#it has not been my semester lol

[amarrymeinbostonwriter]

Not me having a mild panic attack at the grocery store when I realize how fucking expensive life is. 

Not me also heavily fantasying about hot fictional and/or historical women. The. whole. damn. day. 

Not me also stuffing fried chicken in my face. 

Definitely not me saving about fifty articles about Radclyffe Hall for later browsing completely unrelated to my grad research (or is it???)

#a box of rice crispies should NOT be 7 dollars #the poor kid helping me at the store was like lady wtf is going on with you #I put back like a third of my groceries...that's not a fun feeling let me tell you #leaves pretty brain shitty never ended #girl help #The functioning on your local bipolar person may vary please #it has not been my semester lol #my professor must be so confused #she thought I was so smart when I turned in my thesis but then realized I'm only good at writing papers sometimes #and even then not always #boy howdy is it not fun when your brain decides to betray you #she was like wow you know who Radclyffe Hall is #yes I am gay professor #I swear I am the most clown town person in that class ugh #I want to be an academic but wow my brain needs to calm down #actually bipolar #unhinged gay grad student confessions #at least I get to see my friend tomorrow #and maybe I can catch up on my owed work tonight if I log off tumblr soon :/ #and I have more ideas for memes...you already know where this is probably going to go #and I apologize in advance #my chatter

[psycakes]

star/mitski

#nuts and dolts #rwby #ruby rose #penny polendina #digital art #my art #first art of 2024 yeaaaahhh #art resolution is do draw more backgrounds and draw more comics #this has been bouncing around in my brain for like a month #it was fun :) #anyway semester starting soon so less art probably lol bye

[crybaby-bkg]

Arranged marriage AU with Barbarian Bakugou who is so daunting to be around at first. He’s all gruff curses and broad shoulders and scarred cheeks and neck and jaw. He scowls constantly, stares at you while your parents auction you off like some show pig, but doesn’t say much to you besides a grunt of his name. You’re terrified, thinking that he’ll be cruel to you, that you’re being set up for a life full of unhappiness and terror and regret.

But he’s the exact opposite. Bakugou is gentle in ways a man of his size typically wouldn’t be, but he shrinks himself for you. Not in a way that diminishes his status as the newly appointed king, but to respect you, show you that you’re beside him instead of behind him.

He picks you berries on his hunts because he knows the smell of a fresh kill brings nausea to your stomach. You find him along with the other maidens and helpers around his village, sitting beside them, big fingers holding tiny little flowers that he weaves into a crown for you. When he sets it on your head, he purses his lips, mutters something under his breath in his language that you’re still not too familiar with, but sure it means something along the lines of pretty and soft.

And when he finds you bathing in the river only few have access to, he’s sweet the whole time. Doesn’t make a spectacle of you being naked, and is relieved when you don’t instantly cower when he wades his way over to you. You try not to stare at the clawed scars that decorate his pec and jaw when he stands above you, and it helps when he suddenly dumps water all over your head. He shushes you when you splutter, continues on with cupping his hands and letting the water run off of your hair and down your shoulders, scrubbing at your skin until your flesh squeaks. He doesn’t expect you to do the same for him, but he hums in satisfaction when you push him down a little lower so you can wash the crown of his head.

#I don’t think I’ve ever actually written a full blown barbarian bkg fic which should be a crime #bc there are so many good ideas for it #but I’ve been struggling with writing creatively so I will put this idea as a full fic on the back burner for now lol #in the drafts for another 8 months! ☝🏻 #sorry I’m lying I’m about to write it rn aidsjdhdjf #anyway interaction has been so low and that doesn’t help with the low energy level when it comes to writing #I do it for myself but it’s a little sad when it feels like I’m talking to myself since I do that enough already lmfao #it’s the beginning of the semester tho so I GET IT bc I’m struggling to read too #this semester isn’t even all that hard but I’m so mentally checked out from school that everything is so much more complicated than need be #I just need a really long break to find myself #feels like I’ve been on go for a few months straight now #okay bye my stomach started cramping really bad which is a single to take my ass to bed lmfao #—new treat in the streets! 🍫 #bakugou treats! 🍬

[architectural-sims]

Henford Hall -December, 18:39PM

#sims 4 #ts4 #ts4 build #so im kinda back again #this year has been crazy #i move to Paris in september 2022 to study there two semesters #then i came back to spain and move to a new city #well is not really new since its my hometown but i hadn't live there since 2015 and I missed it so much #and between work uni and RL things I didn't have much time to play sims #so here I am again but you know how inconsisten is this blog so dosen't expect regular posts lol #probably i will not have time to play in the future but who cares #now about sims #i've been trying to make some trees DR with new meshes but they refuse to show the correct textures in autumn winter and spring #I suspect it has to be something related to vertex paint or any information attached to the leaves mesh that i'm not getting in s4s #i'll be posting that later to see if someone can give some advice #also had a problem with a building deco for Hendford wich I converted from Cities Skylines #i'm really frustrated with s4s and me lately #well i think its enough for today #come back for more ted talks

[spaciebabie]

shoutout 2 this person in my class who i can tell wants 2 talk 2 me really bad but instead of doing that whenever she has the chance she'll talk 2 whoever else is around and ignore me entirely unless im mentioned by name

#bruh lmao #so awkward. say something you dingus lol #ik you wanna talk 2 me so bite the bullet already #gyatt #spacie spoinks #literally. she was having a conversation with my partner for the project im doing. and like #heres the thing #if im not invited into conversation i usually dont participate #im like a vampire like that #and so like. after they're done conversating she'll just kind of. stand there. this has happened twice now #like dude sdkfjshlkdfj #im not upset by this behavior i have very awful social patterns as well and have been thru this (i am autistic) #am i gonna hafta say something. lol #probably #''hey bro whats up with you. i dont mean like how are you doing. i mean like. whats wrong with you.'' #cant say that its not funny when you say it irl only when the ppl you're talking with know you're not being mean 😭 #also like. this person has been staring at me lol #which like. makes me flustered so whenever she's around i panic and my face fucking turns red its god awful #for awhile it made uhh. my paranoia get really bad im ngl!! #its already bad when it comes 2 being around strangers but this like made it REALLY bad for a few weeks #im more calm now tho. rational brain won over and im chillin #i gotta work up the courage 2 say something b4 the semester is over or this is gonna bother me for the rest of my life sfkjsdhflkjs #i dont wanna put her on the spot #the only time i see her is when im in class #and . doing that interaction in front of ppl. i dont wanna embarrass her ksjfskjd

[pendraegon]

five stages of grief but it's bc i have to pay my school's tuition

#one of my cohorts messaged me and went: hey ellian have u heard anything from our department regarding how our tuition for this last #semester? and i was like. lol no. but also when has our department ever been on top of anything 😭

[beautifully-lumpy]

words cannot even begin to express how much i adore this man

#caddicarus #he is such an angel oh my god #i hope someone recorded the whole show #i've seen the clip of the proposal that happened!! #and i saw the little clip of jim reading out that crazy hate mail from october LMAO #seems like lots of amazing things happened at this show. #unfortunately i don't live on the east coast where cool shit like this happens! #bro looked SMOKING in that suit holy shit #and it seems like he's picked up the habit of flashing a peace sign in every photo just like me lol #anyWAY i know i said a week ago i was writing a BPJ about TCWOC and it obviously hasnt come out yet... #i keep meaning to sit down and write it but man this school semester has been mentally DRAINING #idk y'all might have to wait a few weeks 😭 #but i will say i adored that blu ray

[mahikamihan]

I'm working on a finals SQL database project with 13 tables with 5+ rows of data I have to make up and it's due in 20-23 ish hours? Let's see how tragic this goes 🫠

#in my defense #i am burnt out #this entire semester has been a drag #i am also fulltime working #and i have a hard time starting or working on projects #yumi does grad stuff #let me complain about things lol

[cha1cedony]

I love that Discord has the ability to be so cozy and close-knit, but I hate that it’s so blocked off from the rest of the internet. And you can’t lurk; you HAVE to be active (or at least active enough to get in in the first place). Ahem anyway. you should invite me to your Discord servers.

🌀 Oooooo you want to invite me to your extremely niche DnDads Discord servers so bad ooooooooooooooooooooo 🌀

…or send me an anonymous ask about my favorite uhhhhhhh? mustelid or something. Ask me for good Lieder on a specific theme.. I’ve been listening to them all day. Maybe this shouldn’t be on my fandom blog???? It has been derailed ANYWAY idk I’m just feeling antsy and rambly hi 😁 How are you HAHA

#theoretically I could make my own #however. too shy #but also #want friends #hueurggh. truly Herculean #I am in one server and I love the people in there :) shout out #😁😁❤️ #but I am simply too shy to talk most of the time #and I’m in the Patreon server but it’s TOO scary I will NEVER speak in there 😭 #my problem is that I LOVE talking over the phone and in person #I am soooo talkative. love 2 yap #but when I have to TYPE I have more time to overthink #maybe I just need to get into. other bigger fandoms (lol) that have multiple big public servers #usually I like to send long voice memos (the Chalcy Podcast….) but I feel like that’s weird to do with strangers idk #OKAY SORRY WHEW LONG RAMBLE #HI #don’t take this seriously I am just antsy and feel the Urge To Post #also my only human contact for the past semester has been choir 3x a week aaaaand occasionally dnd #🥲 might be going a lil stir crazy #I would get out more but. home cozy comfy and I can pace all I want and not pay for gas #can’t wait to have public transit when I move next semester. rural girl moves to the big city yeehaw 🤠 #chalcy stuff

[gaywiththesauce]

Turn Off All Alarms (CHWE #5)

For what it was worth, Giyuu was professional. He didn’t tell Kyojuro how he increased his heart rate when he was around. He didn’t admit to listening to him and his boyfriend having sex. He didn’t confess that he was caught by their best friend.

He thought he acted perfectly normal for someone in his situation.

“What did you do?” Shinobu asked as he ate his lunch. It is Monday now.

“What do you mean?” Giyuu asked, obviously avoiding the subject of the question. She picked up on that quickly.

“Hm, I don’t know. Maybe the fact is that you completely ignored Rengoku-san on Friday. He looked so sad when you weren’t paying attention, you know?” Shinobu pointed out. Thankfully, Shinobu convinced Senjuro to eat lunch with Tanjiro so he didn’t have to hear this conversation. She put her hand on her chin, “So, what did you do? Did you ask him out and he rejected you because you’re not in touch with your emotions?”

Even though it wasn’t true, Giyuu’s feelings were hurt. Shinobu had to be exaggerating about how sad he was. There was no way he was sad. “Shinobu-chan, I’m not into men,” he lied.

Shinobu raised an eyebrow, “Sure, and English is the easiest language to learn.”

Good afternoon, everyone! Welcome back to Wednesday (shh) where I post a chapter after a 3 month hiatus! Enjoy your food! Link here:

tag list: @amanitaknowsbest

and here's the link for Firefly Graphic's dividers

#happy thanksgiving #its been awhile #but i havent forgotten about this lil thing #chwe has been on my mind since the semester started and now I can actually post a chapter! #fuck yeah #not wednesday but still a good day #this is barely rengiyuu anyway lol #we'll get there dont worry #come get yall juice #saucy writes #chwe✨ #i can use that tag!! #minors dni #demon slayer #kimetsu no yaiba #rengiyu #rengiyuu #giyuu tomioka #kyojuro rengoku #ao3 #see you in december lol

[luvbinnies]

MIOOOOO HOWVE YOU BEEN <3<3

AHHHH HIII LONG TIME NO CHAT!! I spent 10 hours of my weekend doing a physics lab and staring at stupid excel number and graphs and AGHHFHHH and then about 5 hours on a cal assignment cuz I’m stooped in the brain and would forget a variable or a negative sign 😭 I’ve realized I left y’all on a bit of a cliffhanger for LotR haha 😅😅 I’ve just been staring at numbers on my computer and iPad all weekend long and weekends is when I usually write my chapters so I legit have no updates 😞 but I might be free tmr evening to do a quick chapter

#dw I won’t push myself to write it’s just school has been hectic #also my physics teacher this semester… IS MAKING ME WANT TO CRY IN PHYSICS I LOVE PHYSICS #ME AND JAKE COULD BOND OVER OT #I’m lying even tho I love physics I have a burning rage towards issac newton and that stupi apple #but I met a guy on Thursday named mark who acts like him and his kinda cute so I might try to get his insta next time I see him #even tho I already stalked his insta and LinkedIn lol

[stockholmgf]

every email i receive from my university takes a year off my lifespan

#hey dude! ran out of housing for next year :) even though you weren’t even permitted to apply for housing yet. lol #also average rent in town is a billion dollars and your left nut #oh btw!!!! the class we harassed you into taking is actually a repeat cause we didn’t believe that you already took it #so you’ll get no credit unless you drop :) take a five hour advanced molecular neuroscience lab instead :) #also we mistakenly told you you were on track but actually you would need to take 22 credit hours for the #next 3 semesters to graduate on time :3 #like okay my brother i’ll just transfer home again #also the serial groper is back and has been reported EXCLUSIVELY near your residence hall and most frequent bus stop :)

[autisticlancemcclain]

Jackie, you haven't published a fic since the 4th. Are you ok?

i am so sorry everyone 💀💀 idk how many of y’all were here when i was originally writing eighteen (crazy), but what essentially happened was that i didn’t get a full fic finished on lance’s bday, so i tried to update every day to get it finished as quickly as possible while still being good, and i wouldn’t let myself post anything else or think about anything else really, and at one point i was getting dms and asks from friends and moots that were like Hey Bitch What The Fuck Are You Doing To Yourself and i was like yeah wait hold on wtf am i doing?? so i took a break from the fic and the stress went away pretty much immediately.

now. since i don’t learn from my mistakes, i did the exact same thing basically with the time loop fic, only this time i pushed myself farther AND i feel bad as hell because i said i would finish it for once 😭😭 unfortunately that fic compacted with the fact that it is march and i struggle in march freaked me out so bad that felt like i was going to explode so i ditched tumblr for a bit. i needed to Take A Breather so i dipped.

anyways i’m sorry for freaking you guys out, i def should have posted something. that’s on me. i promise i’m fine and i’m sorry to say that i will be pausing the time loop fic for a bit. but on the bright side, i’m gonna have a different fic for tonight!! i waited to come back until i came up w something bc i didn’t want to come back empty handed :))

#no one asked but like also it’s been a Time 💀 #finals are coming and my roommates broke the lease so i have to move out and i hate moving and also i can’t accept the job i was offered bc #i’m moving so that’s stressing me out and idk if i’m going to get a job this summer and not only do i need a job but also i’ll be going home #this summer and my parents are not cool with unemployment so i don’t have an option lol and also my mom has been trying to get me to switch #my degree from an honours ba to a regular ba bc it will be cheaper and shave off a year and it makes sense but i don’t want to do that and #idk how the hell to say that and unfortunately since i’ve been living on my own this semester my anxiety is at an all time high and #generally just like ninety things hit me at once lol. so i had to drop writint for a bit #but i’m back!! so all is well #personal #ask

[skitskatdacat63]

I have to go see a movie in like 2 hours, how am I supposed to be a normal person in society after all of this????

#spent hmmm i guess almost 6 hours straight literally only f1 brainrotting #and like probably half or more of it was just being insane about fernando #like how do i go be normal after i was shaking and heart pounding a couple hrs ago LOL #how do i switch my mind over to star wars from f1 #AND NOT EVEN MENTIONING THAT MY SEMESTER STARTS TMR #i really have absolutely zero capacity for school in my brain LOL #thank you f1 for ruining my brain #anyways has been a lot of fun today guys :D <333333333 #catie.rambling.txt

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#me @ my youngest sister at 6.30 this morning: yooooooo can u draw me a fishy so i can get it tattooed on me? #i drew her some flowers so i want a paralell tattoo with her initials bc she has my initials on her #but i literally have not spoken to her since like may bc i do not talk to my sisters unless we r in the same room. no hate we just dont hav #a lot in common. it makes me a lil sad tho bc im curious abt them. my youngest sister is at least nice to me 😭 #ive been thinking abt asking her for ages and last night i was asked abt my sisters so i was like. the time is now #while im still a bit elevated #which has been to my advantage bc i was able to stay v chatty and energetic while talking to ppl. and i think i made some friends #we bonded over fic reading. so theyre a bit. ya kno. girls gays and theys of science #we make the world go round. but its so interesting to hear them talk abt coming to school here bc they both liked where they were and r #leaving their support systems. and im like bruh if i didn't leave the southwest i was gonna die. im so happy to b here #support system? whats that. i talk to my parents once a month and that's it lol. but im gonna try to establish one here #and try to actually make actual friends. this school is way better abt making grad students interact #my last school was not at all like that. but anyway i had fun #and i mean im only at the start of the semester. and im in a good mood. and i kno things will get stressful #but im just really happy i got accepted here #and the longer im here the more clearly i can see how much i was suffering #the funny thing is tho that i wrote this last night and only hours later i was squirming in frustration bc the fact that im back in therapy #means i feel a greater obligation to not b actively self destructive. evil coping mechanisms my beloved #this is y my mum wanted me back in therapy bc im a goodie 2 shoes and when my counselor is like: did u do X the next time i see her. ill b #honest and itll b annoying >:-[ ugh #its just hard for me to b around ppl a lot bc i get stuck in mental loops bc ocd. which is exhausting. and i want it to stop #and i want to do bad things to make it stop but i wont bc im trying to b better #its just funny to me that ill go from everythings awful to everythings great i shoukd talk to my sisters and make friends and do this and #this and this. to oh god i cant do this anymore in such short time frames with certainty that how im feeling is how ive always felt #ive also noticed that my peaks of high energy do come before stressful events. which does make me worry for future stressful events. like #defending. i mean ive never gone fully off the tracks but its a lil alarming when it feels like the train is going at a million miles an hr #unrelated #meanwhile my other sister is apparently in Colorado but when i saw the pics is was like: YOU BITCH #R U CLOSE TO ME RN??? but no. Colorado is far away

[kuiinncedes]

what do u meannnnnnn i'm abt to be post college graduation 🧍🏻‍♀️🧍🏻‍♀️🧍🏻‍♀️

#apparnelty some family friends coming to my graudation #bc ig i'm the first in the generation to graduate or whatever the fuck #and like whatever that's fine but ffs i wish they would've come to my show instead #that i co directed and literally love sos o so oso sosososoososooo much #so so so proud of that #i don't give a shit abt my graduation tbh lmfao TT #so it lowkey doesn't mean much to me that they want to come to my graduation ;-; #it would've meant so fucking much if i knew they would be able to come #and want to see that and i could like suggest hey instead come see this show LMAO #like it probably wouldn't have happened but whatever #also just like i have like no motivation and no interest in stats at this point lmfao #ALSO bc these ppl all gonna be fucking talking abotu and asking abt what i'm doing after #I DON'T KNOWWWWW what i'm fucking doingggggggg #i alr get enough talk from my mom abt how i'm not applying to enough jobs #i dont need family friends to also be asking me and my answer just being ha idk #i'm fucking staying at college tho like on campus bc i'm a fucking loser and don't want to move on #like not rly. i'm kinda trying to see it as like #the alternative would've been me at home being a loser lol #and that would've been so annoying and even if this isn't the 'right' thing to do or most traditional #at least i'm choosing to do it ig #and i get to stay in this club w my bestestestestest friends for another yr #idc if i'm like not moving on when i should LOL too bad for me that's a future problem #and also kinda figure out this weird right after college time period w my friend who i'm rooming with #ok. slay that was. acool turnaround from me lmfao just . yeah ok that's the positive side ig lmao #anyway i also dont give a shit about graduation bc i hate my university rn lmfao :) and the world is burning down #jeanne talks #i am . procrastinating #imagine knowing what the fuck i learned in this class this whole semester #ugh literally two group projects to end on and two of the most boring annoying group project experiences i've had LMAO