#man I really do over explain

[blade-that-was-broken]

I really do love that you gave JD friends. And did not make him bitter exs with Delta. I respect people’s headcannons but it feels like everyone does that and it has become the standard for JD.

It’s honestly a whole thing for me. Part of it is projecting, honestly, but I also have a lot of feelings for this little troll. Like a lot. And I know what it’s like when the fandom makes something the standard for a character.

I’ve never really been involved in that aspect but I’ve been involved in other fandoms that do that with fanon things that they deem is practically canon and I don’t agree with it. Obviously people can do what they want it’s not a huge deal. That is what fanfic and fandom is for.

Delta obviously seems to have some experience with the sadness in life which probably includes grief. And the one thing that really makes me attached to JD to nearly the point of apologetics is that he came back. He came back to the Tree and thought everyone was dead and that grief must have been insane. I can’t even imagine.

Part of me likes the cute JD and Delta art and got a little attached to the idea. I think it would be hilarious if they were besties because no one really expects that. And I don’t mind the ship as much as I dislike other troll ships (I’m not big on troll romantic ships in general it’s a whole thing I should explain one day).

It was Delta at first, when I stepped into this whole idea of giving John friends. I like the idea that as a traveler/hiker/camper he would have discovered other tribes. I think it’s a good idea for both his character and in general. But as time goes on, I dunno, I want him to have some people to support him and be friends with him - people who aren’t kids he had to raise as a child himself.

So like in one of my aus, he’s friends with Dickory. They got into a spot of trouble and helped each other out. In another au, he helped a rock band get their start up going. In my human au, John is best friends with Delta and becomes close with her family. It becomes a serious loyalty. I want to expand on this a little. Because I kind of like the idea that he kind of just. Knows people when everyone in his life now thinks he was a strict hermit. Idk just a thought.

I just kind of feel bad for him sometimes. Like, people can do what they want and they are soooo creative like it’s crazy. And I feel a little awkward doing sometimes totally different, like I’m going against the character.

At least until I realize that people are doing the same thing. Just because a large part of the fandom agrees on something that doesn’t mean you have to do it too. It makes me feel a lot better about my writing to me.

Sorry for the long reply. Sometimes I over explain and get onto tangents

#ask #man I really do over explain

[fatedroses]

Adventurer Zenos and G'raha cause I had to draw my silly guys. I just enjoy the idea of Zenos hanging out with fellow bookworms and being begrudgingly (though occasionally willingly) helpful.

#ffxiv #sketch #concept #fan art #zenos yae galvus #adventurer zenos #g'raha tia #man my mind really just said zenos is going “begone simp” to raha #which is ironic yes #but I love the idea that student of baldesion zenos is just an over observant dork #“my taxes now catboy” #though I write adventurer zenos- or at least this point in time for him before DT as him being a bit more reflective and way more reserved #just trying to figure out what exactly he actually enjoys doing while not relying on the WoL for it #I promise this means that down the line writing wise he's gonna treat the students and scions as his dragon hoard #toning down? hell no #this man doubles down- just with more people #-I dont actually know how to explain it fully in words #basically hes protective over those he cares about but only to the point of when they're actually in mortal danger #undoubtedly the bad influence that in turn gets people out of trouble and will call people out for being dumb #all the while freefalling off of cliffs as one of the only people who could fly in the group #barring estiniens jumping #Also I just wanted to give Raha a character that would absolutely spend hours with him talking about history and the allagans lol

[mokeonn]

Before I go to sleep I leave you all with this piece of advice: sometimes you don't actually have to answer big political questions, sometimes you can just say "I am not smart enough to know that, I just know the small things I do to help." Like you can often times completely avoid making a fool of yourself if you just say you don't know.

#simon says #to explain here and not in a reblog: #sometimes when you try to explain big picture solutions you're gonna sound dumb #you might not have done enough research #you might not have a rebuttal to a counter argument #you might not be articulate enough to explain why you think this #sometimes you gotta take a step back and give the simple solution. the one man solution #you do what you can to fight against the problem #you talk to people to help spread awareness and how to fight the bad problem #and you vote and invite others to vote for bigger steps towards solving the problem #like you can talk about theory and how you believe we need to do a huge drastic thing to solve and issue #but people will disagree and argue til you're blue in the face #they'll poke and prod until you mess up or lose your temper and use it against you #and you'll feel dumb and they'll learn nothing #sometimes the best thing to do is step away from the big picture and just say 'idk what the solution is I just know the things I can do“ #sometimes you gotta admit you're not a scientist/expert and you can't answer that #i used this while talking with my Dad tonight #he brought up our climate crisis and space travel as a possible solution #and I said I think that's just addressing the symptom and not the cause and we need to care for our Earth now #and he asked me what solutions I think would fix it #and knowing my incredibly smart Dad who is articulate and ready to throw rebuttles at a moments notice to play devils advocate #and my past experience in struggling in this topic with him before #i just told him I didn't know. all i knew is the little things I can and do do to help #and that hopefully by spreading the word and habits and encouraging others to vote for those bigger solutions I could help make a change #but all I really could do is the little things I have control over #and the topic became much less stressful about the little things we have control over #like planting native plants and recycling and adopting habits that are healthier to our planet #which was 100% more preferable to if I tried to give a big solution. because I would reveal i didn't have all the knowledge needed to argue #and my articulation would make me sound like a stupid kid who only thinks they know what's best #so yeah I basically suggest that if you dont wanna feel like shit after debating someone just step away from the big picture for a moment

[seagull-scribbles]

what if they where T4T?! What then?

#TMNT #TMNT 2012 #casey jones 2012 #that episode where Casey said I liked being a girl really expected me to ignore the comment? #no #raphael hamato #2012 raph #rasey #I mean you don’t have to ship them to appreciate the concept #idk raph has short trans man vibes I love him #toxic masculinity is him trying to act the part in a house of males #he’ll get over it dw #though I do like cos man raph dressing as a fairy princess and having feminine qualities #I also love trans man raph struggling to accept his more traditionally feminine behaviour #especially when they are only exposed to these gendered roles through old media #these two go out and beat up transphobes for a romantic date x #Raphs not got any trans stuff on because he doesn’t need to explain who he is to anyone his family knows #oh I tried so hard not to scratch and bruise them up too much #but I still can’t draw people #sorry Casey’s heads too big I’m learning #really like the shades of green on Raph though #also Raphs names always been raph splinter was a ninja he doesn’t know how to sex frenshly mutated pet turtle tots #OH QUICKLY I AM LOVING LATINA CASEY SO MUCH #these two spray paint graffiti in every ally and drop one trans or personal cultural significance reference in each #trans casey jones #trans raph #lgbt hc

[sevendutchies]

People in this fandom will really look at The Fool, Patience, Lacey, Carson, Sedric, Hest, Davvie, Lecter, Kennit, Ash/Spark, and yes, even Fitz himself, and still have the gall to call it queer bait.

These characters are explicitly queer, their actions impact the narrative, they are well written, and their identities are treated with respect. That is the best possible queer representation you could ask for in any story.

I've seen people on tumblr basing the likelihood of if they read this series on whether or not it's "actually gay" and I'm here to tell you that it is. There are queer characters. There are queer protagonists. And no matter what you see people in the fandom say, Robin Hobb wrote some amazing queer representation in a genre that rarely sees it at all.

EDIT: and I think it's pertinent to note that, no, characters who are questioning or struggling with their feelings about sexuality instead of knowing 100% does not make something queer bait or "less gay"

TLDR;

Queer bait = disrespectful marketing ploy that exploits queer audiences

Queer bait ≠ "my two favorite characters never have sex"

#Fitzchivalry ''i wondered if I lied so that I need not be ashamed of myself'' farseer thank you everyone #quite frankly the disrespect to Robin Hobb in this fandom is in EXTREMELY poor taste #the interview from 2008 before half the series was written where she explains why Fitz would not suddenly be head over heels for a person h #perceives as a man because all of his life he has only had heterosexual experiences apparently means that no queer characters exist #whatsoever in the whole series and Robin Hobb is an irredeemable backwards old lady who can't get with the times. right. #Fitzchivalry ''what were we? Beloved'' farseer #this is actually not supposed to be a debate over whether Fitz is canonically queer or not. he is. ope. #also...I do read Kennit as queer. just cause he is traumatized and his queerness comes out in predatory ways doesn't mean he's not queer. #that's called writing a compelling villain baybee #Hest!?!? thank you Robin Hobb for the evil gays god bless <3 #modern reader: the author didn't describe these characters dicks touching in detail therefore she is homophobic #rote #realm of the elderlings #fitzchivalry farseer #the fool #I really had to get this out of my system guys. thanks <3 #as if Robin Hobb didn't give us the FOOL. nonbinary/gender fluid character OF ALL TIME.

[emmabirb8]

I think the part that frustrates me the most is the fact that THEY CREATED THE PERFECT OPPORTUNITY FOR A COMPLETELY UNHINGED VAMPIRE GUILLERMO AND THEY FUCKING SQUANDERED IT

#i really thought that's where they were heading with it after he drank that blood #and they panned over to the 'private party' at that restaurant #they should've had guillermo be the one who just straight up slaughtered ALL the people there #and the other vamps would've been kinda shell-shocked but also proud #and nandor could have grimaced at the camera and explained that the full transformation can have weirdly strong effects sometimes #idk man IT COULD HAVE BEEN SO GREAT AND SO FUNNY #AND THEY FUCKED IT #wwdits #wwdits fx #what we do in the shadows #spoilers #guillermo de la cruz #wwdits season 5 #exit interview #my posts

[heyclickadee]

So, my family is rewatching Rings of Power, and since I’m the one in the family that read The Silmarillion (like a masochist), I’m the one who keeps getting asked all the questions.

#‘did this happen?’ well broadly speaking yes but Tolkien never fleshed this part of middle-earth’s history out in much detail #but I know exactly where they got the idea for whatever it is most of the time #‘is Galadriel’s husband really dead’ of course not #‘did Sauron ever go by the name Halbrand?’ well not really but also how much time do you have because this is going to take some explaining #‘is that Gandalf?’ almost definitely but they’re doing the blue wizard thing with him by taking him to Rhun #also I think they’re making him the basis for the hobbit’s ’man in the moon’ song so I’m honestly okay with it #‘is the Queen lady’s nightmare significant’ Yes three times over but how am I supposed to say anything about it #without giving away what’s probably a season finale #‘what’s with the mithril?’ Hell if I know I’m as confused as you are about that #actually the Galadriel’s husband one was funny #because of course Celeborn shows up in the movies #but my mom wasn’t sure that was actually her husband #or some random blorbo #or a second husband #which then opened up the whole conversation #to how the elves are painfully monogamous even when their spouse dies #because they way they die is weird and also #they all still have generational and firsthand trauma from the fallout of that one elf guy who did get remarried #rings of power spoilers

[ra-vio]

semester is almost over. im dying

#my oc #rune #mori #i have a project due tomorrow and its finally scared me back into drawing #even though i should be working on this project but im SO SO SO TIRED #i went on an outing like 2 weeks ago the same week that i walked everywhere cause i was desperately #trying to get my taxes done but thats a different story but the point is i was walking a lot and i went on an outing where i stood all day #and then i had to go to class the very next day thinking i was fine but i wasnt. #and that same day after i walked across the city because i absolutely had to pick a thing up. i think the same week i met up with my mom #a couple of times but i was walking the whole way there. my point is that for 2 weeks straight i have been rigorously walking everywhere #and on my feet all the time with little breaks in between and my feet fucking hurt man #i need this semester to be OVER i need to sleep for a MONTH #but i cant because i have to scrape together SOME of this project and finals are next week #this class this project is for fucking sucks. all semester ive been teetering the line between pass and fail #and its not even my fucking fault. im so burnt out so i dont want to do this project. but i might fail if i dont #i need to at least demo it but i have like. one thing done and i dunno what to tell my TA about i #how do i tell my TA and prof that everything is too much for me so i absolutely could work on this project #my laptop is broken so im afraid to use it. the server kept going down last month so i was afraid to use that #so many stupid little things keep piling up and i'd sound really weird trying to explain why i cant do my work #because my desk is on the floor and it makes me really sad so no i cant do my hw. my fave candy has red40 in it so i had to stop eating it #but now i cant do my work because i was using it to help me focus on my hw. LIFE SUCKS BRO #anyway whatever happens. i cant wait to play video games again

[problemswithbooks]

BNHA 423

So, I can't say I feel much of anything reading this weeks leaks.

I'm not shocked that Shigaraki died, nor would I be surprised if his death is taken back next chapter and he gets brought back to life in some way.

The thing is despite people saying Shigaraki dying messes with the themes of the story the themes have always been more then a little shaky. IDK if it's just a difference in culture, but Hori has a way of setting something up as being a big deal/theme and then doing something that completely contradicts it.

It's really no surprise he might have killed off most of the villains including Shigaraki despite setting the story up in a way where saving villains seemed to be a theme. He did the same thing with self-sacrifice being portrayed as bad, but later showing it as good.

I will say I don't necessarily agree with how some people are framing Shigaraki's death as throwing abuse victims under the bus. I do get the frustration because Hori did focus a lot of how Shigaraki was used by AfO and in a lot of stories that would be used to absolve him of guilt for all the destruction he caused. But Hori never had Shigaraki change his mind. His last words are him continuing to wish he could have destroyed more and wanting Izuku to relay to Spinner he never stopped fighting for destruction.

I think if this had been a more thought out and focused story you really could make it a great tragedy. It feels unfair that he couldn't be saved, that despite Izuku's effort, at the end of the day Shigaraki wasn't able to break away from the destruction he was manipulated and groomed into believing.

In that way I can understand the anger of some fans, because the story is essentially a tragedy framed as a simply triumphant narrative. It always felt like it wanted to have some deep meaning, and always seemed on the verge of it, but never stuck the landing. The one thing I've always been left wondering is: what is Hori trying to say with this story?, and IDK if the ending, given what's on the page right now will really give me an answer.

If anything I think perhaps Hori was trying to say to much at once. I'm sure a lot of it gets lost in translation and cultural differences, still part of me thinks he bit off more then he could reasonably flesh out. Thinking back many writing choices feel like he had an idea or passing thought and added it because it was cool or thought he'd have time to do more with it latter but due to shitty writing conditions couldn't implement properly.

#mha #bnha #bnha spoilers #bnha 423 #boku no hero academia #bnha leaks #idk #im sick and rambling #at this point i check in on bnha to see how it ends #because i genuinely have no idea how it's gonna end #it does sort of feel like a story that was so much cooler in Hori's head #like I honestly wish I could just have him explain it to me #cuz I do think alot of stuff got cut or dropped because he didn't have the energy to draw it #I think it's a huge lesson in why working conditions matter #and why some stories and authors don't do well when released chapter by chapter #let alone weekly #over years of time #I think One Piece is a huge outlier #and should not be counted #i guess I feel like BNHA could have been really good if it had been released more like a novel series #like one book every year or two #because I think Hori needs time to edit and really pick a direction sometimes #which a weekly schedule did not give #and as disappointing as it is I can't help but give the man props #I can barely start my stories #let alone finish them #and I don't draw them ontop of that #like his art is fantastic and I loved a lot of his characters #never would have bothered to keep checking back if I didn't like something about it

[stop-breaking-my-heart-dragonage]

Me, when Sebastian joins my party for the first time: Okay, this time I'm not going to forget about you, Sebastian. I'm going to make an effort to use you a lot this playthrough so I can better understand you.

Also me, immediately forgetting about Sebastian while finishing Act 2 and making it halfway through Act 3 before I finally notice his Faith quest: ......................Oh. Right. My bad.

#da2 #dragon age 2 #sebastian vael #listen in my defense..........i don't like bringing sebastian anywhere sksksks #okay look i seriously tried but every time i bring him somewhere i always think man i wish i had brought someone else #and also i do just forget about him! i finally added him to my party at one point and he had 24 points to spend... #that's how long i neglected him after i promised myself i was gonna use him more and then i didn't #it's not that i don't like sebastian as a character though i do tend to side eye him A LOT... it's just that i like everyone else more #even aveline like i'd take aveline over sebastian any day and that's saying something... or is it? i have a lot of feelings about aveline #whereas my feelings about sebastian could maybe fill a thimble...it doesn't help that in my canon run as a mage hawke #i romance anders and well... sebastian wants me to kill anders and my hawke is like 'do i approve of blowing up the chantry? complicated.' #'am i breaking up with anders for this? absolutely. do i still love him? mmhmmm. am i going to kill him sebby? i'd sooner set varric aflame #then sebastian threatens to bring an army to kirkwall and leaves so i can't say i have the greatest opinion on him #even the time where i did kill anders and he stayed in my party he was just... there #and then he glitched out and started t posing while asking if ed ever found out what anders wanted to do in the chantry so..... yeah #but even this playthrough where i'm playing as a lady warrior with a different personality and everything... i'd just rather use anyone els #also keep him away from bethany i do not approve sksksks she's too good for him #i want to understand and see the different angles of him like with the other companions but i've yet to convince myself to do it #also sebastian romancers out there can you like... explain? genuinely can you explain the appeal? i'm curious #because of all the love interests in da2 i look at sebastian and you'd think i'd maybe be more interested? but it's like... #i know about the chaste marriage and everything like that's fine i don't need sex to be a thing in the relationship but it feels less like #an asexual romance and more like... y'know... being with a priest and i guess that's just not one of my kinks? sksksks #i guess there's also the prince angle but i romanced alistair in dao and kept him a grey warden i don't really care about royalty power #and i don't have issues with him being a part of the chantry [well i do but yknow what i mean] since i romanced cullen in dai #and his whole deal with the chantry and magic and shit makes his romance interesting to me but sebastian is just.... a bit too much i think #i don't know i'd like to understand because i really don't but i also keep forgetting about him

[dan-crimes]

I love it when I'm not actually as invested in something as others are yet I'll still spend. 10+ hours just watching content about it cuz I still have to know about it like I might not have brain rot or anything but I gotta have that info in my brain

#I mean in general it takes a lot to really catch my attention #like I like lots and lots of media #constantly looking around for new stuff to invest my time in #and when I find smth I will go over it a lot if it's cool enough #but like to ACTUALLY hook me with literal brain worms it has to be SOO specific #in a way idk how to even really explain #like the list of things that'll hook me almost INSTANTLY if I start looking @ them again is like #WoY. NoN. i.i. and uhhh Dano :] if u read this far that mod is in my pinned ^^ #I really like the mod a LOT and got them brain rotting worms in my head for em #atm I'm trying to branch out and keep up with new media. catch up or rewatch old media etc etc #so it's distracting me from any specific brain rot atm cuz I'm so all over the place but yeah! #Indigo Park is cool :] I do really like Rambley a lot but I'll have to see more if him and more of the game in the future #before it really makes anything in my brain I think #OH Secret Squirrel is a new one that's really got me but I'm staying away from that FREAK bcuz I'm not normal abt him #plus there's only like 13 episodes but tbf I'VE WORKED WITH LESS #I'm like the master of getting invested in the most obscure shit possible man

[syn0vial]

reading boba fett’s story in legacy of the force really is like, “wow, this man’s got 99 problems and actually communicating with the people he loves would solve at least 85% of them”

#this man’s really like #``two generations of my offspring have tried to hunt me down over a misunderstanding’’ #``but setting the record straight would involve unearthing old trauma so. guess i’ll die :/’’ #and ‘‘i’m dying of a terminal disease and have known this for years but emotional conversations are scary’’ #‘‘so i won’t tell my best friend until i’ve got just a handful of months left and we all have to haul ass figuring out what to do’’ #and ‘‘a sizable faction of the mandalorians i rule think i killed the beloved old leader as an act of selfish usurpation’’ #‘‘but i don’t think anyone would believe me if i tried to explain it was a mercy killing so i won’t even try.’’ #[shakes him by the shoulders] TALK DAMN YOU #boba fett #legacy of the force

[pineappical]

I’m literally obsessed with how you draw Ted and Trent they’re sooooo ✨ can I ask how you learned to draw anatomy bc I’m in love with how you do it

THANK YOU!!! also ive never taken any classes/lessons for art so most of what i draw is just a whole bunch of "fuck it we ball" and VERY heavily referencing images ive collected by roaming pinterest (cringe) and whatever..

^like that for example

its mostly a trial and error and some drawings never even survive the hard sketch part but it honestly just boils down to drawing the same guy over and over and over for like. 50-70+ drawings now HELP?

#id say ''like ted lasso. training makes perfect'' but honestly ive just been down bad for him for months now and its still going strong :-/ #i wish i could explain this better BUT MAN. I DONT KNOW HOW IM DOING THIS EITHER </3 LMAOOOO #pn.ask #all i can really say is the best way to get better at a thing is to go completely insane over it #i like ted lasso. i like drawing him. i want to draw him better. i end up drawing him over and over and over and slowly improve thru that #CHRIST I HAVE.... HOW MANY TED LASSO DRAWINGS NOW..???? HELLO? #id show a better example with drawings that isnt actually just a redraw of a screenshot but i delete my refs from my canvas the second i #finish the lineart so like :"-] #edit: im going to reach a hundred lasso drawings if its the last thing i damn do

[sparrowstarsandsorrow]

'The war is over for me now, but It'll always be there for the rest of my days, as im sure Elias will be.'

THEY FULL WELL KNEW WHAT THEY WERE INDICATING WHEN THEY GOT THE SHOT OF THE DEER! (I'll never recover from this) Even so, why would they not include the lines yet keep the deer, wouldn't it have been better to keep it in as so other will understand the meaning of the deer?

#PLEASE IF YOU LIKE PLATOON OR JUST ELIAS PLEASE PAY ATTENTION TO THIS #THIS PAINED ME SO MUCH WHEN I FOUND OUT ABOUT IT #i mean it made me upset but im also happy about it #its not something i can explain at the minute #i understand that the deer isnt really Elias #BUT they KNEW what they were doing #id like to say it show that even though he died #hes not really gone #as like chris says in his 'Speech' about Elias fighting with barnes over possesion of his soul #anyhow ill never recover from this #i love Elias so dearly #his character is very important to me i hold him so close to my heart #ITS HIS SPIRITUALITY MAN ✊️✊️ #and SO MANY OTHER THING THAT ID PREFER TO MENTION SOME OTHER TIME #for Elias✊️ #⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ #elias grodin #willem dafoe #platoon #oliver stone #chris taylor #charlie sheen #im never going to think of deers the same way again #(in a good way though) #⋆⋆☆⋆⋆

[daily-whistlepaw]

daily whistlepaw until ah becomes PoV day 1167

I think I finally understand how people feel when around a crush, can't say I enjoy it

#warrior cats #whistlepaw #windclan #medicine cat apprentice #this isn't my first crush lol but this one has had me feel the strongest of feelings (and might be my first genuine crush lol) #the fact I have been building up A Lot of stress for the entire week probably didn't help. #and the fact my stomach hurt is also probably at least partially to explain by the fact I barely ate last night #but MAN seeing my (latest) crush in such a pretty dress and then go on stage and play (a goddess!!!!!!! she's a goddess) #(I already bought tickets to go see the full thing; I will die but I will die happy (I hope)) #but yeah I struggled for a good 2 hours to fall asleep and also had stomach weirdness happening the next morning #man it was not fun #(and then she came to sit next to me during class and I had to play it cool (I was too deranged on sleep deprivation to really care about #being my typical brand of weird but I do sometimes feel like an idiot around her and feel guilty because then I fear that she finds me #annoying and will hate me and I will fail this again (losing a friendship over a crush once was not that fun lol) and Traumas don't help #either at all so uh I'm just trying to spend time with her I just always feel a bit worried that I'm annoying her and it's consuming my bra #I do also still feel a little guilty about having this crush; internalized homophobia/issues around sexuality are hard to shake off #and while it's very normal and stuff I never dare to go the entire way when my brain conjures fantasies that are a little too risqué #I just feel guilty man I know I shouldn't but still it fucking sucks in my brain #and god talking about this in therapy would be a mess #I might have to eventually but I don't wanna #anyways; wild vent in the tags aside; yay a whis!

[sskk-manifesto]

(´･ᴗ･ ` )

#I really like the “We're the bad guys' enemy” line. For someone I generally despise Dazai has all my favourite lines in this show… #Idk I can't really vibe with the unbalance that there is between s/kk. #Like when push comes to shove‚ Dazai has the power to keep Chuuya alive or let him die. #I understand why they make a compelling dynamic in their complexity‚ but it just doesn't do it for me. #I'm a little sad my opinion on them hasn't really changed since I watched the anime for the first time... #Also; I really can't vibe with Chuuya allowing Dazai to kill Q. Yes I know Chuuya cares about his comrades deeply. #Yes I know it can be interpreted as Chuuya seeing himself in Q as a living weapon and being disgusted by it #(though I honestly don't think that was intentional of the author). #Yes I know Chuuya is a mafioso and kills people. No I don't think your personal issues justify you being a dick to other people I'm sorry. #Back to my main annoyance with the episode: I must have already talked about this but I hate hate hate the narrative #“the mafia works for the city” “the mafia deeply loves the city too” it's so so sickening and insulting please stop I'm begging. #Please visit any actual city with a rooted mafia presence for once in your life (signed: someone whose hometown was destroyed by the mafia. #The writers really don't know what they're talking about and‚ politely‚ it's offensive.) #Also b/sd keeping being extremely nationalist with Mori (who's largely depicted unsimphatetically for the first part of the episode)– #bringing up western thinkers and subtly mocking Fukuzawa for not knowing them– #and Fukuzawa (the righteous man. the noble spirit and just soul in this episode and Mori's antithesis)– #stepping forward to say that he knows strategists from the east (because who else would he need?) #I don't know if it's meant to symbolize the conflict with an hostile and invading foreign power (the Guild). #But it does come across as. A very isolationist way of thinking. #I know it's subtle but it's really evident for me. And I didn't want to talk about this any further… #But by bringing actual examples of this I hope I can better explain why I think that b/sd holds nationalist views– #and that I'm not just making it up out of nowhere. Otherwise I fear I'd only come off as pettily hostile to b/sd in everything #That's it. I feel like I've been losing a lot of mutuals over my main recently due to not shutting up (sorry) #so I suppose it's only fair I lose them on here too pffttt. #Tune in next week for more bad takes #random rambles