#mortifying ordeal etc.

[noisyghost]

woof

#OC #ark #something something the mortifying ordeal of being known etc etc #this started as vent art but idk what feeling it is now #i actually think ark is really good about not ruining his clothes but its sexier this way u know #werewolf

[machineryangel]

— s.r.m. @belovedbi

[ID: All daughters turn into blood thirsty hounds— after years of licking their own wounds and biting their tongue. /end ID]

#mortifying ordeal of sharing your writing etc etc. #words #wretched mirrors #yazılarım #<- this is my tag for my original writing #a child weaned on poison

[delusioninabox]

Daily #2,516! Entering my ✨ self-confident ✨ and ✨ blessed to be boring ✨ era.

#daily #comic strip #comic #personal #me #that is growth #who knew #not me #but happy to be here #no regrets and etc #the mortifying ordeal of knowing yourself

[wilyserpentofeden]

Having feelings about "I won't be forgiven. Not ever. Part of a demon's job description, unforgivable, that's what I am." and two "I forgive you"s from an angel. Crowley might wish he was not unforgivable, but he does not want to be forgiven, forgiveness will never ever change what came before even if he gets twice as much back as he lost. He still suffered that loss, and he will always suffer it, it's a part of him now. He just wants someone to look at him, see him fully as a bitter, grumpy, closed-off demon who loves plants and naps and driving too fast in his car, who drinks a bit too much wine and coffee, who dresses like a flash bastard and has an imagination and asks too many questions and gets scared and miserable and furiously angry, who is an optimist, who isn't really evil, but isn't perfectly good either, he wants someone to see his good side and his bad side and love him anyway. Unforgivable, maybe, imperfect, sure, but not unlovable, that's what he wants. So maybe next time, his angel will look at him and say what he actually wants to hear.

#sorry I projected onto Crowley too hard again folks lmao #lotta feelings about this fucker. lotta feelings and all of them hurt. #the mortifying ordeal of being known etc etc do you know i could break beneath the weight #gos2 spoilers #good omens season 2 spoilers #good omens spoilers #crowley #good omens

[ragesingoddess]

Perhaps one did not want to be loved so much as to be understood.

If we want the rewards of being loved we have to submit to the mortifying ordeal of being known.

1. These violent delights by Micah Nemerever| 2. A place where someone loves you by Neil Hilborn| 3. Interview with the vampire (2022-)| 4. Call Down the Hawk by Maggie Stiefvater| 5. Hannibal (2013-2015)| 6. On earth we’re briefly gorgeous by Ocean Vuong| 7. 1984 by George Orwell | 8. Fight Club (1999)| 9. Black Sails (2014-2017)| 10. Circe by Madeline Miller| 11. Hannibal (2013-2015)| 12. Tim Kreider

#thread #web weaving #hannibal #these violent delights #micah nemerever #circe #call down the hawk #black sails #interview with the vampire #iwtv #fight club #ocean vuong #on earth we're briefly gorgeous #george orwell #the mortifying ordeal etc etc #trc #pynch

[beaft]

today marks the third time in a month i've been clocked as ADHD by someone i met approximately ten minutes ago

#be shh now #the mortifying ordeal etc etc

[winterrlunarhalo]

There’s so much to tell you and I’m frankly running out of time

Quantum entanglement tells us that quantumly connected particles can never be described by themselves, even when they’re miles apart from each other. Simply put, this means that an action on one of the particles will invariably affect the other, no matter the distance between them. Albert Einstein called this “spooky action at a distance”.

“Hyper independence is a response to trauma”, you read out from WebMD while squeezing my hand, shocked at the fact that hurt from others can lead you to rely on self and no one else. the squeeze on my hand finally makes Schrödinger’s cat experiment makes sense. I feel alive and dead at the same time.

We lean on each other and I’ve been thinking about it. The science behind it. Turns out that we once were very lonely people and the heaviness of it all tends to lead us to settle on other seemingly lean, warm things.

You tell me that being known is the most horrible thing you can think of because it’s self confrontation of things that you already know about yourself from someone else’s mouth. Mortifying. You tell me this while I dim out the lights after sunset because your mom always did so when you were small and you felt happy because you knew your dad would come home in an hour and you say this while I touch your back and you straighten it on reflex because you’ve been trying to fix your posture. My point is that I know you and my point is that I still love you.

I want to write like I did when I was 15. Like no one was watching. I want to live like I did when I was 8. Why is being loved associated with being seen? I want to be loved when I’m not seen. I remember way too much and I know way too little and I write something and everything is somehow always the same thing. I wanted to know everything but now knowing is doing me absolutely no good. I want to say less self depreciating jokes but then I say “ravioli ravioli give me the death I deservioli” like it’s not an overused twitter reaction photo and you laugh so hard and for a split second all I feel is alive.

There’s so much to tell you and I’m running out of time so please just ask me to stay.

Meanwhile, Einstein shakes his head and calls it spooky action at a distance when you smile at me telling you over video call that I gave up and called an electrician to fix the exhaust fan.

quantum entanglement

Artwork by Holly Warbuton

#original writing #original post #original fiction #writing #quantum entanglement #quantum physics #molecules #albert einstein #hyper independence #nerd #nerd alert #schrodinger #the mortifying ordeal etc etc #the mortifying ordeal of being perceived #mortifying ordeal of being known #lovecore #love poetry #me and who #holly warburton #web weaving

[butchfriend]

the only thing worse than sending a risky text is sending a risky email

#my posts #asking for poetry recommendations and if we can meet up for lunch. like a fool #these are normal things that normal people do!! but i feel so deeply weird asking for it 😭 #i just like talking to them so much. but idk if that's reciprocated to the same degree #oh well. the mortifying ordeal etc.

[sylvanas-girlkisser]

Fun fact: autism no likey the "tell us about yourself" part of signing up for a dating app

#valk yelling at clouds #mortifying ordeal of being known etc etc

[ampleappleamble]

*extremely vatnir voice* i'm here

#summoned by the dinner bell #mortifying ordeal of being known etc and so forth

[nimarts]

Hi friends and mutuals... I am looking for new Discord servers to join!! It's been a long time since I've been a part of an active one and I'd like to branch out and meet new people again :)

MY RESUME:

Tell me about your OCs/favorite characters and I'll send you funny posts and songs that make me think of them

I also have OCs giving me brainrot and I'd love to share

full of fun facts about sharks

I have funny work stories almost every day (bougie grocery store)

I am very drama-free. I'm chilling 99% of the time

let's be autistic and transgender... together!

Thanks for considering your local neighborhood Nim!!!!!!!

#nim.txt #i've been on the fence abt making this post for a while because it felt desperate but FUCK IT!! #i wanna make friends/reconnect with old ones... i miss being goofy online with people #mortifying ordeal of being known etc etc

[giroshane]

An AU where everything is exactly the same--except Dana Scully is a werewolf. When grief and loneliness cause one too many slip-ups, it's time for Mulder to learn the truth. Unfortunately, the hard way.

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Aaaaaaaa, finally diving headlong into X-files fanfic! And instead of Canva (or, just Canva) this time around a specific image seized my brain, so I painted a whole-ass cover for this fic to boot 😂

Please read and enjoy my apparent inability to take in a piece of media and not go "what if there was a werewolf in it" (in this case, even moreso than the source material, lol).

#x files #msr fanfic #dana scully #fox mulder #msr #screaming crying throwing up (the mortifying ordeal of being known etc etc) #giro writes #giro draws #ignore the typo in the link lksadflksa i fixed it

[werewolf-transgenderism]

character study but it's studying me back

#mortifying ordeal of recognizing the self through the other etc #my boy can fit so many of my inadequacies and anxieties and deeply rooted self-loathing in there

[northern-passage]

"Noel compliments their scars, Clementine admires their muscles/strength and can quite literally grope the hunter's bicep in the lift (lol), and there are times where Merry can call the hunter "cute" in a way that is clearly meant to both annoy and fluster them."

Meanwhile Lea: You snore (affectionate)

:')

they're trying their best

#lea is only suave with strangers #they don't know how to act when you Know them #the mortifying ordeal of being perceived etc #ask #miniatureanxiouscat

[deep-space-lines]

I need to kidnap a neurosurgeon and hold them captive in my basement and force them to perform a surgery to remove the part of my brain that tells me my stupid little fanfiction isn't worth sharing with the world unless it's written with a level of skill, artistry, and depth that puts Crime and Punishment by Fyodor Dostoevsky to shame

#i wish i could bring the same energy of 'i dont think i can draw this... you know what that means. it'll just have to look bad!' to writing #the mortifying ordeal of being known etc etc #ive never posted any writing online ever apart from forum roleplays with my girlfriend when we were 15 lmao #ive been too anxious to like ever actively interact with fandom(tm) as a concept until now #but i kind of wanna post things #but i am also. afraid #at least the mass effect fandom isnt as scary as star trek. star trek is a senior citizen. mass effect can drive but it can't vote yet

[nejackdaw]

Nine Five people you'd like to know better

Tagged by @thana-topsy Hi lol 👋 wasn't expecting this (/lh)

[3 Ships]

1) Celann and Charlotte. (holding them in my hands) my babies. I love they

2) I'll honestly just put it out there, Chriscariot. That album rewired my brain. The absolute gay yearning. Did you guys know about the Gospel of Judas. I've been so normal on Tumblr. Not in real life. Not in the slightest. Bible fandom has some fun stuff

3) the Mo/Resa/Dustfinger/Roxanne polycule. I am correct.

[First Ship]

I actually think that's gonna have to be Zuko/Sokka. Except I was unaware of what shipping was at the time because I was young and offline. I did think they should go out tho.

[Last Song]

Funeral Derangements (Ice Nine Kills.) Honestly surprised it wasn't something off the Judas album

[Currently Reading]

Inkheart. Again. Yes I finished the series and turned right around and started it again. I did finish The man Born to be King last night tho. Haven't seen the original JCS but yeah. That Judas and 2012 Arena Tour Judas 🤝

[Last Film]

..... Highlander.... I caught a glimpse of it a while ago and there was this cunty old man. I immediately called Bread over and well. There was not as much of him in the film as we hoped. What did we watch (hello??? Plot??? Please???) That goth guy was having the time of his life tho honestly good for him. What a bizarre experience.

[Currently Craving]

The arrival of the books I ordered. I'm gonna be so real. I am so impatient for them to arrive. Even ignoring the fact that Mortimer (my darling little blue jay plush) is being shipped to God knows where (it's Rhode Island. I feel it in my bones that for some reason another package has been redirected to Rhode Island.) Other than that, uh... draw juice. Would like to draw thing

[Tags]

Gonna tag @argisthebulwark @fabeong @greeneyed-thestral @forpiratereasons and @snake-snack-stede my beloved mutuals 🌹 hi guys :)

#asks #as someone who also has a lil skyrim guy: love to see it #love seeing your art too the style is so nice #anyway uh #yall i am so unwell about judas. can you tell #fucking deranged #i am once again saying if any of you like gothic metal that you should listen to the lord of the lost judas album #like im probably about to while i wait for my books #and MORTIMER #who i SWEAR has GOT to be headed to RHODE ISLAND #if i had two nickels etc etc #theres not much inkheart merch so YES i bought a blue jau plush and named him mo #genius move #the unfortunate curse of liking obscure 2000s book series #(head in my hands) yall i still need to make my celann thoughts coherent so i can share them its kinda killing me #forgot to add #tag game #okay ive stared at this long enough. forget the mortifying ordeal of being known. fuck it we post