#nothing can possibly go wrong now

[spacedemodulator]

MAG 197, Connected

[EXTENDED SOUNDS OF VISCERAL ARACHNOID TRANSFORMATION]

[MUFFLED DISCOMFITED REALISATION]

[MUFFLED WORRY]

[FABRIC RUSTLES]

I mean, that's all you need, right? Everything will be just fine!

@a-mag-a-day

#no worries #nothing can possibly go wrong now #the magnus archives #tma #a mag a day #mag 197

[keineahnung-ichhalt]

Okay, now that we've all calmed down a bit and had time to process, here are my feelings on That One Good Omens Spoiler:

Would I have preferred to not know about it before? Yes

Does it still make me even more excited to watch it? Also yes

These two are not mutually exclusive

#I tried to go into season 2 as as blind as possible but yeah #nothing I can do about it now #I'm still sad about being spoiled don't get me wrong #but now I also really want to know what led to this #good omens season 2 #good omens

[jicklet]

2.02 || 2.19 Zuko at the beginning and end of Season 2 Bonus:

#avatar #atla #avatar: the last airbender #atlaedit #zuko #katara #song avatar #v posts things #v watches avatar #It was the scar touch/almost touch that pinged my memory but realizing that the language Katara uses parallels Song too set me off #Zuko starts the season so stuck in his own pain #Song tries to connect and he's closed off because nobody can possibly understand him you see #until she shows him her burn and it shocks him #this girl who has been nothing but kind has one too. she can't have deserved it #what can that mean for Zuko who is going to need another season and a half to be able to say that what his father did to him was wrong #right now he still doesn't know how to acknowledge any of this to himself much less someone else #to reconcile it with how he still believes if he can just go home everything can be okay #but then he travels the earth kingdom and sees what the war and his nation's pride did to all these regular people #and finally finally he ends up back here again #though Katara is understandably not reaching out so much as lashing out #but this time Zuko is able to reach back and not only connect and empathize with someone else #but the fact that he can admit that the fire nation was responsible for one of the biggest losses of his life is a big step for him #and whether Katara and her spirit water would have been able to heal is scar is almost irrelevant #because ultimately it isn't about the scar but what it represents #he thinks people look at it and see all his shame. like if it wasn't there people wouldn't be able to look at him and Know #he doesn't get that people look at it like Song did #that here's someone who was hurt #and whatever he might have done he couldn't have deserved THAT #and it isn't until he goes and makes an actual shameful mistake of his own that he starts to see the difference

[josephslittledeputy]

Something, something, Jacob had to leave Miller to the wolves to survive, something, now he trains wolves so they’re never out of his control and can’t turn on him like they did before, something

#ok to rb #i know everyone takes this story as cannibalism and youre valid for that but ALSO lets make it angsty and think about how jacob felt a loss #of control in that extremely traumatic moment where he had to sacrifice miller to save himself. now fast forward to meeting joseph again who #gives him purpose. a direction. CONTROL. his men never disobey. they never question like Johns do. They're obedient. Just like the wolves he #trains. Because if he has control of everything (especially the wolves that im sure haunt his dreams) then nothing can go wrong #anyway this is just my jay cub analysis folks take it with a grain of salt i love old sad man hours <3 #tbd #possibly #also thinking of how control and trauma relate UGH #ill stop writing an essay in the tags now..

[acaesic]

guys they have the snipers are trained on me for saying this but the next song is going to be spkothdvl—💥💥💥🔫🔫

#idkhow #ough💥💥💥💥 this is the end guys……. #im sorry. its 1am and i was ready to be asleep at 9:30 #i think the sleep demons are taking me now #IM NOT CRAZY! theorize with me for a second here. #WHAT LOVE had an alternative release. i think. i cant find the picture. AND SO DID SPKOTHDVL. I REMEMBER THIS CLEAR AS DAY. #so it can only be assumed that spkothdvl comes out next right?? unless im just jumping to ridiculous conclusions in which case #i got nothing #i have doubts that itll be infatuation for some reason. idk the fact that its dallons favourite kind of pushes it away #from the realm of possibility to me. dallon is a very patient person so i doubt theyd be quick to shove their favourite song out like that. #ALL SPECULATION. IF IM WRONG IM WRONG! WE WILL FIND OUT NEXT WEEK. AND THEN THE ALBUM #AAH OKAY WHILE IM TALKING. IM SO FUCCKJNINH EXCITED TO HEAR DOWNSIDE ON VINYL. IDK WHY #AND WHAT LOVE. I THINK THEYLL JUST BOTH SOUND PERFECT ON VINYL. sorry im done now im going to bed #just needed to get my ridiculous theories out there #IM TELLING YOU GUYS. ITS GONNA BE SPKOTHDVL #UNLESS IT WONT BE. #IM SLEEPING NOW GOODNIGHT #chase said something alright

[zemnarihah]

my best friend has been very distant w me lately and i asked today if she wanted to hang out and she said she probably couldn't bc it's her brothers birthday but she would let me know if she could and i have her location and i just looked and she's at her boyfriends house rn....

#we have it bc we're roomates so we started sharing locations when we first moved in like in case someone doesn't come home at night or smth #she recently told me that she wants to move out bc she has always wanted to live alone and she can finally afford it. and i asked her #directly like is there an issue because she is so non confrontational so she has never ever mentioned me doing anything that bothers her #and i said please tell me if there's something wrong because it would really suck if there was and i never got a chance to fix it because #you never told me. and she said no it has nothing to do with that i really just feel like it's time for me to live on my own. and a couple #days ago she was like okay i'm next in line for my apartment i'll probably move out in april. and i try to get her to hang out still and #she always has something else going on and i swear every night this week she's been at her boyfriends. #and if i see her around our apartment and try to make conversation at all she's so like short about it and barely responds like will only #give one word answers. i feel like it kind of started when i started dating e but i realized that i was spending less time with her and i #didn't want to be the girl that loses all my friends bc of a boyfriend so i started specifically reaching out to hang out with her and she #says no most of the time and never asks me. like i don't know what else i can do. #i'm like maybe it's bc of her boyfriend? bc they've been on again off again for a long time and previously when they were together it was #really distant with her like i barely saw her EVER. and they were mostly broken up for the past couple years and have been together i think #for a while again... but she knows i don't approve of that relationship and so she would like not say when they were talking again. so maybe #since lately they've been hanging out or dating or WHATEVER she doesn't fucking tell me what's going on with him. maybe that's why. #i literally like try to think of ways it could be my fault and maybe i'm being crazy but i cannot even think to blame myself for more than a #fleeting second bc i'm like. i have ASKED HER directly if there is an issue or something i do that bothers her and she says no. so even if #i'm somehow pissing her off would i ever know to change anything?? i just feel so frustrated bc it's like she's an entirely different person #to me. like this is not the person i know. and i don't know what else i could possibly do like i feel like we need to sit down and have a #conversation about it but what good does that do if she just acts like nothing is wrong. but i don't want to lose my friend i have such a #hard time making friends. i've known her since i was 14 like i can't imagine my life without her. we were the only two in our whole friend #group in high school to get out of the church i still love those other girls but we have so little in common now.

[aqent8]

they need to invent a place u go to where they actually fix you up and reset your issues so if you walk back out youre the healthiest u could be at that moment

#like crack all my bones stick me full of iv fluids for everything i could possibly need or lack #clear and moisturize my skin and hair with the perfect routines #pump me full of vitamins and probiotics #do every screening necessary to make sure nothing is going unfound #like i just need someone to fix me and reset my issues so i can take over 😭 i cant fix it all on my own #fix your teeth give you medicine for any issues they find inside of you #its a nightmare going to specialists its a nightmare going to any doctor its a nightmare trying to communicate what is wrong its a nightmare #trying to figure out if something is wrong with you its a nightmare being send back and forth between diff doctors its all such a pain #i need it to end just reset me #not in a youre at 100% percect health now but like realistically this is all the shit wrong with u rn that we can change and u walk out of #here feeling healthy and happy #a spa area for all the stress that is literally killing you #clean out anything inside of you that they can like ears #txt

[mainfaggot]

another shit fucking day but in the most casual way possible bc all i did was sulk study cry study sulk and finally, sulk in the shower. chai next and then bed . fuck my stupid baka life forrealsies

#i almost had an argument w my mother over nothing at one point bc i was so anxious about nothing and everything at once and well #i keep thinking. idk what im doing anything for anymore #like when we were arguing i was like wait what if she brings up how shes giving me a ride to uni multiple times this week #and then i was like wait if she says that. I'll just tell her not to. and then ill skip class. and then ill drop my classes and get a refund #and then ill drop out of uni. and then ill kill myself! #mind you i was thinking about all of this and the argument didnt even go in that direction in the end bc it was over very quickly #ljke. what ks wrong with me #i keep thinking that if my parents get pissed at me for being good for nothing despite me trying my hardest not to be #i really will end it all finally like Actually #bc i dont understand anymore. why are they paying for my stupid medication and tuition #theyre too nice to me #i know they expect me to send them money in their ideal imagined scenario in which i get a good job after getting a masters degree #and i know they expect that I'll take care of them when theyre old bc in their ideal. imagined. scenario. i 1) dont off myself in the next #few years 2) am not a lesbian who ruins the whole family dynamic by coming out and 3) get a well paying job and a husband #so. so yeah #but right NOW theyre nice to me and they take care of me but also i think everything is pointless but i try anyway because they take care #of me and they want me to be well but how am i supposed to be Get Well if i don't believe in myself #like i dont think thats possible really. #maybe a tiny bit? like maybe i won't be Well but i can be better. yeah i can do that #so i guess thats why im still trying #but then it's like. being Better is so. marginally different from being at rock bottom in a way #like yeah its significant improvement clinically but to me it's still casually miserable in its own unique way bc it's better but its still #very much present lingering choking me etc #so that brings me to the following: #im trying so hard but for what exactly? 'just keep going!' but at what cost? but why when im still like this? #z.post

[todayisafridaynight]

YEAH........... YEAH..... LIKEWISE, NO NOTES AT ALL, THAT'S EXACTLY IT... Main antagonist deaths are often treated as "comeuppance," but that would be the ultimate comeuppance for Aoki. As it stands, the only people who actually suffer for it are Ichiban and Jo, and Ichi didn't even do anything wrong. Also please I'm positive there's more to wring out of Aoki and Jo for an essay 😭😭at the very least, I always love to hear your perspective!

"he'd made a social circle for himself where people predominantly liked him for the power and influence" <- incredibly Mine-core of Aoki btw (I also feel the rest applies a little in terms of Mine probably being very quick to write off people who Do care about him as not caring about him, as with Katase, but it's nowhere near the extent of the Arakawas)

Wait actually it's kind of funny... for both Mine and Aoki, I was so sure their endings would go a certain way. Mine and Kiryu'd fight Richardson off together and Ichi'd, I don't know, shield Aoki or hug him so Kume couldn't get to him in the first place, or after that INSANE direct parallel to Arakawa running to the hospital with Masato, he'd miraculously pull through like he did on New Year's. Tormented with visions of the better timeline... With Aoki in particular, it makes me want to tear my hair out because the moment of him choosing to put the gun in the locker was REVOLUTIONARY for the series, looking at the characters he was most heavily based on.

Anyway. Bottom line. These bitches need to hug it out. It was so evil Arakawa didn't hug Ichi at Omi HQ or on the waterfront like bro stop being """manly""" for five seconds you're ruining my life you're ruining your own lives

There'd genuinely be nothing more painful yet more satisfying for an antagonist than being confronted with the consequences of their actions and having to navigate life after having making those decisions, ESPECIALLY when it comes to mending the bonds that- for anyone else- would have shattered long ago. With Aoki being motivated by the want to be loved and appreciated for himself, it would've been nice to see him finally acknowledge that he did have that love and start to better himself as a result (however much he'd be able to while in prison anyway lmao).

The Mine and Aoki comparisons are so real though, I remember joking to myself about it days after beating the game but it just fuels my mental illness every time I think about it ☠️ I LEGALLY AM NOT ALLOWED TO GO OFF ABOUT THE Y7 ENDING I'VE DONE IT TOO MUCH it makes me so mad every time I think about it 😭 ESPECIALLY THE PARALLELS WITH ARAKAWA AND THE LOCKERS UGGGHHH IT COULD HAVE BEEN SUCH AN EPIC CONCLUSION WITH THAT... Arakawa running from the lockers at the start of Aoki's life compared to Ichiban running from the lockers and getting Aoki to the hospital so Aoki can restart life I'm Going To Kill Someone (myself) (in Minecraft)

#snap chats #theres a note here about aoki's self hatred and ergo his inability to believe people could love him without 'worth' #and some kind of. I Dont Know occurs that comes with aoki accepting that love and ergo At Least Tolerating himself #and again becoming better as a person as a result. not WHOLLY you cant undo Everything Wrong With Him with one therapy session #but itd at least be a start and thats far more than anything else rgg has given since like. ryuji in dead souls #but w/e i- as per usual- have the vocabulary of a walrus so we're just gonna have to imagine i said something profound #AND THE LACK OF HUGGING IN THIS FRANCHISE IM GOING TO STAB ALL OF YOU. IN MINECRAFT. #with the power of delusions and this like seven-year-old wacom tablet i can fix that...... #it'll never be enough it'll never fill the void in my soul but it'll be something i guess #BUT UGH NO SORRY IM JUST MAD NOW #nothing in my life has ever genuinely triggered anger in me than the y7 ending its just soooooooOOOOO #IT WAS SOOO CLOSE TO BEING PERFECT I CANT #im going to give myself a blood clot thinking about it anymore i feel my heart stopping Do Not Call An Ambulance I Cannot Afford It #so to stop myself from going in any more debt than i already am..... the possibility of any essays from me are very small #my ability to use words is near non existent. i feel like a right ninny sometimes #in any case im not sure what else i could expand on that isn't restating what you've said #cant ever be upset with bein on the same wavelength tho it gives my inarticulate ass a helluva easier time trying to explain LMAO #plus im petrified of trying to interpret anything from the english dub or english subs #and looking into language use is Very Much important when dissecting abusive relationships #i guess there's always just talking about general actions committed and not inspecting the exact words used #idk.. at the very least ill rotate the concept in my head and then fend off the urge to eat my teeth #i'm gonna throw up.... im still thinking of it........ gonna make an unrelated-but-arguably-related post in like three seconds #dont look at it its cringe

[caffeinatedopossum]

Why are there always new symptoms showing up?? I just want a fucking break ;-;

#hello and on todays episode of wtf is wrong with resident hypochondriac opossum #i think maybe im extremely dehydrated and cant absorb fluids properly from drinking them (i think this for a variety of reasons) #and its starting to become very concerning and i think i need iv fluids like asap but i have no insurance #and also if i did theyd think i was crazy and not treat me condescend me and possible even admit me to inpatient msntal health #also having severe pain in my throat spreading to my skull that feels like someone jabbing me from the inside #which could be a sign of a compressed nerve so that fun /s #jesus christ im so tired i need a break i need this to stop #the pain alone is making me dizzy #and making me sweat which is dehydrating me more #ive tried everything i can think of and nothings working #i drink plenty ive cut out caffiene before i drink electrolyte drinks i make sure i eat enough salt etc etc #and its NEVER enough #oh yeah cant forget the compression socks and two different meds i tried to help me not pass put #guess what they didnt work either #and now im worried that my dehydration might be causing my hallucinations because they arent typical for psychosis #and maybe even my seizures which is really really bad #like i could go into a coma and die if i continue this way bad #but like that cant possibly be whats going on right? surely im just exaggerating because of anxiety #theres no way itd be that bad #my gf is basically a doctor and she would've done something by now if it was that bad #but hhh #why do i feel like this #why else do my hallucinations get worse whenever i sweat or exercise #why else do i have an extremely fast heart rate and fainting and im thirsty all the time but the second i drink i have to go pee already

[cosmicdisastr]

don't you just love seeing 1 tiktok about something that can be wrong with your body that you resonate with which leads you down a rabbit hole of research and diagnosing yourself with a new thing that explains everything you've been dealing with but didn't have the words for but you don't want to bring up official diagnoses with your doctor bc you either can't afford the testing or you're afraid you wouldn't be believed and/or told you're wrong even though you KNOW something is wrong w you but dont have the mental energy to pursue it and so you just walk around with a bunch of shit in your head about things you may or may not have but cant/wont do anything about and scream

#first it happened with adhd #then autism #then sleep apnea #now its joint hypermobility syndrome causing the pain in my hands bc ive ALWAYS been told im double jointed #turns out that can fuck up your fingers and wrists and all your joints in general #which yeah usually hurt #ive also diagnoses myself with mild restless leg but that wasnt bc of tiktok and really usually only affects me when i take melatonin #having a body is bullshit tbh #im also fully aware of the possibility that i have absolutely nothing diagnosable wrong with me and im just weird and in pain inexplicably #but having words for what it COULD be is fun and helpful #bro theres just no other explaination why at 22/23 i began having intense muscular and joint pain in my hands my FIRST YEAR having a job #and ive been told its not carpal tunnel its just inflamation but like I DONT USE MY HANDS ENOUGH FOR IT TO BE A CONTINUED YEARS LONG PROBLEM #there has to be something else going on dude and i dont think i have full blown EDS so JHS makes more sense #idk #i just get so frustrated with the way my body refuses to work properly #and at least calling it something helps me rationalize it #like 'im not lazy or overreacting etc i have this thing thats CAUSING this' #/rant #im just having a day

[ladyhavilliard]

i've long understood why representation is important but i don't think I actually felt for myself how important it can be until reading loveless and watching Isaac's journey in heartstopper this year... My best friend is ace, but we have very different opinions/feelings/experiences/whatever when it comes to this. I have known about the aro/ace spectrums for so long. And yet knowing and actually seeing/reading someone go through a similiar experience resonates with you unlike anything else.

#i don't like talking about my identity irl. i am not ashamed to say it now that i think i figured it out #but i still don't talk about it more. even with friends #i just... while i know talking about things helps.. i have always preffered to 'heal' and go through things more quietly #I seek support from friends but in the way that i want them to be with me and just spend time together and make me happy #they keep me as happy as possible so i can work on my shit quietly inside my head #and while this is usually helpful for me #there are often times when i hate myself for everything. my struggles. my identity. everything about me #but seeing characters go through these things #have the same thoughts #and yet they are not anything less because of it!!!! instead it is like a missing piece has been found #and i just... i know on a theoretical level that there is nothing wrong with me but i do need the actual reminder #and georgia and isaac are both similiar to me in some ways and the fact that i can relate to them outside of being aroace just makes #me feel all the more human. all the more valid #idk what i'm even talking about #it's just... i didn't realize how much i needed to see someone with my exact same thoughts in order to figure out that #there are so many other ppl like me. we might be unique but we ar also the same and so i am not alone in this #even when i'm quiet and lost in my head. i am not alone in this <3 #aroace #heartstopper #loveless #sorry this is mostly a rant #as anything i have lately posted is

[camptw1nk]

me spending weeks going "and i probably cant afford the eras tour and thats okay i just have to deal with it" during my breakdowns vs. eras not even coming here and only doing 5 shows in australia so probably being impossible to get tickets to

#i also had to keep spending the money I had in savings bc shit kept going wrong #so i. dont have enough for a ticket anyway #i was so hopeful that tickets wouldn't be announced for another couple of weeks now that i have a job #like i will put my entire first paycheck into it assuming i get it in time which i doubt #but thats still. I'd still have to battle for tickets #i am just 🧍‍♂️ bc it looks like it may just not be possible at all and im so sad ab it #i havent been able to get a presale code either #and apparently all the hotels nearby have been booked already #and flights to aus are Not cheap #it all got announced at like 5am nz time and its now 11 and i only woke up half an hour ago so i had No Chance #i wish i stayed up until 6am like i sometimes do #or i woke up for a drink and saw it #i just. i wish i could go but i dont think ill be able to and its so upsetting #there was a period of time where the eras tour was the only thing keeping me going and i thought i was out of that period but #idk this is hitting hard and there's nothing i can really do ab it

[aftermathing]

I'm in so much pain it's embarrassing. I'm going to look back on these memories of me writhing alone too afraid to sleep biting my knuckles crying about nothing and laugh.

#It's not nothing but it kind of breaks the rhythm and sound repetition to rephrase it as ptsd nightmares dunnit #Okay so the good thing is I am no longer emotionally constipated. #The bad thing is now I can cry and also I haven't felt joy and safety in forever 😐😐 #You'd think work would distract me but no! Just sitting in barn staring at horses biting each other and thinking holy shit I'm depressed #I'm so broken that while I was crying last night I felt an urge to go to my parents' room and cry to them #Like holy shit what is wrong with me #No amount of possible comfort from my dad is worth the screaming and disgust from my mom #We had a 'talk' about my mental health aka me avoiding the subject entirely and them going yep you are fine and also you're disgusting #Shave your legs you're making everybody sick and that's why you have no friends #But I did bring up the possibility of me needing to see a psychiatrist #Because of you know the ptsd #But as always they were like 'you were at that school for three months cmon it couldn't have changed your life' #Woman. Sir. I was 12 my brain was still new and I was just gaining sentience #And as soon as I became my own person I get held to a chair and beaten up like in a fuckin gangster movie #Forced to get naked in a room with hateful little girls laughing at me for getting beat up #Who all think I'm a dangerous predator lesbian who's going to kidnap them despite being 12 and 4'8 and #those little girls talked about how they wish their hot stepbrothers would touch them #But I was the predator because I had short hair :(( ????? #It's always my fault for getting beaten up and my fault for people wanting me dead and being disgusted with my existence #I was beaten up because I was annoying I was s/a'd because I was ugly I was abandoned because I was and am repulsive #Man #Fuck the guy who said he would rescue me from this and didn't. I'm not just magically not being abused now that I don't talk to you anymore #In fact it's so much worse enduring abuse when you don't have any friends to talk with or escape to isn't it!!! That's weird huh!!!!!!

[as-rare-as-trees]

I can't believe I actually took into consideration taking up running, WHAT IS HAPPENING, I AM LOSING MY VALUES

#girl help #i swear #i don't recognize myself #what am i becoming #first I suddenly become touch starved when I've been violently touch avoidant all my life #then I consider the possibility of going to a club and enjoying it when I'm wildly uneasy among lots of people #and now this??? #why?? #there's nothing wrong with enjoying running #but it has always equaled torture to me #it was horrible and painful at gym class #one of my personality traits is hating running #and now??? #i know the reason BUT #it's just that when I get like This I need some way to get the tension and this anger or whatever out #and my hands itch with violence #but I cannot do what I crave #so I have started thinking about exercising or running even so I can exert myself until I collapse #i don't think I would do it actually tho #i am so damn tired #i want to play genshin and ignore everything but my head hurts #i want to sleep but my tummy is so heavy #gjhfjgjjjjkkffg #vaneggiando

[not-krys]

WIP Wednesday: Fictober 2022 Previews

Back again for my fourth year of Fictober!

The prompts came out a little late this year, so I've decided to not use betas this year as I don't have the time to work on these and then send them off to my usual preview readers, so this year's fictober is gonna look a little rough.

Down below are previews of what I've written on at least two of my fics this year, the first being my yearly Mitsuhide fic. The second is gonna be my return to Comte angst after having a bit of burnout at the end of fictober last year.

Regular warnings apply, raw text, not edited. CW for pregnancy mentions in both sections and implied complications in Comte's section.

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You turned further away, feeling your ears burn. Mitsuhide poked you again.

"Come now, Little Mouse, these oranges I worked so hard to pick for you will rot at this rate."

You tense, feeling the craving for the sweet tanginess of oranges come over you so suddenly. True, you had told him you liked oranges before, but the craving coming over you was intense.

"[Name]," Mitsuhide said more firmly, the sound of a round fruit rolling on a plate catching your attention.

He had his thumb placed at the top of the orange, the rind giving easily to quick, gentle pressure. He put half a piece to his mouth, bit down and the juice dribbled down his chin. You swallowed, hard.

"But… you can't taste anything-"

"It's wet," he said simply, licking his lips sensually. "Cool on the tongue. Little sticky if I had to give it one flaw."

He finished off his little piece, licking the remaining juice from his fingers, making sure to look you in the eye while doing so.

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"You know that I would anything for her… for them…" Comte brushed her damp bangs out of her eyes, closed in an uneasy sleep.

"Even risking turning her?" Leonardo said pointedly, glaring at his old friend.

"Blanc and Rouge aren't doing as well as we had hoped. It has to be a pureblood's essence."

"And what happens if you lose both of them? What then?"

"We have to try something, Leonardo. I can't stand to see her in pain, not for a minute longer."

Leonardo glared, staring down the other vampire, his teeth grinding together.

"Fine… but we're using a sterilized knife. No need to get your teeth involved."

Comte smiled, tired, but relieved.

"Thank you, mon ami."

"I'll go ask Sebas for a sharp one." Leonardo turned with the speed only a pureblood could manage, his coat tails trailing behind him.

Comte turned his attention back to his cherie on the bed, pale but still breathing. His kissed her fevered forehead, brushing back more of her sweat-dampened hair. His other hand trailed down her side, to her swelled abdomen covered by the thin sheet. He pressed his hand into her, feeling a tiny heart beneath his hand against what he could only assume was his child's back.

"So strong." Comte said tenderly, his smile soft despite his fatigue. "The union of a human and a pureblood."

His eyes turned back to his love, his smile turning to a frown.

"I'm sorry, ma cherie." he said, sadly, "this… all of this… none of us knew that this was even possible. For purebloods and humans to be able to reproduce together… and now you're suffering because of it…"

His hand trembled in her hair.

"If I could take away your suffering, all of it… you know that I would. But it's becoming harder and harder to find viable options. I thought that the Rouge would help as it's the closest to the real thing, but even that is starting to fail."

His breath shuddered, struggling to keep his voice even as he spoke to her.

"If nothing else works… if my blood isn't enough…

#krys's adventure's in fanfiction #wip wednesday #briefly back in time for fictober #ikemen sengoku #ikemen vampire #mitsuhide akechi #comte de saint germain (ikevamp) #cw: pregnancy #there's... a bit of theme going with all my wips for fictober this year #I have no idea why preg is such an easy thing for me to write #like including these two #there's four drafts thus far with that as a theme #don't even want kids and yet #this is the easiest thing I can spit out quickly #come to think of it each year for fictober there's usually at least one #now I got four drafts #possibly a fifth one that involves nursing but still unsure about that one #I know that I should kill the part of me that cringes at the theme #because there's nothing wrong with writing or exploring the topic #I just don't want peeps to think I'm weird #>> #oh well #if it gets me writing #I guess