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masckarlach · 7 months

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OC questions tag meme!

THANK U USER FRAY @bg3 FOR TAGGING ME!!

i will be doing only wren bc ill be so honest theyre the only bitch ive developed

under cut :3

Name:

wren!! chose virtue name harmony but doesnt use it bc she thinks its cringe (subject to change throughout game, not Quite sure)

Nickname(s):

tavernkeeps tend to call them birdie or little bird :p other than that, their older sister calls them spots a lot (due to her little boney growths along their forehead and cheeks)

Gender:

wren doesnt think about gender much other than their chest is a nuisance. they dont think abt it in the sense that being a woman isnt something they necessarily like. see themself as similarly with being a man itslike. nonbinary by virtue of genuinely just not percieving themself and not wnating to

Star sign:

copypasting frays explanation here!! im not so good at lore stuff so my answer will be... off!

this is a little difficult because realms lore has changed on this a lot, if i'm correct in my information. from people being blessed by stars or entire consellations to each month actually having a sign in more recent lore. here is a link anyone doing this for realms ocs (like bg3 ocs) can use to figure this out! the lore on stars and consellations in the realms is spotty at best, but this could be helpful if you wanna go that route!

wren was born at the end of marpenoth, a few days from the start of uktar :3 their sign is praying mantis but i dont know what this means

Height:

just wanted to show wrenlach height giff :3

Orientation:

wren themself isnt too sure of this. theyre pretty sure theyre not into men but they like... havent really explored much outside of flirting with everyone they meet. they dont know but i do. trheyre a nonbinary lesbian.

Nationality/Ethnicity:

wrens an Unspecified Tiefling with a human mother born and raised and living pre Worm Abduction in the lower city of baldurs gate

Favourite fruit:

wren likes apples and pears :3 they think they taste like sand but they like the taste of sand

Favourite season:

wren likes whenever its not too hot and not too cold and not too windy and not too polleny. consitution (8) of a sheltered victorian noble child

Favourite flower:

wren likes potato flowers :3 theyve always been more of a herb person than a flower person truth be told

Favourite scent:

freshly baked bread. when its still soft. a little luxury she afforded herself once in a while whilst in baldurs gate, occasionally given as payment for a days work. wren likes the smell of bread.

Coffee, tea, or hot chocolate:

given the lack of monster energies in faerun lets go coffee. she thinks it tastes like pee pee and poo poo but shotguns it bc it makes her buzz

Average hours of sleep:

anywhere between 1 and 24 hours. roll a dice baby.

Dog or cat person:

wrens an equal opportunities animal enjoyer. dogs maybe. bc wren likes birds and cats keep killing her friends

Dream trip:

wren would like to stay home tbh. adventuring has made them grow as a person bc if they had their way theydve stayed curled up with the artifact in an abandoned house theyd found

Favourite fictional character:

the mermaid from the mermaid smut book wyll, wylls dad and shart have read.

Number of blankets they sleep with:

ideally every blanket in existence. they can make do with 1, maybe even none but they will complain abt being cold and the lack of pressure

Random fact:

wren bites their fingers so her hands are always chapped and bleeding

TAGS!!!!!!!!!!

@bigfatlesbian @oyyokat @orkbutch @lesbianshadowheart @atomicbouquet-heart and anyone else who wants 2 :p

#oc: wren #sorry if this is contradictory or anything that just adds to wrens character. everything isay is canon even when it contradicts other thign #ive said are canon.

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guavabat · 10 months

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i honestly think i might be lesbian but i feel like i won't know for sure until im in a Situation with a man and i can examine how i feel about it

i know a lot of lesbians know they're lesbian without ever having been with a man but personally when i fantasize about being in a relationship it's always with a man and never really with a woman even though i am attracted to women. but when i think about it in real world terms, like a man trying to initiate sex with me or even just trying to flirt with me i feel really disgusted by the idea. so idk

ive never really had crushes on real men it's always been celebrities or fictional characters. the only time ive ever had a crush on a real life guy was an older boy in one of my classes when i was 14 and even though i guess i liked him i also felt super anxious and violated whenever i was around him. meanwhile ive had several crushes on girls and im way more confident with them

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oni-tengu · 2 years

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DONT REBLOG

ive basically had my ask box open for months so feel free to send requests but i got a booster today & my shit hurted (arm is sore) so im gonna chill tonight maybe. idk.

aaaaanyway, status aside, i just. man. those asks this morning LMAO ive had to just say shit before (ie getting inc*st shippers in my notifs) & clarify im not down with this shit, so.

i just need to talk, and if you disagree with the following, have any issues at all, question the legitimacy of things listed below, just do me a favor & block. i wont be responding to any potential distaste for anything i talk about, but here's some shit i am against and feel vital to clarify. so you know where i lie and that this blog has no space for awful things, its become unfortunately very important to state certain....things. long post

cw / tw for mature topics in mention (AGAINST the following) : p*dophilia inc*st gr**ming

firstly, the topic of inc*st. hard no, this ALSO goes for anything involving minors in any sexual context, minors with adults in an unreasonable age gap (lets just say the limit is 18 y/o with a 20 y/o as acceptable and i generally avoid thinking about people under 20 anyhow bc im 23 and ive lost relatability with people that much younger than me)

why? the idea that fiction does not affect reality is just something i dont agree with. fiction needs criticism, yes, but having things portraying p*do and inc*st in a sexually gratifying light contributes to brainwashing & grooming, and ive seen it firsthand because i was on homestuck tumblr in 2012 when i was 13 years old and it was NORMALIZED. it was a case of community grooming and it FUCKING WORKED. i feel grateful that i was able to see past it when i got older but it was DANGEROUS and theres a plethora of horror stories of kids at cons & meetups being actively groomed and put into harmful situations in real life. this is just a fact, this all happened, i witnessed it firsthand, and i have friends that were right there with me.

placing the blame on minors and victims is not the response anyone should have. saying to "think critically" about the media a person consumes when someone is being actively harmed by the topics above, is harmful in itself. it is not on the victims to "know better" when they are being groomed, just because it seems easy for others, when this is an active, real life issue. and honestly, fuck you so hard if you disagree with that, or that its not even "real"

i truly have such a hard time believing that people honestly defend literal fucking p*dophilia online under the guise of "its harmless fiction". i think people who agree with that are perpetrating this propaganda, brainwashing, and the minors who think its okay HAVE been brainwashed and they dont even know it. they vehemently defend it, and most people in the REAL WORLD would be horrified and disgusted by this, even afraid for these teens and preteens. i certainly am!

moving on to the next point of discussion, i think sexualities and genders should be respected! youd think this is an obvious one, but hey look, last night someone wanted me to draw dirk strider in a romantic ship with a woman. this goes for fiction and real life, sexuality and gender matter & should be respected. ill be honest, theres some microlabels and identities i dont always understand, but people finding comfort in things, figuring stuff out, its usually just something you should let be, and i try to. i dont believe harassment is the answer & i'd go out of my way to defend someone with an identity i dont understand, if theyre being bullied! as long as youre not being offensive or harmful, this is a safe area for yall

i.e. trans men are men, trans women are women. i've had my own identity questioned since i identify with being nonbinary/agender and a lesbian at the same time, and to me and many others in the community, this makes sense, but to others it clearly does not. as long as youre not encroaching on communities that are not for you, your identity should be respected, and i am determined to reflect that in my creations as well.

to wrap this up, hoping i got the more "controversial" things out of the way, i want to point out that there are nuances to every social topic. i was not born with knowledge of all things, and every year im learning about stereotypes ive never heard of, history that belongs to communities im not a part of! so, i want to say that if im unconsciously adding to or portraying some offensive thing, itd be important to me to be made aware. morals & empathy are two things i care about very deeply and if theres something i should know, then i'd at least LIKE to know.

if theres another social topic that matters to you enough that you want to know where i stand so you can feel comfortable in who you follow, i'd be open to questions. but to reiterate: any bullshit about disagreeing with me, any hate, etc will not be responded to & will be met with a VERY adorable block (: so cute when that block button is utilized. feel free to use it tbh

so. there we are. showing my whole ass here. morality matters and im sticking to my guns

TL:DR

i hate inc*st and p*dophilia, fiction affects reality, non harmful identities should be respected, tell me if i fuck up.

#text post #rant #tw #cw #long post

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hirokiyuu · 1 year

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semi related. 99% of times im the kind of lesbian who cant even find fictional men attractive but i saw older rex and went holy SHIT out loud so like. one (1) dogboy allowed

#im sitting here staring at this post trying to remember other fictional men i find attractive #and struggling #the............. astronomer club side npc from ffxiv (elezen one) i remember thinking was hot but.............. squinting #LITERALLY IVE BEEN SITTING HERE W/THIS TEXTPOST OPEN FOR LIKE........ FIVE MINTUES #THAT MIGHT BE IT? HELLO?#hi guys. im a lesbian. in case you missed it #personal

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homebody-nobody · 2 years

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WIP game!

tagged by @largedenominationsplease

Rules: post the names of all the files in your WIP folder regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them and then post a little snippet of it or tell them something about it! And then tag as many people as you have wips. I have deemed that this isn’t just for writing either. Sketch titles? Comics? DnD campaigns? If you have an unfinished project, it counts!!

okay so here's the thing. I've been using my google drive to write original fic and fanfiction since I was fifteen, so. This is gonna be lawwwwng.

FANFICTION

outer banks

Engineering School AU notes home(where your heart is set in stone) home outline Jiara AUs Jiara week JJ's Lesbian Older Sister Meta katie's bday smut sincerity is scary outline the Parcels of Tannyhill

bellarke

"I got a dog" (She Returned) More Broken than Before All These Words I've Heard Before An Unexpected Guest Begginings of wicken fic (YOIKES) Bellarke fwp Bits and Pieces and To Be Used Clarke's Greek Pantheon Photography project Dancing in the dark devil's backbone - the civil wars domestic!bellarke bc im trash fire and stone (and a swingin trombone) Hot Boys and Indie Music (Make for a Pretty Great Summer) I have to tell you these flowers are for a dead person I'm Hers and She is Mine Library AU Library crush - bellarke fic more 30 minute fictions with the best friend Museum!Bellamy Rebel!Clarke hs au Silent Warrior, Screaming Youth SingleDad!Bellamy so go ahead and make your mark on me so go ahead and make your mark on me (REWRITE) Soulmate Words sweeter than sugar (colder than ice) the Bellamy Thing when the door sings closed you held my hand (and called me darling)

fleeting hyperfixations

beth x benny bones OC jatp college au jerin shoni fic ideas WayHaught Z nation

Percy Jackson

PJO lesbian Athena thing Solangelo??

Star Wars

Jyndor Lex and Gage

Voltron

klance high school AU shallura dancer au cause i have no self control Voltron Voltron AU#1 Young - The Chainsmokers

ORIGINAL WRITING

DnD

Cadogan Druhaven

other

A writer in venice throws his typewriter out the window one day Ace and Arthur Apparently sleep hates me Ari and Mel Band story Blacksmith Boy Brett and Nia Calliope and Wren long Castor and Pollux Chance and Ezra Denim and leather; Fire and ice Draconic Novice Draconic Novice Notes Dystopian society Elias and Charlie Ellie and Aaron Escape For Ryn's Birthday happy lesbians Henry, Tial, and Ellia Honos et Veritas I don't know what this was supposed to be but it was gay Isabelle the Ghost Whisperer Kira and Nell Kisae Dwellden Kyto and Petr Mark and Joanna start Men of the Moors Modern Magick modern magick Development Journey Modern Magick Trilogy Plot Outline Modern Magick Worldbuilding Modern Magick: Fire Modern Magick: Water Morgan and the Witch's son Nell doesn't look like a mafia princess Notes-Draconic Novice Paige and Katie Parker and Rae pirates story quarantine podcast Reece tells Kai that Jason is alive and he starts to cry Richard and Gabrielle? Runaway Mage Sign language zombie killers Some of Us Alive Stub The first thing he notices about her is her left hand The Four Suits the hill that grew the lindstrom sisters (bank robbers) the Rider General this is sad This wasn't where he wanted to be vegas motorcycle gang Vyvinuly wars beyond men wars beyond men rewrite (? third person ?) When War Comes white-Collar Trash wolves

so yeah there's a lot lol

tagging: @jojameswinter @a92vm @jiaraisinthegoodplace @smileymikey and whoever else wants to!!

#wip game #ask game #long post

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jajankenen · 1 month

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these r like the best ways to describe my gender and me.. robogender.. silly and fun loving thing. no gender just me... loving and kind.. :3 emoticon

been thinking about my gender and pronouns a lot lately (again.) being trans is cool but also like. how do you explain that you are just a silly roboguy to other cis people.. its hard enough explaining nonbinaryisms but idk if people would understand my agenderisms...

im like that asexual drake meme HELP

like .. just recently having the revelation of "oh wow. i dont think i like being associated with well.. any gender at all. wait. thats agender?" well i guess it can be nonbinary which is what i currently am but its like.. a broader gender term for me. im still trans obviously but also asexuality has a pretty big impact on my agenderism which is still kind of a new thing for me too. i still have doubts of whether or not im actually ace like. its society pressures and also my own stupid mind doubting everything about me. like im comfortable with reading and interacting with fictional stuff but irl? i think id rather die. do not come near me at all..

romance was always kind of confusing for me too like when i was younger all my friends were like whos ur crush and i just picked the male classmate who was sometimes nice to me bc we liked anime and thought. uhh is this a crush. ??? IS IT?? I DONT THINK IT IS KUNI... or like when all my friends would just talk about romancr and dating and making dating profiles and everything i was like. this is so fucking boring! can we talk about anime?? why are you guys talking for 30 minutes about a date that its so boring.. why do you care so much about what another guy thinks? its so funny looking back at this now like dude i was so uncomfortable with any mention of romance bc i thoughti was gay not ace. and then i flash forward im in hs like oh im lesbian bc i think men are scaryy wahh im gonna be honest i think being lesbian was so bad for me like it was crazy i still cant believe i ever was so like. fully believing into the idea that i was so feminine or at the least not trans. because i always knew i was like the "tomboy" or like not a girly girl but i just cannot not see myself as trans now. loop back to my original ideas.

also me being autistic has so much to do with my agender and asexuality being. crazy. call me quadruple a autistic agender asexual aromantic.????

ok well idk if im aromantic actually like i really tried hard to think about it. if i was in an irl real person romantic relationship would i really like it? i dont know.. have i just not met anyone i like? because im really ok with being alone like im so content and happy with me right now. but i know for a fact my parents/peers/relatives are gonna start asking me if im dating anyone because im turning older soon dude ughh... and im gonna have to keep deflecting it like. hahahahah no. or dude theyre gonna think im gay or smth AUYGHAGGASUWGHSSUGSHHH . my dad asked me. he said just tell me do you like boys or girls. like 3 months ago he asked me this and i just straight up said i dont know maybe guys idk i dont want to date anyone! and he just sighed and walked away. well ok.

love this. just robot gender loser silly blue thing.. no dick no balls. just platonic vibes.

#kuni rambles

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dilftheory · 3 months

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welcome to the dilf-zone. . ݁𖦹₊ ⊹

my name is zel! i am a 19 year old black lesbian from the south (🤠) with a passion for dilfs that never left even after i came out!

here you will find me talking about old men (obviously), fanfictions (both rpf and fictional), and other random stuff. i dont like fanfiction discourse. either you follow me and dont care or just find someone else. rpf is such a nuanced conversation and im not here to indulge in arguments.

i'm not really an exclusionist and i dont have a dni, except no bigotry and no pro-israel warriors. additionally, i don't really ship in community besides jeffbritta and trobed—and i'm a duncan selfshipper, if anyone cares :p

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"you actually find [insert dilf] attractive?"

yes! i actually like old men!

"what classifies as a dilf in your opinion?"

honestly, it depends. i say a lot that some of the men i see people post as "dilfs" dont even look like dilfs tbh, but for me, i think a true dilf in his prime is like early 60s, this is mainly because these are the type of dilfs i like but i always have exceptions.

"why do you find yourself attracted to old men? aren't you a lesbian? doesn't that make you bi?"

these dilfs that i like are celebrities, unobtainable men, some even literal characters from shows and movies. all this stems from my comphet, which i struggled with all my life. i am proudly a lesbian, and came out in 2022. i have had this label for over a year now, i wouldn't trade it for the world. argue with ya momma. (also... i like older women. lol. this blog is just for dilfs.)

when i am less lazy there will be a tagging system. thanks guys!!

#pinned intro #pinned post

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clulessmess · 2 years

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...ive been debatin n hesitatin on making this post for a while now... so much that I’m makin this too late dghlsdhk, the month is over!!

might delete this soon, sorry i rlly went off here this shits like dictionary length long

Ok... Confession time

So a while back, when I was 14, I used to ID as asexual

But like around 15 or so I took it back bc suddenly a Memory appeared: I suddenly remembered I did actually experience sexual attraction before.

But recently I remember having this convo with a somebody, I think I told them abt the time I used to ID as asexual n was thinkin abt those umbrella terms/the acespec,(bc back in the days I used to ID as ace I was occasionally browsing through ace coming out comics, aceblr, n this one ace forum, so I was kind of aware of the ace umbrella/the acespec) n they went more into detail about the umbrella and like asexuality in general. And tbh... I think that conversation rlly had me have a double take on it. For starters, I still don’t think I’m 100% asexual, but I think 15 yr old me mistook my libidio as me experiencing sexual attraction. Maybe I’m more grey-ace? But Im also still rlly hesitant like, publically letting it b known Im ace, let alone considering myself LGBT+.

Bc heres how I feel I’m probably grey-ace:

Firstly, The resurfaced memory that initially made 15 yr old me think I was no longer ace was my veeerrry first Awakening. Back in that aforementioned convo I had with someone abt asexuality, I mentioned this and they said asexuality is less being horny and more do you actually want to fuck someone. And know that I think abt it, that definitely was the situation regarding my First Awakening. Like yes, I did acknowledge theyre hot yeah, but I never wanted to do anything with em. I was just turned on by the situation. And that continues to be a thing.

Like nowadays, I do look at p0rn, and time and time again, I’ve yet to ever feel anything specifically towards the person being l3wd3d, just towards whats happening to them.

Secondly, I have also considered the possibility that maybe I was just an allo lesbian who just had a boy phase. Bc I’ve had crushes before, all of which were boys n men, but,,,My First Awakening were of 2 women (the girls from PASWG rlly got me feelin a certain way Down There dshgh). And looking back on those crushes,,, all of them were in some way unobtainable (most fictional and 2 real but older than me and nowhere near where I lived), and I had these crushes when I was young, from 9 yrs old to 12, maybe 13 yrs.

and the p0rn i’m looking at rn? well I can get off to p0rn of men but im ssuuuuuuper picky abt it. But women? Much easier, in fact, most of the p0rn I’m looking at is usually of women. But then I thought, maybe instead Im an allo bi with a heavy preference for girls? Bc Looking back on those crushes,,, sure I was super young, but I think they were real. Like I felt that inexplicable, fluttery, lovely feeling when thinking about them, fantasized about kissing them, having a life with them and enjoying it,,,,im p sure thats one of the tell tale signs of being romantically into someone at least. And My First Awakening, im p sure that was happening at or at least near the same time I was in my boy crushing phase.

But heres the thing... if i were to assume I were an allo lesbian or allo bi girl... Im p sure im supposed to not only feel sexual arousal(?) from girls but also romantic attraction for them right?

Welp, its been 11 yrs or so since my Awakening, I still haven’t felt anything romantic about a woman, real or fictional. And again, question mark regarding sexual arousal, bc yes, most of the p0rn i look at usually focuses on women and them being s3xy but I never rlly feel anything abt the women. I never rlly wanted to fuck the women themselves. I tried even! I tried imagining myself having s3x with women and I just wasnt feeling it.

And tbh.. same goes for men. Like as far as I know,, my attraction to them rlly only is romantic (and sensual bc i do wanna kiss em,,). I have gotten off to l3wd pics of dudes before, but I didnt feel anything towards them either. Seeing any kind p0rn of ppl having s3x, I never imagine myself as either party, I just get off to them fucking I guess.

so... im probably just a grey-ace het cis girl? More specifically... maybe Aegosexual? When I told this person,,, basically what I pointlessly rambled here, they showed me this link, which seems to fit my situation so perfectly.

So u can probably understand why im hesitatin on this. Like... this is technically just means im a cishet girl who just dont wanna fuck. If anyone is actually still reading I can practically feel u rolling ur eyes rn askjhsdf “ooooooo so u made me read a fucking bible length ramble abt u being basically a cishettie u must feel sooooo special being such a pure wholesome chaste Woman who doesnt dare want to have s3x uwu, ure sooo not like the other hoebags!” maybe even “oooo u wanna be part of the alphabet soup soooo bad dont u? u even used a microlabel, thats just rich lmao!!” and yknow what? u might be right. I remember when initially finding the label I think I did have a bit of prudish tendencies? Or maybe I am right abt being an allo wlw and my first crush on a girl will happen soon n im just a late bloomer but idk... out of all the other labels I’ve considered.. this one feels so right? Like just when I thought asexuality was just an old label I used bc I was so uptight abt sex n stuff I remember coming across an ace positivity post on twitter, saying something along the lines of “shout out to queer straight people! transhets, ace hets, aro hets, you are still queer!” I actually felt...seen? Happy even I remember someone making snide remarks about the cake thing (yknow the old tradition here on ace tumblr to say “why have sex when i can eat cake” < btw we should change that to “why eat cake (the ass) when i can eat cake (the food)”), saying that its a sign of “childishness” or whatever to make jokes abt not liking sex and feeling so personally hurt and super fucking pissed about it. idk.. maybe this is just a stupid ramble...it didnt come out like i wanted at all,, but eh, at least its out happy late pride

#delete later #namii finally speaks #not a vent btw #tw sex mention

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thebonejunky · 2 years

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I think im going to start interacting wayyyy less with young lgbt spaces on the internet. Im not bullying these teens, i am one of them, but theres an insane difference between 15 year olds on tumblr and gay twt and gay people in real life. Real people dont have this horribly stupid discourse. The real lgbt community doesn't constantly fight each other like they do on here. Finding lgbt friends in real life, talking to older gay people, educating myself on lgbt movements in the 80s and 90s, its really made me feel so much more connected to our history and our struggles and what it means to be apart of this community. I think these chronically online anime pfp gays just don't interact with the outside world enough to truly know what its like.

You won't walk into a lesbian bar and find them fighting about which flag to use! You won't go to a pride parade and see people arguing over a fictional characters sexuality. You won't see punk bulldyke lesbians or old gay men who lived through the aids crisis or transgender teens forced to couch-surf constantly worrying over what terms they use and who might possibly be offended.

Being on these online lgbt spaces has stopped feeling excepting and connecting. Its tiring. It makes you angry when you don't need to be. Its full of policing and rigidness and boxes and those are the exact things we've always fought against!! It genuinely bums me out so much. I dont want to be apart of this, i dont even want to here about it. the lesbian flag/dyke discourse was really my last straw. I hope one day this part of the community is able to heal.

#if you go back through my blog the last couple of weaks you can watch my slow deacent into madness #today something made me finally reach my tipping point #lesbian #gay #lgbt #lgbt community

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heirloommtomatoes · 2 years

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honestly kind of embarrassingly obsessed w kaladin after finishing rhythm of war ... i’m his silly rabbit ...

#does he call me that. no.#kaladin #ellie reads #him and declan are my fictional poor little meow meow men #what is it with lesbians and their fictional poor little meow meow men ...#the being obsessed with fictional men as a child to being a lesbian pipeline ...#my bisexual kings ...#there is no way kal isnt bi i'm sorry u cannot convince me otherwise #declan is effectively textually canonically bi to me tbh #leaning over the hood of an older mans mercedes??? hello.#sanderson just writes comphet TOO well w/ kaladin. also kaladin is literally textually attracted to adolin im sorry #he literally is. he monologues for full pages about how attractive adolin is like...hello #regardless whether u like them tgt or not kaladin literally canonically attracted to adolin as far as im concerned #doesnt have to be in a way that he wants to or would act upon but certainly showcases his bisexuality if nothing else

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nothorses · 2 years

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hello! i was just wondering, since you seem to be the Knowledgeable Trans Guy: do you know of any books/documentaries/etc that talk about transmasc history? because i consider myself pretty educated about a lot of queer stuff (its my special interest) but for that... i'm at a loss. it's nowhere. and it hurts, cause im transmasc and can barely find my own people in history. thanks in advance and have a good day!

There's not a whole lot out there, which is part of the problem- we're often erased as passed off as "masculine women", lesbians, "women pretending to be men for social privilege", etc. Or, even when recognized as who we are, our contributions to history tend to be downplayed, diminished, or outright ignored.

That said, there's definitely some great content out there if you know where to look!

I really recommend Leslie Feinburg's work- zie was transmasc, and tends to include transmascs in hir work because of it. Stone Butch Blues is available as a free PDF on hir website, and it's a cornerstone of queer literature. Transgender Warriors is the less narrative, more historical counterpart to SBB, and includes some specific transmasc history (the chapter on Jone of Arc is legitimately life-changing tbh).

Becoming a Visible Man is on my reading list; I haven't gotten around to it yet, but I've heard great things.

@transgentleman-luke has also keeps a Google Drive folder full of trans literature, which has a wealth of transmasc resources as well!

And a further list of miscellaneous historical transmasc content:

Second Son by Ryan Sallans, a memoir of a trans man's transition experience.

Shinjuku Boys, a documentary about trans men in Japan.

James Barry (1789-1865), surgeon Inspector General in the British Army and the first to perform a C-section where both mother and child survived.

Lou Sullivan (1951-1991), an author and activist known for his work on trans men. You can read his work here.

Lou Sullivan: Daring to be a Man Among Men, by Brice D. Smith, documents Lou's life and work.

Sir Ewan Forbes (1912-1991), a Scottish son of a baron who's gender assignment became a point of legal contention when the baronetcy was up to be inherited by him.

Bill Smith (1886-1975), an Australian jockey (cw: misgendering)

Pillar of the Community, about James Howe- an early UK trans man.

The First Female Husband, about Charles Hamilton- another early UK trans man.

Successful Trans Men (Part 2) (Part 3), a list compiled of successful trans men (mostly modern, but significant!)

Gabriel, 1839, an extended play about what would likely be described as a bigender or genderfluid AFAB person in modern terms.

Mini Beau Book, Flow, by Luke Austin, a photo series on trans men.

To Survive on This Shore, by Jess T. Dugan and Vanessa Fabbre, a series of photos and interviews with older trans people. Features a good deal of transmascs.

(FICTION) Confessions of the Fox by Jodie Rosenburg, a historical fiction novel about a trans man discovering lost writings about a historical transmasc.

(FICTION) Yentl, a play about a Jewish person defying gender roles. Not explicitly transmasc, but described as having "transmasc vibes".

#transmasc #trans men #ftm #trans #transgender #transmasculine #queer history #lgbtq history #trans history

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olderthannetfic · 3 years

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hi hi history-non again, sorry I know it's a very

ahem wide and girthy ahem

ask, and i'm sorry for not narrowing it down farther my brain is smooth as butter and the dart board, so to speak, is. big. i feel like im throwing my dart in the ocean of 'what i don't know' and trying to spear a fish who might speak to me like the queer elder i never ha d ;lkasjd;flkas damn you small conservative town ANYWAYS

i guess okay maybe do you have any favourite figureheads? whats your fave pieces of lgbtqa+ media (like books or shows?)

thanks again and sorry for.

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big.

Lolololol. Yes.... it’s so... big...

In the 90s, the writers of nonfiction who I found really inspirational were Susie Bright and Kate Bornstein. My Gender Workbook was a classic. I gather there’s a new edition.

I was a massive, massive nerd, so my actual favorite queer book as a 14-year-old is one that will be a bit... uh... much if you’re not feeling very intellectual. It’s Third Sex, Third Gender: Beyond Sexual Dimorphism in Culture and History. This thing is a massive doorstop of a book that collects academic journal articles on third gender roles from various cultures. I was obsessed with this thing. Again, it’s academic journal articles, not popular nonfiction, so expect that level of impenetrable prose.

I was also a giant weeb, so I read a bunch of books on the history of gay sex in Japan. It’s pretty interesting how much people assume the “m/m sex = sin” shit was worldwide and how much it just was not.

In terms of fiction, I’ve always struggled to find f/f media I relate to. I really like the tv adaptations of Fingersmith and Tipping the Velvet. Lots of fucked up problematicness and gorgeous visuals. Gotta love the lady with the strap-on and the gold body paint!

For other queer media, I was a big fan of Velvet Goldmine and of Pedro Almodóvar’s older films, which are full of every problematic kink you can think of. They also have a lot of het I like, like the lady being coerced into sex (that she enjoys) by the drag queen who impersonates her famous mother she has a lot of mommy issues about... except said drag queen is really an undercover police officer. Just... whut. (All the “straight” stuff in Almodóvar’s films is also bugfuck nuts and often kind of queer.)

I really, really, really loved Crash. Not the shitty one that won an oscar: the car crash perverts one full of weird UST. There’s a ton of straight sex in this too, along with every gender combo and a laundry list of upsetting kinks. It’s just every kind of weird perv thing. (”Weird art film full of sex and problematicness” is pretty much the defining feature of movies I liked as a teen. I loved Kissed, that het necrophilia movie too.)

Stage Beauty is probably my favorite film for bi vibes. It’s this meditation on identity as the English stage was changing over from having men play women to having actual actresses. It ends in f/m, but it’s definitely a very queer film.

If you want slice of life stuff, I guess you could try Dykes to Watch Out For (the comic that’s the source of the bechdel test) or the Tales of the City novel series. These will both give you a sense of what was going on in certain queer communities in the late 20thC. If you want something relatively fluffy, Maurice is a historical costume drama with a happy ending. I found it awfully slow as a college student, but it does have naked Rupert Graves (Lestrade from Sherlock), so...

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See, this is hard to answer because I came of age and did all of my reading of that kind a long time ago. I pretty quickly moved on to fangirl media, which I have always liked a lot better than other arguably queer stuff. Back in the 90s, that meant Japanese stuff and fic. Later, I had access to more flavors of by-fujoshi-for-fujoshi media.

So my actual favorite m/m books are a bunch of “m/m romance” (i.e. American BL being sold as ebooks on amazon). If you want live action TV and fandomy vibes, you’re better off with Trapped (hot cop/mobster action!) or one of those Thai series about schoolboys or something than stuff made by cis gay men in the US.

I also came of age in an era when “queer” media was very Cis Gay Men And Sometimes Cis Lesbians with an occasional nod to bi people existing... maybe. Kate Bornstein and a few others were raising the profile of MtF transsexuals (the term in use at the time) who wanted surgery or even, gasp, maybe didn’t want bottom surgery in some cases. Anything about FtMs or nb/agender/etc. identities was practically invisible. I saw the term ‘genderqueer’ around a bit, but it was mostly in contexts that were very tryhard and unappealing to me.

(You haven’t given any details, but I’m going to go out on a limb and guess you’re like much of tumblr and the flavors of queerness you relate to aren’t so much the Cis Gay Men Only culture that makes up quite a bit of queer history and older queer media.)

I can tell you what I liked as a teen, but not everybody is into fucked up art films that may not have happy endings. I can try to rec things about queer culture in the 90s, but I probably don’t have great recs for way earlier or later than that... unless it’s so much earlier that I’ve researched it while writing fic of some historical canon or other. A lot of how I learned about queer culture myself was from magazines or from reading soc.bi on usenet or just from living through the 90s--not typically from books that are easy to unearth and just hand to someone now.

I tend to just not like anything in the contemporary romance or slice of life genres, regardless of gender and orientation, so while I’ve watched/read a bit more queer stuff like this, especially in the past when I had less access to queer media, it’s not a space I’m great at reccing in. And that’s unfortunate because a lot of that type of art gives you a better sense of what other queer people were like in other eras and/or it’s a safer rec than some bananas crazy BDSM film.

I was, and am, very kinky (though pretty lazy in terms of actual practice), so a lot of my reading and media interest was bound up in that also. Obviously, I was quite interested in the drawings of Tom of Finland or the photography of Robert Mapplethorpe, but are you going to be into photos of some guy shoving a whip handle in his ass? I love the movie Cruising... it’s about serial killers and leather and homophobia and is every bit as potentially traumatizing as that sounds.

I feel you on the problem of finding queer elders. There isn’t really an obvious way to go about this.

#queer history #queer media #Anonymous

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luminous-shifting-vibes · 3 years

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*sequel* to actual fucking quotes from the shiftblr coffeehouse discord server

once again, it's out of context because x1000 funnier

also x1000 longer than previous post

"ur satan is gnc af"

"Bestie I’m already having gender envy over a fucking demon please"

"O_O ODEPIJHFbavevisdpvfhzdcnjawedsidjksjdkoeirjfmkdsoeirujdksodifjndmksoidfjdksidfj ITS" NOT IN MY FRAFTS IS SPEDNT 1 hour PN THAT SHIT"

"AUGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH"

"ohoho sexy"

"I am very proud of myself"

"himbo x edgy fuck"

"YOU COULD SQUISH HES CHEECKS"

"he has teefs"

"SQUASH"

"good for biting 📷"

"he's a himbo basically"

"B͂̒̄iͫ̍̈tͧ̓ͯè̄̇"

"bifth"

"i havent watched blue exorcist in years but mr okumura my beloved </3"

"MY LIFE QUESTIONS HAVE BEEN ANSWERED"

"is it important information to mention that the person i put up for my turn is the son of satan" "I know like 1 thing about everyone who isnt ranboo lmfao"

"crimes"

"tumblr sexyman"

"idk why but my first thought was cowboy onceler"

"I vibe with him but he is very long and twisty"

"steampunk e-girl"

"steampunk tumblr sexyman"

"Canonically bi crimelord I agree!!"

"OOO FRIEND SHAPED"

"ARTIST SIGHTED"

"they look like someone i would want to be friends with but is way cooler than me so i'd never actually talk to them"

"babby..... would die for him"

"honestly i probably kin him"

"i'm sure he's lovely but he looks way too much like my ex i'm sorry-"

"i'd be down for another rotation! i have another twink to show y'all"

"Also :00 blonde friend"

"Let us all infodhmo"

"Hsjagdvbs shhh im on phone"

"Nix woukd you like to joon?

"skitters away"

"I have two braincells and they both drink dumb bitch juice"

"oof wait whats the order again i have 0 memory"

"i want to bond with him over cosplay-"

"Awkwardly watches in band kid"

"One day I'm gonna a broadway star"

"which isnt to say they were bad. they were just fortnite dancing during rehersals"

"I threw it so hard my glasses flew off and slid under the stage right divider"

"anyway heres my boi"

"emo"

"haha emo"

"virgil sanders kinnie"

"he looks like he listens to my chemical panic at the fallout boy"

"Bro I bet he'd kick my ass with his deck"

"bird man my beloved"

"fuck i had so much to say and then i forgot it all"

"Birds!!"

"guiguhuh"

"crabrave"

"She sounds like someone I would end up stealing her personality"

"yess name collector gang"

"alias glass aiden haven absinthe fish brick rice"

"But I have Cypress, Remure, Genesis, Lemres, and Comet"

"And she's named after a mars candy bar bc alien"

"Hey, if plato went by plato, you can be king thief"

"im not dissing my gramma like that shfojd"

"My dad has seven legal names" "bitches be like *looks at fictional character* *steals their name* it's us we're bithces"

"coraline lowkey traumatized me but i adore it regardless"

"mmmmmm magic man :]"

"°0° green man"

"criminal (affectionate)"

"he would shoplift a candy bar from walmart and then brag to all of his friends about the sick stealing he did"

"despite the fact he's canonically been capable of overpowering a minor deity"

"i would commit so many crimes for him"

"Very babey"

"Yes please tell green man he is very pog"

"he also keeps a lot of dumb secrets"

"but I will sorely miss the chaos and energy of this here chat until I wake again" (by request XD)

"i just say words and if they're funny then they're funny"

"* or extremly chaotic either works"

"at this point we are just taking turns rambling"

"oH--"

"bc my brain has a schedule"

"Hopefully they have gyoza there or I will lose my mind"

"hehe yes spooky man"

"my ghost glucose guardian"

"the head of the undead group that lives there, and we end up dating. (yes I date a ghost, no I will not be taking constructive criticism /lh)"

"ghosts r just inherently sexy"

"i mean im becoming a squid thing so"

"Raven quirk raven quirk!!"

"ł â m p"

"łæmp"

"mothman: ooh lamp you look very nice today! do you come here often? mothman: wait shit no"

"I'd date a ghost"

"mine is still accurate, i am still sobbing (/j)"

"p e e p e e"

""@nick wilde is a tumblr sexyman" is the best thing i have ever seen"

"im sorry im cackling like a dying hyena"

"you're all 12 year olds"

"PEENIE"

"He once caused global warming on accident so he could get a tan"

"god, what a himbo. i love him"

"that reminds me of my friends kin assigned me jesus"

"Man outside of battle be like: princely crying but then in battle hes like: "CATACLYSM! DISASTER! DEVASTATION!" Chill out man"

"Every time I talk about satan it never fails to shock people it's my favorite thing to do"

"im kin assigning him roman sanders" ""Oh yeah he caused global warming because he wanted to get girls" "he what""

"oh damn i forgot satan was straight"

"twink appreciation club"

"give us the twinks"

"my first thought was bottom-"

"so many people to try and get his dad to love him"

"daddy issued"

"OH MY GOD ITS WILBUR"

"Big boy but"

"anyways janus is swagggg"

"........................."

"gib twink"

"give twink then i will share"

"holds him gentle like hamburger"

"This dumb bitch opened a book that said "do not open" and got possessed by a little bastard"

"he is. fragile creachur"

"klug is beauty klug is grace i would let him step on my face"

"If I'm playing swap and I have to hear one more "Pwanet Powew" Im gonna lose it"

"Who is to blame? Pandora or the box?"

"Bakugo isnt my type but I respect the drip"

"i say like my type isnt long-haired pretty boys and girls that look so gnc that people have a history of confusing them for men"

"hes a gremlin and i can appreciate a pretty gremlin"

"that is to say i am attracted to VFlower vocaloid. This is a confession."

"note i am a lesbian"

"You may like Schezo wegey"

"why does he have one single expression"

"soul soul eater passes the vibe check"

"magic wand"

"I Want To Hold His Hand"

"i would commit a war crime for him any war crime idc which one"

"my favorite one is when he sounded rlly gay because he said "Muscular bodies keep me satisfied""

"p e a n u t"

"Klug is a homophobic homosexual its just facts"

"grug from the croods is peak male performance"

"jaw drops to floor, eyes pop out of sockets accompanied by trumpets, heart beats out of chest, awooga awooga sound effect, pulls chain on train whistle that has appeared next to head as steam blows out, slams fists on table, rattling any plates, bowls or silverware, whistles loudly, fireworks shoot from top of head, pants loudly as tongue hangs out of mouth, wipes comically large bead of sweat from forehead, clears throat, straightens tie, combs hair Ahem, you look very lovely."

"tag yourself im the fireworks shooting from the top of the head"

"i like essays"

"central time gang"

"11:11 pog-" (wait... is that a suprise angel number?? yes it is lovelies just for you <3)

"Then again im also a dumbass bitch who wonders what the souls in soul eater taste like. SERIOUSLY THOUGH. THEY LOOK TASTY AS HELL!!!! LIKE GODDAMN BRO YOU'RE MAKING ME FUCKING HUNGRY. Like. that shit- it's Bone Apple motherfucking Teeth. hell yea my guy. Im hongy now.... shlorp I'm seriously considering this. Like. They seem kinda like a liquid? But a solid? Are they like jello? The fuck they taste like my guy???? I keep imagining they're like sour, like sour candy maybe? Or do they taste salty? Sweet? Maybe some combo of two? Do they even have a taste or is it about the texture? The sensation? God my mouth is watering what the hell. I am starving. I think I need to go get a cookie. I'm gonna go get a cookie. Brb. I'm better. I'm still craving souls though. Which is a weird-ass cringey thing to say but I'm being dead-ass rn. They just.... look tasty???? And I wanna eat one. Thus. I am shifting to Soul Eater for the express purpose of satisfying my fucking cravings. enjoy"

"points were made"

"jello? more like helloooo schloooAHFJDSDAIDWNALDHSJKDAIDANDM"

"WAIT I THINK I HAVE AN ANIME GIRL BITING VIDEO TOO"

"anime girl voice: mmm! mm... ahhhhmp!! mmm, mmm... aaahmp!"

"i think it sounds great i'm going to start eating like that"

"several people are typing"

"do these look edible to you"

"forbidden gummies"

"when I was on lsd I couldn't eat my fruit gummies because I thought they were alive because they had little faces on them"

"oh shit yeah don't do drugs"

"anyways general consensus is puyos are edible, ty for your input everyone"

"everypony is a word so powerful it can bring nations to its knees"

"pls the self control it's taking me not to say "hewwo everypony" in gen chat when someone new joins-"

"hewwo evewrypony uwu deaw cewestia i hopwe it doewsnt wain owo"

"ive cooked up a sowution wiwth the knowwege ive acwued. they say a kitcwen time saves niwne, but im just savwing two. Ive gathewwed the inwedients to make a time sowbet. Thewe's hawdly woom fow seconds when the seconds mewt away."

"I had a ten year old sister... you know what happened to her??? very sad, very tragic... she turned eleven....."

"NIIICE"

"Guts dont say the secks word :( /j"

"watch your fucking language in front of the president"

"im so sorry lumi"

"i think you're like ehhhh 8/10 funny"

"now me???? 10/10. Hilarious"

"sometimes i have to take a step back and remember that this is the same guts i follow on tumblr /lh"

""ok every here's some good shifting advice!!! uwu have a good day" "yeah i did lsd and ate fruit gummies""

"i have one setting and it's whatever this is"

"my bitch ass cat just pushed the door open with his fuzzy face and now my sleeping dad is being lulled into dreams by Cosmo Sheldrake's 'Pliocine'."

"me on discord: nick wilde"

"me on tumblr: shifting water! haha funne! me on here: my hermit crabs are cannibals also i want to eat souls."

"im sorry yOUR VIBESA RE JUST SO DIFFERNT"

"u give off older cousin ive never spoken to but always admire at the family gatherings vibes"

"what the fuck"

"BC I HAVE LIBERTU"

"If you adopt me then yes"

"am I qualified for dad jokes???"

"we're all a lot smarter on tumblr"

"I'm like "awww... sweet... sweet little shiftlings... posting such sweet shiftling content... so pure, so wholesome... does not even know abcs....""

"can't think before you speak if you never think B)"

"I'm not responsible enough to be a mom"

"cat pet"

"show us pictures of the cat or i will do Crime"

"maybe thats me being a coward tho"

"MOTH!!!! MOTH MY BELOVED"

if y'all want I can make this a series bc shiftblr keeps giving me more content

#tw drugs #tw swearing #tw cannibalism #tw crime #tw food #tw homophobia #shitpost #out of context #out of context quotes #lumi's quotes

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becca-e-barnes · 3 years

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hi this is lesbian nonnie! i know y’all already covered this but to the person asking if they can be straight and still be attracted to fictional women the answer is YES!

i don’t know exactly how you’re feeling but i do understand your confusion! i’ve felt it so many times before baby, just on the other side of the spectrum ;) often times lesbians are attracted to fictional and unattainable men: movie/book/tv characters, celebrities, people way out of their age range, professors, older family friend, random hot guy i saw in a coffee shop who gave me a free hot chocolate…you get the point! The reason we feel this way is for that very reason, they are unattainable! like as much as i can fantasize about it i know i will never go on a date with chris evans! that’s what makes it fun, i can imagine myself in those scenarios while also understanding it will never happen and i won’t ever actually have to be in those situations with a man! And i know your situation is pretty different but hopefully that can help your perspective a bit :)

You can also TOTALLY be sexually attracted to some women & not romantically at all. You can identify as straight and still find women hot/sexy/beautiful/kissable/fuckable…you get the point! sexuality is fluid and a spectrum and it’s totally okay to still be figuring yourself out!

i have some days where i question myself, and my sexuality. questioning doesn’t make you any less valid! and who knows, maybe someday i will meet the perfect guy and fall in love with him, but even that won’t make the way i identify now any less valid! I’m 19 for christ sake i’ve got my whole life ahead of me!

The saying “it’s just a phase” is so harmful for so many reasons. 1) it can be extremely invalidating to queer people!!! 2) even if it is a phase, who the fuck cares? how are people suppose to figure themselves out if they don’t experiment and try out different labels? if you know you’re hetero-romantic but think you might be bi-sexual that’s totally and completely valid! don’t let anyone tell you that it’s not.

sexuality and gender is a spectrum. experimenting is healthy. don’t feel pressure to use labels. and if you do like using labels, don’t feel bad if you want to change them later!!

hell i went from identifying as straight to identifying as bi to identifying as pan then going back to thinking i was straight then bi again then thinking i was non binary and bisexual and now im pretty sure i know i’m a lesbian who just wants to bang traumatized fictional characters and go out with chris evans! :D

bottom line it takes awhile to understand your identity, no one is born knowing who they are it takes a long ass time to get there. even if it seems like everyone else has got it figured out, i promise you they don’t. you’re not alone baby!

sorry for the long rant i’m procrastinating and also love talking about this kind of stuff! peace out y’all! 🧁🤍🕊🍾🎧

I literally don’t even have a single thing I can add to this, it was all perfect!! Thank you lesbian nonnie! 😘

#asks answered <3 #lesbian nonnie #I hope this helps!!#totally agree with everything you said #this was spot on #so like #what else can I say lmao

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