#im losing it so much

[autism-corner]

mephistoteles is so underrated. his little gay ass has so much potential

#i know & understand why hes like the lowest point of interest but... #let the disabled man be appreciated okay #anti-lucifer potentials... #hes such an evil guy(tm) #i just see him and i only recognize a man that needs to be objectified #i have actually read all of the main story so i know im right #hes the only real look we have at mid-tier demons and its so interesting... #+ this guy doesnt care (yet) about mc so were getting even more unfiltered shit #we had the same stuff in the early lessons with everyone but the brothers have changed so much... #mephisto is still a pure unsoftened-for-humans demon and theres so much to say about him #omg #im talking nonsense again but you understand me right #obey me mephistopheles #obey me #i need to stop saying so much shit in the tags... use the actual post dumbass (talking to myself) #im losing it so much #god ive started being intersted in mephi ive really lost it #help /j #sillyposting

[qiinamii]

"Xiao does things" (and friends) twitter log part 2

-- UPDATE: removed some of the arts to make its own individual post since I am bad at organizing, sorry! (but the last one is new lol) xD

#the last part and im so close to finishing up posting everything on twitter!! sorry for not answering the asks as of late though #been busy as usual #hard to believe i drew this much silly xiaos over a year #i think he deserves a little more fun with other ppl he trust either friends or strangers #not just solace and peace #qiiarts #xiao #lumine #traveler #paimon #zhongli #ganyu #fischl #kaveh #MEHRAK #oz #THE LAST TWO GETS ME LOSING IT its based on a design dynamic meme back in twt and i love the sheer energy the op portrayed them #draw ur wacko pairs like this #i couldve made the music xiao-lumine-venti-kazuha art and the pant jakt one a separate post but i got lazy BUT #ill try to post the separate one anyways so there Will be two of them (or ill delete them from the this log) #great organizing

[starvingtillpretty-ana]

Starving so I don't have to worry about him picking me up.

#girl interrupted #th1gh g@p #i wanna be tiny #th1n$pø #tw ed but not sheeran #body ch3ck #thinspø #thin$po #i need to lose so much weight #i wanna lose weight #4nor3xia #4norexla #tw thinspi #starv1ng #starv3 #starvibg #im starvin

[inkskinned]

he says i hate everyone except you and that is addictive and that is kind of romantic and beautiful because you're young and you're kind of a sarcastic asshole too and you don't like bad boys, per say, but you don't really like good ones either. and you like that you were the exception, it felt like winning.

except life is not a romance book, and he was kind of being honest. he doesn't learn to be nice to your friends. he only tolerates your family. you have to beg him to come with you to birthday parties, he complains the whole time. you want to go on a date but - people are often there, wherever you're going. he's just so angry. about everything, is the thing. in the romance book, doesn't he eventually soften? can't you teach him, through your own sense of whimsy and comfort?

at first - you know introverts often need smaller friend groups, and honestly, you're fine staying at home too. you like the small, tidy life you occupy. you're not going to punish him for his personality type.

except: he really does hate everyone but you. which means he doesn't get along with his therapist. which means he has no one to talk to except for you. which means you take care of him constantly, since he otherwise has no one. which means you sometimes have to apologize for him. which means he keeps you home from seeing your friends because he hates them. you're the single exception.

about a decade from this experience, you'll type into google: how to know if a relationship is codependent.

he wraps an arm around you. i hate everyone except you. these days, you're learning what he's actually confessing is i have very little practice being kind.

#i used to think it was romantic too and then i was like. now i see it as a HUGE red flag #writeblr #it is also almost EXCLUSIVELY said by immature ppl who think this is normal #fyi even if u think it's funny and ur like 'im an introvert it's just TRUE' like. you need therapy (ily tho) #healed introversion is just ''i would prefer to be by myself'' not ''i hate every person'' ... hate is not normal. that is not healthy #im sorry. i know it feels accurate. but if you're walking around with that kind of rage.... #1. you're making a LOT of assumptions about every single person u have ever met. which is often unfair and unkind #and also usually involves judging people based on their worst moments or little mistakes #2. you are being unfair to the person who is ur ''exception'' #3. there is a VAST difference between ''ur my favorite person'' and ''the ONLY person i like.'' #idk i think this is just a personal bias thing tbh #im sure there are people who have this experience normally #but i have YET to find a man who thinks like this and ISNT absolute DOGSHIT. although tbh.... like. im sure he exists #when u hit like 30 some of the things that were once kind of hot now just sound fucking exhausting. like ''im in a band'' #edit in the tags: i used to kind of be like this too. but the thing is that like. my life became so much more peaceful #once i started believing that people are generally good. like yes i am mad at the world at large #but it's just.... a very hard way to live. you're not a bad person or wrong for the ways other people hurt you and taught you to be angry. #but that anger will continue to hurt YOU. it will punish YOU. it will prevent YOU from making new deep connections. it will protect you yes #but it will also cause MASSIVE blowback. bc if you lose the One Person... your life will fall apart. i know this personally. #i really recommend just trying to be... cautiously optimistic instead. like. yes #people can be horrible and cruel and there are some communities (incels for example) that aren't worth that optimism #but i think like... most people will hold a door for you . most people want to help you find your wallet . #i hope one day you are able to find peace. i hope that rage eventually smooths over. i know how hard it is PERSONALLY #and i know what must have happened to you. and im deeply deeply sorry we share the same wound. #but i promise - sometimes we all need someone else to help us carry the weight. eventually the rage has to die so that we can let help in #i had to spend years biting at outstretched hands. i still often do. im still very wary . and my heart breaks that you flinch too. #here's the thing: i don't blame you. but we were both acting out of fear and pain. .... not out of healthy behavior. and ... change #was needed. i needed change too. rage was useful for a while. then it just left me isolated and bitter. i had to (with effort) #choose to let that rage go. and let people in . VERY SLOWLY THO LOL

[raepliica]

tristamp post-S1 mashwood sillies and tri98(?) merylwood :]

#trigun #trigun stampede #tristamp #trigun 1998 #trigun 98 #vash the stampede #nicholas d. wolfwood #meryl stryfe #mashwood #merylwood #stryfewood #the comfort of mashwood spending days together without much happening. just eventless days together #also i know i know meryl and ww barely interact in '98 but #who cares when i can just put two of my fav characters together like playing with dolls #after the fifth moon incident ww trying to leave w/o a word to go look for vash #and meryl having none of his shit bc she already lost sight of one of them so shes not about to lose the other one #*SLAPS VW AND MW* THESE BITCHES CAN STORE SO MUCH UNSPOKEN THINGS #i also just really like ww getting flustered and manhandled by a three-apples-tall woman #merylwood is yuri to me. im not explaining #my art #raepliica_art

[obsob]

oooooooooough i love you i love you i love you!!!! hand in loving hand !!!!!!

#mine #cats #i was like losing it over th colouring yesterday like this SUCKS and then looked at it 2day n was like. anyway #ive been unstoppable since ive figured out how 2 do glowy things #me n my partner went ice skating this evening !! so so fun #i love how girls will just peacefully hang out in the centre ice doing spins n boys will fast and furious skate around at 100mph #like we dont need to be doing all that #as soon as i see a boy w hockey skates enter the ice i am now leaving the ice #anyway....i got a slightly dubious fantasy audiobook 2day we will....see...how it is #whenever i read a fantasy book written by a man my hackles are up i am scenting the air i am growling #have i finished assassins fate u ask.....no :3 #its been sitting at 30% for like 4 months i cant bring myself 2 read more KJBDSSK #there is like so much book left. so much that can go wrong #i will finish it soon i prommy i prommy...n then listen 2 th tawny man audiobooks :3 #ngl this fitz n fool trilogy isnt super doing it 4 me im not finding it as Invigorating for sm reason #still good !! but def my least fave of th three trilogies #anyway. i am going 2 bed

[leosmiserables]

the doctor and rose are WILD because what do you MEAN she became bad wolf and almost died purely out of love for him? what do you MEAN he saved her with a kiss, an act of love? and died because of it? smiling at her and telling her that she was fantastic? and that ten then was MADE out of love for her???? what do you MEAN

#doctor who #tenrose #ninerose #timepetals #there’s so much love between them all the time it makes me sick #everything they do they do for eachother #im losing it

[bread-that-draws]

Flowey’s so funny and has me so fucked up like he’s a talking flower. He tries to kill you upon your first interaction. He is ten years old. He is damaged beyond repair. He’s a flower named Flowey. He’s become friends with every single character. He’s killed all of them countless times. He knows everything about everyone. He doesn’t care anymore. He takes care of his mom when she can’t take care of herself. He’s killed her before. He doesn’t care if you kill her. He thinks she’s trying to replace him. He just wants to be himself again. He wants to destroy everything. He hates you. You’re the only one who understands him. He wants his best friend back. He’s terrified of them. He believes in kill or be killed because he died by giving mercy to the wrong person. He believes himself to be the wrong person. He doesn’t understand when you show him that kindness he showed others, even when you know he could kill you for it. He’s tried every route. He asks you if you have anything better to do when you try to do the same. He’s a direct reflection of the player. He’s a fucking talking flower named flowey and his only voice line is by Ronald McDonald and his officially licensed plush does a little dance for you

#‘Flowey would listen to i bet on losing dogs by Mitski and cry until he throws up and Chara calls him cringe from beyond the grave’ #-me to my friend when I ranted about this last night #he has me so fucked up like oh my god #how is the best character a fucking talking flower #I love undertale’s writing so much like it’s mastered minimal evidence giving away the biggest parts of characters #i can analyze him i can study him under a microscope #i can put him in a terrarium with a sticky note that says gay baby jail you know #he has me SO fucked up #flowey #flowey the flower #asriel #asriel dreemurr #I’m talking about flowey btw not asriel i know they’re the same person but not to me #like how i consider little baby me and fucked up 13 year old me different people #asriel sits on the playground and cries when nobody wants to play warrior cats with him #and flowey sits in the back of classrooms and answers ‘life is MEANINGLESS’ to every question #not speaking from experience ofc (im lying) #love my edgy flower *puts a magnifying glass up to him and notes how fucked up he is* #i think more characters need to be fucked up beyond repair #undertale #utdr #character analysis

[lucabyte]

Taking pride in One's own appearance.

#you people are becoming my guinea pigs for my finally learning how to communicate information via comics. a thing ive needed to practice at #also BLEGH. YUCK. andrew hussie was right candy makes you sick. this is a little too saccharine for me. yeesh. let me get back to the meat. #isat #isat spoilers #in stars and time #in stars and time spoilers #isat fanart #in stars and time fanart #isat siffrin #isat loop #sifloop #doodlebyte #'let me get back to the meat' i say eyeing something similarly sickly in my sketches. at least it's mildly tormented as a counterbalance... #you people have no idea how much im having to stay my own hand. oh i can draw miserable nudity but the most basic of fluff? visceral #anyway i dont know the logistics of picking up a glass eye or where loop got money (besides pilfering from siffrin) & ive previously drawn #sif with a vague blank middle-grey eye as either being scarred over or a blank occular prosthesis put in quickly at the nearest town #i dont know that they'd have a glass eye during the game but considering prosthesis are reccomended to keep the skull etc from deforming #id imagine it would probably come up postgame as something to do now theyre not on a time limit trying to save the country #plus i assume that having it gouged at by a sadness wasnt exactly a clean wound by any measure #all this to say. idk i just wanted to get some information across in comic form to Test my Abilities #and we're far enough down now to say my absolute most wretchingly sweet fluff headcanon that actually inspired this #which is that i think siffrin gets into the habit of not wearing the eyepatch around loop so they kinda match. #and as a signifier to the other that they're letting their guard down around them. vulnerability etc. #just kinda wearing it around their neck so they don't lose it

[ruporas]

kiss the pain away

#vashwood #trigun #trigun stampe #vash the stampede #wolfwood #nicholas d wolfwood #ep 10 was crazy bc vashwood was literally the plot goodbye #i like how the most intimate moment between these two was in the goddamn sewers #i feel like that alone symbolizes so much in their relationship. im half joking BUT ITS JUST LIKE #the SPONTANEITY the PRIVACY they get in such an open Space while being literally chased / hunted after.... #and vash is out here showing his scars.............. and ill always lose my mind that they gave this spotlight to wolfwood instead of #meryl and milly like in the previous versions. i dont know how else to read this other than that wolfwood is the romantic interest of stamp #it makes sense even aside from this scene. u know. wolfwood was technically the damsel in distress in ep 5-6 and vash saved/helped him. #and who stayed in the bedroom with vash................. #who rushed to his side when he got shot...... with that worried ass expression.... #i dont have anything smart to say at all im just gushing over vashwood thru stampede bc its just so blatant. and its great that its blatant #bc it was blatant in trimax too. like so blatant. the romance was written in every chapter they showed up together #god #ive never witnessed a pairing more canon without being spoken as such its soooooo much theyre so much #ruporas art

[transgendz]

This is going to be short bc i already have a post up explaining this situation, but I started having seizures, which led to medical costs I couldn't handle bc I have an autoimmune disorder that's been going untreated for years. I got the appts covered bc of an extremely generous friend on here, and had some additional medication costs which I thankfully had enough for. I've been applying to at least 10 jobs a day and had tons of interviews. I'm going through interviews and assessments for several jobs (got more scheduled for tomorrow) Then my card got stolen, and now I am screwed as far as rent goes, even if one of these jobs comes through like today we will still fall short because rent is due on the 1st and we don't get a grace period. I am trying to get the money that was taken when my card was stolen back, but I have been told to wait to hear back after submitting all the details, and have yet to hear back.

Dm me for proof or more details. I will do art for anyone who helps with this and you can commission me at my art blog @theartistrans I just desperately need to get rent. My roommates and I have a huge food garden planted and are working towards self-sufficiency, which we have no hope of if we can't pay rent.

PP -- $C -- V -- kofi

$45/$650

#Please help with this just sharinghelps a lot #we really dont want to lose our home we havent even been here for long but theres fruiit trees and berry bushes #we were given so many seeds that we will absolutely be able to grow most of our food that just takes time but we have so much planted alrea #im still waiting for my neuro appt i went to my GP appt and the drs reaction to the stuff ive been ignoring was sobering to say the least

[babydarkstar]

i just. i just…FUCK. i just really want harrowhark to go sicko mode when she realizes john has the power to resurrect whoever he wants he just chooses not to and even after learning about his own blood daughter he still doesn’t resurrect her he just makes her a construct. i would be alecto-levels of grief-stricken-enraged if my childhood nemesis/guard dog/whipping girl/codependent lesbian situationship that i lobotomized over/suicide-pact soulmate/only friend was suddenly here but not here haunting her own dead body and the only reason she’s present is because she was made into a fascist killing machine for a man with a power kink, and she’s not even happy about it but she’s going through the motions because all she knows of love is to be useful. (forever your sword.) and if i was harrow and i died and then came back to myself after switching bodies with the human cage holding the earth’s soul and realized all of this, i think i too would be accompanying the earth’s soul on her shoulder to go kill a man with eclipse-eyes and criminal levels of nonchalance. y’know. the one who guarded g1deon but not me, lord. the one who was so sure i had never seen that which lies insensate and with stilled mind, lord, who did not realize i was a lock and there was a key in the shape of a girl, lord. the one who looked me dead in the eye and told me i could never have my cavalier back, lord. the cavalier who came back haunted and empty and incomplete by your hand, lord.

i’m so team ‘harrowhark saves gideon for real this time not because she wants her cav but because she wants her other half’ i might lose my mind about it

#the locked tomb #griddlehark #im going crazy if im being honest #like sorry if this doesnt make sense im losing my mind #also i think so much about kiriona’s jealousy when alecto swears her fealty to harrow #and so many people talk about how theres a chance harrow chooses alecto over kiri/gideon #and yeah. she probably will choose alecto. but not as a supplement to gideon #bc once harrow realized the price to pay she never wanted it to happen to gideon #which is why she was so so upset she literally threw up every day for like a month about it #and lobotomized to stop the soul-bleed from being finalized. #she couldnt swallow one more soul as sacrifice for her own life #let alone gideon?????? she said it all in the pool scene ok. and then the iron fence scene #‘i can’t conceive of a universe without you’ #something something abt making gideons life miserable bc she wished she was dead #and would mever forgive herself for it #etc etc etc #ultimately i think harrow wants gideon. not as a cav or a servant. just as herself #one can dream

[scooterscoob]

a man and his bestie

[they just killed a man]

#FUCK I HAD SO MUCH FUN DRAWING HIS HAIR??!!!! #only 5 episodes in i’m LOSING IT ALREWADY #JOHN I LOVE YOU????????? HES SO COOL??????????? #IM FUCKING DELUSIONAL HES NOT EVEN LIKE. HUMAN. HES JUST SHADOW #malevolent podcast #malevolent fanart #malevolent

[oh-gh0st]

hiii i come bearing more art ^_^

mostly shadowpeach and mk, then mk with an oc in the last one

#ghost's doodles #lmk posting #lego monkie kid #lmk #lmk macaque #lmk sun wukong #lmk mk #shadowpeach #lmk oc #i keep saying this but i keep forgetting this blog exists. it happens every couple of months to a year lol #i have more drawings but im saving them for bigger projects or to share between friends #the oc in the last one i've developed so much. i have the backstory and how they would tie into current seasons laid out 😭😭😭 #i pray to anything we see more mystic monkey mk in season 5. also how does everyone feel that it's going to be dropping like. Soon #folding my hands. my art style is inconsistent but idgaf (is also losing the idgaf war) #im not dead im just kind of floating rn..... if that makes sense lol

[greatpistachiopie]

here's the dimension 20 pc color wheel i made with everyone c':

#this was so so fun #i started this on twitter and got a lot of help with the suggestions #im so grateful and so inspired by this lil project #completing it became a mission as i felt almost losing my motivation to draw again the past few weeks #i love it aaaah #i love dimension 20 so much #dimension 20 #dimension 20 fanart #d20 fanart #color wheel #color wheel trend #raphaniel charlock #gunnie miggles rashbax #rick diggins #sam nightingale #cody night angel walsh #binx choppley #liam wilhelmina

[rubyrins]

𖤐 I can’t move on - Bonten and tenjiku

𖤐 you broked up with them and a week later they come to you

𖤐this was originally supposed to be for ran 😍 but why not make another separate one but text

And yes izana will never admit he can’t move on…couldn’t write this properly since my right arm hurtsss so bad

Lovelotss—

#bonten #bonten x you #bonten x reader #sanzu x reader #rindou x reader #ran x reader #kokonoi x reader #izana x reader #takeomi x reader #kakucho x reader #tokyo revengers toman #tokyo rev x reader #tokyo revengers tenjiku hen #tokyo revengers bonten #theycantmoveon #i need them in my life #im broke #i need food #i need to lose so much weight