-guard? I was so taken aback I just commented "agree to disagree :)" and just shut down, and didn't participate in the conversation for the rest of the night.

It's so frustrating and heartbreaking to me, because it's not like I went trawling through public spaces and found some bad takes that I felt icky about. No, these are instances of people coming into my private internet spaces, and intentionally making thoughtless comments to bring down my (and maybe other people's) fun time. Maybe one of these instances would've rolled off me after an initial "ick" response, but the fact that it's been piling up on me in the last few days has just made it dig into my skin and stick there.

Part of me really doesn't want to participate in fandom anymore. I hadn't updated that AO3 fic for years now, but I was toying with the idea of picking it back up again. But now I squirm every time I think about what the potential response might be, if it's now on the radar of people like that. As for the discord server, maybe I'll bring it up to one of the mods, but it's not like the person did anything against the rules? They were just expressing their opinion like we all were. But I def don't feel as comfortable talking on there anymore.

I know I'm being very thin-skinned about all this, and in the grand scheme of things this is not that big of a problem. But it still feels awful, and a big piece of joy in my life has been shaken and gives me anxiety when I step into those spaces I used to enjoy.

#personal

[alastairstom]

Also Happy thanksgiving my american friend! :D

Final ask/therapy session-

Am i alone in how much anxiety i have, when CC/people say "The Wicked Powers" will be the end of the Shadowhunter chronicles?

While I haven't been as active in the community online since this month, the Shadowhunter releases and CC's buzzing and the art being generated etc. has always been a part of my life. A highlight to look forward to in my year. The Shadowhunter books were my version of Harry potter book releases. I have taken work days off on the releases of novels, pretend to be sick when i was in highschool just to read TMI novels as they released, and now, constantly read new shadowhunter fictions.

I really REALLY don't know how to reconcile. I can imagine that maybe an author wants to get over and not be soley defined by 1 universe they create and write new things, but her work (and Brandon Sanderson's with the Cosmere, thankfully he said he will be working on the Cosmere universe until he's at least 86 and he's now in his 40s).

IDK it feels like a breakup. Any advice? do you share sympathies?

Many thanks and hope you have a lovely turkey day! ^ . ^

I definitely don't think you're alone in that. A lot of people share your opinion! I'm not one of them - I was a fan of Supernatural back in the day, and it's absolutely phenomenal until it drags on too long and goes sour. I really don't want that to happen to TSC, and TWP seems like a good ending point because it's the pre-planned ending. I don't want her to keep putting out more and more content forever when her heart's not in it, and I think that the size of this universe and potential for stories means that it has the possibility of burning out as Supernatural did.

That being said, I also completely understand your feelings. I've been following this series for a decade, most of it in anticipation of The Last Hours (it was my favourite series long before it existed - I've been partial to it since 2015, when Nothing But Shadows came out.) I'm kind of experiencing the End of TSC Anxiety now because I'm honestly just a very casual fan of the modern side of things, and that's what remains after the Kickstarter. So, like, I empathize with your feelings, but I don't really feel them regarding TWP.

I think it'll be cool for Cassie to expand to other projects, too. Sword Catcher was really well-written, and I'm excited to see how the novellas that are original short stories go, too.

I do also think it's probable that she'll dump a short story on us periodically even after TSC ends. Like, you know, Cassie deciding she wants to write a Malec eshort for fun and putting it into the world. This'll be nice.

I think the thing that has comforted me the most is that TSC will always be with me - when things get rough, I have like a dozen copies of TLH and TID that I can reread. And NBS, and CLS, and the probable Matthew bindup and Thomastair and Wessa and Jordelia BiB short stories. I'll always be able to return to the world by rereading, reanalizing, writing fic. When I'm lonely I'll always have Will's words on my left shoulder and an homage to Matthew on my right wrist (stay tuned, I'm hoping to find a watercolor specialist by the new year). It'll be okay, and it'll be okay, and it'll be okay.

#i hope this is motivational #im going through it too but a bit differently than most of the fandom