#nothing is right at 2am

[almostdefinitelydying]

We have a "date". His words, not mine x) and not really a date date either tho.. just plans for when he comes to visit.

When he comes to visit. Jesus.

I told him I'm nervous as hell, and he ofc was his calm, reassuring self as usual.

-smacks heart with a fly swatter- DOWN! -smack-

Why are feelings???? There are so many and idk what they want or what they mean, and I keep thinking "it's nothing, I'm just getting a stomach bug.." like the true Amos Burton with which I share a name and a particular streak of idiocy.

-gnaws the furniture-

I'm not usually this fuckin' manic. Frazzled! Barely hinged! I'm overthinking this way too much. I shouldn't, but I can't help it. So how do I stop doing it???

20 years... Jesus h. Christ.. (what is the h even for?!?)

#never mind me #it's almost 2am #nothing is right at 2am #Haaaaah.... i should go to bed #and I'm so glad chris doesn't know my tumblr XD

[lazylittledragon]

isn't it weird how if you get up at 7 or 8, do your work all day, then have free time and go to bed at 11 that's absolutely fine

but if i said i get up at 10, do fun stuff in the morning then work in the evening and go to bed late, i could be called lazy, nevermind that i'm getting just as much or MORE work done as i would in a traditional work day

#ramble #idk if this is a me problem or not #i've tried to do the early rise early bed thing again and again and it just does not work for me doing freelance right now #maybe it's bc i used to work at a bar so i'm more comfortable being active in the evening #i love working at night because there's less going on to distract me #what used to happen is i would get up early then fight executive dysfunction all day saying i couldn't do fun stuff until i did my work #then my will to work would hit at 10pm and i'd be up till 2am anyway #right now my routine is waking up later and playing a game or knitting for an hour or so and then working in the afternoon and evening #something something capitalism and 9-5 and adhd don't go together #this sounds like i'm just making excuses but it works and i'm actually getting shit done and sleeping enough so i don't see the problem #i just figured i'm probably going to sit and do nothing for a few hours in the morning anyway so i might as well give myself permission to

[napping-sapphic]

Sooo NONE of you want to fall deeply unhealthily in love with me rn……?

#:( #wlw #wlw mood #sapphic #sapphism #lesbian #sorry i watched too much Media™️ again #the insanely (literally) in love trope got to me #you could just like become a little deranged about me #as a treat #no yeah you’re right realistically that would suck #i GUESS we’ll have to settle for you falling healthily and normally in love with me rn #👀 #im gay and i like sleeping #scheduling my 2am feeling insane posts for my feeling chill era time of the day #nothing could go wrong

[aterfish]

Being ace is an opposite of fuck around and find out:

Fuck nobody and never know for sure

#never knowing is actually a very important part #bc you learn that you dont care and you dont wait for that ✨special someone✨ #if something changes: cool #if nothing changes: cool #i dont need to be sure to be okay with my sexuality #and i dont need proof for others if i want to use one label or another #peace and love on planet earth #humans have too short lives for random people telling them they can't live their life how they want #asexual #asexuality #aroace #ater babbling at 2 am #hello new followers time to disappoint you 💖 #also im sex repulsed. but if you are not? then fuck and never know for sure ✨ #its literally 2am i really should stop and think before posting something. but dis a problem for a future fish #Right now fish wants to post their stupid post

[miamierre]

Holding his jaw like what is it aching? Was there something big in your mouth recently? Sorry I’m so unhinged

get out of my HEAD this is literally a message i sent like five minutes ago

#we're in this together anon. #and you're right! nothing says romance like post-party 2am cockwarming in texas #ask reply #Anonymous

[cherrydott]

mmy stylus slipped several hundred times

#beepboop bop nothing to see here #okay now that im looking at it again sorrysorry FENTONS RIGHT HAND IS BEHIND HIS BACK ITS BEHIND. UPPER BACK THIS IS A PLACE OF GOD #if i colored and shaded this i feel like god would strike me with lightning the second i stepped outside #anyway #just regular overly caffinated 2am doodling #fenro #honestly ive drawn way worse shit that i wouldnt post with a gun to my head

[risu442]

Jeff Satur is a hoe *appreciated

Inspired by the scene from here around 1:50

#A very bad production by me #but okay i suffered a lot because i couldn't cut the first vid right because if i cutted the other's face #i cutted the voice too #I did it on my mobile at 1-2am #so okay #...okay? #Sleep is overrated and i am not in the mood to do anything #instead of jeff satur #I MEAN 😂 #u perv #anyway #it is what it is #mostly nothing #just something i had to do #jeff satur #Youtube

[miercolaes]

last shitpost for a while but i was going through my folders on the computer and i found screenshots i took from club penguin and apparently when i get mad at someone i use their names for my puffles. idk why, my honest guess is bc i can act as an evil queen since i keep them indoors but that's still funny. all my archenemies had turned to nothing more than puffles in a silly game i once broke my parents' credit card as a kid. i think that's very iconic but please tell me i wasn't the only one doing it. this is normal, right? right?????

#♱ ️️️️️️️️️️️️️vero stfu. #i miss club penguin but goddammit wasnt i salty about it #moral of the story is if the game ever comes back i will be banned in less than an hour #and i'll most likely be reported by the friends turned enemies over some silly thing in the game #guys what is new club penguin i found on the world wide web #its late and vero lost all functional brain cells #ted mosby was right nothing good ever happens after 2am

[bangcakes]

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#in the past i would have given up but now im like #oh right if i want something..... i gotta go for it and make it happen HDJDJDJDJDJDJ #itd be easier to give up tho LOL. god.... #idk im just................ what if like. nothing even happens n i spejt all this time liking him like that would SUCK. hhhhhhhhh #i should just see if him n my ither friend wanna hang out but im ANXIOUS ABOUT ASKING #BC. GOD. the longer i dont see someone the more im like.... oh they probably didnt even like me that much JDJDJDJD #like this even happens with ppl ive been friends with for 15 years like i am just THAT insecure???? #maybe not insecure.... idk. i think i just.... dont wanna get hurt so i tell myself that ppl dont actually like me. but thats like so dumb. #bc thats like... borrowing grief from the future right????? and like hhhhh god #idk i just like. sometimes its better to have 0 expectations or hopes?????? #idk romance has never worked out for me b4 so why would it this time #tho to be fair this is the first time ive actually like wanted stuff to keep happening. #prev guys ive been like oh god oh no this is so fast #and its like. just them wanting to talk constantly #but now i have this guy that i talk to like. every 1 to 2 weeks LOL GOD #im trying to hang in there #i think its just that its passed 2am #idk idk #im just.............!!!! #and like what if bc im not moving fast enough.... he moves on JDJJDKDKDKDKDMDMMDMD #but then its like.... ok it wasnt meant to be then....?????? #god this is so JDJDJJDJDJDJD #be careful what u wish for bc like. i said i always wanted a friends first slow burn and LMAO....... #hhhh n e way #im also like maybe i jynxed this whole thing by talking about it too much 😭😭😭 #ugh whatever... im so JDJFJFJDMDMMD #personal

[todayisafridaynight]

if i think bout ichi going to jiro kasuga's grave and arakawa accompanying him Maybe At Least Once i just might explode

#snap chats #hi everyone. coping with my reality. plus it is fathers day tomorrow #ill save all THAT rambling after The Real Meat alright lemme get that juice out the way #anyway no i was just having an idle thought with fathers day coming up #an i just thought of like. Just-Got-Here ichi wantin to see his Relatively-Recently-Deceased's dad's grave #maybe arakawa wanted to ask ichi to do somethin on X day and ichi visibly is just 😬 #obvi he tries to brush it off like Oh Its Nothing Sir Haha :) but arakawa's A Dad. #and grew up with a troubled childhood alright he knows when someones hiding something so he encourages ichi to tell him the truth #such comes The Bean Spillin an ichi's just 'remember how i said my dad died yeah i wanted to visit him that day 👉👈 ' #followed up by the obligatory backpedaling But Its Fine I Can Do Another Day ! No Worries ! etc etc #so pleaaasse cut to arakawa making a 'deal' with ichi in that he can go that day but only if he could tag along #ichi's a great kid it's worth visiting the guy who raised him right #im gonna throw up if arakawa just gets a Funny Feeling during their visit yk what i mean #he just feels Especially grateful for jiro and what he did for ichi- doesnt exactly know why maybe ichi really is just that good of a kiddo #im gona make myself throw UP oh my GOD. crying dying etc etc #if you see me write or draw anything after this no you dont #speaking of though Personal Ramble Time i knew i shouldnt have eaten until later this is my karma <- thats not how karma works #i try not to eat in the evening and the time i do unprompted BOOM mother's home. screaming crying yelling #i still had things i wanted to do upstairs too gdi now i gotta wait til monday or like. 2AM ☠️☠️☠️ #ok thats all byyyyye im gonna cope with my cringe family situation with projection 👋

[sensesdialed]

peter will be so normal talking about the villains he’s fought, even other bad experiences, until norman osborn is brought up and his face just falls

#very normal reaction to havens not upset about this at all #like he will he able to talk about what happened with MYSTERIO in a semi normal way #and yes thats partly because he HAD to get used to that after being questioned about it so much #and he’s able to leave out the particularly gut punch-y details #but. hooo boy . ohhb man #yes he saved norman in the end yes he still thinks curing was the right thing to do but. peter hasn’t and will never forgive him #you go for the people he values…. you go for MAY and the line he usually lives by is crossed #it’s 2am i dont have it in me for a serious meta but YOU KNOW… #thinking about the scene where he couldnt bring himself to say norman’s name while talking about the cures. im normal #🕸 ❝ i have nothing left… except spider man ❞ → ooc

[zukkaoru]

gege. you do this to me today. on the day of the b.sd season 5 finale.

#jjk leaks #i haven't even read anything since the beginning of the gojo sukuna fight but OH MY GODDDDDD #i am being so so so serious i need someone to knock me out. i need to NOT BE AWAKE RIGHT NOW #why am i ALWAYS awake at 2am on wednesdays when the biggest leaks drop i Hate It Here #literally whack me in the head with a stop sign i need to be put in a coma #hello grace here #i'm so sick of being awake actually this has nothing to do with the leaks i just desparately wish i could sleep through the night #more than once a month

[byakuyasdarling]

Insecurities. 

[Okay to reblog]

#I probably should add that ofc he got off her to lay at her side instead right after since she's obviously uncomfortable - haha #poor girl is in tears (nothing to do with him) just as it says above... insecurities... #this took wayyy too long ngl #it's now 2am lol #Art with Freya | ♠️ #andreagami #ship tag: book lovers ♡

[i-hate-gravel]

“somebody i used to know” as a phrase really does so much and has never been more relevant actually

#literally how the fuck else do i talk about her #we haven’t talked in months #i was in therapy for nearly as long just unraveling the things she said to me #i hope she’s doing better #i hope she finds a path in life she loves #and i care if it’s selfish or wrong i hope she regrets what she said to me and apologizes one day #or rather i don’t care #but i doubt she does #i made my fair amount of mistakes as well #but like #i hate you we had an indescribable friendship #a conversation with you made my stomach rip at itself i wanna make art with you at 2am #you weren’t a good friend and neither was j #but i’ve grown up ive moved on #and i know you moved on because you never stopped moving #because nothing was ever right or enough for you #but did you grow up? #in these months of silence and completely separate existences did you mature? #i’ve fallen in love since i stopped dragging myself across the ground for you #and it is so much better and easier and preferable #and i honestly hope you can say the same #i know we are all growing at our own paces as people but i wish you hadn’t left claw marks on me on your way past #because quite frankly. you had no right and it hurt #and this is the last im speaking on it. thinking about you. #i’m sealing the last of my worries and doubts in this post and i’m throwing my phone in the fucking ocean and it is better than you deserve

[youremyonlyhope]

Observing the fandoms of shows I watch that have lots of fans that skew younger makes me kind of marvel at how different things are in online fandom even just 10 years after I was their age.

Like, I know I probably sounded like I was losing my mind every 5 seconds in posts I made as a teenager, but some things I see nowadays are actually concerning. I see people taking things waaaayyyyyy too seriously. It’s a TV show. It’s not obligated to go in the direction you want it to. It’s not the end of the world when it doesn’t. It’s not even the end of the TV show yet. Who’s to say it won’t go in that direction eventually, or even do something completely different that you’ll like even more than what you initially wanted? And outside the bubble of those younger fans on tumblr and twitter, no one really cares about the same issues that are being blown out of proportion here.

#no spoilers but i'll tag just in case #st spoilers #stranger things spoilers #specifically this is about stranger things and umbrella academy but i also saw it in the julie and the phantoms fandom too #but i'm seeing people act like a certain ship not becoming canon is the end of everything #am i the only one who had the sense to realize that realistically it probably wouldn't be canon and at least not right now if ever #like can we not joke about coming after a teenage actor because they ship the ship that didn't become canon and gave people hope #the actor just wanted to interact with fans. nothing malicious. honestly it's not even misleading. #anyway it's 2am and i watched stranger things this morning and then rewatched episode 8 when my brother watched it #and i'm still like processing the whole season so i can't even allow myself to pay attention to these younger fans #i just see the posts and tweets and i'm like '...nope... really glad i'm not that age right now... not gonna even touch that issue...' #honestly. these kids need glee. that desensitized me from asking for stuff from my shows because then it'd happen #and then it'd blow up in some weird way or just get undone by the end of a season or just be stupid and not what i wanted #only rarely did things i REALLY want to happen happen on glee. the rest of the time i was just along for the ride. #and that's the mindset i have when watching tv shows to this day. so honestly. thank you glee. #quick someone find the gif of soos in gravity falls saying 'this better be exactly like my fanfiction or i will be VERY disappointed.' #also something being hinted at and foreshadowed doesn't make it predictable when it happens. it makes it planned. #i swear. people are getting too used to shock killings or plot twists out of nowhere that they're forgetting what foreshadowing is. #the finale has a 9.6 rating on IMDB right now. a site that is infamous for being incredibly skewed if even half a fandom hates something. #(believe me. doctor who's IMDB ratings are all over the place due to a loud group of Thirteen's haters) #so if even a good chunk of the fandom disliked the finale then the score would be much lower. but it's not. #maybe it will go down a bit as more people watch. but this is not game of thrones. but i see people treating it like it is. #and really only focusing on 2 or 3 maybe 4 specific issues and writing off everything else. #(not trying to swat a hornet's nest or start crazy discourse and my anon is turned off so just don't come at me. i don't care.)

[imwritesometimes]

it's nights like this that make me really wish I could write again 🙃

#too late to fire up sims cause lmao then I'd be on there til midnight and I DON'T want that #have to be quiet cause my brother is sleeping cause he has to work at like 2am #so I can't like... go out in the kitchen and reorganize the pantry or clean & reorganize the entryway closet #finishing my laundry up right now #nothing on tv. don't feel like putting on a movie. #I'm just BORED and my mind bored is NEVER a good thing. ever. #just wish I had a stupid fckn wip to work on so I had something to do other than #flip through phone games for 4 hours until I can sleep 😞 #erin explains it all