#so I’m pretty exhausted lol

[chillbean3210]

@lotftober

Days 4-7

#artwork #lord of the flies #lotf #it took me so long to complete this #I wanted to participate in this for quite some time but I was so busy #finally had some free time and drew all of them to make up for the missing day #so I’m pretty exhausted lol #I’ll try to participate as much as I can #drawing #ralph lotf #simon lotf #jack lotf #piggy lotf #i need a break lol #my interpretation #of the boys #read the book in school and then saw the prompts on tumblr #I wanted to color it but was too tired #will probably update it later with color #in the meantime enjoy the way it looks now #if there’s any mistakes I’ll fix them later #digital art #original art #my art stuff #art #first time drawing him

[persephoneflowerpetals]

Persephone: *just came home from spring and is passed out on the bed, snoring loudly and drooling in her sleep*

Hades:

#literally one of my favorite Hades pics lol #like he really said 😍 #but fr even when she’s utterly exhausted Hades still finds her so attractive and pretty lol #also I’m so exhausted from work and have to work 6 days in a row this week (and before my birthday too 😖) #so safe to say I got inspired lmao #hercules movie & series au #disney #hercules #hades #disney’s hercules #persephone #persephone oc #hercules oc #disney oc #self insert oc #hades x persephone #persephades #persephone x hades

[jess-abides]

Happy Monday

I’m 🙂 grateful 🙂 all 🙂 the 🙂 fucking 🙂 time 🙂

#me #tbh I like the vibe of this album but I feel like I’m too old for it lol #this song is growing on me tho honestly might make it onto the menty b playlist #aaanyway was at the gym at 6:15 this morning and I’m exhausted #didn’t go to bed early enough for that shit #but I got my lifts done and finished w 1200 stairs by 7:30 so I feel pretty accomplished 😌 #started a new program month w my trainer today - phase 5 bitches #who would have thought #he also asked me for my weight/inches lost so he could brag abt me to his other clients 🥹🥹🥹 #he’s so proud and it was validating at just the right time #bc ur girl is tired and my brain is fighting me a bit #but I’m not fking stopping #wow talk about a tag rant lmao ily if you read all these #Spotify

[fandomfairyuniverse]

Okay that’s enough emotional turmoil for one evening I’ll do the last 3 eps tomorrow

#i’m exhausted #and I have work in the morning lol #also I’m pretty sure the next couple of eps are going to make me cry and I’d rather deal with that tomorrow #so good night my loves #pit babe #pit babe the series

[woundedheartwithin]

#yakuza #yakuza 8 #I might be behind on this #it’s been a pretty rough day and I’m exhausted #so I’m blaming it on that if this has been posted before and I just didn’t see it lol #I dunno kinda cute he wants the fans to come up with subtitles of their own for this one #eta all the folks in my notifs like imma still call it by the number #uh yeah of course #nobody out here calling y6 Yakuza 6: A Song of Life #but it’s cute that yokoyama wants folks to use their imaginations to come up with their own subtitle #use your imagination guys c’mon

[voiceshearingyouloud]

I was feeling extremely suicidal today, like the worst I have in maybe four or five years now, and I was deliberating over whether I should go to the hospital like pretty much all day and now that I feel better I realise that the moment I started drafting my suicide note in my head was probably when I should’ve decided that 😭

#it’s so hard to think logically in the moment though; and I didn’t want to worry my dad or my partner #even though me killing myself would hurt them more obviously lol #I’m glad I feel better though #finally at like 5pm after doing all the chores and getting dressed and making meals and napping and going outside and exercising and calling #people and watching my favourite things #and none of it made even the slightest difference #(and I was drafting my suicide note) #I was like alright I need to do something about this because I’m gonna get exhausted and lose the fight pretty soon #which is always how my suicidality has been #I’ve never made a plan I’ve just come very very close to being worn down by the constant obsession and just giving in #which is hard to explain to ER nurses! #anyway. as soon as I decided that it instantly was like a cloud went away so that was weird as hell and I still don’t get it but at least I #don’t want to die as much anymore! #I’m seriously good now; like just normal sad and tired #but it does scare me that it took me so long to decide to go to the hospital #cause that was really cutting it close for a while there 😬 #I don’t trust myself to get it right the next time. but hopefully I’ll remember this and just go #anne speaks #now I’m just dying over how hilarious it was that I was literally drafting my suicide note and still was like hmm I wouldn’t want to worry #my partner so I don’t think it’s wise to go to the hospital. #like girl?? what??? #suicidality tw #tw suicidality #suicide mention #suicide tw #tw suicide #all the trigger tags cause this post is pretty graphic lol #but anyway I’m totally safe now #wouldn’t want anyone to worry if you’re the type to worry about this #:-)

[goldenhypen]

guys help i actually dk what to do 😭 do i stay up til past 2 am for the cb? or do i go to sleep? 😭

#the dilemma 😭 (speaking of enha lol) #pls 💀 #but what should i do 😭 #my fomo is pretty bad when it comes to this kind of stuff #but i also danced for 5 or 6 hours today and so i’m exhausted 😭 #so stay up til 2 am and scream here w everyone about the new mv and album #? #but then i’d wanna stay up til like 5 am to watch the showcase 😭 #or go to sleep and just wake up early 😭 #i could wake up at like 5:30 😭 #i hate timezones 😭😭😭😭 #help 😭 #em speaks

[fissions-chips]

Thinking sad n’ angsty thoughts tonight-

Post-TEC Jon still hooks up with Valentine on occasion (given the state of things, he has no other solutions to his loneliness, and he can’t bear sitting alone in the Needle all the time).

And it’s one thing for Jon to wake up to an empty bed in the morning, to sit and smoke with someone who wants nothing, really, to do with him at all- it is another to sit in the lap of a man and let himself be kissed and touched, all while Valentine whispers of how he’s going to kill him. How he’s going to hurt him, the second the cameras finally shift their unblinking eye- how no one, now that Jon has done what he has and finally snapped, will give a shit.

Such a startling, saddening dichotomy. In earlier days, at least there had been some pretending- now, there is none, and Jon sits there and wonders why he tolerates it anymore, and knows deep-down that it is because he doesn’t think he’s worth any better.

#I’m sorry lol it’s been an exhausting rough day so I am throwing angst on Jon to make myself feel better #i was mostly thinking about this in the context of Post-TEC Jon eventually meeting Evil Tim and Butler and given what he’s been dealing with #- it’s partially why he ignores so many red flags but really… this fits Jon in general post-TEC. it’s a pretty low spot for him emotionally. #when he was more powerful and had more confidence he wasn’t inclined to take verbal abuse but post-TEC he can’t really find it in him to #- care anymore. it’s just kinda… expected. Valentine is so incredible enraged with him he doesn’t even bother to hide it behind closed doors #idk. angst! sad shit. i just think the mental image of that kinda thing is pretty tragic. #angsty shit

[carpathxanridge]

yall help which boots should i get for school… i need a basic black boot for wearing in the fall, walking and biking around campus, that’s also stylish enough to wear to casual gigs (musician). danners are twice the price as solovairs and idk if it’s worth it, especially because i also need to buy full-on waterproof, insulated winter hikers for the midwestern winter. but i’m not sure if the higher back ankle on the solovairs are gonna bite me in the ass…

also if i get the danners i’m thinking of getting them in this dark brown to match this dark brown shearling lined leather jacket i’m also considering…… but idk if i’ll regret it because i don’t own a black boot at all, rn i own brown chelsea boots and black oxfords which are both not suited for even moderately colder weather. so straight up black would be a more versatile basic.

but i do think this rick brown with the orange seams and laces is so sexy……

#i have $4k saved up to buy like pretty much any supplies i need for school #my only big purchases i need to make are these boots the winter hikers and a new bike #even the jacket mentioned is nonessential but i’m really worried about being cold lol and my new down coat is too long to bike in #but i don’t want to exhaust my savings if i don’t have to so #hmm

[wickershells]

God I am so debilitatingly sad and alone I don’t know how to deal with it all again. Just endlessly miserable

#vent incoming you know the drill. scroll scroll scroll #my periods of silence are getting inescapable i am struggling to hold conversations and see things as they are #i really dont know what to do with myself i feel useless and spent. and i dont want to talk because nothing changes anyway #i cant stop wasting all my years. so much of my youth spent doing nothing being nowhere with no one #i wish i was exaggerating but if you didnt know i developed agoraphobia at 18 (pandemic). it has taken so much from me lol #including pretty much every friendship i had. and what few vestiges of my sanity were left. maybe i should go back on my meds #but how many times am i gonna do that. go off and on and off and on meds #it’s so sad because i’ve done almost nothing with my life and the crushing weight of that causes me to continue to do nothing and i could #break the cycle at any point but i don’t because the pain and guilt of having not broken the cycle and not being worth anything is soooo #exhausting. more than anything i’m exhausted all of the time. but i don’t feel like i deserve to be exhausted because again --almost nothin #i pray to god you guys filter me out by now. now that i have discord again i should do that thing where i vent to myself in a lone channel #being severely mentally ill is so embarrassing like i knowww i knowwwww it’s all in my head. and yet #mine

[deklo]

ok well. i’m ready for winter now

#ready to decorate my cute little place sooo cute n pretty #but i’ll wait because i have a lot of good fall/pumpkin stuff out that isn’t necessarily halloween lol #BUT IM READY #also ready to not be sick anymore i’m going crazy #i need to go for a walk but as far as i know i’m still v contagious and also get so exhausted #and i’m surrounded by only hills lmaoo

[harrylights]

made it!!!

#y’all don’t even understand how exhausting that was omg #i had to bring all my camping shit along w me which required two suitcases and a backpack #one of my suitcases is so fucked i basically had to drag it the 6 blocks uphill from my last bus and ofc that’s the one i put all the #heavy shit in i am SWEATING #my forearms are burning i can honestly barely even type rn lmao #i’m gonna go buy a better one tmrw bc i am NOT DOING THAT AGAIN WTF #anyway i’m in vancouverrrrr get to relax tonight and then run around tmrw w errands #AND THEN ITS LOUIS DAY #HOLY FUCKING SHIT #i was smiling like an idiot pretty much the whole way over #listened to my playlist of 1d bangers #still am lol #anyway love u all mwah #rowyn rambles

[intruder-time]

Hello!!

*bear hug*

*I explode into a burst of confetti*

#Hello :) #I’m feeling particularly silly today #might be because I’m tired #I’ve just moved house so it’s been pretty exhausting lol #thanks for the ask! #intruder speaks #the mandela catalogue #tmc #tmc intruder #intruder tmc

[god-of-a-thousand-demons]

Replaying first p4 dungeon like god I miss the Fox I need to HEAL

#og #Destiny p4g replay #fox posting #cant wait to finish all the quests this time #kinda wish futaba had quests it’s fun #I went pretty hard I’m already level 30 it’s so easy on easy I love it #me loving p4 so much like actually this game is prettt easy to 100% lmao p5 KILLS ME to replay it drags so much sometimes ughhh #I love p5 but it gets pretty stale I’ve experienced is lol 5-6 and am exhausted by some of the original problems that persist every time #I experience the story #I love p5 I swear but I didn’t for a long time for a reason #p5 made me so mad the first time #I played omfg

[deus-ex-mona]

i’m just. so tired… _(:3 」∠)_

#tifu by falling asleep while standing up at work: the musical #i had a really good 30 min nap on the train back though. i just hugged my bag and slept on a seat. i pretty much blacked out right away lol #exhaustion from moving places + light insomnia from the fear of oversleeping thanks to an overly comfy bed = deluxe exhaustion!!!!! #plus i was extra tired yesterday from moving 3 huge bags from my old place to my new place (and nearly toppling over more than once) #sooooo yeah. lol. i’m super tired. sorry for the tling inactivity folks. am i still cute enough to be on your dash~? (lol) #fr though… low energy + low motivation + high exhaustion + no wifi :( = no tling activity on my end. sorryyyy #i think i’ll be able to get chapter 1 of yui’s event done over the weekend (provided the wifi actually works) so there’s that #ig i can just catch up on p5r in the wifi-less meantime? lol? see y’all this weekend ig~ #or maybe earlier than that if i can find the energy to tl the vol 3 bonuses of mona’s manga… aaaaa there’s so much i wanna doooooooooo #if only i had the wifi </3 and the energy </33 and diD I MENTION THE WIFI— #inedible blubbering

[aeide-thea]

the problem with having semi-fixed my sleep schedule is that now there’s all this day i hear i’m supposed to do things with???

#the learned helplessness is SO bad i’m just like. sitting here blankly #it’s a LOVELY blue and green and breezy day #76 going up to 78 #probably i should go on a bikeventure but the prospect sounds so exhausting lol #even though realistically the nice thing abt biking is like. if you get tired yr already sitting down #anyway usually i try 2 draw a bit of a veil over my total hideous uselessness #but i think like. if i can’t even admit to it anonymously on a site full of other strugglers how am i ever supposed to face or tackle it #and if you guys think poorly of me for it‚ well‚ it’s not like you’ll think anything more cutting than i’ve already thought abt myself #actually probs what i SHOULD do is finish changing over the tires on my bike #i got gatorskins last summer and swapped out one and then didn’t do the other‚ lol #and i’m pretty sure the remaining bontrager tire is like. FULLY punctured in spots at this point #could also stand to clean and relube my bike chain… might just cheat and use the combo product again lol #probs none of this would actually even take THAT long but i keep putting it off out of laziness #anyway am currently supervising feline yard exploration but like. could in theory multitask #slash eventually she WILL want to go in for lunch #but yeah tl;dr having even yr most harmless impulses hypercorrected from childhood on… #WILL eventually mean you stop trying to direct yr own life‚ or even being in touch with yr own impulses #you heard it here very not first #and when eventually the ppl controlling you either die or run out of preconceived hoops to chivvy you thru… you’re just. there. drifting #🍃