#our past life

[volchiitza]

clearly trying to stop fixating on "productivity" has actually improved my focus

#gradblr #phdblr #phd life #phd #studyblr #study motivation #listen tumblr's new thing where you can copy paste previous tags and they paste as tags instead of a line of tags is impressive #omggg you can also edit the text in a tag?????!!!! #hello when did tumblr actually start listening to our suggestions and implementing them??? #look i know those are fake flowers but hey my office is a little bleak and i needed some reminders of happiness and fresh flowers are #difficult because a) they dont sell them near campus and b) i go in pretty sporadic so they wilt and die so easily #even though the same flowers would last weeks when i get them for the house

[evakant]

wei wuxian smiling at his shidis yunmeng jiang disciples as they rush to and swarm around jiang cheng THE UNTAMED (2019) — episode fifty

#recognition through the other. projection on the other. ''haha i used to do that'' (won't follow that thought any further**) #**for risk of losing his damn mind about it. we do not think about the past here no sir! it's all in his previous life! #theuntamededit #cqledit #mdzsedit #cdramaedit #wei wuxian #jiang cheng #yunmeng jiang #yunmeng shuangjie #dramasource #dailyasiandramas #cdramasource #cinemapix #usercreate #userthing #fdstuff #the untamed #rs: in our next lives #sort of !! oh well you know what i mean #i LOVE their wooden sheathes !!!!!!! #also remember that tag pointing out that it cannot be a coincidence that zizhen is wearing something so very close #to yunmeng jiang's color palette?? well. i did not particularly focus on him. everyone here has the same layers; quick and dirty coloring #and yet here we are.... who would have thunk it. #anyway wow these are ROUGH!! sorry <3 maybe i should have kept aspect ratio instead of cutting them up in squares?? mhhh...

[sherokutakari]

Okay but can we have Mary meet Ed

PLEASE can we have Mary meet Ed?

#Our Flag Means Death #OFMD #OFMD 2 #Our Flag Means Death 2 #SUPER EXTRA BIG BONUS POINTS IF IT'S RANDOM AND SANS-STEDE #idk why they meet butnthey end up talking about Life #Ed loves her bc she found the love of her life after her husband died #and when it turns out he faked his death she decided he was gonna die anyway and Ed LOVES THAT for her #Mary hates him at first bc big annoying pirate man and she has had eNOUGH of pirate nonsense #thankyouverymuch #but then ends up loving him bc he literally chose life and love and happiness over a past he no longer identifies with #and she starts to view him as a kindred spirit #THEN Stede can show up and it all starts to fall into place in the most hilarious way #initiate spiderman points all around #please you know it would be hilarious #BlackBonnet #GentleBeard #spoilers #only very vaguely by name

[blueskingdom]

screw the leafs have auston’s side profile instead

#cause wtf is going on #cant even bring myself to watch any third period anymore #do we not learn from our past mistakes?? #apparently fucking not #can we not do empty nets again. i beg. #tell myself i dont care #yet here we are #see yall back on thursday.. #( #HERE FROM THE FUTURE OMHEJCNKSLG #papi hatty and a win life is good #) #anyway have some am34 side profile cause we need to find joy wherever possible #peak the sweater paws though #babygirlism actually #toronto maple leafs #maple leafs #auston matthews #am34

[someiicecube]

made the mistake of looking through the Clifford Holden tag on here and was :( to see the lack of content for him here

(unwatermarked and bonus edits below the Cliff)

#god nobody understands me and my desire to take a bite out of this man #i had some old writings in the drafts that made me think about him again :((( #the drafts make me cringe but good lord was past me free #i respect them for that highkey #old stuff #our life edits #our life: beginnings & always #clifford holden #cliff holden #icemakesedits #queue

[aishazero9i18r]

I love that even when Tot clearly mentions that Yugo’s relationship with Amalia was not his first, we as fandom just agreed that

AMALIA WAS YUGO’S FIRST KABKSBDJDBHD

Personal headcanon: Yugo always attracted to the same soul that is now become Amalia so yea soulmate :)

#wakfu #wakfu season 4 #wakfu yugo #wakfu amalia #yumalia #we all know that amalia was Yugo’s first #it’s Canon in our head and heart UvU #but Imagine if Yugo was with someone in the past that someone is the same soul with the one that now becomes Amalia #and in the next life these two souls will be reunited once again although amalia will go by as someone else #amalia becomes someone else in her next life but still ending up with Yugo #true soulmate at its finest so true so true #i’m just this pathetic in making hc am i

[redcallisto]

Dan Heng & Jing Yuan

#honkai star rail #doodle #dan heng #imbibitor lunae #jing yuan #i was thinking about DH's past and made myself sad #he really spent nearly all of his life in the prison huh :( #everyone say thank you to JY for freeing our boy

[maulfucker]

So fucked up that obimaul is a rarepair. What do you mean not everyone is obsessed with enemies to lovers with a Force connection, where one side is completely obsessed with the other who barely acknowledges him (but is just as affected)

#hm i should make an original post tag #obimaul #like. say what you want but obi-wan saw a random dathomirian zabrak and immediately went 'maul?? alive??' #he DOES care about maul he just doesn't actively seek him out like maul does #post prompted by this song that makes me think about Maul in his crime lord era‚ all the luxury of the world within his reach‚ #but none of it satisfies him because what he really wants is to find (and kill) kenobi #'another night up in the best suite; everything's gone wrong already‚ my body admits; dreaming so high the floor is the limit; #once again i got lost.. [...] another night i give myself‚ top of a skyscraper; i'm the king of the world‚ dreams for rent; #and when i look at myself i sigh with a low voice‚ 'i don't feel bad i just feel nothing'' #(<- song is são paulo‚ 2015 by jão) #it's a song about feeling dissatisfied with the life of fame because there's an emptiness he can't fill with sex drugs or luxuries #and from the context of the album it's likely he's thinking about a past lover he's still not over #so. imagine with me. #i might make something out of this. maybe. #but like. posting about songs that make me think obimaul thoughts. not very productive. almost no audience. #... and while making this post i've been attacked by yet another song with a very obimaul words #'lie to me‚ run from me‚ we swear it doesn't count‚ in this way of ours‚ but it's not because i hate you that i can't kiss you anymore' #<- pilantra by jão and anitta

[imminent-danger-came]

Protecting MK with a costlmk

#I will take my SWK and Mei parallel crumbs thank you #Like. Getting attacked by the curse and throwing yourself in front of MK (to which there are consequences) and then getting separated #Using your power to protect the people you care about indeed #So they both do it for MK but MK does it for Wukong in 4x13 #And then what's the consequence? Going into Monkey Form #AND THEN. And then #If EAMK proves true and MK had a fucked up past life #We can then apply Azure's speech to MK: ''After all MK has put you through...'' #Let me have this. #My ''MK killed the pilgrims'' agenda continues #Damn originally I was going to go on a ''protecting MK at a cost'' rant for why the exchange theme will ruin our lives #But I really got side tracked there #Anyways: MK's one life against the world #lmk #lego monkie kid #lmk parallels #lmk SWK #lmk Mei #lmk theme: exchange #opening my third eye tonight

[floccinaucinihilipilificationa]

Are you still active on tumblr?

YES I am!! Sorry friends for dropping off the face of the earth, I got a job and I had to move and it was a lot. But I am less stressed now and I hope I can get back to posting more regularly!! I really missed it (ﾉ^ヮ^)ﾉ*:・ﾟ✧

I will never leave tumblr because there is no other place on the internet where I can tell people that 80% of the time when I try to introduce myself to someone in the office that I haven’t met yet I get so focused on smiling and holding eye contact that I forget the part where I actually have to introduce myself (°□°)

#HELLO FRIENDS #how are you!! I missed you! ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ #I hope you all had a good summer!! #mine was very nice even though there was a lot of stress and new things happening #suddenly there were so many adult things in my life that at the end of the day I just sat on the couch and watched decorating shows #I love decorating shows but today they showed this decorating competition and one woman had to decorate her whole bedroom coral #and then I knew it was time to go back #friends I've done so many new things the past few weeks!! I've really underestimated what this new chapter of my life would be like #it's very nice and I'm glad but I've never thought about things like insurance and taxes and parallel parking before #and I'm in a new apartment and everything!! ✧⁺⸜(●′▾‵●)⸝⁺✧ #it is a very good apartment but the landlord left us so many of their chairs #this does not sound like a problem but we also owned chairs before #so our chair number is doubled now #the kitchen is full of chairs the balcony is full of chairs #I've hidden two chairs behind the TV but I can still see their chair heads and then I feel bad because they do not deserve this #they should be roaming free #also rode a BIKE #they say you never forget how to ride a bike #but my secret is that I never really knew how to ride one #in Germany all students have to do a bicyle test in fourth grade and I was so bad that my teacher asked me #afterwards if I had tried to confuse the other students #I just said 'uh yes' and then he said ok and I passed with the worst bicyle grade of the whole school #I hade made 8 bicyle mistakes #I hope you're doing well friends!! see you soon!! #have a nice day :)

[dyingbuck]

step 4 meeting prediction

#fay talks #our life beginning and always #baxter ward #yes im still thinking about how the meeting in step 4 could take place #for me its either 1. baxter contact us bc he decide to make amends with his past or 2. we meet randomly #both would be awkward but 2 is funnier to imagine (and more likely imo) #our life #our life beginnings & always

[sensationseekng]

izzy as the eight of cups - giving up and moving on, courage and loss, letting go of friends, lovers, and old ways of being

(that's the inn in the distance)

eight of cups description from Little Red Tarot:

#is this ghost izzy on a ghost ship? alive izzy on the revenge? alive izzy on his own? ghost izzy on the revenge? yes :) #im so so pro Izzy living his own life and not haunting Ed and maybe coming back to visit and learning how to be actual friends with Ed #i came to this pairing for the x rated violent fan fic #but all I want for them post season 2 is learning how to be gentle with th each other #become trustworthy #learn how to love each other better!!! #Izzy is both dead and alive in my universe thank you for understanding #description from little red tarot is exactly what I am going for #(is this about my relationship w the show? maybe a little) #I’ve had this idea in my head for months now but when I heard the show was cancelled it was like well now I gotta make it RIGHT NOW #my horse girl past serves me well when it’s time to draw the hoof #izzy hands #ofmd #our flag means death #our flag means fanart #israel hands #edizzy #blackhands

[life-winners-liveblog]

Watching Third Life session 6

Part 5

Martyn: That's a surprisingly smart bunker-trap.

Grian: What is that supposed to mean? I'll have you know I was the best trap maker in the server.

Martyn: Suuure

Scott: And yet I feel that it's going to be the one to work the least.

Pearl: Same.

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#trafficblr #traffic series #grian #scott smajor #pearlescentmoon #martyn inthelittlewood #third life #liveblog #/So where is your candidate/ #Should be here now... #... Now... #//Hi where am I?// #/... A Jimmy? Seriously Scar?/ #This is a special Jimmy Scott... He is the ghost of Life series past #/.../ #//That was actually a jok-// #The Watchers gave you a bit of their magic to allow you to comunicate with your Grian beyond the grave #You are who we need to be our messanger with the black void #//... Alright? I guess? *Woof*// #/Oh god he barked/

[jakeperalta]

so in crazy life news.. as of today I own a house 🫨

#it's all a very unconventional situation since we're buying from family which means we've been able to spend the past 7 months doing the #many renovation works required so at this point it has our decoration and our choice of kitchen and bathroom and everything #but today it became Official that it is ours and then we move in on friday #which is literally the most insane thing to happen in my life #talking

[fjordfolk]

people really be out there like “I wonder what this breed called a Shetland sheepdog was used for historically? alas it’s impossible to tell, we may never know” 🤦‍♀️

There is, believe it or not, some actual controversy regarding the breed origins and most of it (imo) stems from many people's mental image of a working sheepdog is a border collie, and not quite grasping that border collies are freaks and the way that we now work border collies didn't exist prior to the development of the border collie, and in some parts the way we keep SHEEP didn't exist prior to the border collie. There's also been some debate around old letters written by non-shetlanders after visiting the isles or talking to locals and having mmm interesting ideas of how people handled sheep over there. This leads to statements like:

Sheltie legs are too short to outrun sheep

They're also too small to grab the sheep and hold it (don't get me started)

A sheltie could never take sheep through a- (name specific type of herding trial)

Maybe they were actually placed with flocks on peripheral islands to keep watch for birds??

Shelties never existed and were made up in the late 1800s just for shetlanders to make money off of selling cute puppies to gullible tourists

There was an original sheepdog on Shetland but it was a much bigger dog (see reasons above) and the current sheltie was made up in the late 1800s, by breeding cavaliers to pomeranians and maybe a collie, just for shetlanders to sell puppies to tourists

...and so, clearly, they can't have been sheepdogs and we have No Clue what they were actually for (except scamming foreigners)

Meanwhile we know that traditional shepherding on Shetland relied on roaming sheep, keeping them off the property rather than on it (because that's where your crops are) and you'd only be rounding up your sheep a couple of times a year, and that island-bred shelties were smaller and spitzier type than even the current UK type.

#life is full of mysteries #and like. i know i have a particular interest in this because I'm interested in the historical development of Norwegian agriculture #and how that has been shaped by industry and politics because that is very much an ongoing issue #and that we have a similar climate and heritage breeds with similar traits and origins #and i grew up in this. and how we live and how we have lived and the animals involved in that is yknow. part of our cultural identity #and it MATTERS. #and so i have pegs to hang it on #and it baffles me #how short our memory is and how little imagination we have for how things have been done in the past

[even-disco-baby]

YOU — “No. There is still a chance.”

DOLORES DEI — “You think so?” Her voice is weary.

EMPATHY — Everything about her is weary. She is the Innocence of weariness, of heroically borne suffering.

CONCEPTUALIZATION — That is the picture you have painted for yourself, at any rate.

YOU — “You looked back. That’s the memory, the moment, that I can’t stop returning to. You looked back. I had a chance, for just that moment…”

DOLORES DEI — She meets your eye, gaze still forever cast back over her shoulder. Time stops. The stars are stilled, the ocean silent. There is *nothing* beyond this memory. Nothing at all. All of infinity is contained in this single moment when anything and everything was possible.

“Oh, Harry…” She sighs, soft as eiderdown. “We never had any chance.”

And just like that, the wave of time collapses under its own weight, obliterating everything. This moment was six years ago. She is gone from here. Gone, gone…

PAIN THRESHOLD — You cannot leave. There was nothing outside of this moment, and now there is nothing at all. It’s all gone. There is no point. I’m sorry. I can’t do this any longer.

VOLITION — Please, don’t say that…

“Okay. Well, fuck me, then.”

“How would *you* know?! You gave up! You didn’t even try!”

“We *must* have had a chance, at some point… Doesn’t everyone get a chance, if nothing more?”

“How could you say that…?”

DOLORES DEI — “Because it’s true,” she says, matter-of-fact. “There is no moment in time that you can turn back to, no branching paths, no infinity. There is only what happened. I looked back… and then away.” She closes her eyes, turning her back to you.

“The moment ended. *We* ended. That is all.”

SHIVERS — A wave crashes against an unseen shore, ocean spray tickling the back of your neck. You shiver, but no one shivers with you. You are alone in this intersection. Why are you here?

“Why can’t *I* end?! Why can’t this all just stop? Please, make it stop…”

“Ended? I’ve barely even started! I got a chance to start completely over as somebody new! I don’t need you anymore! You’re just dead weight to me now.”

“No. That wasn’t the real ending. We’re a part of something so much bigger than this intersection, telling a story that encapsulates all of history! There’s *more* to this, it *means* something.”

“Then… What am I supposed to do now…?”

DOLORES DEI — “No, Harry.” She turns back to you again now, and she looks… sad.

“We were not metaphors. We were people. Our narrative was not intelligently designed. It simply followed the patterns of history, because those are the only patterns we *know.* We tried to create something new, but we failed. There is no narrative reward for our failure, no satisfactory ending. There is only the immutable past and the unknowable future.”

RHETORIC — There is no assurance of what is good or deserved or what may bring relief. There is no assurance of punishment, either. There is no assurance of anything. Not even of a future. I don’t know what to say to make this bearable.

VOLITION — Even so… As long as you live, *something* is promised. Can you live with that?

I can’t, I just can’t do this anymore…

I can. It’s enough.

I don’t know. I just don’t know.

I can at least try for a little longer…

VOLITION — That’s all I ask. That’s enough.

#disco elysium #harry du bois #dolores dei #suicide tw #ummmmm haha *twirls hair* #sorry this isn’t more of the dolores saga im really trying to get back into the swing of things 😭 #this is smth that won’t make it into the saga but that i was thinking about nonetheless #im not too fond of the whole ‘’dora is literally dolores dei’’ thing tbh #i feel that the mundanity is what makes their story impactful #and also just. makes it feel like somebody is kinda going overboard on projecting onto their proxy ex. lmao 😭 #idk like the metaphor gets a little TOO metaphorical for me. but that’s just my onion. im an rgu fan so who am i to judge #anyway this is more my take on the harry/dora story #which is that dora was Just Some Guy and ultimately we have to live w the fact that we’ll never get the full story #because she literally exited the narrative #we can speculate about what her and harry’s relationship was like and how much of the blame is on each of them #dora’s lack of class consciousness vs harry’s violent misogyny etc etc #and like. it’s not that there’s no value in examining those things bc there definitely is value in it #in examining what patterns you DO see repeating in your life and in the world around you #that is what politics is really… examining the system and all its moving parts #but ultimately the past is immutable… our perception of it changes as we gain new context and understanding but what’s past is past #and there is no way of knowing with any certainty what the future holds #that’s where the overlap of all of these political and personal conflicts is for me #and why it comes back to harry questioning whether it’s worth it to even live #it’s about whether or not you can live with the grief of the past and the uncertainty of the future #i want to learn to live with it… to work toward building a future that i want to live in #anyway. coughs