#im mentally stable for sure

[voltazar]

what the fuck am i doing with my life at 6 am?

#im mentally stable for sure #maybe i should just go to bed #and ive barely scratched the surface #after revisiting all of the old lore im going crazy now even more #you know like theories about when exactly sister location takes place or fnaf 4 #or mediocre melodies???? #matpad im looking at you specifically #and i cant believe that im saying this but scott please give us remnant back #at least its not a children robots or mimic or illusion discs #at least that was simple #anyway #should just go to sleep #fnaf

[ispyspookymansion]

“yes” for anything that isnt 100% no

#followup poll do you think you Need therapy #kora.txt #not really but im sure many of us cant afford it or choose not to even if we are not mentally stable

[noname-404s-blog]

#sorry for being depressing #sorry #i'm sorry #im sorry #i dont hate her #i dont hate him #im not strong enough #im not mentally stable #im not okay #im not sure #existential dread #existential crisis #i dont wanna #i dont want to be here #i dont want it #i dont want to be alone #i dont want this #tw depressing stuff #depressing shit #sadcore #apologies #apology #i love him #i still love her #i still love you #love #i still love him #love you guys #im still here #sadgirl

[curioscurio]

I finally decided to finish Steven Universe Future and its a little scary how much I identified with Steven this time around. Who am I kidding it was like looking in a mirror. . I have got to move the FUCK out

#i fell off of my therapy appointments but once i find a new one i dont even need to talk i could just show her the 2nd half of SU future #and say this is how i feel. its so stupidly exactly how i feel at its core. the childhood trauma ptsd. the self loathing. GOD the self loat #ing. #i dont have a connie though. and my family kind of sucks. and uh its not an era of peace and uh things are bad from all angles #this is why i gotta move out and back with people who are healthier for me to live with. man im struggling a lot with my health and unemplo #yment. not just my mental health anymore but my physical health too. #i just gotta. keep a stable job and make sure my mom or my brother dont have mental breakdowns and help my brother with his kids and #sorry yall who read my tags its dire out here

[sternenhimmel-mond]

If I had a nickel for every time an adult cartoon showed an elderly white couple that was the parents of one of our main characters being taken care of by a male, black, live-in nurse that was in a polycule with them, I'd have two nickels. Which isn't a lot, but it's weird that it happened twice.

#and like. im not disgusted or anything i just thought thats a hella specific scenario to show up in two completely different adult cartoons #and im pretty sure theyre unrelated too. but i dont know much about the industry so i could be wrong #anyway i watched the first episode of carol and the end of the world and while i really like carol. i also had three pretty intense cries #during it so i think i have to take it really slow or even wait until im in a more stable place #whoda thunk. the person who cant think about death for more than five minutes without ha jng a complete mental breakdown cant watch the show #about a woman trying to figure out how to cope with the impending doom of everyone she knows and loves #the other was rick and morty #life adventures #my shit #carol and the end of the world #rick and morty

[kane-turu]

In my humble opinion, Kakania and Isolde should reunited and kiss in 1.9

#reverse 1999 #kakania #isolde #im absolutely mentally stable abt them #i want to draw them so bad #but every idea that i have is heavy spoilers related :( #tho im sure most ppl already have rough idea abt their dynamic #BUT THAT'S NOT ALL YOU GUYS #anyway manifesting isolde x kakania crumbs in 1.9 #when 1.7 is in global server i think i will write 10k words abt them #not just the shipping stuff but also their personality background and real life inspiration #at least i think i will make 10 slides of powerpoint presentation abt them

[girlwithfish]

bpd vs cptsd is really confusing also bpd vs autism. anyway

#and like the debate that bpd is just cptsd #and is a disorder rooted in trauma #but trauma also isnt a diagnostic requirement but also idk if i believe ppl w bpd who say they have no trauma at all #well im sure there r exceptions but also think a lot of ppl downplay trauma they went thru #nd ppl say bpd/personality disorders in general r from trauma and learned trauma responses for survival #But reading up abt cptsd lately its like everything also resonates w ne #me #but i still think i am like textbook definition of bpd lol. i was in a split for literally a week #it was hell i actually dont know how i survived bc i was so close to kmsing a lotttt bc mental illness is running my life rn #and making it unbearable!! i am just tryi g to find internal safety again and trust in others and #build my own resilience and trust in myself above all. reparentify myself and learn how to make a #sustainable life for myself when ive been trying to function like a - #'normal' neurotypical stable person for all my life and had no idea my mental problems ran this deeply #like iwish i had gotten help sooner. i feel horrible my life has gotten to this point bc i did nothing abt it when i was a kid or younger #adult bc i didnt know i guess. idk #i just realized my.upbringing has a bigger effect than i even know on who i am today. i have sm repressed memories too lmfao

[castielafflicted]

distinct possibility that things are going to start to get very bad for me in a few days because of medication reasons </3

#zeph posting #my birth control refill got denied bc i hadnt had an appointment in too long but i had no idea about that ahead of time #and i just took my last dose #i scheduled an appointment and the guy says they probably will do another refill since its a few weeks out #but! its not a sure thing #and i wont know until at the latest thursday #and so ! #this is the thing that keeps my mental health stable even moreso than the mood stabalizer #and also makes sure my physical health doesnt get horrifically worse for like 10 days a month #over 10 bc i have to recover too #so ill either be fine! or have to wait until like january 15th before i feel okay again #this is very bad to happen at christmas bc i have to be around people and do things #so i just. god if they dont give me a refill #if u see me say im posting from the ER after christmas its bc i dont have them and got suicidal </3

[lost-in-the-planetarium]

system things is who's fucking idea was this

system things is guarding my headmates from texting our ex

#dissociative system #plural system #system #system stuff #system things #plural #traumagenic system #system memes #alters #actually traumagenic #🔭🌸 #🔭????? #🔭🪲 #🔭planetary system drink LESS OFTEN PLEASE #when it becomes days in a row it's not good for us #what if i texted my ex tho #what if ramona backed off and i texted my ex #planetary system might be getting a fucking boyfriend tho bc this guy likes us SO MUHC #i showed him my blood vial and he was on board with it #he called me emp and goth and i'm niether #he's also 1.5 years younger than me and i feel weird about that #also unpacking so much trauma from my ex and idk if i'm mentally stable enough for this but i like.. attention #he thinks i'm pretty #thinking about texting my ex #SL DRJNK DRANK SO MYHC VODKA AND JACK DANIELS PLEASE DONT MIND ME #DONF LOOK AT ME #the more i unpack my trauma with my ex the more im like.. she was manipulating me right? but i feel guilty about that #planetary system wonders if their the problem and like YEAH they're mentally ill but.. not the biggest issue their for sure #am k going to explain my system to a cishet guy??? #he called me babygirl and like BRO OKAY BHT KM MOSTLY NOT A GILR

[rabbithaver]

tomorrow is my one year anniversary of joining the sonic fandom for real........

#i have no regrets. this is the most fun ive ever had #i have met so many wonderful people and found a community that likes m #i still have bad days occasionally but overall my mental health is better and more stable than it has ever been #thank you to ian flynn specifically because im pretty sure it was partially his influence in frontiers that made me fall in love #rabbit.txt

[imissthefire]

ikesoren brainworms, they're wrigglin' away, man. they're just. so good. so much growth. so patient with each other. so supportive. so honest, yet never unkind. just... so good.

#ikesoren #truly have me in a chokehold #can't get away from those aspec mercs #there's just such a lovely sense of boundaries and respect and love and support that often goes unsaid between them but is so clearly there #like neither of them are too stable mentally but their relationship (regardless if through a romantic/platonic lens) is so stable. #they grow together and sure there's definitely some not so great levels of codependency to an extent but it becomes so much more healthy #ugh i'm gonna stop here or else this will become another essay nobody asked for lol #nqp #gabe rambles #gabe plays #fe #fe por #i regret using the tags in advance im sorry if someone finds this whilst perusing fe or ikesoren or fe por tag and gets annoyed. #i just like to keep track of my posts on my blog. you know how it is #brainworms

[ajdrawshq]

ended up buying start again to play after i 100% isat to the best of my ability and i Also got the artbook bc the bundle is on sale for less than just the games usual price so why not. and im glad i did bc i got to see concept art of siffrin getting fucking impaled 👍

#i was just checking it out to make sure the files working without seeing too many spoilers or whatever #IT CAUGHT ME OFF GUARD TOO #like its just concept art of gameplay where instead of tears youd use spikes to loop regularly which would be . ow???? #thats almost worse than the other optional one in the main game. got damn #it looks kinda funny. but its a lil awful to think abt yknow #isat #hm. should i use both the isat and sasasa tags in the future i wonder. theyre probably different enough to warrant that #also love the way sasasa sounds in my head :) #im now more mentally stable so i might be able to start doing stuff in isat again. but that may depend on external influences so we'll see #i cant remember if they said why they scrapped the spikes idea but logically itd be bc that wouldnt kill them immediately right #like thats probably Not the reason but. damn thats wild to think abt. fun fic idea

[designernishiki]

anyway. nishiki and majima are both borderline and i could do a whole case study on either of them about it. send tweet

#im pretty flexible about most hcs regarding mental disorders and such but this take is one im like pretty fucking steadfast on #and I could write. an absurd amount about it. cause psychoanalyzing the shit out of characters is literally like. what I do for a living #and I have a weird special interest in abnormal psych and the dsm-5 in my closet and a psychologist for a mother and etc #but yeah so #inquire further at your own risk because I will talk. I will talk a lot #the only issue with majima is that I can’t evaluate his childhood and family life and just. his fundamental years of development in general #which is a pretty big deal when it comes to assessing for any personality disorder #nishiki oh yeah I absolutely can. but yeah we know basically nothing about majimas fundamental years. all I can really do is reverse #engineer so to speak based on how he is as an adult and what causes a person to do the things he does / be the way he is / etc #but of course that’d all be very very loose and hypothetical. FASCINATING to think about to me but obviously would have to be taken with a #huge grain of salt and be considered very very speculative #but I can say for sure that he didn’t have a stable and perfect home life/family life growing up I think that’s pretty safe to assume #anything more detailed than that is way more speculative but. yeah. I don’t think he was just. Normal. up until he was 20 #his identity issues run way too deep for me to accept that concept #anyway I need to shut up #majima #nishiki #rambling

[sorenlionheart]

i have to admit its kinda crazy being involved in fandoms again since the last time ive really been involved in a fandom was during my steven universe days

#soren.txt #aka when i was a teenager and what was happening in my life at the time was really Not Great #so i guess ive spent the past couple of years recollecting myself and everything #its nice that im finally in a stable point with my mental health so that i can actually connect with other people again #among other things #in case you're wondering. the o/wl h/ouse fandom doesn't really count bc i was sticking to the sidelines 90% of the time #with my own little niche in the corner lol #i do appreciate t/oh a ton though even still for getting me back into writing #there was straight up a period in 2021 where i was just writing a ton and not posting any of it bc 1. i wasn't confident in my skills #and 2. i was extremely depressed. like extremely *extremely* depressed so i didn't feel worthy of posting any of it #im actually glad i didnt. i think it was better to just have this little story solely for me and not worry about quality #im pretty sure writing was one of the things that helped me crawl out of my depression rut #so im grateful for it

[wings-of-angels]

Really thought i might have had a crush the other day but then i felt the exact same way when talking to an etsy shop seller and realised its probably that i just like having nice exciting conversations that make me feel good :')

#your resident aromantic is being an idiot again 🙄💔 #i never rlly know whats going on with my romantic attraction and i hate thinking about it its exhausting #maybe i do experience that stuff but im pretty sure if i have crushes they often disappear within a couple hours or a day #which i dont think is normal for allos ??? #anyway living my life with the arospec label cos i cant be asked #and im not mentally stable enough for a relationship regardless so 💪 #vent tw

[electricpurrs]

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#i think ive been going way too overboard from what im actually comfortable with i dont actually like that #this is all weird and ive been acting weird and i feel bad maybe my mind has been way too foggy for me to. really think straight #like that sounds really dramatic i just feel weird and uncomfortable and wrong like my posts are weird and my attempts at talking #to people are weird and my conversations with my friends are weird #like im not acting like myself or im too out of it to remember how to act like myself #idk. i just dont wanna keep doing any of this but im not sure what ''any of this'' is #i got myself in some kind of spiral and im not having fun and i feel bad and gross and lame #i think im in an actual like bad mental health state #and i now im worried i have thousands of people following this damn blog and seeing my posts while im in a vulnerable state #and im acting erratic and weird and because i post my every thought in this website everybody is seeing me act erratic and weird #which just makes me much more anxious #i really hate how prone i am to letting my mental health make me act weird and how prone i am to over posting online due to a lack of #impulse control #and how i have an amount of followers that is way too large for it to be safe or healthy for me to be fucking myself over online #i am not minimally healthy or stable enough to keep my posture in front of a large audience and this should never have happened to me #i dont know that being said i should probably take a break for a bit #post less until i can get my head in place