#im so tired but this had to b posted

[cashmere-caveman]

when u are a guy who is super normal about his boss and also his boss' wannabe arch-nemesis (more terror text post memes)

#need to study this man in a glass jar w twigs and shit. he does Not get a cage bc hed get out of that. terrarium species i fear #the terror #text post meme #terror shitposting #thomas jopson #ik were all haha he wants to fuck that old man (which a. understandable and b. he really does) but man can we talk abt the Layers #something something ambition vs devotion vs ruthlessness vs kindness vs enabling etc etc. #can we talk abt the whole class (traitor) dynamic w hickey too.... #just the contrast of the hickeyjopson convo everything we ate growing up started w a gun. ive shot smaller hawks than u #vs the hickeygoodsir convo if im reading ur accent right uve always had to use every part of the meat ur mum could procure..... #biting snarling foaming at the mouth!!!! #anyway im tired of looking at this & i couldnt find a screenshot for one post i wanted to use so. have it anyway #cavetext

[twisting-in-wonderland]

I do like the colours during overblots,,

(wip stuff under read-more)

Nothing too fancyy

#twst #twisted wonderland #riddle rosehearts #overblot riddle #art #ram's art #uh tbh i drew this before my recent port /f/est drawing -(hopefully it wont fill that tag if it's written like that--) #but i didn't post it 'cause i felt like the final outcome was kinda lame tbh i couldnt make it look like how i wanted #but it's still kinda good so here it is :] #mainly drew this 'cause my mum liked riddle's overblot design when she looked through the magical archive book then i got it :^] #i had art block - so what a nice practice idea! i thought until this took longer than i wanted-------- rip #i think there's definitely some composition improvements i could do b ut im tired of working on thisssss

[spock-smokes-weed]

It sucks that so many Omegaverse and mpreg fics, whether implicitly or explicitly, regurgitate anti-choice thinking, or just reductive ideas around pregnancy and fertility.

The Omegaverse as a genre sits in such a weird space for me cus it’s honesty such a great playground for exploring ideas about gender, social structures, etc. But it can also just reenforce gender essentialist  thinking depending on how you write it.

Things like gender expectations, your gender suddenly being at odds with your body once you hit puberty, and people assuming things about you based off what you look like vs. your “biology”, are all these super interesting ideas to explore in a fictionalized world. But noooo it’s just copy and pasted gender essentialism.

I totally get why a lot of ppl hate the Omegaverse, and tbh I’m right there with you. But I can fix him. I know I can fix him.

#a/b/o #omegaverse #mpreg #I’ve had so many ideas about this for so long and I’m finally posting them #I got tired of how other ppl wrote a/b/o that im finally writing it how I want

[koko056]

I got 80/80 in a math preboard exam conducted by my coaching and I was the only one who got a perfect score in a batch of nearly 150 kids, like not even 0.5 marks deducted.

but that dry 'well done' from sir can't even compare to what my grandfather, a retired army-school math teacher, said to my mom about my answer-sheet.

' achha likha hai, i remember giving 100 marks to such papers. presentation aur writing bhi sundar hai"

IM OVER THE MOON.

THE SMILE HE HAD WHEN I TOLD HIM I GOT A LITTLE TROPHY FOR MY SCORE AND MY "HOMEWORK-PERFORMANCE"

IM SO FREAKING HAPPY

JBISDBVALISDVGDYVG

#im on fucking cloud 9 #the SMILE on his face #it means so much to me #he's been sick for quite a long time now and is always tired and looks dull #i had barley been able to have any conversations with him b/c i felt like i would be bothering him #but thank god that was not the case #he was smiling ear to ear #it meant so much to b/c he taught me math in like 6-7 grade as well as last year in 9th #i owe him all my good grade in maths #im just blabbering now but i just cant stop smiling #desiblr #desi tumblr #studyblr #study tumblr #shitpost #shitposting #idk what else to tag #desi teen #desi academia #desi shit posting #desi tag

[asummersday]

Great news!!! After struggling with this god forsaken chapter for MONTHS im FINALLY DONE. now I just have to edit and then im FREE 🙏

#of course when i say 'im done' #that means that some parts of it are literally just [insert dialogue here] bc dialogue is my worst enemy #and i sometimes leave it to editing me to take care of it jsjjfkfk #but u know what i said this chapter would be out before the end of march and ON GOD i kept that promise #its. yeah its 8k. #once more i told myself it would be like a nice 5-6k and here we are #i struggled so much with it bc a) splinter is in it! finally lmao #i had so muxh trouble writing him actually #and b) theres a leo and casey conversation at the end that i ALSO really struggled with #but i think i did okay so :v #its 2am and i am. very. very tired. #and i am going to have a wonderful sleep tonight <3 #summer post

[urlocallesbiab]

sorry to everyone who's been missing me/waiting for something from me, i've been slipping in and out of depressive fog for a week or two (and in general have experienced significantly worse depression than normal for a couple years, but that’s another story)

i long to get back, too; a lot of things to read and ideas to write and people to talk to. love y'all, take care

#signed: vika's ghost #also i've caught a cold so there's that too #terribly sorry for being overdramatic i'm just... tired of being tired and i wanted to talk about it a little bit #it's very important for me to talk about everything that's wrong with me. i tend to avoid that but now i'm trying to learn and to make peace #creative drive and ability to hold thought-out conversations keep slipping out of my graps and it kinda hurts more #— in a good cathartic sort of way but painful nonetheless — to remember what they felt like at all #i miss wanting to work on my wip and i miss having the attention span to write out headcanon and i miss having headcanons #and i miss talking to my fandom friends #(i did it just last week but i already miss it. it's one of the things i'd like to be able to do every day) #and i miss the ability to connect with art and i miss the ability to focus on written word and i miss commenting #and i miss discussing ideas and i miss interacting and i miss having fun. god i just miss having fun. #kp my apologies for not making much progress on bb&b; myself my apologies for not writing any of my other wips or outlines or posts; #da gc gang my apologies for not following up on any of the things; every fic writer whose work ended up in my to-read pile IM SORRY #jack & kp specifically i love your stuff #also jack my apologies for taking a While; & the rd gc apologies for never writing out any of the cool au thoughts i'd had after some point #really，i've been meaning to. everything requires way too much effort. everyone is so fun and i miss having fun #take care，remember me fondly，i'll be back，please stand by #if tomorrow morning i find this embarrassing i'll chalk it up to a fever or something. #idc i'm allowed to have it. world won't blow up if i'm embarrassing on the internet once or twice or honestly even forever #vikarambles #vent

[deus-ex-mona]

👀here’s 👁️looking👁️ at you, kid👀

#just tryin to stay awake during my ride home pls dont mind me— #im tired. so tired. even though i did p much nothing at work today… to a degree #lord. my body aches s o m u c h from work (by work i mean yesterday’s work) #standing up to pipette over 300 samples in duplicates for the most part for around 10-11 hours isn’t fun :( sadge #at least i didn’t have to do that today (ayyy) b u t the guy who did it today didn’t have to do as many samples as i had to yesterday so-— #im just. sadded :( i stg three day weekends are both a blessing and a curse. sadded :( #though it’s not like i even had a 3 day weekend since i had to work on saturday :( hour long commutes on weekends aren’t fun :( #i just want a nice weekend too… :( i wanna sleeeeeeep #oh wow the eyes post worked i stayed awake for the ride ayyyyyy #the dude from gamushara

[jefferythejelly]

wtf is going on between dream and quackity??? I looked it up but I'm seeing so many different opinions from people 😓 what's going on and will I have to pick sides? I'm just so confused by this whole thing 😭

oh anon what rock have you been living under (and can you take me there)

this got kind of long bc a lot has happened and it's been kind of slowly building up over a month, and i kind of used this as an excuse to do something i've been wanting to do and make a rough timeline of events, so hope you don't mind the incredibly long post. it has certainly been An April (/neg) around here.

march 10th- quackity announces the big project he’s been teasing, the qsmp, a minecraft server with both spanish and english creators. dream puts out a priv tweet the same day saying he’s been working on something similar to collaborate with worldwide creators and he’s mentioning it bc he doesn’t want people to be worried about copying once it’s announced (this is foreshadowing)

april 2nd- dream announces the united smp and its accompanying live translation mod with a video and a tweet. small note here that the video was originally supposed to be an april fools video at first, which is why the international creators are skinned as the different manhunt members, but was delayed by a day bc editing took longer than expected. discourse starts near immediately as drantis are quick to accuse dream of copying q's idea of a multi language server

april 3rd- quackity announces that a new live translation mod is being implemented in the qsmp. copying accusations are now coming from both sides. note that it has been 1 day since the usmp announcement, so the chance that q actually developed a mod in that time is basically zero. also note that dream said he’d been working on the usmp prior to knowledge of qsmp’s mod being public. this is confirmed by snapchats dream posted later this month of camera roll screenshots of photos of a whiteboard with brainstorming for the usmp with the date march 8th visible, which is prior to the qsmp announcement. the point i’m trying to make here is that the most likely explanation is that it's a big damn coincidence

on this day there was also a brief copypasta started by george and sapnap joking about the similarities between the two servers (the first multilingual smp with live translation). george goes live with the smp from his copypasta tweet (slutsmp) and several ccs join throughout (during the stream its implied he basically @/everyone-ed the entire dsmp discord). he makes several shady comments but at this point its unclear if hes memeing quackity, the fans making drama out of the situation, or both

kind of skipping over a few weeks here bc its a lot of the same Nothingness but basically: discourse continues to spiral, egged on by the fact that dream has continued interacting with/mentioning quackity but is met with radio silence from the other side. there are a few clarifications from dream on twitter during this period that the qsmp and usmp are separate concepts and that he does not hold any ill will towards q

april 24th- while already somewhat assumed after quackity announced the qsmp's translation mod, quackity officially announces that the qsmp will be adding worldwide creators

april 27th- dream drops this thread which i highly recommend reading for yourself bc it gives a lot of context. tldr: quackity hasn't responded to dream despite multiple attempts to reach out, from both dream and other mutual friends. dream doesn't know what's going on with him but doesn't want any more hate to build between their two fanbases. he is explaining this because he feels he should explain his motives/give context as hate has built up to the point of irl threats to himself and his family's safety. he says that he is changing the concept of usmp slightly so there is less competition between the 2 servers and reiterates that he doesn't want any hate sent to quackity and that he's proud of all he's done

radio silence from quackity for this whole day, and then:

april 28th- quackity goes live on twitch. he says nothing about it and announces the new brazilian creators for the qsmp

and that's... kind of where we're at? q has continued being active on qsmp and social media and has said nothing, mutual friends are continuing to interact with quackity, and we've kind of reached a weird stalemate.

there's also some small bits of context that are more on the fandom side of things as to why a lot of ppl aren't supporting quackity anymore, so i'll (semi-briefly) try to explain those here:

during all this a mod on the qsmp was (rightfully) called out for including a mob that portrayed incredibly racist stereotypes of indigenous people. q did eventually remove the mod after public pressure but his apology/explanation of the situation was incredibly lackluster, and he didn't address any of the server members who made racist comments about the mob or after the mod's removal. this soured a lot of people's opinion of quackity/the qsmp in general.

second thing is just general vitriol between the two fandoms. qsmp fans/quackity solos were already being nasty at the start of the month, and that only built as the month continued. i saw at least one instance of a fan supposedly being doxxed and having someone show up to their house over the drama, and heard of ppl having gore/photos of self harm sent to their dms (so y'know. classic toxic twitter fandom bullshit). i will say that the toxicity has recently somewhat risen on the dteam side of things as well, with people being a lot quicker to hate on ccs still interacting with quackity and generally being super neg abt q (tho i can't act like some of that anger isn't slightly warranted. hell, i've been super angry over this and i used to be a super big fan of quackity). a lot of people are disappointed in q's silence over this whole issue and believe that it is quackity's responsibility to at least publicly denounce the doxxing/threats being made by fans in defense of him, especially as it's something that dream has already done, both prior to this situation and during.

as far as "picking sides" goes... a lot of ppl here on dtblr have been doomposting for a while, and at this point quackity is basically in no one's good books. at the same time, most of the rational people i follow have been acknowledging the nuance of the situation, and that a lot of mutual friends may be caught in the middle right now (shit dude, you're talking to a foolish main and that dude's still on quackity's damn server). there's also the matter of dream basically asking people to stop fighting, which at this point i am very inclined to agree with due to the levels of discourse and toxicity that we've already gone through, plus i think it's a better alternative than the community self-cannibalizing any time someone mentions quackity

ultimately it's up to you to decide what you want to do with this info and how much you want to remove yourself/unstan ccs, but know you aren't alone if you're sad/disappointed about how this whole thing has panned out 🫂 it has certainly been quite the Month around here

#sorry this took so long to get to. i had class for 5 hrs and then when i got back i was tired & didnt wanna think abt discourse for a bit #i could go back and add links to tweets and such if anyone wants but i think this is mostly accurate #feel free to add on if there's anything you think i missed or could be helpful #and anon i hope ur doing well. also sorry for making u read all that <3 #asks #anon #discourse #long post #its under a readmore but still. fair warning. long post #ALSO this is all shit we already know if this starts up arguing again im gonna explode into a million pieces no one start shit #i dont think anyone will but i just get nervous whenever i discourse post bc im v nonconfrontational and dont wanna start more arguments #everyone b niceys okay....

[boiled-dennis]

yeah you post really insightful, thought-provoking things about the gang's daddy issues/body image/repression/whatever the fuck else But are you normal about narcissists? are you normal about sociopaths or psychopaths?

#not gonna lie every time i see even the smallest hint of cluster B stigmatisation here it kills my interest in the show and its community! #it's annoying cause like what am i gonna do other than fume about it to myself. i wish people who say this shit had consequences for it. #people shouldnt be allowed to say weird shit about personality disorders and then have people engage with their posts like nothing happened #i dont want this stuff to be swept under the rug but also it is too exhausting and not my job to educate people about how my brain works #hate when people talk about the gang like ''sociopaths (affectionate)'' im just tired of witnessing prosocials i think #and i am so tired of seeing bpd get support while other personality disorders get stigmatised. what's the point! #diagnosis: sanism. treatment: banned from fun for 1000 years!1!!!! #iasip

[pepprs]

crying again lol ok

#purrs #and posting online abt it so i get immediate validation / support instead of asking for help from anyone im close to i know. but god fucking #damn it to hell. ok im going to be candid about this because it hurts so fucking bad. five years ago i met someone so important to me. and I #miss her so so so so much. and every space here i have a memory with her in. and she left in July and she’s gone. and im sobbing my eyes out #FOR WHY because it was over 6 months ago and im happier and she’s happier and we’re all happier. but i think im getting some aftershocks #being here for the first time without her exactly 5 years to the week we met: when she was so important to me. she was the whole reason i #even saw myself as something. and she’s fucking gone. she left. but she’s not dead like LMAO idk why im crying so hard when i could just #text her any time and tell her that i miss her. but idk. it’s just everything is stirring memories and they’re painful to think about now or #at least today because she’s gone and it all changed. i was just saying that i feel like im not having any emotions and tonight the grief ju #just rammed into me like a train and my fucking counselor sucks ass and won’t even help me work through it and everyone is busy and tired an #and im a staff coach so im not supposed to be having a fuckjng mental breakdown over **** pacing around in my bathroom at 1:23am but ive be #been thinking about her so much and remembering all the formative interactions i had with her here and missing her so much i want to explode #and die and p*ke and whatever. so stupid to cry about it but i fucking miss her. and i hate that she’s not here. and i’m trying so hard to b #be her but i have to be me but i can’t not have what she brought here and im just crashi ng and burning and can’t be honest and im having a #breakdown and crying so hard and i don’t know what to do. i ithink i’ll be fine after some sleep and reflection but my heart is like seizing #on itself right now and nothing takes my mind off it and i just keep crying LMFAOOOOOO. i hate it here #delete later #like how can you look at me like that and then fuck off to ****** 4.5 years later. you know? im about to punch a hole into the hallway #and i have to be quiet bc ppl are trying to sleep but it’s making me fucking crazy. #retreat tag

[milkweedman]

Little bit of spinning this morning. No idea how this is gonna end up looking... also not sure what i'll ply it with.

#had to go walk to where my sister left the car at like 6 this morning bc she thought it was gonna get towed which sucked #esp given that the med situation right now has me unbelievably exhausted but also not in that much less pain than i would b without them #idk im just hoping they start working soon #on the other hand tho i bought coffee on the way back and it is like. the platonic ideal of what a latte should be #that cafe is sometimes really good and sometimes pretty bad so im glad i got lucky with a good barista for once #ANYWAY i have so many posts i mean to make on here that im just too tired to do. gonna try and at least answer the ask tho #spinning #handspun yarn #merino silk top

[faggotician]

Feeling a little troubled ...... last night (a few hrs ago ig) my nana (whom i moved in wit bc the tenant she was renting the upstairs 2 died n i needed 2 get out of a shitty roommate situation so the stars aligned etc) mentioned in passing that she was in my apt while i was gone, she mentioned she was looking 4 something bt then changed it 2 checking 2 see if i caught the bus.....i told her basicly i loved her n ment no offense bt my privacy is rly important 2 me n so could she pls not go into my pad when im not there bc it gives me anxiety (which she has also so i was tryna rel8 a lil bit) n she just kinda shut down n started feeling bad abt herself n getting upset tht i thought she wld go thru my stuff . Idk i jus had 2 put this down sumwhere n i havent gotten a new journle yet sigh

#i mean she is. Very ancient bless her in evry way shes 81 so im sure shes just . kinda losin it 4 a lack of a better way 2 put it n . Aughgg #Life is very intimid8ng n i wanna take care of her bt shes so afraid of Everything ever n its stressing her out so much she cant sleep #So then shes coming up 2 my apt (btw i dont have a key 4 my inside door so i keep it unlocked) Late as Haell like 3 4 AM #Asking me 2 sit downstairs w her till she falls asleep . N i keep giving her advice on sleeping better like . #If u sit on the couch watching tv most of the day..when u go 2 bed n do the same thing u wont get tired frm it #Or rrlaxing yr body n focusing on yr breathing Dont put the tv on if yr brain is paying attn 2 wats goin on there #Then u cant focus on sleeping . #And i ask if she understands n if shes listening bt then Every Night doesnt change how her routine is n i just Dont .. I Want 2 Help So Bad #But what can i do when ur not even listening 2 the vry basic lifestyle cuanges u Need 2 make or yr gna worry yrself sick :(((( #I dnt think impatronizing i try 2 be gentle n understanding but also like . Semi profesh like Boundaries need 2 b had if im here longterm #Bt she doesnt rlly get that bc shes Very insecure sbt herself i think she just ... Internalizes it into like #Thinking shes burdoning me or makes me feel rlly gulty 4 needing alone time i just . Idk how 2 have this talk w her cuz i feel like #I alrdy have a million times . God i do love her so so much n im scared 4 this future i just want her 2 b happy bbut #im still tryna figure out how 2 even Talk 2 Anybody let alone a very sensitive farm raised senior #Damn this is a vent post and a half #999

[floorpancakes]

the theme of the 2024 met gala is clamp official art noone is allowed to not serve plain suits have been banned everyone has to be sparkly and magical now

#i had a serious post to make abt clamp outfits that are giving met gala and how many of them there are but #im really really tired and i have a cold so my head is all fuzzy so i cannot be doing all of that today #the shopkeeper mother son combi art with the sun theming in my avi is peak met gala i dream of wearing it #if i ever got invited to the met gala itd b over for everyone if i simply wore the watanuki sun costume #scratch that just invite watanuki in the sun costume stick him on a billboard and wheel him arojnd #like vtubers at the streamer awards #give his cutout a fancy steak dinner #and give him a doggy bag so he can take some home to his tall hungry hamster husband idk #he wouldnt eat that shit as is but watanuki would painstakingly remake it into some sort of luxury bento #idk where im going w this im tired and i have a head cold please let me think about gay people its all i can do rn #other than log into #FUCK I FORGOT TO LOG INTO GENSHIN BAIZHU LANDED HOURS AGO #iVE BEEN UP HERE FOR A BUNCH OF HOURS AJD FORGOT TO EAT TOO #fuKc

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#i survived my drive today. it was v stressful bc there was a lot of construction going on along the highway #and i parked in a parking garage next to the handicap area so until i started working on stuff my brain was lik: u parked in the handicap #area. and it was v annoying bc literally not true. i checked at least 3 times after parking bc my brain is exhausting #but i went and handed the materials over and now its done. i only cried once lol and it wasnt that bad #wasnt that hard i mean. also i kno i swear on here all the time but i do not swear irl unless im driving #also on the way back i just started talking to myself about naruto stuff bc i have to talk while driving or im worried ill lose focus. #usually i sing but idk naruto brain rot #so now im exhausted bc of the stress plus i carried some v heavy boxes around so my body hurts #idk how this weekends gonna go. im going to see some dino tracks tomorrow bc i got invited. so thats exciting. hopefully wont be too #awkward but idk well see. #and i also gotta prep for responding to one guy for a phd position bc i think if i go to the uk im def gonna have to do scholarships for #funding so i gotta figure that out. and i have a meeting with another guy on Wednesday. so hopefully that goes well. #god. the wheels r turning. someday soon ill b a phd candidate #so we'll see how much time i have for drawing. i did make an alt account bc im currently posting from the shadow relm #i had to really think abt. like what would i name myself if i chose a username as a 25yr old and not an emo 12yr old #i went with creeping-cosmic-ooze but handful-of-fish-bones was also v tempting #no short usernames here #aye im tired. but i wanna draw DX #unrelated #god i really like the fishbones username tho

[this-should-do]

background sketches for a lil animation im gonna try n attempt :3

#got the idea from the image thats in the video for that somg i me tioend a few mins ago #its just so pretty and it gives raining while the suns shining so rightly thru the misty clouds #and ive been thinking about like how gordons from washington an dhow thatsva rainy staten all by reputation #and how gordons not seen rain for so long #and the kmage kinda looked like so domestic and homey and i was thinking of this sotry line of gorson takkng barney to visist his parents #cuz their friends right thats a normal thing friends do #and its raining so hard and g parents house is the one in the image #and im thinking about the song lyrics and how its like post game b just bei g so tired #and still feeling so disconnected from g but loving hom all the same and wishing g hadnt had to go thru all that #but g bein there makes b feel so relieved and he wishes they could be close again #so i anted to do a cutesy its raining gotta get i to the hosue and outta the rain scene #which parallels the future where gordosn so happy to see rai again that hes just sitting out in the rain #wallowing in so much and barney goes out to see him and they just sit there in the rain together #and its cuta and sad #and it ssimple cuz its mostly gonna be still backgrounds with smaller figures and repeating rain animation #anyaays #im sad lol #imwipingandnaenaeing

[mg549]

gary i miss dressing up in my gay little outfits

#my posts #fashion #work #i work at the highly toxic chemicals plant so i dont rly want to wear anything Fun or Nice there bc its a not practical and b not safe #and c not comf #and i havent rly worn anything on the weekends bc im usually too tired from work to bother w it or im going swimming [yippee yayyy] #i miss Going Out. i think the last time i went to locations for fun was october when i was halloween hunting bc i had to be the punkest bitc #h in the spirit halloween [tough competition] #i think i jst need to go to a location to do sth fun #its been a long time