#im so sorry if i missed someone lol

[hum-suffer]

Explain any 5 of your mutuals as a fictional character

Oooohhhhh I didn't know ye mere paas ayega lmfao

I did more than five because i didn't wanna leave anyone out lol😭

@mayakimayahai is that one character with whom the reader relates the most. The main character does something stupid and you are thinking that this character should hit the main character. You want a spin off of this character solely because you want to hear what their 3 am thoughts are

@talesinmyhead040122 is that one mysterious crone character who comes out of the woods, reads a prophecy and goes back to their little cottage. They are mysterious but somehow extremely fun as well. Dry humour kinda fun

@alhad-maharani is the one where every reader searches their aesthetic on Pinterest and everyone instantly changes their icons as per their aesthetic. Cinnamon roll but would also kill you vibe. That one character who comes in every once a while, points at a crossroads and tells main character to go north to find their destiny

@magic-coffee is that one character that pops up every two chapters. Like main character's elder sibling. They're extremely cool and you like them more than the main character

@shyaamsundari and @vijayasena are that one cute character that comes along in the quest on the way and you get way too attached within like five paragraphs. The "I've known them for only half a day but if something happened to them I would kill everyone in this room and then myself" energy

@apsarareads is that one who randomly appeared at chapter 32 and you're like brother what but also they just fit in the story so well so you don't question them at all lol. The "character A but female version" type of character

@perpetualwhimsy the one you'd draw as a teddy bear. The one you're gonna look and say omg that's so me!!! You use increasingly weird but apt analogies for them. The story is going ❌❌👁️👄👁️??? But this character is going 😒🤷🏻‍♀️

And of course

@chandrkhev randomly appeared in a slow burn book at chapter 25 and you're debating just how long is that role but with each paragraph you're like....oh...I need to make mood boards, aesthetics, playlists everything. And you end up writing incorrect quotes about him but they're probably correct

#desiblr #suffer ye suhana nahi #desi tumblr #im so sorry if i missed someone lol #these were on the top of my head! #qna? #been so long since i got an anon lol

[iamlivinginsideyourwalls]

Posts Kai Ninjago and scurries away back into the shadows (also posted on @explodesanddieseverywhere )

Alternative backgrounds under the cut

#I posted this on my alt as well #So dont get upset if you see this on someone elses blog too #Kai bbg i havent drawn you in so long im sorry #hopefully some of you remember me lol #ninjago #lego ninjago #ninjago fanart #ninjago kai #kai ninjago #kai smith #kai jiang #do we still use those tags for his name #idk its been a while #anyways im gonna be posting here again #missed it

[spiderversegf]

How long have you been married and how did you know it was the right person 😔

i’ll try to not make this an essay. we just celebrated four years together, three married, on halloween! i’ll say i knew pretty quickly. i think within three conversations i was thinking “this is someone i’m going to love very very much.” i’ve never been very good at being. normal sjdksjsj so i’m pretty sure our first convos consisted of me rambling about mothman for some reason? i was terrified of being annoying but i also just. enjoyed talking to him so much. there’s a quote from if beale street could talk where james baldwin writes, “fonny liked me so much that it didn’t occur to him that he loved me,” and that’s exactly how it felt. there has always been just a sense of understanding between us, things we communicate w/o words. he’s my best friend and it’s absolutely insane to me that he loves me this much too???

#✉️ #sorry for being gay it’s his bday and i miss him bc i was exposed to someone w covid so i can’t see him today :( #oh i also knew when he told me that my singing voice is one of his favorite sounds. i love to sing but im really shy ab it #and singing in the car is one of my fav things. i love holding his hand and singing to my silly lil playlist in the car!!!! #he’s my passenger seat princess <3 #feel free to ask ab my husband i love talking ab him lol

[bibyshitsuji24k]

Daisy

In the Victorian Era, daisies symbolized innocence, loyalty, and an ability to keep things secret.

yikes

#yana (sensei) reaaAAlly likes the language of flowers does she not?? #i really like to read this manga again and find more hidden things about the 2CT #Im sure someone has already pointed it out but i won't scroll down 83943 kuro posts to find it #im also trying to keep me active in this fandom lol I'm sorry my dears #black butler #please dont tag me as spam #just block me #kuroshitsuji #ciel phantomhive #elizabeth midford #cielizzy #smilizzy #again #idk how to tag my ship anymore lol tot #cielizzy shippers we need a cielizzy week please i miss those times so freaking much qwq

[httpiastri]

I keep think about the Ollie Paul fic if the reader was related to someone in the motorsports world, where in the song Taylor sings "talks business with my father" and Ollie is talking to them about racing (trying to bond) and they are nice and all BUT later privately they are like does this kid talk about anything else? And they tell you how they miss Paul

wahhhhhhh i love this 🥺 it makes so much sense... esp maybe paired with the other ask i got about her dad being like maybe involved in the fda, so ollie kinda wants to impress him but also keeps talking about ferrari stuff and her dad is very like "😶😶 okay yes sure but don't you have anything else in your life?"... but ollie is just doing it to be kind and he doesn't understand what he's doing wrong, he just wants to be a good son-in-law :( and yes her parents subtly trying to tell her about how they liked paul better........

#aaaaaaa thank u for this!!!! #ollie is so sweet but he sure does feel like the type to only talk about racing #esp if hes around someone who's also involved in that world #i was kinda thinking like #hmmm would parents rlly say something like that tho? would they actually complain about him not talking about anything except for racing? #and say that they miss paul?? #but then i realized that yes *my* parents def are like that #complaining about anything and everything 😍 always saying how much they hate my brother's girlfriend #no wonder i never wanted to bring home a partner to them #............off topic lol im sorry #asks! #anon! #perfectly fine thoughts!

[prisonpodcast]

some ccs are just straight up nuts there’s no other explanation

#saw a comment on r/dwt2 and it made me look into the moonzy/draggie situation #this freak accused him of having ‘grooming tendencies’ when he was YOUNGER than her #he showed all their DMs and it was just reciprocated flirting ?? #he was initiated more but it seemed reciprocal to me? #she just got mad at him bc he replied to one of her tweets where she was flirting with Karl with ‘ouch’ #<- replied in DMs I mean #I guess bc she thought the flirting was a joke ?? #how is this an ‘experience’ you need to speak up about im loosing my mind #‘guy flirted with me I flirted back but I wasn’t really interested pls show ur sympathies and like and subscribe🥺’ #and in her statement she was talking about an anon who came out about their experiences prior #saying they had been groomed but draggie had fully debunked that years ago #so idk why she was bringing that up ?? #and ofc you have aim.sey and max and sniff in the replies with their heart emojis #straight up nuts I’m losing brain cells here #btw she’s the one who said something about how a lot of ccs didn’t support her #including big ones from that ‘stupid mine.craft server’ (meaning dsmp obv) #just nuts straight up nuts #negativity #like I have to be missing something (and if I am pls tell me but I don’t think I am???) #because saying this cringe flirting with someone YOUNGER THAN YOUUU is ‘groomer tendencies’ is fucking nuts #it’s just what is with these people like what’s wrong with them #why does mildly uncomfortable experience = horrible predator we need to inform the public about bc they’re a danger to society #sorry I’m done I’m just actually upset lol

[munamania]

i dont wanna be a dick and act like i have no responsibility in this but after a point dont u think if all you ever say to ur friend is Omg you never make it out why dont you ever come out with us you bail all the time youre such a flake etc. dont u think that person (me) is like. not gonna feel so inclined to. be there

#like. yeah i was bad last semester i get it. and probably i shouldve tried at least once or twice to push thru #but i was so exhausted. and every time they would bring up hanging out it was on my longest days #and when i casually brought this up they were just like Well we have long days too. Okay! #and i love and miss these friends and i know for the most part. or at least think. theyre just teasing #i hate being seen as the flake like any time i do have to be like Oh i cant make that or Shit im sorry i have to bail #i try to offer an alternative???? and they never compromise on that. how is that fair like im not just outright rejecting u all the time #not to mention most of the time last semester it was always gonna be somewhere super easy for them to get home and far from me #im not like constantly holding this against them btw but i feel like they're holding it against me and i dont have any more apologies in me #anyway. that said. if theyre somewhere really expensive and far from me tn and i get out of work early #i. probably will not make it. lol! if theyd be willing to come a little closer to my place to one of the dives or some shit thatd be great #and like im not doing much today until class and work so really like. i WILL try. but i think they could sometimes not go for the most #expensive and inconvenient option as well. and these r all things ill say if it becomes like a problem problem or smth #but rn im not gonna be a dickhead and shit on their plans #but also! ok whatever im not gonna keep going on i just feel shitty im not 100% better from being sick and im just frustrated #about having to fuckign grovel over and over and over. i meant it the first few times now im just like #u could try not to be an asshole to me for five seconds too. like. i am very clearly not someone trying to secretly stop being friends #w yall. things happen #abby talks #and maybe this is an esp sore spot bc like ive certainly had some of you bail on me or be flaky or whatever before. and i didnt throw #a fucking fit to your face about it. probably bc it actually did feel more mean spirited sometimes #OK im sorry im not trying to make my friends sound evil and its mostly just the one and like im working on forgiving her for it cause it #was years ago but also like christ!

[krysmcscience]

Saw this prompt for incorrect OC quotes and couldn't resist with a bunch of my Breach goobers. Some of them would absolutely say these things word for word in canon if I gave them half the chance to, though. XD

They're in order of when they showed up in person - Qīng, Ghost, Red, Marisol, Shio, Cam, Daruk, Tawoos, and Alondra - as well as some important honorable mentions who have only been mentioned or gotten dialogue - Star, Blake, and Creation.

Star's design is a slight spoiler, I suppose, but it doesn't reveal if they're human or impostor, so it's all good. Creation's "design" also isn't a spoiler at all, because They can look however They want, LOL. As for Shio...some of you who have seen the body horror I've done of them may be wondering why they look so normal here, but I promise there are Reasons. :3c

In other news, will I be making a liar out of Shio in an upcoming Breach canon divergence? ..........Maybe~ >:3c

#original characters #breach #among us #(technically lol) #look i even revealed what their colors would be - as if it wasn't already patently obvious #aside from creation but - uh - ignore them (trust me it's better this way) #meanwhile qīng's color isn't even available which is a Damn Shame #there needs to be a sky blue already ffs #cyan ain't cutting it #if it were an actual lobby qīng would waffle so hard between blue and cyan and would miss his chance to pick either XD #the closest quote to canon is cam's because she REALLY wants a different job and she'll take yours in a fucking HEARTBEAT #meanwhile the closest quote to BECOMING canon is creation's and it is taking all of my willpower to resist their insistence that i allow it #the most incorrect quote of all is definitely blake's - he is so mad at me for drawing this and calling out how he feels about his old job #the biggest lie here is red's - he absolutely thinks about breaking rules and does it a lot more than he'd like to admit #someone give poor tawoos a fucking break - they didn't ask for this #i promise that marisol is more than The Bitchy Sunflower Girl - just give her some time - i promise #alondra has other aspects too but she would be weirdly offended if you tried to assure her that she's more than just Squeaky Mouse Girl #if daruk ever had to go to anger management he would accidentally incite a rage riot just like dan did in that episode of dan vs #ghost i'm sorry but your fashion sense is incomprehensible and i don't even know how i come up with half the stuff i put you in #did blake steal the jacket off of crinklytinfoil's pink/chase from the skeld? absolutely not - he borrowed it cuz those two would be BUDS #these tags are ridiculous #ok im done now

[hayaku14]

Actor!Kaito au where Kaito has put down the mantle and became a great magician as himself but then decided to pursue other things alongside magic.

Kaito is notorious in the industry for never breaking character in front of the camera. Every single cast member could be breaking out in laughter and Kaito would just look into the camera with a deadpan stare. His co-actor is already on the floor dying of laughter but Kaito continues with his lines, even improvising which makes his co-actors laugh harder and everyone else in the room breaks. He's always in the blooper reels but it's never him making the mistake. It's always his co-stars in tears, choking, and out of breath.

It's not like he doesn't smile when everyone's practically breaking their backs laughing. But he doesn't just smile, he grins. There's a twinkle of mischief in his eyes and playfulness on the upturn of his lips. Because, ah! Of course this is a game to him, of course. Kuroba Kaito commands you into a fit of giggles and considers it his win.

After a while, it becomes some sort of challenge to try and make Kuroba Kaito break out of character, to make him laugh. On shoots, his co-stars will try and fail every time. This man is unflappable.

But there's one man who also wanted to challenge the great Kuroba Kaito. Always had, even when he was tiny and less than half his age.

Kaito seems pretty smug about the whole thing so Shinichi decides to show up on set one day with no warning, determined to wreck havoc.

He was sooo gonna mess with Kaito.

--

shit shinichi does whilst directly in kaito's eyesight while he's filming:

puts on that one blue sweater kaito loves to see him in (cause it makes shinichi look soft and it makes his eyes pop, but most importantly, because that sweater belongs to kaito).

starts sucking a lollipop. it's sweet but it's also coffee-flavored. he came prepared. kaito, however, was not.

blatant eye-fucking, real sultry, seeing kaito flub his lines unexpectedly turns him on, he's gonna visit sets more often.

lots of lip biting and lip licking. are his lips dry and cracked? yes. is he gonna keep biting and licking anyway? if the way kaito can't stop staring at him continues then of course he's gonna keep doing it.

winks at kaito. actually winks at him. kaito trips over air.

drops something behind him accidentally which leaves him no choice but to turn around and bend over. kaito actually chokes.

--

When Kaito walks up to him red-faced, supposedly annoyed, but looking more begrudgingly pleased, Shinichi knows that Kaito knows exactly what he's doing.

Shinichi summons his best Conan act and cutely feigns ignorance. Kaito is sulky but the pout is cute. He understands now why Kaito loves to pull shit like this on him.

He decides he's gonna do it more.

He brings out the banana.

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(alternate version under the cut lol warning it’s corny)

there was a different version of shinichi making kaito laugh lol

it’s still about kaito being an unflappable man but this time shinichi doesn’t purposely make him laugh. 

anyways, i wanted them to laugh at something stupid that kaito’s chuckles carry over to the scene he’s filming

kaito is filming overseas and shinichi is on a visit. they’re in his waiting room where kaito practices his lines and shinichi reads a book. kaito has a line where he goes, “...his chin caught...” or something like that and shinichi snorts out of nowhere, trying to stop his giggles but ultimately fails.

kaito asks whats so funny and shinichi still can’t stop laughing. 

he then reveals that the line sounded like “chinko” or dick and it made shinichi laugh

it’s so dumb and stupid but shinichi has been hearing english everywhere for days and suddenly he hears kaito say something that sounds like ‘dick.’ he just couldn’t help but laugh.

kaito looks at him unimpressed. doesn’t particularly finds it as funny as shinichi does but seeing shinichi laugh so heartily pulls the giggles out of him easily.

later on when kaito is finally filming the scene, he gets to the ‘dick’ line and he can see from his peripheral vision that shinichi is trying to stifle his laugh. kaito is caught off guard and he can’t fight off the giggles suddenly bursting out of him. oh he is fucked.

they try some more takes but kaito cannot stop laughing. can’t even start the line without bursting into laughter anymore. shinichi is dying trying to hide but can’t help his laughter.

“SHINICHI! I’M SERIOUS, STOP IT!!” Kaito yells as he tries to stifle his laughter and profusely apologizes to the director and his co-actors.

“O-okay..pfft- sorry! I’m leaving now.” He leaves giggling all the way out.

Kaito can’t help but smile.

(This alternate version was cause I watched this compilation from Uramichi Oniisan where miyano’s character was laughing at dumb dick puns and it made me think of kaishin doing the same. just kaishin laughing at dumb things and inconveniencing the entire staff lol)

#kaishin #dcmk #detective conan #kudou shinichi #kuroba kaito #dc prattles #YES THIS HC IS FINALLY FREE #this has been rotting in the drafts im sorry babe #i literally wrote this before that 'kid saviour' shinichi au LOL #anyways whatever its there now #it's corny and it's mushy but fck it i love it anyways 🥺 #shinichi finding the joy in breaking down the poker face but make it funny and cute 😌 #ANYWAYS everyone on set can definitely feel the UST lol #but they cant help but laugh at kaito tripping over air missing cues and flubbing lines #no ones seen this shit happen before lol everyone their felt like thwy were witness to some secret part of the universe #also seeing kudou 'i will kill you with my stare' shinichi blatantly eye fuck his boyfriend is both wild and hot and feels like #a once in a lifetime experience lol #also yes kaito isnt perfect and he couldve made mistakes BUT i like to think that kaito thiugh he's retired #he doesnt want to let go of the skills he honed as KID so he as someone whose life was on the line depending on how good his act was #acting with anything else on the line seems to pale in comparison so 🤷 #also shut up i just wanted kaishin eye fucking on set okay leave me alone!!!!!!! #(i added the alternate and dumber version under the cut lol i love it)

[clownattack]

MY CLAYS FINALLY WENT INTO THE KILN ITS BEEN A MONTH!!!!!!

#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAUUUUUUHAAAAAAAA #LISTEM #GRABS YOU #i had to fire these fuckers at a pretty high temp bcs porcelain is hitemp ok #ok #they dont do hitemp firing super often #so i was trapped #in UNABLE TO MAKE JIRLY hell #but not for long #my time is now #i will cast silver and add so many loops #hopefully everything gets fired nicely and also #sad thing is #its not even all of my stuff lol #im still waiting for my hand and head and rib parts and some glazed bones to be fired at the exact same fucking temp #so #im hoping i wont have to wait another month ngl #killing #please i miss my hot transi gf so much #this friday im probably casting silver bits haha #fear #i dont like... handling crucibles filled with molten silver... #like this shits scary sorry i dont feel safe whenever someone has a crucible full of liquid metal #not today satan #uni

[the-trans-dragon]

Hello "use Firefox" entities. If anyone would have fun expanding upon the suggestion, my phone came with like 20 google apps and I would prefer to have 0. I'm doubt that is 100% possible because there are very few default programs. Example: no default calender or photo app--just google calendar and google photo. But good lord there are too many of them

Is there a "use Firefox" suggestion for email/calendar/map/file viewer/anything?

<3

#i almost got a plain flip phone to avoid Advertisements but the cheapest was like....$100.... so i got a $200 smartphone and its #moderately adequate. i am still figuring out how to answer calls. you swipe to do it but if you dont swipe with a specific velocity it just #wiggles things around. im not sure how im supposed to lock my phone bc the lock button is also the “reads your fingerprint and unlocks your #phone“ button. so ill lock it and then it immediately registers my finger (which i need to use to press the button to lock it???) and then #it unlocks. #humans are not designed for this. we are crafty and clever and cunning but this is beyond my established skill #i miss my first “phone.” everything customizable. app. font. brightness. scheduled volume changes to silence my phone #during school hours. keybind any key to anything. double-press volume-down to pause audio without looking #i had a “swipe down menu” before they were default :3 i picked exactly which options i wanted in it. i remember my first #real phone had the swipe down menu. i was kinda mad because i knew the original designers and programmers hadnt been #compensated. it was open software. but its different when apple uses the programming in hundreds of billions of dollars worth of products. #gah and then they took SOME of the ideas and locked them behind subscriptions 🙄 like when youtube decided that you #had to pay for Youtube Plus or it pauses media if you turn off the screen. why does this app even know if my phone is locked or unlocked? #its annoying... i stay very far away from any work-arounds that could have consequences. so im stuck hopping #from newly-found method to the next. they vanish as soon as the wrong person discovers it and someone codes it out of existence #i love my little mp3player. no wifi. no bluetooth. no google. the few features it has require non-intuitive button pressing. #but....no ads. just music. purchased music! no subscription. it has a headphone jack. fits in my palm. the exterior isnt glass lol. #wow sorry i am raaaambling. oh well. its my post lol. #sorenhoots

[gayspock]

also idk im saying this as an autistic person. i kinda get really annoyed + upset when ppl try to "explain" shit to me.... like idk- i obvs dont mind if its like an honest mistake, but like... theres some replies on tht no-anding post like "haha its the autism" like ok... for you guys maybe its never been an issue but ehrm ... also realise that sometimes it is a bit insulting to have ppl constantly assume youre "stupid".... and that's NOT a sleight against ppl with autism, bc ehrm??? if anything ive felt like that happens a lot BECAUSE of my autism ... & not to mention how bad it is for women esp and poc, too, like... again its chill if someone genuinely doesnt know if its a Joke but also its not a crazy to ask to maybe think before you speak & talk down at someone and assume that theyre Unintelligent... whatever though

#Egg.txt #sorry it justticks me off like crazy #+ ik im also just particularly sensitive to it so i try to take a breather when it happens and think ohhh is this person trying to ... #and usually its fine like im actually okay and cool if someone rlly did miss that i was joking #but like ... uhm. too much of the time.... #idk ive been treated like dirt for ppl thinking i was ''stupid'' a lot . and ik a lot of ppl close to me have too.... #and i get a bit pissed off when ppl are patronising af towards me....... SORRYH LOL.

[coridallasmultipass]

I'm still internally laughing about that goth Dirk post, so I dug up the pics from the time I did a goth Dirk Strider to an NYCstuck meetup in like 2014/15ish... and this first pic is sending me lmao... it's so cringe and perfect.

My caption on the selfie:

#i didnt wanna jack their post and put my shitty pics on it but yeah this was a thing that happened #it was fucking cold that day but i had a blast #also sorry i dont mean any offense by cropping people out #... i just dont know if they want their old pictures shared again so thats that on that #throwback tuesday #hEY ITS TUESDAY YOU FAT NASTY TRASH omg i finally remembered that on a tuesday #me #dirk cosplay #goth dirk #the reason i am good at gothifying cosplay is because i was a metalhead for the longest time and had all this goth shit #ppl dont get theres a difference between metalhead goth emo scene punk etc unless u live it like lol theyre adjacent but not the same #Cori.exe #Post.exe #Image.exe #popped collar #man i should try to rock the popped collar look again it really is rad there #nothing is better than roasting your past self. i like my roast well done. #homestuck #sorry dont mean to put it in the hs tag im just tagging it in case someone has it blocked #i miss going to these meetups man.... ppl were so nice to me even tho i was a quiet nerd who is bad at socializing

[theevilicecreamsoda]

I think i ever processed anything that happened from 2021 to now like ever

#sniffle… also body dysmorphia hit #i hate this stupid website i hate it i hate how much hate there is but god its where all of my friends are #im really starting to hate someone and im just… god i hate them i wish i never met them id do better being alone in 7th grade #they were never my fuckingg friend they just treated me like shit #‘i hate talking to you so much but im not gonna tell you and i never will’ great your boyfriend told me what you said during an argument lol #worst thing was i hated talking to him i hated it!!! id forget to reply for five minutes then hed be like ‘are you there’ #im just… pissed he didnt speak up but i guess i didnt either #god im just… sometimes i just want an apology or just a hug i feel like some big bad in some dumb show or something #and it makes me wanna isolate so bad i just wanna stop going to school im just so tired #i just want to die sometimes i just feel like everyone hates me and thats why people dont talk to me #i just want to die sometimes or like just be a observer #i just wanna watch people sometimes when i was younger id want to disappear and then see what people said about me #to see if they missed me or anything #its so stupid that that never fully went away #anyways fuck idk why i fucking bothered typing all this nobody fucking cares anyway 💥💥💥🦅🦅‼️‼️❗️❗️ #if youre reading this far sorry #evilsoda.hater

[skunkes]

promise im not bringing it up just to beat a dead horse or be evil but

thinking about how some time ago someone I followed on here went on a rant about "What Makes Art Ugly" and asked for people to tell them why exactly they thought rcd/arts art was "bad", lots of people gave valid responses but none seemed to like, sate them + their view of "No Art is Bad Ever"

anyway what I conjured up as an answer was that they seemed to misapply stylization/art "rules", the best example I can think of is in the way they used the "curved lines vs straight lines" to draw arms...they had that Idea in mind, + its a good guideline, but it doesnt automatically mean a shape looks good because you draw it with curves and straight lines

What I'm getting at here is I Sort of Feel Like Dis! Idk. I dont like the way I stylize stuff and I feel like everything I draw is misapplied rules...or like I'm Almost There but im just not getting it for some reason or another...or maybe my brain refuses to let go of what things Should look like in favor of having fun...or even that everyone has figured it out but me and im just Very Stupid (because I Am). idk.

i feel it all just looks like some awfully frankensteined mess! Wish it was more cohesive wish it was more Iconic (as in literally, Icon-ic. Stylization by icon) but no I dont, i just wish I could master the organic vs iconic balance i like...but its hawrd...i dont have anyone to study off of with my goals in mind and present...+ ive always been really bad at just coming up with a brand new thing myself...idk...i just want my stuff to look good to me...and not so rigid and misapplied, Not Quite There! junk...wah...

#so badly wish i had someone to cheat off of LOL ykwim? i of course steal aspects from the greats and my peers #but it isnt enough. but then it also feels so rotten‚ y'know. to know that my art is Ruined once I add my own flair to it #once i add My Preferences to da soup of good art style aspects ive taken over the years it goes bad...wah... #urghhhh #im sorry‚ this year has been so stressful and with so much happening already i think its gonna be Bad for me #and like. of course that means. spiraling again. but id been doing a good job of not venting about this so much anymore #so im gonna keep doing that...! just had a Moment. i rlly dont like it at all. it lacks anything Good #its missing something big and i cant find it. or maybe it's not thats its missjng something it just has too much Cheye to be good #talkys

[crowdsourcedloner]

2. What was the first moment that they knew they were in love with their LI?

13. How do they react at being away from each other?

26. How important is the romance in your OC’s overall story?

these are going under a cut for length, but thank you!!!

2. What was the first moment that they knew they were in love with their LI?

There were a lot of little moments for Nailah, but if one had to be chosen as the moment... it'd be the one they shared before scaling Mount Gulg. She pieced together who the Exarch was shortly before then, and though she still didn't know why he was doing what he was, hearing someone she deeply trusted speak so warmly to her after some of the worst experiences in her life set her heart on fire for him.

It's a similar story for G'raha - several smaller moments rather than one big one - but the through-line of all of those bits was seeing Nailah let down her walls and just be herself. He fell in love with each glimpse of her gentle nature, each quiet chuckle he heard, each shy smile he caught... it was a slow, inevitable love for him.

13. How do they react at being away from each other?

If he's not kept busy, G'raha falls into wistful pining pretty quickly. His thoughts regularly drift to thinking about (or worrying over) Nailah, and he writes letters when his yearning becomes too much to bear. The letters rarely get sent - apparently postmoogles don't accept 'nondescript Eorzean wilderness' as a valid mailing address - so he stores them in Nailah's annex room for her to read when she returns.

While Nailah likes having time for herself, she doesn't like staying away from G'raha for too long - he's one of very few people she's comfortable being herself around, and going back into the public eye alone isn't something she enjoys. Tiring as it is, she retreats to her colder, distant professionalism, fighting off her yearning with her poetry in dark inn rooms or secluded camps while collecting stories and trinkets as gifts for her lover upon her return. The longer she's kept away, the colder she comes across to those around her - though admittedly, it's hard for strangers to notice the difference.

26. How important is the romance in your OC's overall story?

it's important, but it's not the be-all end-all if that makes sense? it's the culmination of lessons she learns through her journeys, but it's not the point of her story. the romance is supposed to represent Nailah finding her own self worth and choosing to pursue something for herself, even if that something is as small as loving someone else. she needs a space to figure herself out and just... be Nailah, and G'raha gives her that and more, while she gives him just as much support and encouragement in his own choices - choices that he also is starting to pursue for himself.

...i think that's as good an explanation as i can give without incoherently rambling tbh.

#answered asks #thank you for the asks!!! im sorry they took so long!!! #oc: hrothwol #ship tag goes here #lil more context bc i cannot stop myself and clearly dont understand formatting #nailah held a candle for g'raha since the very end of the crystal tower raids #but she was in no state to recognize those feelings or do anything about them at the time #(the first spark here was hearing him talk about his dreams with such conviction and warmth - #- she wanted to hear him speak of her like that one day... but didnt understand why) #so she chalked it up to missing someone she was unexpectedly attached to #g'raha was convinced nailah hated him at the start of the ct raids since she kept him at arms length #and she kept wandering off to be alone (her echo was acting up and she needed a lot of breaks) #...it was a whole thing but they eventually talked it out and she started opening up to him #the whole 'century alive with only stories of the Warrior of Light' thing did mess with his memory of her #so there was a little culture shock(?) when he sees her again in shb #(nailah was pretty frustrated during early shb so he got a pretty skewed first impression again lol) #he fell in love with who she actually was over the shb story and as he fully remembered their time together #...holy shit thats a lotta tags... #i appreciate any of y'all that read these #and apologize for exploding your dashes it will happen again ;-;