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tia-222 · 4 months

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okay so i don't know if this counts as a full success, but i have a void story!

a couple hours ago i was napping because i was tired af from melatonin, and i woke up a couple different times and quickly fell back asleep without thinking. then i woke up again, but this time i was awake long enough to be like "oh yeah i should try to get into the void"

so because i was so tired, it was super easy and quick. i was laying flat on my back and closed my eyes, and i just tried keeping my mind awake. so i repeated "mind awake, body asleep" and i would mentally talk to myself inbetween to stay awake and conscious. LITERALLY IN UNDER 5 MINUTES I STARTED TO FEEL IT. i genuinely and truly felt my body fall asleep and get numb, and the sound of my tv started to fade in and out. i knew exactly what was happening and i was focusing on keeping my body asleep. i was getting really excited because of how the sounds around me kept fading because i knew i was finally getting to the void but then i got a little too happy and accidentally moved 😭

BUT IT WAS SO EASY! AND BC OF THIS EXPERIENCE I KNOW FOR A FACTT THAT I CAN DO IT AGAIN🫶🫶

OMW CONSIDER THIS AS A VOID SUCCESS STORY <3.

You've just experienced what entering the void feels like and I'm super proud of you. Ikr, entering the void state when you're super sleepy kinda helps because your body just wants to sleep, I mean ofc it should but we should use it to our advantage :-). And no, ik everyone's mind is gonna go into overdrive here thinking that they should take " melatonin ", not really. You just need to stay up late or wake up 2 hours before you normally do.

There's a void success story on Reddit that's kinda similar to this, I'm gonna share because I think it will help understand how easy entering the void state through mind awake/ body asleep stage ♡.

" I entered a pure consciousness/ void state last night "

" Hello everyone! So last night I went to sleep actually early and decided I was going to try to do the void method. I haven’t done it in a year or so because before I was trying really hard before to enter the state and it was just a big mental mess lol.

This time I had no expectations, as I knew that was one of the things that always held me back from shifting or even entering deep meditative states like the void state. So before experiencing the void state/ pure consciousness state, I made sure to say: I have no expectations, i would like to experience the pure consciousness/void state” and then got relaxed in bed.

So I went on my side as that was the most comfortable for me. Last time I forced myself to do starfish position and that made things worse. Anyways I kept affirming “ my mind is awake but my body is asleep” repeatedly. Again, I made sure I had no expectations because it makes me anxious to see if I’m in the void state or not. After about a minute or 2 I begin to experience my whole body going numb and disappearing, and the sounds around me immediately being on mute. My head felt heavy and then i remember just hearing just my thoughts and floating and nothing else. It was very peaceful and quiet and I didn’t even think about shifting because of how peaceful it was!.

I didn’t realize how quick I got into that state when I didn’t hold high expectations for myself to enter. But that’s something that I’ve found that truly works for me and takes the pressure off of shifting!. Overall it was a very cool experience. During the early morning I even ended up doing it again just for fun!"

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mintaikcorpse · 2 months

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Why Blitzø Likes Stolas

I've made jokes about Blitzø liking Stolas bcuz his type is tall, rich, powerful demons with musical talent, and that's probably kinda true, but I wanna talk about the real reasons Blitzø likes Stolas. Tldr at the end.

I think one of the major reasons Blitzø likes Stolas is how kind, sincere, and affectionate he is. Stolas is always making sure he is okay and is very passionate about litterally everything he does (dramatic little bitch, lol). And while he's ignorant ("my impish little plaything"???), he does mean well. Taking Octavia to Looloo Land to make her feel better, Going full demon mode to save IMP, his attentiveness to Blitzø during his mental breakdown in Seeing Stars, him absolutely adoring Octavia, him helping Ozzie when he gained no real benefit, etc, etc.

Also, expanding more on the affectionate part, Blitzø is shown to not get much affection or love in his life at all. His family situation was a giant mess (his dad literally sold him for 5 bucks and a condom Jesus Christ-), and Stolas is a very loving and affectionate person. Obviously, this is shown with Blitzø, but also with Octavia ('my precious little starfire', always staying patient with Via, even if he can be a bit dismissive, going full demon mode when Blitzø said he lost Via), and even his plants (he raised the flesh-eating plant since he was a kid, he pets the plant, on his insta he called a puprle rose "a handsome little rose"). And yeah, he's going to be affectione with Via, that's his daughter, but in Hell, (or maybe just from Blitzø's perspective, it'a hard to tell honestly) that's shown to be a rarity. So obviously, he's going to admire that about him.

And also, compare that to Blitzø's life. His dad saw him as less than, something happened that made his sister hate him, his mom seemed to be a good parent, but she's dead, his best friend and former crush hated his guts for 15 years, his daughter does care about him but she also mostly just shows anger and annoyance with him, and even Moxxie, who'd I'd argue is his best friend, gets annoyed with him constantly (I would too tbh but this isn't about that). Stolas just being his loving and affectionate self and being so happy to see him and always being so sweet to Blitzø is like a breath of fresh air to him.

Another thing is that Stolas shows clear interest in the things he likes. Take horses as example, bcuz we all know Blitzø is obsessed with them. Most of the time, his friends are pretty passive about it, but Stolas actually indulges him. Some of this is from their instas, but Stolas got him a horse Hoodie, he draws horses with him, and Stolas even got inspired to draw because of Blitzø.

(Also, plz note that in another post he commented that it smells like Stolas, and I want everyone to appreciate how happy he looks in this photo while smelling it again)

Blitzø probably admires Stolas's theatrics as well because despite growing up in a Circus where you were supposed to be dramatic and showy, he was still always taught to ignore or hide his true emotions (Cash ignoring that he didn't want to go to the Goetia Palace because "MONEY"). And while Stolas was raised the same way, he still wears his heart and emotions on his sleeve and is always showing them, whether it be positive or negative

And we all know thst Blitzø has major self hatred issues, but Stolas was genuinely interested in Blitzø as a person. Laughing at his jokes, asking how his day went, and with all of this, you can't help but wonder if Blitzø was figuring out that he did too. I think that's why he was so heartbroken about Ozzie's. Because to him, Stolas hiding his face was just proof that Stolas didn't care. That he was just a little plaything. But, Blitzø liked that Stolas liked him for who he was, and that he didn't have to pretend to be someone different.

Yes, ik Blitzø wasn't here for some of them, and he thinks that Stolas is just faking all of this. BUT, Blitzø can notice things subconsciously, and the stuff that Blitzø wasn't there for was to talk about Stolas's character as well. That's why I wanted to talk about this, to talk about what Blitzø sees in Stolas and his character.

Feel free to add anything if you want! I'd love to hear your guy's opinions, takes, and thoughts on the ship. I'm probably gonna a make a post on why Stolas likes Blitzø at some point, lol

Tldr; Blitzø likes Stolas because he's kind, sincere, loving, affectionate, passionate, caring, dramatic, and likes Blitzø for who he is.

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gorgeouslypink · 1 year

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Hey I did your meditation again last night but since you said not to talk on dm I was scared to write you there about it!

Last night I was sleepy & tried & I put on your MediaFire meditation on but this time I put it on & slept in my usual sleeping position & then followed along. After about 10mins I could bearly hear the audio genteelly the sound & sensation disappeared!

I was super sleepy & almost a sleep but while I was conscious enough to know all this but then I stayed in that state for about 20-30mins more & then I slept without affirming for my void list!

My main concern now is I don’t remember to affirm I know the void state is no intrusive thoughts state but I literally have no thoughts then how can I affirm for my void list?

Now I am kinda comfortable with meditation & I am doing your void hypnosis meditation now! Only thing is I do it lying on my stomach

hi love! sorry for the late response! first of all, congratulations!! im so prooud of you! i think you entered the void state! to answer your question, the answer is practice. it's a bit hard to "think" in the void state as you said but with practice, it gets easier as you gain more awareness of the state. keep going and ik you are going to enter the void state soon!! please keep me updated! 💗

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lykaios2 · 8 months

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Mikey x reader right?

ik this a cliche, but Mikey gets turned into a lil tot.

After a day Mikey still didn't turn back and reader is concerned, but the turts have a mission so they are doing this on their own.

throughout the whole thing, the realize how manipulative Mikey really is, but they don't mind cuz he's cute- reader is like a mom the whole time, wpoling him and shi.

mid snacktime(1day later) Mikey turns back as he is begging for cuddles. everything is awkward, w/ reader holding a cup of applesauce and pea-tos in their hands.

"can we PLEASE have cuddles? I promiiiii*turns back with a poof*- ok what the hell. is that peatos?"

*reader just standing in the middle of the kitchen*

enjoy(u request beggar, I need sum too)

-ya gurl chip❤️❤️

oml this was a nightmare to write for no reason at all other than my brain couldn't process this request ;-;

anyway I tried my best

hope you enjoy! ❤️

The Troubles of Turning to a Tot

mikey x reader (platonic? romantic? idk)

“I’m telling you, Raph, my head is killing me!”

“Whatever, dude. Let’s just go.”

Ah, the privilege of being the youngest. He could get nearly anything he wanted if he begged hard enough. He laughed as they left, his scheme working once again. He went to his room and grabbed his comics, flopping on his bed and flipping through the pages. He wasn’t normally the type to just sit back and let his brothers do the work, but he couldn’t help but take advantage of his younger sibling privilege once or twice in a while.

“Yo! Orange! Where are you?!” Your shouts echoed throughout the lair. Much to Mikey’s surprise, you were paying him a visit.

“I ain’t telling you, because my name isn’t Orange!” He hated the nickname. You had heard Splinter call him that one time, and you still wouldn’t drop it.

“Whatever, I’ll find you in like two minutes.”

~~~~~~~

“Dude, no way.”

“I know! It’s so easy!” Mikey again relished in the fact of how easy it was to get his brothers to do almost anything he wanted. “They fall for it almost every time.”

“One of these days, one of them is gonna figure out that this is BS.”

“They probably already have. But it’s either letting me stay home, or hearing me whine the whole time.”

You only sighed in response to his stupid loophole logic. How did you ever come to love this trainwreck of a turtle man?

“Ugh...now that I mention it, though, my head does kind of actually hurt.” He got up and started pacing a little, holding his head.

“Haha, very funny.” You weren’t stupid, Mikey had just told you about how he used this trick on his brothers. Plus, he was quite the prankster anyway, so there was not a doubt in your mind that he was joking. He said his stomach was upset as well, but you weren’t phased. You had seen before how far Mikey was willing to go for the bit. What really raised an eyebrow was when he sat down on the floor in the fetal position. Whenever he started going a little too far like this, you prepared yourself in case something was actually going wrong. You still weren’t fully convinced, though.

“y/n...could you grab me some water from the refrigerator? Whatever’s going on with me, it kinda sucks...”

“Oh sure, what now? I’m gonna open the refrigerator and a boxing glove will come out, sending me comically flying to the other end of the kitchen.” You joked, but at this point, if he started doing anything else, you were going to start taking action.

“Ow...please...y/n...the pain…” He groaned. You quickly got up from your seat and walked over to the cupboards, looking for a cup. While your back was turned, you could hear a loud *poof* come from behind you.

“Aw, come on, Mikey. What is this, a smoke bomb?” You said, waving away the strange clouds that had appeared behind you. “...Mikey?”

No response. You walked into the cloud of smoke to find...a child? That also looked like a turtle?

“Uh...Mikey?” You looked around, trying to figure out where the turtle had gone. Instead, the child looked up at you and responded.

“Hi! That’s me, Mikey! But what’s your name?”

You stood there, dumbfounded. Was Mikey...a kid now? How had that even happened? Something gave you the feeling that this wasn’t a prank anymore…

~~~~~~~

“So let me get this straight...you’re Mikey, but now you’re kid. You know where you are, but you don’t know who I am. But you know your brothers.”

“Yup!”

You sat in the living room now. You had finally figured out what in the world was going on, but still had no clue how. At this point, the only thing you could do was keep him safe until his brothers came back.

“Well...I guess I have to, like, take care of you.” Mikey gasped and smiled.

“You’re gonna watch me until my brothers get back? Yay! We’re gonna have so much fun! Come on, let’s go!” Mikey ran off, leaving you in the living room alone.

“Hey! Get back here”

~~~~~~~

You had heard stories about how rambunctious Mikey had been as a child. But actually having to take care of him was another thing. He had an impossible amount of energy. He was constantly running around and climbing everywhere. You had never had to watch a kid like this before.

“Mikey! Get back here, you have food all over your face!” He just kept running away, giggling all the while. “How are you so fast?!”

He also had no sense of danger, which meant he got hurt a lot more. Or so you thought, until one time when Mikey tripped and fell, and he started to scream and cry.

“My knee is bleeding! It hurts!”

“Oh goodness, again? Let me grab you another bandaid...” You walked out of the room to get another bandaid for Mikey, when you heard his crying stop. You peeked your head back to find Mikey sitting on the floor completely silent. No crying, not even a single tear. And his knee wasn’t even bleeding. He was completely fine!

“You little liar!” He whipped his head around, shocked to see you. “You weren't hurt at all! You just wanted to...actually, why did you do that?”

He wouldn’t say a word, too afraid to get in trouble. He crossed his arms and turned away from you, refusing to tell the truth. He only spoke after you promised to not tell Splinter so he wouldn’t get in trouble.

“I…I wanted a cool bandaid. I really like the bandaids. But Dad says that we should only use them when we’re really hurt.”

You sighed. Mikey just wanted a bandaid...but he lied for it? Was he really this mischievous of a child? But he also just lied to his brothers…

“We’re gonna have a talk about this later…” You commented under your breath, before speaking to Mikey again. At this point, it was getting late, and you were exhausted. “I have an idea...why don’t we go lay down and watch a movie?” Mikey, ashamed that he had been caught in his lie, nodded and got up to walk to the living room.

~~~~~~~

Mikey passed out almost immediately. He denied ever being tired, but his eyelids kept drooping lower and lower. He slumped over onto you as he slowly grew more and more sleepy. Looking down at him, he looked pretty adorable when he was actually sitting still, asleep.

“Not tired, huh? Heh, that’s what they all say.” You looked around again for any sign of his brothers, but there was nothing. “Guess I gotta put you to bed then.”

You hoisted him up into your arms. He was heavier than you expected, but he was a turtle mutant. Not exactly a normal child. You carried him to his bedroom, laying him down on his bed. You almost walked away, but not before Mikey grabbed your arm in his sleep, pulling you back.

The little gesture melted your heart, making you completely forget what had happened earlier. You smiled and laid down next to him, letting him have his way. He wrapped himself around your arm, making sure you knew you weren’t allowed to leave.

You laid a blanket over him, and closed your eyes. Next thing you knew, you were fast asleep, right next to Mikey.

~~~~~~~

“y/n...I’m thirsty.”

“Right...of course you are. Come on, then.”

“I don’t want to go. The monster will get me.”

“No it won’t, I’ll protect you.”

“You pinky promise?”

“Yes, I pinky promise.”

~~~~~~~

The next morning, when you woke up, you looked next to you to find Mikey not there. Worried, you frantically got out of the bed and ran to find Mikey. Much to your relief, and also confusion, he was in the living room, watching TV and eating cereal.

“Did you make that yourself? And you put the TV on, too?” you asked, pointing to the bowl of cereal in his hands.

“Yep! I’m a big kid, I can take care of myself.” You shrugged, sitting on the couch next to him. He quietly finished his bowl of cereal, and went to put it in the sink. You thought to yourself that maybe today he would be calm for once. But when Mikey didn’t come back from the kitchen, those thoughts were gone.

~~~~~~~

He was back at it again, hyper as ever. The only difference between yesterday and today was that you knew Mikey’s tricks. You made sure to check if he was really hurt. Thankfully, he never was. On the contrary, he was quite the resilient kid. But he was still rambunctious. You couldn’t ever get him to sit still for more than 30 seconds.

“y/n, I’m hungryyyyy…”

“Didn’t you just eat?”

“Yeah, but I’m hungry again.”

“I’ll go get you some more Goldfish then…”

“No! I want apples.” You groaned.

“Apples, apples, of course…let’s go then.”

You begrudgingly walked to the kitchen, and looked around for some apples to cut up. As you tried to slice the apples, you could feel Mikey tugging on your shirt. “y/n…”

“I’m working on it! Give me a minute…”

“y/n, my tummy hurts.”

“It’s probably because you’re hungry. I’m almost done with the apples.”

“But it’s not like that…my tummy hurts hurts…”

“Well, some food and water should make you feel a little better.”

Mikey nodded, and started clinging to your leg. You could feel him sniffling, and you looked down to see him with tears welling up in his eyes.

“Oh, hey, hey…don’t worry, it’ll be okay…um…” You looked around for anything that could help him, but before you could find anything, you heard a loud *poof* and suddenly Mikey was standing in front of you, his normal self again.

“Oh, hey y/n! You okay, you look a little stressed. And what’s with the apples, you hungry?”

“M-Mikey?”

“Yeah?” You closed your eyes and all but fell over. “Woah! Man down! You need some rest…let’s go sit down, why don’t we? Then maybe you can tell me what’s going on.”

“Please…that would be lovely.”

#rottmnt #tmnt 2018 #rise of the tmnt #teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt mikey #mikey x reader #tmnt x reader #tmnt x y/n #rottmnt x reader #rottmnt x y/n #rise mikey #rise michelangelo #lykaios writes

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my-castles-crumbling · 1 month

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Swiftie Anon

Hi guys! I got an ask from an anon that might be triggering so I'm copy-pasting it here so I can put a 'read more' button. I'm naming them Swiftie Anon because they said Taylor really helped them.

TW: SH, SI

Hi Cas, hope you’re ok, because I sure as hell am not. Trigger warning, like mentions of self harm and stuff like that I think.

I’m a seventh grader and recently I’ve been thinking about killing myself a lot more than I usually do. During the pandemic I was in 3rd grade and I kinda realized how much life sucked, but when I went back to school in 5th grade, I realized that this hadn’t occurred to anyone else. I kind of brushed it off bc I’ve always been sort of a pessimist but then I sixth grade I started having suicidal thoughts, I think. I just felt really done with everything, I didn’t want to draw or read or write, and my parents were pissed all the time, it felt like my friends were bored of me (I have abandonment issues from all my friends in elementary school leaving me) (I think)and I thought it would just be easier to not exist anymore, it wasn’t that good. I discovered Taylor, the angel that she is, she just felt…like a friend, like she was right there, you know, and I’ve been mostly okay-ish since. But school fucking sucks and in 7th grade I had to do a presentation in front of my class and I started crying and hyperventilating, I couldn’t even stand up. I think I have anxiety idk. I’ve always been shy, and I’ve hyperventilated before when my parents were yelling at me about stuff and my arms started bleeding because I was digging my nails into them. My parents found out at conferences and I got grounded. my brother knows bc he walked in on me crying and hyperventilating once but he’s leaving for college next year and idk how the fuck I’ll stay together without him. My younger sister and I are really close, but I don’t want to drag her in onto this stuff. And ik once I get to high school it’ll be even worse bc high school sounds horrible and I might be all alone again bc I might not go to the same high school as my friends

I haven’t said a word about this to anyone voluntarily and I know I can’t tell my parents. I always lie on those surveys you get at the doctor, and my parents are always saying I should have a more positive outlook on life and try to be happier and it makes me so pissed bc I am trying as hard as I can to be happening but nothing fucking works.

idk what do with myself anymore, a teacher mentioned college today and I almost broke down sobbing bc I don’t think I’ll let myself live that long. It’s just…really hard and everyday feels like years. Should I tell someone? I’m not as bad as I was in 6th grade, but I know I should be getting help somehow. But I suck at asking for things and I can’t trust any adults.

sorry for the rant, I just need some advice. And a virtual, pat on the head or something, idk.

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Hi hon!

First, (with your permission), I'm like to give you a virtual hug, because it sounds like you're dealing with a lot <3

I'm gonna be really real with you right now: You need to ask for some help. You have a lot going on, and some really heavy feelings, and you don't deserve to be dealing with them at ALL, let alone by yourself.

You're young, and you have SO MUCH life left to enjoy, and suffering through it like this isn't fair. So I'm going to share something about myself with you, okay?

When I was younger, I was very depressed. I was in a bad relationship and I felt very trapped, and I got to a point similar to you.

One day, I got so overwhelmed that I sort of realized that I either needed to ask for help or I would end up making a really bad decision. So, I asked for help.

Again, I'm going to be real: It was SUPER scary. I had to see a lot of doctors and I cried a lot. But after a lot of work, I was able to get better, and now, years later, I am in a (different) healthy relationship, and I have a job and a pet, and I'm here talking to you.

I know this sounds stupid because it's like some feel-good story and right now I'm sure you feel less than great. But I say this because you NEED to ask for help, even if it is difficult. Because there are real things past this feeling. A future job, a future relationship (if you want), a future pet, future kids (if you want). They're all very real and achievable and this feeling is temporary, even thought it feels so permanent right now.

So I'm going to give you some options, since it seems like you don't want to talk to your parents:

Talk to a doctor. Doctors are trained to help you, and they have a lot of resources.

Talk to a trusted teacher. Teachers can sometimes be amazing resources as well, and a lot of them want to listen when you ask to talk.

Talk to a different adult (aunt, uncle, coach, someone!) that you feel close to that will help.

Call/text/message a hotline. Here is an example of a hotline you can talk to via messaging, text, or phone, depending on what you prefer.

But you need to ask for help, because you DESERVE to be happy and living your best life.

It would make me super happy if you message/inboxed me an update, whether you're doing better, worse, or the same! I'm so proud of you for reaching out and I'm cheering you on!

#ask #asks #ask cas #tw: sh

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sophieinwonderland · 5 months

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kinda just a experience being around anti endo even if you dont talk to them: I had joined a discord server for a dinosaur game and even then I find a Plural mod whos anti endo. im not even endogenic but I can never be safe around these people. I was thinking about this because I started to have a panic attack when someone in the server sent me a friend request, ik I cant stay in that server long as I feel its incredibly unsafe for my system :(

they talk about us invading their spaces, as they actively make their spaces unsafe even for their own people. this has been said many times im sure, I miss when it didn't have to interfere so much with just my fun activities. ive lost a lot of social spaces lately and its kinda tearing me apart. sometimes I think im being a bit silly, but we should never let bigotry slide.

That sucks.

How do these people even keep managing to worm their way into moderator positions?

And yeah, I don't think you're being silly at all. You have to what's best to protect yourselves. Being in the same space as anti-endos can potentially be harmful. But with them as moderators in the server, it's going to be hard not to be looking over your shoulder constantly. A lot of anti-endos, especially those with any sort of power, will be looking for any signs that systems are faking, and you'll end up being forced to self-censor to avoid their gaze.

It's terrible what anti-endos have done to these spaces.

But there are plenty of spaces out there they haven't gotten their hooks into yet. Spaces that can be safer for your system.

#syscourse #pro endo #pro endogenic

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pacificwaternymph · 2 years

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Had an idea for a pirate flavored angst

So in canon Joey and Sausage kidnapped Gem and Scott. Sausage probably wouldn't in pirate au but it definitely feels like something Joey would do.

So Xornoth is faced with this decision. Stay with Joey and let his brother and (ik Gem has something to with the navy but I just woke up so idr it) get taken and most likely killed, or set them free and most likely ruin their relationship with Joey

You said they'd choose Scott everytime, so which one he chooses isn't hard, but the fall out?

Kinda imagining Scott offering Xornoth a spot on the ship (at least temporarily) until they have somewhere to go. Maybe the Overgrown?

Oooh oh my god this is actually really funny because I was just imagining a really similar situation.

I didn't know how to set it up, or how it would get to that point in the first place, but a kidnapping is exactly what I needed to make this work, so thank you!!

Story under the cut

Scott and Gem are both navy deserters, so they formed a friendship around their mutual experiences. Granted, Gem's were a bit worse considering at the end of the day, it was Scott's choice to stick with the navy, but it was very much not Gem's, but they still bond over being treated like shit by everyone around them.

Gem also commiserates with him about being separated from his brother.

And that's all well and good, until during one of their hangouts, they get abruptly captured because they weren't very careful enough and somebody recognized them. I mean, neither of their appearances are exactly subtle.

To make matters worse, who is the naval officer who orchestrated it? Joey. Of course it is. And that means Xornoth isn't far behind.

Joey isn't wasting any time this time around. He knows that Scott has a habit of managing to slip whatever confines he's put in if left alone long enough (thanks in no small part to Xornoth), so he plans to have both him and Gem executed as soon as possible.

This means when Xornoth goes to break them both out, he's rushed, he's panicked, and he's sloppy. They've almost made it back to the docks, where the WRA and Jimmy are starting to get concerned because Scott and Gem aren't back yet, when Joey catches them.

He demands to know what Xornoth thinks they're doing and expresses his disbelief that they would stoop this low.

He causes a commotion and draws the attention of Jimmy and his crew, as well as Joey and Xornoth's own, surrounding them on opposite sides. Scott and Gem both immediately bolt for their side, but turn around to see Joey still yelling, and Xornoth frozen, unable to move.

When Joey finally finishes his angered ranting, he sighs and softens his tone. He tells Xornoth that if he comes back and waits on the ship while they deal with the mess he's created, they can work something out. Maybe they can even find a way to forgive him for this slight, because he loves Xornoth that much and he's willing to overlook this as long as it never happens again.

Xornoth hesitates, long enough that Joey gets impatient and snaps their name, telling them to hurry up. Then Scott calls out to him, silently urging, although even Scott's not sure whether he's urging him to listen to Joey and try to salvage his reputation, or to turn tail and finally leave the navy behind.

But either way, something in Xornoth finally snaps. They turn back to their boyfriend, whisper and apology, and run to Scott's side.

Joey doesn't take this well at all. Scott has always taken up so much of Xornoth's time and energy that, in Joey's mind, he didn't deserve. For every flaw or sign of wavering loyalty Xornoth ever demonstrated, it was instantly declared Scott's fault.

And now this? Manipulating them into turning sides, abandoning their family, abandoning Joey? That was the final straw.

Enraged, he pulls out his pistol and fires at Scott. But before anyone can do a thing, Xornoth is pulling his little brother out of the way, switching their positions. The bullet hits them in the shoulder.

Things descend into chaos from there. Joey stands there, shocked, angry, hurt, and betrayed, the dawning realization of what he's just done slowly washing over him. The two groups end up getting into a short fight, and the navy has to retreat. Someone has to literally pull Joey along by his arm because he's staring at Xornoth's unconscious body.

Scott is putting pressure on the wound and yelling desperately for Lilac, who is trying her best to push through the carnage to get to them.

But of course, it's me, and I can't do unhappy endings or major character death. After the fight is over, Lilac manages to remove the bullet and stitch up the wound. It's pretty severe, there's definitely going to be lasting nerve damage that makes it harder, if not impossible, for Xornoth to use his arm. But they're alive and they'll be okay, and that's all that matters.

Jimmy offers him a place on the crew, since everyone already knows Xornoth by now, he's saved most of their lives at one point or another. But Xornoth declines, saying they think they'd rather retire. Sailing was never a passion for him. The only reason they were in the navy was because they needed some excuse to get away from their parents, who were already pushing them towards a military career.

So instead, they wait until Xornoth has mostly recovered so that Lilac is able to help him with physical therapy, and drop him off at the Overgrowth, just like you said. They build a new life there, actually get some therapy for their lifetime's worth of unhealthy relationships both familial and romantic, and make friends with Katherine and Shelby, who pretty much instantly go into full Mom FriendTM mode as soon as they meet them.

It's a little awkward, considering Shelby once tried to kill Xornoth, but at this point, so have most of the people in his life, and at least she wasn't motivated by anything personal, so they move past it.

#empires smp #pirate au #xornoth #empires xornoth #xornoth empires smp #joey graceffa #geminitay #scott smajor #smajor1995 #dangthatsalongname #katherine elizabeth #shubble

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No matter the current situation versus potential situation, there are going to be parts of a move that suck and are stressful. Especially so if it involves moving states. But just because Some parts are going to inevitably suck doesn't mean all of it is doomed to. I'm not sure where your current residence is, but one good thing about moving somewhere that has regular heatwaves is that there are more resources available when it comes to dealing with them. IK that sounds kinda silly but I feel like it's the truth, ESP when it comes to moving somewhere that gets a lot of tourists. I don't want to be an old man "it's not the heat, it's the humidity" but as a native Floridian I can't help but stress that it's the truth xD.

Leaving a support system does sound very scary, but if it is around Orlando/Lake Buena Vista that you want to move to, at least it should be within reasonable distance of an airport when it comes to calling for help or needing to fly out for some reason. Traffic is going to suck, but like the heat it's something you will get used to. This is a move people make a lot, and while that doesn't make it any easier, I hope it helps it feel like it's not so dumb and impossible. Another thing I want to include in this word wall is this: You're smart and an adult and I'm sure you don't need to be told that you're probably not going to get the exact position you want right away. It might be something you have to work up towards or have just a 'getting by' job until you do get your foot in the door or on the path to the door you wanna go through. It's gonna be hard and there are gonna be days in your happy place that aren't as happy and there are probably times you're gonna feel like it sucks. But sucky days aren't going to completely eliminate the possibility of good days. I believe in you and have all of my fingers and toes crossed that this is something that works out in your favor with as few hiccups as possible. The chances of there being no hiccups at all is really slim, but, I am still hoping and praying that things swing in your favor as much as they can.

I needed to hear all this today, thank u 🥰

You’re right, I hadn’t thought of the various resources for heat they’ve got. My previous college program, they were able to move me to nights or early mornings which was nice! I really enjoyed working those. Opening was a joy tbh. Closing was a joy as well.

That is the area - like a 20 mile range from WDW lol. The traffic is something I’m not as worried about because I did it in my programs and lawd my hometown has it worse.

I’m coming from a gentrified medium city on the Eastern seaboard that’s gotten too many incoming tourists for our infrastructure to handle. It’s bumper to bumper from 4:30 to 6 at cross sections because there’s only one or two major routes. Maddening.

You’re right about the airport. My town flies direct to MCO so that’ll be easy. (Just gotta solve the pets for trips back and forth…)

Absolutely, I’m expecting to have to network and work my way up. I’m going to apply for everything when the time is right and see what sticks. My husband will be able to find a job, EZPZ. I’ve got a nice resume and I’m planning to really make my LinkedIn page nice? Try to network on Disney’s alumni website too. See if I can find any work that’s $20+ with them. 🤷🏼‍♀️ If not, I’ll go executive assistant route or try the other theme park or teach. (In Florida? It’s lowest on my list.) Disney has multiple roles for me to use my education degree. Just, like you said, got to get my foot in the door

Thank u kind stranger. This is a large move. And it’s not impossible… But it is life changing. It’s not just me involved. Thinking about how much I love my current job (at the moment) is making me hesitate too. Idk, next years’s students may have me packing my bags.

Our plan is to move at the new year. Professional internships will have started if I need to go that route. I’ll have stayed a semester at my school, we’ll have Christmas goodbyes and enough money saved to pay everything we need to for the move. Just feels right.

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dragon-of-timeless-blue · 5 months

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for the fandom ask game, 1, 7, and 16 please!

HI, Muse!! 🌸 ♡⁠(⁠Ӧ⁠ｖ⁠Ӧ⁠｡⁠)

I think most of the answers will be focused on the free! fandom because it's the one I'm most active in, but I also love most of the fandoms I interact with from time to time.

list 3 positive things about your current fandom(s)

THE PEOPLE!! like, genuinely, today the fandom is not even half as big as it was at its peak, but the ones who have stayed are the coolest and most talented people one can find!!

It might sound weird, but I really love how small the fandom is (compared to when the anime was at its peak), ik it kinda feels like a neighborhood that posts the same posts again and again and we throw love at each other with every new thing that is posted or created (⁠ ⁠◜⁠‿⁠◝⁠ ⁠)⁠♡

THE EVENTS!!! and this is something that I want to thank directly to you, Muse ♡⁠(⁠Ӧ⁠ｖ⁠Ӧ⁠｡⁠), all the rinharu events that you have participated in organizing are incredible and I think they maintain one of the most beautiful aspects of what fandom is truly about.

7. your favorite tropes to read/write/draw

I love everything that has to do with AUs (plus if they are fantasy AUs or other sports), imagining different situations while maintaining the essence of the dynamics is something that I love to explore in reading, the details, references and adaptations of elements is incredibly interesting and fun for me!! (⁠人⁠*⁠´⁠∀⁠｀⁠)⁠｡⁠*ﾟ⁠+

16. a tiny detail in canon that you want more people to appreciate

It may not count as small (because it literally defines one of the key aspects of the series) but, the weight of Haruka's Grandmother impact on his life, like, leaving aside the fact that her words are what define part of his philosophy of life, I feel that it is due to her same influence that Haru takes sayings to heart (if you sneeze it means someone is thinking about you) and that his life follows the calm style of old Japan

How really smart Rin is, like, the guy was able to get into an exchange program to Australia (which I guess is hard to do even more if you're just entering high school), the boy could balance a workout and sports diet and still doing really good un school, I don't remember if it's canon or not that he has an athletic scholarship, but in any case he would surely have one and he works hard to keep it! I feel like it's something that maybe goes overboard sometimes.

#thank u so much for tha ask and for making the list of questions so entertaining and insightful!! (⁠◡⁠ ⁠ω⁠ ⁠◡⁠)#dragon rambles

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humorisstoredinthetits · 2 months

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Heathers Pokemon AU Part 2 (2/?)

I ran out of room lol and I barely made it halfway through one part

Continuing from where I left off

Palafin bc Zero to Hero is Percy's story, and then I chose pokemon with swords kinda and then those which are kinda derpy

Next is Northshore City with the Fairy-Type Leader, Regina George

Her Daddy paid the Pokemon League to have his daughter be the leader

Chandler sees so much of her old self in Regina and knows that she doesn't want to be like that anymore, but its hard to resist it

Her puzzle is to throw a party, because even Pokemon trainers need to have fun sometimes

She actually giggles with delight when she heard this, it beats sitting in the woods by a long shot

She starts to get back into her old habits while planning, bossing around Duke and Mac and being abrasive, even to her own Pokemon which she just swore to be nicer too

Veronica is the one who calls her out on her bullshit and she realizes that she's reverted back into her old self

She apologizes profusely to everyone and throws a party instead for her friends and pokemon, who have helped her and stayed by her side even when she was being a total bitch

She even baked a cake from scratch, which was the first time she ever actually made something for anyone

Regina wanted to fail her (cause like wheres the booze, and who tf likes corn nuts) but the League Officials think its cute so she's forced to pass

Regina's Team: Grimmsnarl, Aromatisse, Shiinotic, Mega Mawile, Clefable, Granbull

I really tried to pick out the most mean looking fairy types, but cmon its the fairy type its mean to be all girly and cute

Next is Arendelle City with the first Double Gym Leaders, being the Fire-Type Leader Anna and the Ice-Type Leader Elsa

Again not really a musical but I like the broadway adaptation so idc

They're sisters, separated when they were young because of an accident involving Elsa's Alolan Vulpix

Elsa became afraid of pokemon for a while because of what they did to her sister, the person she cares most about, but her parents wanted her to become a gym leader, because unlike other towns the Arendelle Gym Leader position is hereditary

So she was forced to face her fears day after day while her parents did nothing to soothe her or reassure her

Eventually they died (not fast enough in Anna's opinion, who was forced to see her sister go through her worst nightmare every day and who was ignored for the most part, on top of not being allowed to see her)

When it came time for her to take the position Elsa ran away only for Anna to chase after her and have a heart to heart

Eventually with her help Elsa was able to let go of her fear and her and Anna took joint custody of the position

(Yeah Ik its similar to Lillie from the anime, no I will not be taking criticism at this time)

Their puzzle is to do an act of True Love, because you need to take care of those that you care about, be they your family, partner(s) or Pokemon

Chandler decides its now or never to invite Veronica into the polycule

With the other Heathers and Gym Leader's help she sets up a date for Veronica under the disguise of it being her gym puzzle

They do everything she loves, they go bookshopping, seeing the sights of Arendelle, visiting Museums and talking to the historians (this makes Chandler want to bang her head against the wall but she perseveres) and eventually she asks Veronica to join

Obviously she says yes bc the Heathers have really shown they're not the bitches she remembers from high school, they've changed and she wants to spend the rest of her life with them blah blah romance

Anna's Team: Arcanine, Talonflame, Coalossal, Mega Blaziken, Salazzle, Ninetales

Elsa's Team: Cryogonal, Froslass, Aurorus, Mega Abomasnow, Baxcalibur, Alolan Ninetales

Most people think this gym is easy bc Anna's fire pokemon set up the sun which will allow them to easily take Elsa out and focus on her but they've developed a strategy where only one half of the field is covered in sun and the other in snow, making any unprepared challenger's strategy fall apart

For their teams, I just picked whatever really lol, besides the Ninetales, I think each of them having one is a cool idea

Finally, they reach Shiz City, home of the final leaders, The Psychic-Type Leader Glinda Upland and the Flying-Type Leader Elphaba Thropp

They're just good friends *wink wink*

Glinda was groomed by "The Wizard", a member of the E4 (Yes they are all manipulative scumbags) into being his representative in the Gym Leader circuit, similar to Jeremy and the SQUIP

Elphaba saw right through this and stopped it dead in its tracks and then they did the kiss

#Gelphie it should have been canon

'The Wizard' is trying to have them removed and has started a smear campaign against Elphaba, making accusations based on her skin (still green) and trying to get back into Glinda's good graces

Their puzzle is to do something good, because generosity is the most important aspect of being a member of society

Chandler struggles for a while trying to think of something she can do

She really wants to make up for her past mistakes, and with Veronica's urging she decided to make up with Martha on behalf of the Heathers and the rest of the student body

Martha is of course, furious and refuses her apology and any number of gifts

Her and Veronica have made up by this point but they're still on thin ice and won't listen when she tries to tell her how they've changed, and it doesn't help that she's started to date the people who used to bully her

Eventually Chandler gives up and says that she doesn't care what Martha thinks, and that she has changed and has made efforts to be a better person and as for Veronica, she finally tells her what actually happened they day they met and the fact that Veronica, who at that point Martha knew hated the Heathers, put herself into harm's way for them, makes her come more in line with Veronica's line of thinking that everyone still has some good in them and she is willing to hear her out

Things aren't great between them still but Martha no longer actively despises them, its a start

Glinda's Team: Hatterene, Xatu, Gothitelle, Mega Gardevoir, Starmie, Delphox

Elphaba's Team: Staraptor, Drifblim, Corviknight, Mega Salamance, Mandibuzz, Crobat

For Glinda I tried to pick out the most witchy, magicky kinda Psychic Types

For Elphaba, the only ones I really put too much though into were Salamance, bc it used to be this Bagon who wanted more than anything to fly kinda like Defying Gravity and Crobat bc its a friendship evo and I would imagine Elphaba is the type to be really loyal and trustworthy with her pokemon

So at this point the plot kicks in and the E4 and Champion, who surprise is Big Bud Dean, head of Team Rocket launch their plan

They use BBD's demolition company front (his 3rd job after being Champion and Team Rocket leader, don't think about it too hard) to try and bomb out land to search for the resting place of legendary pokemon to use to get power

They succeed in finding some and its up to the gang to take them out

Elite 4:

'The Wizard' - Rock Type; Glimmora, Drednaw, Kleavor, Mega Aggron, Gigalith, Terrakion (All of these are shiny besides Terrakion, bc theyre all green shinies, Emerald City)

'The SQUIP' - Poison Type; Seviper, Toxtricity-HK, Revaroom, Mega Venasaur, Sneasler, Pecharunt (Pecharunt is literally the SQUIP, it uses something you injest to take control of you and make it do your will)

Aaron Burr - Dark Type; Umbreon, Zoroark, Hydreigon, Mega Gyarados, Kingambit, Darkrai (Umbreon is a stalling pokemon and Kingmabit is best when used last, like Burr's philosophy of waiting for it, and Hydreigon and Gyarados represent the rage built up in him)

Luke Castellan - Fighting Type; Falinks, Toxicroak, Heracross, Mega Gallade, Sirfetch'd, Marshadow (All kinda have swords)

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Not me running on liquid courage again. 💀🥂

I mean we all know canon toji is an asshole ❤️, but domestic?!?! It just makes you wanna bash a keyboard 😗 like how can you not! It's so fucking frustrating! He IS beautiful indeed its frustrating!

🥺🥺🤧 ahh this response! I know I said thank you already but like 🥺 thank you. I'm happy you found a healthy outlet. It takes a lot to acknowledge when you're not feeling well AND to doing something positive about it, so virtual hug 🤧 bring it in 🫂!

I wish school systems would actually give a fuck and do a better job preparing students for uni (dont we all). Everyone has a different situation but uni will always be there. I mean they want your money loans, right?? Take all the time you need while you're in uni. This is just my experience, but I feel like this is really only one time where you'll have a chance to work on your adult life before it becomes an expectation.

I just miss being a student for leeway at work. 0h and bc I like learning.

Omg I feel you on a personal level. Taking a 18 hour semester and a +50hr job for WHAT!!! In the end, I changed my major when I had 3 more classes until I graduated, so i graduated in 6 years 🙃.

Truly, please be kind to yourself. We only have 1 fucking day in the week to not think about work. I'm channeling my spirit energy to you. I wish you the best! Please take care and stay safe.

(Sorry for any typos)

omg hey!!! howre u!! sorry it took a while for me to respond ahdjwjs

no no bc that’s exactly me!! canon toji was so much of an asshole that i had a hard time writing him being soft and domestic and kind (ie: my first established fic was toji leaving the reader for mamaguro bc ik that man would choose her in any universe </33) but then i was like fuck canon. i want toji who’s in love w the reader; toji who cares for the reader; toji who’s moved on and healed from mamaguro and loving the reader for them and not as mamaguro’s replacement!!!! (most of my fics tend to follow this au)

i remember when i was drafting one of my first fluff fics (not headcanon or drabble), one of my besties told me, “ur projecting.” like maam, do u think i dont know 😭 but yea i wrote my soft toji whose scarred lips are gentle when they kiss the reader because toji is so pretty, we need him being happy with reader!!!!

thank u so much for the hug!! ive been having severe bad weeks and i needed this <3333 hugs you tight too 😚

and absolutely!! my school did ok in preparing us for post-secondary; college did amazing in helping me transition from high school setting and into post-secondary setting; but fuck. uni is a whole different level. can’t catch a break fr like AHHSHSHH

but yes thank u so much for the advice!!! i can absolutely see what u mean. like rn, even if i have work and back-to-back lectures, i still have the opportunities to ask for time-offs to prepare for my midterms and finals and papers which has helped me greatly! the life experience is helping me lots while giving me some form of coddling and ik this wouldnt really last into (greater) adulthood so that kinda sucks :((

and omg u switching majors is nerve-wracking but amazing at the same time!! ik sm of my friends who just suck up with their majors even if theyre fr struggling so im glad that u were able to pursue something more your style. im sorry it took long for u to grad though but still!!! im so happy for uu!!!

and i will be kind to myself, i promiseee!! ive been doing better these past few days and hoping to have more kind days moving forward!

thank you again for this kind mssge! ur words and kindness truly means a lot to me. take care darling, and have a happy and safe drinking 🥹🫶🏼

#grandmasterslickfox #ask #typing ur user is a whole trip; it’s like a shock every time 😭#long post

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bidisaster-peanut-romano · 11 months

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yo can you elaborate of the Mandy/Johnny thing? Ik you've mentioned how both Mandy and Lola try to embody 'feminine ideals' to an extent and how Johnny also tries to seem like a 'man'. would Mandy constrained in the relationship like Lola? Idk but I doubt she'd try to cheat to get Johnny angry like Lola

hey you bestie!!

so unfortuntely i don't know if i have anything in particular???? like. starting from the obvious, you could see them as a reiteration of the classic "bad boy/good girl" trope, and we know how a strong characteristic of bully is taking classic pop culture tropes and turn them around, so. to begin with it is coherent

and then... i don't know, for starters there's the thing that we kind of get the idea that... what does mandy really want? outside of the expectations, outside of the image she's created of herself- where has she hidden her real self?

so at first we can get the idea that her attraction for johnny was kinda a mix of the rivalry with lola plus the taste of something forbidden, you know, falling for the guy you shouldn't come close to; when you have such a strict box placed upon you, there's a special attraction towards what you're not supposed to do.

but on other other hand- johnny is really, really genuine and instinctive with everything he feels and thinks, blunt at the risk of being harsh, sometimes his own feelings too strong even for himself to handle, you know? but at the same time, exactly because of that, the partner he really needs to be okay is someone he knows he can trust, someone he can be safe with. someone that he can leave on their own and he can be sure that they're not betraying his trust in any way. lola is not that, for example. he's with lola because she keeps the storm going, because no matter how hard he bites, she will bite harder, and they're not quitters; that's why they stay together, not because they make each other good.

so, i don't know, they begin with very different positions from each other. but at the same time, i do believe that when they grow closer, they both might find the stability and the safety they both need, y'know? mandy knowing that she can let go of the expectations and do not care about how good she's performing her part for a second, johnny knowing that mandy is safe with him and relies on him and she truly does, that she is committed to the relationship and in having him at his best but at his worst too. and when johnny disrespects her in any way her standing up for herself instead of like. seeking revenge. and letting johnny hopefully unpack and unlearn some of that misogyny. and in general both of them being able to put down their defenses and just be human and vulnerable with each other. and ow they'd both see this other side of each other, this johnny who wants to take care of her and he can be attentive and protective but in a healthy way, and how mandy finds out how it is to really put her heart into something she loves + being loved and and and. there's a lot to unpack really idek how else to put it

they have some nice growth they could go together imo and i think they're criminally underestimated

#i don't get how they are soo ignored generally??? like ive seen it sometimes but it is rare and it pains me #odyanswers #canis canem edit #bully scholarship edition #johnny vincent #mandy wiles

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sage-writing18 · 2 years

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kai parker- x male reader

warning ⚠️: including oral male sex receiving and giving, anal sex, erection

**BACKROUND: in this universe kai is not a serial killer but a witch and your collage roommate and you are also a witch**

you walk into your door room to see kai sleeping on his bed.

kai wake up you say as you shake him. KAI.

what. his responds. what tf was that last night. you say wydm he says.

WHAT DO I MEAN???

you locked me out and not only thst put a barrier spell on the door. you say

i know i know i’m sorry y/n he says

i had to sleep on a community coach and had to cast a invisibly spell on myself so no one would bother me. you say

oh shit really

you nod your head yes

oh i’m so sorry. i just figured you stay at bons and cares. i just needed the room i haven’t gotten any yk in a while and wanted both bed. kai says

it’s okay ig i hope it was wroth it and where did u even get the magic to cast a spell you ask

well i might of maybe siphoned you at lunch…

KAI

ik ik im so sorry he responds

and to answer your other no it was not worth she just talked about her ex the whole time “he was a jerk” “ he hated all my friends” blah blah blah. kai said

oh… well i’m sorry u didn’t get any you say you say

yeah u and me both kai responds

well do u want to play some xbox

sure. he says with delight

*30 minutes go buy and the game is over*

you look over and see kai adjusting his dick

woah are u hard rn…

yes he said

um..you say baffled

i’m sorry it’s just im so horny kai says

it’s okay!!! it’s happens. jsut go in the car or something and take care of it you offer

see i would but it’s storming out and there he says

shit your right. okay this one time you can do it in here . i’ll put in my headphones and u can go to town you say.omg thank you so much

you out in your earbuds and causally look over. you see him mouth something

what was that you say as you take out your earbud

i said like what your see he says giggling

um you say nervously

i’m just busting your balls y/n. come here i’m not shy

this is my pride and joy i call him little k

all 8 inches

8 INCHES you say surprised

yes, kai says

you look over that his computer to see he’s watching porn and start to get hard

looks like u need to jerk off too come on whip it out. kai says

well if u insist

you whip it out and start to jerk off

*a few minutes later*

you see he’s getting kinda bored

in a bold move a start jerking him off him responds in a positive way he start to moan

thank you. i really needed this

u bend down to put it in your mouth

wow!!! i’ll let you do this but this doesn’t mean i’m gay or anything

it’s okay just let me

u can do anything u want

he start to lick his huge cock

he lets out a small moan, fuck he says

with lick y/n goes down deeper every time

he starts to control your head

making you go down deeper to stop having a hard time to breath. your so good kai reply’s

do you think we can do some stuff with the ass. kai asked shyly

ofc don’t worry i’m clean :). you say

you pull down your jean and pull down your dark blue Calvin Klein underwear.

put bend down into the doggie style you feel a warm chill on your hole it’s kai mouth

you began going faster and eating the fuck out your ass yo u began moan very loud.

don’t stop fuck dont stop you say

kai takes his mouth away and lines his dick up with your hole.

your hoping he’s goes gentle. but you are wrong

he slams his cock into you he fuck you so hard

you so close to cub you come all his sheets

he continues to fuck you so hard.

i’m about to cum he says

cum in me pls daddy you reply he cums his load into you. you both lay next to each other with his arm around yours thank you, i really needed that. kia says. no problem anytime you say. you both fall asleep in each other arms

#tvdu #tvd smut #kai parker #kai parker smut

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top 5 confidants/social links??? or 10 if youre up for it ...

thank you!!!!!! :3

oh my god i wrote a whole, long ass answer explaining why i positions each one where it was but tumblr just. disappeared it. somehow. hate it here. asjdkfhg i'm gonna shorten things very much please imagine there is a whole paragraph for each one :(

also! i haven't gotten very far into any of p3's social links unfortunately so i'm doing just p5 and p4!

10. ok ik she's very hated, the abilities you get kinda suck, and that it has some creepy moments. but. ohya's confidant is good ok. i like how it's connected to the main story directly it's so cool!

9. maruki tbh lol. i just like the good vibes and discussions about human psyche and pain bc it's just stuff i really am interested in irl askdjgh so like maruki in general very easily keeps me invested even when the rank ups are more mundane

8. iwai!!!!!! i tend to forget his confidant often bc on new saves it's super hard to start and on ng+ i always leave it for later bc i don't need its abilities, but it's genuinely a really good one, story wise! i love kaoru and the dynamic between joker and him, i like how iwai basically adopts joker too, and the climax is very satisfying to watch!

7. yosuke! i'm ngl i don't like most of the IT's social links, but yosuke's (and maybe kanji's) makes up for that. it stays interesting and emotionally investing enough throughout and has an excellent climax (i just wish it had the original climax too lol)

6. shinya! son boy allowed. dare i even say encouraged. i don't have much to say without writing a new paragraph tbh i just love him a lot

5. shu! he's like shinya to me but a bit more tightly wrapped, if that makes sense? like shinya dips into other topics here and there while shu's stays more grounded, in a sense, so i like it more!

4. nanako 🥺🥺🥺🥺 (and to an extent, dojima, bc they're p much connected). can you tell i love persona kids. i wanna adopt them all

3. sojiro!!!!!!!!!!! i forgive the game for soft locking me from continuing it for a few months and making me waste time slots in my first playthrough bc the emotional payoff is def worth it 🥺

2. gonna be surprising here and say mishima. it's just extremely well written imo, probably the best one in that regard

goro!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! specifically the royal one, ofc. you may ask "hey if mishima's confidant is the best written one then why is goro first" bc it's FUN i like going on dates with my special little detective and also it really is just Good Vibes all around but especially when he threatens to kill me. also it's goro i can't just not put him first smh

also honorable mentions bc i feel bad for not including them at all but i love their stories a lot: yumi, kou, ryuji, yusuke and hifumi!

PHEW ALRIGHT THIS ENDED UP LONG ANYWAY ASKDJFHG but i hope you like my takes uwu

send some top 5/top 10 asks!

#long post #tumblr pls don't delete that one too

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skinni-girls-eat-books · 13 days

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Sunday, April 14th, 2024! Pt 2 (one day NC 🥳)

10:03am: I went back and reread some posts from earlier in the week and remembered that I was doing really good! I think last night was a one off and a little step backwards, but nothing that can't be overcome again. Things happen. People disappoint us and let us down, doesn't mean we have to become hard and cold to the world.

I'm gonna stay positive and know that

1) fake positivity does turn into real positivity after a while 2) positivity attracts people, friends and that's what I would like.

Stay positive! Definitely still process your trauma, but there's so much good in life! Like that awesome feeling when you have a good day with someone new ❤️ I guess I understand wanting to start fresh with someone because it's exciting! Plus be confident knowing that you were never the problem and omg there's so many guys out there that want a chance with you, honestly things will probably get better with age.

Don't be like the boss, a whole ass pharmacist going back n forth with someone beneath him, petty drama, stress and emotional turmoil. I don't want that life, it's bad for your physical body. When I think about the positive feelings I've been having for about the past two weeks, the tension lifts from my body. I have so much to look forward to. And I can't control anyone else's actions, I can only control my actions and my emotions and how I react to things.

This door closing is just opening up a bunch new ones :) and what one man won't do, another man will ❤️ let's work on me so I can find my forever guy ❤️

I love you

6:53pm: Got home from work and I'm bleeding like crazy. Longest month of my life. New homie sounded like he was gonna come over but I think he chickened out? Lmao that's crazy 😂 Had a nice day at work, ranted to the boss and it helped me a lot. He told me to make a pros and cons list and I said that con side would look crazy 🤣 he said he does the same thing and it helps him, also he said the no contact thing is helping him a lot PLUS this man is wildin OUT like every night is a bachelor party or something and I want to be like him haha. So crazy tho he's just like yeah and then I might get back with his gf after a few months like ???? Guys are insane lmao.

Weirdest thing I have thought about today is how prude he* is. 🤔 I really don't have to explain myself but like, he has the two biggest ho friends I've ever seen and acts like I'm just supposed to be some untouchable angel is WACK. Tbh I wouldn't get back together with him for that alone, it's a major rift in our morals. He thinks he/ his friends can just do whatever but then judges girls for doing the same? Icky, double standard ass mf 🤢 this man belongs in the looney bin after last night. Weird ass said he hopes the guy I end up with has wack dick and he hopes nobody is better than him 🤣 who tf says that

I literally had to lie to this man on facetime so he wouldn't have a meltdown if I told him what I really did, getting piped in our bed by a great guy 😂 crazyyyyy flex bro, but yeah keep doing it in y'all's parents house 🥴 literally just gave me icky goosebumps thinking about that.

Who cares lol I'm glad that part of my life is over. I'm tired of looking stupid tbh. Hesitant to do a # days no contact tracker on here because ik it can be counterintuitive to think about him technically, but shit I already think about him anyway, so I think it'll be a good idea to *try* and if it sucks I'll stop.

1:10am: Going to sleep now, didn't do anything after work today but that's ok :) had yogurt and cereal for dinner and both cats are on my bed ❤️ Spent too much time on my phone but it's ok, too. I think I'm gonna do a beginning of the day and end of the day, then I can kinda track triggers that make me want to reach out to him. Ik it's stress but also ik this will help. Distractions are great, but I want better distractions than just being on my phone lol.

Goals for tomorrow: Last OSCE! Study for exam! Study MOA! I know you hate it but that doesn't matter right now, you gotta grind before you party 🎉 Study for Jesse McCartney ❤️ He doesn't want you to fail your exam 😂

Goodnight, I love you so much I hope you had a good Sunday. I'm listening to crime podcasts while I fall asleep, something I couldn't do with you here lol. Perks of being a bachelorette 🤪 Hella peaceful and everything is easy going.

Day 1 NC complete! ❤️🥳

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