#is why i went quiet for a while

[deadn30n]

hey hi hello so

ever since i made the first concept for Solstice's design, i've struggled to find something that actually accentuated how i felt they looked.

i liked the m!viera model for the facial structure and some of the broadness of the shoulders / torso, but have always preferred the f!viera model for everything else. but i really, really disliked the more feminine facial features on the f!viera model which is why i kind of just stuck with the male model, since i felt the facial features on that could better encapsulate the androgyny that Solstice encompasses

however. i've finally, finally found a happy medium thanks to some mods that my friend mugen pointed me in the direction of and i think it's safe to say that i have a completed concept of what Solstice would/should look like, if they were real

someone swapped the m!viera face that i use onto the f!viera face and when i tell you the fucking pure bliss i felt finally having the look i wanted for them -- that beautiful, alluring androgyny they're meant to have as both an angel & a cosmic machine i'm just.....

they FINALLY look like how they're meant to and i'm so so so so so very happy right now. it might seem silly but Solstice is my first ever oc i've made, and i've poured a lot of love into their concept as a whole. so having them finally look the way i've always wanted them to gives me such serotonin i'm sdflkjghd

the body they have, the face they should have........

granted i did have to sacrifice their makeup mod but that's fine bc honestly they look just as fucking hot w/o it and a bunch of people i've shown this to before posting it to have said they prefer it w/o the makeup so

yippie!!

expect me to be posting more photos of them and writing them actively again hehehe

#« ooc tag. » #me giggling and kicking my feet #look at them!! #they're finally pure perfection!! #the way i finally have that gender bliss for them... #bc they're meant to look like all genders ( as they do here ) while also having no actual gender #it's great i love it #anyway i'm done being gay #b ack to writing LOL #is why i went quiet for a while #i was messing with mods

[kirby-the-gorb]

#kirby #daily kirby #my art #digital #hal laboratory #nintendo #so exhausted. probably just gonna be that way for another month or so until I get that biopsy and hear back about it. #(also it looks like the person I didn't expect to be here went back to the twitter) #(so it feels safer for me to be chatty in the tags again) #(that's why I had to be really quiet for a while btw)

[sunnyfrisch]

pre-käärijä gig vs post-6+ hour train ride home and on my way to work because yes i did very much arrive back in düsseldorf at 6:45 am and went straight to the office

#i left work early because i just. Couldn't anymore #one colleague came to my office and asked me in a very worried manner why i've been so quiet today and i was just like 'i'm so tireeeeeed' #and then proceeded to talk so much about the gig #another colleague asked me what concert i went to and my team leader was like 'this half naked man' while i was showing my shirt #these last two are both in their 60s lol #i work with a whole lot of boomers but they're the absolute sweetest #they were all like 'don't worry about being tired and not doing much experiences like that are worth it and it's great you had fun' #just absolutely adorable please #i'm finally recovering having a hot bath and afterwards i might just collapse once my body hits my bed #anyways #käärijä berlin #berlin gig #käärijä

[my-name-is-bunnyfoxy]

Me if the idea that Stripe is actually a reincarnation of a previous gremlin leader that Gizmo spawned and came back for revenge is cannon since we have Claw:

Me suddenly realizing if that is the case then Stripe's reason for hating Gizmo is because Stripe is actually in love with Gizmo and wants to be with him but Giz doesn't want to be with him and all of the Strizmo shippers will come back from the dead:

I both want Stripe to actually be Claw reincarnated and yet I DON'T want it because of this reason.

I love Claw but I will NOT support her taste in mogwais/gremlins. Sorry but knowing that Gizmo is basically her dad/brother makes me uncomfy- I already hated Strizmo before but now I have started hating on Strizmo even more now that it is basically confirmed that mogwais and or gremlins spawned from the same mogwai and or gremlin are basically related (Noggin keeps saying that Gizmo is their dad/brother and even I believe refers Claw his sister and the other gremlins like family), at least how it comes off as. Unless it's explained how mogwais and gremlins are related and the logic of them being related. Until then, I'm calling these ships and every other gremlin ship with Gizmo incest.

#The Strizmo shippers luckily went quiet and there is very little of them #So I was able to finally find peace #I forgot about it when Gremlins stopped being my hyperfixation for a while #gremlins #gremlins stripe #gremlins gizmo #gremlins secrets of the mogwai #gremlins 1984 #80s movies #80s horror #horror movie #gremlins claw #bunny talks #foxy talks #bunnyfoxy talks #I could rant on why Strizmo sucks #And even why in general all gremlin ships suck but I don't wanna #Because I'd become very angry by then

[drowsystarlight]

Idk i just wanted to draw the scars I gave him

#zombies run #sam yao #zombies run fanart #neeks draws #like #sometimes you just gotta end a doodle with ‘eh it looks good enough’ #also its fucking 3am it IS good enough #also for anyone wondering why tf he has arm scars like that: #the blade went through 👍 #while he was using them as a shield 👍 #im just not gonna specify who did it and HOW AND WHEN bc i didnt add the spoiler tag #be quiet everyone hehe

[youssefguedira]

hm. well.

#i maintain that it's not sad and there are large swathes of the movie that are genuinely really comforting to me. something about the #atmosphere and the slow pace of it all makes it feel very much like you're just going to live in that world for a while #but my god there's something to be said for the simplicity of the last line (lost a friend) because it really hits like a freight train #what's that poem. i loved my friend he went away from me. it's like that #very quiet very simple but so so emotionally intense #again the shot of the dead tree. screaming crying throwing up etc etc #there's also so much about pietro's description of friendship as a place / the house with a hole in its roof that is no longer of use #also the way pietro's life away from bruno / the mountains is told in short almost montages. the story IS centered around bruno and it is #heavily subjective. bruno is the center of the story / there is one mountain at the center of the eight #truly. cinema. i am going to go make myself some food and then watch the making of because why the hell not #neon has thoughts

[lilbit-of-kizzy]

Guess who just spent 45 mins cleaning up from her over half full humidifier taking a nose dive 🙃

#while trying desperately to stay quiet #since my parents have to be up at 6:45 and 7:30 #while mildly panicking because MY BOOKS #luckily it doesn't seem like anything got damaged #but some of the water went up under my big bookshelf and desk 🙃 #and i can't move those on my own #especially while having a mild asthma attack from my dusty ass floor #executive dysfunction why won't you let me clean this DUSTY ASS FLOOR #well it's certainly clean now 🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃

[inhumanestruggle]

I just realized that Ei and kazuha's story parallel each other. In terms of like the main archon quest they both center their stories around grief. Kazuha with loss of his friend's Tomo tries to reawaken his memory; he seeks out someone who can rekindle his vision. Whereas ei's with her sister's death tries to keep things completely stagnant. Kazuha is trying to move forward, he becomes a wandering Samurai he searched for traces of his friend in other people while ei is still stuck on her grief to the point she not only closes down on herself but also her entire fuckin country. And it makes the scene where kazuha block's Raiden's sword even more impactful. In a way it's their views on grief clashing, it's kazuha realizing his friend was with him all along and it's Raiden being challenged by humanity, by ambitions and by her own emotions.

Idk i could explain this better but this is just like 4am thoughts.

#it's literally so sad #it's like kazuha went out met ppl became a wandering samurai talked about his friend and looked for him in other ppl kinda #while ei tried everything to keep the memory of her sister in a stagnant plaxe #she was so scared to feel the grief and the pain she quiet literally closed down ok herself #and i find that so interesting and idk why it took me so long to notice #and now it makes sense why kazuha and novody else blocked her sword #he's a parallel to her story #kaedehara kazuha #genshin impact #raiden shogun #raiden ei

[gonguji]

#* . ⊹ 𝑇𝐻𝑂𝑈𝐺𝐻𝑇𝑆 𝑂𝐹 𝐿𝐼𝐺𝐻𝑇𝑁𝐼𝑁𝐺 › ooc . #WHY DO I HAVE A FEELING HE PURPOSEFULLY WENT INTO THE HOUSE OF DAENA SO NOBODY WILL TALK TO HIM... #bc then he will be right to tell them to be quiet! and he cuts any attempt at any wishes! #'vahumana students recommended me books' yeah sure you are reading these books on the day of your bday. surely not suspicious or anything > #on the other hand he seems to be invested in those books so perhaps while not being interested at first these were very good recommendation #now that surely rises respect with him a little! how sweet for him to still enroll with vahumana after the event

[ryoki-ph]

why did everybody assume that makoto yuuki was like. overly snarky hes just quiet but also 16

#why do people assume meanness in being quiet ☹️ #idk i just always saw him and went oh! hes autistic like me #idk maybe i have a warped view of the character. i played it a while ago #originals #txt #persona

[puppyeared]

Nothing wrong with my lisp actually it makes me very sexy and women want me and the wrath of god is not enough to describe how cool it is

#my aunt dissed my lisp again🙃 and I’m sick of it #cause jas is growing her front teeth in and my aunt was like haha I hope she doesn’t get a lisp like you that would be embarrassing lmao #and my mom brought it up just a while ago like ‘you went quiet and didn’t say anything but if u did I was gonna say s th to #*smth too’. and I was like ???? what do you mean #I didn’t actually hear what my aunt said so I just didn’t know what to say LMAO. but I really wish she’d stop doing that #like. I have an open bite and I COULD get surgery to fix it but it’s not like it’s hurting me lmao #it does make stuff inconvenient when I bite stuff and my teeth can’t touch and yeah my lisp but like. other than that nothing wrong #why does she like pushing my buttons. like I know relatives like asking how you are and teasing u but there was literally no reason for her #to bring that up :o/ sorry I just need to get this all out #fuck you I hope jas does have a lisp. then we can be lisp buddies #my mom literally asked me a couple months ago ‘hey do you think you’re shy bc your aunt made fun of your lisp when you were a kid’ and I was #like YES. I FUCKING HATE IT. WHENEVER I SPEAK I WANTED TO DIE WHEN I WAS A KID #don’t fucking do that to a kid oh my god. even if you think it’s small stuff like a stutter or a lisp shut the fuck UP oh my GOD #vent #yapping

[boyghcst]

god i don’t wanna be here i don’t wanna exist

#i hate myself so much #I’m sick of myself and sick of this world #i got upset at Lexi bc they said they didn’t wanna hang lol like i just shutdown n went quiet even tho they drove to take me to the shops #bc I’m ill #like I’m tired of always getting hurt I’m so damn sensitive all the time #like idk i guess i just thought they were gonna stay at mine for a while like we usually do #n instead they just wanted to go home #which is obv fine like they can do whatever they want but im sick of getting upset over this stuff #n i always feel horrible and guilty when i get triggered whether it’s shutting down or passive aggressiveness #or having a meltdown over stuff idk i just feel so emotionally childish n even when i know it’s wrong to feel tht way it still happens #i just wish i knew how to be better and stop being like this #n my therapists just keep telling me well it’s okay and normal to feel this way because I’ve been thru bad experiences before n thts why #i feel abandoned and unloved #but it’s like I’m 24 i shouldn’t be so emotionally all over the place and get triggered all the time like i can’t function bc of this #n i end up just acting in ways i don’t like like if someone was acting this way w me id be exhausted I’m not surprised I’ve been called #exhausting and too sensitive and negative and immature bc i am n hell if u don’t like me dw i hate myself more ive literally been trying #to get better and it’s going nowhere i think i just gotta end myself fr #journal

[handfulofmuses]

EXACTLY.

It's so powerful, it left an impact, it shows hope in the darkest of times, it was just so well done.

The Netflix Series is full of scenes that leave a great impact and it just didn't deserve all the hate it got???? Especially since...the movie doesn't really have anything to offer??? The Netflix Series actually makes me feel things??? Efrafa has more personality than just bloodthirsty savages??? They didn't hold back on the oppression this warren faces and shows us how bad and disgusting it is, there is just a lot more going on in general

#tbh the hate that netflix series got was the reason why i actually went quiet for a while when it came to these rabbits #because it really wasn't fun #especially since the netflix series didn't deserve it since it's so well written and just offers us more #ooc

[ssaalexblake]

was watching some show earlier where they’re trying to artificially inseminate some amur tigers, so it involved collecting their sample and implanting it. my mother, ofc asks why they’re going up mr. tiger’s butt to get a sample from, you know, elsewhere (they very helpfully showed you his fuzzy balls). I’m not sure if she was shocked by the answer in general, or just suspicious that I Knew the answer to that question but like, there was vague scandalisation here, but either way, nobody’s gonna go give that tiger a hand job. That’s not Better. Like, you cannot say that is a better method. 

anyway, it was fun dinner table conversation. 

#that was surreal #the father was suspiciously quiet during this conversation #normlly he'd have made about 89 dirty jokes #i do not wanna know why he was holding back #ever. #anyway as far as conversation over the mashed potatoes went this was the most notable for a while

[andreycoded]

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#we had a discord meeting with friends and thing is. i told everyone today that i got a soul crushing diagnosis #literally never cry to my friends but bawled my eyes out on a #whatre they called. voice message? yeah and one of my friends sent an empathetic text back in the group chat #one friend called and the other texted too but then in the discord meeting the first friend was really quiet most of the time and i was #glad to be thinking about something else than my stuff and be just chit chatting; when second friend asked the first if everything was okay #and ? she had the gall to say really angrily that no it isn’t and she has been crying like crazy all day because she feels like she isn’t #enough and does everything wrong #all the time. now this is not a new convo. we’ve talked about this vountless times and yeah she’s depressed clearly but doesn’t want to #admit it and i’ve told her (after comforting her many times) that she should really go talk to someone about it because if she just keeps #crying go us we’re just gonna go in circles and she isn’t gonna feel any better. like i’ve said everything that i possibly could to make #her feel better. and she has the GALL to say she’s been crying her eyes out when she KNOWS i literally heard i’m gonna lose feeling and #motoric skills in my hands and feet. and nothing can be done about it. and i for once showed how awful that felt. #i quickly told her that i hope the feeling passes because it’s baseless and she’s enough and worthy and really dear to all of us and then i #went to the toiler for a short while. and thought like. why couldn’t i judt once have said like. i’ve been crying about other things #altogether like hinting to the fact that that wasn’t appropriate. because she’s not gonna change. i should’ve said it for once because the #circle is just gonna continue. like. fuck #and at the same time i understand i really do but i don’t think however miserable i was that i couldn’t put my own worries aside at least #for the day. like TODAY i found out today . so if she’s miserable in her relationship (which i originally said was a bad ideaaaa) and it #makes her feel overall bad #. just!!!!! ahhhh. keep it to yourself for today. like i could’ve talked about my problems but i didn’t. so #v.personal #if you read this sorry sldntbtb #but also thank you. i’m not in a good place myself and i feel awkward and i know it can be taxing to read other people’s personal stuff on #your dash so if you did read this thank you

[readymades2002]

ohhhhhh there is so much snow outside ohhhhhhh it is so so so beautiful oh i love it. oh i love it so much i could just sit by the window all day in awe

#*person who is presently wearing three layers indoors to stay warm* #i KNOW i would regret it if i went for a walk because i cannot stand being cold or dressing for the cold #but i just want to be outside it is so so so beautiful.........ohhhh god i hate weather so much but it is nonetheless so lovely...... #there are so many winter birds out............ #you know what!!! i am just going to go for a walk!!! it is too pretty not to!!! i want to see how soft and quiet everything is #while its still just gentle snow and im not terrified for my life!! why not!!!