#just want simple things in life

[fairydrowning]

"I want to live simply. I want to sit by the window when it rains and read books I'll never be tested on. I want to paint because I want to, not because I've got something to prove. I want to listen to my body, fall asleep when the moon is high and wake up slowly, with no place to rush off to. I want not to be governed by money or clocks or any of the artificial restraints that humanity imposes on itself. I just want to be, boundless and infinite."

– Via "svnflower-blog" on Tumblr

#just want simple things in life #dark academia #light academia #excerpts #fragments #poetry #romanticism #spilled thoughts #words #literary quotes #books and literature #light academia aesthetic #quotations

[ryuucae]

#ff14 #ffxiv #elidibus #wolidibus #warrior of light #final fantasy xiv #art #digital art #drawing #illustration #i don't have much to say on this #i just wanted to draw the love of my life lmao i love him so much it hurts #i was trying to just take it easy and draw something simple wo thinking of anything or trying to do anything complex #but as a result it came out boring i think... #sometimes you just need to let things be boring and plain so you can relax #not everything has to be a masterpiece #so for now i say good enough #onto the next idea

[maureen-corpse]

Reading tweets from the menswear guy on Twitter is fun when he’s pointing out everything wrong with some jerk’s wardrobe, but it’s also a bit disheartening when he does an aside about how well-made suits are constructed with layers to create a particular silhouette that is not dependent upon the wearer’s body, and then also tailoring is getting rarer these days. He continually exhorts people to think about shape and silhouette and fabric, which is good advice for anyone putting on clothes, not just men and not just suit-wearers.

Once upon a time people created a fashionable silhouette with their clothing, and their corporeal forms remained mysterious to most. No doubt everyone harbored the same insecurities we do today (except for any related to social media) but by golly, their blood wasn’t full of microplastics and their clothing wasn’t just straight-up plastic. They actually had fabric to work with, instead of going to a department store and finding out that corners are being cut again and they have to layer seven shirts to keep warm.

Anyway, fashion isn’t real. The clothing people sell these days is poor quality polyester junk. I should make more internet pirate shirts and add them to my wardrobe. My silhouette will be Poofy. My vibe will be Romance Novel Heroine (In A Man’s Shirt For Some Reason, Also Where Is The Other Heroine). I will eventually be able to reliably sew straight lines and one day move on to different lines. Perhaps one day I’ll knit my own socks. Maybe I’ll get sheep and farm-to-table the wool (I am not going to do this)

#i like to daydream about being a simple sheep farmer but in real life that sounds hard #anyway sorry for the disorganized post sometimes i just say things #i do not actually want a romance novel life i want to avoid arbitrary plot-necessary obstacles

[gideonisms]

I become 300% more of both a lover and a hater when I'm on my period. just a time of the month when I have strong opinions I would say

#i want to kiss a butch for 3 hours. also i'm the only one in the world with correct opinions about everything #me the main character of life #anyway i saw this post complaining about sanitized mass marketable queer art #where the person described themselves based on the interests i guess they thought were most stereotypical and then were like #isn't there something rawer or more real than this #to which i would say there is! but you went to the queer market day #idk it is a frustration of mine too i do get it #but i think some people could stand to just get weirder and like the things they like #idk i buy cute little queer stickers all the time but i regularly stand out as a strange person in both queer and straight communities #get a friend who worked the same shit job who will sell you abstract alien art they made while they were high it's not hard #go to goodwill more. you'll find some raw expressions of humanity. #if you just want your interests to be more genuine to you it's simple #you just have to accept that maybe 2 other people will be able to rec you music or foods you enjoy #being more specific isn't everything it's cracked up to be sometimes #i think the problem here is mainly capitalism

[yunmeng-jiang]

that man does NOT think of wei wuxian as his gege

#jiang cheng #wwx #twin prides #i have a whole post about how they both think of themselves as having an older-sibling role #but even if that wasn't true jc still always calls him by his full name and the one time wwx tried to call him shidi jc yelled at him #their relationship is not that simple! it's a huge thing that wwx occupies a weird in-between role in their family! #he's definitely not a servant but also definitely not a full member of their family and that's super important to the story! #even if jc WANTED to think of him as his older brother he would need to get past seven layers of trauma to even realize he wanted that #and then he would have to admit it to himself and then work up the courage to admit it to someone else #and even then he probably still wouldn't say it to wwx's face #sure yanli calls wwx her didi but things are much simpler from her point of view #plus she's one of those people - like lxc - that can hold an opinion deep inside herself and be at peace with it even if it conflicts + #+ with what the world says and what she's been brought up to believe #jc is not like that. he internalizes way more from the outside world and if he feels conflicted he just kind of implodes #he's spent his whole life being told that wwx is not his equal and is someone to compete against #and also secretly believing that wwx is eventually going to abandon him because he doesn't think anyone truly cares for him #plus wwx treats him like a bff who is also a liege lord rather than a beloved younger brother #he would Not form a secure attachment to wwx lmao #it also really annoys me that when people write/conceptualize him as someone who thinks of wwx as his real gege + #+ they tend to completely erase jyl and minimize her importance to jc. he HAS an older sibling who he trusts unconditionally and confides + #+ in and takes comfort from! that person already exists! and they ignore her in favor of the protagonist #it also really bugs me when they have him mourning wwx those whole 13-16 years but don't put in a single word about yanli #this kind of turned into a rant about jyl... i have a lot of feelings about her especially since i'm the oldest sibling in my family #anyway. that man does not think of wwx as his gege #haterade #(kind of)

[folightening]

Hetalia nations having the only remaining copy of their favorite play or book. Special first editions of certain books, sometimes gifted by the author themself. Portraits done by artists no one else cares to remember. Stories never written down that they only remember parts of and wish they could share again with their people. Little knick knacks they picked up over the centuries with value only to them. Things that remind them of who they are, who they used to be, that are so important they can't part with them.

Then there are those things that only live in their memory, that they wish they could see again but it just wouldn't be the same.

#hetalia #getting a little emotional thinking about their immortality #all the things they've experienced that they can't anymore #the things humans used to do but don't anymore that they miss #old fashions and traditions they keep despite how the world thinks of them #how fast things keep moving and expecting the old souls to keep up and deal with it no matter how much they may not want to #remembering people differently from history but their memories aren't the business of nosy humans #just wanting a simple life but not granted one because they are a Nation

[insertsomthinawesome]

I'M BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAACK!!! Okay so honestly I have been very very inconsistent over the years with just disappearing for periods of time due to various things 😂 So it probably seemed pretty normal to most people.

But it felt different on my side, so I'm excited to be back in business. I took a month long hiatus! 31 days of not drawing digital art. Its not something I talk about on here? But I've been suffering from some serious long term Art Burnout for.... a really really long time. Long enough that I should've taken a break probably years ago. It finally got so bad that I could barely draw. I was scared to do it (cause it always looked "bad" in my eyes [i'll come back to that]) and doing it was exhausting and disheartening.

I talked it over with somebody and realized that the fear and anger and frustration I felt towards my own artwork was uh. Not Normal or Healthy. And I finally committed to taking a real break for once.

I still drew a little bit by hand? Traditional art has always felt like it has lower stakes for me (i don't often share it online, and sometimes I don't even share it with friends) so I did some of that when I felt like it. But Digital art was completely off the table.

I had put such an immense pressure on myself to make my digital art perfect, to make as much of it as quickly as possible to satisfy something. It wasn't fun anymore. I'm proud of what i've made over the years! But for a long time now the stuff I've been making was made while hating every second of making it. With some rare exceptions.

I hated my art! It was a combination of Perfectionism, taking in too many external expectations, and the burnout. If you hate doing something its kinda hard to love it even when you want too lol. It wasn't "Bad" in the sense that the quality was low and it was ugly! It was "Bad" in the sense that it was unhealthy for me to keep doing it at that point in time.

I'm glad to report though, that with my hiatus officially over as of Wednesday last week: I am once again. In Love. With doing art, and being an artist :)

I put off taking a break for years cause I was scared that taking a break would mean that I would never achieve all the things I wanted to do with art. I was scared it was a stupid and lazy thing to do that would mean I'd never achieve my dreams. And Also even though I kinda hated drawing, I also loved making art. Its a weird duality that I can't even really explain??? I hated it but I also loved it. I wanted it but I also wanted to run from it. It wasn't until I was more mature and had more clarity and insight (and unfortunately also until the problems got worse) that I was finally able to let go of those fears and just do it.

And I'm really really glad I did. It was everything I needed. And I hope to strike a better balance in the future with art. Taking more breaks when I need them, or just when other things have my attention like reading or Video games (Some star rail got played during this time xD)

From the outside things probably aren't going to be that different?? At this point I don't really have any sure plans to post anything I've been drawing since my Hiatus ended. I might or I might not xD I'm still a hobbyist artist taking things at her own pace, but I hope that it shows how much happier I am :)

Whumptober 2023 is being officially put to rest by this post btw! I was in major burnout when that event started, and I'm ready to just, move on from all the past expectations I'd shoved on my shoulders. If I feel like filling any of the prompts or going back to any of the ideas I'd come up for it I will! But I'm not going to worry about doing it unless the desire sets in. Thanks to everybody who's been so kind to me throughout my time on here as an artist! Ya'lls tags and screaming and kind words, the fanfic, the asks and the responses? Its been fantastic :) You guys have made me laugh, smile, and cry tears of joy. I hope from here that things only get better and sweeter! And if I have bad days again, that's okay too.

Here's to 2024 and whatever it may bring ya'll :D 🎉🎉✨✨🧡💜

#isa screams #long post #gif #flashing #i think? Lemme know if I'm incorrect on that one alksdjfLKSJDJDSG #I don't normally talk this much so its kinda strange? #its kinda nice to be more honest about this stuff though #I'm a bit more of a private person so its hard to find the balance between wanting to discuss things openly and honestly #but with the fact that I don't owe the entire world an explanation for everything I do #its a tricky thing #but today I felt like doing this and I think that's okay #if i regret it I just won't do it again alsdjLSDJLFJSGSDG #thanks if you read this! I appreciate it! #I'm a pretty smalltime artist relatively. So sometimes it feels as though it doesn't mater what i say or express. #But hm. I doubt its really that simple or bleak #And if I don't respect myself then well. Who will right? #And I want to learn how to be happy with how little or how much I get #part of the reason I've done so poorly mentally as an artist is chasing numbers and outside praise instead of asking the harder questions #am i happy with what i do? what I make? Who I am #I'm going to probably be working on those questions and problems for the rest of my life. #But thats okay. Thats not a bad thing :)

[seventh-district]

OCD will literally remove your brain's ability to register when a task is Complete and then create 10,000 incredibly ridiculous and extremely specific rules for you to follow in every single aspect of your life (to keep you safe, of course, it tells you.) and then tells you that if you don’t do them Correctly and Completely every single time it tells you to (it tells you countless times per day) then the Entire Fucking World Will End and then it’ll do this fucked up thing where it makes you believe that nonsense.

and then people that don’t have it will make silly little jokes about being soooooo OCD and make t-shirts with fun little acronyms on them like Obsessive Coffee Disorder and tell you how much they like it when things are organized and clean, too!!

and then you’re supposed to just. laugh. like you haven’t been robbed of your entire being and potential and been taken over by a mind and life altering disability

#PSA: don’t fucking tell me to Seek Therapy or Try Medication. i am Aware. i have Tried. it isn’t that fucking simple #and this is my blog. i’ll complain about my illnesses all i want to. if you don’t like it i strongly encourage you to unfollow me #ocd #actually ocd #cw ocd #cw mental illness #mental health stuff #Seven.txt #Obsessive Compulsive Disorder is actually SO goddamn insidious. and only ppl that have lived with it will understand that #it’s a terrible terrible thing. to have something ruin your entire life under the guise of keeping you safe #it’s like being abused by your own mind and i don’t say that lightly #okay. stopped crying long enough to get this post out of my brain and onto my blog #gonna put Walking Disaster on loop and return to my Mental Illness Floor Time now #if no one hears from me for a little while it’s not personal i just. need to not be a Person right now. i’m so tired

[turtletoria]

a mask of my own face

#turtlearts #dr two brains #scopophobia #body horror #sharp objects #let me know if theres anything else that needs tagged! #anyways. thats supposed to be a mirror btw #also i tried so hard to fit a lot of symbolism and random shit into it. i am so willing to pick this drawing apart so if youd like that send #an ask or smth!!!! #for real i sank so many hours into this... it was supposed to be a simple colored sketch lmao #i just kept adding onto it for weeks and weeks. and all for what #looked up so many references and had to learn how to do things and tried out new brushes for this omg #like i need to emphasize that this was so hard to do and for what!!!! a silly little halloween spooky month drawing??!?!?!?!?! #even now when i look at it i hate it so much i want to keep adding things to it #i have to post it NOW or else i will be working on it for the rest of my life #pls give me nice words so i dont regret all the time i sank into this drawing </3 #if u think im fishing for complements and looking all the more pathetic and desperate for it. ur right </3 im sorry

[uhbasicallyjustmilex]

me desperately trying to outrun my writer’s block for the fiftieth time this week

#i know i vent about my writing struggles a lot on here #but god i really am struggling with this chapter of four walls so much #i feel disconnected and overly critical and lacking motivation and UGH #why can’t life be simple and just let me enjoy the things i enjoy #maybe i’m struggling so much because actually this is the longest story i’ve written in literal years and it’s kind of a daunting #i don’t want to mess it up #and i’m kind of scared i’m losing the thread #i know i just need to trust the process but sometimes it’s really hard #okay rant over #i’m going to gather snacks and return to my laptop and see if i can finally get in the zone #lulu posts

[uncanny-tranny]

Please, if you have nothing else to do, please look at what is on the Golden Records, alongside the Soundcloud uploaded by NASA of the greetings recorded on the record. There is such a quiet vulnerability to knowing that these records have been created and are at the mercy of whomever finds them. I hope they love us as much as I love them.

I hope we can send more out - we deserve to be remembered, alongside this entire world. There is truly no place more special to me than this world💛

#positivity #i hope we all eat well #i hope we are all remembered by people we will never be able to fathom #the records were made by NERDS and i adore all of them #i love how much they thought about what they should include and how they thought through how to convey information #you don't get it you don't GET it every DAY i pray that SOMEBODY out there has sent out their own golden record do you GET it....... #i yearn to know every little thing about every type of people in the universe. i would kill and die just to have the chance to know #even IF the life out there is 'simple single-celled organisms' i don't CARE!!!! i need to know they exist #i need to know WHAT they are or WHO they are. i want to know every tiny microscopic thing about them #this applies to my fellow human of course but it applies to everything. i need to know it ALL #i feel like a caged tiger if you're wondering

[craycraybluejay]

yes i am an adult male who loves high school dramas this is because i literally never experienced normal coming of age drama like ever and am disconnected from the collective experience of having a relatable peer group forever hope that helps

#i JUST want to experience high school #without like. my whole shitty life thing having gone on #i want to go to high school and have stupid drama and sexuality crises and worries about grades #not... That #i never had that im never going to have that #can i get (one) permission to go a little crazy if i survive into a university #fuck everyone befriend and be-enemy everyone get all up in peoples stupid mind numbingly low stakes drama #i want that sweet golden experience where the worst thing ill ever fear is annoying my classmates #or accidentally spilling something on someone at a dance #i deserve it i deserve to have had a childhood and a young adulthood and a life #i deserve to have dealt with unserious issues to prepare me for bigger ones #rather than serious danger that leaves me permanently severed from normal people and life #and makes me incapable of reacting proportionally or finding it in me to care about less serious problems #like yes it sucks your mom is going to miss college graduation #but i thank my lucky stars that you are not dying or being abused or starved or beaten or exploited #i literally dont know how to take things seriously a lot of the time like im not able to even if i try #because to me the mildest real problem is someone purposefully isolating you and ruining your health #the MILDEST #i try to care ab simple stuff i really do i just CANT #and it sucks so much trying to be a good friend and kind feeling like i cant do enough #the loud thought 'i wish that hapoened to me/i wish i worried about that/i wish the people i love only had that as a problem' #i get so envious. like thank fucking god your parents divorced like normal adults when it should be over #thank fucking god that 'friend' cut you off when they were actively insulting you and betraying your trust #thank the fucking universe that shitty partner dumped you before you fkn hurt yourself over them #yk? #and its a 'mean/cold' way to think about it but i just dont have the capacity to think or feel the little picture #i can imagine my friends subjected to such horror even tho i dont want to

[marciaillust]

so like uh. uhh. superhero/journalist au revamped

#2023 the year of tcm im telling you #taking a little break from drawing the dj #BRO I CANT BELIEVE I NEVER POSTED THE SHITTY OG SKETCHES #there were soooo many #i am certain i posted the witch au so why not the superhero au #OR maybe i did post it and i just cant find them?? anyway #my friend showed me this artist that i have become low key obsessed with dan mora #also the same friend may or may not be wiritng a tcm fic for me. tee hee. :^) my birthday is in march yay #ANYWAY the au. it started out pretty simple #orion is a journalist and garret is a lone wolf superhero and stuff happens! #stuff that i cant talk about because the subject matter is way too close to spoilers for the actual tcm #but lets just say orion wants the scoop to write his articles but Red Wing doesnt want his identity revealed #shenanigans ensue #I CANT WAIT FOR THE FIC KYA #my best friend being an excellent writer is the BEST thing that happened to me in my whole life fr #their stuff is always so top notch #soon to be published best selling uk author fr #after they get the doctorate #can you believe it doctorate #holy wow #ok tags #tcm #the clockmaster #sketches #superhero au

[finexbright]

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#anyways since i haven't been controversial on main in a long time #notice niall's promo : using his platform for fan engagement and just focussing on the music and making it drive and take off #like he's been teasing it for some time and then he got his industry friends to do some promo #and he can casually talk about kissing lewis capaldi or 1d or harry or louis or anyone #and how even though he has a quite long term girlfriend never once has that relationship been a focus of things #never once has his private life or any aspect of it been a focus of promo. or even his golf career as a matter of a fact #the story is simple : he is releasing an album and he's gonna talk about music that's it #now notice harry or louis' album cycles : always focus on relationships and private lives and barely any talk about the music #or how to drive that music and make it the main aspect of promo cycle #you can argue that harry is a bigger name and people would care about his private life but like. b/w niall and louis clearly niall is more #known and still he never needs to speak about his relationships or personal lives #you can also look at literally any other artists album cycles : dua lipa. taylor. ariana. lizzo. beyonce. literally anyone #and none of their album cycles revolve around their relationships and private lives #which just goes to show just how much harry/louis' teams want to drive it into everyone's heads that they're straight. when they're not #even zayn!! yeah he's never really in the spotlight but none of his album cycles have revolved around his relationship #including mind of mine which as we all know came out when he was linked to both perrie and gigi #i just find it fascinating how these people came from the same band but their album cycles are so different. #niall's album promo cycle vs harry + louis' album promo cycle and the clear stark difference between them. fascinating

[ridl]

I love ganqing sm. Keqing the capable, confident and highly ambitious leader of liyue, and her capable, war veteran, gentle general secretary, yet a bit weird qilin wife. And it's so important to me to underline that ganyu is just a bit weird and strange.

>appears for the first time on the roof >weird mullet hairstyle >eats raw wild flowers (her favorite is very bitter) >falls asleep in a haystack (can fall asleep anywhere really) >sensitive horns

Like yeah yeah, she's beautiful, strong and awesome, but do you care about her weirdgirl swag. I think it makes her very charming. Keqing is beautiful, strong and awesome too, but she's also just some guy. It's so fun to think about them because of it hhhh

#ganqing #ganyu #keqing #i'm just saying. we should never forget abt ganyu's charming weirdness #and i will always see them as normal capable adults i ain't buying all that ''disaster lesbian'' stuff anymore. i've had enough #disaster lesbian out. capable adult who is a little weird and awkward is IN #they can figure it all out. the office ladies will carefully navigate their developing romantic relationship like they deal with paperwork #this is their cooperative project. they never even imagined it'd end this way back when they were at odds!!! #but now they want nothing more. just live their life together happily while sharing their passions and dreams. #enjoying all the simple things in life and all the little quirks of each other #(clenches fist) they're just so... #anyways back to the point. ganyu is a little weird and i love her for it and keqing especially loves her for it. also fluffy qilin wife :)

[coolnonsenseworld]

I've made this recap, because I've felt that this year wasn't as prolific for me as usual and if I made the best ten/twelve kind of thing, I would have to bring up the Calendar (again), Mythos Klance Zine which is still in the making, or Commissions which I still haven't revealed, but they deserve their own space. So instead! I made a recap. Do I feel better now? Not really 🤣 I've done a lot more work that wasn't sketching this year - I made PDFs, wrote and once I started a piece I tried my best to finish it - and it translated into this. And once I think of all the progress I've made - it matches my expectations. I worked on things that were difficult for me previously and I'm proud of that. But I guess I will always miss sketching day in and day out and creating my own pieces and having more time and mind space for personal projects. I wish for next year to keep people entertained and share what I've created, and to not get drained in the meantime lol.

I also made a goal list for next year. I will have to improvise adapt overcome accordingly, but on it we have the Space-themed klance desk merch set which I was sharing lately on Patreon, hopefully with icons which you can download for your phones/tablets, taking commissions once again, including traditional, sewing and finishing a pattern for Cuddler toy keychain, finishing HEX and starting Cursed Love (Ancient AU), recording sketchbooks and/or sketching, make a plot-full Winter Wonderland continuation (with winter wedding), and a few more, and I hope any of these make you as excited and inspired to start a creative new year as me! I'm sure there is a lot more to come.

And here is a question I think everyone could benefit from while thinking of the ending 2023 and incoming 2024 - is there something that would truly make your next year simply happier?

#klance #voltron legendary defender #tell me what would make you happier because i need simple things in life when i cant control the big things #life has been getting increasingly heartbreaking somehow like there is a lot to enjoy and cherish #but still there is so much going on all the time and it can be stressing #so like outside of collapsing economy and wars i just want something simple #garden work and cooking sharing it with people you love #that kinda thing #i will always hope art and writing will provide one of these simple comforts of life