Ok, so I haven’t read the novelization of the voyage home yet, and I wanna know if there is an explanation on how sulu goes from “wow helicopter ” to flying the plexiglass into the bird of prey? Like was the helicopter part of the transparent aluminum deal? Or did sulu just mug a guy of out a helicopter? If he mugged him, I want some details. Like, did sulu just punch the guy? Or phaser him? Or, this is my favorite theory, he took the pilot on a long romantic evening and at the end pulled a saffron from firefly and knocked a bitch out with some lip stick? And then just took the pilots job the next day? So. Many. Questions.
does anyone have VRV DID headcanons. personally im a Gordon B and Malcom system believer. i also think neither of them are aware of this
Gordon B: genuinely doesnt really know what DID is (yet) "Oh! Like Star Trek TNG season 7 episode 17?" also "Ohhhh my worst childhood memory is throwing up at Showbizz Pizza, so I couldnt have DID!" (COUGH COUGH HEAVY DISSOCIATIVE AMNESIA. COUGH.) also they all think theyre each other. it gets messy. except the Loverboy retroject(? introject of oneself during a past era of ones life. idfk im just coining over here) hes chilling <3
Malcom: knows kinda what it is, but is the most repressed ever. Player notices but also doesnt know what it is. she tries to prompt him abt it a few times to little progress (bc of the repression and also the system doesnt want him to know. cut to a disgruntled protector/manager screaming into a mental pillow every time Player pokes at it.) internally known system members are: the aforementioned manager, persecutor of some kind, guy who does soulsucking office job, particularly scared and sad little, Malcom (clueless)
I just read the first chapter of the “axiom of equality” part of a little life and dude I’m really reconsidering the way I view life as a whole.
x=x, yes Jude, I feel you so fucking much, all my life I felt like I wouldn’t surpass this feeling of being wrong, the wrongdoings of my childhood, my mistakes and mistakes of others done to me haunt me every single moment of my days, maybe If I were funnier, maybe I if worked on my weight a little harder it would disappear, what did I do to deserve so much hate from others as a kid? to experience the heavy bullying? why should it stain my memory like a wine stained carpet? (you get used to it but it’s never really clean, this metaphor worked in my head so please bear with it). and Caleb, man I’ve met so many fucking Calebs in my life, people i trusted at first sight, thought it could work just to be utterly disappointed at the outcome.
“you’re not your past”, easier said than done.
it’s 3:15 a.m where I live as i’m writing this and I doubt i’ll be able to afford a good night of sleep due the mental state i find myself in. I haven’t cried once while reading this book, maybe it’s because I see so much of myself in these characters that I’m just perplexed and angry, at myself, at others who made me feel like a complete piece of shit my whole life, at the JB’s, cause we all have that one friend that, at some point, made fun of our insecurities and left us feeling like garbage.
read “a little life” by Hanya Yanagihara, i promise it’ll change you and the way you interpret life and others (and i haven’t even finished it yet)