#she fucking suffocates them.

[bigfatbreak]

Twilight’s feeling bad but its fine, Sombra called in the squad to brainstorm before the last event! :D

#mlp fim #twilight sparkle #king sombra #tempest shadow #stygian #queen chrysalis #applejack #sunset shimmer #my art #twibra #fun facts! #chrysalis' marks are from burns she sustained as a child #tempest used to be on a volleyball team #but she lost her arm in a bear attack #when her and the other girls were camping #as a result she's changed her major #to sports med instead #stygian and sombra have been childhood friends and pen pals #chrysalis doesnt just hug when she sees her friends #she fucking suffocates them. #long tags

[sonego]

can i complain about my life again promise you all won't hate me

#(i know everyone already does most likely so i'll do it and just feel bad about it but) #it's not that i don't love my family and i'm not happy to go back home to have dinner w them and all but #god after like 3 hours i'm already exhausted #i feel bad about it but they're just SO exhausting and this house is SO suffocating #i did it i left i did it. why do i still feel trapped #quite literally can't even stomach watching football rn bc i just wanna sit in the dark under my blanket and fucking. idk. cry maybe #and it makes it all so much worse that it's so painfully obvious my mum is tired and probably sad and surely fed up w my father (and my #brother to a lesser extent) #every time i come home i just wanna say sorry. sorry i left you. sorry you're alone. you're not alone but you're alone against the world #and she dismisses my worrying bc ofc she does and i do the same with her worries we've played this dance all our lives #it's just. how do you let someone worry about you when you both know there's nothing you can do to make it better #when you both know the source of the misery and exhaustion is inescapable #god i wish it was. like. i wish this was a movie. where people actually help you in these situations. where there isn't that BIG big big #obstacle that feels wrong to even call an obstacle but it will always forever make it impossible to do anything about the problem #i wish the people who said they'd help gave even half a shit and actually did (it was their fucking job) #going from sad to angry to hopeless to exhausted every 4 seconds i'm so #the thing is i'm not gonna stop coming back home you know? i'm not i can't #i don't even want to #but i wish it wasn't so fucking soul crushing every time bc i don't wanna keep having tiring tiring weeks #and then go back home on weekends and feel the opposite of rested #ok. i should shut up. sorry. i really don't know why i'm even alive atm #delete later #i never remember to delete these (when i remember to tag them in the first place)

[la0hu]

love my housemates for unanimously being "yay go to japan!!!!! :)))" and also being like "don't tell your family until you are literally there because they don't deserve to know. power to emma"

#p #i'll tell miles obviously that boy never did me wrong #i mean i'll have to tell my family eventually bc i want to get them presents lol #tbh i also feel like they broke my trust like crazy and they need to see that i honestly don't trust them to tell them now #i'm worried i'll tell them and they'll try to talk me out of it or something #or make me feel bad for going more likely. and i'm just so fucking sick of that. it's so horseshit #all this guilt tripping and pressure to do things this very specific way it's so suffocating #and it does hurt not being able to share things with my mom but she also did this to me. like that's a fact she didn't trust ME first

[mymarifae]

after all this time i still can't predict how mayor holiday will be characterized

because like. i feel like all the fanon versions of her where she's stoic and serious and gruff are like... not right?? queen is supposed to reflect her. right. like that much is painfully obvious

... none of those adjectives apply to queen????? now ofc she could be mayor holiday's total opposite to highlight the differences in their approach to mothering noelle - i'm not discounting that or anything because i literally do not know. it's just that's not necessarily the vibe i got

queen is cheerful and silly but very pushy. very demanding. she expects a lot and doubles down and really puts on the pressure when people don't meet those expectations. all with a smile! like. i feel like the fandom saw rudy say noelle's mom is hard on her and saw the thing about her keeping her office frigid cold and automatically assumed she's a cold person who only knows how to frown

you don't have to be stoic to be a strict parent. you can be all smiles and be more demanding and controlling than the gruffest most stone-faced parent in the world. and like... we saw that when it comes down to it, queen is more than capable of dropping the silly antics and jokes and she can and will get serious. she doesn't need cages or control plugs or an army or anything but herself and a few well-placed threats. which reminds me of when alphys said hometown's cops (ugh) don't really do anything because mayor holiday takes care of it all.

i think... maybe. she used to be a little less strict and a little more genuinely lighthearted. but after dess disappears, she drops that lightheartedness. she gets really, really serious about turning hometown into a safe place and making sure noelle is strong enough to like. Survive.

but she does it all... with a smile! after all, every politician's got to have a dazzling fake grin, right?

#and you know after seeing mafuyu's mom come to life. stoic serious gruff mayor holiday is Nothing #it's easy to tune out your parent's expectations if they're a bitch about it. but if they're 'nice' and 'gentle' #and they insist it's what's best for you... and they never seem to give you a choice or room to say no because why would you? this is best. #that's where things get to the point of haunting. looming over your shoulder. suffocating your will to live and replacing it with theirs #not that i think mayor holiday will be abusive or anywhere near as manipulative as mafuyu's mom but like #the first thing you think of when you hear 'she keeps her ac on all the time so her office is freezing' is like. #again. that gruff stoic serious harsh character. that's not very interesting #flip it on its head. show me a mayor holiday with the brightest smile sitting in that freezing cold office. THAT sends chills down my spine #also off topic but thinking about noelle and the holidays in general again made me start thinking about the damn dog burglars again #i am STUCK on their story about the beast who attacked them outside the mansion. like what the fuck? WHAT WAS THAT ABOUT TOBY? #it wasn't susie. it probably wasn't mayor holiday herself. what was it. was it dess?? does it have something to do with THAT mystery?!?!? #if the next deltarune chapters don't elaborate on that at all i'm setting myself on fire

[blogalreadydoesntexist]

every and any time that tom mentions hiccup or one of the riders/past events are mentioned, 8 years are taken off my life

#watching them bring up dagur made me physically ill im not joking it gave me a headache #STOP FUCKING AROUND GOOD GOD I HOPE THE 'riders' SUFFOCATE #minus alex shes not an embarrassment to her name thank god #sag and writers strike needs to keep them from making this show permanently #wait till they bust down the studio doors and find out that its an ai writing these episodes #how to train your dragon #dragons the nine realms #rant post #shorter rant post #short post #my school finally gave me access to the courses today so i wont be actually posting for a while #have this hatred towards dogshit in the mean time

[hella1975]

listening to call your mom rn (god it feels wrong spelling it like that)

gripping u by the shoulders. this song is everything to me.

#OKAY STORYTIME THAT NO ONE ASKED FOR: #do u guys remember that girl that was basically my bi-awakening and we had the very stereotypical #intense homoerotic friendship that traumatised the both of us? yeah her #well basically i still have a lot of love for her and we're still friends like she's in my hometown friend group so when i talk about them #i still mean her and out of our entire group she's the ONLY one who didn't go to uni and me and my other friend spoke recently #about how unhappy we know she is bc she got abandoned by us in this awful hometown and we dont think she loves her boyfriend #so much as she stays with him bc she literally has no one else until we come home her life is literally just waiting for us between terms #and i worry about her all the time and one thing that happened a while back was she did drugs w this one guy by the river #and she completely whitied like it was just weed but she was 17 and had never done it before and turns out she's like me #where edibles just do NOT agree with her on a good day let alone when she took as much as she did and she was with a random boy #by the fucking WIER (basically a big dangerous waterfall) and we were all at our mate's house that was a 40 min walk away #and she RANG ME. i was the one she rang. that still sticks with me. and omg it was so scary bc she was so out of it on the phone #and all i managed to get from her was that Something Was Wrong (didnt know what) and that we needed to pick her up #so we did. we got on bikes and fucking RACED to this girl and we picked her up and in the end she asked for her mum #and i was the one to take her to her mum and knock on the door and stand there with her daughter's arm around my shoulder #barely conscious her sick on my shoes and explain what happened. like WHAT #& yeah basically i still have so much love for that girl and i know she struggles with shit hence why that even happened in the first place #and it's like. im still here. i still love you. i'll call your mum. i'll come and get you. just ring me and i'll pick up. stay on the line. #so yeah this song did unimaginable damage the first time i heard it. literally gives me chills and transports me to my 17 year old self #we were young and didnt know what we were doing and the town was suffocating us #AND WE WERE BOTH DROWNING AND DIDNT KNOW HOW TO SAVE EACH OTHER BUT THERE WAS AN UNDERSTANDING THAT WE WERE DROWNING TOGETHER #ask #noah kahan

[angorwhosebabyisthis]

one thing i was not prepared for when i started this rewatch of sdmi has been for it to finally sink in how absolutely heartbreaking daphne's whole deal is. this poor kid, man

#sdmi #scooby doo: mystery incorporated #daphne blake #abused kid with zero self-worth: casually; gruesomely self-harms in the *second episode* unprompted to get an extra clue #me: 😰😰😰😰 #someone help her please actually god #i know it tends to get overshadowed by people being annoyed by the Obnoxious Het Teen Drama and all; and i get it #but like. that's a major manifestation of her *larger* deep-running issues; sexism and misogyny have shaped how she tries to deal with them #and it kind of sits less and less right with me these days that of her and fred #she's the one whose issues get dismissed and ignored with 'i don't care about boring hets so i'm not gonna bother 🙄' #whereas fred's issues which his involvement in that subplot are an expression of get explored and taken seriously #and treated as Tragic Best Boy Protect Him #(which by itself i don't have a problem with! he is very dubious and fucked up but he's also really tragic and likable) #especially since he's a *catalyst for or outright cause of* a lot of the heartbreaking stuff that happens with her in the series #i understand he has issues of his own and the misogyny is a manifestation of his own abuse history; that toxic masculinity has harmed him #but it is a plain and simple fact that he is a misogynistic abuser toward daphne in sdmi. like. he just is. that's a thing #and i think it is. revealing. that of the characters involved in the Annoying Het Subplot(tm) #it's the man who is a perpetrator of misogyny who's considered Worth Exploring the Tragedy of Despite the Annoying Het Subplot #and the girl who is a victim of misogyny; in ways her entire life is shaped by and suffocated in; is fair game to ignore the tragedy of #and the way the most i have ever seen her get in the show or otherwise on that front is #She Deserves a Better Boyfriend and to Be Confident in Herself Hell Yeah Girl Power #and not 'the way this kid's parents talk to her in the car outside the college is a punch in the gut to watch' #........bothers me. it bothers me. #anyway #misogyny cw #abuse mention cw #abuse apologism cw #self-harm cw #SDMItag

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#truly i have too modes. so fucking busy i cant breathe. cant think without a muddled lag. feeling motion sick as i walk #a path ive walked a thousand times over. or not busy enough. without thr pressure i revert to a liquid state and spill across the floor #i cant seem to do anything. at least when im busy i cant feel how miserable i am. at least for a little while bc i have to focus #idk how to find a balance. it always seems to be all or nothing. outside my control but directed by my control #ugh. after the month ive had the misery's caught up with me. also i havent been sleeping enough #i felt horrible all day in the lab ans i was like. i mean maybe its low bloodsugar? but then when i went home i felt 1000 times better #which is. ya kno understandable but not great #idk i can just feel the anger leaking out from under my skin. ive made the system unlivable. now im suffocating on the echo of pain #and i feel bad bc it must b all over my face. bitterness simmering in my words #i met with my boss today for a delayed meeting of a delayed meeting and showed her some preliminary data. she was excited and asked what i #felt abt it. and i dont feel anything abt it. nothing. i dont care i dont care i dont care i dont fucking care #set my datasheets on fire. burn them to ash. i wouldnt feel anything #and im sure some of that sentiment came thru bc she later texted me to reiterate how cool the data is bc no ones done a study this #extensive ans i dont kno how to reply bc again i dont care. theres no breathing enthusiasm back. that dim light has been extinguished. i #look forward to never having to think abt it again. #whatever the more pressing issue is that i cant get my brain to function enough to save me from the other problems i have boiling over #just me sabotaging potential future happiness from where i sit unhappily in the present #annoying. ugh i need to sleep. #unrelated

[hymnoire]

♣ + gaya and evan tbh

Gaya and Evan, Buenos Aires, Summer 2024.

        A secret polyamorous relationship : they don't really fit the expectations their families have for them. Evan doesn't want to walk into the steps his father. Gaya neither, she wants to stand on her own. Money, power, heritage, get married, have kids : that's not for them. Are we ... Deviant? Or are we like, fucked up? Like there's no way out for us? It takes a little bit of exploring and questionning for Gaya to understand that she only feels good with her lovers. Evan, he's so free and she becomes a little more free when she's with him. It turns me on when I watch you kiss him. Do it again. She whispers to him with eyes she only gives to them, the lobe of his ear in between her teeth. What we do here, they can never know.

       Send me ♣ + a ship and i’ll tell you…

Who is the better dancer?

Evan is the better dancer, especially due to his hispanic heritage and being a stuntman as well. He is naturally at ease in his body, fast on his feet, comfortable. He makes fun of Gaya for how stiff her dancing is : waltz is so boring. In the summer in South America, they dance on the beach. Gaya moves well, too well, she is suave and moves her hips perfectly to the rythm. "When did you get this good?" He questions. " Maybe I've been taking classes behind your back to outdance you and well, prove you wrong." She says wrapping her arms around his neck, pulling him closer. "God you're a maniac." He says. " Mmmm I knowww." She with a grin as she kisses him.

Who likes the outdoors more and who likes the indoors more?

Evan likes the outdoors more, in fact he's constantly : in the outdoors! If his skin is used to the sun and he gets this beautiful tan that Gaya likes a lot - Gaya on the other hand has a very sensitive skin and often wears caps whenever outside with him to protect it. Gaya enjoys the indoors more so she can have all the privacy she needs when its just them.

Who’s a cat person and who’s a dog person?

They both a dog person. Evan is confortable around them and they are comfortable around him as well. Gaya is into big dogs, the Kangs have many dogs they go hunting with. Yes, she likes Big Scary Dogs (grrr) - but often ends up with Navi snoozing on her thighs, that's Evan's bunny.

Who’s more social?

Evan is definitly more social, in fact during gatherings, people naturally go to him to talk to him. Gaya does have her fair share of handshakes due to her being the Kang heiress but conversations with her turn shorter. "Ugh I feel... Silly caring about that but. People don't really like me, right? I can tell. I feel out of place, sometimes. You're just so good at this - I'm not." She would confide in him. "Nonsense. Come on." He would tell her while bringing her into conversations with him, helping her feel more comfortable.

Who makes the bed every morning?

Housekeepers would usually make the beds but since their relationship stays away from the public eye, Gaya takes care of it and she tidies the room.

Who likes to keep the house cold and who likes to keep the house warm?

Evan likes the house warm as he lived in warm places meanwhile Gaya never turns up the heater. She complains a lot about it at first, Evan turning the heater on all the time : "Ugh WHY is it a Billion degrees in here? EVAN? EVAN?!" Yes she is annoying but she soon understands with the room being this hot, he walks around shirtless which is one of her favorite views. "Yeah you know what, Nevermind~"

Who takes longer getting ready?

They get ready together but they always end up getting distracted, sometimes they even mess around a bit while undresssing each other so it takes literally forever to get ready.

Who likes scary movies and who likes funny ones?

Evan being curious and talkative often talks during movies no matter what genre it is, questions regarding cinema in general or the themes picked in the movie, or theories - Which Gaya loves and replies to all the time, they can have endless passionnate debates while matching a movie which would annoy anybody watching it with them : " Can. You. Both. Shut the fuck up." Their friends would say.

Who screams when they see a bug and who ends up killing it?

None of them scream.

Who is more technology challenged?

None.

Who would be more likely to burn something in the kitchen?

Gaya does not know how to cook to save her life. However, the less they let help and housekeepers interfere into their lives as they want their privacy the more she watches Evan cook for them in the kitchen. "Can you stir that for me?" He asks when taking care of something else yet when he returns 5 minutes later : it's half burned. "IT WAS JUST A STIR GAYA-"

"YOU DIDNT SPECIFY THE SPEED NOR THE DIRECTION OF THE ROTATION OF THE STIR- HOW WAS I SUPPOSED TO DO ALL THAT??"

Who talks in their sleep?

Gaya talks into her sleep and it's usually very concerning, death threats towards everyone she knows. Evan listens, well, concerned but perhaps as long as she doesn' say his name it's fine......

Who leaves the cap off the toothpaste?

None? It's not hard to close the goddamn toothpaste.

Who likes getting dressed up more?

They both don't necessarily overthink the way they dress nor are addicted to clothes and appearances in general. But hey obviously both have their own styles and the effortless vibe to carry it.

Who’s better at tying ties?

Gaya takes care of tying Evan's ties whenever he wears one for a formal event, she likes doing so. They often chat when she does.

Who recorded the answering machine message on the house phone?

They once recorded an answering machine message when being completely wasted and they 100% forgot about it until someone who called tell them. "Guys... About the answering message on both of your phones... What was that about?" And they suddenly remember they did That. "Fuck-" "Ok so for how long..."

Who’s better at planning romantic things?

Evan is. He doesn't necessarily plan "things". Him being spontaneous actually simply lead them to share simple times together in places that happen to be romantic : on a roof, in the grass, after a long drive, in a foreign country, on a beach. He cannot stay still and so whenever she follows him, adventures naturally follow and it does feel romantic.

Who takes up more space in the closet?

They both take so much space in the closet due to the tons of clothes they receive from brands. Also Evan's clothes are a little more fun than Gaya's who mostly wears woman suits, a lot of black and white even though she has pretty dresses. Sometimes she would grab one of his shirts to lounge in them. She looks a little more gentle , a little solfter when she wears his colors.

Who has more of a sweet tooth?

Gaya has a sweet tooth but doesn't admit it so whenever he happens to order a piece of cake or whatever, she pretends she wants to "taste" but ends up eating all of it.

Who drinks more often?

They both drink often as they often celebrate or often attend events and gatherings. They also have parties on their own, in their hotel rooms for example and like to get tipsy and have fun.

Who is most likely to laugh during a serious situation?

Evan is. Which causes Gaya to tell him to Be Serious. Gaya is Oh so serious however, he clearly has a positive impact on her which causes her to laugh as well when he starts laughing. So in the end, it's both of them laughing.

#龍 : 𝐤𝐚𝐧𝐠 𝐠𝐚𝐲𝐚. / the heiress. #FIRST OF ALL #THANK YOU FOR SENDING #SECOND OF ALL I'm into them hihihihihihi #LIKE #Gaya is a cool girl - BUT. Shes sooo stuck up when trapped in her family duties it's suffocating her and turning her inner light off #So with Evan she's a little bit more like Fuck It and free #Out of her shell #He's out of the boxes #She wants to be out of the boxes with him #LOVE THEM #As usual I threw hcs and dialogues because i love doing so - no godmod intentions just having fun feel free to tell me if I misused things<

[soupflowers]

all the backlash and criticism alicia receives for deciding to break up with leighton is racist

#textp #tslocg #white lgbts pls shut the fuck up #leighton is literally my fave mc and she was not in the wrong for not being ready #but alicia literally acknowledged that leighton isn’t ready #which is why she decides to end it #IDGAF a woc never needs to sacrifice her own sense of self and happiness #to be the emotional crutch of a white woman #tatum is better for leighton for where leighton is at in her life when she meets tatum #but alicia was also good for leighton #or at least as much as she could be considering leighton wouldn’t let them be seen by ANYONE #like let that sink in #not just not to her parents or the school #literally not a single person in the entire world knew about them #and that isolation is SUFFOCATING #fuck all of you white lgbts for villainizing an asian lesbian who was just doing right by herself #and ppl who are mad abt alicia’s dating profile bio being petty… #i genuinely do not see the big deal #the profile was not meant for leighton’s eyes to see #and alicia just had to go thru a traumatizing experience of being dragged back into the closet #ARGH i’m so mad

[puppys-rhythm-heaven]

rhythm heaven is perfect for adhd. it produces very much dopamine i think. maybe. what does dopamine feel like-

#puppy rambles #rhythm hell #i mean i hyperfocus when i play rhythm heaven. n usually end up not breathing for extended periods of time #as someone wisely said. in a remix 10 perfect you either fail the roll in night walk or die from suffocation #tbh in theory the medley remixes aren't even that hard. they're just so long #i think that's more so the hard part of perfecting them. they're so long and there's lots of places to mess up #if you're not good at one game it could completely fuck the whole perfect up for you #fun fact: one time i got a remix 10 perfect up to flipper-flop. then my moms came home and then i fucked it up #i can consistently get to fork lifter usually. that's when it all falls apart- #at one point i had to make myself stop holding the b-button down at the end of the flock step part #cuz it kept making me fuck up at built to scale #that may've been when i was trying to pass/superb it. idk #i've superbed every rhythm heaven game. except polyrhythm 2. my moms had to do polyrhythm 2 for me #and its grading is wack so they superbed it #my moms are great #i got bon odori stuck in their heads from playing tengoku gfgfgfgfbf #i should play tengoku more. gba sp don't have headphone jack tho 😔 #and it's my mom's and she doesn't want me to play it in my room or anything 😔 #also i say tengoku but it's silver. it's the fan translation. the fan translation #that inexplicably has the official nintendo seal on the cartridge vfvfbgbv- #no i'm not kidding it seriously has the official nintendo seal on the cartridge. i have no idea why #that's one of my prized possessions btw. alongside owning a physical copy of fever and a physical copy of ds #i got ds with its box and manual for like $70. i have the box displayed hgvgvgvg-

[pepprs]

also.. Like ok not to double post but i can’t stop thinking abt how in one of the trainings someone was talking abt how kids Back Then didn’t hang out w their parents all the time and just kinda had their own lives and it was just understood that once you reach a certain age you’re able to make your own choices and you don’t have to stick w ur family all the time. it’s not that i want my family to disown me or throw me out or anything but i just uhhhhhhh. i think being sheltered like this has fundamentally irreversibly damaged me and i feel like im living in a pit of quicksand. like i want to get out of the house but not with you. ykwim

#purrs #i was supposed to be home alone all evening on friday and i was very selfishly looking forward to that. and then my mom changed plans in par #part bc i think she didn’t feel comfortable not having me there. and now im being dragged there and it’s like.. i have things on my mind and #things i need to do to even GET myself to the point where i can make decisions like most early 20soemthings in entry level positions can do. #and instead im being dragged on a family outing and guilt tripped abt it. and its dumb to complain abt going on a family outing for a lot of #reasons but it’s like.. girl i literally do not want to spend time with you weekends are so short and precious AJD i do not want to spend th #them suffocating in the middle seat and having to act excited and smiley and pose for pictures. i HATE it. and i don’t have to be livingt #this way but it’s so fucking hard to take the first steps to do something different. i feel so trapped and like im Gonna be stuck in thisnho #house forever. like can i skip to the part where i only interact w my parents maybe once every couple of days at most and live a #separate life and get to fully choose and enjoy life’s pleasures in the ways i want to and not have to be beholden to some stupid diet and s #standard and whatever. i want sugar and salt and oil and i want riding on the bus and staying out late with friends and going on adventures #and not always having to come home earlier than i want to and i want a room of my own and a cat and peace when i choose it. pain 😂😂😂😂😂😂 #delete later

[blueslight]

👎

#I domt think I made it clear enough to my now ex girlfriend that I broke up with her because she is absolutely unbearably clingy #and now.i feel guilty that she didnt get it cuz like until she realizes that all her relationships are gonna fail cuz any normal guy would #lose his fucking mind at her and anyone who WOULDNT would probably use her depedence to abuse her and like. I know that and i feel.bad for #evidently not making it clear enough to her #cause like also even now shes still being clingy with me ....and i find myself unable to set proper boundaries cause I dont wanna be mean #and them im morally unhappy with myself. but like then again i DO set boundaries she just doesnt respect them . and then I lose my #composure and get mean and thats even worse cuz i dont wanna be mean to someome as fragile as her but like. Shes suffocated me so much im #in the mindset of a cornered injured animal . and they bite #and it frustrates me that i cant react organically to her cause i always have to keep quiet and not protest even when she really crosses #my boundarjes cuz i dont wanna upset her #and she even said herself that even now im the omly.person she wants to talk to and i told her several.times to go talk to our other #friends cuz how am i supposed to comfort her about her breakup WHEN I DID THE FUCKING BREAKING UP.. #plus I dont want that like i dont want the sole responsiblity for her social interactioms and emotional support just because shes #got unhealthy attachment behavior and refuses to get therapy .. #and like now its like well i domt wanna be mean or hurt her even more but also I dont wanna comfort my ex ABOUT *OUR* FUCKIMG BREAKUP that #is 1. fucked up EVEN THO we are still friends like id.comfort her about other stuff but how does she not realize that this wont. help #and 2. it gives me fuckin war flashbacks to my last relationship which just activates my injured animal instinct even further #and Idk why i cant set boundaries w her cuz i can do it well with other people but she just paralyzes me somehow w this stuff EVEN THO WE #GET ALONG WELL WHEN WERE LIKE NORMALLY PLATONICALLY INTERACRING #idk man i just need a fucking breather like i understand breakups hurt and i was anticipating giving her space until we can properly be #friends again (which we agreed on wanting) but like #Its not gonna get any better for her if shes constantly interacting w me #and on god her attachmenr to me isnt entirely healthy AND I DOMR WANNA SUPPORT HER UNHEALTHY BEHAVIORS but i also dont wanna be constantly #like acting on a meta level thinking whats besr for HER instead of just acting on instinct ...

[aquarianlights]

✨️ I just kind of want to die rn. ✨️

#im srs tho #i feel fucking terrible #im still coming down from anesthesia and im so fatigued and tired #if it were not for echo i would take an overdose rn and be done with it #except for the fact i am horribly scared of respiratory depression #suffocating is one of my worst fears so... #i just really want to get a gun #ik my girlfriend has lots of guns #im not legally allowed to have a gun and idk how to find them on the black market #but since my gf has them... ive been thinking about it... thinking about waiting until we live together and waiting until echo passes #and then I'd have no issues just... taking one... it's not like I'd be keeping it or using more than one bullet #im sure she would forgive me and id write a note anyways #notes* rather... addressing multiple people personally with her being one of them. id apologize for using her gun but where else would i #get one? she is the only person ik who has guns coz her family is a hunting family. #oh well....that's been on my mind ever since i found out she has guns and also really wants us to live together. i always thought if one #were in the house with me that it would be so easy to use when i feel like this and just get it over with #instead i hesitate because i dont have the right methods... and i end up feeling okay or better later. only to come back to suicidal later #so a gun would be best i think... that way i can take care of it in the moment and get it over with. i just need a gun to do it. #unfortunately my girlfriend is the only one ik who has them so... it's gonna have to be hers #that's a long way off though. echo is only 9 years old and his breed lives into the 16-18 years old phase. i wont leave until echo is gone #depression #sad #sadness #suicidal #suicide #crying #pain #upset #personal #depressed

[a-freak-gasoline-fight-accident]

GOD ok like. my brother n his fiance bought their 6 month old baby....a kitten. she posted a video on fb and the baby just grabs this tiny creature by the scruff of the neck and drags it towards her open drooling mouth.....

#personal #wth goes on in ppls brains. she's gonna kill that animal. also if my brother thinks he can dump this new cat on me when he gets bored of it #like he did his last one i'll key his car. litchrally can't understand why some women have babies just bc their sisters or friends do. make #them all have 'play dates' together when they're not playing just sitting n drooling on things in the same vicinity together. why do they tr #try to create the 'perfect little family' but do it in the worst most impulsive n half thought out way #where does the compulsion come from #she's gonna throw that kitten at a wall one day. or roll on it n suffocate it or stick her finger in its eye out of a passing curiosity #that thing is a toy to her #the worst part tho is her Mum Friends leaving comments like ITs So CuTe or ThEH boNnd bEtWEEn A GirL And heR cAT is SO mAginCAL #she's fucking trying to EAT IT JDBJSBDGJGJG #did you NOT watch the same video i did?!??