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hewwo ! im vv new to fairy tail (started watching it w my bff maybe a year or so ago bc its her fav (then i only got super attached like a month ago)) and i wanna follow a bunch of ft blogs so i can fill my dash up w it! but i havent found many :(( any suggestions? artists especially would be great
Hey hey hey, Sorry it took me a lil bit to answer you, i've been uh, ive been havin one heck of a week.
But ya know, welcome to FT 👉😎👉, glad theres still new peeps jumping into it still.
I can't give you a super definite list, but i can give you a few peeps off the top of my head:
@kiliinstinct <- i gotta of course, plug my good good comrade, my braincell homie. They mostly write (current fic of focus is Flame's Desire, check it out 😏) but they also draw from time to time! And theyre gettin better every day
@pencilofawesomeness <- Pencil's blog is a bit multi fandom but! Their FT art tag has got tons of good stuff in there and i got a particular fondness for how they draw Natsu tbh. (Also they write fic as well, How To Raise Your Dragon Slayer which is their ongoing one *wink wink*)
@silken-sails <- Silky, nother good comrade (even tho theyre british rip😔). Super unique n stylized art style tbh.
@grayseyebrowscar <- Milo my insane comrade. 'Nother combo fic writer and artist. Their fics lean a lil more to silly good times which is always fun lol. Fun fics, fun art (its very shaped) . Win win 👍
@oryu404 <- Stingue expert with top notch colouring 👌👌👌
@celestialrayna <- Another Sting and Rogue expert, has a rlly cute chibi style.
@acnologias-ass <- probs one of the cutest art styles out there.
@zai-doodles <- literally god tier FT character redesigns
@heartonxions <- gajevy and just a team shadowgear afficiando overall. They keep giving Gajeel more piercings and i love it lol
@crowind1 <- the blog for Acnologia art.
Also, of course, I gotta plug the blogs i help run that can help you find other FT blogs easier:
@fairytail-redraw (where lotsa artists take a shot a redrawing the prompts of the month)
@ft-reboost (blog that reblogs art and fic to help give em more love)
@theguildawards (fandom awards event that you can skim through and see the lists of past nominees and winners)
But there's only so many blogs i can remember off the top of my head 😅
So if any other FT artists or fic writers wanna promo their own blog or you got some FT blogs you wanna reccomend as well feel free to reblog this and promo em 👍
i'm so sorry it took me so a while to get to this ㅠㅠ partly bc i suck at thinking of cutesy awards to hand to my mutuals but here we go anyway~
p.s. i'm an actual Sap that says way too much so i'm hiding all this under a cut 🧍♀️
@hwanghyunjinenthusiast — i'm giving you the #1 hypeman award bc you're always so supportive of all the writers in the community 💘 literally every time i see your feedback towards both mine and other ppl's fics i smile a little bc u'll always be part of the reason why people would want to stay and do what they love doing on this hellsite 😽
(i'll also hand you the homie award bc you put up with each and every one of my antics whether it's spite writing or my shenanigans with skz 🤩🤩 our moot means sooo much to me, i hope we remain pals for a long, long time 🛐)
@toruro — you get the social butterfly award bc you're very interactive and easygoing to speak with 🦋 it's always a neat and dandy day whenever i see mika toruro sliding into my inbox to ask about my day. you're the sweetest, always 💘
@multi-kpop-fanfics — you're more than worthy of the best supporter award 🥇 because you almost always read my stuff moments after i post em 😭 i'll also be handing you a phd in making me lose my mind because i have not forgotten that one time i binged through the zeta fic discography (that and i'm still suffering from irreversible psychic damage courtesy of half past five high🧍♀️)
@duhnova — you immediately get the enabler award bc we always egg each other on to spend exorbitant amounts of money for little kpop boys printed on paper 🤒 an additional would be the (talks a lot) (listens) award bc you're always there to hear out everything i air out under the sun 🥹🥹 i hope you know that i'll gladly do the same for you 💘💐
@sluttyminghao — definitely the top contender for the all in a day's work award bc damn ?? you're always so consistent with putting out content?! i will actually fight every single ingrate in your inbox with my bare hands bc it takes so much dedication to cater to all the reqs you receive 🥹
@junkissed — june junkissed gets the osmosis award bc i swear i didn't love jun as much as i do now that we're mutuals 🧍♀️ it's your effect, i believe
@cheolhub — you're getting the nation's sweetheart award bc everyone is absolutely enamored w you (myself included <3) both ur moots and anons would do anything for you i fear ! 💐💐
@gyukult — gyu deserves the holy shit how did we become friends award bc i still can't believe u're in my dms talking abt cute merch w me when i was Just losing my mind over ybny a few weeks ago ㅠㅠ
@rubyreduji — *hands you the life of the dash award* bc you always fill my dashboard with ur shenanigans (along w mika) nd it's nice seeing fellow writers just vibing~ i'd love to talk to you more 🤝🤝
(p.s. sheep in wolf's clothing did a number on my wellbeing so i hope you're ready to take responsibility for your actions)
@etherealyoungk — i would like to give you the refreshing award bc every time i see you on my dash, i just think oh it's skye, i hope they're having a nice day ^_^ bc ur vibe just generally puts me in a good mood for some reason ASKJDKA
@97-liners — i actually thought abt it for a while if i should tag you bc i didn't wanna seem overly familiar but i'm awarding you the funniest person to ever exist in caratblr award bc i eat up your text posts like i've got munchies 24/7 🧍♀️
(i've always been a liiittle reluctant to interact bc surprise i'm actually capable of being shy ! but i'm shooting my shot now bc you're cool and i really love how your humor translates to your writing as well 🥰)
i reaaally wanted to make this stuff w all my mutuals but the brain is Not braining so lmk if you'd like one nd i'll personally write you a love letter on top of the silly little award i'd give out 😽
so - i've ran beargraphs ( and extension other graphic blogs ) as pretty much a free resource for a fair bit now. of course, i love helping people out & i love being flexible with people, but the fact of the matter is that it unfortunately can no longer be done.
for the record, i work pretty much full-time hours in a very physically arduous job - i'm exhausted around 90% of the time - and while this doesn't deter me from doing commissions ( and doing my best to do them fast! ) it does mean that i have certain time not to be able to do certain things.
a constant issue that i have experienced both on this blog ( and my old blog ) was people simply not filling out the form properly. i don't mind, at all, flexibility with clients and i am entirely understanding when it comes to lesser-known characters or obscure muses - but, i can't spend hours upon hours trawling the web for images of characters i don't know. this increases my work time by a substantial amount and always runs this risk of me still choosing the wrong image.
i beg of those commissioning me; please - please, provide me with images of your character. a good amount at a fair quality.
the other rule i have changed is blockquotes in my behemoth packages; bqs are a strange world to get into because some people who commission me simply have no need for them. as a result, i have decided to make them 'request only'. they will no longer be automatically included within any package, unless specifically asked for.
the final & biggest rule change - is that this blog is no longer 'pay what you want'. i still have tried to make my prices very cheap but i simply can't get by doing hours upon hours of work anymore for essentially nothing. this isn't a jab at anyone, this isn't me going back on my word. i, myself, am poor. i know the struggles of dealing with money and - as always - stated, i am understanding when it comes to money troubles. but...being commissioned for at least five hours of work and being paid nothing at the end of it, unfortunately - just isn't worth my time.
( i create free themes with the intention of helping those out who can't directly necessarily comm me )
in future - prices will be the set prices that you see on this blog and on my form. however, if you run into problems financially - i am more than happy to negotiate with you.
all in all; these really aren't changes that i wanted to make and this isn't a post that i wanted to plop on the dash because i understand it's a little grumpy. it's purely from the perspective of someone being overly busy with very little reward & in all honesty, i have found myself incredibly burnt out regarding commissions in the last few months as a result of these tiny things that are easily corrected.
so yeah - ! that's the long, waffly post - !
tldr; prices are now set, blockquotes are available only request & i BEG people to full out the commission form as concisely and clearly as possible! thank you~!
SCARLET: You have influenced my decision/thoughts on something.
MAROON: You taught me something new.
PERIWINKLE: You make me laugh
MAUVE: You are really talented
BLUSH: Seeing you on my dash makes my day a little better.
INDIGO: I’ve been following you for a long time
FUCHSIA: Your blog content is gold
VERMILION: You make me feel passionate
HONEYDEW: I want to call you by a nickname
LAVENDER: You inspire me
UMBER: I want to know more about you
RAZZMATAZZ: I would share my favorite food with you
ARSENIC: I don’t know how to describe the way I feel about you
SAFFRON: I love your ideas
TIMBERWOLF: I trust you
PLUM: I’d like to chat with you
TANGERINE: I love your aesthetic
SAGE: You make me cry
CRIMSON: We should collaborate on something!
VIRIDIAN: I wanna hang out on your blog
CHARTREUSE: You’re my homie
BURGUNDY: I get excited when I see posts from you
[ Thinking Of You / Accepting ]
My dear friend, I share virtually all of these sentiments with you. You're one of those rare gems that makes me feel like seeking friendship in places like this is worth the effort. You're one of my earliest followers and you've held fast, even when others (including myself) have lacked the consistency you offer. Everyone should be so lucky as to have someone as wonderful and supportive as you in their lives. So I count myself as incredibly fortunate that I've got you to fill that role.
[ heart ]
There are certain words Beth cannot enunciate properly, a by-product of her hearing disorder. There's some words she doesn't say, and hasn't even tried, not since Andy died. And a lot of the time she's terrified that Chris will think the wrong thing, that he'll give up on her too.
She isn't out of breath now at the top of the hill from their hike. Rather, it's the weight of everything built up in her chest as they stand there, looking at each other rather than the view. So she takes up his hand and puts it to her chest, hoping he can feel rather than hear.
Chris wouldn't exactly consider himself a polyglot. Aside from knowing a wee bit of Japanese, Korean, Yiddish, and some Greek with just a dash of ASL. Even then, that was for customers whose first language wasn't English or maybe possessed a hearing disorder. The baker was only fluent in two languages. Spanish, no doubt thanks to growing up in a proud Columbian home.
Second? Quiet. When you have a talkative sister, you learn how to communicate without saying too much. A tug at the shirt for worry. Small smile for excitement. A head shake or sour face for disapproval. Even before the Luna siblings move to Arizona, they formed their own little language.
'We're hanging out with my homie, Andy. He's bringing his sister and from what I hear, you two speak the same quiet language.'
So by the time Chris met Beth, he felt an instant understanding. Even with a few hiccups, the baker managed to understand most if not all of what Beth was saying. Even after Andy passed, Chris had a feeling some words might be hard to get out. He'd be lying if he didn't feel the same.
A hike was perhaps a way for them to finally communicate how they felt. At the very least east some tension. Even after some confirmation of shared feelings, the twice-shy duo found it hard to say that one simple word. One out of not wanting to make the other uncomfortable, the other out of uncertainty.
Despite this, Chris enjoyed their walk up the highest point in the desert heat. While he had a love for the windy city and Beth's home near the water, the climb reminded him how beautiful the city of Arizona truly was. As evidenced by the wide-eyed smile once he got a full few of the city.
But nothing. Nothing would compare to the beauty of seeing Beth's smile. Brown hues met her green and jade irises for an eternal moment, unaware that she grabbed his hand and placed it on her chest. A cherry red blush soon fills those chubby cheeks, eyes darting between his hand and eyes.
'You two speak the same quiet language'
At this moment, the baker got the message. Loud and clear. Soon a soft, dorkish grin forms at his lips as he returns her action. Softly placing her hand on his chest.
"I feel the same," he finally speaks as he presses a small kiss on her hand. "I'm glad we waited until we got to the top to finally say it."
an ind & private dual rp blog for E.ULA L.AWRENCE & Y.ELAN of h.oyoverse's genshi.n impac.t . while based in the genshi.n universe ( main verse ) & following the storyline these two will be primarily headcanon based with pulling bits of lore from the game . minors dni . racism , sexism , transphobia , biphobia , & any other gross behavior will not be tolerated . it's yo girl monte ( she / her ) 30+ .
this blog uses beta editor & is dash only . not affiliated with the rpc . iconless .
RULES
BE COOL no hate of any kind . but especially no racisim , homophobia , transphobia , sexisim , or any other gross behavior like that won't be tolerated on this blog . just respect each other & don't start any drama .
HOMIES ONLY aka mutual exclusive . only those i follow & who follow me can send memes , like starter calls , & all that fun stuff . it's just the easiest way for me to keep my dash clean & filled with the content i want to see .
SHIPPING i am usually a shipping whore ... but there needs to be chemistry & it helps when the other mun & myself talk about our muses & develop things . that said i all about non-romantic ships , they help build bonds between muses as much as a romantic one does .... soooo gimmie platonic , enemies , familial , frenemies , acquaintances , nemesis .
ADULT CONTENT i'm not one to write smut but other nsfw themes will be present . i'll be exploring the darker themes . that said i will tag triggering content as follows tw blood .
BASICS
FULL NAME : eula lawrence
AGE : five & twenty years
BIRTHDAY : october twenty-fifth
SEXUALITY : lesbian
OCCUPATION : knight of favonius ( reconnaissance captain )THEMES : you're like snow beautiful but cold , light is easy to love show me your darkness , the girl who carried her last name like a burden , she refused to let it break her , she was a storm , cold hands warm heart , revenge is a dish best served cold , make me your villain .
FULL NAME : yelan
AGE : nine & twenty years
BIRTHDAY : april twentieth
SEXUALITY : bisexual ( fem leaning )
OCCUPATION : intelligence agent , works at ministry of civil affairs , works at yanshang teahouse
THEMES : nobody knows who i am , she smiled & i knew i was in trouble , the girl who destroyed armies , i think a lot & notice everything but never say a word , don't play games with a girl who can play better , she could kill you with a wink of her eye , bet on me .
MS2 hot take that will get me devoured: the runeblades aren't all that
I do like them still, I just don't think of them as particularly outstanding compared to Sky Fortress's crew (but this is probably bias speaking)
Whoever loves them are valid tho, I completely understand being like "YEAAAA NPCS" CJSKGJSKFA however I will confess being salty about how popular they were at one point </3 no love for the other NPCs?
Nowadays I'm like that's chill. We like our own homies and we're all suffering together bc Nexon never feeds us
Other hot takes (that may or may not be fandom-specific):
1. Karl is a bad person yes but he's actually probably the most interesting character motivation-wise lol
2. Joddy's new voice fucking sucks I'm sorry. I don't have any beef against Lilypichu themselves but I cannot stand how much like a little baby he sounds. Please god I wish he died with his old voice. He at least sounded roughly like a teenager.
3. The Perion questline didn't suck that much you guys are just mean
4. Choosing Peachy and/Ophelia as your waifu is basic as fuck and you have bad taste (this is a joke but wow. Come on, guys.)
5. Kritias is okay. I think the story is fine, but I think I might've enjoyed it more if there wasn't so much to learn all at once + the story isn't half translated cries
6. Nairin's rumble kicked my ass when I wasn't geared for it properly WAY more than Mason and Condor's ever did and I still can't believe people rated hers as the easiest. What the fuck.
7. The mini story events were the best and whoever disagrees is wrong, objectively
8. Likewise the filling events are the worst because you can't even idle for it. Like what the fuck, you're telling me I actually have to put in effort?? To play a videogame???
9. I hate playing knight it feels clunky and slow with its dash and while I know it's basically no. 1 in DPS in Korean MS2, I just. Can't. Emotionally I cannot deal with Knight's dash. Also every time you take fall damage on a male knight he sounds like he moans and I hate it
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awwwwww! thank you, darling! right back at you!
I am on mobile so it won't let me copy-paste, so I hope tagging people is kosher???
@bounce-a-coin-off-your-witcher @hailhailsatan @stinastar @elliestormfound @electricrituals @fontegagrilledcheese @jaskierswolf @veritasrose @theamazingbard @eya-trying-to-function @infinite-shite @blvckwidow @ahh-fxck @onceuponatmi @geraskier-trash @toss-a-coin-to-your-stan-account @c-a-v-a-l-r-y @pillage-and-lute @persony-pepper @lets-play-gwent and honestly a million more but yall were the homies that popped in my head 💖💖
Jon, weak from his encounter with Peter Lucas and Martin struggling to throw off the haze of the Lonely support each other as they make preparations for Scotland.
Jon had nearly folded after they left the Lonely. The ach at his core threatened to steal all the strength from his limbs. He doubled over, holding his stomach willing, begging his body not to give out-not when Martin could see, not when he was actually here.
“J-Jon?”
He’d made Martin worry- damn it! Not a minute out of the Lonely and Jon is already causing trouble. This was not what he wanted.
“M-m fine-” he managed, though he was decidedly not fine, he was shaking and a cold sweat dampened his face. It was as though his insides were being carved out with a pumpkin scoop. “Really-I-I just need a moment.” He sagged to the uneven floor of the tunnels and Martin joined him, pressing close. It was closer than anyone had been to him in a long time.
Jon wanted to lean in, rest his head on his shoulder, or wrap his arms around him. But there was no way of knowing how Martin would react- ‘I really loved you, you know’. The words he’d said on that distant shore came swimming back. Jon hadn’t fully realized the implications of them then, not when he’d been so focused on retrieving Martin.
They had a new weight to them now.
“I-I wish I would have known sooner-” fatigue threaded through his voice “how you feel or-or felt, I mean.” He chuffed a sad little laugh “I’ve never been particularly good- with these sorts of things.” Their fingers were still intertwined, resting lightly on Martin’s thigh. He found he didn’t want to let go yet. Perhaps it was selfish, childish even, but if he could hold on a bit longer- to keep hold as long as he was allowed.
Martin hummed absently “I think it’s still feel actually.”
Jon froze, the simple sentence eliciting a flood of emotions he didn’t realize he could experience when he was this spent. “W-wait, you still-”
“Never really stopped.” The words delivered in a slow matter of fact fashion.
Relief crashed into Jon. He lifted Martin’s knuckles to his lips and pressed a kiss to them. His hand was cold, concernedly so. Looking up, Jon could see wisps of fog escaping from him. Now that he thought about it, his voice still echoed with the Lonely, oddly detached. The tunnels weren’t helping him warm up either.
“Ho-how are you?” Jon asked.
Martin seemed to retreat further into himself, becoming even harder to read. “N-not sure” he said at long last, “Everything’s- hazzy still?” His hand was limp and cold in Jon’s own.
“That’s alright.” he said softly, and Knew it to be true. So long as the Lonely didn’t take hold again, the Eye supplied ominously. Another wave of hunger made him curl his knees to his chest. Anger and frustration flared in him. He’d been doing so well! Then Lucas had to get stubborn and chose to literally die rather than tell him what the hell was going on! Beholding hadn’t seemed to be pleased with the loss of a meal- and Jon was hurting because of it.
How hard was it to say a few damned words? To share a few thoughts?
“You seem- uncomfortable.” Martin stated. He’d gotten more direct since his time with Lucas.
Jon gave his hand a light squeeze.
“Nothing that a bit of sleep won't cure.” They’d been resting for a while now. Well, a kind of rest, though Jon felt as though he’d been on a veritable rollercoaster. Still, they were pushing their luck so close to the institute. Between the Not!Them?, Daisy, the hunters and the cops, Jon figured it was well past time to shove off. “It’s too risky, leaving through the institute, we’ll need to use another exit.”
Guilt twisted his insides at the idea of letting the others deal with the mess, but there was little good he could do in the state he was in. And Martin- Martin needed to get away from all of this. They both did. The only question was where.
Unbidden, the knowledge of Daisy’s safe house came to mind, the possible routes making themselves Known.
The Knowing made him sick, he faltered, pressing his hand into his stomach once more, feeling the pounding in his skull grow.
“You look like hell Jon.” Martin commented in the same detached tone.
For his part, Jon grunted an affirmation, hoping that the eye would let up just a bit, enough to get out of London at least, enough to bring Martin back properly.
They hit Martin’s flat first. Jon coaxing him to pack while perched on the edge of the bed, hunched over. Sharp elbows on knobby knees. It wasn’t the first time Jon had visited, but the difference was stark. Before, it had been homy, though, sparsely furnished. A few knits on backs of overstuffed chairs, the smell of bergamot from the tea Martin was fond of, a few house plants, candles and warm lamps scattered about. Now, the comfort of the place had fled leaving the chill of the Lonely.
Jon hated that it was here, hated how it had nearly claimed Martin. So much had happened while he was...incapacitated. Turning into one of the very eldritch horrors they took statements on. Sustained by fear and despair- there was another stab of hunger- well, sustained in theory at any rate. Instead of being able to help his assistance, they’d been forced to manage him as well as fend off the attacks on the archives.
“Done.” said Martin at long last, jaring Jon out of his musings. He cursed inwardly, he’d meant to keep an eye on him. They didn’t have time for zoning out.
“Aren't-aren't you taking your poetry journal?” Beholding told him Martin hadn’t packed it. When he’d lived at the archives, he’d rairly been seen without one. Filling dozens of the things.
The man frowned “Haven’t been writing much these days.”
“O-oh, right.” said Jon. “Just- we’re headed towards a pretty rustic area, there may not be a lot to do.”
Martin considered this for a moment before crossing to the small bedside table and pulled out a few books. “Then maybe I’ll have time for a few of these.” he said, tossing the books over, a collection of short stories, a heavily read copy of The Hobbit, and a few poetry books. “Been meaning to get to them, just- didn’t seem like there was much of a point really-” The last book in the stack caught his eye, a leather bound journal. He took a moment to flip through. “Hugh,” a ghost of a smile “it’s almost full-”
Jon made a note to pick one up at the station.
“Ohh-” Martin’s eyes lit up to their original honey brown “I know what we need!” and he retreated into the main room, coming back with a small, classic radio with dial knobs.
Jon snorted “Lo-Fi charm?”
“Yep!” he beamed. “My next door neighbor gave it to me growing up. Used to mind me when my mum went out. They used to pick up pirate radio on this bad boy back in the day. Though my mum never liked it much- She-” he faltered, frowning slightly, his eyes clouding once more. The Lonely was back.
Jon sighed, squashing the rising disappointment. For a moment it looked as though Martin was snapping out of it, but then- his mother? Yet another thing that had happened while he was in god damned coma. He wasn’t sure what happened between the two, but it seemed complicated.
What do you really know about each other? Jon watched Martin struggle to fit the new items into his bag before sliding down next to him with a “I think this is going to need a repacking.” Martin huffed out an agreement.
In truth, he didn’t know much about Martin. He liked tea and poetry, enjoyed the Lo-Fi aesthetic, made people feel noticed in small, meaningful ways Jon never understood, was a fast learner, he hated peaches, tended towards passive aggressive, could be every bit as brutally honest as Jon (when provoked) and that he was the one person Jon wanted by his side more than anything else.
The Eye slipped in through the gaps of his curiosity, feeding him more information. Like how the friendly neighbor had been one of the few adults to take a genuine interest in Martin. They’d bake pastries on occasion (often inedible) and they taught Martin how to cheat at cards, which he had excelled at. Even when Martin moved away, they’d kept in touch until they died-and Lord, Stop! This was not how he wanted to learn about Martin!
Pain tore through Jon’s insides, head splitting, the Eye demanding payment for information he had no right to Know. He doubled over, holding himself together as best he could begging it to stop. Just Stop!
There was a hand over his shoulder, icey but soft. It was grounding and Jon curled into it. It was a long while before Jon unfurled, his head had been pillowed on Martin’s leg. He’d been stroking his hair and murmuring softly. His cool touch was wondrous on his pounding headache.
“Are you alright?” Martin asked, he was barely focused on Jon now, fog closing in.
“Yes- I- yes” his voice was a horse whisper.
Martin hummed in a way that made it plain he didn’t believe him.
“J-just the encounter with Lucas-took more out of me than I thought it would-” it was the truth, most of it, at least. It still didn’t change the fact that the flat wreaked of the Lonely. The mist swirling around concerned him “Martin-you... with me?” Normally Jon could ignore the Lonely. It….complimented, Beholding. But not now, not after what it had tried to do to Martin.
Jon reached up gently cupped his cheek, running a thumb over the freckles dashed crossed his face.
Martin sighed and nodded, holding Jon’s hand lightly. “Always.” and some of the haze lifted.
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Could I pretty please request something around John (in a relationship with the Dep) is jealous of her friendship with Nick and/or Sharky? Pretty please? (No pressure though!)
Of course you can! Can’t say I hit all the points, kinda got lost in thought throughout the whole thing, but hey-ho. Hope it’s a good enough breakdown/run-through!
(Just to clarify real quick – because I’m paranoid and unbelievably self conscious –, these will not be proper stories/fics, but will rather be more like run-throughs of the plot for the request... if that makes sense– you’ll see what I mean.)
Okay, so, to start off I did kinda touch on something similar in the piece Affirmation (only John was looking to get in a relationship with the reader, not already be in one), but we’re not here for that so let’s move on.
So, I imagine it’s a chill day, late afternoon sunlight filtering through the windows as it warms the skin, with Dep standing there (in the kitchen) on the phone to either Nick or Sharky (I’d probably use Nick, but since this is what it is I’ll do/flicker between the two).
Conversation would likely vary slightly between the two, with Nick being a lot more forthright in his dislike in her choice of partner, all in the midst of discussing their next get together and who’s the better pilot (she is, naturally); while Sharky would avidly talk about his recent escapades and how he’s famous now due to his recent wanted poster. Dep tries to be supportive, but...
“Sharky, you do know you’ve just confessed to an officer of the law, right?”
“Yeah, but, like, you the homie; you’re cool with this stuff.”
She rolls her eyes with a fond smile and playfully scolding tone. “Sharky...”
John walks in. Now, he’s already pretty stressed as it is – keeping what he does for the project a secret from his partner (which he doesn’t like doing, but needs must (likely doesn’t want to spook/scare them off)), plus his continued battle over the acquisition of different properties and their stubborn owners – and although seeing his dearest partner helps lighten the stress of the day, hearing them mention either Nick or Sharky by name is instantly gonna put him in a foul mood.
Why does she (Dep) continue to waste her time on such trash? What on Earth could that moron give her that John couldn’t? He’s already given her so much, done so much in her name (not that she’d know that mind you), why can’t she see that? Why can’t she just be happy with him? Is he not enough??
The jealousy aspect would creep in right about here. Knowing me I’d end up dedicating an entire long paragraph to it, but as this isn’t a typical fic I won’t be doing that. Just know that there would be a part where John acknowledges that he’s (a little) broken while Nick/Sharky, by all accounts, aren’t and in his mind that would make them slightly more appealing to his Dep. Which is a big no-no. Only he can have them.
Either way, John would become a snack for his own self-doubt/worth before flipping it on its head and blaming it on Nick/Sharky; they’re the root of the problem after all, and if John was good at anything during his time as a lawyer it was getting rid of potential problems to his cases (didn’t intend for this to be a threat, but hey-ho; the joys of getting lost in the moment)
Unaware of his internal struggle Dep would go to greet John, small wave or a little nod paired with a pleasant smile, but upon either seeing his expression or him not bothering to even utter a mouthed ‘hey’ they’ll know somethings wrong. They’d give a quick, “gotta go”, before hanging up, but let’s face it you know Nick nor Sharky would be too happy having their time cut short with their pal (although Sharky’s probably gonna be a bit more of a kicked puppy about it than Nick is... maybe).
From there it’s gonna be Dep trying to make conversation only to get snipped responses and sarcastic remarks. You know, those petty, “why don’t you ask *insert name*, since you’re so close with them” types of remarks.
It’ll eventually escalate with Dep not understanding what’s wrong, although even when she does she still won’t completely get it; what’s wrong with talking to her friend? John shouldn’t feel threatened by them, it’s nothing like that.
John is a paranoid little goof though so he doesn’t buy what she’s selling.
Ultimately Dep tries to explain herself and that they’re just her friend and that they’ve been friends way longer than she’s even known John and how, despite how much she loves him, he can’t just expect her to throw all that time and history away with Nick/Sharky just because he doesn’t like them (he does expect though because that time and history is something that he wants, and for some reason him not having that is somehow Nick/Sharky’s fault. Go figure). They’re her friend, she can’t just kick them out of her life and act like they were ever there. She can’t do that.
John would be pissed, probably start going into a rant about this, that and the other, but, either way (whether he does go into a rant or not (I wouldn’t write him as such (that’s why we’re here))), he would still be hit with a realisation. And one that he’d grip to like a fricking lifeline.
“Oh. Oh, of course,” he’d say with a breath of a laugh, “the only reason you talk to them is because you feel obligated to, not because you actually want to. It all makes sense now...”
It doesn’t, but let’s face it no matter what Dep says John won’t back down. He’ll delusion himself into thinking that Nick/Sharky are guilt-tripping Dep in some way, holding their history hostage in some capacity, and that’s why she keeps in contact with them. That’s it! That has to be it!
It isn’t, but let’s keep going.
Try as she might Dep won’t get through to John. Now, I imagine she’ll go quiet, let him say his piece, but while he’s rambling to himself he’ll unknowingly give the game away – mentioning atonement in some way, how they (Nick/Sharky) are jealous of their relationship and how they were friend-zoned; that they’re greedy for wanting even a second of her time when clearly they don’t deserve it. Especially being the filthy sinners they are etc. etc.
Dep will stop him right there, gripping his arms in a way to ground him as they watch his expression shifts into something they’ve never seen before. It rattles her, seeing the man she loves look so unhinged, but she holds her ground (no matter how shaky she is) and... well, basically tells him to stop. Just, stop.
And he would.
There’d a flash of guilt in his oceanic eyes, watching as his partners eyes fill with a palpable worry and – god forgive him – a dash of fear. He’d flounder for a moment, eyes unable to leave his precious partner’s, before reaching for them with hurried apologies as he cautiously pulls them into an embrace; the gesture a familiar comfort that soothes his restless demons.
She’s a little hesitant, unsure of what’s going on inside that complicated head of his, but she’ll comply all the same. She does love the man after all.
“John,” she’d start slowly, “they’re my friend. You have nothing to worry about. They’re not going to take me away from you, no one is.”
He would likely rebuff that in some way, likely with a scoff or something similar, before going into his own quiet spiel about how cruel and unjust the world and people are, the temptations that lie in it; how she doesn’t know people like he does and, in actuality, doesn’t need to.
After all, thats what John’s here for.
He’d hold her close, breathing in her scent that was so distinctly hers as he buried his nose in her hair. Lightly kissing her before tucking her beneath his chin as he quietly spoke to her like a sinner in a confessional.
“I know I can be... a little insecure at times. Quick to make the wrong assumptions and jump to the wrong conclusions, but it’s only because you bring out that side in me. I care so much about you, dearest. I love you more than I’ve ever loved anything, and I won’t let anyone come between us. Nor the future I’ve been told about.”