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erwinsvow · 3 days

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imagine if rafe and pogue reader’s relationship was just a bet between him and his kook friends, to see if he could ACTUALLY get her to fall in love with him, like to get her to be all over him and how long that would last, and the reader finds out omgggg. And they break up lol

you think the ending bits of the conversation between your boyfriend and his friends hurts more than everything you just overheard.

"you really think i'd settle for some fuckin' pogue pussy? nah man, top owes me fifty bucks now."

you hadn't heard the entire exchange, just from the part where you heard your name. stupidly, like a naive girl in love with the type of boy she'd only ever dreamt about, you tuned in, thinking rafe was telling his friends something you'd want to hear.

hiding—as embarassing as it is—behind the wall, holding back tears though they don't care enough to stay held back, they pour down your cheeks as the hits keep coming. the boys laugh, but the ringing in your ears had been so loud you hadn't heard the rest of the joke, didn't understand what was so funny.

the first thought in your mind is that you can't believe how stupid you were. the second is that pope and jj and john b had all been right, that it was too good to be true, that he was playing you somehow, that he was a liar and scumbag. you had ignored what your best friends had been telling you, trying so hard to believe that they were wrong, that they didn't know rafe, or at least your rafe, the one who was sweet and funny and never let you drive anywhere or pay for a thing, the one who paraded you around town like you were something who deserved to be showed off, the one who you took back to your tiny house and introduced to your hard-working parents.

you resist the urge to slide down the wall you're leaning against, though every muscle in your body wants to keel over and cry until you can't cry anymore.

you'd been embarassed enough—they didn't need to see you like this too. wiping away tears with the back of your hand, sniffling but trying to stay quiet, you wait for the boys to walk away so you could sneak out of here and pretend that you'd never even come—though you'd only come because rafe said he was having friends over and you'd baked them some snacks for their game, thought you were being a good girlfriend and doing the things a good girlfriend does.

footsteps and laughter echo in the other room—they're gone. the second it's silent, a sob wrangles itself out, eyes getting blurry again. you don't know how you're gonna bike home if you can't stop crying. your fingers fly across your screen, dialing jj's number. you'd been upset at the blond because he seemed to be the most against you and rafe dating, had the meanest things to say and was the first to insinuate there was something wrong if rafe wanted to date you.

you'd been so insulted, so hurt by his words that the two of you had gone from talking every single day to maybe once a week. you hope he doesn't hold it against you now, but a part of you knows jj never would—that's just the kind of guy he is. he answers by the second ring, and you try to stay quiet, just incase they hear you.

"j? can you come get me? i-um, i'm at tannyhill-" the last part is said with another sob, breaking into a fit of tears again. he says he's with pope and that he's coming, and you hate that they heard you cry, because knowing the two of them they'll go thirty over if they think you're upset. you wanna get out of here, but you don't want them to die.

heart thudding, eyes watery, limbs weak, you stay against that wall for a moment. before you can make your way to the door, rafe's figure steps in to where you are. he sees you before you see him—shoulders shaking, hands wiping away tears.

when you turn to look at him, it doesn't take more a second to know you heard something you shouldn't have.

"hey, listen to me-" he gets closer, and you flinch, backing away. you want to say something mean, something snarky, something that'll hurt him as much as he's hurt you. nothing comes out, and you stare back at him, and you hope he remembers how hard he's made you cry, because you've decided it then and there—you're never seeing rafe cameron ever again.

you dart past him to the door. he follows, reaching out to grab you, but you take off, running down his driveway and into the truck he recognizes as heyward's. you get in, in between pope and jj. the last thing he sees is you crying into maybank's chest while they drive you away, and the last thing he thinks is wondering what the hell he had just done.

#i actually dont like writing much angst so sorry if this sucks #this ask has been here for so long and i knew i could do something with it i just couldnt place it yet #<3 i love u jj #rafe cameron #rafe cameron x reader

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really-sleep-deprived-nerd · 2 years

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wake up bestie new double life crack au just dropped

#double life smp #dlsmp #jimmy solidarity #double life jimmy #philza #trafficblr #listen #listen i just think it would be kind of funny

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ruporas · 11 months

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special operatives (silly interaction beneath read more)

[ID: Digital Art in color of Trigun Maximum, characters included are Wolfwood, Elendira, and Legato in a casual meeting situation. The piece consists of orangey yellow lighting and purple shadows. Wolfwood sits on the left side, facing Elendira who’s on the right. He’s seated on a plain wooden chair with one knee up and he’s holding the strap to his Punisher in his left hand while his right sits against his thigh, He has an irritated expression as he speaks to Elendira. Elendira is sitting in a fancier seat, her right arm rests against Wolfwood’s propped up knee, her left hand holds her suitcase. She’s sitting cross legged with an amused expression. Legato can be seen in the back at the center of the image in his mobile body case, one of his eyes shown to be glaring at Wolfwood. End ID]

[ID: Sketch, uncolored comic. Elendira says to Wolfwood, “I’m not telling you to dedicate yourself to him, but just accept the situation at hand. We could get along better if we were on the same page.” Wolfwood responds, “Don’t peg me me for an optimist. I’m not dumb. But, I’m also not going to just live in resignation. Plus, I don’t have any interest in getting along with ya.” Elendira coos, “Aw, you sure? I have a wonderful shoulder to cry on when the weak people you’re trying to protect eventually dies in the coming months. Though, I guess it’s fine. Someone like you might just die before then anyway...” She snickers in her hand while Wolfwood is speechless and just glares. Legato is faintly drawn in the back, glaring at Wolfwood, muttering “worthless” repetitively. End ID]

#trigun #trigun maximum #nicholas d wolfwood #elendira the crimsonnail #legato bluesummers #YES they were together in scene canonically for only 1 Measly chapter. Yes legato dipped like 2 seconds later but listen #trigun has such a fun cast and such a vague sense of time that i love to just throw in whatever Chances of the gung hos meeting outside of #canonic time... i mentioned before but i do think ww just runs into them on occasion from town to town #this illust would have to take place after the remembrance of july though ofc since that was when ww first saw elendira... which is still #the funniest ww ever bc he was so Shocked. LIKE AGHAST... BC IT WAS ELENDIRA THE CRIMSONAIL. he was starstruckk it was so cute #elendira of all people deserve that kind of reaction though im glad that they hyped it up with ww of all people. bc its like wow even ww is #kind of intimidated! even though he gained his grips like 5 seconds later to talk back to her. which is why i think theyd have a funny #dynamic. and legato is just there. he does not care about them but he also hates them and it's fun to think about how that'd extend to #wolfwood after knives specifically left the gung hos up to him and then explicitly didnt say shit after giving ww a special little mission #it also is just like. legato is pretty passive in trimax until someone is actively betraying knives or when its vash #and ww also does not give a shit about legato bc he also is like. vaguely aware he'd lose in a fight. so all i make them do is stare at each #other passive aggressively. TRISTAMP on the otherhand is ridiculously insane for making legato genuinely hold enough aggression towards ww #to literally activate his character arc in the season sgmkdsgm cannot wait for final phase where legato not only deeply detest vash but also #bears a similar aggression towards ww. actually im not sure whether i should be Excited for that or not but it would be an interesting #ruporas art

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shopcat · 11 months

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i think in the hamster wheel of my mind a big part of where people go wrong with eddie and his shitty garage band as an extension is that they for some bizarre reason think he's gene simmons metal when he's jack black metal. heavy metal. he's tenacious d metal. he's school of rock. he's stoner lord of the rings metal he nearly wore blue jeans and plaid. jack black literally in real life once said eddie was the best character bc he's heavy metal like him. LOOK AT THIS

#🍦#answer it's bc people think he's some mishmash of all alternative scenes without any actual knowledge of where the mashing occurs 😭#eddie is . a heavy metal guy. A cool one. a nice one even. he likes rock and roll #it's so funny when ppl try and describe it and they've never heard the stuff he actually listens to in their lives for some reason #literally so much of the appeal of eddie's character within his subculture is that its theatrical and dramatic but its still grounded #he's very alternative and Out There but he's still just some guy. he's not wearing spiked leather jackets #in fact he's not wearing any of the other kinds of leather jackets i've seen people say he would ... TO ME #sts #if u haven't seen the clip he then proceeds to air guitar the MoP melody then shouts heavy metal is everywhere #i don't even know how to explain this bc it's like ... okay #the general .. VIBE? aestheticsm? is kind of similar to what people sometimes portray but they're missing thst it's tongue in cheek #like it's like that buff poster of him being this anachronistic homage to heavy metal album covers #fire and satanic imagery and skulls and lightning and big drama and ROCK AND ROLL #it's rock and ROLL man...#and people r making him this weird sanitised dork LOL 😭 when he's a dork in a different more fun way.. imo #and it's not that those types of people don't exist and that they're not cool in their own way cuz they are sure but that's not THIS GUY #he is an 80S METALHEAD... and yeah i try and ground him in thinfs and poke and prod at it until it fits my own understanding of alternative #scenes better but that's bc i've had a hand in the punk scene for years and years #i dunno sometimes i feel like ppl r just not doing the full potential and then going way too hard in this super specific direction #and he ends up first of all usually just a massive douchebag not sure what that's about. But a guy who he would in canon HATE 😭#YOU ARE MAKING HIM A POSER. is what i'm saying #he is alwyas some guy before he's anything else and before he's that he's a 20 year old loser #you need to reflect this... You need to bottle it. ugh. ugh #so much of this reminds me of the time someone was like he would never wear PLAID #like are you kidding me. are you actually kidding me rn #ppl have this weird arstheticised mostly modern and mostly literallt just eboy Idea of what he'd wear it's crazy to me sorry #also it's ugly #i also think. this is so long lol . anyway . i also think going too ''authentic'' in the 80s metalhead direction also lands u w different #problems. my advice to people trying to write or draw alternative characters is they are People. before they are anything else #🍏

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beskarfrog · 7 months

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Okay, so we all agree that Luke having to marry Mand’alor Din for political reasons is a quality au. What if Luke accidentally gets politically engaged to some other planetary leader instead?

Let’s say that perhaps his connection to Leia automatically made him a candidate for diplomatic marriage, especially after Leia and Han get married. Maybe it was a major clause in the funding for his Jedi school, but Luke didn’t really think they’d ever actually marry him off. For the sake of the au, let’s also disregard bits of TBOBF and Mando S3.

Luke’s been building his school on Ossus, Grogu is enjoying Jedi training, and there are a couple other students. And perhaps, Din actually becomes Mand’alor and retakes Mandalorian space. Maybe he visits the Jedi school pretty often to see his son and get away from politics.

Luke can really sympathize with having the weight of the universe and a glowing sword tossed at you with no warning. So maybe he and Din become friends after a while and maybe that friendship becomes something different. There start being blushes when someone gets pinned in a spar, falling asleep together on the couch after dinner, running around after the younglings constantly. Din visits as often as he can and has about made up his mind to just ask Luke if he would consider moving the Jedi school to Concordia so they’d at least be in the same star system most days, if not on the same planet.

That's when Luke gets an urgent holocall from Leia, informing him that he’s just been engaged to some bigwig princess as part of a treaty with a rich planet the New Republic has been courting. Luke is absolutely panicking to Din, going on about how the terms of the treaty basically forbid him from keeping his school. He’s looked at his funding agreement with the New Republic and he can’t get out of it without losing money unless he’s already married to someone.

And then Din thinks of the most beautiful solution to both of their problems. Everyone else thinks that they’re already a couple, as much as Din has denied it. Bo-Katan has been harassing him for months about spending so much time off-world to go see his little family. Mandalore could really use a trade agreement with the New Republic.

The next logical step is, of course, for Din to propose in the middle of Luke’s kitchen while his Jedi friend is struggling not to go into a dark spiral about losing his school funding. It's simple, really. They just have to get married right that moment, which would fix the school funding issue. Luke moves the school to the Mandalore system so Din can see him and the kids all the time without giving Bo-Katan a new gray streak. And Mandalore probably gets a trade agreement out of it. What’s not to like?

Luke is so stunned he accidentally pours the calming tea he was making directly onto the kitchen floor.

#dinluke #the mandalorian #text post #au #mand'alor din djarin #listen i love the aus where they meet for the first time already engaged #but think how funny this would be #din thinks the best form of flirting is showing how practical and good at problem solving you can be #he is an acts of service kind of guy #luke on the other hand has a major crush on din and up until that moment was pretty sure din was just tolerating him for grogu's sake

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tarantula-hawk-wasp · 9 months

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I think Shiro is bad at cooking in a “overcooks everything out of paranoia about raw food and giving someone food poisoning” combined with “I’m busy and need food cooked fast so we’re putting the stove burner on 7 instead of 5” way so everything he makes is a little charred and a little tough and dry and over cooked and he’ll eat it but no one wants him cooking for them ever. I think he does better when recipes have very specific descriptors of how you know it’s done. “Turn off when bubbles form” type things. He’s okay at baking when it has specific directions, or when it’s “when a toothpick comes out clean” but if it’s “golden brown around edges” he will second guess if it’s golden brown or not and burn the cookies. I think he loves appliances like instapot or rice cookers where you dump ingredients in and push settings and it comes out done. Don’t make him make decisions about if food is done he will overthink it and err on the side of caution and burn it.

#Voltron #shiro #holly v*ltron tag #listen I think he is bad at cooking but he is an adult like he can feed himself to an extent #he is just bad at it #listen I think it is funny that he is bad at cooking but he needs to be bad at cooking in a way that makes sense with his character #Shiro’s strategy is you can’t give your teenager salmonella if the chicken is over cooked and a little charred #meanwhile Keith is fully capable of digesting raw meat #I think kind of failure at cooking would make Hunk feel even worse bc when Shiro helps in the kitchen he is trying so hard but it is #difficult to convince him that sometimes food finishes cooking in the pan out of the oven

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aroaceleovaldez · 1 year

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new TSATS prediction based entirely off the interview from the UK Rick Riordan newsletter

#pjo #nico di angelo #riordanverse #tsats #the sun and the star #this isnt spoilers this is just a silly #i do find it funny whenever people say Nico is Catholic though cause we dont have any actual indication of that other than he's From Italy #he doesnt have catholic guilt he has internalized homophobia. those are different things #listen his mom was a clear-sighted mortal who had TWO children with the god of the underworld who also was implied to help raise said kids #nico ain't catholic. this boy has never been to CCD. < source: i went to CCD /neg #however im already taking TSATS as fanon so i will laugh if Nico is randomly confirmed catholic #now Will? Will i could see. Will raised catholic? yes. Nico raised catholic? no.#in my brain Nico was raised with like. his parents having mixers in their parlor room with Maria's socialite friends and misc chthonic gods #like. Nico's babysitter growing up was Menoites (herdsman of the cattle of the underworld) type situation #seriously though i can only think of 3 details that would vaguely imply Nico is raised catholic and that are:#one instance of him helping Percy pick out a christmas gift for Annabeth (though everything in that short story was ooc tbh)#(and also Nico didnt actually ever imply he specifically was celebrating christmas)#two: Percy describing the situation in Sword of Hades as ''spending christmas in the underworld'' (nico is just kind of there)#and thirdly again: Nico's just from Venice #like. did he go to a religious school growing up? possibly! doesnt mean he was that religion though just means his school was #and even then we actually dont know if he wasn't homeschooled before moving to america #in which case yeah figures the like 3 months he spent in Westover would teach him random outdated stuff #they needed to send him to a sketchy school cause the di angelos dont have any records and if their material is outdated #then that's less likely to mess with Bianca and Nico's wiped memories #but demographically speaking its entirely likely that the entire larger di Angelo family arent christian anyways #everybody with misc varied headcanons about the demographics of the di angelo family i give u a little kiss on the forehead #''but what about Nico learning the wrong version of that one myth'' see again: could have learned it at Westover #and also. tbh far more likely that it was a 1930s thing than a religious thing #cause if we're talking staunch catholocism i dont think they'd be teaching him much greek mythology at all #anyways this has been: im far too amused by the phrases 'that boy has never been to CCD' and ''Nico has Become Catholic'

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cowcowwow · 9 months

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It's hard being the sole Mew stan but as a Cowcowwow I stay strong /silly

(Mew belongs to @ask-mirage-mews !!)

#mirage mews #mew mm #gffdvdvbxv #listen. LISTEN #I think they're super interesting #they've gone from despising clones to wanting to train one??#and obviously they DEFINITELY have to work on their attitude and feeling of being better than everyone but #they promised no trouble for mosy and zeus #AND ALSO FELT REALLY BAD FOR THE TWO?#AND ALSO ALSO IS ONLY THERE TO PROTECT MOSY AND THEIR KITS??? SO INTERESTING #also their behavior is sometimes very funny. to me #like girl yea why would you go and call Mosy's NEWBORN KITS ugly??#but also that's hilarious #because they're so wrong I guess #the kits are adorable #what world are you living in girl #anyways I just think Mew has a big heart and is very compassionate and kind but doesn't really realize it #and doesn't really want to show it either (scared to?)#I love them <33 #pokemon #mew #cow draws #ALSO #they design is just so so cool <333 LOVE the lil splash of darker color on their feet and tail hehe #also FLUFFY #in a small way hehe #and their eyes are SUPER PRETTY #and I think that also has to do with how gorgeous all eyes are drawn in that comic ehehe #but also also #I just love those blues

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tandytoaster · 1 year

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The lil 14 year old trans boy at my work said I was his favourite

#noop nooping #KIDS R SO FUNNY like u listen to them and then theyre like im gonna follow u around #IM UR MOM NOW. UR FATHER AND I ARE DIVORCED NEITHER OF US HAVE CUSTODY #HES SUCH A NICE KID #im giggling bc he and quinn had a connection when the kid first started but now in like 🤭 teehee my kid now #AND ITS EVEN FUNNIER bc quinn was like 'he reminds me so much of myself when i was his age. hes my son now'#BUT NOW IM THE PARENT. we're divorced. ITS FUNNY #i stole your kid and you stole my bestie. im influencing the queer youth of this conservative town im succeeding #when i first met him he came in on a day he didnt work and one of the reasons he was there was to meet me bc quinn told him about me 🥺#his parents are supportive so im rlly glad he has that #IM WORRIED ABOUT COMING OFF AS CREEPY TALKING ABOUT THIS but its just a nice feeling being a positive figure in some1's life #at my work its like microdosing helping ppl bc its retail. and the kid is there on saturdays. this is why i went to college jrmqmxjwkdgwh #i think the kind of social work i would enjoy most is peer support. if i ever want to re-enter the field #oh yea i think i saw my old supervisor today 😑 YUCKY

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viviraptor · 30 days

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one art thing that keeps making me want to pull my hair out is when ppl post a drawing and immediately call it bad/mention its flaws in the caption. whatever you think you're doing with that i can assure you it's not working

#vivi.txt #listen to me. putting my hands on your shoulders.#i know you think calling your art bad makes you sound humble and relatable and funny but that is not how it looks to other people.#i'm going to be harsh for a second it sounds like your self esteem is low and you're looking for interaction out of pity.#BUT YOU HAVE TO LISTEN i know this because i did it too!!!!#saying those things over and over made me believe they were true. and a lack of interaction made it feel like others were agreeing with me #and maybe they are! when you mention something's flaws to someone they're obviously gonna look for them and notice them #and they might just ignore your stuff BECAUSE of that #and whatever notes you do get you've conditioned yourself to believe that they came out of pity for you which FEELS TERRIBLE #you have to get out of the habit of putting down your work. you don't even have to love it you don't have to think it's perfect #but your own words are is going to influence how others perceive it and not always in a good way!!#plus whatever mistake you wanted to mention would probably be totally ignored by others if you don't say anything. streisand effect #JUST PLEASE BE KIND TO YOURSELF. PEOPLE WILL MATCH YOUR ENERGY AND BE KIND TO YOU IN RETURN OKAY. PROMISE

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whilomm · 7 months

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liking the aesthetics of manly man stuff but trying not to buy from right wing MRA 4channers

#LISTEN I KNOW YALL MIGHT NOT WANAN HAVE A THING ON UR ABOUT PAGE EXPLICITLY DETAILING YOUR POLITICS #BUT COULD U PLEASE CONSIDER HAVING LIKE. ONE GAY SOAP TO SIGNAL. OR ST.#im just fucken. analyzing ur posts.....is this too patriotic? is this a subtle reference to 4chan soyboy conspiracy theories??#come on it would even be fitting like #okay sudsy bear if ur chill consider putting out a rainbow soap called 'bear soap (the gay kind)' its a good name #just godddd this is always. a prolem.#oh i wanna buy knives. spend 20 mjnutes digging to find out oh yeah they also sell. nazi knives. confederate flags.#i wanna buy cosmetics. oh wow thank u for having NO ESTROGENICS #to be clear im not explicitly accussing all of these sites of being MRA 4chsnners magas #(well the knife sites i am they make it. somewhat obvious.)#but seeing them talk about ohhh soy is BAD FOR MEN makes me say. ah hm so like. howww deep are u..into that.#did u just hear the psudeoscience and accept it w/o question or liiike. are u Deep Into It.#do u think theyre putting chemcials in the water to make the freskin frogs gay #anyway i dont expect them to like go all out or anything but one lil hint 'oh btw im chill i just enjoy knives/soap/tacticool stuff'#like a funny morale patch w a communist meme or a gay soap #not that that Proves Anything just ya kno. if all i have to go on is them having a couple too many american flags that would be enough to #say ehhhhh sure #buzzy

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fatuismooches · 8 months

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NONO PLEASE SPEAK YOUR NEUVILLETTE THOUGHTS MORE we can just pretend he's a harbinger idc 😭 he really has us all in a chokehold huh?

😭😭 I CANT. So here we have some of Teyvat's most evil and morally gray people... and then a pookie old dragon man <3

In all seriousness Neuvillette became one of my favs so quickly, like everything abt him is so perfect and comforting. I am a sucker for characters who seem serious and stern on the outside but are softies inside. And how emotional he is?? How much and how long has the poor baby been crying like this? 😭 He needs a hug really bad, it ain't even gotta be from me, ANYONE DO IT PLEASE.

#smooches talks #like neuvillette checks all of my boxes man #just think: polite. kind. genuine. sweet. probably funny in his own way. no doubt would treat you with the utmost respect. i can go on #stunningly handsome. rich. teaching him “human” things. kind of guy who would listen u ramble on for hours. lets u cuddle him a lot.#if we see him cry in a future archon quest on screen i will simply cease to exist.

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bittersweetresilience · 6 months

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there are twenty seven songs in my félix playlist which means a few more and i can do a monthly writing game. why am i saying this when i have several important wips i am meant to be doing? well, you see

#🌃#felix fathom #felix graham de vanily #i have complicated feelings about having a playlist because this is unlike me #the only playlists i have ever made are ones i hypothesize characters would listen to and i write pages of accompanying meta for why their #life experiences and psychologies would lead them to those music tastes #i've never had a playlist of songs that remind ME of a character before #i mean i think it's decent i still have standards but it's a new experience i sort of feel like i'm god or i'm in purgatory #anyway what am i even talking about here #félix makes me do all kinds of ridiculous things #for the record my recommendations are #coin operated boy abraham's daughter oh no! neighborhood 2 the mind electric and the hand that feeds #maybe when i have a month's worth i will make one of those graphics #yay that's fun #MY MIDTERM IS IN TWELVE HOURS WHAT AM I DOING #i suppose it doesn't have to be a writing game i could learn how to make gifs #or webweave or make moodboards or screenshots or even #just post lyrics in a definitely normal length reblog chain #dog days are over is the last song in my playlist because i think it's funny and flairmidable and florence and did i mention it's funny #because he's scared of horses #LMAO #god i love him #what was i talking about again #hey #does tumblr have a tag limit

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cookiecomics · 4 months

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#its probably because i got a double dose of antidepressants but i need to vent #i'm tired of feeling tired #i don't even know concretely what i want to talk about #but the latest reblogs have been on my mind alot #i don't think the past year would have affected me as much as it had if it wasn't for the shunning and silence that #that comes with talking about microaggressions and racism in fandoms #its one thing to have a bad experience with a few people #its another when most of the people you knew just watched it happened #i know people dont believe ne #its easier to say im the 'aggressive one'#its just sad because i don't even have to be black online #im sad i feel like i have to choose #but the fandom was the first time i had so many nonblack friends at once #and i regret it so much #funny enough my dad always warns me every year about that kind of stuff #about the importance of keeping your distance from non-black folks #because of how quickly they turn on u when you're labelled difficult #he told me that again yesterday and he has no idea any of this stuff happened #that im on antidepressants now because i didn't listen to him #needless to say the second i finish my fic i don't want anything to do with p5 again #the only reason ive even continued is cause i love my story so much #i dont see the point in putting so much of my heart out in a fandom not safe for black folks #then again what fandom even is #delete later

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avatardoggo · 7 months

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when you meet a Guy and he is 99.9% perfection but the Holy Spirit says no

#i don’t like like guys often (my last crush was high school) so when i do i just 😳 get a lil fluttered #soo when i met this guy the first time i was like o he’s cute and sweet and just easy to talk to and i was like if i allowed myself j could #let myself like him but then i didn’t see him for a while kinda forgot about him one of my friends is close with him so id see him on his i #story a lot this summer and it was like oh ya he’s cute whatever #but last saturday i saw his at this lil party and omgoodness he’s so cute in person #and GUYS!! MUTUALS MY BELOVED 😭🥹🫠🤭😫 HE TAUGHT ME HKW TO PLAY POOL AND HE WAS TOUCHING MY HAND AKSKDKJDKDKFKFJJFJFF #and there was a lot of casual touching and stuff omgoodness and he was buying everyone soda and stuff and he smelt sooo good #and tHEN AT THE END OF THE NIGHT I GAVE HIM MY SNAP #but then i was praying when i got home before bed and was talking to the Holy Spirit and He was like you could have a relationship w/ this #person and everything would be great physically and emotionally but you will suffer spirtiually and then i started thinking about the progr #ss i've made this summer w/ my relationship w/ God and ya it's definitely not worth it i wouldn't trade Jesus for anything or one #soo now i have to kill the streak i have with him on snap bc it's just not wise to be talking back and forth yk? and if God says so i gotta #do it #ig it's hard cause it's nice being liked liking someone who likes you but God knows better than me soooooo pay ya girl listens and has #and i was talking to my friend who knows him better than me and she was like ya he's such a sweet kind funny guy but he doesn't have a rela #ionship w/ God as far as she knows sooo #the strength to withstand 😭#vk overshares in the tags

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vintage-brass-tc · 8 months

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TC Vent? Even though U and I are still on good terms, it’s just sort of a brain dump about recent events and how they’ve been affecting my mindset.

It’s so tough to support him and love him in everything he wants, when that “everything” could possibly include another girl, a staff member, who is so compatible with him and is always found talking to or laughing with him, making similar gestures that he does, acting similar to him in tiny, barely noticeable ways, and is so talented in ways that he would probably love in a woman. And, obviously, she’s around his age too….which is so perfect for him, but it really hurts me

A week or two ago, we spent the whole jazz class teasing him about the possibility of him liking this girl, and I was egging him on and teasing him so much about how smiley he was, explaining to him just why we all thought they’d be perfect together; I told him about their chemistry and how closely they stood to each other and their similar behaviors, etcetera, telling him every little thing I noticed that would be so, so perfect for him. In that moment, I felt so happy, playfully messing with U and making him all smiley and helpless, covering his face, to the point where, in a hushed, flustered voice, with wide, desperate eyes, he told me to stop making fun of just how giddy he was. I laughed at his desperation and his cute, antsy attitude. It reminded me of myself.

But it was about another girl, someone who I think is probably perfect for him. Part of me wants to believe that one of the reasons he asked me to stop, among sparing him more embarrassment, was because he might have known that the thought of the two together would eat me up inside. And if he was thinking that…he’d be right. As the school day had continued, I went from being all giggly and smiley to finally realizing that he would have someone perfect for him. Someone who would give him the love that I would have given, someone who would make his life more fun and full of surprise and adventure, someone who he could focus all of his attention on.

If the two of them actually got together….I, naturally, would support them in every endeavor. Because I love him, and want the best for him, and I know the girl would treat him well. But that would also mean that it’d be the end of my (fantastical) relationship with him. My delusional interpretations of our extended moments of eye contact, the way he would say my name, his body language around me, the way he’d smile or laugh or tease. All of that would be over…. but at least he would be happy.

Since then, apart from one brief mention of her, I never heard him talk about her again. In fact, they haven’t been around each other that often either. And things with him and I have resumed as normal….with the interactions that leave my face red and a smile etched on my lips by the end of class.

But after all of that time spent encouraging him that she was perfect for him, and that there was something there between them, even if he’s never brought it up after that, the entire ordeal kind of snapped my mind back into reality. Ever since then, bit by bit, I’ve become sort of depressed and miserable at the thought of my infatuation with him, because I now recognize how impossible that would really be. A girl like me, young but not super smart or confident or attractive or talented, could never compete with a lot of other girls who are his age, and have a more stereotypically attractive body type.

It’s just super unrealistic, and while I still love him to bits, and still desire to have something with him (a desire I would never follow through with, of course), I have to accept the truth. Though he is so perfect in every way, shape, and form, and even my father mentioned that this director of mine, so devoted, genuine, driven, and humorous, would be the exact type of person that he sees me having a committed relationship with in the future…. it probably won’t happen. Even if he were to love me too…. I don’t know how it could ever work out.

It’s just tough to recognize that.

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