#so miserable that it's 1am

[strandedcrow]

i haven’t drawn in like a century but i was watching the prequels and decided to Try practicing so here u go

(version without the reference screenshot under the cut)

#i warmed up trying to paint a photo i took in tokyo and oh my god i barely got any of it done it’s such a massive photo #uhhh i put my full legal name on this bc it’s in a fandom i have No connections w #like in terms of the community #i HATE painting faces this is most likely extremely obvious if you paid attention to my art before but this time ! i tried #and it made me miserable but like i tried #also i’m posting this at 1am so when it flops i can blame it on the timing thank u #uhhh #my art #star wars #anakin skywalker #i guess

[akkivee]

my flight’s in like, two-ish days pls provide my inflight entertainment 🥺👉👈

#this is vee speaking #my art tag is ‘vee is arting’ if you want a point of reference (tho don’t go too far back lmao) #i’m in a precarious situation with that flight lol it’s at 1am but i land in nippon around 1pm so if i sleep #there’s a chance that i become jet lagged lol and i have things to do the day after lol #so hopefully drawing will help me make good napping decisions lmao #if you decide to make me miserable i endorse your decision lol idk what you could say are my style traits tho

[phant0m-l0rd]

my version of the Automata (Petit Brabancon) album cover~

(ballpoint pen sketch, digital art)

#listen i know the EP hasn't even come out yet but I've been obsessed with the single Miserable for the past few days #and I really like the new album cover and the whole cyborg aspect so I wanted to draw an album cover inspired by that concept #but going back to the dog theme of the band which I was sad to see absent this time around #anyway it's past 1am here and this happened #petit brabancon #automata #petit brabancon automata #kyo #京 #dir en grey #fan art #fanart #digital art #alternative metal #music #artists on tumblr #lisa's art #my first time drawing a dog 😭 what i do for the bands i love

[motions1ckn3ss]

me (an ex-christian, watching the epilogue/finale of les mis, taking a drag on a cigarette, professing): wow. almost makes you wanna convert

#to love another person is to see the face of god #it's 1am and i have so many thoughts #les mis #les miserables #textpost

[milkweedman]

Working a surprise 11 hour shift (was supposed to be 6 ☹) so i decided to just try and fit as much yarn on these spindles as possible today.

I also brought some of the combed southdown as a bit of a treat.

I spun the first nest in about 20 minutes, so ive only got another hours worth of this color prepped. Since theres such a small amount of dark and light fleece compared to the middle gray color, i think im just going to spin those separately for accent colors.

I also really want to test the difference of how fast i can spin on a spindle versus my wheel. I know the wheel is quite a bit faster, but... how much faster ? Just havent had time to check though.

Also--i can finally spin without looking :D but only on my supported spindles. Ive been doing it while watching the store and chatting with customers while the card reader takes 1 million years to procsss their payment lol.

#happy with my spinning #but my right hip has been dislocated all day #and it is so miserable to walk on #so that is unfortunate #i turned the counter fan on in an attempt to counteract the cold sweats from. so much pain #is kinda working. not much. eugh. #at least i don't have a migraine yet #but yeah im here till 1am :( #handspun yarn #spinning #supported spinning #bfl #southdown babydoll #hand combed top

[violaeadde]

should i quit my job

#classic post to make at 2:30 am #i’m just. miserable #i worked so much overtime right before christmas (like starting at 9 ending at 1am kinda shit) #and it was like okay well that was a really terrible few weeks but at least it’s over! #and then today i had to work till 9pm. #we’re just so understaffed. since i started here last sept we’ve had 5 people rotate through my team and i’m currently the only member lol #when i joined this team i was the third person!! i was 3 of 3 and now im by myself!!! #and it wasn’t so bad in the summer tbh but that was like 2 months out of the entire year lol #literally since last november it’s been like things are busy but we’re working on getting some help so it will be better soon! #i just feel like i can’t keep up and im tired and im cranky and im angry and irrititable all the time #and it was taking like a genuine physical toll before xmas like went to bed feeling so shaky and awful #anyways i’ve tired myself out here in the tags so im gonna try to sleep again but know that in my heart i had more to say #personal

[bravevolunteer]

one thing about me is i WILL yap in replies. and that is a promise

#i would love to be the guy who does quick back and forth short threads but i am a grade A yapper to my core #sometimes i'm contained. but usually 😶 #why exhibit restraint when there are so many little things to point out either for contextualization that only i care about or WILL make me #violently ill huh! it's fun! #anyway it is. 1am. wind down time #will probably finish the movie novel tomorrow at least lmao #⁂ ･ﾟ: i was looking for a job‚ and then i found a job‚ and heaven knows i’m miserable now ➛ ooc #im yet to figure out what my weekend plans are. i've been TRYING to make gift exchange/new years plans but awaiting a response from #one person is keeping the whole thing in the balance lmao #haven't seen friends literally all break and as much of a sit in my room person as i am i think it's giving me brain damage

[guinevereslancelot]

so messed up when you, a chronic sleepy girl, love sleeping, and you actually have time for a good long night's sleep but then you can't sleep. what's up with that

#took a sleeping pill at like 1am and kind of slept but then woke up again at 5am and couldn't go back to sleep :( #even tho i don't have to be up until 9 #im dressed and everything just sitting in bed with nothing to do #my kitty is glad im here but she would be more glad if i was sleeping and didn't get up to get dressed and eat #anyway i have been so exhausted lately i forgot i have chronic insomnia but this is bad even for me #esp bc i have plans all day so i WILL be sick and miserable by the end #anyway. at least its a rare good hair day #but why am i awake

[buglaur]

Um hi! I’m confused? I just read through all the McMahon legacy which I loved! (Theo and Clair are 🥰)

But who are the Calloways? Do they have a legacy? They are good looking pixel people.

hi there! i'm so glad you enjoyed reading the legacy!!

the calloways were twins, cillian and cathal, i did a bachelors challenge with, and i'm only realizing now that there's no link to it on my blog 😅 i hyped it up for like 3 months to only post about it for a week and a half ☠️☠️

you can read it from the start here: https://buglaur.tumblr.com/tagged/bc:calloways/chrono

from there i created the whole family and now they just live in my head and appear in random cas posts from time to time. i would love to do gameplay with them sometime but i just don't have the time sadly!

#i am so sorry about how miserably i failed you all with that bc jfc #bachelor gameplay is just not for me i guess #i had to force myself to play it and that sucked all the fun out #so i stopped to save myself from hating the game and characters #gonna update my blog to include a calloways section soon #also.... no legacy tomorrow sorry #today was a shit day! #and tomorrow will be too! #hoping to get some relaxation time on friday but other than that i want to #erase this week from my memory #ask #its 1am i have to get up at 5 GOD help me

[apathyfairy]

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#tonight or tomorrow morning actually is the 4 year anniversary of my dog dying and like surprise surprise lol im still not over it like. #i honest to god dont think i ever will. i honestly dont know how people move on and get other pets and just. keep on living like i #understand it like for some people it's part of the healing process but i just could never do it. like i just cant even fathom #i dont know that's not the point. the point is im having such a hard time because everytime i do anything tonight i keep thinking #4 years ago i still had my dog or 4 years ago in 5 hours i didnt know id be going to the vet at 1am and going home without my dog at 5am #and i just keep reliving it no matter how hard i try to not. and on one hand i want it hurt like i want to remember it just to punish myself #i just i just cant move on like it's just. i went 24 years of my life without ever experiencing death and then 4 years ago today my dog dies #in the most tragic possible way ever and then 11 months later my other dog who i had for 17 years since i was 8 dies and yeah still #not over that one either because i never let myself process that or truly grieve her because i had to shut that up real tight #or i would have lost it for real. and i have the most fucked up miserable tragic dreams about her so many nights a week #because she was old and had been u know. like old dogs do they just decline and that was impossibly hard to watch but at least i kind of #knew it was coming u know but like with my other dog. there was just absolutely no warning it was so sudden and it just ripped me apart and #i honest to god will never be okay again and then 6 months after all that i find out my ex died and only because after 6 years i finally #Finally decide to have the guts to talk to him again and apologize and explain and try to be friends and then nope he's dead #then in between all those deaths a super close family friend died and my grandpa my dad's dad died and like it's just #i had never even experienced death before and then all of a sudden i was engulfed in it and i just dont know how to come back from it. #but tonight is just. painful. like i havent even said his name out loud since it happened. i cant talk about him at all just writing this i #want to cry like it just fucking hurts forever. and it should i guess. #and i feel so stupid because so many times i wonder if my cat even remembers them and i wonder if she misses them too and idk #that makes me feel stupid and emotional and im just a wreck but i should be.

[caruliaa]

yk i think like. im trying desperately not to depress people around me w how close to doomerism i can veer but like. at a certain point its like. the effort and exhaustion that goes into maintaining just being alive in this world is not worth what comes from being alive and like. girlies we may have reached it. el oh el.

#like obvs its different for everyone like. what i really mean is that i have reached it or like. tht was always inevitably the case #for my life. which ik feels really depressing to say nd im sorry tht it makes ppl sad but idk like. its just true at a certain point #absolutely not from a lack of trying from the good things within my life to be clear not at all like. ik have sm great parts to my life #tht like. just mean so so much to me and im so so lucky to have but as upsetting as it is to say and think abt #at a certain point having to choose between being trapped in a situation were you can never authentically exist or like #have any control over your life and exist on your own terms even in v small ways while having to constantly be around people whove #caused you so much pain and trauma and hurt and being is a situation were like. at best your constantly working to afford living and you #are constantly exhausted by this and have no time for being yourself anyway and at worst you just cant afford anything and you die #and that could happen to you at any point idk like. these are my two options and i cant change anything about that fact #no matter how much i want to and that feeling is just. so so crushing and inescapable and just idk i dont know how to deal with it #like. idk iv done everything to try to but its only ever a temporary distraction #bc the problem isnt fucking like. mental or emotional its the facts of my reality and that cant be changed #so ofc im going to be constantly fucking miserable things just. are misearble #and idk. im sorry tht thts something other ppl have to deal with when it comes to like. knowing me bc genuinly its like. #they dont deserve that its sm pain for somoene to deal with and if that someone isnt. somone whos come to term with what #my fate invetiably is like have ik its too much nd im sorry for like. putting that on ppl i just. idk im sorry #idk what up with me suddnely. i mean i do but like. idk why i cant just hold it together like. this has always been the case idk why #im letting it upset me sm suddenly . ig bc i let myself have hope at some point. like an idiot. #idk im sorry. and its nearly 1am so i think im just going to go to sleep.im so sorry for just. all of this. #lucy if your reading tihs im so sorry for not sending and answering asks but i want to say that i love you so so so much. and im sorry #flappy rambles #vent #ask to tag

[spnkakashi]

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#i think me and my bf are gonna break up #and its 1am and im at work so i cant even cry #😍😍😍 #loving life #not to mention my shitty boss who is making everyone miserable #mine

[kaeyaphile]

fingers crossed that the wind calms tf down so we don’t have to deal with another outage, especially considering the temperature is going to be down in the low teens with the wind chill at like -10℉ 🥲👍🏻

#kayleigh.txt #i had a panic attack at like 1am last night #and have been having a prolonged anxiety attack ever since lmfao #i am... exhausted and miserable and stressed #i am going to stay awake though because i need to take advantage of this time #i am going to write and read and relax #we got the woodstove going earlier so if the power does in fact go out again we’ll have heat #we couldn’t get it to start last night because the wind kept blowing all the smoke right back down the chimney and smothering it #hopefully the wind won’t smother it this time if it’s already going 😬🤞🏻 #HOPEFULLY we simply do not lose power again ugh #hopefully the worst has passed for us central new yorkers!!! 😭 #this wouldn’t even be that big of a deal if i didn’t have any godforsaken reptiles #but they are SO sensitive to temperatures and can’t get cold #they also can’t get hot lmfao #so every time we lose power i just... absolutely mcfucking lose it tbqh #like the rabbit and the 5 cats? idgaf they’ll be fine with just the heat from the fire in the one side of the house #but my three geckos and seven snakes... they’re the real issue #i adore them to bits but jfc they’re high maintenance and stressful af lmao

[vampean]

why do i have to parent a grown woman -_-

#i hate my moms friends so much #they’re all miserable functional alcoholics and keep dragging my mom into it #a whole grown woman and i have to BEG her to lmk why she came home at 1am when she left for gym at 12pm #i once called her to ask her where she is bc i was worried and after we said bye she didn’t hang up and heard her complain about me #to her friends too 😭 called me annoying and all that 👍🏻

[bravevolunteer]

do you think normal horror rpcs will let me in if i talk about how fnaf is all about cycles to me

#[deranged] yeah so these badly written games are actually all about the cyclical nature of tragedy and- #i just. feel so weird thinking about following cool n pretty blogs i see on my dash i feel like i’m too far in cringe territory LMAO #WHICH. THEY ARE SILLY. AND I LOVE THAT #but also oooo i just rotate michael in my mind detached from so much of the bullshit aaaaa you wanna write with his au’s i compel you #anyway it’s 1am. i need to either stfu and queue things or sleep LMAO #⁂ ･ﾟ: i was looking for a job‚ and then i found a job‚ and heaven knows i’m miserable now ➛ ooc