#maybe tomorrow won't

[confusedkittensposts]

The things is Castiel's story is a tragedy in many ways, any part you pick up it's a fall

May it be pre series, or stopping the apocalypse or the civil war, even the part where he becomes a Father

He is someone who has been manipulated and used and everyone just keeps chipping him away

When we meet him, he is presented as this outwardly, powerful being who everyone is scared of, but you meet him and you realise he is all that but also curious and facinated by the world the around him, it's new to him in many ways, and he still cares about it.

And he has opinions that don't necessarily go with his family but he isn't afraid to state them. He cares about his siblings, he has a relationship of understanding with most of them and mourns them as much as he can.

He judges Dean not based on how dean treats him but what dean does for others.

Castiel is someone who sees his own world fall apart with the rest of it and even when the world for others is saved he can never get back what he lost.

He looses his home, his family, the relationships he had for millions of years, he losses his powers. Like imagine, and I lot don't understand that it's not Cas + powers, he was created with them, he didn't just loose his ability to do some fancy tricks he lost what is equivalent to lossing your senses, your limbs.

Scratch mourning, he isn't even allowed to state the extent of his loss. He is only allowed grief and anger and hurt if it's for the Winchesters.

In Monster at the end of this Book, deanakes it very clear their relationship can only be transactional, he tell Cas if Cas doesn't help his he will never return the favour, and you know what he does after cas helps, and keeps doing for more than a decade he doesn't return the favour

Castiel asked Dean, begged him for trust, for support, more than once but he was mocked and rediculed and told loud and clear that he doesn't get anything, not even basic decency

Dean didn't convince Cas to reble, he ordered it and then got angry because Castiel took more than 30 seconds to give up everything he had known since before the beginning of time.

The Winchesters constantly prove Cas gets a place in the metaphorical table as long as he can bring something, give somthing

The Gadreel excuse is funny, because Gadreel told Dean, Cas couldn't stay. Throwing Cas out with nothing, cutting off communication with him, was Dean's decision, his choice. Because he couldn't spare a second thought for Cas

He learned that he couldn't trust memory, that it's had been violated, he had been violated. They took his memories from him. Do you wonder if it was angels who fought alongside him that took him Naomi when he disobeyed, or if others had to go through lobotomies because of him? Because he asked them to fight with him? Do you think cas did?

Castiel had to watch father look at him and not see him, he had to watch his father come and fight for Earth and Winchesters and not even think about angels.

He had to watch the man he loved point a gun at son's head, he had to watch his father, who turned out to nothing but a cruel, egoestical, uncaring puppeteer, kill his son. He had to watch his son's face being twisted into mockery towards him by a demon, he had burn his son

But it doesn't matter, right? Why would it? What's Castiel's grief, his pain, none of matters right?

Cause at the end of the day the only thing his life and death can be about is Dean Winchester

Because making a disabled, traumatized and suicidal character die, and be happy about it is best damn thing you can do to them

#maybe i am just a broken record #but i know what its like to make someone your everything #someone ypu know will prioritise you #you can never count on #I see it THIS close #castiel #bitter Cas feelings #this night hurts #maybe tomorrow won't #hopefully not as much

[mayasdeluca]

MAYA AND CARINA STATION 19: 7x07 'Give It All'

#station 19 #station 19 spoilers #station19edit #carina x maya #carina deluca #maya bishop #mine #well heres ours i guess! #the lighting is absolute ass by the way #but don't worry the straight parts were nice and bright! #and the coloring sucks because their kitchen is ugly and yellow but thats beside the point #i just...have no words #like the kiss??? why did their mouths barely touch...why can't we get a normal kiss in a 10 pm time slot #what is with the editing in the last gif with the fridge part?? #i don't understand #we got better quality at 8 pm last season #i'm just so upset...probably won't gif anything else tonight maybe tomorrow #this show really knows how to just suck the life out of you

[capn-twitchery]

i was just gonna start thumbnailing for a kiss ask for twitch & the sacristan but i got Really carried away. this isn't even a kiss anymore

#maybe it is a kiss idk what twitch's mouth is doing under there. just pretend it is #this is so self indulgent but i had fun :) #maybe i will add more hands. i probably won't add the sacristan as anything except offscreen hands #bc the arms ar going in too many directions. i don't know where they attach. oops. note to self make the arms less noodley too #THREE arts in one day!!!!! capn-twitchery blog record #well technically it's tomorrow. i was gonna sleep 3 hours ago #wips #twitchery #the second sacristan #i hope this sketch is decipherable. it's 2am ad i'm very tired

[juvian]

''It can be found in quiet mountain areas on a full moon's night. Its dancing and its tiny, faintly glowing wings confer upon it a lovely fairylike quality.''

#alex's gifs #pokemon #clefairy #pokemon legends arceus #pla #pokemon legends #mélofée #pokemonedit #pkmnedit #pokemon gifs #pkmn gifs #clefairy gifs #clefairy edits #rhitag #userdahyun #leksietag #my gifs #gifs #fairy type pokemon #fairy pokemon #mine #last one until maybe tomorrow or wednesday and probably won't do any for a while nndvdnkdnk

[cerise-on-top]

hi<3 if you can, can you do valeria and laswell with a gothic s/o? like someone who likes darker/morbid things and things like that! love your blog by the way! it’s definitely my favorite blog to come look at after a long ass day <333

Hey there! Sorry, but I couldn't really find too much on what counts as dark and morbid in the goth scene, so I wrote more general HCs, I hope that's alright still ^^;

Valeria and Laswell with a Gothic!S/O

Valeria: She’d most definitely be intrigued, but not too much. In all honesty, she doesn’t know too much about the subculture, she’s never really met a goth who was clearly one. However, if it makes you happy, that’s all that matters to her. While she won’t really know too many bands, or any at all, she’d be more than happy to listen to a few if you want her to. Yes, she won’t always have the time, but when she isn’t too busy she could put on some songs by Joy Division or The Cure, she really doesn’t mind. She can vibe to that sort of music, even if it isn’t her favorite. You’re more than welcome to discuss the literature with her, though. She’s probably never read a single gothic literature book, but she can buy you some. Anything from poetry to a regular novel, it’s quite alright. While she won’t be the best person to go to when it comes to discussing those, she’ll support you either way. However, something she could definitely enjoy would be going clothes shopping with you. The fashion is kind of nice, she has to admit, so she’d be more than happy to buy you whatever garments you desire. Will go out of her way to find something you might like as well. I can’t see her being too much into the history of goth culture, though. It’s nice that you are a goth, if you want to tell her about it, then you can and she’ll listen to you, but she likely doesn’t have the time to research everything by herself. Tell her about its roots and she can definitely appreciate you going against what’s mainstream and how it all came to be. She’s a very defiant and rebellious woman herself, so she definitely gets it.

Laswell: She knows so many people, I wouldn’t be surprised if she has worked with goths before. And even if she hasn’t directly, she’s likely seen quite a few walking around the city. She usually grows worried for them in summer since their attire is black, which makes it quite hot. However, she’d be very intrigued by you and your subculture. It’s something very near and dear to you, so she would put in the effort to learn about your history. Will give some classic bands a listen as well. She just really wants to have something to talk about with you. Besides, she gets to learn more about you. While she may not be the biggest fan of your interest in death, considering she’s surrounded by it more often than not, she’d be more than happy to indulge anything else it has to offer. Laswell spent a good chunk of life left alone with her thoughts, so she definitely knows a thing or two about melancholy, the state of the world and introspection. Maybe not in the same way you do, but she can definitely keep up in a conversation. She’s likely also unintentionally read some of the more popular gothic novels out there and liked them, so she’d make for a good discussion partner as well. While she doesn’t particularly understand the need to make your face completely white, she doesn’t mind. In fact, she thinks it looks quite cool, even if it’s not for her. However, the fashion in and of itself looks really good to her. Again, she wouldn’t want to wear it, but something about Victorian and Edwardian fashion has a certain something to it that she can’t quite place. Like Valeria, she’ll definitely buy you things she thinks you might like. Anything from a suit or a corset to a book about poetry. Beware, though, she will read the books before you can.

#cod #cod x reader #valeria garza #valeria garza x reader #kate laswell #kate laswell x reader #I am so incredibly tired so I'm sorry if this is bad #the day I'm writing this is Monday and I worked for nine hours today which wasn't very fun #I'll be working for nine hours tomorrow again and I'm not looking forward to that but I need that overtime #I've never met a goth before so I don't even know anyone I could ask about it #I know an emo or two but that's not the same #still I gave the music a listen and I gotta say it sounds pretty good #I can see Valeria indulging you in your morbid things though. if you collect animal bones she can definitely acquire some #whether it be through roadkill or ethically killed animals #Laswell wouldn't be too big of a fan of having bones at home but she won't stop you either #she'll just tell you to keep them somewhere she won't necessarily have to see them all the time #she's not squeamish but she prefers to not think about death too much outside of work. she gets enough of it on the daily #Laswell would be more media literate than Valeria though. she's definitely analyzed some poems for fun when she was younger #Valeria doesn't have the time to read too much into something. or read a book at all. a poem maybe but that's it she won't read into it

[undeadchestnut]

"Don't you worry about a thing, Prudence my girl. Uncle Scrooge will take good care of you, I'm sure."

Jacob Marley and his emotional lifeline dogs. 🐶

#jacob marley #ebenezer scrooge #scrooge a christmas carol #scrooge 2022 #netflix scrooge #prudence #I had some thoughts/commentary for each of these but I'm tiiiired now #maybe I'll write something tomorrow maybe I won't lol #anyway look at how this blorbo has consumed my thoughts

[esaari]

honk

#idk if this fandom is alive anymore but here's burnt toast man #shall i tag this shit.......... sure lets tag this shit #payday 2 #payday #hoxton #was thinkin about how therell be another one of these games and felt the sudden urge to draw the fave again #payday tumblr sure was fun to be part of back in the day #anyways i'm off to bed... been insanely tired today and hopefully i'll get to some of the art on my to do list #tomorrow i meant to say. hope to get to it tomorrow lol #i have some nice ones there. though. mostly ones i won't be able to post here lmfao #maybe throw in oc with pride flag thing on this list so i'll have sth posting worthy. #in a non related note at the end here i just finished playing tlou on the pc and it was so much fun... never did finish it on the console #just watched others play through it #i smell an AU but i'll keep that to myself because whomst cares #honk honk good night

[le-panda-chocovore]

Kinda meta but. Satosugu on both ends.

[ ID in ALT ]

Let me elaborate.

Teenagers SatoSugu is the cutest thing ever. They're the only one who are able to catch up with the other. They're the strongest together. They are pieces of a puzzle that fit perfectly. They complete each other, they understand each other, they help each other and more importantly, they love each other. No one else can follow the path of Gojo Satoru and makes him feel human other than Suguru. No one else can bring a genuine smile on Geto Suguru's face and makes his life worth living fully other than Satoru. They're the epitome of young exorcists.

Adults Satosugu are the messiest divorced couple ever. Satoru cannot love without consuming entirely the person. Suguru cannot be saved because he's already gone too far. They are soulmates and cannot live without the other. They have been separated for years. They cannot kill each other, they cannot be with each other. They never forgot the other. Their breakup happened eons ago and they still consider the other as their one and only. And they make it everyone else's problem. Because Satoru wasn't able to burn Suguru's body, the Shibuya Incident happened. Because Suguru's memories of Satoru were so strong, Kenjaku was able to make his plan and seal the strongest sorcerer. Every one of their choices and words and actions was just an I love you so fucking loud that it doomed the universe to destruction.

#jjk #gojo satoru #geto suguru #sugusato #stsg #jujutsu kaisen #ship tropes #shipping #analysis #there's more to say honestly but i don't have the strengh right now to break myself more #also english isn't my first language and I'm getting too tired to write a dissertation #this is not just a dichotomy of kid's innocence and adult's trauma #this is way more deep than that #so maybe i'll continue it tomorrow #i know this is my own personal interpretation of the ship #i know many people won't agree and this is fine #please do not insult me. give your own point of you if you want but do not attack me. #if you find this stupid you can just scroll down

[nikoisme]

I COULD be wrong but oh my god i think we might do The Iliad and/or The Odyssey in class tomorrow :0

#we made an introduction to like. ancient greek literature. #but we had a test last week so maybe we won't do it if she brings them tomorrow #but STILL. #niko rambles

[that-foul-legacy-lover]

Childe loves it when you call him nicknames or terms of endearment. he's the one who started it first, playfully calling you "comrade" when you first became friends and transitioning into softer words, like "love" or "starlight". he adores seeing you duck your head, lightly punching him in the shoulder as you mutter about how mushy he is. yet you're unable to hide the small smile on your face and the warmth in your cheeks, and with a laugh he'd sweep you off your feet into a hug, brushing the tip of his nose with yours and grinning cheekily. you'd always sigh, flustered from his blatant displays of affection but a little pleased all the same. once Childe got stuck in Foul Legacy though, he lost his voice and with it, his ability to call you sweet nicknames. he tries, he really does, even if you don't ask him to, but it's a struggle to even say your name, the words getting stuck in his throat and coming out as sobs until you rush over and wrap your arms around him, hushing him gently and stroking his hair. you tell him that it's alright, you know what he's trying to say, but he hates the wordless whines and trills that come out of his throat. so to fill the silence, you begin to come up with names of your own. you're not naturally talkative, so at first they simply stayed in your head as you gazed at Childe, affection shining in your eyes, until the day you were snuggling, Childe happily nudging his head against your hands to the point you nearly tripped and fell over. "Sweetheart, please!" it slipped out as you laughed, the weight on your hands immediately vanishing as Childe pulled back and stared at you in shock and awe, before his single crystalline eye filled with tears and he pressed his head to your chest, whimpering and hiccupping not in sadness, but in overwhelming joy. since then you often use terms of affection, singing them into the house when you return home from work, errands, anything- everything from "sweetheart" to "my darling" to the playful "Sir Fluff". and Childe adores it to say the least, preening and happily fluttering his wings in pride, because it reminds him that he's your beloved Abyssal moth, that there is someone who loves him and doesn't think he's a monster. if you're ever cuddling and you mumble one of you nicknames, his purring increases by a factor of at least 10. and when you're asleep, he practices, whispering over and over again. something simple, to not strain his voice, but still with all the affection he holds for you- "my love, my love, my love, my love"- so that maybe one day he can say it back to you again.

#genshin impact #childe #tartaglia #gi ajax #foul legacy #foul legacy childe #genshin tartagalia #genshin childe #genshin tartaglia #genshin x reader #childe x reader #I HAVE SO MUCH TO SAY ABOUT THIS BUT I AM TIRED..... #i was playing lobotomy corp because i am. stressed #i have something to do tomorrow that's making me very nervous eugrgiogfkdf #ok wifi don't think about it or you won't be able to sleep...... #maybe once i am not nervous i will elaborate more on this #wifi's brainrot #short scenario

[beneathsilverstars]

Oops.. I already wrote the Isabeau friendquest song... Guess I'm doing this!!

I don't usually share much about songs I'm working on, but this project is so big, I'll lose it if I'm not posting some sorta WIPs... so here are the lyrics (subject to change ofc)!

(Isabeau) Lying under the stars With you I don’t know them But I want to Tell me all of their stories Old and new I want to hear them From you (Siffrin+Isabeau) Lying under the stars With you You don’t know me But I want you to Tell me all of your stories Old and new I want to hear them (Isabeau) I used to know it all, I used to be shy I changed myself into a lovable tough guy But I promise this isn’t all that I can up be If I changed again, would you lo- like me (spoken) Isabeau: It doesn't feel great, when people think I’m stupid just because I act a certain way. So… I might change to be a mix between a jock and a nerd. Someone who’s both strong and smart. Doesn't that sound like someone you wouldn't feel ashamed of knowing? Siffrin: Isa… I have never felt ashamed of knowing you. Not even a little bit. Isabeau: Heh, you're gonna make me blush, Sif! And, well… You know I feel the same, right? (Isabeau) Your jokes are puntastic, your laughter so bright When you talk about the theatre, your smile’s such a sight When you pause for breath, I want to breathe with you too You’re the coolest person I know, I lo- love spending time with you (Siffrin+Isabeau) Lying under the stars With you You could know me I could know you Tell each other our secrets Old and new I want to share them With y- (spoken) Bonnie: Aha! See, I told you they’d be here!

#wow writing lyrics goes a lot faster when i'm not constantly scrapping lines for being 'too much like something from a musical' lmao #not actually super confident in the quality here since it went through so few iterations??? #like i'm happy w it now but maybe tomorrow i won't be #but this is such a big project that i will have PLENTY of chances to go back and tweak this. lol #isat #isat spoilers #isafrin

[boxenstopp]

bb + yike | i couldn't stop thinking about this? from here

#ignore the coloring it literally looks like trash #who let me edit when i should be sleeping (need to get up early tomorrow) #bb #brokenblade #yike #hans sama #mikyx #i suppose #lol stuff #my gifs #they have a bunch of cute moments in those couple seconds btw #maybe ill gif them tomorrow (99% won't)

[starfleetspectre]

Your art is amazing (Mass Effect my beloved) and your Crosshair thirst trap has absolutely wrecked me. If you feel like doing more of The Bad Batch, I'd love to see Hunter or Tech.

since i've gotten more bad batch requests (mostly for tech) i'll just use this one as a thirst trap

#shhh i don't like drawing armor #i have work tomorrow so i won't be doing anymore requests till next week maybe #the bad batch #tech

[kira-light0]

Fifth redraw: Frank and Margaret

Prev. Next.

(Reference under the cut)

#mash #m*a*s*h #mash 4077 #frank burns #margaret houlihan #traditional art #my art #screencap redraw #The “can't draw mouths slightly open” curse strikes again #I was going to redraw draw a Hawkeye image since he makes up a good chunk of my mash pics #but I can't seem to make him even slightly recognizable #Maybe I'll try again tomorrow #Kind of rushed this one though. sorry #(Whoops just noticed I drew Frank's eyes in different directions) #(Well I guess i'll just leave it like that. I'm too tired to fix it today and I won't care enough to fix it tomorrow)

[magicinverse]

You know us tripones (Roier's chat) have complain that he has a soft heart, that he forgives to easily, we also said that we wanted to see him get mad at someone that hurt him and actually stay mad for a while and do something about it

WE DIDN'T MEAN CELLBIT!!!! WE MEANT EVERYONE BUT CELLBIT

#qsmp #qsmp roier #This is our Karma #In the qsmp at least #It has been just a day #Maybe tomorrow he won't be mad anymore #But I'm still making a drama out of it

[dapg-otmebytheballs]

"unspoken phannie rules" is funnee but tbh the phrase "unspoken rules" scares me shitless. Please speak your rules, I'm autistic and know none of them ever, like, EVER

#also if you tell me One thing like 'dont do this'/'dont speak this way to me' i will Not be able to apply your logic to other instances #sorry some of us are worse at unspoken rules than others even within auties #engage in good faith you guys. saw some concerning fandom posts (about other fandoms) that scared me today lol #'if you talk this way it tells me you hate me' kinda nonsense. babe I know none of the tones ever #you can tell me it about one thing and I'll still misspeak about something else tomorrow. pls support auties in fandom #in a Real Sense. accomodate our symptoms. engage in good faith #evem if you are Nd/autistic yourself. maybe there's something you Understand™ that I personally won't get no matter how i try