#im so happy with the positivity on my posts

[t-thedigitaldiary]

Sincerely yours,

(part 1)

author’s note: heey,everyone.Basically this the first fiction i’ve ever written and I’m pretty new to this platform so I’m not entirely familiar with how to make my posts pretty but I truly hope you like it :).Also,for the hashtags,this work of fiction is not at all related to Ellie Williams (although the aesthetic is inspired by her in a.u fictions) nor the tlou world.I just really wanna be a part of the tlou fandom in here,since i will be posting related artworks later on and bc im new,i thought this was a nice way to start :).Last but not least,this piece is extremely personal to me and truly reflects my feelings.Anyways,hope you enjoy!

Warnings!: poor mental health condition (mention of depression multiple times & trauma,not in great detail though),violence (basically someone being hit with a water bottle lol)

Sunday afternoon. Ugh, you hated Sunday afternoons. Not because, like most people, you hated the upcoming Mondays, but because it was dull. Extremely dull, empty. You are not sure if the reason behind this emptiness is depression, but you have accepted it either way. Now that you think about it, you hated almost every afternoon. For the same exact reason. Even though you used to love the darkness of the night, something about the sun setting has now become extremely unsettling to you. ‘’Vitamin D my ass! ‘’, you thought. It wasn’t always like this, though. Something about the last six months has turned you into a living dead, a zombie if you may! No, actually, ‘’something’’ is a very unfair description of the cause. More like ‘’a very specific experience’’ has turned you. You had lost all your livelihood, all your appetite about almost everything and, suddenly, Sunday afternoons were not just dull, they were depressing. Just like every other afternoon of the week, just like every other time of the day. Every day. For the last six months. Wow. You thought about change a thousand times before. You prayed and you prayed that things were going to get better. You desperately asked the universe for a sign. A sign that you were going to survive this and live a happy life. No sign, no change ever came. Except for this peculiar Sunday afternoon. (Not so dull now, is it?)

You were laying on your back on top of your unmade bed. Blank white tee, black shorts, the same ones you’ve been wearing for over a week now (depression really gets the best of you, huh?). You were sitting with open legs and open arms. Your right, sock covered foot was bent and was softly brushing over your bare left knee. You had your hands thrown on top of your head. Someone that had just entered the room would’ve thought that this is the position of someone highly frustrated. Little would they know. In your mentally uncomfortable but physically soothing position you found yourself begging again. ‘’Please, universe, just one sign is all I’m asking for!” . You truly were desperate. You hated the life you were living, a life created in fucked up ways. All you needed was a sign. A sign of change, a sign that things were going to get better.

*knock knock*

The loud knocks on your bedroom door brought you back to Earth. What the fuck?! You were home alone for the entire weekend and you specifically remember locking the front door (you even double checked!!!). Now, you were not just surprised, you were also terrified. Whoever was knocking on your door definitely was not here for a good reason..

*knock knock knock*

You had no more time to think about it, you had to act. You went full-on survival mode. Even though you didn’t like the life you were living, you still wanted to live. You believed in that change. You collected every drop of bravery you had in you, grabbed your water bottle, the biggest object near and prepared for whatever it was behind that door. The knocks became louder and louder. You were sure now that within a bunch of seconds you were about to fight for your life. You shut your eyes close and took one last big breath. One last big breath befor-

The last loud noise heard was not from the knocking. It was the sound that your bottle and someone’s head made after they collided together. Oh, and the one of the body hitting the floor.

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#ellie williams #fiction #tlou

[cathedral-of-the-forest]

Turning negativity into positivity.

I see lots of “List 5 things that make you happy” posts. I just recently reblogged one myself. But, the world is not all rainbows and unicorns. And dealing with negative things can have a positive outcome. So, in a first for Tumblr, at least in my decade on it, I’m going to do this.

Name 5 things that really irritate the shit out of you, and what you do to keep that irritation from turning you into a serial killer, or just slapping the shit out of people on a street corner in your town. Im going to tag 10 people to start things out. I’m not going to start with myself, that is kind of like clapping for yourself, which ain’t me. If someone tags me back, I’ll post 5 things.

Here we go:

@edwardabbeyhoffman @violetsoblue @heatherannchristie @todds-likes @mstacobelle @findingforest51 @the-merry-gnome @persephone-sighed @thewontonhousewife @floating-in-waves

[sillyfairygarden]

90 minute leyendecker study b4 bed. heard cleo has a cat cafe this season :swoons:

#thellos art corner #zombiecleo fanart #hermitcraft #hermitblr #mcyt fanart #mcyt #ok time for a peek inside my skull: i really contemplated not posting this. not for any reasons of disliking it #im pretty conscious about how fat people are characterized/portrayed around food in media. both in fan works and canonized material #(flashbacks to hunk from voltron) i really think about ways to defy the way fat bodies are portrayed in my works. while also staying normal #i think at the end of the day i really see food as a love language. and serving people i love (even if its just coffee) brings me joy #even if theres a one-dimensional box that fat characters get put into regarding food. it makes me happy! so i'll try to do it with grace #i think representation isnt always this mentally twisting lol. but its definitely something i think about. #i hope i can positively project my feelings about food and love onto a plus size body (as a chubby girl :handheart:) and showcase that love #ok yeah yeah its 11pm. time to put meemaw in bed. if you read all this ur rad <3 also i stopped watching HC peeposad

[raisinushigher]

fuck this show

#FUCK THIS SBOW #likeee what. a little over a week and its happening again. #ANYWAY obligatory abe is so fucking cute and im so excited to see what’s going on with him this season #like. the way hes wearing that oversized suit??? him looking all angry with an eyepatch while everyone else is happy? WHY WAS HE CRYING- #-HALF NAKED IN THE CEMETARTY😭😭😭ALSO THAT LOOKS LIKE SOME SORT OF APOCOLYPSE EPISODE WHICH. IF THATS THE CASE #HELL FUCKING UES!!! #also i can’t deny it im scared like For My Life that something bad with /kahlopatra will happen #like. just based off that one clip with frida looking at cleo bullying people. IDK MAYBE ITS POSITIVE BUT #IM SCARED!!! #sorry i hid a good chunk of my thoughts on the trailer in the tags of dumb fucking tophabe post SORRU #clone high #clone high spoilers #tophabe #abetoph #mine

[sunflawyer]

GUSH!!!

I LOOVVEE I LOVE ART I LOVE DRAWING FOR MY FRIENDS I LOVE MY FRIENDS'S SELFSHIPS SO MUCH!!!!! im jumping around in circles i love you all your f/os loves you all im feeling over-the-top affectionate right now I LOVE MY FRIENDS AND MUTUALS!!!! 🧡💖🧡💖

once im done with finals im gonna make a lovey dovey doodle of your selfships. and open my commission. i want to open commission

#IVE BEEN FEELING SO HAPPY SINCE LATELY I CANT STOP JUMPING AND GIGGLING #whenever i see my friends post their selfship...YES THEYBLOVE YOU!!! YOUR F/OS LOVES YOU A LOT!!!! #you mean a lot to them they give you kisses everyday #IM FEELING SO POSITIVE AND FULL OF JOY #HAVE FLOWERS FR YOU ALL!!! I GIVE YOU ALL SUNFLOWERS #sorry i just. when i feel happy and affectionate i cant control it #self ship #self ship positivity #selfship positivity #self insert #self insert positivity #self insert x fictional other #fictional other community #self ship community #🐤mayo's diary #self insert community #f/o community

[hybbat]

You know I've had a lot of posts on my dash about Lizzie including 3 fics... And all of them are about how she is ignored for the men.

I've not seen any of the content they're complaining about, and I've not seen any of the content they're asking for...

You know you can just... make content about Lizzie. Instead of content about the lack of content. You can just draw her or write about her or make headcanons and essays about her, instead of about how there isn't any.

We get it, nobody is talking about her. So, please just actually talk about her?

#id certainly love to see it but no ody is actually talking about her in favour of complaining that nobody is talking about her #its a really weird typw of irony #seriously the first thing i saw about lizzie on my dash like an hour after episode started dropping was someone already complaining #about it being made about jimmy before id even seen any posts about jimmy #secret life spoilers #traffic spoilers #but yeah just... make stuff? instead of souring the whole thing? #im also sick of hearing about the men lizzie is ignored for... and its these exact posts that are doing it and spreading it around #instead of being upset fans of jimmy are happy his 3 year 5 season long plot has concluded #posts ill def regret when i wake up but its 4 am and im so tired of not having any positive lizzie OR jimmy content on my dash #cause people are either complaining or too scared to be percieved as Part Of The Problem to make things for the characters they care about

[hellsgreatestduck]

Looks like you could use some help, from the big boss of Hell himself 🍎 ✨ 😈

#hazbin hotel #lucifer #art #fanart #lucifer morningstar #lucifer magne #hazbin lucifer #my art #hgdposts #i didn't expect to love it this much help #first real post on this blog <3 #his singing is haunting me forever (positive) #i almost never draw cartoons so im happy with this please look at my boy

[todayisafridaynight]

Share Mine notes please I beg (and on the arakawa fam if you have the timefkfd)

forgive me if these are messy as all fuck i'm not good at making notes BUT here's everything i generally keep in mind when drawing mine and hijikata + the reference sheets i look at when drawing them :)

arakawa family notes + references below:

(more notes about aoki + sawashiro's faces ft. ikumi here)

#snap chats #edit: THANK YOU TEN FOR FINDING MY ASK FOR ME LITERAL LIFE SAVER !!!!!! #you POSITIVELY HAVE TO click these open to see anything #it probably wouldve been worth something if i actually /drew/ them on these sheets too to demonstrate the notes but.. #please let it slide we've seen me draw them all plenty of times.. except mitsu sorry king you'll get your time i promise #i tried to just keep this General to the face but like. at some point i said 'ok maybe its important to mention how i do hair' #i have plans to play all 326 shadow the hedgehog endings and when i saw i got this ask i JUST finished one #so this was def a great break from that for a while LMAO #anyway.. i hope these are helpful in some way #they were fun to make regardless :) #i love how i made notes for ichi even tho. i dont draw ichi the same LMAO BUT IT IS STUFF I THINK ABOUT SO #WORTH WRITING #if you have any questions or want me to explain anything more i'd be happy to do so ! #i always feel like im missing points whenever im explaining stuff so im forcing myself to just post these before i go insane #i have about 316 more endings to get through after all....

[huecycles]

oh hey :) thanks for the kind comments and tags left under the last post!

it's so wild how body hair in art & media in general is seen as something "disgusting" or "weird", at first i thought that maybe the way i drew it made it look confusing but no way in hell you couldn't zoom in or just... think logically to know that is natural hair? some people are hairy like that! the way i draw it is more fluffy yes because i love floof and i dont give a shit tbh lol

i knew about the "issue" of jevil being fat so the body hair one threw me for a loop like wow. idk why jevil specifically gets this type of treatment, maybe other fat characters in utdr do too but i always see toriel, asgore, alphys, lancer, king, catti, sans who is a skeleton (and i really can't see him any other way, the fandom is doing a great job in keeping him chubby-like i love that) drawn with mostly correct proportions to in game/official art, yet jevil seems to get this mixed reaction. idk why i still see skinny jevil, or why some people insist his clown clothes are just "baggy". the jester is circular, look at his torso please for the love of god. sorry but i just want more fat rep as a fat person myself. i want jevil to remain short (his sprite is shorter than kris and slightly taller than spamton) and fat like he is in game!

drawing him helped me understand a lot about plus size anatomy, and honestly i couldn't be more happy about that because i'm also dealing a lot better with my body image issues and finally bringing more diversity to my art. him being hairy too is yet another thing that makes me happy as someone with pcos, and portraying him as a fat, hairy trans man as someone who is nonbinary and for months has been wanting to experiment with different pronouns/wondering how it would be like to transition is something really special. it's messy and silly but spamton and jevil are the ultimate comfort characters/ship to me, their stories and how they were written speak volumes and resonate with me a lot + headcanoning them as t4t has been beyond freeing and making me get a lot of gender euphoria/dysphoria/envy all at the same time lmfao what the fuck.

i'm honestly glad for these characters because they're what helped me articulate my recent feelings about my gender to my mother, who has grown a lot and is making an effort to understand all of this. the reaction i sometimes get from people who talk to me, come into my inbox or just pour their feelings out in the tags about how they love my portrayal of spamton and jevil's gender identity + their relationship and how important it is to them is so so cool. yeah :)

speaking of chest hair, here's how spamton looks without the shirt. the left side of his chest has a panel for his heart (a smaller version of neo's) and of course top surgery scars, a different type. he's also hairy! not that much since he's a puppet but he still has the addison floof, it's cute

#didnt mean to ramble lmao #i guess that makes up for that one post #where i said i'd talk about t4t spamvil #and i'm honestly still not done #this is more on the personal side of things tbh #i dont like sharing too much. #but it's nice to see positive things and all #esp now that im going through such a dark time in my life #ill leave the actual trans talk and how/why i believe spam & jev are transmasc for the sideblog lol #there's a lot to go on in the case of spamton of course #but also for jevil #based on my interpretations of a few of his lines #taking his personality into account as well #and his relationship with spamton #dhscdnk kinda giddy i'll leave that for later #they make me so soft #and happy #i want to wrap them up in a blanket #burrito style #what banger characters #do i even tag them here uh #yeah whatever #spamton #jevil #transgender #i like the thing tumblr gives to pride tags :) #my art #txt

[chasing-the-persea]

Imagine Percy having a really rough day. His power, what he’s done, who he’s had to be to do those things, are weighing on him. Frankly, he scares himself. He doesn’t know how any sane person would want him around, much less around kids, especially as a counselor.

He puts on a brave face. Maybe if he looks happy no one will remember there’s a person behind that face who can’t look at himself in the mirror.

He doesn’t know how it happened; maybe he agreed to it when he was lost in his mind, putting on the “chill older counselor” face everyone expects, but he finds himself in the sand volleyball pit on the team of campers from the less populated cabins. The Demeter and Hermes cabin teamed up on the other side.

The game itself is a fog to Percy. The only breaks in his gloom come in the form of reminders: that’s only a volleyball (images of a giant hurling rocks at him flash in front of his eyes). they’re calling the ball (the sound of campers crying out for help in countless battles echo in his head). that’s just sand (the phantom touch of Gaia’s earth brush his legs)

Before he knows it his team is cheering: they won. He doesn’t know how–or if–he contributed any. He chastises himself. A good leader wouldn’t let themselves be distracted. Wouldn’t…his shoes are gone.

He could’ve swore they were right there? If he wasn’t so caught up with himself he would know where he put his shoes, that’s so stupid what would have happened if he was in battle and he got distracted, then it’d be on his head if another camper got killed again because of him, he shouldn’t have even played what was he thinking—

A Hermes kid was holding them up, taunting him, retaliating for their loss. He took one step towards them and they took two steps away. Their face was…playful? This was a prank. They’re pranking him. Don’t they know what he’s done, why their cabin is so empty now?

He took another step. This time the kid let out a excited laugh and ran a few feet away. This was a game. For fun. The kid knows but doesn’t care. They just want to have fun with an older counselor. camper. cousin. whatever the relation, they genuinely just want to mess with him.

But why would they—unless. Unless they aren’t afraid of him.

They see him as a leader, and like any other rotten kid, they want to tease whoever’s in charge. The kid is just being a kid, doing kid things. Like stealing someone's shoes and knowing they won't be hurt because of it. Because they believe Percy is good.

He tries to ignore the similarities on the kids face to one he knew so well, one he thought was good when he was the kids age.

I'm not Luke, he reminded himself. A tiny whisper in a corner of his mind hissed how are you any different?

He looked at the kid again, who was still holding out the shoes, attempting to lure him into a chase. The kid took a couple more steps away, grinning wildly as Percy’s face set in determination.

I’m going to be the person Luke needed, and the one he never was for me. We deserve better.

He sprinted after the Hermes kid, laughing lighter than he had in months.

#hoooooh boy this is so much longer than i expected #it was supposed to be three paragraphs about a light hearted prank but obviously something got lost somewhere #the original idea actually happened last summer at camp but i never wrote it out and forgot about it until yesterday #(technically 3am this morning) because ive been training my work replacement and ooft has it been filling me with counselor!percy thoughts #(also ignore how the ending goes ✨positivity✨ out of nowhere it was late and i was tired of typing through my eyelids #im just happy it’s escaping the drafts lol) #percy jackson #pjo #luke castellan #camp half-blood #percy jackson headcanons #percy jackson and the olympians #persea posts

[rakkuntoast]

i swear if qforever doesnt get a nice and healing reunion with richas and tallulah i am exploding that server myself

#txt post #cw caps #a shit ton of caps in the tags #HOW HARD IS IT TO WISH THIS CUBITO SOME FUCKING HAPPINESS #EVERY TIME I REMEMBER ABT FOREVER CUBITO I FEEL AWFUL MY LITTLE GUY HASNT HAD A BREAK IN SO LONG #MOSTLY CUZ PEOPLE CONSTANTLY GIVE HIM SHIT AND ISOLATE HIM SINCE HE'S THE FUCKING PRESIDENT NOW AND DONT EVEN TREAT HIM AS MUCH OF A FRIEND #ANYMORE AND JUST HOLD HIM AT ARMS REACH. HE FEELS ALONE AND HOPELESS #LITERALLY THE ONLY PEOPLE THAT STILL TREAT HIM LIKE THEY TREATED HIM BEFORE THE WHOLE PRESIDENT THING BULLSHIT IS HIS DAMN FAMILY AND PHIL #AND MAYBE BAGHS TOO I CANT REMEMBER #man feels like no one trusts him anymore cuz hes “part of the feds” when he's not actually as involved as people make it seem #literally the only official mission he has ever done for the feds was the whole go to the nether get lost lmao L bozo #his position in the federation can literally just be reduced to the one who represents the islanders as a whole in the eyes of the feds #like god every time someone refers to him by his actually name instead of “the president” an angel regains its wings #cuz yeah he has to carry the burden of his position but that doesnt mean im not allowed to complain that everyone is pushing him away for i #like fuck. phil telling him that he trusts him and cares about him before forever went to the nether meant the fucking world to him #“phil nailed it down in the minute what was happening. im glad i can rely on him” <- not verbatim but like. cmon

[mageofcolors]

it's so so tempting when youre sad to start reblogging sad things but man. does it only send you down a worse spiral

#i try to look for things that can distract me or make me happy instead #i know this is. a priviledge and its hard for many people #but i feel like once you follow a blog that posts depressing things or you specifically go into a tag to find those things #it just keeps feeding your brain more and more and more and more #and it regulates gour thoughts to being more and more depressing #your brain gets used to it and keeps it as the more #toxic positivity sucks yeah but being kinder with yourself will teach your brain to be kinder with yourself more often #heck even neutral is so much better than negative #if positive is hard go neutral #anyways. thats my rant for the day #im gonna go find something that makes me happy #mage post #mage text

[lobotomyladylives]

Thoughts on this album?

99% of my swiffer behavior is also confined to r*ddit (why are you guys making me admit this twice in one day) & it will remain that way for various reasons. I will say I have no idea why she made that snore of a song the lead single/paired it with such an aesthetically interesting video.

#mbobhft was RIGHT THERE. its so catchy #also how did it end is devastating . #i have so many thoughts i just dont feel like posting them here . mostly positive actually i get why its controversial & of course theres a #few cornball lyrics but there are many things on this album that blew me away #also you know how i was a Karma is a Cat defender last time. yeah thats me for he knows how to ball i know aristotle #its just unserious cheesy & cute how are ppl so annoyed by it. also that part of so hs is sonically the catchiest moment on the whole album #specifically the outro when its layered . literally my fave #grinch newfans & haters wont get it whatever im having so much fuj #literally this one song after the documented evil of mh changed my opinion on the meathead jock . happy for her #I just don't like talking about her in the presence of ppl who haven't also been in this shit for 15 years bc they don't get her they don't #understand that someone can be corny as hell (in both good ways & fucking tattoed golden retriever) & also profound at the same time #& that's their affliction not mine #asks

[three-dee-ess]

just found your blog today and i am SO excited about it ive been hyperfixated on the 3ds for a long time and it feels like ive just found a gold mine. thank you for your service

from one person with a 3ds hyperfixation to another... stay strong o7

#i've been hyperfixated on the 3DS for like 8 years but it only really picked up in 2020 (when I modded my first 3DS) #Whenever i saw a 3ds post in the wild it felt like a punch to the gut (positive) #so I decided to make a blog full of those punches!! #it originally was just an archive for me so I could look at the DS/3DS posts whenever I wanted but I thought it might be a good idea #to reblog with 'official 3ds posts' so other 3DS fans knew that my blog existed #im so happy that it worked #asks #most people don't tag their 3DS posts so I often dig in the trenches to find them :`3 its so worth it tho

[hailsatanacab]

I just don't understand people who feel the need to leave negative comments on fics?? You don't like the characterisation? You don't like the way things are going? You're not a fan??

That's fine! That's absolutely fine!! We all have different tastes, I get that!!

But why post a comment about it though??

Why would you say this?????? What makes you think that's okay???????

#cetbwa #fanfic #obviously theyre not happy with the way the fic went and thats fine #im working hard on accepting that people arent always going to like what i create and thats fine!! #the worst of it is like it's not even a terrible comment???? #people are allowed their opinions #BUT!!!! why post that??? #and that kind of language too???? like jfc #i think thats what annoyed me the most out of it tbh #idk man ive had worse comments that are far more critical about my actual writing #and the MAJORITY of comments are positive and i love all of them i really do #but i think just the language of this one fucked me off the most #why did you use a slur?? what in the world makes you think thats okay?? #made me so angry #anyway sorry I'll stop complaining now #im not looking for sympathy or w/e literally just complaining #the fucking audacity #if you dont like it you dont like it!!! thats fine!!!! but dont disparage my boy danny like that jfc #r slur

[laurmaus]

another one +uncolored ver (can u tell i skipped school today

#i feel like it kind of looks better uncolored idk i think it's the eyes #laurmau #aphmau #mcd #minecraft diaries #i b on that danny gonzalez grind im CONSTANTLY rewatching his stuff im so serioud #i had this phase back in like december january i forgot where i literally binge watched like at least 12 of his vids a day Idk what i was d #ing like girl STUDY FOR YOUR SATS #hashtag Laurmau forever Idgaf (i've been avoiding continuing my mcd rewatchbc the next episode has aaron in the thumbnail(im really scared😭 #I WILL FINISH YOU #Garroth soon contrary to popular belief i am a big Garroth fan too hes just kind of been irrelevant in mcd lately like come back...... #I LIKE HIM KN THE SIDE STORIES THOUGH idk how i feel about my street but i Just started so we will see #o dont likr what jess is doing to him and laurance why are they crazy creeps☹️my daughters.... #ummm what else omg i want to animate the nicole audio video thing that post is SO FUNNY literally live changing imma do that tmrw maybe umm #big emphasis on the Maybe😅😅😅i am a junior in high school #Hopefully ugghhhhh GET ME OUT!!!! #laurance zvahl #aphmau mcd #laurance mcd #awesome #also omg #thank u all for being nice tome on that laurance design it made me so happy like samn people rlly still care abt mcd😭😭(Positive