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#pissbaby which is what I’m doing lol
mrburnsnuclearpussy · 6 months
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#all you have to create is something about skinny white men in love and everyone will care about you and them#anything else is just nothing to you ppl lol#what’s the point of trying to be an artist I swear I just wanna give up coz I can’t create enough finished art in general#WHY CANT I DRAW LIKE I DID WHEN I WAS A KID. it felt so easy and now I’m scared to do it for no reason ugh!!#i wish I was interested in the same things as everyone else coz at least then the quality wouldn’t matter and people would care anyway#sorry I know this comes across as really childish and mean and yeh it is I’m just venting#coz sometimes I look at certain popular profiles and stuff and it makes me ache coz I’ll never be a part of the big club where you can feel#love and I’ll never be able to coz I’m just a robot thing with no humanity!!!#even the LITERAL ROBOT is still reduced in the fandom to being shipped like just fuck off all of you#one of my bigger recent passion Roberts is a story and even when I have some motivation and energy I just remember that literally not a sing#single person on earth has any reason to care about it and why should they! so I just feel like crawling into a hole and sulking like a piss#pissbaby which is what I’m doing lol#just because it’s not about young skinny men and the ‘purity/beauty/divinity/superiority of romantic love </3’ and#and YUMMY SQUISHY ORGANIC RED PASSIONATE things because illl never be a part of all of that anyway#I’m not amazing I don’t have the inherent drama and meaningfulness of romantic love in me as a potential so I’m basically nothing#my life means nothing because i can’t feel the one thing that matters#-(one thing that matters according to the world and like all communities and societies and any place to feel like you’re a part of somethin#)#and if your broken (empty of romantic love) like me you’re told to go play by yourself in the corner and not complain that#everyone else gets to be in the group#‘just do your own thing it doesn’t matter what society thinks’ is well meaning and <3 but for me I just hear ‘don’t be a part of us’#what if I want to be a part of something? what if I want society to know and understand me?
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gwormly · 10 months
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jojo sexuality headcanons lmao parts 1-3
ive scrounged the internet (well, lightly sifted through and then got bored) for a jojos bizarre adventure sexuality headcanons post that I agreed with completely and I literally could not find any so here’s my opinion that nobody asked for 😘
feel free to argue with me in the comments I’ll probably respond lol
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first up Jonathan joestar- straight ally
I think most people can agree that Jonathan is probs the straightest joestar (that I know of, I’ve read up to part 7 but I’ve heard gappy is pretty fucking straight) but yeah he’s straight
He probs doesn’t even fully understand what being not straight is but if someone he knew came out to him he would be very supportive even if he didn’t know what it rlly meant
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speedwagon-gay
idk if this is a hot take or not but this man did not have any sort of interest in women and was never married which if he was gay would make since back then bc being not straight wasn’t the norm lmao also there was that one scene in part 2 where Joseph was implying that speedwagon might’ve felt something more than friendship for jonathan so that’s why i think this
(I’m not gonna do dio bc his bisexuality was already confirmed by the one and only araki so that doesn’t rlly need an explanation 😭)
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joseph joestar: bicurious (female leaning)
I was scratching my head tryna come up with a sexuality for this fucker and eventually settled for bicurious bc we all know that there was sum going on with him and caesar but also he had a wife whom he cheated on with another woman so I mean
caesar was def his awakening that he might like men but sadly the rocks smashed caesar before Joseph could 😔 also Joseph wears far too many crop tops to be straight like let’s be honest
(bicurious applies to oldseph aswell)
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Caesar zeppeli: homoromantic bisexual
dis bro would never date women. but eat them out? Hell fucking yeah
he like dick too tho bc ik damn well if this hoe didn’t get crushed by a rock he would not have a wife like bro what
The words caesar and wife have no business being in the same sentence. Yk this hoe would have a hella 100% Italian husband named like Giuseppe or some shit who would only eat spaghetti for dinner literally every night
this poor dude just wanted some joestarussy but we all know that rocks are homophobic 😔
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lisa lisa-lesbian
she’s lesbian bc I said so she married a dude bc she was bored ok I literally do not care what anybody says
look at her
she’s a lesbian
for all the pillarmen it literally depends on the day, like one day they have big buff boyfriends and then a good nights sleep will make them like homophobic superstraights
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jotaro kujo: gay demiromantic asexual (sex indifferent)
first off jotaro really does not strike me as the type to think about romantic relationships all that much and definitely does not consider anybody for a romantic relationship upon first meeting them. he needs time to feel something more than platonic. I’ve seen people say that he’s aroace which I do think could be possible but I personally think that he does want love and care wether it be platonic or romantic
asexual just makes sense for him I’m pretty sure the majority of the fandom (not including the homophobic pissbabies) can agree with this. he doesn’t understand how people can just look at someone and feel attracted to them, bro probably discovered asexuality when he saw a meme that he related to and saw the asexual hashtags in the caption bro
also he’s just gay. like there is no way that he likes anybody except men. if this bro wanted a gf he’s got plenty of hoes to choose from. But he didn’t. Also he treats his hoes like shit lmao
and don’t even THINK about bringing up his wife (whom didn’t even have a name cause she was so unimportant, for convenience I’m gonna call her samantha smith) bc you and me both know damn well that samantha smith only exists to continue the bloodline. we also all know damn well that araki would make plot points that contradict against characters to continue the story. people who think jotaro is straight need to get real
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noriaki kakyoin: panromantic aceflux
listen I was going to say he was gay but I changed my mind because I really can’t imagine him caring about gender all that much. he does look like a twink tho I can’t deny it
Also araki did actually confirm that kakyoin likes both men and women (he said something along the lines of “I could see kakyoin falling in love with a man” idk I’m too lazy to look up exact wording) but I mean you can take one look at this dude and be able to tell that he is both not straight and has pronouns. I mean look at him
also I’m tired of people characterizing him as the UwU pissbaby fucktoy so he’s aceflux 1. Because I said so and 2. Because it just makes sense idk how to explain it
(ps if I see a kakyoin milf hunter joke in the comments to argue against kakyoin being not straight im going to fire a missile at your house bc telling the same joke for like 15 years isn’t funny luv xx)
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polnareff: pansexual
dis bro is desperate. he can’t be affording to care about gender man he’s tried to rizz up like 15 genders and failed at all of them you think he can actually afford to be anything but pansexual? also he fr fr just gives off stereotypical chaotic pansexual vibes
jokes aside tho he def don’t care. aslong as you give him validation you’ve already won him over
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muhammad avdol: gay demiromantic demisexual
he don’t really think about it all that much he only realizes if he likes somebody after he’s super close to them definitely. He do have a touch of the gay tho
if you disagree with any of these I would love to hear your headcanons in the comments!/gen
pls no like super heated arguments tho lol
also I might do parts 4-7 in another post cause this was fun asf
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msweebyness · 7 months
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MirrorVerse Special- Halloween Town Trolls (Happy 30th Anniversary Nightmare Before Christmas!)
Hellllo, my fine, fright-loving folks! Exciting news! This year marks the 30th anniversary of one of the greatest holiday films ever, so Sparky and I decided to celebrate by doing a special involving our characters from the Disney AU's who come from said film! Keep an eye out for two more surprises from me (one largely from Artzy, lol.) Enjoy! @artzychic27 @imsparky2002
(Set During Senior Year)
(Holding a portal open, BluRore gazes sternly at the two Halloween Town natives standing in front of her, both bearing maniacal grins.)
BluRore: Now remember, you two. Don’t cause too much trouble. Heavens know these people have enough to deal with already, with him being about…
(Eri places a bony hand over her heart)
Eri Skellington: Not to fear, dear fairy! We have but one target in this endeavor. He alone will suffer the dregs of our mischief!
SalAnthony: Translation: We’re only gonna punk the Boogie, we won’t bother anyone else.
BluRore: (Nods with a sigh) Good. Now, with that out of the way…(smiles wickedly) Give that jackass hell!
(The two nod with devious smiles of their own, before stepping through the portal)
*SCENE CUT: Ivan Oogie’s Lair*
(The villainous Ivan Oogie cackles menacingly as he watches his bugs and critters wreak havoc in Halloween Town, ruining the preparations the townsfolk had worked so hard on.)
Ivan Oogie: (Laughs with pure malice) Lookit ‘em, runnin’ around like chickens with no heads! What a bunch’a suckers!
(Suddenly, he hears an odd tapping noise from outside his lair.)
Ivan Oogie: (Eyes narrow) What the…
(He steps outside to investigate…only to be whacked in the schnoz by a severed blue hand.)
Ivan Oogie: What in the Sam Hill?! Who-
(He’s cut off when the hand rounds back and slaps him across the face, before scuttling into the shadows around his lair. Two voices laugh from somewhere unseen.)
Ivan Oogie: A’RIGHT, WHO’S THA WISEASS, HUH?! SHOW YOURSELVES, ‘FORE I LOSE MY PATIENCE! WHO’S THERE?!
Eri Skellington: (From the darkness, in a voice with an exaggerated southern accent) It’s yer mama, Boogie Boy! Hauntin’ you for killin’ me, which ya did because yer a bitchass motherfucker!
SalAnthony: (Snickers, also hidden in the shadows) A little pissbaby, who’s scared of widdle bunny wabbits!
Ivan Oogie: (Trembling with fury) GET OUT ‘ERE AN’ FACE ME, YA ROTTEN LIL FREAKS! I’M THA KING’A THIS TOWN!
(The two just laugh at him again, angering him even further as he tries to see through the thick shadows.)
SalAnthony: Yo, jackass!
(Eri’s parasol whacks Ivan over the head, momentarily stunning him, but she disappears back into the darkness before he can spot her. This enrages him, of course.)
Ivan Oogie: I'M GONNA RIP YA TO BITS! DON'T Y'ALL KNOW NOT TO GAMBLE YER LIVES ON MESSIN WITH THE BOOGEYMAN?!
(SalAnthony’s hand slaps him upside the head.)
SalAnthony: Ooooh, we made him angy, Eri! I'm sooo scared! (Snickers)
Eri Skellington: Now, now, my dear doll, I believe it’s time we made our entrance, don’t you agree?
(The two suddenly appear behind Ivan Oogie, giving earsplitting shrieks as they make their most terrifying faces. He jumps, and it takes every ounce of willpower the young boogey has not to scream in terror.)
Ivan Oogie: So ya f-finally get the guts ta sh-show yer faces! Th-that the b-best ya got?
(The two give each other sly grins)
Eri Skellington: Of course not! A little friend of ours wants to say hello as well. (She pulls out a fluffy grey rabbit with green eyes.)
(The boogeyman lets out a high squeal.)
SalAnthony: He's Jesse's stress bunny. His name is Antonio. Isn’t he just the cutest thing in the world, Oogie? (Cackles)
Ivan Oogie: (Falls back on the ground and scrambles away) GET THAT BEADY-EYED LIL BUGGER AWAY FROM ME!
Eri Skellington: (Cackles with glee) What's this? What's this? He's screaming like a loon! He's pissed, what bliss! And he'll start crying soon!
SalAnthony: Damn, will he ever, hold it together? No, I think not, never to become. This fool is simply too much fun!
Ivan Oogie: (Scowls) Just wait till my Pun’Kin finds out ‘bout this! Y'all’re gonna be sorry when we slice ya up and eat ya for dinner!
SalAnthony: (Scoffs) Sorry, boyo, but your calamari cocktease doesn't scare us, and neither do you!
(Ivan is about to shout at him not to speak that way about his scallop, but Eri cuts him off.)
Eri Skellington: Well, it’s at least something of a comfort that you at least won’t kill your Tonsil Hockey partner to boost your fragile ego! (Examines her nails)
(Ivan Oogie splutters, only for SalAnthony to set the stage for the next blow)
SalAnthony: Well, Bones, he’s also got a soft spot for his baby sistew, doesn’t he? (Smirks devilishly)
Eri Skellington: (Giggles) That’s true! So much so that he’s a regular honored guest at her tea parties! (She pulls out her phone, where she had somehow procured an image of him sitting at Sasha’s small tea table with her, wearing a glittery princess tiara and a pink feather boa)
Ivan Oogie: (Eyes shoot open wide as he stammers, his face a mask of shock and mortification) WH-WHERE DID YA GET THAT?!
Eri Skellington: I have my ways, it’s neither here nor there! (Giggles) But rest assured, no one but me and dear Anthony have see-(Makes a show of ‘accidentally’ tapping something on the screen) (Gasps, covering her mouth with her hand) Oh, dear me! It seems I just sent it to the entire student body of the DuPont Reform Academy. Dreadfully sorry! (She and Anthony cackle)
(Ivan Oogie screams in rage)
Ivan Oogie: YOU BONE-BRAINED BITCH!
(He grabs her by the throat…only for his scream to change to one of pain when she effortlessly bent his wrist the wrong way, her expression calm as she drew her parasol out)
Eri Skellington: (Icy Tone) Did no one ever teach you not to touch a lady without permission, imbecile?
SalAnthony: Never mind him, love. The gist of it is that if he’s hot for them, or they came from the same womb he did, they’re safe. Otherwise, he’s a pathetic little sociopath who gives a bad name to real boogies!
Ivan Oogie: (Puffs out his chest) The rest’a my kind ain’t nothin' but cowards who waste their time bein' goody-goody losers! I'm better than all of 'em combined!
Eri Skellington: (Rolls her eyes) Oh, yes, you're SUCH a macho man! Constantly needing to pick fights with that buffoon friend of yours to prove yourself superior.
SalAnthony: (Scoffs) The only thing he has over that moron is that he doesn't beat women.
(Ivan Oogie snarls)
Eri Skellington: (Giggles mockingly) I would almost argue intelligence too, but it's too small of a margin to really be sure.
Ivan Oogie: (Crosses his arms) Y’know, it ain't very HERO-like of y'all to come here jus’ to rough me up an’ call me names.
SalAnthony: (Rolls his eyes and groans) Why do you villains always say that? We are allowed to be petty, you know. Especially to cannibalistic homicidal edgelords.
Eri Skellington: Too true. Pity that your massive egos and minuscule brains can't handle even the most valid criticisms.
Ivan Oogie: W-Well…Y-You…Y’ALL SUCK!
SalAnthony: Oooh, nice one. Come on, Eri, let's go back to a Halloween Town that ISN’T plagued by a burlap sack-looking hick with a ‘Macho Man’ complex!
Eri Skellington: Indeed. I tire of this fool. And you know how much they panic when I disappear close to Halloween time. (Rolls her eyes fondly)
SalAnthony: Mayor's gonna have another conniption, isn't he?
(The two laugh before disappearing through the portal back to their own universe)
Ivan Oogie: Yeah, that's right! Run away! (He begins attempting to console himself) They were too scared to keep pullin' shit. Runnin' away like a couple’a pussies. I'm the best, and ev’rbody knows it.
(He feels a tap on his shoulder)
???: Hey, Dickface!
(He turns with a scowl to see who insulted him…only to drop to his knees with a squeak of pain as he’s kneed right in the groin, by none other than the daughter of his Canon Disney counterpart!)
Darcy Boogie: (Flips Ivan Oogie off, before turning to face us, the audience) Bet ya’ll weren’t expecting that. JJ!
(Her boyfriend gracefully kicks Ivan Oogie right in the head, knocking him out cold, before turning in the direction of the fourth wall.)
JJ Skellington: (Gives a dramatic bow, tipping his signature fedora) Happy anniversary, everyone!
AND SCENE!
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ratcandy · 2 years
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Hey clam be honest
Do you honestly still enjoy AHIT? I’ve noticed a lot of your posts being complaints. If this game is causing mainly negativity I’d suggest you try to drop the interest. Try to focus on interests that actually make you happy. I’m sorry if this comes off as weird but I don’t want you to have to stay in this fandom if all it does is irritate you. You don’t have to cater to us. Do whatever makes you feel best.
Oh worm, I kinda figured something like this would come up eventually.
Do I still enjoy AHIT? - Yes! Uh-huh! I'll be the first motherfucker who jumps on any new content to come out from GFB and I'll consume it readily! I still very much like playing the game and have a great time fucking around in it!
But I think what I enjoy the most at this point is just messing around in my own little versions of the game, plot/story-wise. Fucking around with funny ideas and world-building or my oWn silly character development.
Where most of my complaints come in is well. Yknow. Canon plot and story just frustrates me endlessly, and I think that's been made obvious by the fact I'm writing a whole rant about it. The only other issue with canon being so, uhm, lackluster, is that sometimes fanon or the fandom's interpretations aaarreee nnnott much better - which I think we've all been witness to at one point or another, especially with uhh recent takes - leaving me to just kinda sit here like Well. My city now ig!
So yea. Either canon pissing me off beyond reason or just an interpretation of canon that will (at times irrationally) set me off due to me being an argumentative little pissbaby.
But what I think I should make clear is that I fuckin love debate. Arguing is fun to me. Picking apart what doesn't make sense or outlining why something is wack or wrong is something I find enjoyment in. I love ranting. Specifically in a literature/writing sense because god no do not try to spark argument with me about real world morals or politics or whatever sdKHKJH-- So when I rant and get "mad" and bark and maim and kill over this game oh I'm having a grand old time of it. MmmmOST of the time, because there are certainly exceptions (that has to do more with certain people as opposed to certain game elements, and no, I will not be naming any names because I'm not that much of a bitch lol)
In conclusion yea no, I'm not catering to anyone! I think the fact that I just about readily argue to anything should in and of itself be proof of that pfff I've dropped ahit and meandered around to other interests rather frequently! I just also come back and pick it up again whenever reminded of it. Thinking or ranting about ahit isn't putting any strain on my mental health, don't you worry lmao. If and when I get tired or bored of it I quite easily kick that thing to the curb and go think about zote for a few hours pfff
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firelord-frowny · 2 years
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literally cannot imagine what the fuck it is that my dad gets out of discouraging me from pursuing every fucking Good Idea i ever have. 
in his tiny little pissbaby world, anything that isn’t 100% original is a Waste Of Time and since literally everyfuckingthingintheworld has already been done, may as well just never ever do anything! never create anything! 
i come up with what i KNOW is a good and useful idea for a companion app to go with the violin method book i’m writing, and since he’s always fucking boasting about his ~software developing skills~ and always acting like he’s eager to create an app Eventually, i’m like, oh perfect! i’ll ask him to help me design my app!
🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃
naturally, he barely lets me even finish a fucking sentence before he starts literally desperately googling for an app that Already Does What I’m Talking About, blah blah, why should he ‘put all the time and effort into making an app that already exists’ 
?????????????????????????????????????????
nevermind the fact that it is LITERALLY IMPOSSIBLE FOR MY APP TO “ALREADY EXIST” SINCE IT’S SPECIFIC! TO! MY! METHOD! BOOK! WHICH IS NOT PUBLISHED AND IS TOTALLY UNAVAILABLE.
nevermind the fact that the already-existing apps he kept trying to show me didn’t actually do anything even remotely similar to what i’m talking about and he just flat out dismisses eveything i’m saying as i try to explain why “no, that’s not the same thing.”
and lmfao like. at first, he’d asked if i had any examples to show him what i was talking about, which was a very Reasonable Question bc it is a slightly confusing concept if you don’t already know the foundation of the concept. So I whipped out my Kreutzer etude book, which is probably The Most Popular etude book, and showed him Etude no. 2, and the page adjacent to it that has like 70 different bowings that you’re supposed to apply to the etude. so basically, you’re supposed to play the etude 70 different ways. and i explained how my hypothetical app would make it easy to switch between bowings and whatnot, without having to go through the trouble of having to memorize them, or write them into the music and erase them over and over again, or waste paper on making copies to write on, blah blah. 
and the first thing he does is start Lecturing me about ~copyright laws blah blah infringement~ and im immediately like “no lol kruetzer died like 200 years ago and all of his work is public domain. but that’s not even an issue because i’m not saying i want to make an app for kreutzer’s etudes. i want to make an app for MY etudes, and i’m just explaining the concept by showing you this particular Kreutzer etude.”
so as soon as Potential Copyright Infringement was snatched off the table for a Reason Why My Idea Is Not Worth Pursuing, that’s when he dove right into trying to prove that there’s Already An App For That. 
as if there aren’t already dozens and DOZENS of apps that do the same fucking thing with almost no variation. as if there aren’t all kinds of obscure reasons for why people would choose to use This App over That App and the only difference is that one of the apps has a color scheme that this particular user finds more visually pleasing. 
he’s bitching about how it would take Months And Months To Finish An App Like That
OHHHH YOU MEAN LIKE THE MONTHS AND MONTHS THAT IT TAKES TO WRITE A METHOD BOOK???
THE MONTHS AND MONTHS THAT IT TAKES TO DO LITERALLY ANYTHING WORTH DOING AT ALL????????????
HOW THE FUCKING DO YOU ACCOMPLISH ANYTHING IN LIFE IF YOU WON’T SPEND EVEN JUST ONE SINGLE MONTH ON IT 
ugh, don’t go to college, it takes MONTHS AND MONTHS to graduate! 
don’t become a certified cosmetologist! you’ll waste MONTHS AND MONTHS of your life! 
literally WHY would you spend MONTHS AND MONTHS on anything when instead you could just fucking die!!!!
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ask-fancypants · 3 years
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A Promise is a Promise
I don’t think I’m coming back. I thought I would, but honestly I’ve changed a lot since I used to post here. I feel so separated from everything, I’ve lost all connection to it.
That said, I may as well tell you what was gonna happen. At least what I had planned to happen, which wasn’t that much.
Key story beats I had planned for Fancy:
. find Fleur
. look for creepy Alicorn fuck
. definitely not fight it, the mane six comes in
. wake up feeling exhausted and unmotivated
. train ride to Ponyville
. sort of wallow in the feeling of helplessness induced by the idea that the mane six seems to be the solution to every problem, and dwell on the fact that if there’s a traitor in Canterlot then every friend he’s ever had is a suspect.
. Go back to Canterlot
. Show immense paranoia and standoffishness
. Shooting Star is so obviously the traitor (he’s a red herring)
. Get kidnapped by actual traitor (I think it was Swan Song? Someone generally  assumed to be a sycophant of Fancy’s from what I’ve seen.)
. Shooting Star helps and is all like “I hate your guts, but I like being able to sleep at night without being scared of someone working with some cult lol”
. Buddy-cop movie ensues
. Traitor is unmasked
. They’re deemed mentally unstable, and it’s preferred for them to get professional help
(it gets less detailed from here)
. Look for the reason the cult is so fascinated in some dead bih
. Figure out the dead bih was A. a child and B. not a cannibal and C. Was connected to the pony of shadows in some way, hence the murder as an assumed permanent solution.
. Fancy Pants also has the shadow following him because he’s been through some bullshit lately
. it latches onto Shooting Star more honestly, he’s a pissbaby
. Him being a pissbaby is actually him being a genuinely Not Okay pony and fuck he’s sad
. Monologues about Fancy always expecting someone to be elite and high-society, and always feeling mediocre and worthless due to his expectations, hence the eletism he displays throughout the blog.
. Fancy Pants is like “shit I’m sorry that’s kinda fucked up”
. Shooting Star doesn’t accept apology
. He gets his ass kicked
. it feelsbadman
. that’s it tho, all you can do is grieve the person you lost
. but at least they can cope better now, and avoid past mistakes
. the end
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Discord pt 43
[Date: 23/02, 04.05 PM - 05.01 PM GMT]
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fetch: “oh hey guys I’m not dead or brainwashed from last night lol”
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fetch: “yeah like??? I read back on the muted chat and I legit don’t remember that happening
all I did yesterday was nap and play bugsnax”
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jaynoblade: “fetch... you made a tumblr post about it
give me a second, i’ll show you”
fetch: “no CROWN made a post from my account. I was it already”
jaynoblade: “oh... that explains the red”
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boo: “pardon, crown has access to your account?”
fetch: “I saw that I also sent baron an ask but I don’t remember that either
look I don’t know if he does or not
I mean he obviously did for I thin a little bit? maybe I should change my password”
jaynoblade: “that might be a good idea”
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fetch: “if it makes yall feel any better mona is off work today and last night she said she'd be keeping an eye on me
I get yall were worried about me but take it easy on her she literally could not leave her job lmao
I dont think Walmart is gonna take "my friend is about to get brainwashed by an enderman thing" as an emergency leave excyse”
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fetch: “And yeah just. be careful calling her king, that sounds way too close to a court member. if you're gonna refer to her like that, spell it like k1ng”
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fetch: “so like! i'm not dead that's good! :]
i don't know what weird game crown was playing with me last night”
jaynoblade: “crown's always playing games with all of us, so an extra one comes at no surprise”
fetch: “man I was having such a good time jamming to tunes too
server admins work hard but groovy bot works even harder/j”
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fetch: “anyway sorry if yall saw my half-asleep ramblings in the doc, I'm trying to form some sort of chronological order of events”
jaynoblade: “that's valid! sometimes it's hard to remember things”
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fetch: “anyway i. i had a little bit of a thought yesterday. yknow before the whole delerious screaming because of a music box song thing. but its a pretty far stretch so I don't know if it'll help if I toss this into the ring”
jaynoblade: “oh?”
fetch: “i was thinking. the dreamsmp loves their greek myths right? the whole theseus thing, pandoras vault, etc etc right. i think crown and this court is sort of like the hydra”
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fetch: “i fell out of control (a head gets cut off) and chat and page are still up there (two grow back in its place)"
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fetch: “ what if we try to release someone else from control, but that just gets more people hurt"
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[boo: “we gotta burn the cut head yeah?" ]
boo: “ that's how the hydra was defeated"
fetch: “i always thought he pierced the heart? killed the whole beast rather than just one head
thats where I was going with this metaphor anyway
that crown is the heart of the hydra”
boo: “ huh you're right, i just thought that lessening the heads would help w getting to the heart"
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jaynoblade: “he burned each of the heads until it was reduced to one, and then either stabbed it in the heart or cut off the final head (which was immortal, and which killed the body) and buried it under a rock. myths don't agree"
boo: “yeah"
jaynoblade: “but yeah, lessening the heads would definitely help with getting to the heart”
fetch: “oh ok"
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jaynoblade: “ or the final head, whichever version"
boo: “i don't know how we'd burn it though”
fetch: “maybe something to do with the crowns?"
jaynoblade: “ i don't know either
hmmm maybe”
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fetch: “crown is very insistent that they keep their circlets on
odd that I didn't have mine- er, knight's when I woke up in the woods”
jaynoblade: “ ....so do you think that you took it off, and that's why you woke up?"
Denora: “Hmmmm, maybe it got snagged on a branch? It might've been unintentional...”
fetch: “if it's really that simple, I think prince would have done it already. you remember that whole "doesn't want to be in the family" thing at the start of all this?"
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disks and the color red |Stars: “maybe someone took it off for you"
fetch: “I dont know. on one hand, crown seems very confused that i got free. on the other, I don't think he'd be so careless with something so important.
i dont think they just "come off"
regardless, im also worried for maxwell. he's still just as under crowns control as is was. only difference is he hasn't come around
and the fact that he did it because i got taken.”
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jaynoblade: “he did, once. it was only for a few minutes, but we had him back
and then he was gone again"
fetch: “...so he's still in there
its not too late
that. makes me feel a little better.
look maxwell may have been a bit of a prick who kept antagonizing crown even after we asked him to stop but he was still one of us and he shouldn't be working with crown. the last thing maxwell would want is to give the "pissbaby" (his words not mine) more power"
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jaynoblade: “not sure about the other court members, but.... they've been there for much longer, and we haven't had as long with them”
fetch: “there might be time to save the other court members too. even prince. baron seems the least of concern for now since he's went to crown and actually confronted him multiple times now with seemingly no consequence.
and when I say confront I really mean its like 2 or 3 times not he's said that he was gonna ask crown something”
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jaynoblade: “yeah definitely
but then again.... crown’s had him even longer than prince”
fetch: “despite that he seems pretty low on the food chain...”
jaynoblade: “he really does, and there’s probably a reason for that
maybe he’s overall harder to control or something like that”
fetch: “probably
maybe he's the "you're not my real dad you can't tell me what to do" type”
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fetch: “or maybe. hm.
maybe he's leaving baron alone to make prince happy
they are best friends after all”
jaynoblade: “....that could be completely possible”
fetch: “if prince sees crown hurting baron that would be a mega fuck up on crowns part”
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fetch: because they're loyal to crown but childhood friendships run deep
boo: or maybe baron's just not that big of a risk
fetch: yeah maybe that too
also during my reading back I saw what jayyy and a couple others were planning. not a fuckin fan at all if you ask me”
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fetch: “trying to "summon" crown or sacrifice yourself for him is in no way shape or form a good idea
just because I broke control doesn't mean everybody can”
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fetch: “and if you just flat out say "if I get yoinked feel free to use me for information" then thats just? not going to make crown take you if he knows you're gonna do that?
or at the very least he's gonna keep you in the dark
he isn't stupid. he knows where information is supposed to be.”
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fetch: “and- let me reiterate- getting taken is NOT FUN. it isn't something you can just make weekend plans for and act like you or anyone else won't be affected once you're done with your little "experiments"”
[People continue to discuss how fetch might have gotten free and to k1ng’s house for a few minutes more.]
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whatelsecanwedonow · 4 years
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What do you feel about the hate TLOU 2 is getting? It's really disgusting the hate that the voice actors are getting. Laura the most. :-/ I've enjoyed it so far and I don't know how people can get so angry.
Well, first, the hate that Laura is taking is fucking disgusting. If you’re on Twitter I’d still encourage you to send some nice words and thoughts her way. Even if she never sees your message specifically, adding to the sheer volume of love and encouragement she’s getting to counterbalance the abuse can only help.
I’m just a dope with an opinion so feel free to disagree, but I think in this case there are multiple problems colliding over one piece of media. Which probably speaks to the greatness of TLOU2. One I see is entitlement in fandom and the inability of some to process storytelling that isn’t in line with their expectations. Two is the inability/unwillingness for certain people to think critically and understand complex storytelling. And three is straight up misogyny. Which is especially... I don’t want to say prevalent in gaming, because it’s prevalent everywhere, but it’s especially loud in gaming culture. Dudes don’t even try to be subtle. Laura voices/moves like a fictional ripped woman who brutally murders another fictional character who is a white guy, that has been anointed as a Hero™ by people who I don’t think are really processing the first game correctly, and then this game “doesn’t let you” kill that woman. That part really follows a well established narrative from the pissbaby brigade. Guys who jerk it three times a day to Ben Shapiro acting like they’ve got a week old diaper strapped to their ass screaming on the world wide web at women. It’s awful and they’re always looking for new targets.
Back to the first problem, the outrage from some people reminds me exactly of the outrage from some over Endgame and TLJ. I’m talking about the people who are like FUCK THE RUSSOS I HOPE THEY DIE b/c Tony shouldn’t have died/Nat shouldn’t have died/Steve would never leave Bucky... and the “Rian Johnson destroyed my entire childhood” people. If you dislike choice(s) made, that’s your opinion and it’s fine, but you have absolutely no ownership over a fictional character/universe/story whatever. You have zero leg to stand on by saying “I love X character and they’d NEVER DO THIS” because... they did literally do that. And not only did the director/writer decide this it’s quite possible the person who plays this fake person was like “yeah let’s go I love this decision.” Troy and Neil said in an interview about Joel specifically, they promise that no matter how much you love that character, they love him more. Because they made that character. You have no right to have a headcanon come true, no matter how much you think it makes sense or how much it works for you. I don’t know how anyone could have ever thought this was going to be Ellie and Joel Ride Again, but their reaction to not getting that game tells me exactly what sort of people they are. Again, if you disagree and can’t accept the story as it unfolds, if it reaches a certain point and you’re out, that’s cool. But you have to realize what’s worth getting heated over and what isn’t. If you’re disappointed, that’s okay I think, but just disengage and watch/read/play something else.
And the second problem, video games never, ever try to tackle narratives like this. At least not ones I’m familiar with. This is a really immature medium to tell a story like this, although I think it’s a medium where they can be powerful in ways they’ve rarely (or never?) been before because of the level of immersion. There’s a lot that they’re saying with these stories and I’m so deeply touched by them. I think they’re making really profound points. And, also, I’m deeply attached to characters, I have my own loves and headcanons for characters, all that, I’m not saying I don’t participate in fandom. Clearly, I’m on Tumblr, I do. And parts of TLOU2 didn’t just make me uncomfortable they make me feel physically ill, lol, and were really upsetting. But the greater narrative was aided by that. You have to love it all selflessly and look for what the creators are trying to get across. It’s insanely grey, complicated storytelling. There’s a high bar set for the maturity required to really digest what’s going on. The Last of Us isn’t here to only fill you with good feelings. It will sometimes, but the good feelings aren’t the whole point. And because of that, because of what video games normally are, people are resistant.
Last thing I’ll say is for the people specifically who can’t accept that Ellie doesn’t murder Abby. It’s astounding that they can’t see the story in TLOU2 is actually, entirely, holding a mirror to them. It’s telling on them. It’s astounding a game has SHOWN YOU TO BE someone who isn’t like Ellie ultimately becomes, who can’t resist the temptation of violence/hate and see the lonely pit of misery it is. You missed how when Ellie goes on a murder spree, it doesn’t help. You missed how when Abby violently murdered the man who killed her father, it doesn’t help. Violence will hollow you out and leave you for dead. Love, embracing empathy, that’s the map that will lead you to salvation/redemption. So when I see the circle jerk discussions of going back to TLOU1 and roasting Abby’s father alive with a flamethrower, and I see the real life threats being thrown at ND people, it just proves to me that certain people need help. Or they’re lost and don’t ever want to be found. Festering in your anger isn’t going to change anything and it isn’t going to help. That’s the whole fucking point.
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lightspren · 3 years
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for like. weeks now lol. i keep finding myself chanting in my head “i am OKAY, i am doing my best to be OKAY, i am not losing it, i am doing my best to keep it TOGETHER” et cetera, and rather than what i think my subconscious is attempting to do - to comfort myself and convince myself that i can Handle This - i think it much rather is driving me further up the fucking wall
kit is Not Okay y’all lmao
and kit feels stupid bitching about it cause like, who *IS* okay right now? really and truly??? but i’ve been doing my job plus like, 2/3 of another person’s job for multiple days now, which means I’m very, very behind on my own work, which drives me fucking insane because a lot of the stuff i’m behind on is scanning so like, there’s a physical manifestation of how far behind i am in the form of a 7 inch tall stack of shit to be scanned. but faxes need done! and people still break shit and thus need it fixed! and doctors are often whiny pissbabies if a thing doesn’t work Just Exactly As Expected! and apparnetly I’m supposed to be some magic wifi fairy that can fix their video visit app saying there’s a poor connection! even when IT’s response to my plea was basically “lol idk sorry bro”! and i’m still run down from the cold I got late last week! and having had to be out a day for that is part of why i’m so behind! and i can’t! keep! doing! this! it isn’t sustainable and i’m exhausted but there’s literally no alternative rn because the department i’m having to help fill in for has like, 13 of 30 staff members out either due to COVID or FMLA. so there’s legit just. nothign to be done. except let shit get behind. except i’m terrified of doing that bc i’m just waiting for like the important doctor to come looking for a document he sent back to scan three days ago that isn’t in the chart yet when it should be, and promptly losing his shit. and like my direct supervisor knows why i’ve been so busy, and she’s just apologetic about it but i’m just! so stressed!
my ex-supervisor, who’s now the manager of the central dept that has so many people out and has been enlisting my help, tried to get my office manager and supervisor to approve for me to be getting overtime this week to further help her coverage. and like i understand she needs the help but also i am going insane. and my office manager denied it, but she is not someone who takes no so i’d almost bet money she’ll get my office manager ot change her mind. and like. honestly i DO need to be able to do the overtime, if i ever have hope of catching up. but i’m so goddamn tired, mentally and physically and like fucking existentially. i’m so tire.d
and this is a long rambly rant that i’m not going to bother to proofread bc i don’t need a real reply to it or advice or whatever, there’s just. no digging out of this right now. there’s really not. my area is being gutted by COVID and until that stops being the case we get to continue in crisis management mode. like we’ve been for the last 9 fucking months, aka ever since i got this fucking promotion. oh and i need to not take vacation time either rn bc 1. there’s no coverage and 2. i need to save my vacation time for the (incredibly likely) possibility that i get COVID myself and am out for 3-4 weeks. because it’s increasing to Almost Certain I’ll get it, precautions be damned LMAO. and i will *not* be one to recover quickly from it jesus.
tldr i’m tired, i’m burnt out, there’s nothing i or anyone else can do about it, get to continue running myself into a wall until i drop dead the end 👉🏻😎👉🏻 
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furvillaconfessions · 4 years
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so i was reading one of Pink_Lemosa's posts on that white tiger shitfest and oh boy....
Please note that while I see everyone's points on this, I don't agree with those mocking this thread. You are free to disagree, but if people are going to use one-word comments and adopt white tiger villagers in protest (instead of actually entering the conversation and making a point) then...big oof, furries.
maybe people were mocking the thread because it was stupid to begin with? and i know you're against the white tigers but like... people are allowed to make a new white tiger villager? it's not against the rules or anything? while i understand most probably did that as a "protest", did you ever consider that maybe some (new) user just wanted a white tiger villager and they made one? not everyone making a white tiger villager is ""mocking"" you.or maybe they are. i don't blame anyone for mocking you lot.
Glad to know an aesthetic is more important than a living animal. 
ah yes, because obviously adopting a white tiger on furvilla (a virtual furry website) will affect the irl tigers. oh, how so very rude! now the poor tigers are definitely suffering, because of a virtual pet site.
I don't see why it matters that much anyways since people would still be allowed to make painties of white tigers.
true, people are still allowed to make white tiger painties and you pissbabies could then block them (i mean you can already block them but you know what i'm going after). you know what you can also do? get an adblocker of some sort and block the white tiger image. there, problem solved. no need to ruin things for others just because you're so offended.
also to quote a few users on that thread...
... but removing the white tiger color option from the site isn't going to do anything but make people mad
... all we are saying is this is a website/game and the color should not be removed due to what goes on in real life.
... removing the color option might upset some people because now their clearly white tiger is no longer listed as a white tiger. ... I believe some people might prefer the color being close to their paintie?
all of these are a good example on why the color shouldn't be removed. because it'll make people mad. because this is just a website/game and the color shouldn't be removed just because of real life. because some people prefer the villager's color to match their paintied villager.
personal opinion: yes, i'd be mad because i feel like this is an unnecessary change. as for the color matching the paintie, i prefer the color is close to my paintie's actual color. so if i have a white tiger paintie then yes i do want the color on the profile to be "white tiger". and i know i'm not the only one who thinks so - the starter of the whole fiasco (scariuy) made a thread and stated the following:
I have a green dragon with an old paintie I was hoping to update ... but her new paintie is black, and I wanted the colour on her profile to match that.
and before you accuse me of stalking, remember kids, it's not stalking if it's publicly available. :) anyway, back to the original shitfest of a thread:
And it was stated earlier that newbies wouldn't be able to afford painties but that's kind of the point...you have to work toward them.
so if you want to have a white tiger villager, you should work toward them? make them a paintie? really?
Besides it's not difficult to grind for the money within a week or do commissions for the FD for a paintie ticket (and there's the 90 Paintie Ticket so they could wait for that in the worse case scenario).
consider the following: not everyone has the time to play all that much during the week. some people have school, a job, you know, a life? even then, not everyone can offer commissions because newsflash: some people can't draw/write stories/etc.! some people can't get commissions no matter how hard they try! so your "just do commissions uwu" suggestion is kinda.. bad? because like i said not everyone can offer commissions. what about the people who can't play too much during the week? what if they can't visit daily, thus get the paintie ticket via daily streak? what if they can't use real money for a furry website? what then?
And anyways everyone here is pretty generous and I'm sure those that disagree with this thread could just...giveaway paintie tickets...do free painties...
ah yes, "if you disagree with us, just give paintie tickets to those who can't afford them! i mean you're so generous already so just give out free stuff lol"! umm, hello? just because people tend to be generous on furvilla, it does not mean they have to give out free paintie tickets to others just because you and your buddy are offended over white tigers on a virtual furry website. what kind of logic is that?
and the suggestion of doing free painties for people? what the fuck is wrong with you? because obviously artists should make free painties for others! because artists don't wanna get paid for their work, right?! why commission an artist to make you a white tiger paintie when you can just get one for free!! why not?! this is a brilliant idea! how about no? try respecting artists for once? they should be paid for their hard work?? even then, isn't it already kind of a problem that (usually newer) users turn out to be beggars? yeah, let's just give them free paintie tickets, that won't make them greedy and ask for more or anything, no, noooo.
... if this is such a big deal to y'all. Which apparently it is.
that's funny! the only one making a big deal out of this stupid white tiger thing is you and your buddy. i mean i guess i'm making a big deal out of it too now with this huge post? well, i'm not talking about the white tigers and how they're treated poorly, i'm talking about how you two (Pink_Lemosa & scariuy) are idiots. grow the fuck up and stop getting offended over a virtual furry website. if this stuff seriously offends you, maybe you really should leave.
... also what about those pugs and scottish folds? you don't demand them to get removed now do you, hmmm? :)
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thetigershymn · 4 years
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The Way Things Are Gonna Be From Now On (And Why I’m Back And Shit)
Part Two: The Way Things Are Gonna Be From Now On
(a repost)
Sit your asses down, kids, we gotta have a talk.
See, I can’t talk about how this shit is gonna roll without talking about why I left Tumblr to begin with.
Plot fucking twist: turns out you fucks are the maladjusted ones and I’m the mature adult. I fucking know, right? Blew my mind too.
Basically, shit started to get good for me, right? You know, you read part one. You know how that went down. Islands and shit. Anyway, part of that was like, a fuuuuuuuuuckton of high grade triple-A-plus primetime therapy. Fucking years of it. I’m a model citizen now. I’m the dependable one. No shit, someone told me that a while back, I’m the dependable one. Fucking times sure have changed.
I kid. Anyway. At a certain point in the evolution of every hot mess, there comes a knife’s edge moment. Things coalesce, and the realization is had that two choices lay before you. You can seize recovery with both hands – that phrase has deeply symbolic and vital personal meaning for me, it’s literally my name – and you can decide to GROW THE FUCK UP, stop being a giant pissbaby crying about how shit a hand life dealt you, and stand up and do something to actually fix your life instead of just complaining about how unfair your situation is. Or you can wallow in your illness for the rest of eternity, using it as an excuse, and embracing misery because it’s the only thing that makes you feel special. 
I reached that moment, through Ares. And I decided that I was NOT, in fact, addicted to being unhappy, and I DID, in fact, want to be not-unhappy, and I WAS, in fact, willing to put in the work to make that happen. And lo and behold, it started to happen. Wonders of modern medicine. Science is amazing. 
But then something else started to happen, too. Something I hadn’t planned for. I saw the toxicity leave my psychology, I saw the scar tissue across my psyche healing over and fading away, I felt Actual Human Joy Emotion, and then I looked around….and I saw everyone around me still surrounded by that black miasmic soulsucking cloud of misery that I was slowly crawling away from. I saw my enemies for what they were: meaningless dumbasses caught up in their own fucked up shit who had no real impact on my life. I saw my friends gathered around spending all their days stagnating in their own filth, blind to it as they preened about their superiority to all the lesser beings around them. I saw my loved ones still clinging to that deepseated addiction to being unhappy that I was trying so hard to dig out of my own heart. Things around me crystallized, I saw my surroundings more clearly than I had in years, and I realized I was just…..tired. So, so tired. I just didn’t care. About any of it. And I didn’t have time for it. Things were taking off for me for the first time in my entire life, and I just didn’t have time for anyone around me who was content to stand still.
So I left them behind. I left them behind in person, I left them behind over the phone, I left them behind online. Friends, significant other, family, acquaintances, whoever. Whereever I saw that happening in my life, I just…let them go.
I’ll go ahead and give you a moment to be shocked that there’s a lot of useless toxicity on tumblr. Go on, I’ll wait. 
But Solo!! You’re on Tumblr RIGHT NOW!! The misery cloud will swoop in and eat your soul again!!!!!!
Nah, bro, it won’t. We ain’t playing that game again. 
So here’s the new laws of the fucking land. These aren’t for you to follow, mind you. They’re for me to follow. You’ll notice some recurring themes.
1. None of this matters. 
Literally none of this. Tumblr is not and has never been the real world. I knew that back then, too, but I’m done being fucking quiet about this fact. All y’all? You stop existing when I walk away from the computer. Y’all bask and wallow in your complex codes of moral purity that only exist on tumblr, your shoulds and shouldn’ts, your shunnings, your manufactured obligations, whatever. I don’t care. I literally….I don’t care. Don’t like me, go away. Don’t like my blog, don’t follow it. Don’t like what I said, don’t read it. I’m not answerable to you, and I don’t care about trying to deduce the delicate nuances of your subculture’s societal mores and taboos, and if I anger your little internet godlings by crossing the wrong one, I don’t care about that either.
2. We aren’t friends.
We can be friendly, sure. I’m a friendly person, ask anyone. Well…maybe not anyone. But we can be friendly. We can be fun internet buddies, even. But…you don’t know me. I don’t know you. There’s a whole wide life out there I have that you will never see. Y’all need to be better about remembering that than y’all were last time, because I’m done feeling bad about leaving one of y’all behind if you don’t suit my life.
3. I don’t really care about co-religionists, honestly.
I could be the only hellenic polytheist on the planet for all I care. I could be the only Ares dedicant. It’s nice to compare notes and all, or chat, or whatever, and I’m more than willing to help someone out or give some advice or share some experience. I’ve been around for a while. But you, none of you, literally not a one of you is my priority, either in life or in this blog. My religion is about the gods, and one god especially. My religion is not about community. So…..yeah man, I’ll be helpful, sure, happy to be so. But I’m not obligated to do fucking ANYTHING for you I don’t want to, and I’m not answerable to what you think I should do or be or say as a hellenic polytheist or as a pagan. I’m not your fucking mentor and you’re not my fucking priest.
4. Blah, blah, blah.
Let me be really clear about this, because this is the part people are going to really, really struggle with. If it’s from before the posting of this fucking post, February 23, 2020, I don’t fucking want to hear about it. I don’t owe you shit, I’m not explaining shit, I’m not responding to shit, I’m not justifying shit, nothing. Boohoohoo I’m problematic because four years ago I called someone whose name I’ve probably (definitely) forgotten a moron and it hurt their feelings and now they piss into a jar with my name on it and call it a hex or whatever. Do tumblr witches still do the pee jar thing? I don’t remember. Whatever. I don’t care what wrong you’ve decided I committed, I don’t care even if I was actually wrong. I don’t care if something I say now contrasts with something I said three years ago so I’m a hypocrite or whatever. I don’t care whether you think people can change. I don’t care even if I haven’t changed. I’m not putting up with it if it’s from before me coming back to tumblr. I’m just going to laugh at you and hopscotch my ass away. Get over it, yo. So….I’m not going to be going through and purging old posts on my old blog, I’m not going to be ~hiding the evidence~ or whatever the fuck you want to accuse me of. I’m just not going to humor your dumb ancient bullshit. Sucks to be you, chick from four years ago who’s still holding a grudge against me because I made fun of her.
5. I’m not here to waste my time.
Those of you who know me offline know so very well how SHEER FUCKING INFAMOUS I am for walking away from conversations midthought. We’ll be talking, I’ll lose interest, and hey, that’s it, I’m done. No goodbye, no winding down the conversation, nope. We’re done, you’ve lost me. Guess what, not only am I not going to correct that behavior, we’re fucking porting that shit to Tumblr. I’m done with time wasters. I’m done with conversations I don’t want to be a part of. I’m done with arguments that serve no tangible need in my life. Don’t fucking @ me with your bullshit, or your drama, or your petty dumb shit. Because I am definitely, definitely sitting there on the other end of that conversation doing a cost-benefit analysis of what I think will be the possible positive outcome of interacting with you vs the possible negative outcome, and if you fail that assessment, I ain’t wasting my time on whatever you’re bitching at me about.
6. I actually really do hate Tumblr.
Gone are the days of lol fun tumblr meme bro and the ages of ooh cool fandom gifset my dude. I hate this fucking site on a fucking gut level and I don’t like to be here. The only reason I’m back is because I think I can use it for my ~pet project~. Which means…..yep. This is finally, finally a religion-only blog. 
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bigskydreaming · 5 years
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fhalkfhaklfhlkak i hate this
TW really truly literally ruined the word ‘spark’ for me. Like the whole damn word. I hear it now and I’m like, NOPE, like...idk, some people who cringe when they hear the word moist or panties. Apologies to anyone who hates those words and cringed, i dont actually know if thats a thing or if like, I just have weird friends. Probably just the latter.
But anyways, Im just like...lmfao. Its so visceral too? Like I have this one original project, Waveriders, that I’ve been fiddling with off and on in the background of other projects for awhile, might have talked about it on here, idk, I don’t keep track. 
Basically its a far future sci-fi novel/setting for linked shorter works set on a gas giant that was settled by humans who figured that they can’t possibly be stepping on anyone’s toes there, its a freaking gas giant, hello, no one’s home, right? They literally have to make their own ground by using technology to form anti-gravity wells in the habitable zone of the atmosphere and like, make floating cities and then these kind of buoys scattered across the planet that create these electromagnetic currents that flow in specific ‘routes’ between the cities, and people travel between them in these flying ships that use magnetized hulls and solar sails to ride these currents, and blah blah blah, yada yada yada, bc like, why would I resist an opportunity to have floating cities and sky pirates and ancient cyborg machine dragons? Doesn’t make sense. 
Anyway, so couple thousand years after settling this planet, and by then for Plotty Reasons there are people who have what’s called waveriding abilities, like they can ‘hack’ certain wavelengths or types of energy and manipulate them in various ways, but only one kind of energy per person, and they each have their own little names and niches. 
So, y’know, basically just like ATLA, except for like, its energy powers and there are cyborg machine dragons and floating cities and sky pirates, obvsly. Plus areas of totally fucked up gravity called the badlands that are all like, criminal underworld metropolis because normal people are like lol nope, we like it when up is up and down is down, all of this is very just...nope. And also because shocking and totally unexpected plot twist, they were totally wrong about the planet being uninhabited just cuz it didn’t have Earth type ground...like, so in addition and on top of and in conjunction with all of the above and whatnot, there are these beings called Chaos Angels, that are basically like sentient quantum waveforms that can take any shape or appearance, but just, have no physical substance and yet are really good at faking that they’re not totally there when they fuck with humans, which they do a lot, because well. Why not, y’know?
But other than that, its exactly like ATLA. I’m a derivative hack. I disgust myself, truly I do.
BUT the point of this particular synaptic misfire aka ADHD ramble, is that so, okay, these different types of not!benders are all called waveriders as an overall umbrella term, but with ten different subsets of this in total, right? So people who can ‘hack’ light and manipulate it in various ways are called brightriders, and people who are tuned into soundwaves are called echo-riders, and some can manipulate the more electricity-skewed side of the electromagnetic spectrum and those are shockriders and the ones who skew more to the magnetic side are steelriders but I’m probably gonna change that because it sounds like a porno? Yeah no, just saw it outside of my notes for the first time and can confirm, definitely sounds like a porno so they’re not gonna be called steel-riders, but they will be called something steel-rider-esque. You get it.
And then there are the five weird ones that people aren’t totally quite sure how their waveriding shticks work because the kinds of energy they hack aren’t like....the kinds that work in the same way as the others with their easily discernible and patternistic wavelengths, and scientists and scholars are always arguing like but skyriders aren’t even in the same FIELD as the other waverider types because gravity isn’t even an actual ENERGY, just because we talk about gravity waves doesn’t mean they’re remotely the same thing as lightwaves, they make no SENSE, and I’m just like hahaha, I am your god, fictional scientists. Fucking deal with it. Plus it does make sense, you just don’t know the Secret Rules and Logistics that I do, pfft. 
Anyway, so the other types are boomriders who hack kinetic energy and skyriders of course obviously manipulate gravity, and then the last three are really weird, and super rare and thus don’t really have set names and just have lots of nicknames and are often just thought to be rumors. So those are the bio-riders who manipulate chemical energy though it often gets mistakenly referred to or just handwaved as being ‘life energy’ as though that’s a thing, ugh future way advanced people are so dumb sometimes, honestly. But so they can manipulate biological processes in various ways and do things with healing and also hurting, and basically just don’t piss one off ever. Like. You’ll die. And then there’s the psi-riders, who are essentially psychics and hack brainwaves, and I’m not at all bitter that I lack the balls to just go for broke and call them ghost riders like I want to, because ghost riders obviously sounds way cooler?? But also, Marvel would definitely sue?? Because they’re just, like that. 
And like, the last of the Weird Ones are the ones so super rare and also so hard to actually....tell if someone actually IS one, that most people think they don’t actually even exist and are just an unsubstantiated like, theoretical idea some scientist had once while high and then just, never shut up about so eventually the idea caught on. And those are the quantum-riders, or luck-riders, basically they theoretically manipulate quantum wavelengths in ways that are almost impossible to identify, like theoretically they wouldn’t even know they were doing it? Anyway, so lots of times, what are actually quantum-riders are just jealously thought to be like, really fucking lucky assholes. Even though the way their powers work really don’t have anything to do with luck or even probability, specifically, like that’s a simplistic approximation and its more like they manipulate possibilities but also shut up me, nobody cares.
ANYWAY, people who can count and who actually bothered to would probably notice by now like the funky little geniuses they are that all of those still only adds up to nine. And that’s because of the last one, the one that SHOULD go up in the brightrider, shockrider, notpornIswear!steel-rider hierarchy or taxidermy or whatever the fuck. And these are the ones who manipulate what’s essentially thermal energy, or more accurately the microwave-skewing side of the ultraviolet spectrum whereas brightriders are just the ones who skew more to the infrared side of it.
And the long and short of all of this Unnecessary-ness and the source of my fit of pique and ensuing ramble-palooza....is that ORIGINALLY, they were SUPPOSED to be called sparkriders.
But OBVIOUSLY I can’t call them that anymore, because like. I tried, and I was like ugh you drama queen slash whiny pissbaby, it was just a shitty teen supernatural show and SPARK WAS NEVER EVEN CANON, do not let THEM win and ruin a perfectly good classification name! But I did. I did let it ruin them, and its. Well. Its a problem, because I kept thinking up ways to kill off the sparkrider characters for absolutely no reason at all instead of like....thinking up ways to make the plot do what it was outlined to do in their parts of the story.
This may come like, way out of left field, and just SHOCK and STUN and BEWILDER some of you, like....no way, srsly? But yeah, true story, among my many canon mental neuroses like ADHD, PTSD, magical depression hour and super fun anxiety like....there is a tiny possibility (aka actual diagnosis) that while I don’t talk about this much, or ever really, I do have a smidge of ye old OCD? Its not like, a big thing and doesn’t really affect my daily routines and that’s pretty much why I never usually bring it up or list it alongside the rest of the crap on my neurodivergence resumé or whatever, because like, there’s already WAY too many misconceptions out there about what OCD actually is and what constitutes it, and tons of people are always jokingly but also thinking they’re kinda half serious, like ‘oh I’m so OCD about this and this and that’ and its like. LOL. Are you though? You sure?
Anyway, but point being, the way mine manifests for me is like...not actually a problem? Like, I don’t actually have any REAL complaints about it at all, just half-assed little fits of pique ones like this, which is the other part of why I never bring it up, because too often ppl just can’t fathom that OCD or even any kind of neurodivergence can be...WANTED, or a good thing, and lololol, that’s ableism, folks. But its true, I don’t actually mind mine at all, even if it occasionally makes things frustrating, when I get stuck like I am now. But the flip side of it is....its actually a pretty huge part of my creativity and just the way my mind works in general....like, what people accredit to me being particularly insightful about character analysis or drawing connections or stuff like that in meta or fics or my novels or worldbuilding...that’s what it is. That’s my OCD in action. 
My brain like...REQUIRES that I find patterns in....pretty much everything. Even day to day mundane stuff too, though like I said, its mild enough there that it doesn’t fuck with my routines too much, but like, I have to order things into nice, neat patterns and groupings. And if there aren’t any that are immediately obvious, I kinda pretty much HAVE to dig deeper until I find some on a slightly deeper level, something beneath the surface or first glance, and keep going until I find something.....or worst case scenario, I have to like....add stuff and embellish and fill in gaps with my own ‘content’ until I have the rough edges rounded off into something that CAN be stacked neatly atop some other part of the story or whatever it is I’m focusing on? And the obsessive-compulsive part for me is like, lol, I gotta find it SOMEWHERE, SOMEHOW. 
My brain literally won’t shut off or grudgingly accept being diverted to a different subject until I’ve made some kind of pattern or flowchart or classification system. It will literally keep me up for hours, going over the same things over and over from every angle until I find SOME way to....reassemble or restructure it in some nice, neat little order of some type. I mean that’s basically what it is. My brain insists on me forming some semblance of order out of any glimpse I have of what I would otherwise term creative chaos. And it won’t give up until it gets what it wants, which when you throw in my ADHD and how often I’ll get derailed off on slight tangents but with my OCD then sooner or later forcing me back to the original focus, rinse and repeat ad nauseam....like. LOL. I learned to operate on very little sleep from a pretty young age by necessity, its just...my brain, dudes. Its just like that.
But the perks are like, I pretty much think this is WHY I’m so creative....because my brain, for as long as I can remember, has always just kinda....forced me to be? Also probably has a lot to do with well...eh, I don’t need to talk about that right now. Whatever. Anyway, point being, so....I do like the end results very much so, and for all its....Why Must You Be Like This eccentricities, I’m quite attached to my brain and would not be very likely to agree to a trade even were one possible. I mean don’t get me wrong, I could do without the PTSD and anxiety, if we’re just, like....talking some pruning shears or whatever, but the actual creative machinery, I’m keeping. Ultimately it just means I really fucking like patterns and finding patterns or making patterns where previously there were none, or at least none that were easy to spot.
But ugh, man, these are the rare times when I’m like omg, just call it a day, we don’t ACTUALLY have to come up with the perfect replacement name for that one relatively small and insignificant detail of a much larger story that isn’t even in the Top Ten list of my main priorities at the moment. And my asshole of a brain is just like....yeah no, we gotta. You know the rules dude, you decided it was official, that name didn’t work anymore and was never gonna, so now we gotta find a replacement or else things will be UNEVEN?? The pattern will be...missing a piece? There will be CHAOS AND ANARCHY IN THE STREETS THAT RUNNETH OVER WITH BLOOD? IS THAT WHAT YOU WANT??
And so I’m like....literally sitting here googling synonyms for spark because I’m just like that sometimes, lmfao. Oh and of course its gotta be a GOOD replacement, naturally. I can’t just shoehorn in a somewhat acceptable substitute that in the back of my mind I’m expecting to only be temporary, until I come up with something better. See, because my brain will KNOW, and it will NOT be okay with that, because that is CHEATING. And my brain, apparently, has strong feelings about cheating, which is weird and fairly unexpected of me, IMO.
Anyway, kudos to anyone who actually read through that instead of scrolling, I honestly have zero idea why I felt like sharing it, I just did and thus I did. *shrugs* 
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xellandria · 5 years
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A friend of mine is running a D&D one-shot this weekend which meant creating another character.  I was sort of grasping at straws (I don’t want to use the tabaxi rogue I’ve got waiting in the wings for if/when my character in the campaign game we’re in dies for a one-shot) but then I was like “wait, what if I just played another character that sort of exists already?
In BA, Alex is an incubus who falls in love with a human woman who is killed by a covetous evil vampire (warning, art at that link is from 2002-2004 and is *real* bad).  When I was writing out Alexus’ backstory to fit the old character into the new world, I was like “phew, let’s be real—this backstory is like 20 years old and it is showing the hell out of its age; this woman was created and immediately fridged explicitly to fuel some manpain” but there wasn’t much point in going into detail since backstory is basically irrelevant in that game so I just was like “yeah she disappeared one day and nobody knew why and he eventually kept traveling but still keeps half an ear to the ground for news.”
Anyway so instead of being a character that exists solely to be fridged, now Mephala gets to exist on her own for a bit!  She, uh... well she’s more of a person now but the covetous evil vampire is still there to some degree  Also since Alex turned into a half-elf, Mephala gets to be the demon(-like creature) instead.  Good trade.
Mephala - level 5 Tiefling Sorcerer (Divine Soul) Str: 8 (-1) Dex: 10 (0) Con: 12 (+1) Int: 14 (+2) Wis: 14  (+2) Cha: 18 (+4)
In the D&D universe, she was apprenticed to a goldsmith(/guild artisan: jeweler, in D&D background terms) who was sort of also a kind of parental figure (cos she didn’t have those for some reason I guess?) when she and Alexus met and became close, but one of the dudes in her town was all Frollo from Hunchback of Notre Dame up in here and was like “yo you’re an evil hellspawn but also I want your body?” and she wasn’t super into him.  At one point he cornered her and she straight up told him to get bent and he got real mad about it (as whiny pissbabies are wont to do) and yo! turns out he was some sort of creature in disguise or something?  I am slightly unclear on that part cos I’m not super familiar with D&D monster lore and stuff but anyway in the encounter he cut the shit out of her shoulders and throat but at some point her innate magic sorcerer powers kicked in (because the player’s handbook tells me this is how sorcerers work) and either massively fucked him up or killed him (again, unclear and at this point irrelevant).  She also kinda fucked up herself at the same time (did he have like, acidic blood or something? did she just fireball herself in the face? I DON’T KNOW, MAN!).
She ended up staggering off into the woods and fleeing her town because the whiny pissbaby dude/monster was like, the D&D sheriff or something (Viktor, the OG covetous vampire dude, was the chief of police in her town in BA) and she was pretty sure she wasn’t gonna be able to get a fair trial or anything there.  She desperately wants to return, but hasn’t quite worked up the nerve yet.  Reason for being an adventurer TBD, but apparently the one-shot is going to be a heist so I guess she’s trying to save up funds to get protection or a better shot at biasing the law in her favour or something? idk man, lol.
Aside from the obvious ones on her face, neck, and torso, Mephala’s got lots of little scars on her fingers from learning her trade, which she is actually pretty good at (I guess she was less an apprentice and more of an established/senior journeyman when The Incident happened, really).  Most of the jewelry and metalwork she wears is her own work, as is the pendant that Alexus still carries around for luck.  She was never super outgoing but is extra wary of strangers nowadays, and makes liberal use of Thaumaturgy’s “change your eyes for a minute” ability (in conjunction with her cloak) when in crowds or unknown situations.  When she does, the right eye typically ends up kind of cataract-clouded; she can still mostly see out of it but it did get damaged somewhat when she took that hit.  She avoids speaking whenever possible because her vocal chords also never quite recovered from that day (aka I don’t want to be the face of this game’s party, I mean what).
Design-wise, I really wanted her horns to be something that wouldn’t interfere too badly with a hood but that isn’t the curled ram-ish horns I used for Delenda; with a big and drapey enough hood, these seem to work for that.  The scarf was important for covering her neck because she doesn’t want to show off the claw/handprint on her neck, but leaving off the left sleeve displays the clawmarks on her shoulder, and basically nothing below the waist got refined at all.  I’d like to keep working on it, but the game is on Sunday and I have a commission in the queue, so I had to stop myself at some point, lol.
Alexus’ pendant is a wire-wrapped fluorite heart; I’m not sure what sort of stone Mephala’s arcane focus is (the smaller teardrops and oval cabochons and such are probably enamel and coloured glass).  I was thinking labradorite cos those can look super sweet and reasonably magical, but I couldn’t find any that were big enough when I went looking through ebay and etsy earlier.
She’s a divine soul sorcerer instead of some other kind of sorcerer largely because I don’t actually know what anybody else in this one-shot is playing (well, I know we have two rogues but) and I wanted to make sure we had at least one healing spell available, lol :x
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purrincess-chat · 5 years
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Some ramblings and advice I guess...
So, I feel like somethings need be said, and I want to preface this by saying I'm perfectly fine lol. No one is sending me hate or anything like that, and I'm not offended by Thomas being a pissbaby over my post on Twitter, but I am going to start by saying that when I made that post I had no intention of ever sending it to Thomas. That's not why I made it, in fact, it never should have been sent to Thomas. Someone did that without my knowledge, and I have already spoken to them.
I made that post because someone asked me a question, and I answered it. I voiced a lot of concerns that many people have already spoken of, I just compiled them. It was salty, it was sarcastic, it contained a lot of jokes and jabs, but it was never intended to be an actual critique that I felt should be taken into consideration by the writers. It was one salty fan venting to another about our problems with the writing of the show.
I know that they write this shit in advance. I know that they are currently writing s4/5, and because of that I know that any hope for the writing improving is dead. That's not why I made the post. When people salt about the writing, most of us are well aware of the fact that it's not going to change anything because what's done is already done. We aren't trying to change the future. We make these posts to bemoan what could have been. It's cathartic. It's venting. It's like someone bitching about their job and how much they hate it but still showing up the next day.
Let me be the first to advise you, don't send Thomas salt on Twitter.
That post was not formulated in a way to be constructive criticism that he should read and take into account to improve his work. It was salt. Pure unadulterated salt. Thomas barely responds well to people asking him clarification questions politely on Twitter, let alone someone sending him 3000+ words of my bitter ass. Really at this point asking him anything on Twitter is pointless which is why I bitch here. I've never sent him a damn thing on Twitter because I know he just blocks people then whines and gathers pity from his followers.
I am not cool at all with harassment. I may salt about him a lot here, but I do not condone harassing him to his face. He is a human person. It doesn't matter how much you may dislike him, but he doesn't deserve to be told that he should die or that he's a terrible person who doesn't deserve happiness or any shit like that. That's toxic and the reason why fandom gets a bad name. Do not ever harass anyone, or send them "criticism" on Twitter. They never respond well.
Truthfully his reaction to my post was not surprising to me lol. The post wasn't nice, and I never intended it to be, but again, it shouldn't have been sent to him. Nor should anyone's salt posts, and there are many out there that are worse even than mine. I will tell all of you the same thing I always say: Ignore him.
Don't look at his Twitter. Don't engage him. Don't send him anything. Don't worry about what he says. Ignore him. Because it has been proven time and time again that people just get angrier every time he opens his mouth. A lot of people who have left the fandom site him as a reason, so don't pay him any mind. He isn't worth your time.
Additionally, I have lowered my expectations for this show a lot. I pointed out all of the issues that myself and others have, but honestly I don't expect any of those things to ever be fixed. I've made my peace with that. I'm just here for ships, friends, art, and to write fanfiction. Most of the time now I ignore discourse and just throw myself into writing because I've accepted that if I want to see something, I should just create it instead of bitching and moaning. I choose to be productive instead of salty which is why I have so much spite fic going on right now, which another reason I took the time to make that post is because I am planning an AU that is going to rewrite a lot of canon, so it was also a sort of reference to myself of things that I want to do better in my own writing.
My advice to any young fans or new fans just entering the fandom (which if you're new and following me then I am terribly sorry. Rethink your life choices cause I am garbage XD) just don't even worry about Thomas. Like some art, write some fic, chat with people about what you like, what you don't like, and just enjoy yourself. Because fandom politics are tired, and I am tired of them.
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sponfawn · 5 years
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MTH - Bubbles and Will
Per @wispybuttercup ‘s request, I’m doing a post on Bubbles and Will, and “that awful stuff” lol. Ill be honest I wanted to like Will. I knew they wouldn’t last cuz it was clear from the start what the main ships were. But I wanted to like him. Basically since the middle of chapter two, it was just
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From the start, we see that Bubbles and Will are very outwardly affectionate and lovey dovey. Through Buttercup’s eyes, they seem super-sugary sweet and a bit shallow. But from Bubbles’ side at least, it was from genuine giddy joy and love. And I think Will really thought that he loved her. But I don’t think he ever truly saw her as a complex, multifaceted person with needs and full emotions. There’s a lot of scenes where he is shown to be inconsiderate, uncompromising, and unwilling to actively listen or work for their relationship.
Take karaoke night for example. Bubbles invited him out and he declined, which in itself isn't a crime. But we later find out that he never goes out with her and her friends, even tho it’s something that she loves with people that she loves. She is willing to go to celebratory dinners with him to support his teammate, and engage in activities that he enjoys, but he doesn’t ever seem to conceive that maybe he should reciprocate. At Mrs. Morbucks’ event, he refused to go with her to support her sister. He forgot Bubbles’ audition, and hangs out with friends instead of going to support her. The next day he doesn’t even realize that she’s in a bad mood, cuz he’s so busy talking about the fun time he had with his buddies. He forgot their one year anniversary, and tried to pass off the reservations and everything as his own doing, and at their dinner he left her at the table to watch the game on the TV. Like he clearly felt very little remorse for hurting her as much as he did, and as soon as he thought he was in the clear, the tiny amount of effort he was making basically vanishes. At Prom, he spends the majority of the time hanging out with his friends, doesn’t even realize when she and Boomer go out to talk, and has the audacity to act like a big pissbaby when he finds them talking and Bubbles crying, even after she explained the situation. I get being busy when you’re about to graduate, but if you’re gonna take your partner for granted and make no effort, you should just end it.
The scene leading up to Will and Boomer’s first confrontation, perfectly illustrates exactly how he sees Bubbles. He greets her, they hold hands, and she basically becomes an accessory while he talks with his friends. She inwardly is relieved that he didn’t hear about Boomer liking her yet, thinking, “Obviously he hadn’t caught wind of Boomer’s misguided affections yet, or else he’d be--” angry, furious, livid, a grumpy pissbaby. She knows exactly how he’d react, and tries her best to keep that at bay, and later, to assuage it. She specifically says, “I don’t care what he says [about me], Will...” But he ignores her. Cuz he’s not worried that she would go behind his back. He’s mad cuz he’s feeling territorial, cuz no one else is allowed to even have a crush on her, she belongs to him. He could have verbally confronted him, told him upfront that they were in a committed relationship, set his boundaries. But nah, he makes it physical first. Before he spiked the football at Boomer’s head, he recognizes Boomer as “one of those guys with the superpowers”. He knows that he has comparable powers to Bubbles. But either out of pure meat-headed, testosterone-fueled hubris, or a severe underestimation of Boomer’s (and by extension Bubbles’) strength and power, he tried to basically give Boomer a concussion via football. Even tho he knows she's a superhero, I don't think he truly comprehends exactly what that entails for her, how tough she is, or how much sheer strength and power she has. He has a very fragile ego, and if he actually understood or experienced what she's been through, what she's capable of, I think it'd break him. He was humiliated by Bubbles’ superior strength, tugging him so hard he buckled to his knees as she shoved Boomer away. Not by the fact that he nearly got himself killed, but cuz his girlfriend took on a guy that he couldn’t (whether he admits it to himself or not). And instead of talking to her about it reasonably, he took his anger out on her. He's basically the quintessential package of toxic masculinity, contained in a future-fratboy meatsuit.
Their interaction the next day is interesting and awful to me. She’s so upset about him being mad at her, that she blames herself for “being a bad girlfriend” and apologizes. And honestly, I think if she hadn’t acted like that, on the verge of tears, self-deprecating, and submissive, he wouldn’t have laughed it off and “forgiven” her the way he did. He didn’t apologize at all for getting mad and yelling at her, for putting himself in severe danger, or for acting like an over-possessive asshole. Immediately after this exchange, she playfully fishes for compliments. And every compliment he gives her is basically how she serves him (either as a caregiver or a status trophy girlfriend). He compliments her looks twice, her singing (which is objectively agreed upon by everyone, and which he consistently fails to support her in), and the fact that she worries about him all the time. Not her kindness, her communication skills, her infectious joy, the depth of her feelings, her linguistic intelligence, her sharp intuition, her bravery. In fact, during their breakup fight, he basically calls her a snobby, spoiled brat for not hanging out with people he knew were ignoring and insulting her, and for wanting him to support her and engage with her in her interests.
Granted, the fault isn't entirely on his end (tho I'd argue it's about a 90-10 split). There were times when Bubbles could have been more assertive about how she was feeling in regards to his behavior and the cheer team's. She let a lot of things slide or get swept under the rug, and it bottled up. I doubt that he would've been more understanding or changed his behavior in any meaningful way, but she let her aversion to conflict interfere with healthy communication and boundaries. I think this may also be starting to become an issue with Boomer in some ways, but not nearly as severely, and more out of fear that his feelings would be hurt rather than a fear that he might become irrationally angry or brush her off.
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