#im so sad cause i love this lot!

[bunnithechubs]

and now the diner is done! :D

#ts4 #the sims 4 #ts4 edit #the sims 4 edit #ts4 interior #omg why does it look like a zombie horde ran through here #in a good way #also i kinda slayed with this lot #omg ya'll its finally over :( #im so sad cause i love this lot!

[ethanhuntfemmefatale]

sometimes i think about an AA universe where Edgeworth didn't have to be shuffled off every 5 seconds so he could maintain credibility as a rival....where Phoenix didn't have to win every case...yes AA is a game yes i understand why it did that for the narrative. but when I look at those lonely scared 24 year olds from AA1 i can't help but think that their version of a happy ending would be to be able to get used to each other. to face each other over stupid cases and small things. Sometimes one winning, sometimes the other, until it hardly matters anymore, all that matters is finding the truth together. I want them to take each other for granted!!! i want them to look at the other across the courtroom and say "time to face this bitch for the hundredth time i guess!!" these poor bastards have never had anything approaching emotional stability before let them have each other damn it

#idk im just. emotional #i feel like at that age?? at that place in their character development??? romance aside that would be legit be #the best happiest situation for both of them. and i feel things when i imagine it #we see so much of the grand gestures intense moments side of their relationship #they're always helping each other in their darkest moments and stuff like that but i wish they could also have #a very mundane professional dynamic. bitchy and prickly and earnest cause they both care a lot. and loving in their way #it's sad to me that so much of fic revolves around the idea that 'when phoenix and miles start dating miles will finally stay' thats #so tragic!!!!!!! am i the only person who thinks that's tragic #the game had to keep them apart for Narrative Reasons but i know my boy miles edgeworth and he would want to get bored of that spiky hairdo #and that handsome face. from seeing it in court so much. #narumitsu #wrightworth #phoenix wright #miles edgeworth #ace attorney #aa1 #aa2 spoilers #aa3 spoilers

[hellomagicalsouls]

i had a dream about Klaus and Five fighting then five brought up Klaus being a junkie and thennnnn

Klaus brought up how Five is the reason every bad thing has happened to him. five LITERALLY did it to himself.

nobody pushed him out the door to go attempt to jump into the future infact everyone tried to stop him because they called after him.

five literally made his life the way it is because he's a stubborn bitch who thought he knew better

i woke up @ 4am after this dream and haven't slept since

also he called Klaus a junkie who has no idea what it's like being alone but Klaus literally was on the streets for like 12 years so he probably understands better than anyone

cause five and Klaus both probably had no food and had to eat out of dumpsters and do things they absolutely didn't want to do in order to survive

dream verse has it out for me honestly

#the umbrella academy #umbrella academy #tua #klaus hargreeves #five hargreeves #why do i actually do this to myself #ive been awake for 18 hours over this #im gonna fail uni at this point #my brain needs to stop cause its getting personal now #like slow down babe wait til we're awake to hurt #we're adults its what we do #five and Klaus love eachother #because they are eachother #both addicted to something that's gonna kill them if they dont stop it #im doing it again #okay bye love you #the scene where five called klaus a junkie hurt me lots incase you couldn't tell #its the word junkie its so harsh makes me sad #umbrella academy klaus #tua klaus #umbrella academy five #tua five

[lottieurl]

who wants to know what my dog's name is

#i never use it bc its very polish and i tend to talk in english here #and also bc ive been paranoid for years abt random irl ppl finding me here who i wouldn't want to see this #(cause it happened once and it was awful <3) #but whatever. dog role bc i got quite sad today #cause she was obviously enjoying her walk and loving the sun #but she no longer has the energy to jump a lot #and if you're knew here! my dog used to jump so damn high. like 3 lengths her actual size #and she Loved that #i have a video somewhere on my old blog lmao gotta find a way to download that #but anwyays yeah it was her thing she was jumping like crazy #and im guessing the HEAT outside played a part in her not being in the mood for it today #but like 3 years ago or so it wouldn't stop her yet #so im :( #my baby's getting old. #dog LORE* not role omg #im not typing all that again rip

[sundial-bee-scribbles]

hiki and geki matching post

hiki and geki matching post

#utau #kazehiki utau #gekiyaku utau #(this isn't all of them but these are the ones i thought matched the most esp given the poses; these r the 偽薬; 点滴; and 顆粒 vbs respectively) #(also i hope this doesnt go against kuzutokaze's terms?? cause its just low quality screencaps and not the full high res art) #(but ill delete if i have to) #theyre sillyyyy i like them BOTH when u have vsynths that are meant to b counterparts do not separate them!!! #angst siblings angst siblings... (to me.) maybe im particularly based b/c reminds me of my own brother and i #but also ive just read interpretations/fantheories abt these two that have absolutely DESTROYEDDD me sad as fuck man wtf 😭😭 #i have a lot of thoughts abt a lot of vsynths. ughhhh curse me not having a lot of time to draw rn #i will admit i was a bit more hiki based at first lmao but ive warmed up to geki; yeah her voice tone def isnt for everyone #i totally get that. but she can roll her rs so good LMAOO... and also just in the way/s i interpret her she reminds me a lot of myself :( #[well ok i project heavilyyy on a lot of my vsynth interpretations but these two. i can do things. *hits them w/ my latine beam*] #[JOKINGG... /hj. in a way. shhhhhhhh dont even worry about it. i NEEED to test out more how they both sound in spanish tho i need] #please ignore these tags for the love of god 😭😭😭 its late and im going a little unhinged

[mazzy-rockstar]

Monday blues are hitting me hard today

#you can ignore this if you want cause im gonna talk a lot of shit and sads and feelings #but as i’ve realised i literally have no one to empty my heart out to irl #and it’s fucking heartbreaking cause i love my friends but I don’t think they love me back #which is an insane though but I genuinely think it’s true like #i moved away 4 ish months ago and i know that communication comes from both side but like i wanted to test smt #so i stopped texting first and guess what?? only 2 friends texted me #1 because she’s genuinely a good friend i think and the other because she needed money (which i gave her like a fucking fool) #my heart just hurts cause i realised i’m not as important to them as they are to me and I’m completely misreading our relationship and #it sucks because I thought they were going to be my friends for life but now they’re all posting recaps of 2023 and im in none of their pics #even in pics where i was present at the time #and i dont know if it’s intentional or if im just being an insecure little bitch but it fucking hurts #i just want to be important to someone #i want to be someone’s person #not a last resort like #they keep doing stuff together which i get like life moves on and i’m the one that left #but not a single text or a pic or a ‘we miss you!’ #not even a fucking heart on insta stories #am i being desperate?? or do I actually have shitty friends #like i have impostor syndrome in my own fucking friendgroup??? #I can’t just drop them either cause then I’ll actually have no one #idk i must exude some sort of energy #i dont think ive ever had a genuine good best friend like for some reason they leave after 3 years #(and this is why i have trust issues and attachment disorders) #anyway I’ll probably just suck it up and go about my day #ive lived 24 years like this what’s an entire life #it’s wild cause i have a good time whenever i’m with them (i think) and then i leave and it’s crickets #i feel like hired entertainment sometimes #idk my head hurts so I’m probably overthinking but like these feelings come from somewhere right? #i have to stop

[oozeandgoo-art]

old drawing I never posted. i like these two freaks, I should draw them more

#rubin #skironir #oc #rukaan #humanization #skironir is fully on board with the murder for the record. She likes rubin because he loves to kill people and she thinks it's cool and fun #someone warned her when she was like human-nineteen (im not sure how to translate caribou ages to humans LMAO could've been #anywhere from 19 to 25ish) that there was a weird loner freak eating out of the garbage and threatening people with knives and she went #'damn thats crazy. hes kinda hot. im gonna be his friend' #rubin (also approximately the same age as her) was like 'ive never had a friend before and im not going to start now. fuck off' #and then failed so hard at not having any friends that he fell in love like an idiot and now he's stuck with her forever and she can't get #rid of him. which works for skironir because she would be very sad if she did get rid of him #im not sure im gonna keep the she/her pronouns for skir. in all the stuff i've written for the deer game with skir i use he/him #but rubin using he/him pronouns in the mg!au also trips me up a bunch because i keep being like this is girl rubin he's a girl i made him #into a girl and now he's a girl. and then i get lost in the pronoun weeds LMAO #you undrestand #anyway i enjoy them a lot #very straightforward characters. they roll into town. they cause problems. they kill someone. they leave #i should make magical girl katjaana straight up just a dude. for balance. a dude who uses she/her and turns into a magical girl also #or maybe i could go full tuxedo mask with her.... idk

[todayisafridaynight]

my dads never beating the masumi arakawa kin allegations why the fuck did he say to me 'i was like both your mother and father when you were growing up' ???????????

#snap chats #this coupled with my dad just offhandedly being like 'i used to want to be a girl growing up' .... bonkers #he's not wrong tho like before my mom drove him off like an evil witch he really did everything for us #i regularly say i dont have a mom so i mean. my dads free to take the title too ig LOL #hes goofy as hell tho he also has a chronic condition of loving my mom so much. excpet my mom sucks a lot unlike akane #i dont even know why he does .. we regularly talk bout how cringe she is/was but he'll always be lke She Wasn't Always Like That #WELL SHE IS NOW OLD MAN you already blocked her number JLAKRWJFLAKJ #he makes me sad whenever we talk bout her cause he just has so much love for people when he shouldnt 💀 #oh but yeah. in case it wasnt obvious i hung out with my dad today :]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]] best day EVER I GOT JOLLIBEES #AND MY DAD GOT ME A CUTE LIL GIRAFFE BRACELET VLAEKJVLEKJVLEKJ i cant escape kirins #he keeps giving me bracelets i sound lke a maraca when i shake peoples hands now #ok bye maybe ill doodle something #jk im making tea. again. i had tea.

[wildwren]

SOPHIE WILDE and PEARL MACKIE as SOPHIA WESTERN and HONOUR NEWTON // Episode 2 of Tom Jones (2023)

Honour, I refuse this marriage. So I must leave this house tonight. Will you come with me?

#tom jones #tom jones 2023 #tom jones pbs #tom jones itv #the history of tom jones #sophia western #honour newton #sophie wilde #pearl mackie #perioddrama #perioddramaedit #historicaldrama #weloveperioddrama #my edits #going with the screenshots for a bit cause i feel like i can get better quality #anyway ive already talked a lot about sophia and honour so i wont go off in the tags right now #basically i just love them so much im going to scream #and this set was so hard because sophia doesnt smile much this episode and it makes me so sad :((((((

[aerticent]

I want to preface this by saying that I am in no way shape or form saying that any of this is excusing Elara and the shit she did to Maven. I think she's a pos who deserved what she got. That being said her and Maven's relationship is so interesting to me!!

I hate when people paint Elara as hateful towards Maven and like she viewed him as inadequate because I just don't think that's true. I think she understood Maven's position as the second born and as her son specifically. I think she understood that despite him being innocent regarding everything that happened to Coriane, he would always be antagonized by their family and he would always be othered by his father. I think because of this she conflated every "flaw" as something major even if it's as small as him learning to walk later than everyone else. Those "flaws" would always follow him, he wasn't given the same leeway as Cal. Obviously this doesn't excuse what she did to him, nothing will, but I do think it's interesting to think about how she reached the conclusion that what she was doing to him was okay.

I also like how there are instances in the books themselves of her being caring towards Maven in a very motherly way. There are two instances that come to mind of this happening. After the Sun Shooting Mare sees her clinging onto him. I think it's because she finds comfort in him and she was also worried for him, because even though the shooting was planned it was still something that could've killed him. There was also when Mare mentioned Thomas during the betrayal scene. Mare brings Thomas up and even though Maven brushes her off she can see she hurt him. Elara immediately reached towards Maven and told him to say goodbye. I don't see this as her being scared of Mare getting through to him, but instead her being worried because she knows more than anyone how much Thomas still effected him. I've always interpreted her taking his ability to dream away as a desperate attempt to help her son who was grieving. She was likely the only person to ever see Maven's grief and how much it was hurting him and the only thing she could do was try to remove any trace of Thomas from Maven. Even though it didn't fully work, if anything it left him worse off, I do think it was her trying to help her child in any way she could.

Elara, more than anyone, was aware of the way everyone in that court viewed Maven. Even though she knew Cal loved him, I wouldn't blame her if she had the fear that Cal would turn on him given that all of Cal's family openly showed their disdain for Maven. I also think that the treatment Cal received compared to Maven reaffirmed her belief that any "flaw" Maven had would follow him always. For example, Cal was never very good at politics and, despite politics being something he would need to be competent at, he was always given leeway when it came to it. It was understood that even though Cal struggled with politics he would receive help from his council. Compare this to Maven. Maven struggled heavily with combat, he was competent enough with it to defend himself but he was by no means great. It felt like there was a sense a shame that surrounded the fact that Maven needed protection. That even if he wanted to, he couldn't fight in a battle the way Cal could. Maven's strengths were always cast aside because of his weaknesses, whereas Cal's were accepted and he was given the resources he needed without any sense of any major insult.

I wonder what an average day was like for Maven when he was growing up and what his relationship with his mother was like day to day. I don't think Elara was in his head making changes everyday, so I wonder what their day to day interactions entailed. I wonder if she was openly motherly to him or if she restricted it private interactions only. I wonder how exactly she felt when Maven would go to Cal for comfort instead of her. I wonder how she felt knowing that everyone (atleast on Tibe's side smh I NEED more on the Merandus') outside of their immediate family at best couldn't care less about Maven and at worst hated him simply for existing. I wonder how she felt watching Tibe emotionally neglect Maven. I think most of all I want to know if she ever did feel bad for what she was doing to him. Did she ever feel guilt or shame for changing things about him? Was there any instances where she didn't want to make the changes but felt she had to for his safety in the court? Did she have limits/changes she would not make no matter what? Were there any changes she regretted?

I think in general the story could've benefited as a whole if there was more insight to Elara and her mentality when it came to Maven simply because it would've fleshed out two of the central antagonists more. I think just getting the conversation where she told Maven the plan regarding his engagement to Mare from her perspective could've added some insight to their relationship and Maven's character as a whole.

I also think Maven's feelings towards his mother are wonderfully written. I love that he understands she's hurt him and he still loves her. He tells Mare about how she forced him to walk and told her that Elara only told him because she felt it proved her love for him. He understands that what she did wasn't love because all it did was hurt him, but he still loves her. He still wants to be buried next to her and he still misses her. It's heartbreaking to know that the only reason he loves her as much as he does is because he feels he has no one else. She hurt him but she was the only one who cared enough to do anything at all.

I would feel wrong not mentioning Cal as he is the only other character who was with Maven through all of this and he certainly did care. Obviously it isn't Cal's fault he wasn't able to help Maven. They were both children, to expect Cal to have been able to do something when they were both children is stupid. But I do see how Maven could rationalize this as him not caring enough. He loved Cal so much and actively sought him out for comfort, so I can understand how Maven would feel betrayed when Cal wasn't able to notice the changes occurring. Once again, it isn't Cal's fault in the slightest but I understand how Maven reached the conclusion he didn't care enough. (not to mention he had his ability to love Cal taken but I have mixed feelings on that whole ordeal)

I want to once again mention, none of this excuses Elara's actions. What she did to Maven is unforgivable even if she did think she was helping him. I think it's interesting to think about why she did everything she did and how she justified it to herself.

I probably missed a few things, it's been a while since I read these books. (I'm rereading them soon so maybe I'll make a follow up afterwards with any new thoughts I have) I've been thinking a lot about the relationship a mother can have with her child and naturally my mind drifted to these two lol.

#I feel like this sounds like I'm an Elara apologist #I love shit like this jkjaghjl #thinking about how far a mother will go to keep her child safe even if ultimately it causes more harm than good #I didn't mention the whole situation with Coriane cause this is long enough as is #So much of my curiosity's regarding Elara would be solved if there was just a little more background on her and her family #what I'm trying to say is I need content on her family please im begging lol #I feel like Elara gets written off by the fandom a lot and it makes me sad cause she is literally what turned Maven into the monster he is #She deserves attention for that alone #anyways I hope this wasn't too long and I made sense lmao #red queen #red queen headcanons #red queen series #red queen analysis #maven calore #elara merandus

[the-kipsabian]

you know its time to go to bed when the sad thoughts start rolling in

#im just living with the realization that fanfiction will always be an under appreciated art form. writing in general tbh #like visual arts will always be looked as superior cause they are bite-sized and take no time to consume and whatnot #im not saying one is more valuable than the other they are both important but from consumption pov #and then all that with where i am right now with creative stuff and its just like... #im making some of my best work ive ever done and im so happy to be writing. i feel great about it and it makes me so happy #but then again. there used to be art. that ppl actually maybe looked at and liked more. even if it is/was subpar and like. yeah #i dont know. i just feel like written works should be more appreciated. like i totally understand that they take a lot more to consume #but at the same time i feel like thats an excuse but what do i know i have too much time in my hands and i still miss stuff #anyways. yeah it just. personally makes me sad. making the stuff i love so much right now but cause its in written form its just #i mean i miss drawing. i think. i dont know. but i also love writing so SO much more #anyways this makes no sense im just sad now im gonna go to bed good night. dont know whats gonna come out of me tomorrow #night is an absolute mess on main

[cephalonheadquarters]

RED VOX MENTIONED HIIIII I LOVE RED VOX was just thinking about them the other day actually I haven’t listened in so long I need to relisten….. AAGAGHHH I love red vox. I love the flow of their albums and how good all the songs sound together I love how the outro at the end of what could go wrong has the same melody from the beginning of another light I LOVE ANOTHER LIGGHTTTTTTTTT Ilove red vox

yah ive been spending the afternoon relistening to a bunch of songs and albums lol visions and afterthoughts are probably my favorite ones

#i keep relistening to visions and afterthoughts the song itself its so bhbhbhbhbh #Idk how to describe it #their songs just make me really sad sometimes #ive just been laying here for the past 4 hours and listening they make me want to do nothing #🙁🙁🙁🙁 #pale blue dot & as long as i can dream always get me #bhbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb whatever #i also really like the intro of choking on the spite #i have a hard time remembering anything but i do like a lot of other songs lol #when i listened to Tell Me for the first time i had to pause at the 'running out of time' part cause i was so blown away its so good #i love red vox 😑😑😑 #they make me think #burn a picture really good too #urghhhhhh #*dies* #i like how in the garden works. Unsure how to explain it but it goes from idk. Like. #Hes talking abt garden and then turns into jungle something much bigger idkkkkkkkk im not good at talking about what i think about lyrics

[selkiecoded]

okay thats interesting! in the SF try-outs during the song "legally blonde" she sings about how she cant be legally blonde, while in the official version AND THE DEMO she sings about letting her be legally blonde. which means that at some point they changed the lyrics around, and then changed them back! laurence o'keefe.... nell benjamin.... what occurs in your twisted minds

#covers mouth sorry so sorry guys #im a huge fan of beacon of positivity + good boy (elle puts a leash on emmett confirmed) + love and war (not in the demo but part of SF) #+ i liked some of the lyrics in the demo version of so much better (it called back to beacon of positivity!!! (i am insane)) such as: #I dream of your name next to my own but mine's looking fine up there alone #but i greatly prefer all the official songs we got. well. maybe good boy over ireland wouldve been fun (i think ireland is boring) #but itd play into the 'all men are dogs hurr hurr' joke that im glad they avoided. anyways. what was i saying. #right i havent listened to every version of everything yet (for example theres a SF version of chip on my shoulder i need to watch) #(and just the SF vers in general. shes hidden from me... why was emmett there before the remix... let me see their conversation) #but from what i have heard they made a lot of changes that were sorely needed. in take it like a man demo shes so much meaner?? #it made me sad. it wasnt a duet + they wrung out the romantic tension (no subtext by calvin klein... sigh) + shes meaner!!!! #in the bway vers hes baffled but enjoys going along w it + she genuinely likes him even when hes wearing his regular clothes #but in the demo vers she keeps calling him stuff like ugly duckling and talking about how the geek is gone :( but she likes that geek.. #the lines 'how much do you think i earn??' and 'kindly shut up :)' are funny but speak to a dynamic between the two that makes me sad... #follow me for more beautiful opinions on a fifteen year old musical #(heaves. do you know weird it is to see comments from 15yrs ago when this was actually showing. my brother is fifteen.) #god im so sorry i should be put down like a dog #lgb bootleggers are intense. i swear they got a bootleg every night or smth bc we got her shoe flying off + SF + kyle as understudy etc #go watch a so much better compilation sometime how did they take so many bootlegs?? how did you find them?? #and its awesome cause these were filmed on 2007/2008 tech which means they have 15 pixels maximum #SORRRRYYYYYYYYYY

[faineant-girl]

i wish all addicts, in recovery or not, a life free of sorrow forever

#.vent #kinda. im not gonna delete this one though #i just. i sure am thinking about this a lot. #i listen to like. trip report videos or whatever and like. the comments section on every single one. just nasty #theres no sympathy for an addict to be seen. unless they're also an addict or are recovering #my dad is a recovered addict. hes been clean for 6 years. i love my dad and hes a wonderful person. #i obviously still have trauma from when he was actively in his mess. to deny that addicts have caused others trauma is to be reductive. #addicts can cause trauma because theyre people. and people can cause trauma all the same #but the lack of understand or care or basic respect to anyone dealing with addiction is just. appalling. #im sick and tired of hearing the same old fucking phrase that its the addicts fault cuz they decided to take the first hit. like #man how fucking cruel can you be. how heartless ya know. #like its obvious hardly anyone commenting abiut this knows anything about what being an addict is like. like. #i know i dont. ive been sober my whole life right. i do not have the same experience. #but. i have a compulsive disorder that makes me perform a task that is 1 harmful 2 almost entirely out of my control #and i cannot describe to you how difficult it is to ignore that urge. for your mind to know what youre doing is harmful. but #your body physically is not listening to you. #like. its a different thing when its addiction. but being compelled to do something you know is hurting you isnt unfamiliar to me #plus with addiction the added factor that your body becomes physically dependent on a drug and it hurts you for a long ass time to try and #stop and withdrawl can sometimes literally be lethal. its so fucking sad to see people hold not even. like an ounce of sympathy ya know #if an addict has abused you im not saying you need to forgive them. you dont. but not every addict is youre abuser #and while you do not need to be involved. every addict deserves a good life. everyone deserves a chance. #just. god. makes me mad. makes me upset. #if you are an addict especially if youre not in recovery. i hope your days go well. i hope the world gets kinder to you.

[bmpmp3]

more fashion dreamer pics! more Dave plus I made my OC Meena (that one of many OCs i made off a dream LOL) as a second muse! i dont have a very close hair colour for her vaguely pinky creamsicle colour i usually paint her with rn so she just has fully pink hair for the time being jhkfldskjrf also raven showed up at my showroom! and some isaac fits because they say shit like %#^[#!{%#% so i always wanna talk to them LOL

can u tell "flirty" was my favourite style in style savvy DS vhjbelkfrfe

#fashion dreamer #the very first game the original DS game. i miss u flirty. i know it got like #divested into mostly bold and a bit of girly and pop #irl i think its supposed to be inspired by like gyaru-ish stuff and a lot of general 2000s hot pink shenanigans #looks like jirei kei but more tube tops and fur and a more saturated pink LOL #it was a bit redundant of a style so it makes sense they got rid of it after the first game #but listen. black and hot pink and bows and lace. i just love it HJKDLSJFKDS #attempting to single handedly make as much flirty esque clothes as i can now #thats one thing thats nice about the clothing making aspect of this game. its a bit more limited than i would like rn #but now i can make ALL the flirty style. i can even make type b flirty.... im unstoppable #like everyone else i expected but am still a bit bummed by the genderlocking in this game #i expected the clothes but the socks and shoes being locked is a bit of a killer sometimes.. #i want type a's in dress shoes and type b's in heels is that so much to ask #also i want fishnets for type b so so desperately #let dave wear fishnets. please #what was a bit of a shock tho was the npc poses u unlock are also type a or b only #which SUCKS because NOW type a's cant look half asleep like sleep deprived simon #and type b's cant do a tadaaa pose like woodland whateverhernamewas #its so sad because my oc dave would be perfect for the tadah! and my oc meena would be perfect for the half asleep #THAT i hope they update especially cause like yeah u need to alter things for the different rigs but its an animation man #pwease. pwetty pwease i want those poses to be universal ;-; #still playing like daily tho LOL intensely addicting gameplay despite the many flaws

[stillcominback]

𝐐𝐔𝐈𝐂𝐊 𝐋𝐈𝐓𝐓𝐋𝐄 𝐋𝐈𝐅𝐄 𝐔𝐏𝐃𝐀𝐓𝐄: so, i'm actually in the process of moving with my parents back home to california [ hopefully be outta texas by the end of august ... no concrete dates yet, but the ball is definitely moving adkfldsf ]! i have talked to my manager at work about it because i'd like to keep my job / work remote [ which is ... possible, but with the owner it's not a sure thing unfortunately cause he's just .... yeah ]

so!! it's just been very stressful right now with the uncertainty / potential even if it's a tiny chance that i'll be out of a job that i've been grinding and growing at for nearly 11 years -- AND IT LOOKS like my boss and i are gonna have 'the chat' with the owner maybe in the next couple of weeks so i'm ... on edge y'know!

and on top of all that: i'm being made to move out of my cubicle [ for about the 5th time in the last few years ] so that a new person on our team can have it ... i'll have less privacy at my new desk and just ... it's gonna be a time so, i may not have as much time to take 'breaks' in tumblr or my drafts or whatever like i usually have had. so!! as slow as i am, stuff on my blogs [ writing-wise in particular ] is gonna majorly slow down maybe until we're all moved?? i'm not 100% sure tbh!

i appreciate everyone's patience and kindness as always!! it's just been a tough time over here, but stay tuned! ❤️ ❤️

#also: on my salary i can't afford to live here on my own so moving with my parents it just the most responsible thing to do??? #that and texas is like a legit nightmare rn and i think a move would just be better for my mental health overall #but please keep coming at me in my ic wires and on discord (or IMs here) to chat / plot #also i love writing on discord as well!! #honestly getting to chat with you guys and plot things out etc really helps me while my brain is a such a mess so it means a lot! #just cause my current drafts / replies may take me longer than i'd like rn please know i'm SO EXCITED to have time to write them! #so yeah kjsadhfdags #life's life-ing rn and just any bits of joy distraction or whatever i can get i will take! #i was just sad cause i have so many good drafts rn and wanna write them but i just simply caNNOT rn *cries* #00. // OUT OF AMMO ( OOC POST. )