#im just so sad

[ssaseaprince]

I want to just rewatch this movie over and over again, but the amount of fanfiction between my ship is so minimal that it's putting me off from rewatching it

#“you were fine before you found fanfiction” #i was fine as a baby before i ate solid food too but that doesnt mean i want to go back to that #i have rewatched this movie probably 50+ times so its not like ill never watch it again #im just so sad #wtffff 😭😭😭 #being apart of a small fandom is genuinely so cursed #“just write your own” at this point im considering it #fanfiction #fanfic #ao3 #ao3 fanfic #archives of our own #fanfiction.net #wattpad #otp #i guess i can see this as preperation for when I run out of fanfic between my popular ships #i think ill have to be institutionalized when that happens

[soliel-et-lune]

spoken word poetry is a religion and my gods are blythe baird, phil kaye, andrea gibson, sabrina benaim, kait rokowski, olivia gatwood and most other performers on button poetry. i love and respect them so much. fuck concerts if i ever get to see these people performing in person i’d cry so hard i love them so much of course they’re on youtube and here are some of my favourites on spotify

#just listened to my grandmothers ballroom by phil kaye and im crying so hard #i miss her more than i’d even like to admit and it’s so hard #im just so sad #andrea gibson’s the day you died because you wanted to #and relapse by blythe baird #sabrina benhaim’s how to fold a memory. #god im so #there was this one called tropical depression idk who it’s by #and this one called eat your heart out was so powerful like i start shaking at the thought of it #and rachel wiley’s poetry about being the fat girl is just *screams into a pillow* #man whatever i want to be as great as them someday #button poetry #figments

[yunaleskakresnik]

Good lord what I would give to just feel normal for once in my life

#bpd #actually bpd #borderline personality disorder #bipolar #bordipolar #personal #text #im just so sad

[miopet]

no one in my family tried to talk to me today, and every year it really hurts. it's so hard.

#talk tag #i sent an email to my siblings but theyre overwhelmed w stuff at home i think. i think its probably really rough this year #im just so sad

[grlfriends]

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#im so jealous of friends spending their holidays with their loving families and loving partners it's not healthy it's not normal #im happy for them but im so jealous i wish that could be me too i wish i could have experiences like that too i wish to be happy #and im i such a bad person to deserve no family no friends no anything ever and if that's the case how can i know such good ppl #like it just doesnt make sense to me i wish to have traditions to have a supporting network and it's not that i dont itsjust im not the #priority and im tired of being sick jealous of happy ppl im just so sick of basically only evrr talking to my mom i hate it so much #im just so sad #g.txt

[strawberry-finches]

CHARLESSS

#FUCK #god fucking forbid he have a good race #im just so sad #f1

[coffeeandsnark]

The one thing no one really tells you about is how lonely it is to be an adult.

That you will just lose all your friends one way or another;

men,

moving to a new job,

poor texting skills,

being the one who has to plan everything.

Just slowly drifting away.

#adulting #growing up sucks #im just so sad #and so lonely #and tired of everything

[mysteriouslysound]

"I have drowned in my sins, repented for my misgivings and prayed until daylight for seven years but nothing has been given. My lungs scar with burns etched with your name and I do not know how to make it go away."

Signed,

KB

#poetry #original poetry #my own work #new poets on tumblr #poem #ptsd #trauma #religious trauma #sh #grief #im just so sad #mental health

[purpleflyingoat]

If this is what it feels like to know someone is dying, I don’t want to actual grief. I can’t survive this now. He won’t make it and neither will I.

#grief #fathers dying #im just so sad

[minibaba]

something so evil abt attending mental health treatment as a requisite for receiving disability benefits bc theres just no way to meaningfully consent to discussing incredibly private and awful things and refusing to go along with unhelpful and harmful treatments is proof of not needing help. u have to be humiliated and just keep asking for more

#my psychiatrist just told me that thinking covid is harmful is an opinion #and that taking precautions against catching it is a sign of mental illness #im just so sad

[peterthepark]

People are still out here fighting for their lives to defend b*lly and saying Eddie was boring smh. He was an angel who never hurt anyone

#im just so sad #reign talks #love letters 💌 #stranger things spoilers

[smallerlovelier]

I wish people understood how easy it is for someone to relapse. You dont even have to say anything cruel and itll happen.

I was 10 and grandma told me I gained weight. All I did was hit puberty and my shape filled out. Suddenly i was wrapping myself with plastic wrap at night and spending hours exercising.

Mom said she had a scale I could use(unprompted) freshman year and I weighed myself and couldnt eat more than 1000cals for a few days. Then a few weeks. then a month or so. Why does a 14 year old need to weigh herself.

Sophomore year a boy told me Im attractive but I'd be prettier if I lost weight around my face. I went four days without eating and collapsed taking a shower at 3am and had to eat a banana on the floor of my kitchen at 4am because I couldnt stand anymore. I just had baby fat. I broke down in class because I had to eat a singular graham cracker.

Junior year a pro-ana account messaged me asking what the tag "e" meant on a picture of a girls outfit. It was just an outfit my character whose name started with an e would wear. I looked at their account and relapsed immediately.

Senior year I just saw a skinny girl and I relapsed. That was it. I saw a girl and I relapsed. The second time I relapsed senior year was because the girl I was Talking to called a girl skinnier than me pretty.

I am a freshman in college and relapsed because a guy who never saw my body said "I thought you wanted to be skinny" because I ate a bagel. That day I went from 3 meals to 2, then the same week I weighed myself bc of him at a fucking Petco(cant own my own scale) on their dog scale and now I'm restricting and trying to have under 500 cals a day. I plan to walk an hour to that Petco next week to weigh myself again.

Nearly a decade and it's all been random things. A sentence, mentioning a trigger, a skinny girl. Some of these weren't the other person's fault, I cannot blame a skinny girl for existing. I cannot blame my mom for owning a scale. I cannot blame petco for owning a damn scale. But holy shit theyve all ruined me beyond belief and between every one of these relapses, I truly truly believed I was recovered and never going back. Evidently I did not☹

#bonnie thinks #tw edd #an4 vent #ed vent #im just so sad #for 10 year old me for 14 year old me for 15 year old me etc etc

[goalkepa]

“I wish I could be more helpful”

brb crying again.

#thiago has done so much for us just like TT #to see them fulfill cl dreams was the bestest thing #im just so sad

[miwtual]

just finished midnight mass what the fuck

#kai.txt #im just so SAD

[emmadoodlewrites]

Just got hit with the “I’m not mad just disappointed” card /hj. Can I ask what some of Ranboo’s fans are doing?

discourse under the cut

Basically, Ranboo's fanbase on Twitter were rather mean to Dream when he came out as unlabeled queer, but when Ranboo did the same they showed nothing but support. Dream's fanbase has been attempting to call them out on it but people haven't been listening since the gate for dream is too big. There's been many threads showing screenshots of large bootwt accounts being homophobic

Last night Ranboo made a joke tweet that he "cured" homophobia, all while his fanbase has been incredibly homophobic to Dream, so people quoted his tweet to call him out on it. Now of course I agree there's not a lot Ranboo can do, just like Dream can't do anything about harassment, but when Ranboo saw everything the next morning, he made a rather tone deaf reply just saying he's allowed to make gay jokes, and completely disregarded what his fans have been doing. It's just a sad situation :( No hate to Ranboo btw, I'm sure this is difficult to deal with

Also this is just hearsay, but apparently there was also a bootwt account that posted a fake screenshot of Dream saying he was straight, which was taken down very quickly. I don't know for sure if it's true since obviously people don't want fake info spread, but that's also something going on with Ranboo's fanbase.

If anyone want links or screenshots of threads or Ranboo's reply just dm me

#tw discourse #as a part of both fandoms #im just so sad