#like the fear of being too much is so

[lunarheslwt]

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#i just think a lot about... #like the fear of being too much is so #i just want ppl to tell me like i would prefer it #than just me knowing it bc i can sense it based on vibes #i can absolutely tone myself down #idk man im scared of every single interaction in the world #bc time and time i feel like i just #idk idk idk #rather funny for such a quiet person to also be too much actually #anyway I'm tired

[turtleblogatlast]

I love Raph and haven’t said that enough so to be more specific I love that Raph is a soft boy who loves bear plushies, a gross boy who eats an assortment of things that are definitely better left alone, a smart boy who is more than capable of taking down villains through planning and fortitude alike, a strong boy who is dedicated to training his muscles and fighting prowess, a teenage boy who loves his brothers but is more than happy to tease and roughhouse with them, an angry boy who sometimes lets his anger take a hold of him to cover the fear, a gentle boy who is generous with hugs and affirmations to those he loves, a capable boy who takes on more than should ever be expected of a teenager, a good boy who just wants to be a hero and slowly comes to realize the cost of that duty, a good boy who has no reservations about putting himself in the way of harm coming to his family, a good boy who’s a great brother and son and person and deserves only the best the world has to offer.

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt raph #rise raph #he’s so wonderful frfr #my poor boy is traumatized but still so proud of what they accomplished because they’re HEROES #what started as something fun - Saturday morning cartoon-like heroes vs villains esque - soon becomes his calling #and he loses himself a little along the way #because the world is TERRIFYING now #if they don’t do something about the bad things in the world then worse things will come #and Raph CARES too much to let it happen #even at the expense of his own happiness and youth #and he luckily reigns back that fear - knowing his family is there to keep an eye out with him #and he finally lets himself be a kid again #he’s very well rounded and his flaws are so good because (like the others) they are ALSO his strengths #I like how it’s softly implied that bears are his fav animal too bc that’s cute af #headcanon that he likes them so much because a stuffed bear was the first toy splinter managed to get Raph #but yeah one of my favorite things about tmnt is that the characters are well rounded and rottmnt exemplifies that immensely #with raph being no exception!! #amazing big brother and character #there’s a REASON in my tmnt main character tierlist he’s S tier!!!! #hot take but in terms of who should be leader I think it should be less who’s the better leader- #-and more who’s the better leader FOR THIS SPECIFIC MISSION #bc all four can be great leaders fight me on that #APRIL can as well 100% #doesn’t need a designated leader for them to succeed #they just need ~communication~ #one of my favorite things tying Raph and Leo together is that they both *hide* #I’ve talked about Leo’s many masks a lot but Raph has one too #and it’s the mask of a hero - the mask of the protector

[ruporas]

hello there, angel

[ID: Digital illustration in color of Vash and Wolfwood from Trigun Maximum. Vash is sitting facing the viewer and holds a rose between his clasped together hands, but he’s looking to the left, upwards, at Wolfwood, with an awed expression. Wolfwood hovers over him with wings sprouting from his back. He has a cigarette lit between his lips, his arms and legs are crossed, and he looks back at Vash with a neutral expression. The both of them are covered in a blue shadow, casted by Wolfwood and his hovering form, while warm light hits the back of his wings and over Vash’s legs. Small feathers sits next to Vash. End ID]

#vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #trigun #trigun maximum #this is not meant to mean anything btw i just wanted to draw wolfwood as an angle #i love angel and follower depiction but i also think wolfwood is just the most angelic human being ever #he was sent to guide him... he protects him... he Saved him #i mean they both just think of each other as the most good they've seen in the world in a really long time #and in turn makes themselves coil and feel a little more disgusted with themselves. but they're also so Good to each other that they can #start to believe that they can be that good too. #they love each other so much and theyve never loved anyone else like this before so i can just imagine the heights their love can reach #endless pouring of affection in a way they can only keep to their own chest in fear they'd never be able to let go otherwise #that is to say i just feel like they'd worship each other and it's probably excessive but i feel like they both really deserve it #i did not even mean to go on that tangent but back on topic -- i just love angel wolfwood depiction in a way that's Normal...... #need more of vash saying cheesy shit like youre my light wolfwood!!!! and wolfwood beating the shit out of him like WHAT ARE YOU SAYING!!! #which is why i have a tablet in the first place. my mission in the world... #ruporas art

[yangjeongin]

HYUNJIN BIRTHDAY COUNTDOWN (2024):  ↘ D-DAY | HAPPY BIRTHDAY HWANG HYUNJIN❣️

#hwang hyunjin #hyunjin #stray kids #bystay #createskz #flashing tw #a9gifs #*gif #*hyunjin #*ccarly #*carly:hyunjin #*series:hjbday24 #once again i fear we have a whole countdown leading up to this only for it to be lackluster. every year LDJKSSJLKDGLKJSD #sorry if this is a flop finale but i had fun <3 #i hope these are synced too science says they should be but my laptop never loads them all at once akldjfajklsdjglks #anyway this concludes the countdown it went by so fast.....thank u for liking it everyone 🫶 #i will never be doing this again. LKJSDKFLSJKDGLKSDG #maybe a countdown but not 30 sets. i DID IT THOUGH. very proud of myself for being that insane. good times #also happy birthday hyun i love u so so much and hope you have an amazing day :(((( #do something fun...take a nice nap...eat good food...hope u get to celebrate however u want this year

[secretly-a-catamount]

tim drake would rather die than kill innocent people and tim drake killed hundreds of supervillain henchpeople with long-range detonation explosives that one time are two separate headcanons that, contrary to what the fandom discourse would have you believe, can actually coexist at the same time.

there’s even a psychologist term for it.

it’s called compartmentalization!

#let’s be honest #the entire batfamliy “stuffers” from this #and while that’s not something generally talked about #I just find the concept so interesting #how they all justify their actions — both socially moral and socially in-moral — to themselves #particularly how they all justify their actions to themselves in different ways #and for more evidence about their compartmentalization: there’s obviously the fact that they all have superhero and civilian identities too #also #this might need to be a separate post #but #the fandom’s perception of each member of the batfamily as individuals #often read more like they have bought into the characters’s “masks” they wear due to trauma #the “masks” being how the batfam are completely willing to be only perceived as one-thing #because that’s easier than being a real human #with blood and pain and fears and failures #they’d much rather be #the nice one #or the funny one #or the smart one #(etc. etc.) #dc #dc comics #dc characters #batman comics #batfam #the batfamily #tim drake #robin #robin dc #red robin

[tomatoart]

to stay the same sad, sorry mother

#resident evil 7 #resident evil 8 #mia winters #rosemary winters #eveline re7 #rose winters #resident evil #resident evil fanart #blood #do u guys ever think abt how insane the mia development is in such a good way. like being an alone single(ish) mother w a bioweapon baby #who just wants a family. then they kill that kid and they escape just to be doomed to the same life again. i dont think shed EVER view her #life w rose as punishment dont take it like that. but more so her life is a punishment to pay for her sins via the cycle of being given #everything back. just to end up with the same isolating issues she had in re7 #her motherhood is so interesting!!! i think shed have a lot of complexities w it.. a balance of unconditional love out of fear of how badly #she messed up the first time. oh my goddd #i love herrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr shes my fav re chara ever and like. all time top faves in general. i love her so much GRRRRRRRRRR #idc if this looks kinda ass n rushed but i had to put it down ^.^ #a childs loving grip too LOL *goes insane*

[uncanny-tranny]

The bourgeois or "exploiting class" doesn't inherently include the person who gets their nails done biweekly, or the disabled person who has a carer, or the guy who got a $70 video game for full-price, or the person who relies on medication (yes even the ones you don't think they "need"), or anything else like this. None of these people will, on average, have the ability to exploit workers by means of ownership or whatever.

While you are busy fighting with fellow workers, you are still being exploited by your boss, by capitalism, by (potentially) not having healthcare, by being overworked and underpaid, and so are they.

#politics #feel like this wording isn't satisfactory for me but fuck it we ball #used bourgeois because i think as a colloquial word it's recognized but like... #...i dunno i think some people use it to mean 'person who can do [x]' even if they quite literally own no means of production #like the idea that you're exploiting a worker by agreeing to a service they provide isn't what bourgeois means #if i paid a carer to care for a disabled person they aren't being exploited by that disabled person... #...HOWEVER that carer absolutely can (and probably will be) exploited by the systems of power (eg their boss or capitalism) #perhaps it's too late at night for me to be posting about this but it's something that bothers me! #*especially* when it comes to disability and other groups already exploited by marginalization 👍 #if your leftism percludes the disabled (including the terminally and profoundly) or the elderly or the queer or so so much i don't WANT ITTT #saw a disabled person i follow lament how afraid they were to have a carer out of fear of Being a Bad Exploitative Person #and they obviously need one and that makes me so fucking angry to know that they are needlessly suffering

[realbeefman]

stacy is sooo interesting because she's in love with house but knows that they will never ever be able to have a healthy, stable, sane relationship because they're too similar so. she finds house-lite instead and marries him and. essentially moves on with her life! and is successful in this because she's a moderately well-adjusted person!

wilson, in contrast, never manages to escape the inevitable, in spite of his best efforts to find a house-lite of his very own, because he's an absolute fucking freak and ends up glued to house to the bitter. bitter end

#yeah im too sleepy to revise this. UNFILTERED posting wooahh #some may b shocked but i do actually read thru most of my posts several times to make sure i didnt accidentally write mein kampfe 2 #recently ive come to the realization that i am in fact not an incredibly chill person #and that the constant paranoia and fear in which i live my life is actually PROBABLY a symptom of severe anxiety #like damn. ive always known that im pretty prone to depression but ive preetty much always been aware of that #my mom is a chronic depressive so i know the symptoms i know the signs i have a pretty good arsenal of healthy coping mechanisms #UNFORTUNATELY mommy's mental health problems did not help her not abuse me as a child #so i ended up being a terribly anxious kid who was constantly being screamed at and told i was overreacting (because i was. because i had #a severe anxiety problem that was making me react irrationally.) to everything all the time #which is you know. it is VERY difficult to deal with a mental health problem when you arent aware you have a problem! #its incredible how much. better. my life has gotten since i figured this out and started actively trying to work out what triggers it #and being able to like. realize 'oookay. there is an Issue here and it needs to be overcome' #instead of just beating on myself constantly for not being able to do things without feeling sick or getting breathing problems! #anyways. trauma dumping in tags is over now! #house md #hilson #greg house #james wilson #stacy warner

[basketobread]

it's right behind me, isn't it? 😂 (tomorrow is my birthday and idk how to feel about it)

#I MEAN I LIKE MY BIRTHDAY SO ITS EXCITING BUT ITS STILL WEIRD YKNOW? #i dont fear aging tho... i wanna be a cool elder its my lifelong dream #also hi i promise im still here and getting thru this burn out #COMICS WILL BE ON THEIR WAY SOON I PROMISE YALL I PROMISEEE #social media is not my strong suit!!! HAHAHA #but i still love and appreciate each and every one of you sm thank u all for being here <333333333 #just thought i would voice my thoughts here for a bit since i havent been too active recently HAHA #much love <3333333 #bob talks

[keirientez]

trying to get used to tumblr again

#r27 #sawada tsunayoshi #katekyo hitman reborn #i love drawing tsuna smiling bc in official art he radiates so much light. if he existed my eyes would melt at the sight of him /pos #trying my best to capture his beaming vibe. one day #also i like to think if tsuna passes out from exhaustion reborn would just ‘coincidentally’ also fall asleep netx to him #its cute yk and with all the work of being vongola decimo tsuna would be a tired guy at times and reborn just wants to be with him #and maybe protect him in his sleep too idk #other guardians would be terrified whenever they pass by bc theyre afraid to wake both of them up for different reasons #mainly fear sprouting from reborn

[bacchuschucklefuck]

love thinking kipperlilly spends her afterlife looking for lucy in a familiar forest

#not art #fhjy #fhjy spoilers #like. does she have a mean of knowing lucy and yolanda got sent to cassandra's domain to hang out for a bit #kipperlilly's isolation means so much to me. she is punished for everything she's done she just doesn't pick up on it #until the moment she dies! one more funky thing that mirrors riz in which he's actively tried to cultivate a community and denied it #until the bad kids. while kipperlilly does not want or care about a community she just wants someone who validates her #but she does Need a community so she latches onto the person she lets closer to her to fulfill her emotional needs #she took the ritual willingly so this might genuinely be her first death. probably terrifying #probably not even enough bandwidth to feel mortified. maybe immediately seeking something comforting out of instinct alone #lmao honestly thinking too much abt fantasy high afterlifes gives me a headache And a visceral fear #Im not religious but I grew up in a culture with a dominantly buddhist/taoist cosmology its Scary that u just go to A Place after u die!! #and then ur still urself!!! thats scary to me what do u mean u stay like that forever. thats fucked #but yeah I think this influences how I see kipperlilly turn out a little bit. in a sense I think of her as being a ghost now #yknow. trying to solve something from life so she can move on and. stop living this life etc #man the reveal that lucy took being killed pretty seriously and is like yeah the others are decent and even sweet #and probably was just trying to hold her party together and do what she thinks is moral by hearing kipperlilly out #lol lmao etc. gods I gotta wonder how kipperlilly's mindset handled jawbones' help #it really is damn tragic tho. I stand by what I said folks like this will complain and be nasty to be around #but they dont have enough desire to inconvenience themselves to off the bat do something abt what they find unfair or whatever #its when theyre handed the seemingly very easy means to be right that they'll start being dangerous #its horribly tragic that the supposed metaplayer and the self-perceived mastermind turned out to ultimately be just an useful idiot #yknow what. I think personally in my heart kipperlilly moves on from her afterlife the moment she says sorry #doesnt even have to be to lucy but that's probably gonna be who received it #ah.... teenage rebellion. teenage gamejacking

[sergle]

honestly? no collar + no chip = no owner fr fr. i like sometimes cats get out when they arent supposed to and their collars get ripped off. understandablw. but like. if u have an "outdoor cat". and it does not have a collar, and it does not have a chip. how the hell is ANYONE supposed to tell ur lil guy apart from a stray??? literally how??

for real!! sorry, no owner! this cat has no evidence of being someone's pet! no collar, no chip, no missing flyers, nothin!!! and there's nothing to differentiate a missing cat from an outdoor cat from a friendly stray from a dumped/abandoned cat. They Are The Same.

#like there's no Stealing there. it can't be called stealing it's called rescuing #and people are so annoying about this too #many a cat/kitten I've found in my life who are just so easy to handle #like they take very little work to break the Fear Barrier before they switch into being sociable and snuggly and easy to handle #and people are like OMG IF IT'S FRIENDLY THAT'S SOMEONE'S CAT!! YOU MUST'VE TAKEN SOMEONE'S CAT #the HELL I DID there's never a chip or so much as a missing poster. don't you think I already checked! #if this is someone's cat then too bad beech!! but also people SO dramatically underestimate the friendliness of stray cats #just bc a cat doesn't have an owner doesn't mean it isn't socialized. a cat can be homeless and friendly at the same time #people pet and feed strays all the time. just bc it isn't fully feral doesn't mean that it has a place to call home #sergle.txt

[bigkickguy]

some daan marcoh doodles around some dialogue bits I hit in game haha - gave me some thoughts on how one could think of daan if you only bumped into him at certain points? I don't remember the lines exactly but there were a few like this? 'Are you moving on? I guess we'll split ways here.' 'Someone has figure out how to treat these people...'

'You were very heroic stepping in there.' 'In the dark, your thoughts can really get to you out here...' 'Am... I... still a good man? Or...'

#fear and hunger #daan fear and hunger #marcoh fear and hunger #kickdraw #daanmarcoh #keep getting dialogue and I feel like if you only saw certain parts of Daan he seems like a very noble doctor figure #trying to research/avenge his dead almost(?) wife - staying behind to diagnose the villagers #meanwhile marcoh has like only killed one guy and is trying so hard to be a good person but is sinking in that Guilt #if daan stepped in on the marcoh held at gunpoint bit - I feel like it would fit Marcoh's lines about 'being heroic' or whatever #maybe he would be comparing himself to him - like 'im not a good man cause thats what a good man looks like in this situation' #and later when marcoh has a reality check he has to be like ... oh.... he's actually like this... huh #I feel like daan would hate it if anyone thought of him like this hakfjghadfg - but that makes it crunchier in my mind :) #daan starts looking much less like a tragic romantic protagonist when he is bickering with the party and getting dunked on #this weird image leaves the second you take both of them into the sewer and daan just starts complaining at him about the smell too often #sorry marcoh your fantasy protagonist man only exists in your dreams :) I think he'd still like him after getting a more realistic view tho

[snezfics-n-shit]

#this meme has been going through my head for a bazillion years lol #i love to interact and then it hits me that im probably bothering you guys #plus the current popular stuff I am sadly so unfamiliar with #when i was younger i would gravitate to my own interests when i was unfamiliar with other topics and it got on peoples nerves a lot #and i completely understand that so i dont wanna repeat those mistakes #its just like a game of pingpong of me talking too much and me hiding under my desk bc i feel like im bothering everyone #also like the last time it was p much confirmed i was being annoying i cried for like two hours bc my fears were realized haha #and when a line is drawn for me i kinda like to stay at least 2ft away from wherever that line is just to be safe #you gotta like throw a cookie attached to a fishing line to get me closer to the line lol #because i will seriously be way too cautious otherwise #im trying to get more brave though im just kinda like my cat who heard a noise in the bathroom cabinet #and now he refuses to go near it #being mindful of others feelings and respecting their boundaries is super important to me #and sometimes that boxes me in a bit

[lululeighsworld]

THEY DEVASTATINGLY WALLOPED ME FOR THESE BRIEF FEW SECONDS

#leigh's magneto hours #THERE'S SO MUCH TO UNPACK HERE. ESPECIALLY THE ALMOST TOUCHING FOREHEADS BIT. #magneto's 'my path is too littered with error' #;WWWWWWW; #and rogue's 'you have to earn people's trust' #LIKE!!!!! AND THEN HE DIRECTLY GOES FOR THE 'ooooo i feared you'd do your best to avoid being alone with me.' WITH THE HAND GRAB!!!! #YOU FEARED???? YOU FEARED?!?! FEARED FOR WHAT. OLD MAN WHAT ARE YOU SAYING #AND THEN HE GOES TO TRY AND TAKE OFF THE GLOVE. AS IF WE DIDN'T JUST ADDRESS TRUST #dnvjdxbvjhdbvhdx. this man. i swear. you are giving me signals that you want to be more open and then YET YOU BRING UP OLD BAGGAGE #he's like 'oh i just got rejected. well now time to deflect.' LIKE AAAAAAAAA #this moment coupled with the moment at the end is making me crazy #sorry to my followers who never expected me to be into xmen???? im here now. im so ill with it. #i can probably assure there will be more rogneto on this blog here in the future. this is your warning #i just feel like ive been fucking SPOON FED oh my god. crossing my fingers we get more messy feelings between them.

[angelofviscera]

on self sacrifice as love

I will mitski / love and pain (also known as vampire) edvard munch / snow and dirty rain richard siken / the kiss eva claessens / garden song phoebe bridgers / in blackwater woods mary oliver / the prodigal returns karen swenholt / rest energy marina abramović / red door julien baker / poems from an email exchange hanif abdurraqib

#its like. being so conditioned to take on the burdens of the ones u love and the overwhelming vulnerability that comes with love but also #the fear and the pain and sometimes losing yourself a little too much because all of what you see of yourself #is how youre reflected back at yourself through their eyes #so its not like. an inherently negative or toxic thing but its this sense of sadness at always needing to be in pain and have pain because #you view love as giving someone permission to destroy you and just trusting them to make it an easy clean up #mitski #phoebe bridgers #julien baker #web weave #web weaving #poetry #art #edvard munch #love #my web weaves