#it's compartmentalizing!! that's really what it is!!!

[vee-thebee]

i feel like the reason i’m getting so confused by tmagp is because the fears are less,,, defined? and we don’t even have confirmation that smirke’s 14 are like A Thing in this timeline right but it’s still a knee-jerk reaction to try and compartmentalize them but it’s not really working?

like it was easier for the first couple cases right the first chatter was something with the End and then the second one was DEFINITELY something about the Eye but it’s only gotten more difficult the longer it’s gone on.

i think it’s just the most recent case that’s REALLY getting me. because almost all of the case is very Desolation to me. like we heard it in jude perry's statement in tma where she talks about how HER brand of destruction was stocks and investing. so hearing this guy talk about how he did All Of That destroying his own body just for a bag felt very Desolation-coded. AND THEN THE FUCKING CREATURE THAT WAS A FUCKING BUG (ha ha app program bugs it's still the Corruption i think)

like, idfk what the hell is actually going on here. we had 5 seasons 200 episodes telling us how we could compartmentalize and organize these statements into fourteen categories with very rare instances of overlap, and then we get tmagp that almost feels like it's turning it all on its head? HELP

#tmagp #tmagp spoilers #the magnus protocol #the magnus archives #tma #jonny #jonny i am talking to you #what the fuck is happening

[comradekatara]

Can you go a bit more in depth about your post about Sokka in the Burning Rock episode? You said that it was basically his suicide mission, which I agree with. I'd really like to hear more of your thoughts on it.

okay yeah i mean i'm sure i've covered all these points before extensively because i love weaving a tapestry of sokka's fucked up psychological landscape more than anything in the world, but every so often someone will comment on one of my posts and be like "i think you're reaching i think sokka is the paragon of mental health actually" and i'm just like um. did we not all watch the boiling rock. did we just ignore the apotheosis of sokka's entire character arc. like katara's apotheosis in "the southern raiders" is both very overt and impactful and also, arguably, subtler than sokka's, because they don't explicitly spell out the themes every five seconds, but like. if you didn't watch the boiling rock then you cannot understand sokka. and weirdly enough i also believe that zuka shippers are the biggest culprit of this despite this episode being thee zucchini episode because they somehow still have the audacity to characterize sokka as "goofy sunshine who exists to comfort zuko" when like. the entire point is that sokka is legitimately suicidal here and zuko is doing everything in his power to support him thru what is quite literally a mental breakdown. like their relationship is legitimately interesting i don't understand how people have taken that and made it deeply boring.....but i digress.

the boiling rock is quite obviously sokka at his lowest. the worst thing that could ever happen to him – fumbling a mission that was squarely his responsibility, from its conception to its execution, due to not being able to sufficiently compartmentalize his emotions, leading to the mass imprisonment of most of his comrades, including the men of his tribe whom he idolized his entire life and felt immense pressure to live up to, including his father who he is deathly afraid of disappointing (for reasons that have nothing to hakoda being malicious or neglectful in any way, fwiw), and thus being directly implicated in the failure and the harm caused by said failure – happened. sokka is someone who is especially bad at dealing with failure, because a) he is exceptionally talented, and thus has less experience dealing with failure in both minor and major ways, and thus lacks the emotional resilience developed through the process of struggle and growth that normal people (such as, incidentally, zuko) go through and b) to sokka, whose primary desire at all times is to protect and provide for others in any way he possibly can, for someone else to sacrifice themselves for him constitutes a fundamental disruption to the order. there is a perverse wrongness to kya or yue or hakoda or suki making sacrifices on their own volition, because it means that sokka has existentially failed to protect them by martyring himself. like, he somehow feels so guilty about suki being imprisoned that when azula reveals this piece of information to him, it literally distracts him from his own mission. and mind you, there's absolutely no way sokka could have known or been responsible for suki's imprisonment. but he still feels guilty nonetheless. and azula knows that, knows exactly how to twist the knife to make him break, because, well, it's honestly pretty obvious.

sokka obviously cannot retroactively save his mother or his first girlfriend, but he can save his father and his current girlfriend. in "the awakening" aang says he has to restore his honor after the guilt and shame of his failure in ba sing se (aang is also an incurable gifted kid perfectionist, btw, as is azula. posts for another time...) and sokka repeats zuko's line again in this episode, after experiencing the guilt and shame of his failure during the eclipse. the driving motivation of zuko's entire character, feeling like he has failed in some ontological way and must therefore redeem himself or die trying, is reinforced through aang and sokka's respective experiences mirroring that drive. aang goes out in a storm and nearly drowns to redeem himself in some vague, nebulous way, because he isn't thinking rationally. and likewise sokka, who usually always has a plan and always thinks things through, feels that caution and foresight is pointless, because he came up with a genuinely brilliant invasion plan and it didn't work, so clearly there's something wrong with him (just as he always suspected) and no amount of planning even matters, because he's a capital F Failure and always will be. and so he vows to save his father, as he promised him he would when they parted on the day of black sun, or die trying, because if he can't even do that then what is he good for; at least he'll die a martyr, which to him, is basically his ideal situation. because to sokka, dying as a martyr is basically the highest form of fulfilling his purpose (being needed, protecting people) and so if he dies a martyr, then maybe his catastrophic failure (that is entirely his fault and rests squarely on his shoulders btw) can be forgiven. so his plan is basically just to sacrifice himself for his father so that he can die "redeemed." very normal, rational, healthy behavior, i would say.

sidenote, i also see people claim that "the boiling rock" makes sokka look stupid because why wouldn't he take any of the insanely talented benders to a prison in a giant volcano surrounded by a boiling lake, and it's like. sokka literally admits that he's not being rational, that he doesn't think he's going to survive this, that this is not a good idea. it would go against sokka's entire modus operandi if he brought the children who he feels a deep, presiding responsibility to protect on a suicide mission that he's lowkey hoping will fail (because he not so secretly loves courting death. it's like she's the moon or something). he only lets zuko come with him because he doesn't actually care whether zuko lives or dies at this point. sokka has absolutely no faith in zuko whatsoever (and frankly, why would he, zuko has yet to actually prove himself to him. he didn't even kill combustion man; sokka did) so he has no idea that zuko is actually going to be helpful and supportive in a meaningful way. and frankly, if he had known that at the beginning, or even remotely liked zuko as a person, he probably wouldn't have caved so easily when zuko invited himself to join. if he didn't think that zuko was objectively worse than him and basically worthless as a human being, i doubt he would have let himself be so vulnerable with zuko in the first place. meanwhile zuko is eating it up bc he's like "omg he's confiding in me he's letting me help him we're basically besties" because he doesn't actually know sokka well enough to realize that sokka doesn't actually do that shit with people he remotely respects. shit like "my first girlfriend turned into the moon" and "i had a feeling this was going to be a one way trip" are simply not things that sokka would say out loud 98% of the time. the fact that he is admitting something real is not a testament to the trust he places in zuko, but rather the opposite. sokka spilling his guts (you know, for him) to his resident collateral damage, sokka bringing his lovingly crafted space sword on this mission, sokka not even confirming whether or not his father is actually there beforehand – he's simply stopped giving a fuck, he doesn't care whether or not he lives to see another day, because to him, he has nothing left to lose.

but of course, that also isn't true at all. i mean, for one thing, zuko still needs to teach aang firebending, so he does serve a pretty important function to the group, and zuko simply telling him to do hot squats in his absence does not qualify as significant tutelage. but also, even more importantly, sokka is integral to the fabric of the group. when he's gone for a day in "sokka's master" they literally all just shut down and start complaining about how much they miss him (we don't actually see any b-roll of the gaang hanging around the western air temple because the episode is simply too busy for that, so who can say whether the same thing occurs twice). sokka cannot afford to simply die just because his first plan failed, he still has a major responsibility to his friends. fucking idiot. i've said before that sokka has the emotional resilience of like. a pathetic wet newborn kitten caught in the rain. but like, come on man. i mean, as someone who has also suffered from debilitating perfectionist issues and never had to be responsible for a failed military invasion that cost my people their freedom, i do get it, but still. not his best moment. although there is something genuinely admirable about the fact that after he finds suki, he decides that saving suki is enough, and genuinely does want to succeed in his mission going forward. like his love for suki is one of the only things that consistently makes him happy and makes him forget that his greatest dream in life is to be murdered, and that's so beautiful to me.

the entire point of this episode, by the way, is that sokka is wrong. if that isn't obvious. sokka's entire worldview, that he only has value insofar as he exists to provide for others, and if he fails to protect people in any capacity, he has fundamentally failed to uphold the one reason he even exists on this earth, and thus he does not deserve to exist unless he is bearing the weight of everyone's suffering or otherwise proving his worth through sacrificing himself for others, is um. fucking stupid???? and incorrect. and stupid. the thing is, unlike zuko, sokka can't really point to any one person who taught him to see himself this way. he can't just face his father and tell him that his abuse was cruel and wrong, because hakoda is a good father who has never not supported and believed in and encouraged him, done everything in his power to protect him, loved him unconditionally. hakoda has inadvertently damaged sokka's psyche in various ways, of course, but never with any intention to hurt him. like, ozai tried to kill zuko, on multiple occasions. it's a pretty obvious indicator of the primary source of harm in his life. but sokka is equally if not more Unwell, and there's no one single figure he can blame, because his complex lies within a tangled web of what my best friend fanon calls the "massive psychoexistential complex" of the colonized subject. he is being dehumanized not through interpersonal abuse, but through the violent logic of imperialism. sokka's formative traumas inform his psychology as he understands that he only has value insofar as he is protecting the people he loves (namely his sister) from being murdered by imperialists, much like his mother did. and that logic is continually reified through the violence he is being subjected to, until he truly absorbs the belief that his life has no value on its own, that he is genuinely Less than [human] in some fundamental way. which is obviously deeply tragic, but also lowkey kind of comical because he also happens to be the specialest boy in the world, who literally did come up with multiple working escape plans at the world's most secure supermax on the fly, mind you! but whenever anyone tries to point that out, including piandao literally saying "you're the most exceptional and worthy person i've ever met in my life" sokka is just like "um. that is incorrect actually." like NO ONE should depersonalize themselves and feel that their only value lies in their ability to serve and sacrifice themselves for others, but it's especially ironic that sokka literally does not think he has any value as a human being, and yet he is also objectively exceptional. like, do you understand why i adore this character so much. do you.

anyway. the point of this episode isn't that sokka has worth because he's exceptional, either. that's lowkey the point of "sokka's master," but also a) sokka doesn't really internalize it and b) the more important part of the episode lies in how much the gaang just misses his company because they miss their neurotic control freak big brother who makes bad jokes. but even if he couldn't come up with multiple working escape plans on the fly, suki and zuko still stay by his side anyway because they care about him. they are demonstrating that they would risk their safety and possibly even their lives, in the exact way that sokka is always trying to for everyone else, for him. that sokka doesn't need to be the one who always protects everyone else, and that he isn't a failure for letting people who care about him help him and protect him. and sokka has to accept their help, because suki and zuko are simply too stubborn not to force him into letting them support him. they are standing in a literal maximum security prison in the middle of a volcano and they are still choosing to prioritize sokka's mental health and wellbeing, which is honestly crazy, but also exactly what he needs in this moment. suki has known sokka for what, 3 days maximum? yes they're soulmates but like, girl get up. and in zuko's case, "girl get up" is magnified tenfold, because he literally risked his life to go with him to the boiling rock (also largely motivated by the guilt of not being able to stage his own prison break with iroh, but still!) and let himself get imprisoned despite being the fire nation's most wanted criminal, stayed by sokka's side no matter what including getting thrown into a literal torture chamber for him, jumped across a gaping boiling chasm with no guarantee that he'd survive except for the implicit expectation that sokka would catch him on the other side. like zuko is so fucking pussywhipped and sokka didn't even value him as a human being until like halfway through their entire mission. insane.

in conclusion: "the boiling rock" is a beautiful story of the most mentally ill boy on the planet (he took first place ever since jet died rip jet forever in our hearts), and his two ride or die bitches who he met like yesterday, and also his dad, and a casual homophobe named chit sang, all working together to demonstrate to him why killing yourself is a bad idea in most cases, probably. it's also the story of the most insane dyke drama of all time, but that's for another post (of which i have of course made multiple, most recently, here). i said it's the apotheosis of sokka's arc, and by that i mean it's the most overt acknowledgement of what his fundamental issue is, and the first steps one must take in actually resolving it (namely, accepting help and support from your peers and loved ones). do i think that sokka is magically cured after returning from the boiling rock? no, probably not (in fact, because i'm somewhat sick & twisted myself, i like to imagine that once the war ends, he actually gets worse). but he does seem genuinely happier after they return. and maybe that's just bc kyoshi warrior pussy hits different, but like. he was able to rely on others for help (including mai my best friend mai) who supported him unconditionally and prevented him from simply giving up, and that's so incredibly important. that kind of support is always important, to everyone, of course, but as we've established, it's especially important to sokka specifically, at his lowest (quite possibly ever), in this situation. no one has an obligation to risk their life for someone else, but sokka is something who thinks that his purpose is to risk his life for other people (namely katara), and so for people who really have nothing to gain and everything to lose in standing by and promising not to leave without him, to actually show that they support him unconditionally is huge. if sokka has no fans then i am dead and so is suki zuko hakoda toph aang piandao iroh the mechanist etc etc etc. perfect episode <3

#suicide / #writergracethepanda #asks #analysis #sokka #sokkaxsuki #cinematic masterpiece the boiling rock part 2 #(technically i use that tag to talk about maizulee but swagever) #this post is basically just stream of consciousness unstructured rambling so i hope you find it valuable in some way... #at this point i've given up on trying to do Readings of and make Arguments about sokka #and i'm just rambling. i posted a whole fucking. ACTUAL essay about him yesterday and no one read it #but this is not that. this is. who even knows. it's certainly not an ''essay'' #my thesis statement: i love sokka so much #my body paragraphs: hes a weak willed mentally ill fucking IDIOT #just trust me ok. trust the process

[queer-ragnelle]

Character asks: Lancelot!

🧸 he grew up in a lake, what was that like?

😺 cat person or dog person?

😶 any headcanons that are wildly off-canon?

🧸 Headcanon about childhood!

Personally while I do think the Lady of the Lake meant well in how she raised Lancelot, his natural anxiety was exacerbated by his atypical upbringing. He did have his cousins Lionel and Bors with him to socialize with, but they also had the benefit of starting out on the surface, whereas Lancelot was raised underwater from infancy, and those early years in an otherworldly atmosphere does things to a guy's mind. This is why he relies on his mother to coax him out of his madness at times, he's literally not acclimated to surface living, and she has to "reset" him.

😺 Animal related headcanon—cat person or dog person?

Lancelot is a Cat Person and also prefers cats as pets ;^)

😶 Random headcanon—any wildly off-canon?

It's hard to say honestly Lancelot has so much page time and been adapted so much I'm not sure what's left to do that hasn't been done. I think the biggest thing would not only apply to Lancelot but a lot of the "best" knights in that they compartmentalize the violence they commit to cope with it. I don't really think Lancelot revels in combat but neither do I consider him opposed to it, if anything it's a chilling neutrality which has been walled off inside him to prevent interference with his day-to-day functionality. It's when that seeps through he requires the Lady of the Lake's help.

#arthurian legend #arthurian legends #arthuriana #arthurian mythology #arthurian literature #lancelot #lancelot du lac #sir lancelot #ask game #ask #anonymous

[smile-files]

i think one of the most fun things about having goody gardens is that it lets me not worry about being fully cohesive... like if i want to wear more comfy, flannely, corduroy-y things? that's worrywart! if i want to wear brighter, happier, more childlike things? that's sunshine lollipop! etc. and also this way i have an excuse to have like... 7 fursonas at once. if i so desired. it's all about self-expression!! whee!!!

#melonposting #i mean it's kind of silly but this is the only way i can really go about this sort of thing #because one part of me is saying: it doesn't have to make sense! just have fun! embrace the whimsical fantastical child in you!!! #but then another part of me is saying: but it has to have logic! it has to make sense! i have so many questions!! #i.e. autism vs autism haha #but anyway these folks being explicitly parts of my imagination/mind/conscience/psyche makes it easier to suspend my disbelief #like these are imaginary friends. they don't really exist. they can be whatever i want!! #and so there's some logic there that my brain can wrap around #(there's four-eyes getting all picky! haha!!) #also it just helps in justifying how complex i am (i mean i am a person after all! i'm always going to be complex!!) #because of course that part of my brain wants to find some method to the madness #it's compartmentalizing!! that's really what it is!!! #anyway this is just an excuse for me to continue to be indecisive about a fursona species haha #i'd imagine magic can turn his neighbors into different things #so he can make them into corresponding fursonas and objectsonas!!! it all makes sense!!!!!!!!! #but i feel like each of them would also by default be able to turn into a different butterfly or moth :D #like as a natural sort of thing for them. without magic's help #i am full of butterflies!!!!!! whee #sorry for rambling i just really what goody gardens has done for me :)

[meredithbeckham]

don't you dare cry.

a softer world, the 100.

#echo kom spacekru #echo kom azgeda #echoedit #the100edit #t100edit #* #a softer world #echo and trauma :( #echo and repression echo and compartmentalization #if you cry they'll hear you so i didn't #i don't think it's a coincidence that echo really begins to ~shut down (as bellamy experiences it) #after the red sun. where they tranquilized themselves out of fear they would harm emori as they had once harmed costia once harmed bellamy #by way of mount weather under nia's orders #all of that trauma echo had been able to start to process on the ring now that they for the first time in their entire lives had access to #support and safety brought to the surface in a brutal and overwhelming and terrifying way #as echo was introduced to the primes - so familiar to someone who knows what it is to be broken down and made anew #all experiences that they likely couldn't have spoken about and regardless didn't have time to do so #i just get so sad about them #echo who has been fighting to survive their entire life #ash who became echo to do so - who was forced to bury their identity and all that came before to do so #echo who has associated 'weakness' such as crying expressing emotion etc with death their entire lives #'like a good little azgeda spy' their face when bellamy says this #echo's trauma weaponized against them :(( (i understand him and i love him i just cry)

[dreamlogic]

2024 year of charlie gets a fucking break (hopefully. maybe. tbd.)

#ctxt #i'm on medication that's reduced my post-hysterectomy pain by about 70% #i have an intake appointment with a physical therapist in march & a referral to start trigger point injections #to hopefully finally recover as completely as possible from the nightmarish neuropathy that's plagued me since uuuhhhh #going on 2 years ago. holy shit. genuinely can't believe i've been surviving & functioning as well as i have for this long #while suffering a disabling & extremely painful surgical complication. fuck my original surgeon for brushing me off during that time #but the new provider i'm working with is so responsive & thorough in her approach & seems genuinely committed #to helping me finally get relief after all this time. she listens to my feedback & is flexible in her approach #and her assistant is a great communicator who's been handling most of the logistics of care coordination for me #and what a huge fucking relief that is. to not have to drag my doctors kicking & screaming towards maybe treating me eventually #i wanna cry. i finally feel like i'm being taken seriously and cared for. and i'm not BETTER yet (might never be the same as i was pre-op) #but i actually feel optimistic for the first time in over a year that i won't just have to deal with this agonizing pain on my own forever #i might actually see enough improvement that i can start to get back to living my life instead of just surviving it #money is tighter than it's been since i got laid off during early pandemic and that's stressing me out #but i promised myself that i would put my health first in 2024 and that means only working the bare minimum needed to pay my bills for now #genuinely i so fucking needed a break. i felt like i was trying to swim through a meat grinder last year #and it wasn't until i ended up in the ER about it that i finally was able to take my own pain seriously enough #to put my foot down & make some necessary changes that are now letting me focus on Getting Well With Myself at last #in hindsight it's like. really freaking me out how thoroughly i was able to compartmentalize & dissociate from how miserable i was #bc nobody who had the ability to help me would take me seriously & my shitty boss was like. extremely textbook emotionally abusive #and on one hand that was a survival mechanism that kept me on my feet during one of the worst times of my life. so props to myself there #but it was also very maladaptive how long & unnecessarily it went on before i snapped out of it & escalated things for my own safety #it was the same helpless frustration i often felt as a kid of like 'well nobody is on my side but me so i gotta suck it up & help myself' #and i think the family trauma shit that was going on last year definitely contributed to that. idk sense of doubling across time? #and things had to get Extremely Bad before they were bad enough for me to realize that although i felt like it #i am no longer an isolated & parentified island of a child who is beholden to the whims of ignorant & indifferent adults #i actually can and should take action to advocate for myself bc i am an adult and i CAN now change my circumstances as needed #instead of just enduring them as if i'm stuck there with no agency or chance to change things #and i have a really solid support system who helped me feel like it was possible to stand up for myself to get the help i desperately need #chronic blogging

[zabiume]

@ livejournal user nemutai your characterization lives in my head rent-free

#i love sweet sappy ichihime as much as the next guy but i do think they are both very protective of themselves & enjoy the angst that brings #*i enjoy #orihime especially is very good at compartmentalizing her feelings to keep the peace #but you can bet she's going to stay up at night in her apartment second-guessing herself #torn between wanting him and feeling safe with what she already has #torn between letting her boundaries down and getting wrecked by him or keeping herself safe #this fic was supposed to have 3 parts but i think the angst/unintentional open ending really works #anyway #ichihime in their 20s should suffer through the absolute MOST pining before getting together #especially ichigo like i love him but he is NOT getting out of this😂 #ichihime

[gideonisms]

I think the thing about ntn is, it's like making a friend who you broadly agree with on the most important things but who you HARD disagree with on some of the details

#ntn spoilers #i'm at the point where i can have actual opinions now i think. #paul. paul. #i loved the campal tragic moment i loved everything with pyrrha and nona's reluctance to remember the ways she'd been hurt the #compartmentalizing of identity the acknowledgement that sometimes we just are going to become someone vastly different #the question of whether love can overcome that or why love matters if everything's just going to change and end and restart again #and the conclusion that it did matter because it mattered in the moment #love as this huge imperfect force of acceptance for others vs love as a determination to cling to them the way you think they should be #all of that was so good #even the stuff with gideon kind of. felt like it belonged in a different book but i agree with the broad character strokes of like #the horror of what's been done to gideon the way she is trying to become a different person making her own terrible decisions etc #but still trapped in this awful framework for her life & death where she only matters as a symbol for others #and her reckoning with that is messy and awful bc of course it is! #but it did feel like it needed more space than the brief chapters we got & hopefully it will come to the forefront in the next book #like all of the elements didn't necessarily mesh well and i think the humor she was trying to go for with the silly name didn't really work #and the stuff with judith was like. the most boring way to handle that imo. did she have to be unconscious the whole book #she's got so much potential as a character #and! my top pet peeve when harrow lobotomy girl nonagesimus is like i'm going to find the real god you suck #iconic yes but it reveals #she's had the agency to walk away from john the whole book and has sat there listening and now is going to find alecto when? #like?? #the point of the lobotomy was that she is rejecting the framework for her previous life bc she's decided she cares more about the human cost #like??????? #if she was just sort of drifting in the river having alecto's dreams that's one thing but i refuse to believe #she wouldn't be trying to figure out where gideon was the whole time #maybe if she hadn't done the lobotomy i would buy it but she did do the lobotomy!!!!! she literally did do the lobotomy #you have to do a lot of work to get harrow from only caring about gideon's life and i guess religion kind of to just hitting pause on #thinking about gideon for an entire book! #this is not even my shipper brain it makes sense gideon has other priorities is in mourning for her previous self the things she's lost etc #but harrow literally did the lobotomy if u needed to get her to the 9th for plot reasons there were better ways to explain it!!

[llycaons]

xl went through so much insane suffering, things like being stabbed until he barely resembles a human form and being locked in a coffin for literally a hundred years, but I think making him immortal and ever-healing and showing how much he learned from his experiences AND ending his story with so much closure and close relationships makes his tragedies a lot easier to bear than wwx's. like, emotionally

#when I see xl I go marlon brando voice *look how they massacred my boy* #reading books 2 and 4 going wow this is really sad im glad that's behind xl and he's at such peace #reading the flashbacks in mdzs and going WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK #wwx does have a nice little recovery arc in the book but he's still clearly really messed up from a lot that had happened to him #and compartmentalizing and avoiding his past and desperately trying to survive another day #in a way xl really wasn't. he was just chilling #this is why I never read tgcf fic unless it's very goofy or pokes fun at canon #it feels like such a more complete story with no loose ends or lingering issues #tho tbf I don't really search for novel fic I search for cql fic and happen to run into novel stuff that I like sometimes #which is usually modern with magic or dealing with various things I thought weren't handled well like the sex scenes #also he was by all accounts a very stable and happy child and young adult. the shit didn't even start until he was 17 #by that point wwx had lost two sets of parents been hunted on the street by feral dogs as a starving child been tortured multiple times #has lost his home to a violent invasion had given up his core in a painful procedure that he knew would eventually kill him #and been in a war #hm. anyway. #tgcf txp

[hazzabeeforlou]

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#sigh #the more I hear about the doc the more I know I can’t do it #I really truly try to compartmentalize what he’s had to do with the kid #and I get it I truly do #but it also makes me so irrationally upset #the PRINCIPLE of the whole thing just!!! #grinds my gears like nothing else #idk. anyone else just have less than zero tolerance for this?

[erabundus]

i  think  a  lot  about  how  ren  is  genuinely  very  straightforward  and  honest  —  but  he  also  lies  a  lot  by  OMISSION.

#𝟎𝟎𝟒 : 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘺 𝘴𝘢𝘺 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘶𝘴𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘴𝘰 𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘥. ◟ hc .◝ #( like it's been established he's very secretive about his personal life. he doesn't tell anyone anything they don't need to know ) #( he likes to compartmentalize things so you'll only know one puzzle piece of what's actually going on with him. ) #( but he's So Much Worse about it than that ) #( he'll deliberately say things to lead you to make an incorrect assumption. ) #( his favorite thing to do is speak in half-truths where he isn't actually lying -- #but he's giving so little context that it's basically wrong. i.e. ''i'm just a wanderer'' is his favorite & well yes but technically no. ) #( and that's when he doesn't just casually sidestep saying anything at all. ) #( you literally have to work to get his NAME he really is the worst ) #( idk!! i just think about how deliberately he chooses his words a lot. this man is a headache. )

[skitter-queen]

Reading Twig and I think Sy just sort of does things arbitrarily, like a dog or a ghost or a wormblogger.

im not sure i agree about sy but im halfway through serial experiments lain and this is pretty much how its feeling so far

#feels like a show you kind of need to watch twice? idk #anyway sy i think always has reasons for what he does but his brain is so compartmentalized that he doesnt have to be aware of them #and neither does the reader #which is usually fine because i think for all his fluidity as a person sy really is Who he is #the things that drive him are consistent. #wont go into details but i do think the ending was a letdown in this regard :/ #main point though is i can confirm as a wormblogger i do post entirely arbitrarily #twig

[moonsugar-and-spice]

If ever there was a song for Pirate King.

I don't know what you've been told But time is running out, no need to take it slow I'm stepping to you toe-to-toe I should be scared, honey, maybe so // I'm at my best when I got something I'm wanting to steal Way too busy for them problems and problems to feel No stressing, just obsessin' with sealin' the deal I'll take it in and let it go

#lu da #oc shenanigans #he ain't worried bout it right now #that's a worry for another day #Compartmentalizer Extraordinaire #this boy really does live in and for the incandescent moment come what may #making faustian bargains with the future #his freewheeling nature is a gift in many ways but can also come at a price if and when the tides turn #Spotify

[ufolvr]

Unable to complete my silly bedtime routine of playing nonogram until the melatonin kicks in bc I'm thinking about this post with gltas Guy @ Citrus whos about to explode into tears internally

#'what not externally' no this guy compartmentalizes everything #and has no idea how to form bonds with ppl that arent from the same culture as him #so guy could be like. 'hey i really liked going on a mission with you :-) we should do it more often ❤️' #and citrus is like 'sure' but internally he wants to implode for saying that #gltas citrus is just far less energetic and outgoing bc thats what happens whenever he doesnt have red to help 'mold' him #+ the stoicism is from oa not being exactly the best place for him. like they straight up do not like him for several reasons #hes so much more annoying in jltas/jlu for some reason though. ill get to that. i think hed been on earth a while either way #and this citrus is fresh out of the military hellscape he detached himself from maybe #ok. im going insane #📡 incoming transmission 📡 #oc: citrus #cinder #yes there r two different guy tags b/c this one is just so much more different 2 me. like i cant clump them 2gether!

[welcomeleon]

y'all ever just sit there and think abt the fact that leon was stolen from his life by the government and no one around him knows.

#ooc #the fact that he has to keep it a secret #the fact that there will just always be a part of him hidden #i dont think he even really thinks about it any more. like. he's compartmentalized it so much. #he's so defeated about it. he can't really imagine a different life for himself so what's the point in thinking about it.