#maybe it’s just me being too young

[nobody0805]

Why is he wearing a tie to school.

Jasper

Honey

You don’t have to wear a tie to school.

It’s not a formal event.

#maybe it’s just me being too young #but why is he wearing a tie to school #the twilight saga #twilight #twilight renessaince #twilight renaissance #jasper hale #jasper whitlock #jasper cullen

[inkskinned]

there's a video on instagram of a man kicking his partner's door in. the top comment is (with over 4 thousand likes): "how about you tell us what you did to make him that angry?"

barring emergency, nobody should be kicking anybody's door in. many of us lived in houses where it was always, somehow, an emergency. there is a strange, almost hysterical calm that comes over you in that moment - everything feels muted, and you almost feel, however incongruently, like you should be laughing. you are living inside of "the emergency." oh my god, you think. i am now a fucking statistic.

there is another comment with 2.8 thousand likes: "if this was a woman doing it to a man, nobody would give a shit."

do people give a shit now, though?

barring emergency, the door should remain standing. the emergency should be panicked, desperate - "i'm coming in there to protect you." many of us know what it feels like when the emergency is instead "i'm coming in there to get you."

1.5k likes: "and yet you post this for notes. glad to see being the victim has become your whole personality."

hysteria is a word connected to womb, from greek. what you're experiencing is so senseless and inhumane that you (a rational creature) try to find any ground within what is irrational and cannot be explained. one of the most frustrating things about staying in bad situations is that we also lie to ourselves. we also ask ourselves - wow. what did i do?

women can be, and often are, also abusers. abuse is not gendered. abuse is not just a "straight person" problem. abuse does not have a face or figure or sexuality. you cannot pick an abuser out of a crowd. an abuser could be actually anybody.

and then so many people rally behind the man kicking the door in. here is something nobody should be doing, right? you want to ask every person that liked that first comment: do you ask this because you side with him? do you ask this because it helps you feel safe from this ever happening?

in some ways, you're weirdly sympathetic to the top comment, because it is the same logic you see frequently. the idea is that the average, normal, sane person doesn't just break down a door. doesn't just shoot up a school. doesn't stalk and kill women. doesn't threaten sexual assault. doesn't run over protesters. doesn't shoot an unarmed black person. doesn't scream at underpaid walmart employees. doesn't just "lose it". something had to have happened, right? because the default (white. straight. cis.) - that is someone who is always, you know. "sane."

(right?)

on a podcast, you hear a sane, normal, rational person. "if you piss me off, i'm going to need to hit something. sorry but i'm not apologizing. that's just who i am that's how it is." his voice almost sounds like he's laughing.

you think of the door, and how you were almost laughing behind it, too. ironically, every real emergency in your life has almost felt peaceful in comparison. fire, car accident, flash flooding - these felt quiet, covenant to you. you'd stood in all of them, feeling them pass over and up to your chin, never actually overwhelming.

but when the door was coming down, you had felt - is there a word for that? there has to be, a word, right.

surely one of us has figured out the word for that, i mean. it's such a large fucking statistic.

#spilled ink #writeblr #warm up #this is so disorganized #i just saw that video and the comments made me want to vomit #it's actually like. in the way it's funny that you got into a car crash and got the flu within the same 24 hours #it's like. #it's funny #because certain people will blame everything on mental illness #even being transgender. #they will not #however #at any point - even vaguely suggest that a man should maybe get therapy. #like. a guy busting down a door isn't a danger-to-himself-and-others #(you just pushed him too far). #but a young adult looking for top surgery should be institutionalized for even wanting to change their body.

[ride-a-dromedary]

Just thinking about the implications of this, but Halsin's way of indicating that his family has long passed is: "save for [him], [his] line perished a long time ago".

Aside from it being a decidedly more old fashioned and more eloquent way of indicating what happened (as is shown in shades in Halsin's speaking patterns, which is likely trying to illustrate his age as well as push the "wise mentor" angle), by stating that his line has ended with him, practically, it means both sets of grandparents are gone, both parents are gone, and either Halsin is an only child (unlikely considering Wood Elves, but possible), or any and all of his siblings are gone, too. And if you stretch what you consider part of a line, rather than just keeping direct, that could extend to aunts and uncles and cousins as well (though it's hard to say concretely what Halsin includes in a familial line).

So it leaves me to wonder what happened to reduce an entire elven line to one elf, when Halsin himself is only just approaching middle-age and he pointedly says it happened a long time ago, so it wasn't a recent event, and the lot of them likely didn't die from old age/natural causes. Was his entire village wiped out at one point? Disease or a raid or orcs or a wildfire or what?

#BG3 Musing #Halsin Posting #Halsin #or am i over thinking this and halsin's mention of familial line only means like he was an only child and has no children #and his parents are dead? #wood elves are largely polyamorous AND the most populous of the elven races #their families in high forest are often pretty big - and i would assume there would be multiple parents - so it's just a little curious #anyway catch me trying to decipher halsin's dad lore #wood elf villages often take council from druids in the area and they are highly revered - maybe halsin being one of the only elves left #was taken in by whomever it was giving his village council and that's how he ended up in the emerald grove #and then as a young druid he went traversing out and about #halsin's had to bury two families is what i'm saying no wonder he wants one - he is survivor's guilt squared #and if experiencing death is a milestone in how elves emotionally mature - halsin is likely an example of premature maturation #like i wouldn't be surprised it halsin's emotional maturation was screwed around too like astarion's he's just healthier about it #anyway tell me your secrets elf man or at least larian let me read more of halsin's journals

[uncanny-tranny]

I went to a local yarn store for the first time, and while I was there, somebody was talking about getting a beginner's knitting kit, and she inquired about when lessons were, and when she was told that they'd be happy to sit down with her and teach her, she was so delighted. She talked about how excited she was and how much she wanted to learn to knit, and it just... it made me fall in love with humanity. It was this pure, unadulterated happiness coming from somebody and it was so genuine and kind, and I couldn't help but smile.

I guess all of this is to say... every moment, there are tiny little joys like this all over the world, and it makes this life worth living. I hope you witness and feel joy this simple, this pure.

#positivity #and she was older too! it made me really happy because it just reminds me that there is no such thing as 'too old' #you will never be too old to learn something - to feel that level of happiness and excitement #if i think about this too hard i'm going to start crying #and the yarn store has this really hip name and all the patrons there were older women and i thought that was cute and funny #i felt so odd being the only young person there though but i know that's just my own insecurity and not how they'd feel #i find older people absolutely LOVE when young people share their interests. i think old people get... used to feeling out of touch... #...and almost... neglected in a way by younger adults. it's hard to describe but i sense some loneliness in some old people y'know? #and when i share their interests... maybe it's like they feel young again - seen by somebody else? #that's my assumption anyway. but i like being around old people - they can absolutely be kind and gentle and i appreciate it

[luckiestplant]

do you guys understand the vision

#limbus company #lcb #lcb faust #lcb yi sang #lcb hong lu #not really shipping in a romantic sense. maybe qpp but also just as friends too #idk theyre a Trio to me i hope they get more like. canon interactions. LOL #honglu and fausty being seat buddies.. they way hong lu looks at yi sang in canto iv's ending and him being young-ji #honglu's liu ID including yisang and faust as cameos #fau is studying honglu bc hes so weird to her. and the memes n stuff w them are so silly and wholesome #i think abt faust knowing lots abt yisang and that one moment where she's like 'yi sang is not a genius. I AM tho' #and to both of them that is a normal positive friendship thing and i think thats beautiful #mechanical genius . guy talented in inventions and poetry. and possibly the most emotionally intelligent dude on the bus. what a trio #plant talk

[cethvalier]

thinking hard abt elisabeth wearing the ich gehör nur mir nightgown in der schleier fällt

#i know theres the whole thing abt freedom like iiii belong toooo meeeee!!! dies #but i also like to think of it as her in her death being immortalized as young and beautiful in pop culture and media and all that #“is she still young/is she still beautiful” that whole thing #kind of in line with what kitsch is saying in some sense #but i think thats just me going crazy after over a year straight of obsessing over Elisabeth das Musical #maybe unemployment is starting to get to me too. and im not even fully unemployed yet #elisabeth das musical

[todayisafridaynight]

barely four hours into the new month and im already silly

#rgg #ryu ga gotoku #ryu ga gotoku 7 #yakuza series #yakuza 7 #yakuza like a dragon #arasawa #masumi arakawa #jo sawashiro #snap sketches #BYE LMAO #i just wanted to draw arakawa tbh but then somehow sawashiro ended up here too #a reward for me for shotgunning all of my comm sketches tonight :))))) #im lying of course. there was SOME intent. but i really didnt expect to make this a 'whole' thing #at the very least i just expected to post the sketch and call it a night but I Am Not Tired And I Fear Time Loss So Might As Well #anyway todays inspo for this is uhhhhhhhhhhh heavage LMAO #my guy being SO respectful not to peak... couldnt be me Who Said That #sorry i draw young arasawa so much. it just tickles me cause i get to Reasonably make jo a doofus #yk. before he fully invests himself in The Horrors and becomes a cunt. still love him tho <3 maybe even more cause of it LMAOO #ok i should sleep. but im not going to cause im gonna go work out HAHA BYYYYYEEE #posting this now so i stop looking at it and feeling like i need to add more to it BITCH ITS JUST A SCRIBBLE MOVE ON AND EXERCISE

[skz-miroh]

every hozier song is so fucking crowley-coded that its physically breaking me in half

#crowley #hozier #good omens #aziraphale #take me to church #being the obvious one #its just so fucking crowley coded its actually insane #work song #that one too omfg #unknown / nth #maybe idk #ineffable husbands #neil gaiman #eat your young #how could i forget that one omg #FROM EDEN #OMG HOW DID I FORGET FROM EDEN

[sluttyten]

My afraid-of-romance ass has just been asked by another regular customer for my number and the stupid thing is that again I do think this guy is kinda cute and I really probably should say yes

#the fear tho lmao #what am I afraid of? I have no fucking clue #this is why I’m still questioning my sexuality lol like what am I? do I even actually like guys? do I like anyone? #in an existential spiral at the moment #but honestly why do they always ask for my number #like dude just give me yours and let me make the decision when you’re not right here in front of me #but I felt bad telling him no today just because the last time a customer asked and I said yes I almost immediately regretted it #and then that didn’t work out because I thought he was too young #young* and now he still sometimes comes by and I just feel awkward about it #maybe I should turn to Facebook and see if I can find him because I have set an age limit for myself and I really don’t want to entertain #anyone younger than that #but I’m……… I know I’m like never active in here anymore #but I just needed to talk about this somewhere #because any of my coworkers would probably tell me I’m being ridiculous or they’d just seriously keep questioning why I keep saying no to #customers that hit on me and my best friend would probably also not get it #idk y’all I just needed to rant about it/talk about it #anyway I’m definitely gonna stress over this until tomorrow #and I’m gonna feel really bad if he stops coming by

[hillerskaroyals]

the anatomy of a hug in young royals

there’s a good chance i’m overthinking this but over my last couple rewatches i noticed something interesting about the way wille hugs and gets hugged. i’ve boiled it down to this general rule:

if the intention of the hug is to comfort wille or is for wille in some way, his arms going around the other person’s waist. if wille is hugging someone else for their sake his arms tend to go around their shoulders.

at first i thought this might just be due to height differences but in both seasons edvin is taller than most of the other actors and it does seem to stay pretty consistent across both seasons.

i did a quick rewatch and tried to capture every time wille is hugged/hugs someone and here’s what i found. (this ended up being hella long so the pictures are below the cut)

s1e1 erik is hugging wille to comfort him (arms around waist)

s1e4 felice is hugging wille to comfort him (arms around waist)

s1e4 lilja annette is hugging wille to comfort him (hard to see but i think his arms around around her waist here)

s1e4 wille is hugging simon as thanks for rescuing him (arms around shoulders)

s1e4 simon is hugging wille to comfort him (not really a hug and wille isn’t an active participant but i still think it works)

s1e5 wille is hugging simon for simon (arms around waist but above simon's)

s1e5 simon is hugging wille to comfort him (arms around waist)

s1e6 wille is hugging himself for comfort x2 :(

s1e6 wille is hugging simon for simon to show him he still cares (arms around shoulders)

s2e1 wille is hugging himself in erik’s jacket both as a way to comfort himself as well as to feel close to his brother :(

s2e1 hugging alexander to comfort him/welcome him back to the school (arms around waist)

s2e1 hugging felice bc reasons (tbh probably as thanks for being a good friend and being there for him over break)

s2e4 hugging felice in apology for kissing her (arms around shoulders)

s2e5 hugging simon to comfort him about his decision to go to the police and to comfort him if this is their last chance to be together (arms around shoulders)

s2e5 hugging simon to comfort him following sara’s betrayal (arms around shoulders)

s2e5 kristina hugging wille to comfort him since she found him crying in the stairwell (arms not pictured but assumed to be around waist)

#young royals #the brainrot is brainrotting lads #anyways i don’t really have a ‘point’ here as the kids say i just thought it was an interesting detail #esp since we’ve already talked about the anatomy of their kissing in yr i thought maybe people would find this interesting too! #this is me trying to get back to my analysis roots 😩 #also sorry if this doesnt make sense but its been rattling around in my brain for a min and needs to be freed #this is also me once again being incapable of shutting up in the tags #young royals analysis #my yr thoughts

[ashclouds366]

so i watched fright night and now that i've seen lloyd's va acting as a total bitch, i really kind of want an au where lloyd is a bully.

i know that would be the literal opposite of him (and i love all the trauma and angst that comes with that guy, believe me), but it would just be so interesting. like. he HAS the power to be a bully. he COULD be a bully if he wanted to.

i know a bully au would change what makes lloyd, lloyd. but. just think about it

#I just want more of that actor being a bitch #i loved it so much and now I want to see lloyd being mean #give me a bully lloyd au please #maybe kai and nya's protection of him from a young age went a little further than protecting #maybe they were just a little mean #a little over the top #maybe lloyd got used to it and acted the same #his standing up for himself went a little too far #with the twins violence nobody's gonna stand up to those three right? #idk I haven't thought that far into it #i just think it's a fun concept #bobas posts #rgb siblings #lego ninjago movie #ninjago movie au

[uncanny-tranny]

So I saw this show I used to watch as a kid on a streaming service, Hoarders, and it's about, as you'd assume, people who compulsively hoard.

When I watched that show as a kid, I remember how you were invited to almost... judge these people, "Oh, how could you live like that?! I'm glad that's not my house..." and I remember this shock factor that sunk you into the episode, at least in the early seasons.

I think it's a product of the attitude we have about these sorts of things. When I look at that now, all I see is trauma, people who are suffering, and then essentially being shamed on television, no less. It just feels like watching somebody at their lowest for an hour, recounting trauma, disability, loss and grief, mental illness, and so many things.

#mental health #mental health advocacy #ask to tag #man though... i was super young when i actually watched that series though like this is like maybe 2010 we're talking #and look maybe i'm a hashtag snowflake who is too concerned about this shit but... i'd rather be a snowflake #i just remember the tears and the person who was compulsively hoarding being stressed and pressured #and it just makes me think about how entitled people are about mentally ill people #i'm not saying that these people didn't need help. i'm just saying that a camera crew probably shouldn't be part of it #i think about my worst episodes of mental illness and it's like would i have wanted a camera crew? like even if i had said yes in the past #i just think it's complex and nuanced and that's why i'm not trying to shame anyone about this based on opinion #i concede that i am not an expert and i also can say that i personally don't think it (the show) was done in good faith every time #feel like my words may/will be misinterpreted/misrepresented about this but i hold true #like i tried watching an episode just in case i was wrong and. i was not having a good time. even when the expert they got came on #really didn't like the way she introduced herself with 'ooh i KNEW i came to the right place when i saw the yard' like it was funny :/

[chloeseyeliner]

help, now that i have stopped tearing up at every mention of the series, the young royals forever documentary and the bts videos have brought my past obsession with film-making back-

#beware: rambling ahead!!! #so when i was in high school a secret dream of mine was to go to film school #because i was mesmerised by the whole process of writing and directing and everything the crew typically does during filming #and i was reading so much stuff about all the different angles and symbolism and the like #but of course my mother wouldn't let me #(very neil perry of me lmao) #and i mean i was trying to be realistic too #because i don't come from money and greece is not exactly a great place to be an artist #(since i wouldn't be able to go abroad and chase my dreams or something like that i am not the main character in a disney movie) #so like i threw this dream into the bin along with being an astronaut (i was bad at physics because no one ever explained anything to me- #-before last year of high school i still don't know how i technically aced my uni entering physics exam lol ANYWAY) #and don't get me wrong #i like the path i have chosen now (which was at the beginning at least also against my mother's wishes but she thinks it 'has money' so- #-she 'allowed it' as if- i won't say anything worse i'll regret later i'll just leave it be) #i like it very much because i can help people and maybe contribute to making this world a better place #i just... #i watched the documentary some days ago and it's all i can think about (along with the show of course) #like i LOVE the cast #but the crew is magnificent as well #what they create is like magic #anyway #young royals #filmmaking

[dishsaop]

does anyone have recommendations for fictional media that has like. actual lesbians in it. not like supergirl Two White Skinny Girls, One Blonde and One Brunette Kiss media, or "its implied lesbianism!!!" but just regular fucking lesbians

#i say lesbians but i guess i mean sapphic #im just like. tired of gnawing #and of men also. sorry men in my life i love you but on god if i have to pretend one more man is butch just to get #content that isnt m/m or m/f im going to turn into a horse and run into the wilderness until im saved from the glue factory by a plucky #young woman except instead of letting her have her formative summer where she trains me and bonds w me and wins a competition w me #im going to commit horse suicide in front of her & change her life forever. just because im so tired of bland CW-marketable women kissing & #digging for scraps in a refuse bin while brushing aside 7002993829292929939292929399394 gay and het romances #m text #i will also take nonfictional lesbians if its like a story #not to be whiny on main but one of the hardest hurdles i had to jump wasnt realizing i was a lesbian. i came out to myself and to friends a #lesbian multiple times. but i would always walk it back when a friend would express doubt or a male friend would ask me out #bc i dont and especially then didnt know very many lesbians in person. and so i had to turn to examples #and all i fucking had were fictional women who liked men. or fictional lesbians who were so cleaned and sanitized and prettified #(you all know what i mean right. the 2 skinny white girls one blonde one brunette. im not crazy right) #and i would be like. i dont feel things when i look at these fictional lesbians so i guess i belong back here #(this is also bc my gender ended up being fuckier than i realized but shhhhh) #I WAS GOING SOMEWHERE WITH THESE TAGS but theyre too long and im lost. #anyway the point is if people werent so fucking weird abt fictional or onscreen lesbians maybe thered be a lot more people comfortable bein #out as lesbian #like sorry but this awful ouroboros of 'all lesbians onscreen have to be cute and sanitized' meaning that people write and believe wlw has #to be cute and pure and sanitized (OR a 'badge of honor' bc good for u u doodled two women together or had it as a background in ur fic) #meaning that therefore all portrayals of lesbianism continue to be like this. is just #and im also gonna be honest theres probably a lot of good sapphic media im just in the wrong circles to have stumbled into lol. so #yknow. personal viewer bias here #but i still like swing wildly between overly brandishing my dykeness as a badge to feel like im proving im lesbian #and like. backing up under a blanket bc i dont wanna be weird or annoying or freak people out #but if people just Saw Normal Ass Lesbians. aough. #im going to watch revolutionary girl utena one of these days even if i struggled w the writing style the first few episodes #I JUST WANNA SEE AN OLD BUTCH ONSCREEN GET SOME PUSSY. #like it also doesnt help im mostly femme4butch so seeing 2 femmes on screen is like. okay cool so what. but only femmes are 'marketable'

[samarecharm]

What if i caved and gave Zenkichi gray hairs, huh? What then? How much further will I go? You dont know me. Ill give this man piercings if u dont stop me. Its hot. Im tired of pretending its not- *im dragged offstage kicking and screaming* ITS HOT. DONT LET THEM TELL YOU ITS CRINGE! YOU GAVE HIM LONG HAIR! LET ME GIVE HIM TATS!! 💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥

#chattin #zenkichi #being DRAMATIC #mainly its bc i was thinking of giving my akira grey hairs bc its just a cute lil trait lol #i am biased; i got my greys early. like back when i was 14-15 #and i was like who else could i give that to. maybe haru? bc i have a cousin w her hair type and color that was born w a natural grey spot #kinda like claire (from the now disgraced bon appetit) #and i was like weuuuh. maybe i can give it to zenkichi? and like. ugh. it would fit so well #esp bc he looks like a YOUNG dad; hes not old to me. #so i think the gramps nickname would come from him having visible greys #from genetics but absolutely amplified from stress #the piercing n tat stuff is coincidental. bc i just saw a post for ryuji about and it #and it reminded me that i was still in the process of working on zenkichi and my thots on him #like how i think hes pretty fucking strong (as evident by him continuing to knock out men with ease) #and he hides it w the suits #also the greatsword??? come on. #and the piercing/tats was bc i had MULTIPLE PAs (and NPs) who worked w long sleeves under their scrubs #and they had like. fullblown tattoo sleeves underneath. they were SO pretty; im really envious of the love put into it #and hanging w them after work was like seeing a completely different person. it was cool! i miss them :( #anyway. people like that exist everywhere. i dont think its too extreme to hc. id imagine he never wears his piercings #but u can see the pierces in his ear if he moves his hair too much. #and u will never see his fucking sleeves. he is always on the clock. its just too unprofessional #this is also bc i think it would be cute for ryuji and yusuke to consult him for a good spot to get piercings and tattoos respectively #and they only learn to go to him bc he overhears them talking about it and he doesnt want them to go to some shady place 😭 #‘hey gramps; cool that u got some references but like. how did that happen? 🤔 how did u find them ? 🤔🤔🤔’ #he has to spill it eventually u.u #ryuji does not SHUT up about it. ‘OLD MAN THATS COOL AS HELL. WHAT THE FUCK!’

[todayisafridaynight]

sorry that im obsessed with him <- is not sorry

#snap chats #this is my favorite cutscene in the game it has everything i want and need #i love that first screenshot so much......... top ten frames of ryo aoki ever #i want an aoki photocard of it wahhh hes so cute and pookie </3 #i also like the hand detail we see int he second one....... very nice.... #i love this cutscene cause he gets deadnamed live and thats still the funniest thing to ever happen in rgg to me #'sir youre trending theyre beating your ass in the qrts' DO NOT CARE THAT I MADE THAT JOKE ALREADY. I WAS REAL FOR IT #anyway hes sooooo cuute sorryyy thats my truth #he just looks like a little lad <- hes 43. or wouldve been (;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`) #every time i remember the game being like 'ryo aoki is young as hell to be doing this bullshit' i cakcle #maybe he just /looks/ too young yk... round faces be damned you will never look older than fifteen #i still stand that he constantly looks lke he got a frog in his mouth #oh but. Genuine Appreciation Time it is very cute how this cutscene starts with him lit so well and then just. Dark LOL #VERY OBVIOUS AND EASY SYMOBLISM BUT I DONT CAAARRREEE i always live for it #anyway he cutie patootie awwww i wanna pinch his cheeks and then shove him back into a locker