#now that i've had time to process it

[kaleidoscopeminds]

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#now that i've had time to process it #how hysterical is it that i literally met 5sos and luke and calum didn't want to talk to me #visibly trying to step out of frame of the pics #like its completely valid they were just trying to go for something to eat #but on a personal level could that be more ironic #ashton being a sweetheart tho<333 #i miss them i miss tour so much

[seyvia]

My beloved Sim .°•Vida Rei°.○ I wanted to show off her current lookbook because it brings me serotonin•*.

A bit about her because I need a brain spill:

Vida is Japanese/Latina * she loves pink & purple🌸🍇, teddy bears & butterflies🧸🦋 * I have to be honest, her look and story are heavily influenced by a nightcored Olivia Rodx!go song (this one) lol is it original? probably not. is it fun to think about? yesh~ ╮(. / ᴗ \.)╭ * Sooo She is an aspiring Teen rock/pop star (why else would she be on the cover of BLEH!¡), who enjoys writing her own songs. All the while she struggles with her broken heart & finding a place in a new school that seems to be filled with equally talented, unique and bizarre sims. (´ . .̫ . `)...er~ something like that, it gets pretty deep and original. I think it would make a great shojo manga lol. TM.

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CC creators ʕ•ᴥ•ʔ♡

Hair: @daylifesims / @kamiiri / @simandy / @dogsill / @arethabee / @clumsyalienn / @simbience / @ravensim / @carolforest / @boonstoww /@rheallsim 💫

Shoes: @jius-sims / @trillyke / @dallasgirl79 / @bellassims / @charonlee / maddie eddie (patreon) / @arltos / @desireccfinds / Lin-Dian (patron) / @llazyneiph / _zy (tsr) / babytears (simsfinds) / S4Nexus 💫

Clothes: @serenity-cc / @clumsyalienn / @nitropanic / @eunosims / @trillyke / @grafity-cc / @greenllamas / @dyoreos / @jellymoo / @aharris00britney / @arethabee / @rustys-cc / @brianitesims / @mysteriousoo / @emmibouquet / @sadlydulcet / @oydis / @dissiasims / @saruin / @imadako /@rimings / @chloem-sims4 / @luridsims / @yellowjealousy / @candysims4 / @anvilesi / @arltos / @pleyita / @astya96cc / @waekey / grimcookies aka akalukery (patron) / @demondare-sims / @renorasims / @soolani 💫

Accessories: @saruin / @hayanbom / @simlasya / @grafity-cc / @wondymoondesign / @simpliciaty-cc / @kissyck / @gridoff / @eunosims / @dissiasims / @bellassims / @aleniksimmer / liliili-sims / @ssiat / @christopher067 / @neriney-cc / @glitterberrysims / @trillyke / @serenity-cc / @marigold-@losts4cc / @reinasimsstory / @qicc / @joliebean / @rimings / @senastar-@maxismatchccworld / @imvikai / Lin-Dian (patron) / @sadlydulcet / @usamarusims / @its-adrienpastel / @sims4-sin-a / @synthsims / Bazlou (tsr) / @laluna1005 / @chloem-sims4 / @simlaughlove / @stephanine-sims / @karzalee / @bedisfull / @ridgeport / @alexaarr / @wyattssims / s-club (tsr) / @at-mach / @imadako / @dorificsims / @grimmbats / @destinationboogie / @saurusness / @giuliettasims / @pralinesims (tsr) / @weepingsimmer / @buglaur / @mmsims / @sentate / @syaovu 💫

Makeup: @cosimetic / @nuwmie / @stretchskeleton / @twisted-cat / @crypticsim / @willeekmer / @chewybutterfly / @jjrxki / @anonimuxsimmer / @sunivaa / @thepeachyfaerie / @simandy / @plumbheadsims / @alhajero / @kindlespice / @emmibouquet / @mintvalentine / @ikeaservo / @isaiahillustrates 💫

Tattoo: @blogsimplesimmer 💫

Poses: @helgatisha / @gladlypants / @roselipaofficial / @catsblob / @atashi77 💫

That took 3 days ʕ´• ᴥ•̥`ʔ

Magazine Cover

#seyvia lookbooks #ts4 #sims 4 #ts4 lookbook #y2k lookbook #y2k #y2k style #my oc #Vida Rei♡ #*internal blushing* (´ . .̫ . `) #I have decided that everything I do and/or want to do is cringe #and I'm now excepting that #I've had to redo this process 6 times because Tumblr kept going thud! (ಠ~ಠ) #brain spill is probably what the info section is called in bleh #BLEH!¡ squeamish teen magazine! #or is it more of a catalog? #sorry about the blurriness im still learning ʕ´• ᴥ•̥`ʔ #and figuring out what is comfortable for me when categorizing cc #🚫please don't ask for direct links to everything #my heart will go flat line🚑 #but if there is something you really want but can't find in my messy list plz feel free in asking (:

[northern-passage]

i've been thinking a lot about the word "representation" and what it means and how it's changed over the last few years, particularly when it comes to the writing/publishing landscape but also in movies and tv shows… and i really don't like it anymore. to be clear, of course i think it's important to have diversity in your work, i'm not saying i hate the concept of representation. but i do really dislike the way it's used now, and i really just hate the word itself

in a broader sense it's just become a marketing tool. i'm not impressed by any publisher or author who just describes their book by listing all of the minorities/identities the characters represent as if that should be enough. it feels very gross, very exploitative and disingenuous. it also really bothers me because it's always marginalized identities- which i understand Why, but it feels very othering to me (and again. Very exploitative as an advertisement). you would never list out "cishet able-bodied white man" as a character description to pat yourself on the back over. so why do it to everyone else? why insinuate that one is the "default" and the other one is "special"? (and when i say this i'm mainly talking about advertisements/marketing. i understand why people would specify about characters in descriptions with the plot, but i don't like to see an ad that's just "this book has gay people!" with nothing else)

which then leads me to my other point, which is that a lot of people treat "representation" as if it's "too hard." like "oh i don't know enough to write about that, i don't have that experience, etc" which is a fair way to feel! however… it's weird that people only say this about writing trans characters or characters of color. i'm writing a story right now with a character who is really into motorcycles. i personally do not know that much about motorcycles, so i researched what parts are what & what different kinds of models there are & what basic bike care looks like. i guarantee Most people will have to google something at some point in their writing process. so what's the problem? it also, again, feels very othering when authors treat certain groups of people as "impossible" to write, "too hard" to understand. they are just.. people. you write them as a person. and then you figure out the rest later.

and i think part of the refusal or fear to write something outside of your experience is because of the way representation is treated as So Special. these characters are So Special that they aren't allowed to be anything other than "representation." they're Not allowed to be characters with complex emotions and interesting motivations, they have to just be Trans or Gay or Disabled or whatever. they're not allowed to be people. which means, at the end of the day, we loop right back around to where we were at the start….

there is bad representation. there are depictions of certain marginalized people that are harmful and that are damaging, i'm not trying to minimize that or argue against it at all, in fact we should all be mindful of that while writing and reading. but i also think it's possible to swing too far in the opposite direction as well and put certain groups of people on a pedestal and not allow them to do anything at all but be Perfect Representation, if that makes sense.

#anyways. is this anything #sorry i dont have anything insightful to say at the end here i just wanted to ramble #especially abt the way ppl market books now it like. genuinely disgusts me #cannot imagine marketing tnp in that way. my characters are many things AND they are trans. and their transness #is not just a flashy feature for attracting attention #also i do understand the fear of 'getting it wrong' but that's why you have beta readers or even actual sensitivity readers #that's why you ask for feedback. especially in this space like... people will give it #that's what makes sharing your process and early draft in this community so rewarding #and there's also just the reality that no matter what you do some people will Not like it 🤷 #and ime a lot of ppl look at representation very individualistically #as in it's only good representation if it represents Me #which sucks. and you're never going to please those people #ANYWAYS also to be clear this is not a vague or meant to be targeted at any one person please don't be fucking weird #this is just some thots i've had recently esp since ive seen the representation conversation pop up quite a few times #and since i've been doing research for characters in my other project #personal

[b4kuch1n]

tdov was like a week ago already but I just wanna say when I came over to vacation slash help my sworn brother move flat he told me, "ever since you said you wanted to get top surgery I've been thinking about it. it's straight up number two on my bucket list"

#bakuspeech #number one is a house bc obviously. if u can own a house wouldnt u #he was very drunk at that time of the evening. I was not bc I have the constitution of a hot air balloon and any stimulant will blow me up #(relatively new development. france fucked me up big time turns out) #we held hand on his bed for like the whole evening. it was honestly very funny in hindsight but we were extremely earnest in the moment #and Im like. working on this thing as well. I dont got meds or therapy lmao Im bootstrappin here #but yeah early last year his bf offered to get me meds and I... turned it down... I think I was worried abt like. idk. something #but one year past looking back Im fully like that was a stupid move you shouldve gotten meds. youve once again fucked urself baku #but yeah with that kinda realization Ive also come to realized I've somewhat? accepted. that I'm just gonna be. like this #this in light of a number of likely chronic stuff too (hence my balloon-like constitution lmao) and #that's kinda bled into the rest of me without me really noticing #but him bringing that up fully unprompted... kinda jolted me out of it #its just. really incredibly sweet. that someone doesn't want me to settle for what I make do with #and like. preps for that work. just kinda held my hand and told me it's possible to do this actually #I didn't really express how I felt very well in that moment I think my brain is very bad and I process emotions with like a day of delay #but. well. Im thinking abt it Right Now. so yknow thats the kind of impact that had on me lol #not super sure why I wrote all this down here really. I think I just want a good n nice reminder that object permanence is real #and I exist in my friends' life even when Im going insane in a hole by myself #and with the power of friendship we can alter the universe's plan for ourselves and also kill god #that's that. anyways I eat lunch now and then pass out probably. last night was... eventful lmao #but!! very good things on the horizon hopefully. well manifestly we hold hammers and we use them #have a good day lads. let's go out and slay monsters under a highway

[brown-little-robin]

あ

#Robin processes emotions on main #already I am struggling with studying Japanese #not with the language itself so much. I'm making progress on that #but with this horrible kind of anxiety #I writhe not being the best at things that I'm trying to do. I writhe wondering if I should just give up. #this is why I had a horrible time studying Greek in high school as well: can't know it well enough fast enough #it's like I'm dying a little every day convincing myself no it's FINE not to know everything right away. it's OKAY. #it's okay if you stop learning Japanese in the future and it's okay if you keep learning Japanese. it's okay it's okay it's— #hhhhhhhhhhhh #it's such a complicated language it's making my stomach hurt right now thinking about how I want to learn kanji but it's So Much #and I don't know HOW to learn it #I've never really learned a language before (Greek does NOT count) and I'm learning all the complexities of the Japanese language and going #going oh....... this is........ actually extremely much...... and I'm never going to be a native speaker....... #I'm trying So Hard to embrace dying a little to my perfectionism every day but it's HARD. WAILS #No one Told me learning a language would make me want to cry because it's simply impossible to master!!!! #WAH!!!! #I'm trying to keep sight of the fact that it's not about my pride it's about having fun and embracing Small challenge and Small rewards #I really do feel so happy every time I recognize a word or understand the grammar when watching anime #it's just thinking about the Entire language that's psyching me out #Robin learns Japanese

[goldkirk]

I DON'T HAVE TO LIE ANYMORE!

#I DON'T HAVE TO LIE ANYMORE ABOUT ANYTHING #IT DOESN'T HAVE TO OVERRIDE ALL OTHER PROGRAMMING EVER AGAIN #HA #MY GOD THAT FEELS LIKE TWO DECADES OF RELIEF #and I found out yesterday. that this year. next winter. it IS two decades. exactly. this is the year. every day i am shown new reminders #that keep me going in my mission to relearn to fully and instinctually trust my self #ever since [redacted therapist] asked me point blank and my IMMEDIATE response was complete disbelief #a firm 'you think there's any universe where i'd feel like i could trust myself? after my nonstop history of failures and being horrible?' #tone “No!” of disbelief #and a horrible way-too-harsh laugh that bolted out before I could strangle it off and stop it. #that woman never coddled my feelings any time I spoke something alarming or bullshit and that was so helpful to me #and the tone she let exist in her voice when she responded to me with a very uncharacteristic “Oh Katie.” #was so. so much more agonizing for me. than her responding with an immediate logical slam-dunk of the truth about healthy behavior and stuf #anyway ramble over i'm so tired. i've done so much trauma work this week i am Drained emotionally #now i see what the past several months but especially especially #the baffling (to me) infuriating out-of-control-speedrun-somatic-processing + every-health-condition-flaring slog that December and January #were for me when I hadn't expected anything to be wrong #...and the extremely specific way this certain zone and particular incident kept coming up over and over and over and over and OVER was not #a bug. it was a feature. thank goodness i trust myself for little things now bc that's the only way i was able to get to this other side #and look back and suddenly realize that my subconscious and body knew what they needed and had a plan in progress the whole time. just like #i rationally say I trust them to have and do. #and that perhaps maybe. for real for real instead of just TELLING myself hard enough a lie that i trust my self and i trust my body and tha #they always know their own needs and timing if really slow down and listen to them f u l l y #anyway. yeah. bye haha i need to stop oversharing on the internet #trauma evolution #shh katie #personal #my god. i wished for this day more than i wished for anything else my whole life. all these many many many many years. what magic. #add to journal #abuse

[milkyspine]

#mine #writers of tumblr #poetry #spilled ink #writing #okay to rb #poem #spilled words #tw: trauma #tw: csa #tw: abuse #tw: dv #i'm sicker every day #i think i was so focused on my oldest brother & dad's friend that everything else seemed not worth mentioning or nowhere near as bad #but then i casually mentioned to one of my friends some of what my youngest of my older brothers used to do #and i realised as i was saying it that it wasn't normal #it just felt like the realisation i had about my oldest brother all over again #it feels like there is always more for me to process #everyt time i think i've bared it all.there's always something else #first dad's friend. then my oldest brother. now the youngest. #dad overlooking it all #i just want none of it to be real #i don't understand how all of this happened to me without anyone doing anything about it #i keep wishing i'd done something to stop it to save myself. #and i know i saved myself the only way i could #but it wasn't enough. #anyway #i hope you're as okay as you can be

[pochapal]

mood for the evening

#:) #was going through the phone i had from 2014 to 2019 and found a couple old selfies i took #and when i tell you i have never seen a more dead behind the eyes individual swamped in despair in my life #like a little jpeg of me aged 20 should NOT have contained as palpable a misery aura as it did. and yet #anyway it's insane how much i have genuinely improved as a human being in the last 18 months #on and off i've been jokingly calling my self improvement process a miraculous resurrection but wholly and genuinely i think that did happe #like. the me now looks way more alive + happy than maybe i ever have in my whole life???? #also what's insane is that in these pictures of me from ages 17-22 i look a million times older and wearier than i do now in my mid 20s #moral of the story is resurrection is THE hottest thing a bitch can do #idk just. very glad i didn't succumb to the pall that had been cast over me for the majority of my life #i am very glad i am alive here and now despite it all. i certainly never believed it lmfao

[poisonouspastels]

#i figured this would be better suited for a separate post continuing from here #I've had people get angry at me for giving Steve a proper strongman build - thus making him fat and muscular in the process #ive gotten people mad at me for making him his direct colorpicked skin tone. got told I made him ''the wrong color'' for it #got called slurs #got told i need to just ''take a joke'' when im getting right fully angry at people telling me im wrong for making his AU design that way #been quite literally told our art looks ''ugly as hell'' when people ran out of bigoted arguments #its all just getting really hard and really tiring to keep doing what i love when everyone is vocal about hating it #and very few people are vocal about liking it #i do art for me dont get me wrong. and people have been supportive. #but i cant help but wonder if anyone would have even cared about the mega ref at all if it hadn't been surrounded by people full of hate #its just hard to stay motivated and put my all into something that's gotten so much backlash for stupid reasons you know #i've been putting so much love into my work surrounding this AU lately. my writing and my art. for over the past year now #i try not to ask anything in return other than for people to just pay attention to it at all. give it a reblog #but the one time we have something out of it become popular its because people are stupid and bigoted #i dont care about numbers this isnt about that. i just care about returning the passion i put into the world. #if anyone wants to send anything my way feel free. i could use it #sorry for venting

[waters-and-the-wilde]

ya'll know the 'because I love you, you idiot!' trope? that one? consider a 'because I forgive you, asshole!' type of moment from juno when he and nureyev sort their shit out

i just think it would be neat

#idk i think 'i get why you left and why you had your reasons and i know it's not actually your fault what happened' #'but also it massively sucked and you weren't there and i'm actually getting a chance to process that now that i've seen you again' #'and we're having to deal with picking up the pieces of what happened to us and who we've become in that time apart' #seems like it would be consistent with the kind of emotional tone they'd go for #idk if it's Too Similar to what they're probably also vibing at with Arum and Damien or Same Hat of theme overlap they do sometimes? #but i think it could work for them #nureyev's clearly harboring deep-seated doubts about his place in juno's life and i could see him trying to resign himself to rejection #while juno's solidified into a place of 'no that wasn't okay but like hell am i giving up on this just to feel righteous about it' #the penumbra podcast #juno steel #peter nureyev

[redrobin-detective]

I was looking at my AO3 trying, once more to finish my AT mini series when I realized its been a year to the day I published where is it now, The glory and the dream? nicknamed Glory. Its a story I loved writing and have reread it multiple times and I got a bit emo thinking about that story - about that world.

I wrote a DGM fic in college over the course of a year that started as a speculative fic on past events and became an all out AU once more details came out in the manga. But I became so much more attached to my version of the characters and the story that it became hard to connect with the canon version. I feel something similar with BNHA and Road Not Taken verse. I love those characters who I took from early canon and molded and aged into essentially my own characters. I still get weepy reading rise up and writing glory kind of helped me deal with a bit of anxiety of turning 30.

This whole verse means a lot to me even though it was far from popular even when BNHA was dominating AO3 and is now so far out of vogue people aren't really reading stories much less wild AUs. But it lives close to my heart and is one of the things I think of when BNHA in any context is brought up. I will write the finale fic, it's lived in my brain fully formed since the last few chapters of TLWA. I will write it and it will hurt and I will sob and it will be one of the most satisfying stories because it will finally exit my brain and enter the page. And it will be utterly meaningless to 99.99% of the population and I will not give a damn because as much as I love sharing my stories and getting feedback, these stories are Mine. TLWA and it's sequels more than most.

#happy birthday glory #i waited 2 years to develop my version of bakugou #and it was so damn satisfying #I'm quaking thinking about the satisfaction of writing the finale #I've got maybe 9-10 pages done and I had to stop and cry over one scene because it would parallel an end scene and it Broke me #sometimes something lives in your head for so long is so comforting and yet grows so large that pulling it out of your brain hurts #Im in a weirdly existential mood tonight #I will write the finale I WILL but my god its going to be a process but I will be the queen of the fucking world afterwards #five years is a long time for a baby to grow and the birth sure will be something #pain that will be largely unrecognized and unnecssary but its for me not the fickle demands of fandom #i will love every minute every word every reread #im done now sorry to be insane on main for a dumb series :)

[failed-inspection]

Queerplatonic Sunstone, like and subscribe

#lex rambles #rain world downpour #rw five pebbles #rw seven red suns #rw sunstone #As much as I love to joke about them being divorced. To me their I always saw their relationship as not specifically romantic #But they really did mean a lot to each other... #I honestly just really love their story and dynamic so much there's something so tragic about it #They were so close.... but in one's attempt to help the other they lost everything... And burnt their bridges... #Waah #Like. There's something to be said about that. There's something to be said about the fact they never get the chance to reconcile. #There's something to be said about how Suns had faith in what Pebbles was trying to do despite all the risks only to essentially #doom him and his sister in the process... #ALSO. THE ARTI DIALOG WHERE PEBBLES SHOWS REGRET ABOUT WHAT HE SAID TO SUNS.... #“None of them understood my theories. but Suns. they trusted me. They risked so much trying to help me. and I hurt them.” #“It's only now. after I've had so much time to think on it. that I understand why I was so angry.” #“I lashed out. because out of everyone. they were the last individual I wanted to confront me about my mistakes...” #LIKE????? WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH

[penisbilt]

the bittersweet but absolute flood of relief that comes from admitting defeat at living independently, to have to move back in with parents. we tried! we gave it our best shot for almost 3 years! but living like this (being on our own) is just not possible for us at this time of our lives. we've finally proved it to ourselves that we can't do it. it'll be okay to let ourselves rest now

#latimers parents not mine!!!! i am NOT moving back to florida LOL #really hope that the changes will be good for my mental health. this apartment is toxic to us #ive been on the verge of meltdowns Kind Of A Lot lately. imnot doing great #extremely dependent on substances. just to reach a baseline level of functioning. but even that isnt working as much anymore #the only things i do on my phone or tablet these days is like. 2 mobile games. and skirting past my dms to check latimers blog #its too overwhelming to even open discord these days yknow. everything on earth is too much for me right meow #i havent been drawing i havent been social online OR irl i havent been cooking or creating #i havent been keeping up with personal hygiene like at all im particularly ashamed about that one #i've been really bad about doing my T the past few months which is a HUGE shame because im SO fucking hyped to be on it #theres just. too many obstacles in getting it done half the time. and the other half of the time i just forget #anyway. anyway. #our lease ends in july so between now and then we're just gonna try our best to tolerate our living situation enough to get by #there's a light at the end of the tunnel. and its called 'i only have to be in charge of like 2 rooms at most. and not a household!' #we're gonna try to slowly comb through all our things between now and then so the process of moving wont suck as bad #cuz listen. its pretty fucking bad right now #maybe not for other people. but it is for me. and its okay to let myself come to terms with that #im just. so relieved. still very stressed! but theres at least light at the end of the tunnel and its only like 2 months away #ill be able to draw guilt-free again. ill be able to just EXIST guilt-free #i dont think ive felt guilt-free for just existing the way i do since like. turning 20 #i know my mom wouldve loved if i stayed home forever. and im sad i cant be there for her #but ever since i had a fight with my dad at 15 or 16 it just really felt like he didnt want me there more and more #maybe as the youngest he was resenting that i was preventing him from becoming an empty nester or something. i dont know #because all the other kids had been moved out and on their own at least once but i had never left home before #i dont know if he'd be heartbroken or not to hear that i feeling like he was resenting me. but thats the energy i was picking up for years #i dunno. i dont know #anyway. back to housing. for now im going to try to relax and store energy for the moving process #the huge pile of things by the kitchen? i dont have to worry about that becoming permanent because we're leaving in 2 months #the general discord of the state of our possessions? we have to go through everything to pack it all anyway. we can move in RIGHT this time #when we moved in here we didnt have a car or license so we were dependent on latimers 3-hr-drive-away parents to help us move #just /across town/. and we had a whole month between leases! but it still had to be done in a weekend

[mrdrhenwardhykle]

Social anxiety is finding someone you feel comfortable talking about subjects to, but you're never really sure when they are actually wanting to discuss basic FNAF lore or just think you're being annoying again

#me and a friend had a in-depth conversation about it on Halloween and now he's like 'yeah okay' #we had such a good conversation as well I was prepared to bring evidence HEAAAAAAAAA #I am so sorry it is just a strong brain worm #FNAF 1-3 lore #classic FNAF I mean #no SL or Pizza Sim #I have no clue how to process any of that :p #AND NO FNAF4 BECAUSE IT HAS BEEN RETCONNED AND RE-EXPLAINED AGAIN AND AGAIN AND STILL WON'T MAKE SENSE #EVERYONE has a totally different explanation for it and I'm not hearing anyone out on a reasonable explanation #fnaf #five nights at freddys #tbh this was like the first time he saw me in glasses since high school #and I kind of have a glasses theory that people treat me differently because of them-and I've seen it a bit with him #because people seem to act like I'm less responsible and interesting with them on than without them #is that wild???? idk

[keeps-ache]

little soup cans are some of the neatest things we have, wish there were more soup-can-like things in this world

#just me hi #though canopeners need to stop being deadly weapons to some degree before that hfhs #'they're not deadly tho ?' well usually yes. but did you know that they can age Badly? i did not! #and the one I was using was dulled to an extent that it would Skip over a part of the can #(nearly the same spot every time lol) and when I thought I'd managed to fool it and had only #the tiniest bit of metal between me and some beans (pretty sure it was beans) I thought #'ohh I'll just pull up the can lid :)' Well the lid snapped off completely towards and Into my hand #and I had a bean-can wound on my pinky for about a week or so. I do not know how long it's been lol #//but soup cans are pretty cool I feel like they're kinda underappreciated !! #you can just have Soup ? Whenever ??? and it's Normal !! wow :D #sure making soup is pretty great. but that's a process man. and we're not even associates #[<- 'a process I am (not) intimate with'] #like there is a little can of menudo in the pantry rn - medunito they call it isn't that just !! - and it's just there. it can be made in #like 10 minutes. is this Not the best thing ever ! ? #//I've also gotta figure out this sleeping thing that I've got going on (everybody has it going on) #I was maybe half a week into actually have a consistent thing going but the night I stopped was bc I am a sucker of a storyteller and we #were up til about. I think 4-6 a.m. #that's on me yes. my siblings vs. my desire to tell stories and rubber willpower hfbdh #a deadly match truly #and also I lost my snoopy watch (RIP snoopy watch you will be missed (I can't find it send help Waough)) and that was the only clock I had #in this room so now if I wanna know the time I have to go the living room - which is like a whole dang thing lemme tell you about it #/first I've gotta get up - easiest thing by far - and get to the door - assuming I don't get KO'd by my siblings' belongings on the floor - #get to the door. the door Is broken to some extent. opening it means a loud THDPD noise is sent throughout the entire house lol. and you #have to yank on the thing to get it open - so double effort there - and then you step out into the hallwayish area where you can then enter #the living room - oh so easy! but No! you then have to either turn on the kitchen lights and wake everyone with their door open or sleeping #in the living room for whatever reason Orrr you have to clamber over chairs pots perhaps a cat if you've got real bad luck that night to ge #up nice n personal to the clock so you can read the dang thing and see it's 11:23. which is like nothing so you stay up Anyway and do not #check the clock again because not only was that a hassle but also you released every creature that was in the room with you (that's a lot o #noise). but Yea the clock situation is ongoing hfbsh #'why don't you get a clock' that would be much too easy loll :) (last one disappeared and we keep forgetting lol) //ran out of tag space so

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for avi jones:

What’s something that makes them laugh every single time? Be specific! (note: you don't have to be specific)

What’s their instinct in a fight / flight / freeze / fawn situation?

If they committed one petty crime / misdemeanor, what would it be? Why?

Do they give tough love or gentle love most often? Which do they prefer to receive?

answer any you want to/any that apply :3

(sorry it took so long for me to get to this ! as a bonus i shall include a picture of them)

What’s something that makes them laugh every single time? Be specific!

avi jones is definitely a nervous laugher, so tbh i think the most likely thing to make them laugh Every single time is being put in awkward situation where they don't know what else to do. also, the more likely they are to be caught completely off-guard by a joke, the more likely they are to laugh at it- much more than if they were expecting it in any possible way

What’s their instinct in a fight / flight / freeze / fawn situation?

the boring but true answer is "it depends" - growing up, their immediate instinct was always Fawn, but that's a habit they've worked really hard to kill.

when attempting to confront a personal issue, they'll pretty much always default to Flight; they are Very good at running away from and ignoring the ugly truths they don't want to recognize.

however, when confronted with an Actual Life Threatening Emergency, such as An Actual Monster Is Attacking Them (monster of the week, my beloved ttrpg), all their usual anxiety and caution goes straight out the window and their default impulse is Fight. There is a danger, they are qualified to handle it, by god, they're gonna be Useful even if it kills them. they rush headfirst into danger and only panic later when they realize how stupid it was.

If they committed one petty crime / misdemeanor, what would it be? Why?

this is funny because nowadays at like, 26 years old, they're the most straitlaced put-together-acting nerd who never goes out and has only attended awkward office holiday parties, so most people would be surprised to hear about the very non-hypothetical drug possession charges they had back in college OOPS. if you asked them about it now they'd say something like haha well everyone got a little crazy in college but the real answer is they were like, having a devastating mental breakdown with zero actual coping mechanisms in place. its okay they got better (they don't think they need therapy but they desperately do)

Do they give tough love or gentle love most often? Which do they prefer to receive?

ooh this is interesting. i think gentle love. they're bad at expressing themself directly but a little gesture means a lot to them- when they care they'll remember your coffee order, finish up a task for you without telling you because they know you're stressed, make sure to have the kind of snacks you like in stock. they've gotten enough shit over time under the guise of "tough love" that they shy away and would rather offer the "i'm here if you need me" kind of love, and they'd probably want the same in return. sometimes they need someone who can be hard on them, but that person has to know the right time to not risk scaring them off, y'know?

#thank u so much for asking !! they are one of my specialist little guys and i don't think i've made any posts abt them yet #my ocs #avi jones #my art #they are a paranormal scientist working with a (shady underground) agency (that is definitely manipulating their ass) #to analyze the supernatural happenings of their town #they originally signed on to do labwork but much to their dismay got moved into Field Work due to an open position #they do Not want to go Monster Hunting. they want to do Lab Reports. #but theyre making the most of it and definitely not experiencing traumas beyond their wildest comprehensions in the process #hence the premature white hair. Most Sane Monster Hunting Geek #anyways im obsessed with them. their parents contacted them for the first time in 5 years to let them know they are getting a divorce #and their reaction was pretty much just Lol. Finally. #theyve had a special interest in the ghostbusters since they were like 8 years old #and they PROMISE thats not why theyre on the career path theyre on now they SWEAR (its not Entirely why but yeah its a big part of it) #anyways i can talk about them forever