#internet do be weird

[somekidnamedkai]

I find it hilarious that im in the mountains, on the highway, in the true middle of nowhere, and I have better service than I did on my way to school wtf

#internet do be weird

[identifying-cars-in-posts]

are ppl ever gonna realize that tagging me in posts purely for the sake of visibility/boosting isn’t gonna work most of the time? i’m a person not a clout machine

#not a car id #like i know a lot of those are someone being like ‘if i hit x notes i’ll do this good thing for myself’ #which i have mixed feelings about in general #but like a lot of the time by the time i see it they’ve already hit whatever arbitrary number they were looking for #and also i just feel really weird having the responsibility of a stranger on the internet’s well being dumped on me

[somnimagus]

colored some more things from my sketchbook! zelda edition this time

[id in alt!]

#loz #legend of zelda #food #specific games from left to right (more or less) are: #twilight princess #wind waker #skyward sword #ocarina of time #minish cap #it feels like i suddenly understand how to color when i do these.. i'm scheming ways to get digital art to click like this for me #but man i used to be obsessed with midna medli saria and vaati as a kid so drawing them again a decade later feels super weird #and adult me now has an additional love of telma ruto and for some reason fledge. i think his design is cute #i don't show my ocs on the internet so you're gonna have to take my word for this but #zelda actually completely sparked my love of character design! i'm still hugely inspired by the older games #plus the anthro designs from botw! i love teba very much #but fi specifically is probably my favorite character design from anything ever. she's perfect to me #fan art #my doodles #my art

[habken]

Yo just so you guys know, cause some people are getting too familiar in my inbox, I don’t enjoy being called pet names or bestie or anything like that. It feels very patronizing and crosses a boundary. I don’t know you guys, especially if you’re anonymous, and honestly you don’t really know me either.

If you ask me a question and you call me something like that, I just won’t answer. I’m fine joking around but I’m not a fan of the weird overly familiar or intimate nicknames.

#even if you’re saying stuff as a joke please remember that tone does not carry over through text #someone once said ‘I’m going to castrate you’ on some of my angsty art and I get it’s like a joke #but it’s such a weird thing to say to someone especially if you don’t know them #my actual irl friends wouldn’t ever say shit about wishing harm on me why do people over the internet feel comfortable doing that

[rcrisdraws]

It's 1 AM. Tumblr scrapped its own content and is negotiating selling it to OpenAI.

The world is truly closing in on artists, which is less to say that I'll ever stop making art bc making art means life to me, but what part of that is going to be shared? I don't know. I seriously don't know...

It's the main reason I left twitter.

I am already sharing less than half of what I make here on tumblr nowadays, not because I don't want to, but what's the point.

I have so many horses; AI can't do horses and it sure as hell won't learn of the back of my work.

I have suggestive fanart that has no nudity in it whatsoever and i am so happy with; following the CEP thing even that has a chance to get flagged bc i've seen it be done to other artists.

I have 10 years worth of work here, i don't want to move. But half of my art got flagged all the way in 2018 and i didn't have the energy to appeal it.

Discord already is selling everything you send through it to OpenAI. Private discord server for art sharing just doesn't work.

So what's the point?

I'm tired...

#i want people to gawk at my weird horses #they're my pride and joy and i love it when people talk about them and do the silly memes or talk educational content #losing twitter has been very hard #if this is how it's gonna be maybe i should just head back there like nothing ever happened and start posting again #if we're all gonna be fodder to skynet anyway #are they gonna start scrapping stuff from our folders next? bc windows 11 is already so internetized and cloud-based? #who am I to say #gonna move back to freaking gouache and start posting my weird horses in galleries #maybe some ken will adopt me into the patriarchy

[trainwreckgenerator]

hey do you guys remember razias shadow? cause i just did

#context: it was a 2008 high fantasy concept musical that got internet cult popular #the original (it was a puppet show?) is functionally lost media but the album is still in all the usual streaming places #and was very niche beloved for a while. the lyrics are not well written at all and are unrelentingly awkward #but it's very well composed and the melodies stick with you for a long time #and the overarching narrative is compelling even if its brazenly and bold facedly just doing an abridgment of the silmarillion #actually maybe i like it BECAUSE its just the silmarillion. as a weird charmingly awkward cult operatic musical #if you want to check it out but arent sure if youll like it start with the track 'holy the sea' #its the best music the album has to offer and it also gives you an accurate first impression of the overall feel to the musical #if you like it then start back at the beginning and listen through. if you dont like it then you wont like the rest #anyway #hi these are my designs that ive had for like 5 years. i think they should be little guys #razia's shadow #my art #also. brendon urie jumpscare warning. and also. oldschool high fantasy type misogyny

[toxooz]

been sick as a mf dawg but i managed to draw the ol Ollie n Kari halloween costumes for this year🤘

#ollie #kari #my art #original character #halloween #pyramid head #monster girl #monster bf #monster oc #terato #silent hill #monster #sick n tired of bein sick n tired but tHE TRADITION CONTINUES #insert the meme if i had a nickle for every traumatic experience of someone grotesquely vomiting in front of me #and then me getting sick from anxiety the day after i would have 2 #all bc of some guy from a state n a half over who Nobody else knew not being able to handle his liquor nor weed im #bc Somebody never got the fact that strangers from the internet are probably weird and maybe dont drag them with u to closed parties #its almost comical how easily it couldve all been avoided and how i couldve never fukkin knew this guy existed lmfao #but alas that is the trajectory of the eternal curse of living AHA #ANYWAY im good now and i feel bad for the guy i do but For The Love Of God #this damn puke phobia that has plagued me my entire life is going to be the death of me i can feel it mr krabs #the horrors persist but so do i i chant thru gritted teeth #oc #exophilia

[front-facing-pokemon]

#alolan raichu #holy shit these alolan forms are kicking the fuck outta my ass #the things i do for you all. my production value on this blog has increased over the years and i don't think i can get away with the same #weird shit i used to be able to when i couldn't find a good model so now i'm having to learn how to use blender and shit?? #downloading weird scripts off the internet just because i can't find the right models. and now alolan raichu has kantonian eyes #they have kantonian eyes. i know. i'm sorry. i don't know how to fix it and this is the best you're going to get because i had to work for #like an hour and a half just to get to this point. and i know the lighting is dark. it's. it's bad. it'll probably be like this for all #the alolan forms at least. and holy shit when we get to gen 9 it's going to be even worse #this is a wreck!! this is a wreck. i had to use the sv model for this one and it's like #i dunno the eyes in sv aren't textures?? they're procedural. they're fucking. shaders. in sv. which is why espeon's pupils #are no longer pupils and are instead reflections (lie‚ falsehood) #and i'm. dissolving. y'all're gonna have to bear with me moving forward bc i've gotten Very used to the “it just works” nature of #the older models that i was using but this is getting way harder on me as we move into newer generations

[ganondoodle]

i know im an overemotional, overreactive pathetic little wimp about my hyperfixation, and i dont even mean that derogatory, i think its both my best AND worst quality, im well aware of it, especially in moments when im already stressed i have a hard time to get my brain back into control, im so well aware of it that i HAVE been managing to learn how to deal with it actually which is why, instead of letting myself spiral any further, i went to bed to let my brain calm down

and it worked!

i still hate the live action zelda thing, i still think it WILL be bad, and it will still negatively affect how i feel about the franchise as a whole, i am not spiraling out of control about it though, which i think is a win in my book, some people hate that i say my opinion at all though, more on twitter than here so hey, im grateful to not be called pathetic to my face bc i said something someone might decry as too 'weird'

#ganondoodles talks #zelda #yes this is about the live action zelda announcement #i hate it and it will be bad and yes its threatening my love for the franchise #as i said many tiems before all my previous hyperfixations died abruptly bc it went into a direction i didnt like #which probably plays into why i react so strongly to it #i dont WANT do lose this #any bad entry in a series i love will affect how i feel about it as whole #i dont think that is a strange concept #and “simply ignore it” isnt as eeasy as it may sound bc people dont tag their shit properly #well if its so easy to ignore anythign you dont like #why are you being an ass to me bc i said soemthing you didnt like #simply ignore it #the internet loves to pretend to love weird people but when someone is actually a little weird they point their fingers and throw stones #and i dont even think im being all that weird about it #dont want to know what weirder people with big followings go through #what i deal with is absolutely miniscule compared to big creators #i also know that

[ot3]

one time i made a tweet about general trends in ace attorney fanfiction i didn't like without even naming any specific authors or works and someone in the comments was basically like 'take this tweet down what if a fanfiction writer sees it and gets their feelings hurt' and when i said it was pretty ridiculous to expect someone not to say anything negative about broad trends in fanfiction because potentially an author might theoretically see it they blocked me.

#internet fanartists have their own unique set of weird self-importance issues but #i do find they have distinctly less of this fragile blown-glass ego thing so prominent in fic authors

[prideprejudce]

the whole ariana grande and ethan slater mess just proves my ongoing theory that even though everyone assumes that it’s attractive men you have to worry about trusting in relationships - in reality it’s the medium ugly ones that you have to really look out for. medium ugly men will live with you, marry you, have a baby with you, and then as soon as another woman throws him even a crumb of positive attention will gladly drop you like a hot potato with zero remorse or second thoughts

#ariana grande #ethan slater #here’s my theory: #medium ugly men were the ones bullied in school and have a SEVERE inferiority complex and crave any type of validation #whether by becoming a bully themselves as adults (aka weird internet men) or viciously cheating on their partners #also as a side note #I think as a part of their divorce agreement ethans ex wife should be aloud to dress him up in honey and feathers and beat him like a piñata #and then their kid is aloud to do the same thing in 17 years #just as a treat for them

[queenshroorn]

I’d love to see a study done on the rise of demanding and expecting morality in the fiction we consume, to the point where liking, consuming, or creating anything “gross” or “illegal” or “immoral” reveals a desire to want and enjoy it outside of fiction, from kink to dead dove to even just sex outside of a narrative context in some extreme corners of fandom online. where is it coming from? why is fandom today more lenient with physical violence than sexual deviancy? why is fandom becoming more sex negative than ever, and why is fiction being used as a reflection of someone’s wants outside of it?

I don’t have the initiative to do a full fledged research project on this, but someone else should.

#shroom.txt #yes this is partially about pro/anti disc horse but also just some things I’ve noticed over the years as well #the fuckin. yaoi and fujoshi shit is coming back now and I feel like I’m in middle school again #but also I feel like media literacy and critical thinking is getting worse #that and alarmist stuff like ‘(blank) is what’s causing people to do xyz!’ #it’s a weird time to be on the internet

[the-badger-mole]

It's not that you criticize aang about it. It's that you're so mean about it. You don't just criticize aang, you HATE him

And do! I really do hate him. My hatred of him only grows with every person jumping onto my blog to defend him and/or insult me personally. If you have a problem with how I express my opinions on my own blog, then block me. My feelings won't be hurt. Arguing with me will just be a frustrating waste of your time, if I decide to answer you at all, so just block me. I'm never going to change, so you need to. Block me like you should've blocked your toxic ex.

#atla #anti aang #anti kataang #i don't try to talk you INTO hating aang #stop trying to talk me OUT of it #why do yall care this much about me? #i'm a stranger on the internet #you're being so weird

[hella1975]

hiiii haha. hello. exceptionally awkward introduction bc idrk how to start something like this so let's just jump right in. im taking a break from this account for a bit. i know i said i wanted taob out before halloween and currently im fine sticking with that deadline, but if i decide i need longer away then i will take longer away. every time ive reassured people that id never abandon a fic and updates will always come eventually i never once considered that my writing and ability to feel safe and comfortable on this site would be actively taken from me, so im not even going to apologise. i dont want this either and more importantly i dont fucking deserve it. i dont know what it is in the past year, if ive hit a certain amount of followers or 'popularity' that's made it so the natural ratio of positive to negative interactions must in turn go up, but there's been a serious uptick in weird asks for me. the annoying part is that a very small amount of them are actually objectively mean and hateful, the rest are just weird and invasive from people who seemingly dont realise that's what they're being. ive reached a point where i dont care if the intentions are good. it's not my job as a 20 year old tumblr user of all things to defend the morality of someone who couldnt even bother to come off anon. unfortunately, after blocking only one or two anons, the weird asks have decreased substantially, which says all you need to know about the fascinating and exhilarating lives led by these people, but ive also gone on to turn anon asks off entirely. this is something i actively fought against doing and had to be pushed into by my mutuals (who have been the coolest people on planet earth during this entire thing). turning off anon was a big deal to me even if it sounds silly. i felt betrayed and like id been backed into a corner because it was so vehmently something i DIDNT WANT that to feel like i had to do it anyway for my own mental health??? that sucks. so even though ive 'fixed' the problem, im still kind of reeling and uncomfortable every time i come on tumblr. i hope it's just something i need time to ease because i'll truly be devastated if this becomes 'ruined' for me. tumblr exists as the only place in the world where i am honestly every facet of myself without shame or hesitation; losing that would be insanely harmful to me. and to the people who cant appeal to the actual human behind the post, let me put that in words you can understand: we wouldn't get any more writing 😦😦😦 riots and fires and sirens, i know. so yeah. to anyone who has sent me an anon ask and you're now wondering if you were part of the problem, im firmly of the belief that you'll know if you are. when i say 'weird asks' i dont mean 'you sent me a para about your personal life just to vent or ask for advice' or 'you sent me a really deep emotional compliment about the impact me and/or my writing has had on you' - i love asks like that, so much that i put off taking a break and turning off anon solely for the joy they bring me. im sorry that it might feel like you're being punished too bc of the actions of what in reality is a HANDFUL of weird people, but this is what i feel like i have to do to feel safe and not go insane every time i log in. love you guys, hopefully ill see you soon x

#seriously another shout out to my mutuals #id particularly like to say thank you to boom who's always right there for me no matter what's happening or how insane im being #and also everyone in our little discord that wound up having to make a whole new channel for venting #bc i was there so often like 'today's weird ask isssss.... telling me about my cupsize!! rip them to shreds!!!' #hannah and theo especially being there and pushing me to finally turn off anon. war is truly over #and of course rori bc the shamelessness u show when hating on my anon asks has been genuinely really cathartic #sometimes u really do just need a rottweiler mutual to tell random people online to kill themselves 😭 #okay weird oscar acceptance speechcore gratitude over. i do just rlly love my mutuals #like i went three years not telling anyone about the worse side of internet popularity for fear of looking spoiled and ungrateful #so for the first time to open up about it and be met with outrage on my behalf and people saying in fact it's MORE fucked up #than i initially realised bc ive grown desensitised to it is. yeah cathartic i guess #they are singlehandedly reassuring me of the good this cursed app still holds #so everyone thank them and send them flowers NOW #okay im done i think. see you guys soon. i truly do want to come back asap bc like i said i NEVER EVEN WANTED TO FUCKING LEAVE #SOME ASSHOLES JUST HAD TO PUT GRENADES ON WHAT I ASSUMED WERE VERY UNIVERSAL AND OBVIOUS BOUNDARIES #if you're reading this like 'ohhh fuck i defo sent something invasive lately. i thought it was a joke/we were friends' #then 1) we arent friends if you're on anon. it immediately creates a power imbalance where you know me and any necessary context #but i have no idea who you are or how much you know about me. that's already a fucked dynamic #and 2) I HOPE YOU FEEL BAD. LIKE GENUINELY I HOPE YOU FEEL AWFUL AND HAVE A GOOD LONG LOOK AT YOURSELF #okay i think that's all. ta-ra lads??? how tf do u end something like this #ive queued this to reblog a couple more times throughout the day

[pastafossa]

Me, to friend: don't you hate it when you have those days where your heart is just mad and it beats REALLY hard at random moments, even when you're just sitting there, like not FAST but really hard and it is VERY UNCOMFORTABLE for no reason? Friend: you know that's not normal right??? Me: you mean that doesn't happen to you? Friend: NO, IT DOES NOT. Me: ...please hold. *five minutes later* Me: so I talked to my mother and this might in fact be a highly hereditary genetic issue that both her and my grandma and my great grandma all had, who knew??? Anyway I need to see a doctor and I might need heart medication. Friend: YA THINK?

#it's discovering my nut allergy all over again #me as i'm munching snowball cookies with walnuts in them: 'ha ha don't you guys hate that weird burn walnuts give your mouth?' #friends: DROP THE FUCKING SNOWBALL THIS INSTANT YOU HAVE A NUT ALLERGY #apparently the heart doing this is not actually normal #i just thought everyone had days like this #like don't worry i'm not going to keel over but internet was like 'yeah you need to watch for this if it's in your family' #mom was only diagnosed like 2 years ago and my grandma had it too and it apparently goes undiagnosed usually #because of *exactly* what i was doing #which was going #'well. it's not painful just uncomfortable so I'll wait and see if it goes away' #and then it does the next day so you forget about it #and consider it just a Weird Thing That Occasionally Happens

[lucienarcheron]

As happy as I am that authors get the opportunity for several special editions of their books, this special edition nonsense is getting wayyyy out of hand. At this point, it’s beyond excessive.

#books #and again - great for the authors love that for them #but as a reader that’s just a lot of money #…for the same book #and props to those who can and like to buy multiple editions of the same book #( Becca this isn’t about you lmao ) #it’s just wild #so much of it is just money grabs #esp for books that already have a million editions #it’s just too much #a lot of is the overconsumption battle that is happening with the clock app and insta pushing people to buy things too #it’s just weird #and doing the most #no one forced anyone to buy anything they don’t want to but let’s not pretend we don’t know how the internet works lol #esp cursed clocktok #gp