what stories changed you? like I see you write so much commentary and it’s evident that you love reading these fics - but what stories have changed you or affected you so much? ❤️
ohhh anon… you’re asking the tough questions. I LOVE IT. 😍
I’m gonna go with the stories that have changed me in the way of how I interpret things, or just how deeply they’ve sat with me. Or literally caused me to have some existential mini-crisis (in the best way). They all have brought me something so special.
I have 5. I’ll put this under the cut because I do go into detail as to how and why. and because I may get emotional. 🤣
this is not to say I don’t love the other fics I read, because I do - these are just the ones that hit the hardest for me. Whether it be because of the catharsis, or literally how they’ve changed my brain. I really recommend reading all the fics I reblog, and especially these that I’m gonna mention now - as well as checking out their masterlists. But do remember to heed warnings and respect their boundaries. 💗
TW: EDs, hospital mentions.
One of the first fics I ever read on here; Operant Conditioning by @buckyismybicycle. (technically it’s AO3 but I found it here 😂)
Now, there’s no words on how to describe the story telling and just the pure fucking beauty of the flow. Not many people can pull of POV switching like she has and it’s just an amazing read. The way she personifies and characterises Bucky, and Steve… just wow.
But what stuck with me the most is a bit I think towards the end or it’s in the middle. When Bucky is trying food in the lab with Bruce - more-so smelling different things that lead into food. Bucky experienced what I experience in every instance I go near a new food or smell food. Even my ‘safe foods’. And seeing it written in such a… beautiful, way - it just. I don’t even know how to describe it. I didn’t feel alone anymore.
It also brought me one of the biggest inspirations I have to this day. 💗
(I LOVE YOU SO MUCH 🥰💗)
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Flashing Lights & Convalescence by @pellucid-constellations is the next one.
Not only is like I’m reading a published novel, it’s like.. I don’t even know how to describe Kathie’s writing. She’s home. 💗
Those two make up a twoshot collection about the reader is in an established relationship with Bucky, and who is in a car accident, and Bucky is the paramedic that attends it. Then it follows reader’s rehabilitation and consequent success, and frustrations. I’ve already told Kathie all about this here, but I’m gonna reiterate it. I went through rehab and seeing the world through a new lense after my cardiac arrest, and it was hell. I used to look back on my time in rehab with such anger and honest to god devastation because I felt so alone. After reading Convalescence especially - that changed. It changed because I could imagine through my grief that I had someone there. I had Bucky in my mind cheering me on after I learnt to walk on my own two feet again, and I could imagine him holding me when I was alone in the hospital room and not wanting to take it anymore. And now, it doesn’t hurt so much.
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This next story is not on Tumblr - it’s on Wattpad. But the beautiful author is here: @woolfhoundsss. The story is Attachment Theory. (it wouldn’t let me bloody link the synopsis page only the first chapter 🤦🏼♀️)
God. Honestly, this is the story that inspired me to start writing. The fact that Thea writes like nothing I’ve ever seen before and captivates you - just unbelievable.
I found Attachment Theory at an odd time in my life where I was struggling like fuck to get by because everything was going wrong. I stumbled upon it after firing up my Wattpad account for the first time in like 7/8 years and it was the first thing that popped up in search. The summary instantly got me. So, I started to read it. I’m so fucking glad I did. Because when I was reading it, I felt like I had something to focus on and everything in the background just faded away. I could have however long I read for in peace and delve myself into Alice’s shoes. I remember the day that it was finished and I remember becoming so emotional over it, because it wasn’t just a story or a fanfiction to me. But I’m just grateful that in the end I got to experience what I did and I found a fellow author to connect with. I’m still in shock that you found me, Thea.
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This next one is another one that’s not here on tumblr, it’s on AO3 - but @winteratdusk wrote the series Homecoming.
This one I only found recently thanks to a suggestion, and holy shit. Thank you, @thenhewaswrongaboutme.
Now when I say that these fics had a sense of catharsis for me… this one takes the cake. For 4ish years now I have struggled with an eating disorder and whilst Operant Conditioning covered one element to it, Homecoming covered the rest. Literally.
But what I realised when I read this fic and how Bucky copes, and how much he struggled, I realised I was more caring, gentle and supportive of him - than I was of myself. For the exact. same. things.
Since I have read it, something changed.. in me. I now make a conscious effort to be gentle on myself with what I deal with. And I cannot describe how much progress I have actually made with my ED. It’s come in leaps and bounds.
Thank you, Sam. 💗
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Now this next one is very, very, very special to me.
yhhmsgm by my beautiful @thenhewaswrongaboutme.
Not only is this series one of the best things I’ve ever read, but by finding it - I also in turn found one of my closest friends.
I cannot find the words to accurately describe Elsie’s writing style except for the fact that I’m very fucking privileged to do so. The characterisation, the love that you feel when reading it, just fucking everything. God. I’m getting teary thinking about it.
So that covers it… I cannot get into words just how much I love these stories because there are no words fit enough. But I tried.
Thank you, guys, for sharing what you do. 💗
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